#Did OSDD

[reimeichan]

A look into my experiences as a person with DID:

I don't experience myself as being different people sharing a body. When I switch, it's more like... who I am in that moment, the things I believe and feel and think then, are true, and anything I may have believed or felt or thought before then is no longer true.

In one moment, I am angry and distrustful of everyone around me. I believe that even the person closest to me to has ulterior motives for being with me and is constantly hiding their true thoughts and feelings. I want nothing to do with them, I want to leave and never see them again-

And in the next moment, I'm crying by myself in my room. I'm not angry, I'm sad and upset and lonely. I wish I had people with me, why doesn't anyone understand what I'm going through? I'd never want to leave the people I love behind, I can't imagine living a life without them. I want to hug them and cuddle them and let them know how important they are to me-

And now I'm cuddling them and hugging them and I feel happy and safe and secure. I've always had such lovely people in my life, I've never felt dejected or rejcted by them and I can trust them implicitly. Aren't I so lucky and blessed to have so many people who love and support me? It's why I'm so happy and stable, I probably don't even need to go to therapy anymore-

Except I do, how could I have forgotten all the horrible things that have happened to me? I'm nervous around others and try so hard to please them so that they don't get angry with me. They may look nice now, but I know that one wrong move and they'll be screaming and yelling at me, because I'm a bad person, and I don't deserve love, but I don't want to live like this forever so of course I need therapy-

And objectively, that makes sense, doesn't it? Of course I act differently under different circumstances. And I know that due to my trauma I have a lot of maladaptive behaviors and maladaptive coping skills. So I'd like to learn some more, calmly and patiently, because I love learning and I know how to separate my thoughts and feelings out from each other. Because I'm a rational person, not an emotional one.

Do you see? How I have all these different versions of me, who all have their own experiences? How each of them are so sure their reality is the real one and the only one that exists in that moment? That's what my life has been like with DID. I'm a disjointed mess of thoughts and feelings and memories that struggle to connect to each other. That's why I call myself as having different versions of me. Because I'm just me- but which me am I?

#dissociative identity disorder #did #actually did #actuallydid #did osdd #osddid #cdd #cdd system #by reimei

[schoolyard-system]

“But you don’t look like a system!” Is one of the weirdest ways we’ve been fakeclaimed.

Being traumatized doesn’t cause people to present themselves one way or the other. You are valid in your experiences no matter what color your hair is, the clothes you like to wear, etc. Trauma doesn’t have a look.

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[celestina-system]

Source-connected fictives are fine and you don't need to disconnect from your source fully (or really at all) if you don't want to or believe it will be bad for you. Recovery is good, but recovery doesn't look the same for everyone, the same applies to fictives/alters in general.

Stop being horrible to people who want to stay connected, it helps no one to act as though they're bad for this.

#endos dni #actually did #plural system #system stuff #did #did system #sysblr #traumagenic system #system #anti endo #pro endos dni #endos do not interact #endos fuck off #osdd system #system things #sys #did osdd #osdd 1b #actually osdd #osdd #traumagenic did #actually dissociative #did alter #alter #fictive #fictives #fictives interact

[wxrmeaterz]

you have every right to set a boundary

you have every right to withhold information about your system

you have every right to cut someone off if they cannot educate themselves

#endos dni #actually did #did system #polyfrag did #did alter #did osdd #osdd #cdd system #osddid #endos fuck off

[raindropssys]

sometimes it's very hard to tell if you hear a new alter in headspace or if your brain's just fucking with you

#raindrops.sys #endos dni #did #did system #did community #osdd #did osdd #osddid #system stuff #system problems

[kibou-collective]

Shoutout to plural folks whose identities are closely tied to music!

🩵 Those who use music as a coping mechanism

🩵 Those who adore and deeply appreciate music

🩵 Singers, songwriters, and musicians

🩵 Introjects of or related to the above

🩵 Introjects from music videos

🩵 Introjects from any music related sources who don't identify with it fully or at all

🩵 Those who can't stand music

🩵 Those whose trauma may be related to music in some way (we hope you're doing okay! And if you're not there's nothing wrong with that)

🩵 And anyone else we may have missed! ^。^

This post is brought to you by Yami and our lovely (Mesmerizer) Teto-san.

#plural #pluralgang #plural system #plurality #endo friendly #endo safe #music #introjects #fictives #factives #multiplicity #system #did osdd #actually mentally ill

[greens-spilled-tea]

Guys I wanna talk about system responsibility more. What does it mean? How far should you go with "system responsibility"? Is system responsibility enabling the negative actions and behaviors of the other members of your system? Why should one headmate or alter be responsible for the actions of another (especially if you ascribe more to the mentality of headmates or alters being individual people who should have their own independence and freedom to do things outside of being part of a system)? Building off of that, how much independence and individualism should headmates and alters have from each other? There's so much and more I wanna talk about on this subject but I'm just gonna toss those questions out into the wind and see who bites.

#syscourse #did #dissociative identity disorder #cdd #did osdd #osddid #plurality #pluralgang #plural #syscussion #system responsibility #by green #by reimei

[beelzebubsbois]

Looking at an Alter back from dormancy like

"WHEN TF DID YOU GET HERE??"

"Uh.. twenty.. fift-"

"Get out."

#did #did system #osddid #dissociative system #did osdd #and hes fucking Bradley from the goofy movie?? #we HATED Bradley. #actually dissociative #actually plural #actually did #pluralgang #plurality #pro endos dni #endos dni

[drmememedic]

Did this for our Alastor headmate since his source didn't actually look like how he remembered himself to look

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin alastor #hazbin art #did system #did osdd #osdd system #hazbin hotel redesign #alastor #alastor the radio demon #alastor redesign

[anti-lies]

Real Fact: The only way to be plural is by suffering severe childhood trauma according to the theory of structural dissociation

The theory of structural dissociation is currently the most accepted theory for how DID forms. Children naturally have less integrated personalities, and when someone undergoes severe trauma during childhood, it prevents their personality from fully integrating.

This theory is clearly explained in this Carrd.

As this Carrd says, there is no other way one could possibly be a system according to science.

This theory was created in 2006 by Onno van der Hart, Ellert R. S. Nijenhuis and Kathy Steele in the book The Haunted Self, and has remained the main theory for how traumatic dissociation forms for close to 20 years.

These authors are top experts in their field, and this theory clearly proves beyond a shadow of a doubt that the only possible way to form dissociative parts of the personality is through trauma.

Any endos who say otherwise are faking and lying. All their so-called sources are outdated or written by themselves or are ableist.

Please, trust the science. Trust the doctors. And trust the Carrd about what those scientists and doctors say.

Anyone who would argue with the doctors who wrote made the Theory of Structural Dissociation are science deniers, no better than flat-earthers or anti-vaxxers.

Now that you've been properly informed, please reblog and share this accurate and true information so you can inform others.

And don't bother clicking underneath the cut. There's nothing important there.

Oh, you're still here?

I thought I told you to leave?

Go on. Get.

There's nothing to see here!

Oh... That.

What's that doing here?

Yeah, don't worry about that. That's just some article written by pro-endos to make it look like you can form dissociative parts of the personality without trauma.

Don't trust the pro-endos and their sources!

Oh... You saw that too, didn't you?

That the source for that happens to be the same exact people I told you to trust earlier.

Fine. Let's deal with that.

First, this says "may." That means that it isn't definitely true. And by rearranging those words, you'll realize that means it definitely isn't true according to the theory of structural dissociation.

Trust me when I say that this still supports us and that these doctors are on our side.

Second...

Endos are stupid

There. I said it.

Endos are what I call half-thinkers.

Endos will try to tell you that if someone is a valid source in one context then they need to be a valid source in all contexts to be consistent. That if you're using the theory of structural dissociation as evidence that the only way to have multiple dissociative parts with their own consciousness is through trauma or a disorder, you should acknowledge that the creators of that theory have entertained other possibilities.

But you who are reading this are smarter than any of those half-thinking endos. You're 4 times as smart as these half-thinkers. You can think double what any endo can at least. That makes you, at minimum, a double-thinker.

And as intelligent and critical double thinkers, you can understand how important context is.

In the first context, the Carrd that referenced the theory by Onno van der Hart and Ellert R. S. Nijenhuis is supporting True Science.

In the second, their actual words from their paper are going against True Science. They're stating something may exist that we know is scientifically impossible. Something we know is scientifically impossible because of what we've heard other people say about the Theory of Structural Dissociation. And that proves the creators of the theory of structural dissociation wrong!

So don't let endos use quotes like this to brainwash you. Remember that you are an intelligent and critical double thinker.

Stay smart and hold firm in your beliefs and values, and never stop double thinking!

<3

#syscourse #anti endogenic #anti endo #did #did osdd #osdd #cdd #plural #plurality #sysblr #multiplicity #actually a system #psychiatry #actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #system stuff

[disrealities]

Entwined.

"Entwined" systems are two systems that feel connected, drawn to eachother, or otherwise associate with eachother. This can be any kind of connection! (ie; queerplatonic, romantic, or it might just "feel right"!).

This can be two subsystems, two separate systems, or any other combination of such — Just two systems that feel connected!

#„ absolutions ✝︎ #did system #dissociative system #osdd system #plural system #sysblr #system stuff #system coining #system flag #osdd flag #osdd 1a #did osdd #osdd community #cdid #disociative identity disorder #endos dni #endos fuck off

[thenightsystem]

found this in our camera roll

-host

#did jokes #did memes #did osdd #osdd system #osdd #did system #osdd alter #osddid #sysblr #system things #system stuff #dissociative system

[celestina-system]

Being a fictive is so funny because you'll be like "this silly anime boy is so mecore, literally him, sooo relatable" but there's also. The horrors.

#୨୧ — Celestina System ✨🌙 #| #actually did #endos dni #plural system #system stuff #did #did system #sysblr #traumagenic system #anti endo #system #fictive #Fictives #did alter #alter #did osdd #osdd #osddid

[boosystem]

Today’s mood : I want a partner system or a QPR

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[lovesomesys]

Why do people call strangers in the internet names like “sweetheart” or “honey”

Like it would make me uncomfortable to be called a nickname by a stranger and I know a lot of my friends feel the same! Dont call strangers nicknames! It’s weird!

#anti endo #endos dni #endos fuck off #did alter #didosdd #did plurality #did stuff #pluralgang #plural #actually traumagenic #actually plural #actually did #bpd stuff #npd stuff #<- tags for reach #possibly a hot take idk #traumagenic system #did osdd #system #system stuff #did #did system #did community #plural did #did plural #endos do not interact #endos not for you #endos aren't real #sysblr #plural system

[cemetery-drive-sys]

one thing i feel like isnt talked enough about in the sys community is normalizing not caring about trying to figure out whos fronting.

who am i? idk. does it matter? nah, not really.

its ok and doesnt mean ur faking or anything, its normal and if anyone tries to pressure you into figuring out whos fronting then get away from them, for ur own sanity.

anyway, have a good day, remember to take ur meds and drink water and have a little snack.

#endos dni #anti endo #did osdd #osddid #pdid #dissociative identity disorder #pdid system #dissociative system #system stuff #traumagenic system