#HES SO PRETTY I WANT HIM TO STEP ON ME

[gildedmuse]

Listen.... Trafalgar Law is like Opposite Pick Me Girl.

Evidence:

He stole Doffy's whole look down to the shirtless sluttiness, feather coat and the earrings.

He COPIED DOFFY'S ACTIVATION METHOD. How "notice me, senpai!!" is THAT!?

Like Doflamingo, he acts as though your attempts at torturing him are absolutely precious.

Law straight up based his jolly roger on Doffy's. Like it's not even kinda subtle. (Not that Law does subtle. Which is weird for someone trying SO HARD to be dark, mysterious, and edge-y as Kikoku. )

Trafalgar spent years of his life travelling around the world, gaining notoriety and power, putting into place a series of intricate moving parts that all had to come together in just the right way all so Doflamingo would notice him and remember his face forever.

Law: Please, Young amaster-sama! Oh, please pick me!

Law: To kick your pathetic, subhuman ass.

[Thanks to @revlischarm who gave me this idea.]

#Law is a TERRIBLE pick me girl #it's never a good sign when they ask you to pick them and also your own coffin (assuming there are any recognizable remains) #Doffy-sama notice me! #I want you to look me in the eyes when I killed you #guys were were two weeks away from Law's obsession getting so bad he'd atatt wearing sunglasses at night #Thank goodness Zoro was there yo distract him aftwr Dressrosa #boy was floating in a empty void; no idea what to do with himself #“He was my future; I spent my whole life looking for him... wanting him.” #“bleeding out in my hands begging for mercy while I spit in his face and promised I'd show him the same mercy he showed Cora-san” #*everyone takes a solid three step back from Law* #*well everyone but Zoro and Robin. They're into this.* #one piece #trafalgar d. water law #trafalgar law #donquixote doflamingo #absolutely fabulous #evil never looked so good #though not so much evil as hell bent on revenge is pretty damn sexy too #all of this was for you Cora-san! #I did all this - risked my life and limbs - just to die in battle to honor your sacrifice and get you the revenge you deserve! #Oh #Oh Law baby #that's not what Cora wanted for you AT ALL #you sweet little revenge muffin

[sysig]

Portal 2 replay review: Hrmnnngggngmngm 💕💖💝💞✨❤️💗

#WPP #WPP2 #Portal #I've only just revived GLaDOS (obviously had to play at least that far lol) but like hhnnnrgng <3 <3 #The graphics! The space! The levels from Portal 1! The cutesy Aperture animations and the three(!) voice actors! #I've completely fallen in love with GLaD's P1 design but honestly what could possibly compare to her P2 design she's so pretty <3 <3 #Stepping over her corpse to wake her up I'm normal I'm fine #And that we start in Test Chamber 1 and then fast track to 19 and end up in the toxic goo ravine fjdlsakfjsdf #I'm Fine I Swear #I forgot so many little details like the floor falling out or the buzz of the portal device (don't like but! Learned a new thing! - #- If while you're carrying Wheatley and you want the buzzing to stop just ''set him down'' - since he can't be set down lol #It cancels the noise :) Much nicer on the ears) #And Wheatley's voice actor ♪ His little flusters and chuckles hehe he's quite personably #I am So excited to get to the audio commentary fdjsalkjfdsf I found it and I'm biting biting biting #I have taken so many screenshots don't even get me started #Like all told for Portal 1 I probably took what like maybe 50 total? I'm probably already at 20 lol #Oh and I picked up a turret and it exploded on me :( I'm so distressed #I only want to knock over turrets I don't want them to explode!! Weh #Hhhh looking forward <3 Yay finally <3 <3 #WPVG

[nightpixxie]

ughhhhhhh I need charlie to shush me like he does kirby.

like he’d definitely talk you through

& his voice 𐙚˙⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩

omg~~~

#he’s so pretty #i want his attention #he could step on me and i'd thank him #charlie walker #scream #scream 4 #rory culkin

[skrunksthatwunk]

have just been introduced to a kitten named rascal who lives on my floor and whose babysitters (who are not his owner?) were trying Really hard to goad me into adopting which like. he's a little baby and he's so so so silly and he barely even bit me but like also. this cat isn't yours???? anyway if the owner's giving him up then I might finally have a cat which like AHHHHHG

#i wanna cat SO BADD #but also i dont think this is the best environment to have ANY non-tank pet tbqh #and i dont wanna have to give him away if my housing situation changes bc my parents house wouldnt work #(one of our dogs has a pretty strong prey drive and i dont wanna risk it) #also the poor guy seems a bit skittish and i think the 2 big dogs would scare him #and then there's the 'is he my cat or your cat' thing w my roommate #i think the answer would be hes my cat bc shes more ambivalent but she can actually take him home so like #and ive pretty much been banking on going home after college anyway so like??? in the long term where would he go??? #but also my dogs are getting older.. maybe by then they'll be gone and that problem'll go away #but hell my room there's bigger than my dorm room so even if we kept him in there it'd be a better space than here #it'd be a step up #ugh idk. i think it's a bad idea to have a cat in rooms this small in general. but i don't wanna see him go to a shelter either #like he's young and cute so maybe it'll be easier for him but he's also not super cuddly with strangers as far as i can tell #idk... im worried about him.... poor little rascal #like one of the girls mentioned being mean to him and i dont want him to be mistreated #like shining lights in his face and stuff #idk... sigh...... #im considering transferring schools at some point. worst case scenario is i go somewhere they dont allow pets and i have to #either find a foster parent or give him away completely #but i really dont wanna have to do that if i can help it. i never want to put a pet that loves and depends on me in a situation like that #much less me like id bawl my ass off #but if theyre treating him bad then even if my situation isnt perfect wouldnt taking him in be in the right anyway? #but how long does that stand for? until i can find him a better home? ughh

[gazelessmenagerie]

( is it too much to lightly throw the idea that each time I have to throw earth #whatever once broly goes ballistic, that's essentially a timeline where that DOES happen instead of the 'soft reboot' that occurs bc I can't necessarily have earth be destroyed cause RP land etiquette for the other folks I write with. sdfjg )

#|| Tag: OOC #(... it just hit me bc I don't necessarily WANT to pretend him being an uncontrolled force of anger is meaningless ) #( when he's pushed to the brink of losing that control but I dont want to step on peoples toes or seem like im godmodding it ) #( like i do what I can to make sure he doesn't reach that point but ah.. ;w; it cant be helped in some cases ) #( so I'm just kinda pushing it to my own narrative that each time a timeline gets fucked up that bad. it just kinda “ends” there ) #( and the focus shifts towards either another Timeline where Broly DIDN"T do that thing and kill everyone/everything. ) #( so in short.. its like having a trial and error where there's at least one timeline of things going better ) #( but its not pretty and broly has a 90-99% rate of destroying shit bc he's an awful person. ) #( its why it kinda helps if he has people who can effectively calm him down but even they can't help him when hes lost his marbles complete

[poorwillednightjar]

i just want him (<- refers to multiple people) OH so bad, i could melt in his marrow like hot broth <3

#this is about. three (3) men #two of them im only after carnally #the other… #Oh… I shan’t say #he is so pretty hes the most gorgeous man ithink #i want him to punch me <3 #gently #hes so pretty #so pretty #sooo pretty #i wanna step on him #<3

[astxrwar]

hm. thought too hard about 50+ y.o. gray-haired senator bucky. have to lie down

#astxrwar.txt #bucky barnes #that post that’s like ‘how old sre you anyway’ ‘old enough to be your father’ *changes background to love* ‘really sweetheart?’ #yes. really. #old men. sorry. hornyjail.jpeg #the deets are independent journalist doing a biography #w elements of hero worship. but only in the beginning. and bucky being very used to people wanting to hear about steve #but not about him. so he’s kinda into it. im disregarding peggy!cap bc it doesn’t fit the #~psychological elements~ of the narrative #i saw old man buck in what if and went ‘would.’ #also im just on a flustered n easily overwhelmed!RC x guy who gets off on the power differential kick rn. shrug emoji #almost want to take it a step further with pointed and intentional teasing re: age gap via ‘kid/kiddo’ but #did that once and pretty sure it made ppl angry enough that there’s a vaguepost out there partially abt me 😭 #oop. #anyway

[noxtivagus]

i screamed.

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxiv. ] #i forgot abt the manga for a bit. GOT NERVOUS TO READ BCS I'LL GO. HDFKLASJDFLKSJDFLKADSJF YK #( apollo's watching over my shoulder n said to write that i'm ugly. like. artemis is ugly. sobs ) #oh my god. i can't read this. i just want to change all my pfps now n. be delusional. daydream. FUCK #EMET-SELCH YOU'RE SO UNFAIR 😭😭 #& yotsuyu ma'am you're so pretty pls step on me hahahaha #n then alphi my bb first year he's so adorable i love love love him so much. my bb boy my dearest #AYMERIC YOU'RE SO LOVELY N HAURCHEFANT YOU'RE SO PRECIOUS I'LL CRY #the rest of them too but. rn my brain. is in school mode. i cannot. handle this. rn. oh my god. help #GAIA N RYNE WAHH THEY'RE SO CUTE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH 🥹🫶🏼 #i'm enjoying this so much but i'm just skimming through to look at stuff #guys i love final fantasy xiv so much. #alphinaud at the end of the second chapter is so me actually #i froze when i saw emet-selch w the book. i have no words. oh my god. #GAIA N YSAYLE INTERACTION MY GIRLS I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i have. assignments to do tho lmfaoooo that's enough for now. actually maybe i'll just quickly skim to the end of this chapter #i'm too shy to add more pics bcs. the 4th chapter. BUT. ALPHINAUD SAVING THE LIL KID I'M SO IN LOVE 🥹🥹🥹🥹🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 #alphi n alisaie. i'm emotional. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH 😭😭 alphi's soft smile there though.. i'm. so. in love. #alphi w the kid. alphi n alisaie. hdflaksdjfldk i love alphi so much my dear alphi :c #i want to ramble so much help me. but. SCHOOL. HFDALKDSFJDLKFJ SOBBING BYE #just some snippets from the manga yes. don't mind me

[comraderoscoes]

lotta jumbled up thoughts abt the way this team is acting towards lewis’ success this season and none of them are good

#really hated the way they acted in aus after his podium and the way they kept saying they could’ve won the race . fucking do it then #silverstone there was so much talk about his safety car luck as if he literally didn’t go thru abu dhabi 🤡 #and now this weekend which like #it would literally be sooo easy to fix this pr disaster. #like post a podium pic? post him being p3 or gaining another record breaking podium? something ? anything #or write a tweet explaining why the team weren’t at the podium (if yk there’s a proper explanation lol). like it doesn’t even need to be a #statement ? just a tweet would suffice #what are they doing 😭😭😭 #if it’s bc of the DNF then surely that’s doing a disservice to gr and also is in such stark contrast to their response to zandvoort #anyway hm. the continued silence is irking me like it’s one thing to mess up ur sm strategy after the race and not show up for the podium #it’s another thing to carry on the day after 😭 #and tbh like . there are weekends when you have to squint to see gr on their sm so i think the team is pretty poor as a whole #but this weekend has felt inc disrespectful to lewis #then what shov said …. ew!! #ANYWAY . thoughts spilled out . now repress #i hope they step their act up. if i’m being generous to them i’d say hopefully it’s bc of the standard lewis / merc set themselves to and #mb podiums don’t mean that much given that they want a wdc #but fuck that celebrate him #and also … idk if i believe that LOL

[lucalicatteart]

Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 7: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression

(✦ see past poll results + further information HERE (link) ✦)

The winning option of yesterday's poll was that the adventurer should go on a 5 day journey to find the Innkeeper's weird brother who studies animals, and show him the Suspicious Egg….

~

The next morning he wakes early, buzzing with renewed purpose, and also minor back pain from sleeping on old potato sacks.. After a meager breakfast of more free leftover scraps, the Innkeeper stops him before he leaves, giving him a few extra supplies for the long journey, as she can tell he doesn't have much. He packs up and sets out onto the road once again, crumpled sketchy map in hand...

He has a fairly uneventful journey for the first day - waving at the occasional other travelers as they pass, cleaning his boots in a nearby pond, stopping to eat some dumplings whilst watching the sunset, and finally setting up a small tent a short ways off the main path, resting with his cat by a dim campfire until they both fall asleep......

The second day, however, does not start as smoothly.. Only a few hours further down the road, he's met with a large barricade, guarded by a group of what seems like elven soldiers from one of the larger surrounding cities of the area. Practicing his confidence, he puts on his best "brave face" (which to others, appears more as some sort of pained wince, like he might have something in his eye), shakily striding right up to the authority figures he is definitely not afraid of.

"Halt, traveler! You cannot pass."

He sways slightly, struggling to keep his wobbly legs under control, "OH, y-yEAH, ssorry, I was-, hh, I was just walking, ~o-out for a stroooll~, haha, so I .. uh.. o-okay. That's.. okay. But, uh.. could, can.. euh.. C-can I ask why? like... why the, uh... blocking off.. of ... the um.. the-"

"Unfortunately, we are not at liberty to disclose any information on the nature of this current road closure. Our sole duty is to maintain security of the barrier."

"hhHeh, ye.. eAh, for sure, I-I get that.. Duty is.. really so... important in ... today's world.. gotta, um.. do the duties.. or, uh.. .. yeah, but.. so, uhhh... wh-Do you know.. maybe, uh... H-how long you'll, like... be here? guarding... and such...??"

"We'll be here as long as we need to be here."

"...O-okay.. but, like.. uh... any,,.... time estimate? hahahehhh?? like, uh.. a day, or... two, or um...??"

"This matter does not concern you, traveler. Move along."

"Aoh, yeahgh, I.. totally.. totally.. it, uh.. Well.. but it kind of does though,, right? B-because I do, in fact, actually have to go down that road at some p-point sssoo, um,... uh.. I-"

"I said move along."

The guard abruptly takes a step forward, causing The Adventurer to yelp as if he'd been hit, tripping over his own feet and scrambling off on hands and knees, lunging into bushes near the rocky roadside.. After exchanging a confused glance, the guards both shrug, resuming their stoic positions at the barrier.

The Adventurer watches from the uncomfortable safety of some berry brambles, surveying the area at a distance and desperately trying to work out how he can still get where he's trying to go. The map given to him by the Innkeeper is pretty straightforward, not showing alternate paths. Based on his primary map, he could maybe think of a few detours, but he's anxiously unfamiliar with the area... How should he proceed?

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Additional Details - (I decided whenever he gets new items or goals or something, I'll list them at the end just to keep track)

items + to inventory (from the Innkeeper): 2 lunchboxes of vegetable dumplings, 2 canteens of water, a box of tea, one rope, 1 pouch of dried meat, 4 candles, a hand-drawn map

main goal: get to the abandoned castle ruins to see the rare animal specialist about the egg

#paventure posting #polls #choose your own adventure #SORRY this took so long. I still want to do this daily or every other day lol. I just had a lot going on the past few days #the story tidbit of this one is slightly longer again because you need spaces to break up dialogue and etc. but much shorter #than the other one still and pretty concise. I tried to leave out a lot of detail and just give the bare minimum again lol #Hopefully his speaking style isn't too grating also ghbjhb.. I'm more familiar with writing dialogue for like.. people to say out loud so #to me I'm always trying to hear it in my head and write eveything exactly how it would be spoken. and to me it sounds fine #if you act it in the exact voice I'm envisioning and have a distinct speaking style where you pause or drag #out words in a specific way - like with particualr cadence and comedic timing - it sounds fine #I'm just not sure if that translates to text as well lol #But he doesn't actually talk often. the past two times have been exceptions since he keeps running into people #And he'll have to talk if he ever actally makes it to the Innkeeper's brother. But most obstacles on the road #are probably prettyy easily dialogue free #ANYWAY... #Love his dramatics.. Imagine if you just take one step towards someone and they scream and throw themselves #onto the ground and run away gjhhjbj #the cat just leisurely trotting over to catch up with him because they're not actually scared #anyway.. ! day 7.. that's like a whole week! except it's been over a week since sometimes it takes me like 2 days lol

[gifti3]

Im cursing [REDACTED] right NOW

#god i better never have contact with this guy again or i might flip out on him #im about to ramble about my past “dating" adventures (we were casual but sheesh cant even be friends with this guy tbh) #im realizing months later how much this guy i used to talk to sucked #like DUDE be a better or stay single FOREVER (ΘдΘ) #and by that i mean learn how to better handle approaching others feelings! #god the way he would just shutdown others ppls feelings and it was just an endless loop of “that doesnt make sense” or “thats dumb” #sure emotions can be irrational but if someone is desperately TRYING to explain why they feel a way (even if theyre struggling to be clear) #maybe dont be so dismissive #like literally one time i was annoyed cause talking to him was grating on my nerves #and i was like ik it doesnt make sense so let me step away cause im annoyed #and hes like trying to logic me out of my annoyance??? #like worstie im literally walking away so i can cool off #leave it be! #god looking back on all this.... #i hope to god whoever hes talking to (if hes talking to anyone) isnt dealing with similar things #ppl can change so ill just hope for that #or maybe he'll meet his match #someone who reflects the same energy he has! #tho im not sure if hed like that haha #the guy seemed to have a lot of relationship problems in general (romantic and platonic) and i wanted to have the benefit of the doubt #but now im thinking maybe his personality was also just clashing with everyone elses #which isnt necessarily a bad thing on its own #gotta get context for everything u know #but in this case....naur #like im a pretty anxious person so how ppl i care about will react to what im doing or saying is constantly at the back of my mind! #so ppl who just come off as flippant about my fee fees annoy me fr #im like “ahh what if i upset so and so” constantly #trying to make sure not to make things harder for them #and they cant even spare me a single thought before doing something and dismiss me when i get upset #but also they wanna come to me when theyre feeling sad about something???

[mythology-void]

fuck it no one else is going to but loki could crack me like a glow stick I am not afraid

#bringing back my 2021 loki obsession heyyyy guys #he's SO PRETTY GUYS #and tom hiddleston is literally perfect for the rolw #when i say I've seen every single movie he's ever been in #you think I'm joking? test me #anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk #loki laufeyson #loki series #thor odinson #fffffuck im. ugh anyway #marvel #huge huge huge marvel fan btw if anyone wants to message me about it feel free #just saw an edit of him in the first thor movie and holyyyyyy FUCK #this man could step on me in fucking nine inch stilettos and i would say thank you

[rexcaliburechoes]

diamant, the horrors chamber, and why he’s just so fun to mess with // the diamant-sertation series

i’d talked a little about this before on twitter about diamant angst and if i’m doing alright (i’m fine just biochemistry major go brrrr) and i just remembered this:

and i wanted to think about this for a little bit. i’m going to try and not retread old ground, but that’s kind of impossible if i want to break him in a realistic way.

but i was mostly thinking about how easy it is to destabilise him. i might be woobifying him too much, but i swear, i’ve been through this rigamarole before with a variety of characters. i’ve hurt characters over and over and over again, testing their limits, watching them bend and potentially break, and diamant has keeled over the fastest. it’s kind of funny in a bit of a twisted way.

but i mean it: why does he bend to easily compared to others?

i think it’s because he Refuses to experience The Horrors, and so when something encroaches on that tenuously stretched self control, he simply cannot deal with anything new, so he shuts down. you’d think he’d have a fight response to new stressors (he is of brodia; if you can’t fight, then what kind of brodian are you?) but i think he’s gone past that point. he’s dealing with enough already as it is, just One More Thing just will set him off. he’s tired, overwhelmed, and bottles everything up because He Should Be Able To Deal With It.

there’s definitely an allegory of being undiagnosed neurodivergent in here somewhere but we don’t have time to unpack all that.

but since diamant is so easily burnt out (which, haha, funny fire trauma go brr), he’s just an easy target to picking at all of his weaknesses and flaws. diamonds have very predictable cutting planes, and if manage to hit one just right, the entire crystal will shatter.

#rex rambles #fire emblem #diamant #diamant fire emblem #fire emblem diamant #fe engage #fire emblem engage #story abt the breaking in realistic way: i'd once met a writer in a different fandom who tortured the charas as a sign of love as one does #she at least tagged her shit so i could avoid it but what most struck me and drove me insane was how all the characters were consistent... #consistently same-y that is. all of them filled the same basic tropes of weak and abused + abuser which doesn't work for some characters #also she wrote one of my favourite characters as an abuser to a character he would never abuse and though he can be neglectful he's not... #he's not like an outright abuser like that. unfortunately a lot of ppl keep stepping on his goddamn trauma so he's very testy #but he's loyal to a fault been burned before scared and angry and he just needs a friend that won't hurt him like he's been hurt before #i have a mild headache and biochem to work on so this is as far as i can go rn so i'm sorry if this one is a less polished than my usual #i just find it interesting that he will bend sooner and requires much more time to. ah. rehydrate him. so to speak #if you want him to be healthier and less stretched thin #bc that's what burnout does: it messes with your ability to Exist and work and the more chronic stress that piles up #something will inevitably snap and usually it ain't pretty

[lycanthian]

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#i am so in love its unreal. never have i ever before felt this wealth of human emotions so concentrated over the past month and a week #genuinely mind boggling how talking to logan more and more and then dating him has literally made me feel likr a new man. #not that im different or that i absolutely need him to function in my day to day life #but its the richness that being in love brought to my life that was unexpected #i had a thing with another online friend like 4 yrs ago and it never felt like much admittedly. i almost gave up dating when he broke it off #bc i thought there was something to online dating that wasnt cutting it and i didnt stand a chance at meeting someone irl #and that entire time i knew logan at least a little bit but we didnt really begin talking often until like #6 months ago maybe? and just the more we talked the more we clicked ajd i liked him so much but i was so afraid that it wouldnt be mutual #and i was so afraid that even if he is in what feels like a pretty open polycule hed never ask me out or anything #and then he did and my world felt like it exploded into a cacophony of colors and sounds and feelings and emotions #like something had been unlocked in me that hadnt been touched in years. my ability to love. #and with that came some of the most upsetting spiraling intense depressive states of my life. but it was okay. it still is okay. #its only been a bit over a month but it feels like so much more than that bc i feel like everything is so much more vivid now #i also think im beginning to take a very particular fondness to someone else in the cule but im so not stating who or expanding upon it #he also makes me really happy but i dont think im ready to take that step yet. even if it would be a dream come true. #i love what i have now and i dont want to complicate it yet. #a extremely loving and charming boyfriend and a couple of other close friends who happen to also be dating him is good. its awesome #i just. i dont know. i dont know how logan would feel abt it. i dont know abt how other guy would feel abt it. #sometimes im not even sure how i would feel abt it #aughghhhhhhhh. yeah. human emotion. love for my boyfriend who is beautiful and loving and charming and funny and talented. ueh #i dont think he reads these rambles. sometimes i hope he does. sometimes i hope he doesnt. i love him so much #i dont want to worry him with my shit constantly but it would also be nice to worry him with it occasionally #logan if you see this i love you more than words could ever describe. im so happy that ur in my life and that you chose me to be in ur own #gamey rambles #💜

[kazuichikazuichi]

Kazuichi for the Character Bingo

THANK YOU FOR ASKING ME ABOUT HIM AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA literally my favourite character of everything ever he is my special guy he is everything to me

under the cut for a non kaz thing:

yeah, they're my cats, and thank you!! and lola says thank you as well 🐈‍⬛

#me: 'the fandom is so mean' also me: drew him on the floor getting bullied by the survivors #idk i just think even though its fun to bully him a little lol i think he deserves a break 🥲 #also YEAH so i love this man if you could not tell by my username and profile picture and just. general everything #i want to bite him chomp chomp chomp chomp chomp ch #he is the character that comes most naturally to me when writing by far! because i project on him so hard that i just make him react how i #would react. and that seems to gain a pretty positive reception so yay :) #he is SOOOOO SILLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY yes i project on him but also i want to kiss him idk its complicated #he is so handsome to me #he makes me bark ferally WOOF WOOF WOOF ARF ARF BARK BARK BARK WOOF #sorry was that a step too far #i love kazuichi :3 :3 :3 #literally the most attached i have ever been to a character ever #if i had to get rid of every other character in the world and just keep one it would be him #i love him............................... #two of my fave physical headcanons for him are him having a few freckles and also him having naturally brown eyes (under his contacts) #i want to SQUEEZE HIM IN THE MOST AGGRESSIVE HUG IN THE WORLD #i cant stop typing somebody help me #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #i am drowning in too many tags #ask game #kazuichi soda #kazuichi souda #also yeah bonus photo of lola lmao sorry if thats out of place here i just get paranoid abt posting too much so combined that ask with this

[widevibratobitch]

i need to dye my hair i need to cut my hair i need to bleach my eyebrows again i need to shave them off completely i need to DO something i need CHANGE or ill go insane

#sorry im panicking for no reason whatsoever and need to do THINGS to my mortal body but like. #something that will not cause any actual harm because we dont do that here sir na-ah not anymore #also swinging a bat at the part of my brain that keeps telling me i need to lose weight because i liked my face better X kg ago #and also i need to step on the scale and check how much i weigh now cause what if ive put on weight since spring (i most definitely did) #also my mom keeps nagging me about going to that super great endocrinologist again but last time i went i told him i had an ED and he went #'yes very sad. anyway' and weighed me and told me the number anyway. but hey! he also said #'i have fatter patients than you its ok dw your situation isnt that bad we can concentrate on losing that weight later' so its cool :)))))) #(its not. im never fucking going there again id rather rip my whole thyroid out of my throat with my bare hands) #also i really want that rhinoplasty but more than a failed surgery im afraid of betraying my ideals lol #its much easier to be anti make up or anti plastic surgery or preach about self love and acceptance when you're naturally pretty lol #anyway. fucked up mental state rn idk why it was fine an hour ago kms