#...yes i listed all the sims in the pictures lol

[quigsilver]

Another day, another party... another party, another Renee & Eric fight.

#ts2 #ts2 gameplay #nh: st. julien island #claire st. julien #renee evans #eric mendoza #ron darga #holly montgomery #lana lyons #shane daniels #johnny haynes #tom morris #julian quinn #...yes i listed all the sims in the pictures lol

[amuhav]

[ Ａｎｙｔｈｉｎｇ  Ｂｕｔ  Ｇｒｅｙ ]

woooo we love lazy previews lmao but sorry this is all you get

Anyway, this post may look like garbage not a lot, but this is a BIG download, I swear. A big ol’ dump of a post, in fact. This download is 37 skins (yes, THIRTY FREAKING SEVEN), all recoloured with the ramps shown above. 32 Ephemera skins, 2 S-club skins, Fresh Blue blend by Brntwaffles, and 2 ~special personal blends~ of mine I was too lazy to take out of the download file lol.

Downloads, if you don’t care for details:

Just gimme ALL the skins (zipped)

Just those two special blends, plz! (zipped)

Link to all packages separated

So, what’s so special about them, anyway? What are you actually downloading? What is even the point of this? Well:

I edited them all to work with “normal” coloured ramps, aka not their horrible original ones. If you’ve used E-Skins or S-club skins before, you probably know what I mean. Colours all over the place, can never get them to go darker than a lightly tanned white person, or they go... bluey, greenish or freaking ashy grey. Well, NO MORE. All 37 skins come with 4 tone ramps pictured at the top of the post; the three base game ramps, “Default”, “Yellow”, and “Red”, and then my own extra one, “Pasty”. The Pasty ramp is specifically designed to replicate some of the pale tones of the originals, as I had some sims using them and didn’t want them to stop being their pale ass selves lol.

(This wasn’t just changing out the ramps, btw. I had to actually recolour almost every single one of the skins’ textures themselves, as a lot of them were more of the problem than the terrible ramps. I did not add in any ages that each of the skins didn’t already have, so keep that in mind.)

Also, they’re set up with clear-to-read thumbnails so you can see exactly which skin you’re using and which ramp, AND they even stay together in groups in the skintone panel, so no hunting for one little circle in a sea of randomly coloured dots. Like thissss:

Isn’t that tidy? Yes, I too wish it was a rainbow, but this was the best I could do lol. There’s some handy pngs in the zip file with a list of all the skins and their corresponding thumbnail colours.

None overwrite anything, so if you wish to swap out the original skins, you will have to manually change your sim’s skins. Or you can keep both! (they also don’t overwrite my old versions, pretty please pretend those don’t exist and use these instead 🙏🏻)

I really don’t recommend you put all 37 into your game at once lmao. 37x4 is like. A LOT to clog up your skintone panel with, trust me I should know cough we’re gonna pretend I don’t have them all in my game okay, do as I say not as I do cough.  I’d recommend just downloading the ones you usually use, compare against the originals, and then maybe trying others in batches. 

A few are... really not that great. There seem to be a couple of much older E-Skins, ones that don’t even seem to be up for official download anymore. But I included them because... well, I’d already done them LOL might as well. They all have unique faces (I checked each and every one) so maybe someone might find a use for them ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Now, what are those two ~special personal blends~ I mentioned?

FreckledFrou - a blend of Pate Choux by Momo with Fresh Blue, and a bunch of my own edits and hand-drawn stuff, including a lot of freckles! (hence the name lol) It was designed to be a very pale, freckled skin, but it comes with all 4 ramps and does go darker. It’s for toddlers all the way up to adults. The face isn’t overly defined other than the freckles, because I made it for my personal use and I tend to layer a lot of skin detail makeup on top, so I really didn’t care, but it’s worth keeping in mind.

CurvyBlue - a blend of Fresh Blue and PPNH’s lovely Gina Skin, and again a bunch of my own edits. This skin is only for YA and Adult Females, unfortunately, as it was made for a specific sim of mine. Like all the rest, it includes all 4 ramps. It was made to be a curvier, fuller-bodied skin, (so no defined ribcage or muscles here!) but to not look out of place alongside other E-skins.

TOU: 

Other than the two personal blends, they’re all literally just recolours at the heart of it, so I don’t really have any claim to them lol. Just credit or a link back or whatever. Same with the blends, credit if you use them as a base, and especially remember to credit the original skin creators too, ephemera, momo and pleaseputnamehere.

If you know how to use skininator, feel free to delete ramps you don’t want, add any you do etc. Now the skin textures themselves are recoloured, they should play nice with any “human” coloured ramps. (eg I’ve tested with kurasoberina’s, works great). Dunno about unnatural/berry tone ramps, but feel free to test! Just credit me for recolouring the textures, I guess.

and. I guess that’s it. man, I hope this made any sense as to what you’re getting lol. I know I know it’s a mess, but hey, what do you expect from me of all people (ง •_•)ง

#ts3 #ts3cc #ts3cc download #ts3cc genetics #ts3cc skins #yeah sorry I'm not taking previews for 37 skins lmao #but I feel selfish keeping them to myself #I know I've found a lot of use having skins that look... #well #human and alive LMAO #anyway back into the abyss I go #bleh #oh also btw #I did not do ESkin Fresh because it would have been exactly the same as Buckley's #but I did do ESkin Fresh ASIA #because I was still getting that grey/ashy tone issue even with Buckley's #because again the colour of the textures themselves were just too pale and too greyish #for those of you that know my sims #FreckledFrou was used on Qu #and CurvyBlue is Sylvie's skin ♪(´▽｀)

[timberllania]

List 5 facts about a favorite sim of yours, and send this to 10 simblrs whose sims you adore ♥♥♥

Firstly, sorry for taking 10 months to reply and thanks for thinking of me 🩷

I don't have much to say about sims I've actually posted about, so I'd like to introduce you guys to a little family I play on the side 🥰 (please ignore the low quality pictures and sorry for a long ass post)

This is the Evans family, kind of. Most of the sims pictured are Evans, but some are not.

Sitting, left to right are: Faith Evans, the matriarch; Violet Evans and her fiancée, Lily Loste; and Rose Evans. Standing next to Rose is Joe Barthelet. Behind Faith are Milo Isaacs and Darleen Brett. And right in the middle, on the floor, is little Leah Evans.

Faith is a fortune-romance sim, the sim I play my favorite challenge. When she's not working towards her next promotion, she's out romancing every sim that passes in front of her. One of her flings was Joe Barthelet. He's the father of her twin daughters, Rose and Violet.

Faith raised Rose and Violet by herself. At first she didn't know who the father was, as when she got pregnant she had woohoo'ed with 5 different sims in a very close window of time. Due to this, Joe only met his daughters on their child-to-teen birthday. He's a family sim, so he was sad to have missed their childhood, but was glad to finally meet his children.

Both Rose and Violet are knowledge sims, Rose being knowledge-pleasure and Violet being knowledge-family. As children, they met Lily, Milo and Darleen. Lily and Milo were Violet's best friends, and Darleen was Rose's. As teens, Violet ended up dating Lily, and Rose started dating Milo.

Before the girls went to college, Faith decided that they should have a little family trip. Faith, the twins, and Joe went to a nice vacation in Twiikkii Island. After they returned, the girls went straight to college, along with their childhood friends.

While in college, Rose decided that what she had with Milo wasn't actually love, and broke up with him. However, they ended up woohoo'ing at some point later, and well...

Yeah, she got pregnant with her ex-boyfriend's child. She was still friends with him (for now), and her sister was super excited to be an aunt. And she already loved the child too. Shortly after graduation, Leah was born.

While Rose was pregnant, Milo ended up hooking up with Rose's best friend, Darleen. She doesn't blame Darleen, as she wasn't dating him anymore when it happened. But she absolutely took it out on Milo.

He's still there for Leah, though.

In the mean time, Violet proposed to Lily, who absolutely said YES.

Now Leah is a toddler, Milo lives with Darleen in the house next to the Evans, Joe shows up all the time to socialize with his children and granddaughter, and Faith keeps on running after promotions :)

I KNOW it was supposed to be five facts, but I couldn't choose a single sim to say just five facts about lol

#ask game

[d4isywhims]

sims tag game!!

i was tagged by these lovely people @seokolat @pxeltownie @mdmszee @moonriesims @magpiesims @oasivy @tbeanie-sims !! <3 lots of love to you!!

1. What’s your favourite sims death? death by vending machine just because that's the only "unique" sim death i've gotten so far lol (it happened to mawar btw but i immediately quit the game bc of obvious reasons)

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? i'm personally a maxis mix girl but i loveeeee looking at sims with alpha cc

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? nope :)

4. Do you use move objects? yes. i would not be able to survive without it

5. Favorite mod? bed cuddle mod my beloved <3 no but in all seriousness, mccc and iu cheats are a gamechanger! i also love a bunch of adeepindigo's mods

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? get to work ;)

7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? live as in aLIVE :)

8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? aww just one? :( i have so many! priya, kohana, harlow, jae!!!, hunter and sooooooo much more. but if i have to choose one i'd say my favourite is probably harlow because i based her off of savannah smith and she is gorggggg (both savannah and harlow!)

9. Have you made a simself? yeap

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? foodie for sure, umm maybe creative and dog lover :D

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? the ash brown swatch? the one hunter's hair colour is in

12. Favorite EA hair? i don't knowwww 😭 i mostly use cc hair yikes

13. Favorite life stage? young adult! i get to do so much :D

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? both i think? but if i had to pick a side, i'd say that i'm more of a gameplay person in ts4 :) i'm an avid builder in ts3 tho hehe i’ve always loved the building aspect of the sims and i loveee watching speed build vids on youtube

15. Are you a CC creator? i wish! but unfortunately i’m not :(

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? i like to think we're all friends here so i'm going to say yes! i've met sooo many amazing simmers on here and i intend on making more :D

17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4) i’ll say ts3 just for the nostalgia :’) but ts4 is pretty good too minus the bugs lmao

18. Do you have any sims merch? do knockoff plumbob headbands count? :p

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? i do actually lol my yt username is still d4isy-nukes but i currenty have no vids up.......YET

20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? when i first started playing the sims, i was obsessed with making the "perfect" sims with "perfect" lives and would aaalways cheat away negative moodlets or never give them "negative" traits ykwim? but now i just go with the flow at whatever the game throws at me lol it's much fun that way :D also it helps to not stress about the things in game too much, it takes the fun out of it :p

21. What’s your Origin ID? same as my tumblr name!

22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? oof i can't name just one 😭 @littlbowbub @oni28 are my go-tos for food cc! @simstrouble @johnnysimmer are also very cool! idk man i feel like if i list all my fav cc creators it would be never ending lol

23. How long have you had a simblr? ohh omg i think i made this account somewhere mid-2021? not sure tho but i've only started being active earlier this year :) and hopefully for the years to come!

24. How do you edit your pictures? i use photoshop! i don't do much besides adjusting the brightness, cropping the pics and run a few actions. if i'm feeling fancy i'll add a moodlet/thought bubble or text :) gshade basically carries my editing process atp lol

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? give me hotels/resorts!!!! but ngl it's probably going to be buggy af tho lmao

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? cottage living AND seasons. i canot live without seasons

i know for a fact that a bunch of my moots have done this tag already so i'll be tagging whoever sees this lol

#gem got tagged!

[neosimi]

i was tagged by @kestrelteens, thank u for thinking of me friend. ♡

1. What’s your favourite sims death? cowplant! >:)

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? maxis match.

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? no? lmao.

4. Do you use move objects? yes, always.

5. Favorite mod? ACR for sure. i couldn't live without sim manipulator either.

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? noo idea.

7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? alive. can't convince me otherwise!

8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? uhhh. i feel bad i don't bother naming the sims i've made specifically for my blog. the one that was stuck in my drafts is my fave.

9. Have you made a simself? yup! tbh who hasn't heh.

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? let me look up the ts4 traits... maker, family oriented, socially awkward, and animal enthusiast. :]

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? hm, idk. i gravitate toward brown i guess.

12. Favorite EA hair? jennifer burb's.

13. Favorite life stage? i feel lame for saying adults lol but it's just the real meat n' potatoes of gameplay there lol.

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? gameplay, i don't mind building community lots though.

15. Are you a CC creator? ye.

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? everyone in misty's *kith* and ofc my bffs @isabella-goth and @sabrinassims. i'd love to make even more! ♡♡

17. What’s your favorite game? ts2 always and forever.

18. Do you have any sims merch? nope.

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? no, it's crossed my mind for tutorials tho.

20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? at the very beginning of playing ts2 (as an adult), there were very few clay hairs so i had some alpha poppet hairs. you could find the find screenshots on this blog lol, but then i gave clay a try and never looked back. there are some cute alpha hairs that are very chef kiss too, don't get me wrong!

21. What’s your Origin ID? what's that /j

22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? i could make a big ol' list of them all lol but my resources page kinda summarizes it.

23. How long have you had a simblr? i want to say 2-3 years? i never interacted w the sims community beforehand x)

24. How do you edit your pictures? literally just reshade, then resizing in photoshop lol.

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? i'm so checked out w ts4 sry sdfnsmd.

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? IKEA hands down. EP wise, probably freetime.

tagging @isabella-goth @annieshowell @simsdada @grilledcheese-aspiration @sicksadsim @socialbunny and whoever else wants to do this! <3

#naomi.txt #tag game

[potential-fate]

Get to know you- Sims Style

I was tagged by @simbury

What’s your favorite Sims death? -- I find it incredibly entertaining that sims can spontaneously combust if they get too warm.

Alpha CC or Maxis Match? -- mix, but ig it leans towards realism nowadays.

Do you cheat your sims weight? -- not that I can think of. sometimes if I am shooting a specific scene and they weren't that shape at the time. but not during gameplay.

Do you move objects? -- absolutely. I'm incapable of decorating without moveobjects on honestly.

Favorite Mod? -- uhm... I guess the 3t2 traits project or ACR/Romantic Standards.

First Expansion/Game Pack/Stuff Pack? -- I have been playing ts2 since it literally came out, so my first ep was whichever one came out first. I think that was Uni? but in spirit of the question, for sims 4 I only bothered downloading the game when they came out with cottage living lol.

Do you pronounce live mode like aLIVE or LIVing? -- aLIVE. my brain always said essentially like a movie set "and we're live!" so.

Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? -- Evren Thorne (who you're more likely to see in @luverofralts or @nappe-plays-the-sims game than mine) because he's not story relevant yet, or (much to everyone's chagrin) Callum

Have you made a simself? -- at some point far in the past, yes. I do not have that sim anymore, and I probably wouldn't do it again, but yk. I was also 11 when I started playing this game, so of course I made a digital barbie of myself. (not to say it's childish to do in and of itself, but that it's definitely something that every child tends to do)

Which is your favorite EA hair color? -- since ts2 only has 4, I'm going to assume this was more ts4 centric. in which case I like the neutral blonde/light blonde colors (the two that are less yellow)

Favorite EA hair? -- eh. for ts2 I wouldn't use any of them. for ts4... the mullet thing from werewolves? ig.

Favorite life stage? -- teens or young adults. (I think I may be the only person I know how actively likes Uni for ts2 the most lmao)

Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? -- oh. both. depends on my mood.

Are you a CC creator? -- yeeeup. recreationally though. (read: with no real consistency.)

Do you have any Simblr friends or a Sim Squad? -- I feel like I do lmao. I at least hope they feel the same LOL.

Do you have any sims merch? -- I now have a gameplay guide for the original Sims game lol. but I think that's all I own.

Do you have a YouTube for sims? -- nope. I uh... don't like watching gameplay videos, and sims machinema is way too time consuming to make so I do not.

How has your “Sims style” changed throughout your years of playing? -- oh gosh. I was one of those edgy emo kids so it was a lot of grunge and dyed hair and bright makeup. I've honestly been leaning a bit more towards that style again though so....

Who’s your favorite CC creator? -- depends on what I'm looking for. tbh a LOT of the CC I have now is older stuff that I just still like. but anyone who isn't exclusively making 4t2 stuff is probably someone I've downloaded from.

How long have you had Simblr? -- technically this blog since January 1st 2020. that being said, I moved from LJ to simblr in like.... idk, 2012? whenever that great migration happened.

How do you edit your pictures? -- a lot of photoshop. color correction, a slight film grain at the very least. most times I also do aesthetic edits to hide clipping, and add painted hair strands nowadays. if I can't get an emotion right for a screenshot, I edit those too.

What expansion/ gamepack is your favorite? -- for ts2 I really don't think I could pick one. the problem is I use like 90% of them for SOMETHING gameplay wise, even if I don't use the main function. ie: I love the chemistry/attraction from nightlife, even though the whole downtown thing is frankly annoying sometimes (do YOU WANT TO GO DOWNTOWN? no, random townie I do not. ) But, seeing as I listed it earlier, I guess university.

Tagging uhm.... @rebouks, @pralinesims, @luverofralts, and @nappe-plays-the-sims

#my posts #tag game

[brandinotbroke]

I was tagged by @episims 1. What’s your favourite sims death? My Sims rarely die of anything other than old age, but I think the satellite death is pretty neat.

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? I find that a mix of both gives me more freedom and helps me make my sims look more unique.

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? No.

4. Do you use move objects? Yes.

5. Favorite mod? ACR, which is quite funny because I did not want to download it for so many years because I liked being in control of my sims. Now I prefer to give them some more free will, makes the game more dynamic. Moral of the story: Try some new things from time to time.

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? Unleashed for The Sims 1. I feel old now.

7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? I used to pronounce it as in "alive", but lately I somehow switched more to "living". I don't even know why.

8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? Fun fact, but I've always prefered to play with the premades. It's not just a trend for me lol

9. Have you made a simself? Years ago but I never really played with her. As I said, I've always prefered the premades.

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? Can I mix TS3 and TS4 traits? Coward, night owl, foodie, loner, friendly.

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? None of them, I use default replacements for a reason. But if I had to pick one, I think the red ones are the least terrible.

12. Favorite EA hair? They're all bad.

13. Favorite life stage? Young adults, in both TS2 and TS3.

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? I SUCK at building.

15. Are you a CC creator? If conversions count, kind of?

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? There are some people I talk to from time to time, yes.

17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4) 2 > 3 > 1 in this order. TS4 isn't even on the list.

18. Do you have any sims merch? No.

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? No.

20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? When it comes to play style, I give my sims more freedom now than I did years ago. I embrace the chaos. When it comes to visuals, I have switched from alpha to clay hair about a year ago. I hated clay hair at first, now alpha is starting to look weird to me lol

21. What’s your Origin ID? get this FILTH off of my computer

22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? This is like asking me who my favourite child is (psst, it's @platinumaspiration)

23. How long have you had a simblr? About one and a half years, I think.

24. How do you edit your pictures? For CC previews, I crop them and add some very basic shadows and slightly tweak the saturation if necessary. I don't do much though, ReShade does most of the work. I don't do anything with gameplay screenshots other than cropping.

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? Ngl, it would be kind of funny if EA finally added a funeral party to TS4 to officially kill the game off and release TS5.

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? For Sims 2 and 3, I honestly can't tell you, they all have something great about them. For TS4... whichever added San Myshuno, I guess?

I tag @horusmenhosetix, @platinumaspiration and @kestrelteens. Feel free to ignore.

#tag game

[simmingonthelow]

Get to Know ME?

I tagged myself lol .......cause why not?

What’s your favourite Sims death?

The vampire one....there's a vampire one right? (or this could be a mod, i dunno)

Alpha CC or Maxis Match?

Why not both, cause I can't decide so i take both.

Do you cheat your sims weight?

I do! but the crazy part is that I have to cheat the weight up, cause every time I make my sims and leave them as townies or whatever they always end up skinny (lowest on the slider) and i'm real mad because when did I say they could do that? stwwwww...anyways if someone knows how to fix this do tell cause I'm TIRED of that happening.

Do you use move objects?

Yup! don't we all!

Favourite Mod?

extre- *ehem* slice of life modules and anything else that adds autonomy.

First Expansion/Game Pack/Stuff Pack?

(¬‿¬)

Do you pronounce live mode or aLIVE or LiVing?

Living 😞 (which one is it?)

Who’s your favourite sim that you’ve made?

I'm sorry i don't have just one but SHANA Starks����🔥 and MACHA Wording 😤😩. My babies, my children, my everything .......and all my other sims but those two are in first first place while the rest are in second first place 🙃.

Have you made a simself?

I have. Its my pfp rn (sporting the hairstyle I seriously want to be in at this moment 😖😔). It hasn't been updated in a while though.

Which is your favourite EA hair colour?

The light blue one ( I say this and I almost never use it)

Favourite EA hair?

I meaaaaannnn i don't really use many, but the ones with the baby hairs cause they all slap!

Favourite life stage?

Infants cause mine are soooo darn cute! Young adults is close second here.

Are you a builder or are you in it for gameplay?

Gameplay cause I can't build 😭.

Are you a CC creator?

Nah but i'd like to be!

Do you have any Simblr friends or a Sim Squad?

Yes (i think?!)! @latte-trait, @shittyysimblr, @void-imp, @neriney, @lilypixels,@liliumsims, @morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy, @emzchaos,@seasonalbeauties,@salemssimblr,@coatedinhoney and many other (i'm not too sure about these or the rest cause [so i won't list them 😔] ..........(*/ω＼*) it could all be para-social but if you see this, yes! I'm talking about you too!)

Do you have any sims merch?

no

How has your “Sims Style” changed throughout your years of playing?

I don't really considered the change drastic or anything for the most part. There were some subtle changes as time passed. BUT! My babies ate from the start to the finish, they just didn't all eat the same thing.

Whats your Origin ID?

uuuuuhhhh....shhhhhh its a secret (❁´◡`❁)

Who’s your favourite CC creator?

I'm a lover of cc so I think it be too much to list it all. What I can say is that i'm in love with them all 🥺!

How long have you had simblr?

uhhhhh 3 years? i dunno, i don't really keep track.

How do you edit your pictures?

With gimp

What expansion/ stuff pack is your favourite?

All occults cause i'm a sucker for my monster bbies 😩🥺😤

i’m tagging @crsentfairy, @cinamun, @coatedinhoney, @latte-trait, @shittyysimblr , @void-imp, @neriney, @lilypixels,@liliumsims, @morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy, @emzchaos, @seasonalbeauties, @salemssimblr, @coatedinhoney, and any other person that sees this and wants to do it!

#I got this from mal-functioning's page #staring at my pfp rn to find the urge to do my hair 🙂 #as a big beautiful gal myself i find it irritating to go into my save and find my simself with way waaaay less pounds than she started #cause baybee where did all your body go? #Macha literally has me in a chokehold! I just do know how to express how she makes me feel to you guys 😭😖! #Shana was the sim i started posting about when i started this simblr and i love her to bits! #i vaguely remember my alpha skin detail phase......and it felt like a fever dream fr...cause maybe i didn't know what to do😞 #but alas! that was short lived #if i left you out as a simblr friend im sorrrrrrryyyy 😭 #I just don't want to be weird (chances are...i am but anyway) and assume stuff about us🥺 and how good we are! (or could be!) #was telling some of my simblr friend that i apparently don't live in a house cause i can't build for NOTHINGGGG!!😭😭😭 #*queues the Cinderella running meme😖😞* #while i do really like extreme violence #i promise i don't really use it offent. It's just used sometimes for plot #and the time between use is really far #simmingontheknow

[fullsunstrawberry]

hey girlllll

okay first- the chap was SO GOODDDDD and i’m so excited for your nct reactions and texts!

also your tattoo with your mom is so cute 🥰🥰 and the designs for your seventeen ones are adorable so i’m sure your nct dream ones will be super cute as well <333

i want to get a tattoo but let’s be so fr i’m so scared of needles 💀 kao (bf) has a bunch of tattoos and they’re so cute but i personally would never - your so brave for thiss

also mother in law apologized thankfully so so more problems there :)

my life has been pretty boring tbhhh i’m living with kao rn but he’s pretty busy with his med school things rn so i barely see him 😢

i really need friends 😭

BUT ITS NOT LIKE I DONT HAVE FRIENDS my two ride or dies (yes we are a trio but we’ve known eachother since 2nd grade and there has been 1 argument that lasted 30 mins 💀) are literally so far away 🥲 missing them 24/7 but we have our weekly group facetime soon so 😋🤞

ugh life has been so boring recently fr i need a hobby asap

i feel like i’ve lost all my interests because i’m high school i would lterally do math for fun and that’s the last thing i need to do rn 😭 like sure i did. volleyball but where in nyc am i going to okay volleyball like be so fr rnnn

WNYWAY HOW ARE YOUUUU????? TELL ME EVERYTHING 😜😜😜😜😜

i have an obsession with these emojis i find them so funny

also my niece/cousin idk but she’s so like… IDKKK- she’s middle school high school age but i feel like i’m just on a whole different planet bc she’s so into everything like i need to keep up frrr

ANYWAY

make sure to drink lots of water and eat lots of good foodss- i love youuu 😜💓💓💓💓❤️❤️❤️‼️‼️‼️

also congrats on your blog growth! you deserve it fr

I got a bunch of nct random texts that I'm gonna post soon 🤪 but I gotta make some enhypen ones too cause my master list is lookin a little biased 😅

ahh thank you! i gotta hurry and get more kpop tattoos because my mom has more than me (she has two bts tattoos and wants a txt one)

i was terrified of needles but i had to get a bunch of blood work done when i was younger, so i’m a pro now 😤😤

if my partner had and tattoos i would color them in with markers if they had black and white ones

life’s been pretty boring for me too that’s actually why i made this account cause i used to have a tumblr way back and post on it but it became too hectic with my schedule…so i deleted it. but now i’m not really doing anything i love how hectic i post!! it gives me something to do and look forward to

i’m also in a friend group of 3 💀 but mine is kinda rocky because the other two always fight and im in the middle sometimes… but i love both of them and one of them might read this 🤪🤪

i still have lunch with them every other day in school but one of them is going to a different school and im gonna make sure we don’t drift apart 😤😤

most of my hobbies involve technology lol…

i like to make random webpages and of course video games, mostly sims or acnh.

But i love scrapbooking and i know a lot of people do it online now but nothing beats cutting up pictures and gluing it to a cute notebook or having a pen pal and decorating my letters

also photocard trading is fun and helps keep me busy

i’m glad the mil apologized because no one wants bad blood in a new marriage!!

i love using emoji’s because i don’t wanna sound boring when i’m writing and i can only use “T^T” so much

SAME! my cousin is younger than me and she makes me feel so old even tho i’m young! but she talks about tiktokers and celebrities i have no clue who they are nd half of the words she says, i’m like what?

tysm!! i’m surprised on how well my blog is doing, I love how many people have reach out to talk to me! It means a lot 😩❣️

don’t skip a meal!! 🥰🫶

#my love #ask answered #❤️ #did not check for any grammar issues #so ops #erin-calling <3

[anamoon63]

Hi, guys! Sorry but I had to postpone my Time Traveler post, because today is Father's Day and I'm kind of busy. Next weekend I'll be back with the following episodes. An apology as well because I haven't been posting as often as I used to, it turns out that I'm rebuilding my Blogspot Los Sims de Ana from top to bottom and that's a lot of work.

I was planning to make a completely new blog, maybe in another platform, but I realized that it was much more complicated to move everything I have in my current blog, (which is years of work), than to rebuild and update it. Plus, taking a look at Wordpress for instance, I found it difficult to understand. Yes, I know, I'm a bit old and well, I decided it was just simpler to stay where I am.

Translating all my blog posts into English, as well as restablishing my sims download links and custom content lists, checking tags and sorting them properly, etc., is going to be a titanic task. Yeah, it will probably take me the rest of the year and part of the next (if I'm lucky). But it's what has to be done, if not so that my blog can be resurrected, at least to have a backup for my Tumblr posts on it.

When I finish (I I ever do), I'll provide the links so that those who are interested in my characters can get to know their stories, which I've been posting since 2013, from the beginning. So far I have only translated the August 2013 posts and some of the September ones.

As for my The Cho Brothers gameplay , it will continue through this next week, but soon I'll take a break as I'm running out of pictures and haven't had time to open the game to actually play, lol. But don't panic, after the June holidays (my husband's birthday and Father's Day, all in one weekend) everything will be back to normal. Thank you so much for your support and for all the love you have given to my sims and stories! 💖

#the sims 3 #non story #los sims de ana #my current gameplay #time traveler

[eriquin]

I posted 11,278 times in 2022

That's 1,140 more posts than 2021!

25 posts created (0%)

11,253 posts reblogged (100%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@kedreeva

@vidramon

@thefaultinourchickennuggets

@uncuteartist

@gigglebug

I tagged 11,273 of my posts in 2022

#select post from queue order by time desc limit 1; - 10,956 posts

#i reblog if i laugh - 5,739 posts

#fanart reblogging - 3,981 posts

#stranger things - 2,051 posts

#steddie - 1,099 posts

#worth turning on audio - 727 posts

#writing inspiration - 553 posts

#fanfic reblogging - 441 posts

#ff6 - 440 posts

#signal boost - 413 posts

Longest Tag: 127 characters

#in both that i needed to be challenged more in high school so that i could learn to fail when i wasn't out on my own at college

I sent 8 gifts in 2022

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

In the past week, I have done the following:

started piling stranger things fanart into my queue (mostly season 4 stuff)

searched out meta analysis of season 4 of stranger things

gotten a recommendation list of fanfics, blown through the list, and started seeking out more on my own, including AUs

started plotting out fic, to the tune of about 8k words of outline

On the other hand, despite a significant amount of free time over Labor day weekend, I have not done this:

watched season 4 of stranger things

Can anyone tell me what's wrong with my brain?

13 notes - Posted September 6, 2022

#4

See the full post

21 notes - Posted February 2, 2022

#3

“Why can't they let a girl marry three men, or as many as want her, and save all this trouble?“ 

Lucy yes

44 notes - Posted May 24, 2022

#2

Me: I won't get obsessed with Stranger Things. I haven't even watched season 4. I'm not going to hyperfixate on this. I don't need to write fic about the characters...

@kedreeva reblogs all the things about Eddie.

Also Me:

See the full post

49 notes - Posted August 31, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Today in Shit People Say on Discord

(Transcript under cut)

Picture of Steve Harrington's bedroom, which has blue and white plaid wallpaper and matching blue and white plaid curtains.

Eriquin (Today at 9:41 AM): The harringtons were desperately trying to not become grandparents and this was the solution they found

RedBird719 (it/its) (Today at 9:41 AM): PFFT

Eriquin (Today at 9:41 AM): steve's charisma is so high that he can still get laid in a room like this

Kedreeva (Today at 9:41 AM): lol you're not wrong

Eriquin (Today at 9:42 AM): gotta work that into a fic somehow

Kedreeva (Today at 9:42 AM): steve's charisma is so high BECAUSE he has to try to get laid in a room like this

Eriquin (Today at 9:42 AM): oh yeah it's like charisma training like in the sims when you talk in a mirror

257 notes - Posted November 14, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #select post from queue order by time desc limit 1; #i feel like my queue tag should not count #but that's okay #going to add it to this one too #yeah stranger things took over my dash #oh well

[surveysand]

forty.

If you were given a plane ticket for free right now to Florida, what part would you go to/what would you do? disney world. it's the place i'm most familiar with and i really want a mickey mouse pretzel, i can't lie.

Do you prefer nail polish with sparkles in it, or matte colors? between these two options, matte.

Are you the kind of person who makes a lot of lists? What kind? yes, i love lists. i will make a list of literally anything and everything.

When you get upset, do you prefer to go to friends for support or to be left alone? Do you wallow or do you continue on with life? be left alone. it depends on the severity of the situation on whether or not i wallow on it or continue on with life.

Would you rather have the ability to speed up time, freeze time, or go back in time? go back in time.

Have you ever had a teacher you got really close with? yes, i was very close with two of my middle/high school teachers.

What are three things you wish you could go back and tell yourself 2 years ago? be safe.

Which type of pattern/print is your favorite to wear? i like solid colors most, but i guess flowered patterns.

What chain restaurant (Applebees, Ruby Tuesdays, Outback, etc..) is your favorite? applebee's.

What do you generally use Youtube for (music, specific types of videos)? i would say mainly i use it to watch the sims 4 youtubers.

In the summer, what type of shoes do you typically wear? converse.

Would you rather get a new pair of heels or new running shoes/sneakers? new sneakers.

Do you think plastic jewelry is cute or tacky or neither? it can be cute. i also think non-plastic jewelry can be tacky, lol.

In the summer, would you rather have ice cream, water ice, or freeze pops? ice cream.

Can you actually picture yourself getting married/having kids, or is that something that seems too distant in the future to imagine? i can picture marriage. having children is something i don't imagine for quite a few years.

Have you ever tailgated? Would you want to? no, but i would love to sometime.

What was the last thing to really really frustrate you? dealing with my city's gas company.

Is there some part of your personality that is generally thought of as a negative trait, but that you actually like/don’t mind about yourself? my honesty. i've been told many times that i'm "too honest", but i never am mean in my efforts. i just am not someone to hold back when someone's being a dumbass, lol, and i think that's a good thing.

When’s the last time you spent time with your cousins? christmas.

What kind of lip balm do you use? cake batter chapstick.

Are you frustrated with anything? yes, the fact that i can't find a job.

Why did you fall for the last person romantically? because i realized how much i loved being around him and how safe he made me feel.

What’s your younger sibling’s name? won't say this for privacy reasons.

Can you speak in a different language conversationally; if so, which language? no.

Do you ever fear of falling asleep? maybe if there's something bad happening the next day, but other than that, no.

Do you have an idea of what kind of profession you’d like to have? yes.

What’s the last thing you had to eat? pasta. i currently have some onion rings in the oven though.

Would you rather eat all day or exercise all day? eat all day.

Which countries have you traveled to? none.

Which beach would you say is your favorite? atlantic beach was pretty good.

When’s your birthday? don't wanna say this for privacy reasons.

What kind of cookie is your favorite? chocolate chip.

What is it that you really want right now? money.

Do you write? no.

Is there a map hanging in your room? no.

Have you ever gone to see a movie past 9:00 PM? no.

Do you ever pick up your house phone? i don't have a house phone.

Would you say you’re a nice person?

yes, i try to extend gratitude and sincerity to every person i meet unless they give me reason not to.

[tobertime]

List of things I like to script that I think are mildly interesting

Instead of keeping it a secret that I'm a shifter, sometimes I script that shifting is common knowledge among certain groups or even just like a normal thing all over

Sometimes I give myself a different gender identity then I have in my original reality

No light pollution!!! Pretty night skies full of stars!!! Someone in a group chat I used to be in said they scripted this and now I add it to everything lol

This one is probably more of a me thing but I always make sure to add that I'm not a picky eater because I have such a problem with textures and smells in my OR

Multiple saves in Animal Crossing. Bigger islands with more space for villagers. More stores. I do this stuff with other games too. The Sims costs way less, lmao

I've actually gotten to the point where I feel like I should script good habits like drinking water and showering less (Yes, less. I'm starting to think I shower as some sort of weird coping mechanism or something lol) cause I just can't seem to keep a routine

I know a lot of people like to use pictures of clothes and their DR room and stuff but one time I just said screw it and added in pictures of food I would eat

#desired reality #current reality #reality shifting #shifting community #shiftblr community #shifting #shiftblr #shifting script #script template

[devildamn]

Well If I Can’t Have You

(A conversation between Lucifer and MC before the harem is official. They/them pronouns. second POV mixed with Third. Oof it’s a mess, idk how to write for ambiguous mcs lol im so new at this ;w;

Nobody gave me any prompts but I so badly wanna write for this fandom before I lose interest, so I just wrote the first idea I had -^-” Asks are still open and appreciated <3 More personal thoughts at the end.)

He asked you to be his,

With a confident smile and a relaxed pose, his eyes never wavered. His request was more of an insinuation to a predetermined conclusion.

Of course, you immediately declined.

This made him stiffen. He furrowed his brow.

"What possible reason could you have to deny me?"

Well, he was quite rude for starters. And those death threats never helped. He's sadistic. Controlling. Everything about him romantically rubbed you so wrong.

At the many insults, he was quick to bristle. You strategically reign in your list of things you dislike, to paint a bigger picture.

You know he is the most powerful of the brothers. You know of his achievements. He's responsible, dedicated, and sometimes, he shows a sweeter side that could melt anyone's heart.

Just not yours.

You already have a favorite.

Lucifer released a sigh. He moved from his spot to take a few steps back. He already suspected, but this was still a blow to his pride. To lose to someone else. To lose to him, specifically.

He couldn't accept such a thing.

So, he'd suggest a compromise instead.

"You may keep your favorite. Or try to. You see, it’s not that simple….”

It’s your turn to cross your arms.

What was he talking about?

“As you may have guessed by now... Our family is quite close. We’ve lived together for so long, after all. We argue, we fight, we make up, we… share. "

Alright, and?

He grins and stands before you. His hand brushes your cheek.

"You'll never be left alone. Not if you chose any of us as your partner. We are not just a family. We are a body. We’ve never been apart for long because we know we’d never be whole if one leaves. We’ll always seek them out and bring them back.”

You narrow your eyes. You know where this is going, and you hate it. It makes Lucifer smiles wider.

“How unfortunate for you, to love one of us. But it’s not too late! You haven’t confessed anything yet, right?”

You’re pretty sure your feelings are already clear to the other person… but nothing has been out in the open yet. Lucifer continues with a laugh.

“Then you have two choices still. You can confess. We’ll all know immediately, and… surely you know everyone well enough by now to know what their individual reactions would be.”

You’ve pictured it plenty of times before. You know how messy their moodiness would be.

“Yes, it wouldn’t be good for us now would it? Cause rifts perhaps. Brawls might even ensue. Can you blame us, when you so effectively had us wrapped in your finger?”

You scoff. It wasn’t your fault everyone read more into their interactions with you than what you truly felt. Lucifer shrugs.

“In the end, they’ll be governed by their feelings of betrayal. The body will implode… but it’s nothing new. We are demons. We live for so long. We’ve fought longer for less. Your lifetime will pass and our bonds can mend. But is that the life you want? An uneasy one? I can guarantee some of us would make it our mission to find ways to abduct you. Each more elaborate than the last. Your safety… your sanity… Well, you haven’t seen the worst we can do yet.”

The threats. You always know one will work itself into a conversation with Lucifer, but still, they make you grimace. Not because they make you scared… but because they’re so annoying to deal with. To be reminded of the reality of the danger demons have on your humanity. To be reminded you’re ultimately a plaything.

Alright, next option.

“This one is simpler. Harsher. You bury your love for him. You leave the House before any bridges get crossed. You don’t come back.” Lucifer stepped away, his gaze heavy.

You both know he dislikes that option. You dislike it too.

You shake your head. You tell him those are shit options. He agrees.

You tell him to give you the third option you know he’s leading up to, already. Lucifer gives another sigh.

“I already mentioned it. We are a body. We like to share.”

Your eyes widen. You bare your teeth at his bold insinuation. No matter how much they treat you as such, you are not a toy! You have preferences. Emotions. Sure, you like some of the other brothers, but there are also some you can’t stand. To be forced into something with them?

Disgusting.

Lucifer growls at your use of the word. Even if you were entitled to your preferences… having his brothers called such a word was aggravating. He continued to push.

“All or nothing. That’s the only way there can be peace…”

But-

“What’s truly wrong with this option? You get to keep your favorite. You get to try things with others you like. You don’t have to force yourself to love the ones you don’t… but to tolerate their presence at least. To keep some peace. Besides, who’s to say they won’t grow on you?”

You know yourself enough to know that could never be the case.

“I digress… One little human and seven powerful demons. You’d be crowned the luckiest of your kind.”

He released a curt laugh.

“You have to admit, there are worse fates than being loved too much.”

You don’t appreciate your serious position being mocked. Lucifer gave another shrug.

“This is it. It’s up to you…”

He turns around.

“You’re free to go now. Mull it over in your room.”

You rush out his door. You’re close to slamming it.

Lucifer glanced as the door shut and goes to his desk. He still has things to do.

But the letters to the contracts weren’t enough to keep his interest. He still had fantasies he had to let go of.

To live alone with the human.

Maybe if they had chosen to be his, such a thing could've been achieved. With Lucifer's power and connections, he would find a way to hide them. Maybe fake an accident to leave behind no trail. His brothers were already attached, but a mortal was still a mortal. And if they ever got close to the truth... Lucifer could plan for that too. He could leave behind everything, run forever from his meddling siblings with his human in his arms.

Truth be told he already had a map of places that would work to shield them for a year or two before he'd move to the next.

But, as was common with his tendency to over plan, those countless hours of his mind drifting away and spending breaks thinking things through had only been a waste.

How selfish of the human.

(I hope I wrote him well enough :,o Yeee, this is a bit of a ‘how things went’ for me in my playthrough. I love Mammon. He is my dude lol. And like, I can go on on how this all happened, but ultimately, My first few chapters, I was just getting less interested in everyone and more charmed with Mammon. And I kept expecting there to be a deviation in the story where I’d get more of a concentration in charming the demon I chose, like any other dating sim does. But nah. The story kept ENCOURAGING harem choices, even with demons I DID NOT LIKE. So I made this explanation. I had to. I view it as ‘they really are just a package deal and Im forced to deal with it lol.’ And of course Lucifer would be the one to make that clear. Uggh. -v-

#Obey me #Obey me lucifer #obey me mc #obey me fanfic #obey me headcanons #om lucifer #om mc #obey me writing #idk how to tag shit oof #plz i am begging for interactions #idk how to get em lol #id love to share my specific thoughts on the brothers too sometime #but uh #i need someone to ask.... im too shy to just post rants vwv #uuuuuugh this is what wanting attention feels like and i hate it im sorry

[depthofpixels]

Let’s Rip A Sim...Again ( A TS4 SimRipper Tutorial for Blender 2.8x)

I got a request from the sweetest anon the other day to do an updated tutorial and I couldn’t say no. So, let’s get into it! 

You’re gonna need the following things:

TS4 SimRipper

Blender 2.8x (The ‘x’ stands for any number after .8, this could make it 2.80, 2.81, etc)

Blank Posing Rig from Sims 4 Studio or a premade pose from a pose maker

A basic to intermediate understanding of Blender. ( I assume that if you’re using 2.8x, you at least understand how to use 2.79 )

Fun fact! This process is the exact same as my last tutorial for 2.79, but if it were in cycles render instead of blender render!

If you do not already have SimRipper downloaded, please download, install, and open SimRipper . Load your save file by pressing “Select”.

Unlike in the last tutorial, we will actually be using Aaliyah lol

Use the filters on the left to narrow down your chosen sim. Select your sim from the list. Using the controls on the right, select the outfit you want your sim to wear.

For this tutorial,  I am using SimRipper version 3.1.0.0. Because of that, my right sidebar might look different, if you are using an older version of SimRipper. Don’t worry, this process will be exactly the same for the older version.

If you are using the updated version of SimRipper, make sure that instead of “Single mesh and texture”, the right hand dropdown box says “Solid and Glass meshes and textures.” Click on the button on the right that reads: “Save as DAE”

Importing The Ripped Sim

Open Blender. Open the blank rig.

Click file and click on import. Import as Collada (.DAE)

Delete the base Sims4Studio sim from your imported rig or pose. Also, delete the Rig.001 that imports with your sim’s .DAE file. Do not delete your sim, please.

Attaching the Rig

Click on the modifier tab, which looks like a wrench, or spanner if you’re not American, on the bottom left panel. Click on the “Object:” box and select “rig”.

NOTE: The face area might be slightly unaligned to the rig and that is NORMAL. It is supposed to be. When you move things around in CAS, the rig stays the same. Do not worry about it.

NONE #2: If you are using height sliders, you sim will not align to the blank rig at all. You have to have made your sim without the height sliders and use height rigs like this one with this tutorial to have an accurate height for you sim. Basically, have two versions of your sim, one with the height sliders and one without, and use the height rig to have your sim be the right size while posing.

Adding The Texture

Now, for this part of the tutorial, I am going to split the glass textures up into two parts, because Cycles and Eevee renders transparent textures slightly differently and I want to make sure I’m as clear about that process as possible.

If you are using the most recent version of Simripper ( as of making this tutorial, that version is 3.1.0.0 ), when you import your .DAE file, it will also import the texture along with it, which is helpful if you do not want to do a lot of work, but not so much if you want your glass textures to show up correctly. As you see below, there is Aaliyah in all her shiny glory.

If you are using an older version of SR, it will not automatically add the texture to your sim for you, so let’s do it together.

Select your sim and go the materials tab. There, you will see a button that says “New”. Click on it. After doing so, there will be different sections. We’ll focus on the “Surface” section. Under Surface, there is another button that reads “Principled BSDF”. Under that, there is another button that reads “Base Color”. This is where our image texture is gonna go.

There is a small circle next to Base Color, click on it and it will open a menu. Select “Image Texture” under the “Texture” column. Click “Open” next to your new image texture shader and locate and open your texture. If you already have your image in Blender, click on the small picture icon and select it from that menu.

Now we have a textured, but shiny sim. To quickly fix that, scroll down the material tab and you’ll find a value input labeled “Specular”. Make it 0.00. Now your sim isn’t shiny! Yay!

Glass Textures

To add your Glass textures a lot easier, you’re gonna need to open the node editor. Follow the above instructions for your Glass object exactly, except use you glass texture. Yes, including the specular step. Luckily the only thing you have to do add two nodes, the “Mix” shader and the “Transparent” Shader.

After doing so, situate your nodes as below:

For Eevee, you’re going to want to do one really important thing. Scroll down the material tab and find settings. Under there change Blend Mode from “Opaque” to “Alpha Blend”. If you are working with more complex transparent objects ( Like hair  or fluffy objects ) use “Alpha Hashed” instead.

Here is a comparison of Cycles and Eevee for glass textures. It is very subtle.

Now, your sim is in Blender 2.8x. Like last time, this tutorial is not a posing tutorial, so and questions that are off the topic of SimRipper or have already been answered in my tag for this tutorial will be ignored. Here are some good tutorials for posing.

My own posing tutorial

Simmerberlin

Voila!

Before you send me a message for this tutorial, please refer to this tag and this post. Also, I am not a Blender expert and becuase of that I am not the best person to ask for help in regards to Blender. @thefoxburyinstitute​ has a whole database of great tutorials and resources for Blender!

#ts4 #the sims 4 #the sims #sims 4 tutorial #simripper #sr things

[schizosupport]

does it still count as a delusion if I think I'm stupid to believe that and that its obviously its not real but I still have like flight/fight/freeze to the thoughts/wrongly percieved event/things in the corner of my eye, or get really scared? Like I don't think that I'm correct in thinking the thing and I don't think it makes sense/has been proven wrong by the person and by testing it lol but also I have a reasoning behind it and still think it? Esp if some of the specific paranoias are very transient (or don't come back) and sometimes triggered by horror content (damn tma t-t) or v stress related ??? I'm trying to figure out if I'm just prodomal probably (bcus I have like a million environmental and genetic risks and Im 16) or actually having delusions now lol ¡¡p but it might be substance induced so :p this stuff has been going on since like, last june maybe and when I started smoking almost everyday since august

(2) HI IM THE PERSON TALKING ABT THE DELUSIONS AND POSSIBLY BEING SUBSTANCE INDUCED !! I think I've also had an increase in negative symptoms in that approximately 1 year time frame than before, even though I'm autistic so experience a lot of the things they list in that stuff :p but that could be because I went through a traumatic relationship or because I've been unmasking over time since I'm not in public and been trying to acknowledge my needs during quarantine :p (3)  hi sorry for using all caps yesterday :(((( I didn't mean to make anybody distressed in any way. Also is thinking as a kid that people may be controlled by larger beings like sims and whenever we die thats because they got bored with us normal weird kid beleifs or ?? Or like after watching truman show I was always thinking abt if I was like it and I still kinda act like there could possibly always be a camera on me or someones watching me but my dad talked about putting cameras around the house and one time when I was getting on my phone because he had taken it away from me a notification popped up on his computer that I was using my phone and if he wanted to look at my screen so maybe its just me being scared cus of that even tho I dont live with him anymore :p and I have no reason to believe he or anyone else actually has access to my phone but they do and its really scary :'((((

Hi anon!

No need to apologize, you’re good, and you didn’t distress me! 

I am very brain-tired there days which makes it hard for me to respond thoroughly, but I’m going to attempt anyways. 

The exact definition of delusions vs magical thinking, paranoid ideation and anxiety can be hard to figure out, and the professionals may have varying opinions as well. The main question, to me, would be - are you very distressed by these thoughts? Are they hindering your ability to live life to its fullest?

If the answer is yes, then I find it less important what they are, and rather I would urge you to look into getting some help managing these symptoms. At the end of the day, knowing the name of what’s going on with you can feel empowering, but it doesn’t actually help much if it isn’t accompanied by an increase in support, understanding and potentially treatment.

Another thing is, you said you’ve been smoking almost every day - from the context I’m guessing you’re talking about weed? 

I know that a lot of people do feel like weed can alleviate some discomfort, and I’m not the authority on drug-use by any means, but I think that a daily intake of any drug, can be a cause for alarm. - No matter if that’s alcohol, weed or “harder” drugs. Especially in people who are susceptible to psychosis (which you seem to be), weed can have a negative effect, and it can definitely increase some symptoms, or even increase the likelihood of a full-blown episode. 

I know it’s easier said than done, and you probably have your reasons for smoking as much as you do, but from a mental health perspective, it does blur the picture. And it can make it harder to get the help you need, because you risk either professional writing off your symptoms as “purely druginduced” or alternatively, they ignore the smoking, and think that you’re more psychotic than you would normally be, which could also lead to the wrong treatment.

(Say for example, you’re smoking to cope with a certain set of symptoms (eg. adhd)- then that smoking causes psychotic symptoms - they treat that with antipsychotics. Now if your original problem was adhd, you would have been better off with a prescription for that, instead of having to take two mind-altering substances as patches on patchwork solutions)

Honestly I’m not the best to ask about the border between delusion and anxiety - professionals have repeatedly told me I’ve long since crossed the border (hence why I’m diagnosed as schizophrenic) but in my own mind I’m still just “a very anxious person”...

I hope this was at least a bit helpful, my computer is lagging and so is my brain, so I’m going to wrap this up here.

Best of luck anon!

Cat

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