#FINISHED IT TODAY AND. OKAY. I SEE

[ministarfruit]

this is my non-spoiler review of the doppelgänger routes

#vtuber #holostars #holotempus #regis altare #axel syrios #gavis bettel #machina x flayon #banzoin hakka #josuiji shinri #FINISHED IT TODAY AND. OKAY. I SEE #give me time to absorb this before new talents I'M BARELY KEEPING UP #what an emotional rollercoaster #truly a halloween gift #I do kind of want to beat all of them up #but huntsman and showman... you're safe for now #KARASU SQUARE TF UP THO #can't wait for this game to stew in my mind #I have so many thoughts

[whatimdoing-here]

VIGIL | 2.06

Catch them.

#bbc vigil #vigil #silvacre #kirsten longacre #amy silva #amy x kirsten #suranne jones #rose leslie #vigil spoilers #i was a freaking puddle every hospital scene thank YOU #the way that kirsten just accepts amy for who she is #and amy would give it up to be there for kirsten #but kirsten tells her to go and WANTS her to go #to finish what they have worked hard on and help and ugh #i have so many feelings #but i'm still mad about the not seeing the baby situation #okay had to get all these done today before i'm on my xmas trip

[squuote]

"Let's run this franchise into the ground, let's drag it through the mud and back."

"And if people hate it? Who cares?"

#the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tspud #tsp epilogue #stanley #employee 432 #crows art #SMILES. FINALLY WENT BACK AND FINISHED THIS ONE #i do plan on changing my 432 design but. thats okay :-) #rlly just happy i managed to finish something today #bonus happy points because its a piece ive been meaning to finish since like may! pat on the back for that one! #432's epilogue dialogue is rlly interesting btw. rereading it rn and fuck man we should talk more on it #ok. i have to go shower. see ya

[risingsunresistance]

sunrise ☀️

#YAYYYYY YIPPEE MY TREAT FOR DOING TASKS TODAY. FINALLY LETTING MYSELF DRAW SOMETHING #THIS WAS NOT THE ORIGINAL PLAN FOR THE DRAWING AT ALL BUT THIS IS BETTER I THINK #it's not perfect but That's Okay i'm allowed to post art that isn't my best (<- affirmations) #it's been a while since i used that brush :D i couldnt see myself making a background without it so i just. didnt even try JHDJGH #dante was described on priv as chewy btw i just need to let that be known. im glad bc i was going for squishy slime creature #sb #my art #rising sun #technoblade #(that is techno btw! just in the rising sun gear so 99% of him is covered jhdjgh) #i was gonna include energy being sent to him to from the players scattered around. ya know like how the dialogue goes #but then i finished part of it and decided to leave it alone bc i liked that way more #just pretend that all the mana has already been sent his way. pictures taken moments before disaster (for dante)

[skitskatdacat63]

Yes these have all already been posted, but 2023 Vettonso comp post for me because I'm going to have an emotional breakdown

#i dont want to sound like a maniac but. i manifested this JDKFLGLVLV #okay but understand. ive been vettonso posting for like 3 or so weeks now #have been drawing them like its my god damn career #have been squealing and screeching over them with everyone #and like oh hey! they're both gonna be at suzuka! and seb is having a bee event! maybe nando will go! #BUT THEN NO I DONT HAVE TO JUST LIVE WITH SCRAPS. I GOT A WHOLE FUCKING MEAL #I AM GOING TO SCREAM AND CRY AND ROLL AROUND THE FLOOR #*i say as if i haven't done all of those things in quick succession after seeing these #yknow very fortuitous time for my parents to have gone on a vacation. so they didnt have to be witness to the emotional breakdown i just had #i was making noises that have not been uttered by human beings before :) #BUT LIKE INWAS LITERALLT JUDT DRAWING VETTONSO FANART #AND I FINISHED IT AND SCHEDULED IT #and was all silly in the tags like 'haha wonder if we'll get any interaction' #and then i go to scroll tumblr one last time before slepeing and I RECEIVE THIS FUCKING 12 COURSE MEAL #i cannot actually describe the emotion i felt when i first saw the pic #like genuine fucking shock through my body like just was like 'is this actually happening' #i said to C today 'i will be happy if we even get a pic of them within eachother's vicinity' #and well wow. theyre certainly within each others vicinities rn #if we actually get any more pics i think i will keel over i think i will actually turn into dust and powder on the floor #UGHHHHHHH JUST THE TIMING!!!!!! THEY DID IT FOR ME 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #sometimes manifesting does work. after you draw like 20 hours worth of art of them #im trying to be concise but i really cant #because its literally just animal screeching and whining noises in my head rn #HOW DO I SLEEP AFTER THIS??????????????? #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #vettonso #2023 japanese gp #we do a little bit of f1

[that-was-anticlimactic]

this is our place, we make the rules

Kunikida rolls his eyes and takes a couple steps towards them, his gaze never straying from theirs and Dazai’s as they watch with bated breath. “You’re both terrible at this. That isn’t how you ask someone to dance!”

He bows, then holds a hand out to each of them, hands shaking lightly.

“May I have this dance?”

And, shit, how could Chuuya ever say no?

[or, chuuya, kunikida, and dazai dance, make out, and fall asleep together]

💫4,146 words | kunichuuzai💫

a two year anniversary gift for my beloved, @zukkaoru !!! i love you so so soooooo much! thank you for being in my life MWAH <333

#corey writes:) #bsd #kunichuuzai #bungou stray dogs #chuuya nakahara #kunikida doppo #dazai osamu #bsd fanfic #omg i FINALLY finished it #it was longer than i was expecting tbh lol #and i wrote half of it while at school haha #so thank you today and yesterday for basically being free days!!! #ily grace!!! hope it's okay <333 #AND there is NO angst🥰 #okay imma get off the hotspot and head home now lol #see you in a bit <333

[opikiquu]

.Aventurine. Aventurine. Boy wh y

#★ arin rambles #★ my art #my best friend finished aventurines boss in 1 try #(i was stuck so i never knew what happened after) #wish she never did #im filled with so much sorrow #THE NOTE. THE NOTE THE NOTE THE NOTE #HE. CARES HE CARES SO M #IM DOOMED #IM TOO LITTLE FOR ALL THIS SADNESS #SO MUCH . TEARS . TOO MANY SAD. WHY. WHYYY MEEEE #The note……… Im never ever gonna drop this ever #Aventurine’s story will haunt me forever #(affectionately) #so good….. but like in a painful way. Like ive been crying for 3 days now #today was the worst offense. MY HEAD HURTS STILL #SAVE ME FROM THIS NIGHTMARE CALLED escape penacony obby! #ill stop rambling now . I need . Rest. Or a ratiorine overdose whichever i find first #i hope my best friends dont see these tags they’ll think im pathetic #And i am. But nobody has to know that #THE NOTE— Okay fine ill stop ILL STOP #hsr penacony spoilers #hsr penacony #penacony #dr ratio x aventurine #dr ratio #aventurine x dr ratio #aventio #ratiorine #hsr aventurine

[snzluv3r]

welp. i had to stop the antibiotic for my sinus infection because i Am indeed allergic to it and it keeps giving me anaphylaxis so yeah executive decision was made that i shouldn’t risk it :( i’m so frustrated and i’m really starting to feel sick to a point that i could collapse at any moment

#literally had a guy from work i see everyday stop in his tracks and ask me if i’m okay #and i purposefully put on mascara today to mask how horrible i feel #sometimes my sinus pain/pressure and migraines get so severe that i think i would rather just. keep taking the antibiotic #because even though that horrible indescribable dread during anaphylaxis #it’s such a scary horrible sickening feeling like it’s so distinct idk but idk…it eventually goes away #the pain doesn’t unless i finish the whole course of antibiotics #this is so fucking frustrating and i’m so tired i don’t have time #i’m scared i’m going to get pneumonia again #i won’t even be able to go to #the appointment they’re scheduling for me tomorrow until at least tomorrow night and that’s if they even have that #otherwise i’ll have to wait til saturday #god by then i’ll be miserable #i’m so drained and it felt like friday all day for some reason but it’s not ugh #random probably delete later just so annoyed

[clambuoyance]

I’ve never been so obsessed with a character so bad that I literally can’t do anything else I’m like the squidward meme watching SpongeBob frolic outside the window stretching a hand out to all the pretty paintings and animations and comics I see in my head but being unable to feel any motivation for it . If only i could use the energy spent to create 20 kon doodles to sit down and concentrate on a single finished full piece I used to be able to make like 5 page comics what happened to me

#sighs yes before anyone says anything IK it’s probably adhd related 😭 #BUT ITS GOTTEN SO BAD I CAN FEEL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY BRAIN HOW DID IT GET WORSE #it’s probably a mix of burnout too but I don’t get tired of drawing ? #it feels like when u get dizzy or change glasses or so #and it’s either everything is wayyy too in focus and you can see literally everything clearly that it hurts ur brain #which doesn’t help given how saturated w information the world is always #and simultaneously somehow everything is blurry or out of focus and I physically have to strain myself to hone in on one thing #I JUST WANNA READ COMICS AND FINISH A DRAWING AND HANDLE WORK AND SCHOOL AND TALK TO MY FRIENDS #ALL IN OME DAY #BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. TODAY IS ONLY FOR COMICS. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ESLE #😫🫶 I’m deleting this later I’m just ranting LMAO #I’m highschool it’s crazy bc I did okay and then honestly i just think my ability to concentrate has deteriorated as the years have gone by #free me!!! #either way I want to lessen my social media and just pick One bc girl I have an Instagram a tumblr and a twitter this is horrible for me . #honestly I’ll probably pick instagram and just post on tumblr when I have art #I already do that #I mean when I have Good art. #IM RAMBLING IDK

[baeshijima]

its 5 am, i am barely alive but i am kicking my feet bc today is my last day until i go home on saturday for a month of winter break and also:

look who came home in 16 pulls 😩

#tears of sophie ; not themis #okay but ngl that week break i took from socmed in general was a nice reset #also bc i have 3 assignment due in early jan so i should be working on them #and also sm has happened like i still need to watch gensin livestream or at least the trailer and hsr livestream later today ????? #AND THE FACT THE NEW TOT UPDATE HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE HOURS AGO #sobs #ill be active again either later today or on the weekend tho !! we just have to see when i have the energy after i finish packing some stuff #anyway i need to sleep now bc i have to get up in a couple hours…. haha…..

[tiredassmage]

six sentence sunday

I started making edits to seasoning on my agonizing little thing from a few past weeks'. i should really put a proper name on this doc or else i'm gonna have another 'disturbia' situation like the rhyst and savosta version of ziost.

... which suggest a running theme about me being unable to properly name ziost-related fics lest i get too emotional. oops >.>

He’d been on Ziost when the alerts had come in - one of her first set of eyes on the scene. He was one of the few that had been able to walk away after Vitiate’s control, owing no small thanks to the timely arrival of Darth Nox. And… with no thanks from her own suggestions about protections for the rest of their forces in the hunt moving forward, she was sure. His files from Imperial Intelligence were still largely classified, but as Minister of Sith Intelligence, and with Darth Marr’s acquiescence to his reassignment to her team after the Coalition, she… knew enough. And no wish to shield one of her best assets from further violation would change the odds they had both seen at hand against Vitiate. That she would not suggest of Nine what she had voiced of the fallen Sixth Line Jedi was but another icy footnote between her and the ex-Cipher.

#dot words #swtor #swtor fanfic #swtor fanfiction #ch: tyr #[it's about him okay this is a section without dialogue tho! omg! tbf its. its bookended by dialogue just. not in today's snippet] #lana beniko #woe this fic that is... one of my open letters to the complexities of her and tyr's relationship i think lol #one day i will provide context but let's see how much i actually finish of the fic first

[gum-iie]

dottore’s lab (canon)

#when you finally find the person who ruined your life (points at mirror) #you're looking rather hot today doctor #genshin impact #dottore #zandik rights #okay but if we don't see more than one clone on screen at the same time i'm uninstalling #i WILL FINISH THIS #i have to my pride as a zandik main (real) relies on it #wip #quarantine doodles

[skitskatdacat63]

Boy King Seb :D

#thank you to Grace for the idea of making his chivarly collar red bull instead <33333 #he was gonna have both collars but then making that one made me suffer so no not today #this was a lot of fun but also made me suffer. but i keep looking at it and being like AAAHHHHH BABY!!! BABY BOY!!!!!!! #can you believe i tried to do this in one night? i cant #i stopped and came back to it and was like 'no way you could do this in one sitting at 1 am' #this is kinda the ascended form of that very first sketch i made for this au! concentrated boy king sebby!!! #i say to myself i need to take a break from drawing complicated things but youll prob see a nando version of this in less than a week ;;; #okay about the drawing(i wrote good tags and then tumblr deleted them so these are a bit inferior AGH): #this is typical pouty seb but is also referenced off a specific pic from AD 2009(beloved) #its very important to me how emotionally open Seb is. im not sure the specific context of this. maybe after a triumph? #but instead of being that typical stoic serious detached kind of ruler; i like him being openly emotional(think AD 2010) #its important as well for his dichotomy with nando and how they choose to portray themselves #seb is very assured in himself and his rule vs. nando who is more insecure and bitter about his #so nando takes strides to portray himself in that more stoic calculating way bcs he feels like it helps him legitimize himself better #whereas seb has absolutely no care for outward public image and shows how he feels and is loved for it(nando hates it but loves it) #not that nando cant be fun and whimsical!! but to me he always seems a bit more mysterious; like i can never tell his true thoughts tbh #anyways i feel like ill finish 10 more drawings before i end up posting the lore pt 2 LMAO #its just a lot harder to organize and layout compared to part 1 which was just an explanation #pt2 would be a mix of more world building/characterization/anecdotes ive talked about with mutuals(LOVE YOU GUYS!!!) #i have a *lot* of ideas (gotta whip out my notes app every once in a while to write down stuff abt it) just hard to put into a coherent pos #sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #f1 art #formula 1 art #f1 fanart #formula 1 fanart #catie.art. #*ill prob make a process post later if anyone is curious!! its fun to write abt my process and influences and such #boy king au

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

[cha1cedony]

Another no writing day :’) Tomorrow I’m mostly free, though, soooo I should actually be able to get some work done!

#atp I just really miss writing! #but I’m busy with other stuff #had a fun DnD session today :) and it was SO nice to see my friends #also having car issues so. that took up my whole morning/early afternoon before DnD basically #sighhh #going to sleep and tomorrow will be a good fresh start :) !!!!!! #I’m not worried about finishing my fics (knock on wood) #I just. want to go ahead and actually FINISH them yk #sorry I keep posting about this lol it’s just nice to post my writing/life updates here teehee #okay night!! #chalcy stuff

[disdaidal]

I do love that I'm both freezing and having the worst back pains.

But at least I still have a roof above my head, right?

#personal #so here's the thing: #i don't think any of the radiators in my apartment are currently working #which kind of sucks bc it's winter in northern europe lmao #one of them had blown a fuse. which i changed yesterday. and now it's cold again. so there's definitely something wrong with it #two of them. which are located in my bedroom/living room combination. have red lights on #but they are both cold and not heating up my apartment. which means i'm freezing here #so it could be a thermostat or something. i don't know #but because my place was a mess. after having worked for a few months and not having energy to do anything else #i had to clean up here yesterday. because i couldn't call my landlord who lives closeby in case he decided to drop in and see #the mess i was living in. to you know. check on those radiators #so anyway. my apartment is pretty okay now. stuff i still need to clean though but it's mostly minor #but i seem to have strained my lower back doing it. or from sleeping in an awkward position because i was cold #the kind of pain i haven't experienced in months which must be a record for me now #but yeah now my lower back hurts. i can't properly crouch or even twist my body to the side without my knees trying to give out #and i've already taken painkillers for it today. which kind of put me to sleep again and had a lovely little nap a while ago #but this is bothersome #i hope my back feels better by tomorrow so i can finish my cleaning and then message my landlord #because i don't want to freeze here anymore xD and i also don't want my houseplants dying because of it so