#who has been up since 8

[possiblytracker]

gods wettest saddest most pathetic creature wandering despairingly through long cold airport corridor to find exit after dropping off beloved friend and grappling with the realisation that this feeling is going to recur throughout the rest of their life forever and ever but maybe the incredible lifechanging love and companionship they have and will get to experience along with it makes it all worth it now and for the future. even if right now in this corridor it still hurts like a motherfucker

#i had a more serious version of ghis post but this is better i need to be funnie #IM OK I WILL BE OK. THIS IS IT THIS IS WHAT IT IS TO LOVE PEOPLE #ISNT IT SO SO COOL THAT I CAN LOVE PEOPLE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD AND THEY LOVE ME TOO EVEN IF IT IS SAD SOMETIMES #THE JOY​ OF GETTING TO SHARE BITS OF MY LIFE WITH PEOPLE LIKE THIS EVEN MOMENTARILY IS WORTH ANY DESPAIR TENFOLD!!! #I STILL NEED A MINUTE THOUGH I AM YET TO ADVANCE PAST THE ERUPTING INTO TEARS AT RANDOM INTERVALS STAGE. GIVE ME A MINUTE #(i left the corridorlike 5 hours ago some details may be embellished for dramatic effect) #like yes this will happen again with many different people probably i have a lot of life left to live. but isnt that fantastic #i need a fucking job so i can roadtrip next time i get to travel maybe ill speedrun this shit with more of yall/J/J #i am going.to bed tho i will feel better tomorrow #im feeling weirdly inspired to reach out more and fix my crumbling online social life before its a wreck but I am a crumbling wreck rn #who has been up since 8 #and needs a goddamn nap

[valeovalairs]

What a first date, hunting down strangers that are related to your mysterious past- but hey, free painting

#This drawing idea has been rotating around my brain since listening to tmagp 8 and I needed to get it out of my system #Last time I draw a full body portrait for a very long time #tmagp #the magnus protocol #tmagp fanart #tmagp 8 #samama khalid #celia ripley #do they have a ship name yet #also guess who’s all caught up on tmagp finally

[otgo-brooklyn]

Jin Ling when it's his Xiao-ShuShu who wakes him up instead of his beloved JiuJiu

#Jin Ling #Jin Guangyao #Jiang Cheng #mdzs #jin ling and his jiujiu #JL sobbing the minute he wakes up from his tear induced coma for his JiuJiu #JGY: A-Ling please- it has been 10 hours since you last saw your JiuJiu-- and you were asleep for 8 of them #JL having absolutely NONE of JGY's bullshit #JL wants JiuJiu ONLY #Little JL was the biggest terror in Lanling because he only wanted JC and was either catatonic or completely inconsolable w/o his JiuJiu #JC: ♫A single mom who works two jobs- Who loves her kids and never stops♫ #JL is JC's BABY #i will die on this hill #i take no criticism #lanling jin #yunmeng jiang #mdzs fanart #digital art

[papasmistakeria]

Hamish Linklater suddenly seeing a bunch of people drawing his character interact with an 8-bit pixelated blue stickman holding a cross from a video game he’s never even heard of:

#midnight mass #faith game #faith the unholy trinity #paul hill #john pruitt #john ward #hamish linklater #papas mistakeria special #also could work vice versa btw #airdorf suddenly seeing john ward drawn with the vampire priest from midnight mass #then again it's funnier if it's hamish cause he has no knowledge of technology #hamish pls never get a tumblr I will immediately delete my tumblr account if u do #imagine waking up one day. it's been 2 years since midnight mass and your character that was thirsted over faded into obscurity #then suddenly it's back cause a bunch of people who liked this 8-bit horror game decided the main character would beat up your character #i stand by what i said; if there's a Faith live action remake they should cast Hamish Linklater as John Ward #im sorry but why does hamish have this perpetual look of confusion 💀

[dreamlogic]

#chronic blogging #current emotion #post-hysto pain has been getting steadily worse over the last month & is now accompanied by near constant nausea #can't even do my PT stretches anymore bc of how bad it hurts #so on monday i finally had a FUCK IT IT'S TANTRUM TIME #and checked myself into urgent care for severe abdominal pains #which finally fucking FINALLY resulted in a referral for a second opinion from a different gyno surgeon #who i hope will finally run the ultrasound & CT scan i've been begging other healthcare providers for for months #THERE IS SOMETHING EXTREMELY WRONG WITH MY BODY AND NOBODY IS LISTENING TO ME AND I'M FED UP WITH PRETENDING #THAT EVERYTHING IS WITHIN NORMAL PARAMETERS AND I JUST NEED TO BE PATIENT FOR HEALING & PRACTICE SELF CARE #watching the urgent care PA's face journey as i explained my symptoms how long i've had them & how apathetic my surgeon's response has been #was so incredibly vindicating & cathartic. she gave me a tactful 'i don't necessarily agree with that assessment......' #told me i have already been doing everything she would've recommended & we're long overdue for a second opinion since it isn't helping #and gave me her blessing to go pitch a fit in the ER if my symptoms get any worse before my appointment with the new surgeon #i'm EXHAUSTED and i'm SCARED and it's ABOUT GODDAMN TIME someone in medicine listened to me & took me seriously #been hovering in the 4-7 range on this chart for a disgusting amount of time. now i'm locked in at 8+ and not backing down

[andi-o-geyser]

all is well as i slowly slide back into the intrest of band of brothers (2001) while i prepare to watch it for fun with my friends OH NO WHATS THIS A HYPERFIXATION ON THE SIMILARITIES BETWEEN JOE LIEBGOTT SEAN FINNERTY AND PERCIVAL DE ROLO COMING OUT OF NOWHERE WITH A STEEL CHAIR

#they have consumed me body and soul and like what the FUCK is up with that #percy's been my number 1 since i started crit role and something about sean just scratched my brain so well but then i went OH SHIT #it's liebgott too because something about an angry jew who just wants to kill nazis is so cathartic for me #also hes so bitchy and fun and full of the horrorsTM but like DUDE #i have a fucking TYPE #of favourite character like AAAAA #ITS JUST THE SAME TORTURED FERAL MAN IN A DIFFERENT SETTING AND A DIFFERENT FONT #PUT HIM IN HIGH FANTASY PUT HIM IN ELDRITCH HORROR PUT HIM IN WW2 I CANNOT ESCAPE THIS BITCH #it has been. 8 hours and i cannot stop thinking about any of them #also they're all hot. anyways- #andi's holy trinity of revenge #band of brothers #hbo war #critical role #candela obscura #bob #joe liebgott #joseph liebgott #percy de rolo #sean finnerty #andis thought geyesr

[magentagalaxies]

just finished interviewing bellini for one of my finals in my comedy class and i'm losing my mind over bellini going on a tangent about how if he were grading my comedy over the past year he would give me an A+. like i didn't ask him to say that and it wasn't related to any of the questions i asked but you better believe i'm leaving that in to be like see professor? BELLINI gave me an A+!!!

#it was very sweet lmao and a great conversation over all #last time i was in town i told bellini a one-liner i came up with about the 2SLGBTQIA+ acronym having the exact qualifications #for a strong password (8 letters a number and a special character) and he said he's repeated it to several people #and it's always gotten a big laugh!! which is so cool!!! i'm not typically a ''joke'' writer my stuff is usually character-driven #so that's awesome that both bellini AND scott really loved that line!! #bellini in particular has been such a fan of my comedy since we first met (across multiple eras now) #like we met while i was working on my musical ''other girls'' and he was so excited to hear about it when i first mentioned it #and had me send him the recording as soon as i got it #and he's been so helpful in developing aubrey as a solo sketch character too #it's so cool having a professional comedian (especially one with such a meticulously good ear for comedy like bellini) #be as excited about my work as i am and be able to help me refine it into something even better #and especially as a queer comedian today who's finding it difficult to navigate this landscape of being ''bad representation'' #bellini having been an openly gay comedy writer for almost double my lifetime is such a great resource to have!! #of course a lot of this is true for scott too (tho scott hasn't actually *seen* any of my comedy yet. he's just heard me tell jokes from it #but bellini is such a special mentor for me and i'm so happy we randomly connected over mouth congress over a year ago

[wikagirl]

I'll be honest the last time I saw buggy before the impel down arc was aaaaalllll the way back in 2009 after school during the first german airing of the first 300and something episodes which is also when I got introduced to one piece. (op didn't get a german dub til 2003 and also only very slowly until it picked up a following)

My school schedule changed then and I'd always come home way too late to catch any episodes of it until many years later when there was one day a week where I'd get home before 4pm and that happened to be just around the time when impel down was freshly done with german synchro and being broadcasted.

and uhhh it took me until today, my most recent rewatch of the show, to realize that buggy had indeed always had long hair and the blue tassles on his hat were just his friggin hair????

I'm not saying that my brain is kinda flat but it sure do be smooth like a vaseline dipped chicken breast considering how long it took me to get that.

#my brain is smooth yo it's embaressing it took me this long to notice #also I read up on buggys wiki page and according to an faq it is canon that he can split off his dick just like any other part of his body? #I am wheezing hystericly about this like...how do you fidn that type of shit out???? #then again there is a disturbingly large amount of guys who go to the er for sticking their dick into a a vacuum cleaner sooooo #dudes be doin weird shit with their junk yo #one piece #buggy the clown #this show has been with me since I was 8 #like its crazy to me that there are people who were born grew up graduated got a job got married and had kids of their own #27 friggin years can you imagine

[heloflor]

After getting into Mario with a more “fandom” kind of mindset, and more specifically getting a bigger interest in the RPG games, something that amuses me a lot are the people in youtube comments trying to argue that the Koopalings aren’t Bowser’s children.

Like, don’t get me wrong, I know Miyamoto retconned their link to Bowser. But the funny thing is, even to this day, Nintendo themselves are still writing those kids as if they were related to Bowser !

Seriously :

- In New Super Mario Bros Wii and Wii U, the Koopalings are attacking the castle along with Junior/Bowser, thus putting them on the same level of importance as Bowser and his son. The ending cutscenes do the same thing, especially the one in Wii U that just screams “they’re a family”. Plus, all the Koopalings serve as world bosses, which was kinda Junior’s role in DS, yet again putting them on the same level.

- In New Bros U, they all have their own ship. The only character to have a ship with their face on it before had always been Bowser.

- As I’ve seen someone point out in a comment section, the Koopalings are different skins of Junior in Smash Ultimate, again putting them on the same level as Bowser’s son. They might also be skins of Junior in Mario Maker 2 but I’m not sure on this one.

- In New Bros 2, they’re using a giant clown car, which is implied to belong to Bowser as Bowser and Junior are the only ones with a recurring clown car and Junior’s is too small. I doubt Bowser would let just about anybody use his car.

- On top of that, each has their own clown car in Smash.

- You know that icon/logo of his head thing that Bowser has (the one we see in games like 64 when we die) ? Bowser Junior had had one for a while now and more recently each Koopaling were given one (I think you can see them at Nintendo World in Bowser’s castle ?).

- Since they were originally created as Bowser’s children, they’re the same type of Koopa as him, and that fact hadn’t been changed in recent years. Hell, outside of Ludwig in Mario World and the fights in Superstar Saga, the Koopalings are never shown to breath fire, yet in the remake of Superstar Saga, they chose to keep the fire breath (except for Ludwig ironically enough). They could’ve easily removed the fire breath to make them more similar to Boom Boom, especially since Boom Boom has recently been shown with spikes on his shell, but they chose to keep this ability. Granted their shell plastron is different from Boom Boom, but that’s another design change Nintendo could make to set them apart from Bowser (giving them the same shell as Boom Boom to make it seem like they’re the same species, instead of keeping them as “Royal Koopas”).

In short, the Koopalings’ design wasn’t changed after the retcon, making them, Bowser and Junior the only members of that specific type of Koopa, thus implying they might be related. It’s also not helped by them having magic (which only Magikoopas and Bowser have) + being high-ranked members of the army. They might also be the only minors in the army, which raises a few eyebrows as to how they got the job (why would Bowser hire a bunch of children/teenagers to put in charge of his army ? Granted some like Ludwig, Roy and Wendy might be adults by now but I can’t bring myself to see Lemmy and Larry as anything other than teenagers).

- Saw a video of the bosses in Paper Mario Color Splash, and the minions (paratroopas) address Ludwig as “your evilness”, which is pretty reminiscent to how Bowser is called by his army, most notably by Kamek (“you grouchiness”, stuff like this)

- Baby Bowser and Bowser Jr are referred to as “young master” by Kamek. In the RPGs, the Koopalings are sometimes called “master [name]” (and “mistress Wendy”) when talked to individually. Note that both this point and the previous one are for the English version tho, not the Japanese one (no idea how they’re called in Japan).

- There’s that one Super Mario Adventures comic made in the 90s that was apparently re-released a few years ago (something like 2017-2018 ?), aka well after Nintendo retconned the kids’ relationship with Bowser (around 2012). Yet, in this comic, at least in the English version, the Koopalings are explicitly said to be Bowser’s children, with him saying he wants to marry Peach so they can have a mom + the kids calling him dad. And I don’t think they changed this dialogue in the re-release ?

- Bowser Jr’s Journey. Just, Bowser Jr’s Journey. After seeing all the cutscenes of this game, it is a crime that those kids aren’t related ! Hell there’s literally a moment where Junior pulls out the “I’ll tell dad !” card on Roy ! And let’s not forget stuff like the interactions between Junior and most notably Ludwig/Morton/Roy, Junior saying “us Koopalings” at some point thus including himself amongst that group, or stuff like him singing “I’m the one who wears the crown” making it sound like he’s saying “I’m the one chosen amongst the eight of us”. Then there’s the “family drama” vibe in the first half, the cute moments etc (Also unpopular opinion but after seeing that game, Ludwig should still be the heir of the throne. He has what it takes to be a fantastic king ! Granted Junior is still extremely young and could learn and mature.)

- Also about Jr’s Journey, the main conflict actually works a lot better if you imagine the kids to be siblings, with the Koopalings talking down to Junior because he’s the baby of the family + they resent him for taking the throne from them, while Junior is tired of his siblings babying him + he’s that kind of kid who orders the older siblings around because he thinks he has the power to do so. Them being siblings also justifies why Junior changes his mind so easily during the beach scene and then is quickly shown to be strongly attached to the others (getting happy when Iggy gets his memories back, ordering Ludwig to stay with him from now on, that whole adorable scene with Morton etc).

Meanwhile, if you see the Koopalings as nothing more than high-ranked underlings, it’s weird why they would have such an issue with Junior, the son of their king who is also their boss, and likewise it’s weird why Junior would take such issue with them only to have such a quick change of heart. Idk, I feel like if they weren’t siblings they probably wouldn’t spend that much time together, making both their whole conflict and strong bond a bit weird. And in general their interactions in this game read more as people who are widely different and wouldn’t usually be friends yet still love each other, which is the kind of dynamic many siblings tend to have (isn’t there a poll going around about whether you’d be friends with your siblings if they weren’t your siblings, and the option winning is “we wouldn’t be friends” ?)

- According to their page on the Mario wiki, during an interview revealing them in Mario Kart 8, Miyamoto used a word that means either “underlings” or “adopted children” when mentioning their relationship to Bowser (btw I know it’s the most popular headcanon anyways but them being adoptive children is just perfect. It would explain why 1. Some might be young adults while Bowser is younger than 40 depending on how old you see him, 2. Why they look so widely different from Bowser and each other, 3. Why Junior is the rightful heir).

- Also according to the wiki, the Italian and German versions of Mario and Luigi Paper Jam has mentions of them being Bowser’s kids, which I find hilarious. The translation teams didn’t give a fuck !

So yeah, when it comes to the Koopalings not being Bowser’s kids : who’s gonna tell Nintendo ?

(Side note about the whole idea of “Bowser clearly likes Junior more and neglects his older kids” : what if instead it was just that the Koopalings are teenagers/young adults now so Bowser is giving them their space + have them busy with royal duties, hence why he doesn’t spend that much time with them ? Plus, in all the examples that put the Koopalings on the same level as Junior, it’s pretty evident that they have the same privileges)

#Super Mario #Bowser Jr #Bowser Junior #Koopalings #sorry I'm too lazy to tag all 7 kids #their names are in the post anyways so if you use the search function the post will show up #Flor talks #long post #it's kinda funny how I've been into Mario since I was a kid #yet seeing more of the fandom is giving a different perspective of those characters; it's a weird thing #anyways yes this post was entirely made due to 'Bowser Jr's Journey' and how cute the cutscenes were #I legit didn't care much about the Koopalings before seeing those cutscenes; and they made me fall in love with those gremlins #(btw I don't remember when the 'us Koopalings' is but the 'I'm the one who wears the crown' is very early on #one of the last cutscenes before they leave the tutorial at Bowser's castle) #but yeah; Bowser has 8 babies (12 if you count the Koopa Kids) and I will die on this hill #(also kinda ironic I'm posting this on fathers' day)

[skitskatdacat63]

There's this nearly 4 hour movie I've been meaning to watch for a while and I was like "ah maybe ill watch it tonight hehe 🥰" and then I remember...quali is at 9 🫠

#i actually despise abu dhabi being the seaosn closer ngl #basically since Japan the race time has suited my timezone pretty well #1 am. 1 pm. 3 pm. 4 pm. 12 pm. 1 am. #<- like look at that. look at they absolutely delicious schedule #every race for the past 2 months has been at an ideal time and ive really settled into it #wow you mean i can sleep in on weekends and actually wnjoy the schedule!? oh boy! #and then they put fucking ad at the end which is at 8 am. who wants to wake up that early on a sunday #it would be fine if it was earlier in the season bcs during the middle i got pretty used to waking up before 9 bcs all the European races #but to have this one at thw end is literally horrible #its really down to timezones but fuck it really does bother me #bcs wow youve made me have zero desire to watch the season closer! thanks!! #id sooooo much rather brazil be the season closer still #like whh do you have to completely switch timezones right at the very end. its terrible #i think ill do waht i did last season and take a bit of a nap beforehand #it makes it much worse that this on a holiday wknd too. yeah bcs i rly wanna spend the last two days of my break waking up in the morning #sry im being ultra salty rn but i really dont wanna wake up for it but i hate missing race events UGHHHHHH #last yr i literally fell asleep during the first lap of AD 😭 #yeah im concerned abt if nando will retain p4 or not but...waking up before 8 am...?? #yeah idk i just rly dislike this scheduling #i actually kinda like AD as a track but its position in the season makes me resent it #catie.rambling.txt

[loafbud]

The first Splatoon game turned 8 yesterday!

#the last (and first) time i drew anniversary art for the first game was when it turned 1 year #imna use the tags to be all sappy real quick: #ive been a huge fan of the splatoon series since the first game & have played it since day one #splatoon is the first time ive grown up with a game series from the beginning #like i knew it was gonna be a successful game that'd eventually grow and become a series w/ a cool fanbase #for first/third person shooter games (esp multiplayer)- i could never call myself a fan of those #but the moment splatoon debuted in an e3 trailer??? it took a concept i'd normally go meh to- but made it into smthn colorful/unique #like??? weeks after the announcement i was already gushing over what the lore would be in their universe #it got really tiring seeing all the hate it received- id watch ppl stream it out of interest and their chat'd be like uggh this ass title? #or id watch gamers do one single lets play of it and be like oh ok i can see how this game is fun (me assuming they'd doubt it's potential) #but to see how much splatoon as a series has grown has me kinda emotional ngl #like yeah sure theres still ppl outside the fandom who has (or still has since the 1st game) sour opinions about it #but ever since the fandom grew over those 8 years- it feels like the love for this series outshines that #but man.... i said this already on twt but i remember going to my first color run event locally w/ my family #(this happened weeks before the game came out btw) -but id have my phone out with the inklings on my screen #and id look at my phone & feel this happiness (that i havent felt in a while tbh) at being in an event that had a lot of colors in it #and at the time seeing all the powdered colors flying everywhere at the end of the race reminded me of splatoon sm i was like raaaaah #WOW SORRY FOR THE LONG TAGS LOL #BUT YEAH- I LOVE THIS SERIES (thats all i wanted to say) #splatoon #splatoon anniversary #splatoon 8th anniversary #fanart #loafbud

[teamhawkeye]

"i don't care about her character that much-" then why are you tagging your posts with her name so that others who like her have to see your bullshit?

#some people really are the most annoying inconsiderate fucks on this site for absolutely no goddamn reason #find it absolutely hysterical too that i'm having to see a take that Cla/ire is 'boring' and 'passive' and has 'lack of characterization' #while then seeing A/da propped up in comparison. A/da who has never been given real agency & story outside of Le/on since her inception #don't get me wrong i like her character too but having to see Cla/ire get bashed like that and then A/da get revered is so fucking wild #i am forever pissed that 8 dropped giving A/da a storyline in it cause that would have legit been her first outing separate from Le/on #save for a like 15 minute segment in UC where it shows her escaping Raccoon before its destruction #also this person trying to push J/illxClai/re and poo-pooing A/daxClai/re while professing to disliking Clai/re but loving Ae/on... #you're not being sneaky or cute. A/daxClai/re would be the superior ship anyways they should both ditch Le/on

[hexados-on-a-string]

spectragus dont get enough credit for being a sun and moon ship but like. destructive sun and moon ship. sun and moon ship but they're the forces of nature the sun and moon actually are. the sun is harsh and relentless and unpredictable in its evil but also it's kindness, the moon is sharp and cold and cruel, a harsh light that doesn't allow you peace, but can also guide you, a light in the darkness. even on nights with a new moon, with no light in the sky, the moon is always reflecting the sun, and it'll be that way until they come to their end.

#spectragus give me a dopamine high that any sort of drug couldn't even come close to giving me #its the loyalty. its the seeing each other at their worst and still staying. #its the being the only person still around who knows and understands what youve been through #its the being so important to each other's characters that u cant mention one without recognising the impact the other has on them #i dont rlly do shipping unless its funny but also im a huge gus fan so like. yea. plus my view on romance is a bit all over the place anyway #something something my skrunkles deserve complicated relationships that are more than romantic but something else #its the trust thats the most important thing to me. trust and loyalty and devotion and #im sorry but i would have exploded if i like. didn't write down these thoughts #anyways fucked up gay people who are a package deal and that is a threat thats them #ik the majority of my posts are hee hee funnie and i usually dont take things too seriously #but these two have taken up part of my brain permanently since i was 8. like. they just live there. rent free. #i am like rabid rn. i am feral and i am insane and i am crazy and there are so many things wrong with me #i cant even write down all my fuckin thoughts there's so many my brain is going to Explode pray for me #idk if u understand how important it is to me the times they show kindness even while at their worst #they're not good people but they have people they care about and they care abt each other and that matters SO much #i take 0 criticism on my posts i only take cash. however there is no possible criticism to be made bc i am RIGHT #also this all kinda sparked from me getting obsessed with a certain kh character who has a connection to the moon #who is also one of my favourite characters ever #and if u know who it is and u also like him ur very cool #im not tagging this w character tags. im like. very shy. but #i love gus i love spectra i love spectragus #anyways see u next time where i should hopefully have art maybe potentially #i found the brushes i used to use back when i did lineless art so i am rlly happy

[nevertrulyset]

Can't believe (actually can) they brought Patrick Stewart back as Professor Xavier in that Doctor Strange movie only to have him quote himself from X-Men: Days of Future Past and then die violently like he did in Logan.

#mcu spoilers #multiverse of madness #they didn't even mention the X-Men or explain who Professor X even was #he just showed up with the 1990s animated series theme song playing softly in the background #what if someone had seen MCU but not XMCU before and suddenly here's Captain Picard in a yellow bumper car #i will say his appearance was a surprise to me because i haven't actively kept up with marvel movies since...idk probably Age of Ultron #i mean i keep up with X-Men and Spider-Man but the core MCU has lost its appeal for me mostly #anyway #it's funny to think about how Patrick Stewart's first screen test for Jean-Luc Picard was in 1986 #and filming for X-Men began in 1999 #but as of 2023 #he has been on the big screen as Charles Xavier more than he has as Jean-Luc Picard #8 movies as Charles! #only 4 as Jean-Luc! #5 if you count the IMAX release of the Picard finale episode

[zoekrystall]

Did that fav pkmn thing on a whim and I'm sorry for all my babies I didn't choose bc I really like too many by some.

Love how it's mostly pretty ones and then there's clodsire. Even tho I got it in my team since the beginning of violet do I continuously forget its name bc I just call it by the nickname blobby (one of the rare times I didn't spend hours googling the perfect nickname but it nonetheless is a perfect one)

And for fun without any legendaries as fav

Reg nicknames I even write all down so I only spend decades once for each pkmn (unless I don't like the prev one anymore). Need to update that someday since it's mostly old revolution ones but hey. Blaze do I use for arcanine nowadays more and ninetails got others. Gardevoir got soteria nowadays which I prefer more. Etc.

#a wild lux appears #(made this in december but for whatev reason left it in drafts until now. prob bc I wanted to limit non important posting idk) #Maybe you think garchomp is there bc of other reasons but I use it since dpp bc cynthia made kid me go 'woah!' #I remember having looked up as a kid to cynthia and juniper a lot and that fact n reason behind it makes me also go yeah no I was a girl wh #one day decided to be happier otherwise. Bc the reason was 'oh wow female and cool so I can indeed be that :0' most importantly with junipe #bc I never cared for battles. ye ye ignore fictional professions I was like 8. reason I loath alola tbh I missed doing non battle side stuf #I vividly remember picking my first pkmn game up (hg) and just immediately going fuck being a trainer let me be a prof and it's so funny ho #my horrendous sieve brain has that laser ingrained. Sometimes still brainstorm and I would prob study ghost pkmn tbh who by sheer luck isn' #dead yet. That and maybe being v charismatic to that type idk. Why bc I like those lil fellas. #What I also find extremely funny is having went by sonia prior to swordshield and there being a prof sonia. Wish I still went by it when it #dropped. Imagine. Kid sonia wanting to be a prof and meeting swsh sonia being on her way to be one. I either would've made her my #personality (which I think I nonetheless did I think I changed my icons to her) or would've wildly shaking her going 'it should have been #meeee'. which ig I mentally do by every rival or friend group person that takes that route like take me w you I hate battles please. Insane #that only blueberry academy me start to hate em slightly less. After over a decade of battles. Ig alpharad's n others streams w nuzlockes n #all started to also show me the appeal of actually strategizing instead of brute forcing which I did. #*that only blueberry academy MADE me #Whatev. Also no I don't got anything else that another pkmn would kickstart talking abt. Just know I drag my 2013 xerneas everywhere w me #and it is a fucking crime that I can't throw it into violet. What is this. You clearly don't mind throwing others into regions they don't #belong to at all (which I personally really dislike hc lore wise but gameplay wise whatever let new trainers catch old legendaries) #To come back to fav pkmn yes I'm in the dragonair boat. I hate evolving mine. Dragonite is fine I like it standalone but I like the #aesthetic of dragonair more. Idfc abt logic or whatever this is aesthetic talk. Yes I prefer some fan evos more. #I keep wanting to play that fusion fangame and if you want to know what pkmn I like I found out I have a huge overlap w alpharad there #Which sucks for us both! We adore pkmn that get lewded the most and I hate my life. You do you idc some are humanoid I have to admit that #but I personally would prefer to not see any art or even just jokes abt ANY of that. Humanoid or not I Do Not See. #I don't block let alone report over that just. tag and don't bring that to my doorstep thx. #What I will at most block n judge is if you touch any of the kids idc in this franchise if they're just pixels. #Can you tell I am writing this close to midnight anyways this is all. This became like a completely dif post in the tags welp

[mainfaggot]

everyone is always distancing themselves from me and i cant help but feel like im just deeply pathetic

#3/6 of my close friends from hs haven't talked to me. like talked to me properly in months #i havent hung out with 2 of them in a year #and the third one and i hung out TWICE this year #in 2022 we hung out like 8 times or something #i get that theyre busy but theyre not too busy to make new friends and travel and party? #so theyre just too busy for me. #and it's like ok so you reach out first! #and I've tried and failed #the conversations are so dry. the plans always fall through because something comes up #why does everyone always LEAVE #and its like 'always' is very black and white because the 3 remaining close friends haven't left #yet. #they haven't left yet but they probably will too! #and it's like ok well thats jumping to a conclusion. second unhelpful thinking style. #but then what about my parents? what about them when they find out im gay and kick me to the curb? #what about my older sister who'll sneer and glare at me in disgust like she has in the past? #what about my younger sister who needs to think about her own financial situation and will obviously side with my parents? #i was born and my life has been a tragedy since i took my first breath because my mother didn't want me and my father was disappointed #z.post