#GUESS I'LL GO DIE!

[knifearo]

being aromantic is like. hey btw you're going to live a life that is the culmination of most of society's worst nightmares. sorry lol ✌️ but then you turn around and take a really good hard look at it and it turns out that living in that nightmare is fucking awesome and you get to wake up every day and take that fear that other people have and laugh and hold it close until it's a great joy for you instead. and being happy is a radical act that you define instead of someone else. and you're sexy as fuck that's just a fact of life i don't make the rules on that one

#aromantic people are just sexy i'm not making the decisions here it's just facts #course ur hot as fuck. it came free with the aromanticism #being sexy is just default settings for aromantic people 👍 #hope this all helps. anyway i'm on my 'i hope i die alone <3 i can't wait to die alone <3' kick rn #i think the existential fear that people have of Not Partnering specifically is so. well. #obviously that shit is strong and it is SO awesome to be free of it. #realizing you're aro and you don't Want a partner can be such a hit to the solar plexus #cause society says that's the only thing that'll make you happy. so either you go without that thing or you force yourself #into doing something you don't want which would make you unhappy anyway. #so you think it's a lose lose situation and you have to come to terms with what amatonormativity presents as the worst possible situation #but then! whoa! turns out personhood is inherently valuable in and of itself and romantic partnering is just a construct! #and that nightmare is now your life to do with as you please... define as you will... structure as you want... #best case scenario. is what i'm saying. #every day i wake up ready to spit all that amatonormative rhetoric back in life's teeth by being alone and being happy #and it's so fucking satisfying. every day. #fucking JUBILANT being by myself. and i love being a living breathing 'fuck you' to the romantic system #you need a partner to be happy? oh that's sooo fucking crazy guess i'll go be miserable then. in my perfect fucking dream life lmao #yeah obviously it's the worst possible outcome on earth to die without a partner. so terrible. can't wait for it :) #aromantic #aromanticism #aro positivity #aroace #arospec #sorry to bitches who are sad about not having a partner. i could not give a fuck though get better soon #you couldn't EVER pay me enough to go back to a mindset in which my inherent value wasn't enough by myself. #FUCK that shit. absolutely miserable and a bad life outlook in general. like genuinely do the work w/ amatonormativity and get better #life is something that can be so fulfilling whether someone wants to kiss you or whatever or not #i'm on antidepressants and i have people i care deeply about. what the fuck would i need a partner for lmao

[moreaugriffins]

IDK who needs to hear this, but Egon and Ray aren't the only autistic og ghostbusters

Peter is too

Your telling me this man with two PhDs related to psychology, who always has the exact right thing to say to manipulate a situation to his favour (when it's a planned/known situation), but cocks up massively when it's an unknown situation, who has a massive reaction to getting slimed (more so than the others), who would rather joke all the time than take a situation seriously because wtf should he say

you're telling me this man is neurotypical?

nah

Winston's the only NT in this group (idk how he deals with these weirdos (affectionate))

#rambles #ghostbusters #the real ghostbusters #to be specific i guess #peter venkman #egon spengler #ray stantz #winston zeddemore #i've encountered a few autistic people like peter #it's mainly the focus on business and the intense interest in studying people and behaviour and the mind #but he gets so irritated and angry when he gets slimed #the same way i feel when oil or glue gets stuck on my skin #“but he's so good at social situations-” but that's just it! #he is! #because he studies people - studies their reactions - their interactions #a business chat always goes the same way so he can plan what to say to get the best thing out of it #when he flirts with women it seems to be the same way each time - like he's planned it - because he thinks it'll get a reaction he wants #and i dare say that Peter masks a lot more than Ray and Egon. i mean he was a probably more of a cool slacker type at uni and got on well #with more popular students (sorority house students? idk im not american) and yknow it was the 70s! couldnt exactly be fully himself #idk where im going with this - ive lost my train of thought #but yeah #peter is autistic as well and i'll die on this hill

[mayasaura]

griddlehark modern american au where they get married for health insurance reasons. Gideon has it (trade union job) and Harrow badly needs it

#help I'm applying for health insurance #and the temptation to just go 'guess I'll die then ¯\_(ツ)_/¯' is strong but I will master it #any wanna marry ME for health insurance reasons #(99% joke) #...unless

[kyouka-supremacy]

So no sskk?

#😭😭😭 C'mon 😭😭😭 #We deserved it!!! After what the anime did to us!!!!!! #On a different note Dazai finally died 🥳🥳🥳 Love wins #I guess I'll look at that panel of Akutagawa carrying Atsushi bridal style (not really but I'm coping) till the new chapter comes out. Eh #I wanted them to fight... We really can't have nice things #Ugh. WE REALLY CAN'T HAVE NICE THINGS I'm okay actually I just. Nnnggggggghhhhhhhh #I /know/ the manga doesn't revolve around sskk (unfortunately) but I can't help but wish they'd have more screentime... #By the looks of it. Since Dazai absolutely can't die. Some ada ally is going to write on the page to rewrite everything soon #(page that they acquired somehow in the meantime. Don't ask. I just don't think there's any other way this could go. #A Ranpo ex machina or something) #And the arc is going to be soon done with. But I don't want it to end yet I want my juicy sskk conflict... #I wanted them to deepen the “I know you're still in there” “Why did you save me” plotlines... C'mon... #(((I wanted homoerotic bloodsucking))) #(((If we have a whole vampire arc ending without even a single scene of homoerotic bloodsucking in it #you're never going to hear the end of me))) #Alas... Maybe there's still hope. #I hope the skkers enjoyed the skk (╥﹏╥) #random rambles

[starppleb]

Scott is a walking dead flag, isn't he?

The Older brother.

"The perfect child."

The "I don't know who I am if I'm not what my parents want me to be."

Fixed relationship with Acho on the "We'll figure it out later" note.

Besties with Cruppy.

Cooks and gives out nice food.

Seems to miss a bunch of self-defense mechanisms.

Gay. /pos

#There are more reasons for him to die than to survive #sorry kangacrew #Scott is going to die and leave you to be #pirates smp #Pirates smp corruption stuff #scott smajor #dangthatsalongname #smajor1995 #scott denholm #guess now I'll say I called it #StarBories #StarBling

[braisedhoney]

i’m still working on it but uh. my relaxation from my hobby (making a fanfic comic) is to do more things with my hobby (drawing another sona comic. because of course it is.)

ANYWAY anyone else super hyped for the graphic novel?? like holy shit, new official danny phantom content in 2023, and it includes TUE?? wicked.

#ney’s art #ney’s comics #danny phantom #it’s related i swear #sona art #i keep saying i'm not going to do daily uploads bc it burns me out #and then right when i SAY THAT my motivation skyrockets immediately #which is hilarious and also very inconvenient #c'mon man... my hand is gonna die :'D #like the comics style i use now is less strenuous than rending—but that means i can make more pages lmaoo ;; #bah i guess i'll just take advantage of the rush while i got it

[raveartts]

turt

#raveartts #wings of fire #wof #turtle wof #dragon art #kinda art blocked lately but at least dragons are easy enough to draw #i'd love to draw some warrior cats stuff too but like...cats hard #oh well at least i'm drawing SOMETHING #i promised myself i'd do proper art fundamentals practice this year #but so far it's been absolutely pathetic #i'm barely even drawing in the past month #though i shouldn't be hard on myself about it i suppose #i've been stressed and busy and mentally unwell and dying #and i don't HAVE to draw....i just feel obligated to because it's all i'm good at and don't have other reliable hobbies i enjoy #perhaps once school is finished i can draw more #though by then i might be having to move out and work full time and i think i'll just die when that happens #so i'll just never get better at art i guess and i'll just pretend i'm totallyyyyy okay with being subpar forever and ever #lack of perfection DEFINITELY doesn't bother me :))))) not one bit #anyways i have to go to work soon.... #at least my chores are done. perhaps i'll promise myself i'll do some gestures tonight since i'm not busy

[fat-psychward-sockgrippussy333]

I am spiraling lol. Medical racism is such a killer tbh. Black people in rural southern areas deserve compensation for the options we have to deal with I swear😭

The only psychiatrist they have available is so evil and manipulative ( she's literally laughed about a patient who was in a crisis and wanting to kill themselves with a nurse- how I know this? She sometimes keeps the door wide open during sessions bc of this) and other darker instances as well but I cant get into allat rn🫠

The only counselor they have available spends the entire time talking about himself, his messy divorce, and "the crime in this area- Im scared to walk alone sometimes." which is super weird bc shit don't happen around here like that...

Cant even get a call back from the doctor to see about this lump on my body..... And yet these white doctors and nurses get newspaper headlines for traveling to and "making such an impact and difference in one of the poorest counties in IL."

Such. A. Fuckin.Killer.

#im so overwhelmed.. #im so heartbroken #guess I'll just die then #anyway gonna go cry some more and nap #personal

[randomthunk]

I'm finally in DS9 season 7 and oh my GOSH how cute are Kira and Odo, it makes my kokoro go doki doki.

#star trek ds9 #star trek #kiraodo #kira nerys #odo #odo ital #kat arts #fanart #it's White Day that's my excuse (I don't need an excuse) #I'm just crying at how cute they are or laughing because they're still like 'go hard or go home' on everything #'well if this is a problem I GUESS I'LL DIE FOR IT' 'ME TOO' #I'm only like 4 eps in to s7 but one of the recent ones was Kira inviting Ezri to dinner and Odo is over her shoulder like 'ouo' #and Kira going '=<= he counts how much I chew pls come to dinner to distract him' #*pounds fist on desk* I. love. them. your. honor.

[gideonisms]

No don't make every basic life task nearly impossible to accomplish yuor so sexy aha

#am i going crazy or is everything way too hard all the time #it's so dumb it's like. i've been trying to do my laundry for 2 days washers full every day #i can't keep my apartment from smelling no matter how much room spray i buy because my neighbors smoke like. #i have to hassle people into completing the hiring process THEY initiated???? like???? #look getting up the brainpower to accomplish anything through my whole. deal is difficult already but #i am struggling for basic hygeine here!!!!!! why!!!! !!!!!! #guess i'll go die in a ditch smelly and stinky then!!!!!!!! #clean underwear?? that is for people who are really on that grind (washing it in their bathtubs) i fucking guess!!!!!!!!! #okay mercymorn moment over but i'm on my period and i want to throw a massive fit!!!! #anyway #jesus

[rillette]

guys guess what there's a 15% discount (and $5 worldwide shipping) going on on inprnt rn u guys could get one of these cool prints right here for like. ~$10 USD! i also added two new designs to my redbubble u can find those right here ^_^

#shameless self promotion #only 3 prints on my inprnt at the moment because inprnt hates my canvas sizes. SORRY for drawing too small i'll go die i guess 🙄

[todayisafridaynight]

today i found out he still wears a black + silver belt in 2019

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #masato arakawa #ryo aoki #snap sketches #awful that i was pretty much done with this pic but then had to abandon my cpu for like six hours before i could post it #i wanted to draw more today too... oh well #i'll try to squeeze in one more drawing tonight idk #but yeah anywa :] i didnt think we ever saw his belt so i've always made it brown + gold to match his shoes #Guess I'll Die Though it's black and silver. if there's one thing he kept from his life as masato ig its the belt LMAO #and i was just going to draw him in his usual outfit without the blazer but yk what. why not change it up #also i got another email from express... they keep tempting me but i dont particularly want anything right now... #ok bye bye

[redbootsindoriath]

Fëanorian Week 2023, Day 1: Maedhros

I’m so late with these I’m not even fashionably late.  But better late than never (cf. Fingolfin, probably, after finally getting to Middle Earth).

To anyone who went “Hmm I wonder if the theme this year is going to be classical sculpture?”, well, congratulations, you’re right, though I don’t know how you would have guessed that.  I was originally going to do something where I based each drawing off the meaning of the name, and since “Maitimo” means “well-shaped one” the first thing that came to mind was a Greek or Renaissance statue.  But after finishing it I decided that it had been a lot of fun and I might as well do the rest the same way.  And it sort of fit into the whole Fëanorian theme since Nerdanel is a sculptor.

#feanorianweek #maedhros #the man the myth the legends #three shinies #my trash #/end classification tags #GUYS IT'S HERE #IT'S FINALLY HERE #okay no but it helped that i came out of art block in a panic to do figure studies #''wow so you used reference pictures?'' i hear someone ask #NO #I AM STUPID AND YOU ALL KNOW THIS #in like a year i'm going to look at these and shrivel up and die from delayed firsthand embarrassment #it was just trial and error on all of these #but at least i was practicing #...right? #also yes a couple of you may have noticed i'm not reblogging from the other blog this year #this is because i didn't want to post anything on deviantart right before going on a longish trip #it's just too hard to keep up with deviantart on mobile #so i guess i'll post them later after i get back #(maybe) #(because also i feel a little bit awkward about these ones) #(so i don't know yet) #ALSO also i learned today that the colors on the tablet are not the same as the colors on my phone #and neither of them are the same as the colors on my laptop #so i don't know which is right #and i hope you all are seeing the version i had on the tablet because those ones were much cooler tones and i picked them on purpose

[qrevo]

uh can someone. threaten to beat me with a large rock. if i don't finish up my uni work in time. really needing that "fighting for my life" energy to finish these up lol

#i hate html #i hate css #i hate javascript #and the professor DIDN'T ALLOW US to use ANY framework #WHO DOESN'T USE FRAMEWORKS FOR FRONT-END CODING THESE DAYS #i feel like i'm writing with coal in a cave wall #i wish i was learning flutter to code stuff i'm interested in #or messing with databases (i love databases so much) #but noo the professor wants me to suffer i guess #i hate computer science (affectionate) (but i hate frontend coding for real) #the day i die i'll go straight to hell and find Mr. John Javascript myself and teach him a lesson #qrevo.txt

[elysianfiction]

I’m finally free from the clutches of the plague, but I’m going to apologize in advance if things will keep being unsteady for a little longer.

While the fever is finally gone, the cold did a number on my lungs and now I’m under medication to try and get them back to normal. It’s nothing too bad, please don’t worry, but I do have trouble moving around without feeling like I tried climbing Mount Everest, so rip to my hopes and dreams shdks.

Hope everyone’s doing good!

#tbd #it's starting to get kinda hot outside too ughhh #i was looking forward to going to the beach before the influx of tourists but guess i'll die

[stromer]

nothing more humbling than having a little chuckle when my captain eats shit while a knight is on a breakaway and the fuckass goalie on my team stops the guy so i get to laugh again because HAH! casey desmith of all the people got your ass... that's really embarrassing... then casey desmith hands the puck on a silver platter to another guy in gold and they score

#i LOLed and then i serioused. guess i'll go die #ARTY wouldn't have let that happen i can promise you that! #canucks lb