#-love of it to so many people. in my life and online

[hindahoney]

Hello everyone.

Some of you may have noticed I went completely inactive for many months. I did not check my messages or notifications, and I deleted pretty much all of my social media except for this one (though I'm not sure why I kept this, maybe because I put so much work into it and met many amazing people here.)

I guess I'll update you all about what's been going on. I've been accepted to my dream law school and will be attending in the fall. For work, I was fortunate enough to be flown out to NYC for a symposium on antisemitism. I have picked up several new projects that, once the research is published, will hopefully provide some helpful insight into the state of contemporary antisemitism. I am also helping to edit some books for a professor and scholar of Holocaust/Antisemitism studies. Taking this break has been incredibly beneficial not just for my productivity, but also for my mental health.

I realized I needed to re-formulate my relationship with Judaism, separately from antisemitism. I want to love being Jewish not out of a reaction to being hated, but because it adds meaning and value to my life. I'm happy to say that this approach has healed me in many ways. I also noticed that spending time on here made me significantly more bitter, angry, and depressed. I didn't feel that with this mindset I could add to productive conversations around Judaism and antisemitism.

I don't yet intend on returning, if ever. I just wanted to update you about why I went missing for so long. I shifted my advocacy to the real-world, and am happy to see my efforts being realized. It is much more productive than arguing online, and makes an authentic and observable difference.

If you have room in your prayers for one more name, please keep Gili Adar in your mind. She was my friend who was murdered at the Nova festival. She was only 24.

Chag pesach sameach. Am yisrael chai.

[lorynna]

Andrew Tate, a huge hypocrite, is the perfect example of: create the disease, sell the cure." Now, let me explain.

Tate starts off with his webcam business. He openly admits on camera - filming and releasing the footage himself -, that not only is he purposefully manipulating girls, making them fall in love with him (he himself calls it and actively uses the term "lover boy method" as a descriptor) but then also convincing them to work for him as cam-girls, telling those women that they could get rich together if she would simply start instrumentalizing her body and sexuality. He continues to explain in great detail how exactly he emotionally abused those women, lied to them and used several manipulation tactics on them. But I'd rather not mention all that here, since that would open up a whole new conversation and take too long to fully dive into this.

He also admitted on camera that he robbed them of about half of the money those women made "working for him" and then states and I quote: They thought they were on 50% and I said that the despair of the money was because of taxes."

He continues to talk about men "falling in love" with the women he recruited for his Webcam business which were selling their houses, spending all of their life savings etc. in order to pay for the cam-girl services and he commented on those men's actions saying," give me all of it" admitting he didn't at all care for the lives or fates of those men. Tate built his whole empire on being a pimp, which he defines as and i quote again" being a positive, inspirational, motivating person", exploiting and extracting money from lonely, depressed, porn-addicted men.

Now something might start to click. But isn't he a known advocate for those exact men? Telling them that porn consumption is bad, to get their health and depression in check, recommending going to the gym and preaching about how much he hates prostitutes?

He's an advocate for men's suffering and problems? After he caused so much damage to them, making money off of them, taking advantage of them and furthered their misery? The irony.

First he scammed those men, taking their money with good conscience, now he is an advocate for them, making them hate the kind of women he himself manipulated into this, talking about how bad porn is, when he literally owned a webcam business. And don't dare to come at me with "but people change, maybe he learnt from his mistakes".

For now I just recounted why he's a huge hypocrite but now let's focus on why he is a huge mysognist. He has said many things I don't even want to recount, including but ofc not limited to him demonstrating how he'd hit a women in the face that would "misbehave" and not "listen to him" and I have also unfortunately personally seen the video footage that is going around of him beating up a woman with a belt.

One example out of his many many statements so I can further lead on with this text: He further talks about his webcam business, saying "the only girls i couldn't recruit, were girls who had rich parents. Because they're like: Oh, but I don't need that money, my parents are rich! Girls are gonna get their Luis Vuitton bag either way." Implying how all women are superficial and only rich parents prevent a girl from being a "hoe". He got his fame and money from the same women he continues to publicly shame now.

He damaged women and men at the same time, yet there's still people, mostly men, defending him saying "yeah, but he also sometimes tells things that are true!". I appreciate your intention to differentiate and trying to filter through the many bullshit things he's said just so you can cling on to a single true statement.

Even the worst person sometimes has valid points, but that doesn't mean that we can just overlook the things he did in the past and the overall harm he has caused and is STILL causing.

Aside from all of this stuff, Tate continued to deny many of his statements he himself posted online before, showing massive double standards. It seems like he just tries to profit off what's giving him the largest, most uncritical fan base and by targeting incels who love to follow and hear an "alpha male" talk about how "all women are bitches", fueling their anger due to being rejected by women, he seems to have found a goldmine.

He promotes harmful, misogynistic views on women, promoting toxic behavior towards them and is imprinting on the minds of young, impressionable, vulnerable men.

If after knowing all this, you're still a defender of Tate, you might be just as bad as Tate himself.

#feminism #internalised mysogyny #radical feminists do interact #radblr #radical feminism #radical feminist community #radical feminists do touch #andrew tate

[fiendishartist2]

happy birthday care and paul

#my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #petscop #carrie mark #petscop care #belle leskowitz #petscop belle #lina leskowitz #petscop lina #i had to look up cars from the 90s and work off of like 1 picture of the back seat of a honda accord lol #but anyways happy birthday care and paul!!! this series means so much to me and im so happy that ive been able to share my- #-love of it to so many people. in my life and online #ive made it a tradition to rewatch petscop on halloween with a friend whos never seen it before #and each time i find more and more things to love about it #petscop is a growing organism. so theres more to love every time i come back to it :)

[crabussy]

IS ANYONE ELSE FEELING KIND TODAY!!! IS ANYONE ELSE FEELING GENEROUS TOWARDS OTHER PEOPLE!!! IS ANYBODY ELSE BEING KIND AND TRYING TO UNDERSTAND EVEN WHEN ITS HARD!!! IS ANYONE ELSE ASSUMING THE BEST OF OTHERS INTENTIONS AND RESPONDING IN KIND!!!! CAN ANYONE HEAR ME

#having a day ^_^ #I love being kind I just wish other people loved being kind more #people on the internet are SO FUCKING MEAN TO EACH OTHER???? its a terrible phenomenon #I have never seen people in real life treat others badly with the horrifying proportion of hate I see online #please. try to be kinder try to be more patient even when its frustrating #I have changed minds and deescalated arguments SO many times by being kind. #if someone is spouting misinfo in a furious rage and they're saying hurtful things? try responding with patience and kindness #even when you don't feel they deserve it. because one of 2 things usually happens #EITHER. they immediately shift their tone because you're talking to them like an equal and not an idiot #OR they continue to be horrible and it makes them look really nasty. its not a good look!! most people won't do the second thing!! #hateful online arguments has turned my mental health into a disgusting stew in the past #since I started being kind out of sheer frustration my mental health has improved a thousandfold #listen. sometimes its okay to be mean. if someone tells you to kill yourself I dont think its appropriate to give them patience and kindnes #BUT. if you treat someone like they're stupid. even if you're right!!! they won't listen to you or consider your words!! #because admitting you're right means admitting that they're stupid like you think they are. that feels bad so people won't do it #my wisdom. today I am so tired

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

Finally catching up on the Horizons episodes I missed 👍

#fluff binges !!! #I've missed out this one and the one from last week that I'll watch once I settle my work for tonight--mainly due from a whirlwind on my en #even if it were just for two weeks I missed these sillies sm 🥺🥺🥺 #Diana was finna gonna murder that man you gotta respect that #I think I saw online that not that many people liked this episode because of the main concern that Friede usually saves the day #I do get that though I actually really enjoyed this episode because I think it's one of Roy's best battles (aside from the top one which wa #--the confrontation with the explorers in Diana's hideout) #he got a couple hits in and even thought to send in Wattrel when he realized that he'd get an advantage up in the air which was so so good #the kiddos mainly fumbled this time 'round because they forgot about the foongus/didn't have another mon to counter it #(maybe Hatena could've countered but Liko still needs to learn How to use her in battles--she does want to help though !!! with how she #--moved that shovel on her own - which I thought was a nice lil indicator of a possible battle highlighting her in the future) #I loooved that moment at the end with Diana showing the dude his true self through Bronzor's reflection that was actually very sweet #so yeah it's a simple ep but an enjoyable one - I think people gotta chill with constantly wanting peak sdkjfskndjfs #loads of Horizons content are focused on character moments and a slice of life feeling to everything which is something I love personally #this is a nice breather after the insanity of the last arc methinks hehe #anipoke #pokeani #pokemon horizons #diana pokemon #arcanine

[swordsonnet]

sorry but saying that the accessibility needs of mentally disabled people are just preferences or about "comfort" is blatantly incorrect. if i can't enter a building because the bright lights and loud noises would send me into a meltdown, then i can't enter the building, and that's not less important than me not being able to enter a building because it's not wheelchair accessible. if you genuinely think that mentally disabled people aren't really struggling, and that it's okay to mock their very real concerns, then that just shows that you've been refusing to listen to their experiences. do better or shut the fuck up.

#yeah yeah i know i said i wouldn't post about this stupid fucking 'discourse' anymore #but i keep seeing takes that make my blood boil #physical and mental disabilities are two sides of the same coin! yes there are differences but also a lot of commonalities #but nooooo expecting people to have even an ounce of fucking compassion for those who dont share their exact lived experience #is too much to ask for i guess #i've said this many times before but gatekeeping and infighting will get us nowhere #throwing your fellow disabled people under the bus won't help you #i get people's anger - i have a lot of anger too as someone who is housebound with a physical disability #but other disabled people arent your enemy #and taking your anger out on them is just a dick move #especially if you do so using the same ableist 'its all in your head' rhetoric #that mentally disabled people have had to put up with since forever #disclaimer: obviously not all physically disabled people act like that. from what i can tell its just a small (but very vocal) minority #but it's pervasive enough to make me wary of online spaces for physical disabilities #which is kinda sad seeing as i have a physical disability myself and would love to connect with others #but i'm not super keen on being told that my autism (which has significantly impacted me my whole life) doesn't matter

[opera-ghost]

me laughing at the same jokes i’ve heard 1000 times every time i listen to/watch a recording of phantom

#and i swear it gets funnier every time! #was dying while listening to an audio today #(it was specifically nehal joshi during the il muto ballet) #(i could not stop laughing and i couldn’t even SEE him it was just his delivery) #(ugh he’s so funny i love him) #poto shitpost #also side note im about to go on a tangent #but my phantom hyperfixation runs so deep and i have so many thoughts about it #i have at least 100 posts in my drafts about it and i’m not exaggerating #they’re mostly silly memes but it’s still like an overload of posts about phantom #and i’m like. insecure about how much i think about it???? and how much of my headspace i dedicate to it???? #so i keep the bulk of the memes/random posts in my drafts because i just feel weird about posting so much #i really could post about it 24/7 if i didn’t have to be a Person with Tasks #and idk i think im just hyper-aware of how i present my interests in daily life while offline #i am someone who hyperfixates and obsesses and while i could talk about phantom for years i am terrified of annoying people with my interest #i’m worried about being perceived as weird so i kind of flatten myself to make myself more palatable for others #which has me being insecure about the things i’m passionate about and how deep that passion runs #and these feelings have bled online to the specific space i have created as an outlet for my passion #like it’s my blog i shouldn’t be censoring my love for a thing that brings me joy #but my fear of being othered is like. overtaking me. because there are many things that i can’t change about myself #that categorize me as an ‘other’ (sexuality identity mental health etc) #and this is something i can control. i can control how i portray my personality #so i flatten my personality to compensate for the other (perceived) weird things that can’t be changed #idk i just shouldn’t feel the need to do that here bc pretty much everyone on here is super passionate about something #like obsessive about it #and that’s what i love about this site with all its faults. like this is a space for people to come and Be Weird and Act Strange #and everyone just accepts it #and also the phantom community in general #why should i water down my love for phantom in the one place where people can understand it and relate to it??? #hit the tag limit but i’ve come to multiple revelations while typing this lmao

[zabiume]

god_i_wish_that_were_me.jpg

#on a serious note i love how so many non-fandom/new fans like her and are confused by the massive drama re: anything she does #it's really refreshing and makes me not feel insane for being in the trenches from 2012-2016😂 #on one hand: am i embarrassed about how chronically online i was? yes. #on the other: am i embarrassed about defending orihime & the girlfriends of former one direction members from hate? not really😂 #i was a Girl Defender and girls girl my whole adolescent life and it's the only thing i'm proud of about myself from that period lol #anyway YES people hated her and they all cried many many tears as her panel time kept increasing <3 you just had to be there idk

[leezuhh]

it's crazy to me that there are people out there who still think that media and fiction do not affect how people think at all

#like that whole 'does fiction affect reality?' debate is so stupid to me cuz it's like #i mean just think about it for a second. what is propaganda? what did jaws do for people's perceptions of sharks? #i think studying the effect that popular media and fiction has on people in real life is really interesting #and it's crazy to me that there are people on the internet who think that it genuinely doesn't #like umm shoutout vit sisler for his paper 'digital arabs' i just read it for my game studies class and it's super interesting #about like orientalization how western shooter games' usage of middle eastern/muslim stereotypes as enemies created both a negative - #- stereotype for people who arent in that group and how it negatively affects the mental health and self-image of the people who are #also shoutout stuart hall and richard dyer they're really cool people and also have some super interesting papers on how representation - #- in media affects people's IRL perceptions of certain groups #i know online this focus tends to lean on that whole shipping discussion but i think it's more worthwhile to look at it on a wider scale #because 'does fiction affect reality?' is not just a 'fandom ship war' discussion it's like. the basis for many fields of study #anyways umm #liza post #actually this is more like a #liza ramble #i love tumblr bc i can write a one sentence post and put my body paragraphs in the tags #it's really late and i am tired ‼️ i wish i could be more concise i just adore my game studies class and visual culture studies in general

[cathalbravecog]

i'm the antonymph of the internet

#how many tributes to this song will i make in my life #MANY ! it literally changed my life and means a lot to me. i love antonymph and vylet pony's music is worth checking out - please do. #unsupervised internet access as a queer neurodivergent kid anthem !! #i chose to do misty since we all know i like drawing her in experimental pieces and putting her in outfits. she also has art in a gir hoodi #from the clash team in treasure trove!! :D #this is also experimental/stylistic as well!! had fun!! nice to just draw something in one day and not worry. leaves me tired but... #haven't done a nice piece like so in one day in a while!!! i'm very proud :] it's a fun one #anyways... both a little tribute to the song and misty as a character #ihave so many thoughts about misty even if i dont talk publicly on them. shes a very interesting character to me and i care about her so #much. i compared her to fluttershy in the past - and realized that if i liked ttcc as a kid she would've been my favorite. #fluttershy on her own meant a lot to me as a child. including mlp itself as it's one of the core things that got me into drawing art online #a lot of my analysis on misty and headcanons at least on the more emotional scale do come from a bit of projecting but...it makes it more #fun to me when i can put myself into the shoes of a character like her who i already relate to. rrghh too bad im scared to talk about her #too much in nuanced detail in public since some people are... not so nice about her. though i know the tumblr audience is nice and unders #standing!! #anyways from me just having fun being me #i let misty have a little bit of fun... something i think she would possibly enjoy? i do see her as someone who gets nostalgic #and is stuck in more childish things and matters. she wants to play ip dip with you...its very sweet to me. letting myself and her be #confident through a song that means so much to me is kind of powerful to me. i had a lot of fun making this drawing. #anyways. love this song. love ttcc. love mity /p. be swag and be self indulgent and have fun. you can do anything u want forevah #toontown #toontown corporate clash #antonymph #guz art #rainmaker

[hollow-indigo]

decided I should practice drawing Cyn

#hollow indigo #Murder Drones #Murder drones Cyn #cyn murder drones #I could go on for ages about how much I love her #she’s so silly fr #her hair is a little weird to draw though #took a bit to get the hang of it especially in my style #also I drew the eyes with detail specifically because I hold grudges and I haven’t forgot the “ACKTUALLY THEIR EYES ARE OVALS” guy #at this point i’m just typing to type #no one is online right now so I don’t have many people to talk to. #i’m sure you know the feeling #the devastating life of being nocturnal while all your friends have normal and comparatively healthier sleep schedules 😔 #you’ve probably had to click “more tags” by now or whatever that button is #here’s a hint for my wannabe cryptic arg: I changed the title of my ask page.

[corpsentry]

lofpapte. lifepate. life update

taikopilled or whatever the kids say these days. hitting drum all the time. desperately in love, or whatever the kids say these days. consumed with emotion. bursting at the seams with language. almost through to the end of the semester and look at these cool earrings i made will you do you like cool things do you want some earrings

#unironically selling them for 35$ a pair i had them at the cherry blossom festival today but #no one bought them!! they are cowards!!!! #anyway #here is my obfuscatingly vague blog post of the day #or year actually #much has happened and much has been discovered and SO MUCH CRYING #and HEARTBREAK and DESPAIR and HOPE and stuff #i cannot tell you all about it but i can draw a comic and i Will. mark my words #come the summer #which by the way i will be spending in australia playing taiko because that is the path i have chosen #life updates #i love you all and miss you dearly. i would be an Online guy except i am emotionally destroyed for both good and bad reason #too many wonderful people in this world. what can i say

[possiblytracker]

gods wettest saddest most pathetic creature wandering despairingly through long cold airport corridor to find exit after dropping off beloved friend and grappling with the realisation that this feeling is going to recur throughout the rest of their life forever and ever but maybe the incredible lifechanging love and companionship they have and will get to experience along with it makes it all worth it now and for the future. even if right now in this corridor it still hurts like a motherfucker

#i had a more serious version of ghis post but this is better i need to be funnie #IM OK I WILL BE OK. THIS IS IT THIS IS WHAT IT IS TO LOVE PEOPLE #ISNT IT SO SO COOL THAT I CAN LOVE PEOPLE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD AND THEY LOVE ME TOO EVEN IF IT IS SAD SOMETIMES #THE JOY​ OF GETTING TO SHARE BITS OF MY LIFE WITH PEOPLE LIKE THIS EVEN MOMENTARILY IS WORTH ANY DESPAIR TENFOLD!!! #I STILL NEED A MINUTE THOUGH I AM YET TO ADVANCE PAST THE ERUPTING INTO TEARS AT RANDOM INTERVALS STAGE. GIVE ME A MINUTE #(i left the corridorlike 5 hours ago some details may be embellished for dramatic effect) #like yes this will happen again with many different people probably i have a lot of life left to live. but isnt that fantastic #i need a fucking job so i can roadtrip next time i get to travel maybe ill speedrun this shit with more of yall/J/J #i am going.to bed tho i will feel better tomorrow #im feeling weirdly inspired to reach out more and fix my crumbling online social life before its a wreck but I am a crumbling wreck rn #who has been up since 8 #and needs a goddamn nap

[danscetteminiworld]

GYATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT😩

IF I WAS THE GIRL WITH HIM ID NEVER STOP IM DOWN ON MY KNEES FOR THIS MAN

2D

MI WUD DO WHATEVA DIS MAN DID TELL MI FI DO

MI A PRAY MI A DI ONE WHO A KISS HIM AN MI NUH CARE DAT HE A 40 SUP'M Y.O. MAN

LAWDDDDD MAKING ME SPEAK PATOIS

LET ME GET A CHANCEEEEEEE PLEASEEEEEEEE 2D AND YOU'LL NEVER REGRET IT PLEASEEEEEE ILL DO ANYTHING YOU ASK PLEASE STUART PLEASE I LOVE YOU

Sorry for disturbing the peace guys, have a good day <3

#gorillaz #damon albarn #i have nothing to do with my life at all so im going to bother people online #2d #i love this #how many hashtags can I add? #i love him #stuart #stuart pot #stu pot #stuart tusspot #I CAN BE A BETTER MUCH MUCH BETTER THAN THAT STUPID HOE PAULA CRACKER #love this #this is so beautiful #omggg #i love you #i love them #i love her #i love frogs #so shaped #stop it #bye #okay #JESUS CHRIST HOW MANY TAGS CAN I ADD #WEEEEEEOOOOOOPPPPP #LALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALA #i wanna be fucked #sorry mother #i love 2d so much i wanna suck his dick till he cant breath #sorry please dont ban me

[heraldofcrow]

I’ve been reading more Eileen centric fics lately and I swear, every time Bloody Crow is the vague background villain that she’s hunting for the entire fic, he’s depicted and especially described as this unhinged serial killer type demon that leaves a trail of mutilated corpses in his wake and murders kids for fun and is the ultimate terror of Yharnam’s foggy nights that WILL hunt you for sport and bathe in your blood.

And I love it and eat it up every time, but I’m starting to get why I may seem a bit whacked in the head for obsessing over him as hard as as I do. I totally forget how much 90% of the fandom hates the guy for being so difficult and hurting Eileen and how they just see him as this monstrous thing because of that. Like yeah, I understand. Not everyone sees him as a scrimblo or whatever. There may be something wrong with me.

#it’s a funny contrast for me because even Alfred isn’t seen as such a maniac by the fandom #so many people love the guy #but Crow is seriously hated and demonized #i mean yes my sadistic ass loves it #but it’s also hilarious because i’m online like #“he is my poor meowmeow babygirl blorbo that has done so much wrong in his life but i forgive him because he is my trash son” #and everyone else is like #“DEMON MONSTER THING CREATURE THAT EATS CHILDREN AND I HATE HIS STUPID FIGHT WTFSHSJSK” #i’m still trying to convert you all though #kuyuan converted me with his tragic art so it can be done lads #in the meantime shoutout to my…three other bloody crow fans 👍 #we’re in this poor state of mental health together 🖤 #bloody crow of cainhurst #bloodborne #CrowNotes