#I can't say it enough

[theidiotwhowritesthings]

um, hi?🥴

well, it has been a hot minute since i've been around. first thing first, i am super sorry about disappearing off the face of the planet with no warning of any kind.

second, i wanted to thank everyone who sent me a message checking in on me. i logged in today to an overwhelming amount of love and that really meant so much to me. y'all are literally the sweetest people ever. it would take me a full 24hrs to reply to them all so i'll spare y'all the flood of me being sappy, but the summary is I LOVE YOU (yes, i am talking to you, you beautiful soul and precious person). just know that if you sent me a message i read it more than once and it made me happy cry.

third, let's go over my excuses. i won't bore y'all with the details but life got tough. many of you know i was job searching, and the sort of good news is i got a job! and it's technically a great job. medicine has just burned me out to a degree where i looked forward to nothing. so then i felt disgustingly disrespectful and ungrateful for the opportunities i have. my brain was a vicious cycle for a bit there.

fourth, and the final portion of this rambling i promise, the topic of writing. this entire time i've been able to work on my original work which has been super rewarding. i think i'll be able to get some copies out to beta readers soon and hopefully get some ARCs ready for the summer. but in terms of what's going on here, i haven't had time to work on a lot but before i went MIA i was like 90% done with the next chapter of 'Take Care of You' so i'm hopeful to get that out at the very least. the good news is not only is that chapter decent in length but it also gives y'all all the answers you've been waiting oh so patiently for (: anyways, from here on out i'll try to be better about answering asks and i'll work on some stuff for y'all promise💜

#sorry #sorry sorry #sorry sorry sorry #i can't say it enough #i didn't mean to disappear #but to everyone who showed me love while i was gone #i love you x100000000 #i'm reaching through the screen to place a tender smooch on your forehead #unless you're not a fan of touch in which case i am blowing you a kiss #my loves

[booasaur]

Perry Mason (2020) - 2x02

#perrymasonedit #perry mason hbo #della street #anita st. pierre #juliet rylance #jen tullock #perry mason hbo 2x02 #perry mason spoilers #violence tw #anita x della #femslash related stuff #gosh! #when she leaned in like that and the camera angle changed #like the whole mood flipped from casual and very mildly flirty to just very sexy #anita is just so brave and open #I can't say it enough

[eky11]

Can I just pass by and tell you that your drawing style gives me life? Because seriously.

I feel alive every time I see one of your drawings.

AAAAA OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

THANK YOU SO MUCH. I'M ABOUT TO CRY THIS IS SOOOOO SKFBDK IT MEANT A LOT TO ME. I always see you in my notes but I didn't expect this, thank you so much again. If you saw me answer late is because I've been re-reading this over and over and over and over and over again. And then screaming in my pillow. And then reading it again. THANK YOU SERIOUSLY. I'VE BEEN THINKING WHAT TO SAY BUT I STILL AM AT LOSS OF WORDS SKDJS ;-;

#YOU HAVE NO IDEA OF HOW MUCH MOTIVATION THIS GAVE ME #I CAN'T SAY IT ENOUGH #THANK YOU SO MUCH

[shark-myths]

i just finished all of the girl out boy collection and i’m sure you get anons like this all the time but i can not even impress upon you how lifechanging this was for me. i just turned 20 and i’m so unsure of myself and who i am and what i am and i’ve been up for two nights in my dorm room reading girl out boy and going a little bit crazy but i just want to say you get it. in so many ways and i guess it shouldn’t be surprising because you also grew up female and loving women but you put into words things that i’ve only felt deep in my soul since elementary school but haven’t been able to verbalize. i’ve cried multiple times (esp reading sell out girl), mostly because of the fics but also largely because of your author’s notes. i hope you’re doing well and i’m so incredibly thankful you gave the world this piece of your soul. thank you so much

2/3: i just accidentally sent an ask that i wasn’t finished with but i’m not even sure what else i can say except thank you. thank you

3/3: same anon as the last two i remember the other thing i’m going to say and i promise this is the last of it because i know i’m spamming you now but . my birth mother disowned me a couple years ago for being a lesbian and i found out recently she has cancer so that part of andy’s story really stuck with me. thank you for not feeding into the whole “this person may not have much time left so suck it up for them” narrative because i could never do that. thank you thank you, i promise i’m done now and i hopes you’re having a great year so far

*

darling, there just aren't words for what it is like to share this story with the world and hear back me too, me too, i see you. i know i always say this but it's the most important thing that's ever happened to me. i will never be the same as i was before this story came into my life. thank you for seeing me and letting me see you back.

and yeah. you don't actually have to have compassion for the people who abused you. we all die of something eventually, and it is the work of our lifetime to treat others in a such a way that they want to be by our sides, forgive us, remember us. it is not your fault or your burden if someone doesn't do that. anger is better for healing than giving of yourself, out of guilt and shame, when you can't afford it. it is beautiful to be generous with people when we can be, and miserable and stupid to expect ourselves to when we can't.

i hope you're having a great year too. spam me anytime.

#asks #girl out boy #you guys #you guys always make me cry #this is everything #FANDOM IS AMAZING #thank you anon #thank you all anons and ao3 commenters and readers and feelers and girls and people who were raised as girls and and and #just thank you #i can't say it enough #together we made it home #writing

[giffan]

#did I ever mention that I love his smile #well I do #I can't say it enough #sdg #efmir #i'll miss them so much #senden daha güzel #senden daha guzel #burak celik #cemre baysel #dizi #romcom

[cosmicdreamgrl]

lots of love to you too @cordiallyfuturedwight 🥺🥰

#steph.text #deserved her own post fr #but in all seriousness she's one of the sweetest funniest & warmest people i've met here #i can't say it enough

[nnobodoodles]

Oh wow, I'm absolutely FLOORED by the response on my Strawhat Screenshot Redraws! Thank you so much, been reading all your lovely tags and smiling SO much!! 💖

Here's Part 2 with requests from Insta plus some. Let me know if there's someone else you'd like to see!

#one piece #nnobodiusart #Portgas D Ace #Portgas D. Ace #Nefertari Vivi #Princess Vivi #Buggy the Clown #Red Haired Shanks #Shanks #Dracule Mihawk #Sir Crocodile #Donquixote Rosinante #Trafalgar Law #Trafalgar Water D. Law #Bon Clay #Perona #Screenshot Redraw #I added Vivi Ace Crocodile & Shanks the rest were requested #Law and Mihawk are HARD to draw can't do them enough justice #Mihawk is a bit live-action inspired #Sorry for the semi-unintentional Shuggy may happen again #Note to say Ace looks almost the same bc Alabasta Ace is literally perfect

[linddzz]

Thinking about Weird Barbie and how she's the very obviously queer outsider of the Barbie world, she straddles the lines between Barbie and the Real World. She's the most aware of the performative nature of it all. She supports Barbie while also gently mocking her panic at losing the hyperfeminine perfection. Her weird house is also home to the discontinued reject weird Barbies, the outcasts (including very gay earring Ken) who never fell into either the original matriarchy or the Kentriarchy brainwashing.

The other more classically heteronormative and beautiful Barbies both pity and fear her, and at first the narrative pities her as well. She's the vessel of girls going weird and crazy and feral on their dolls and that's amazing. Weird Barbie is aware of who she is and how the world sees her and she loves it. She's Weird Barbie and She Owns It.

#i couldnt identify with a lot of the Barbies Feminine Crisis on as deep a level as other women i know #but holy shit did i see what they did with Weird Barbie aka Queer Barbie #GOD this movie did such a great job capturing the feeling of #gender is fake and but also its real #ive been having gender thoughts #mostly about how im so goddamn ambivalent about gender that i can't even identify #with the idea of thinking about What Is My Gender enough to say its nonbinary #my gender is Sure Okay #she/her yeah fine its whatever #barbie

[anne-is-confused]

Captain Francis Crozier, at Furthest North.

#the terror amc #francis crozier #my art #can't believe it took me 2 rewatches AND getting refs for this to realize it's the hungarian state opera house. girl i was there last month #anyway yeah i was looking at gifsets of the last shot of the show and feeling nauseous with emptiness etc etc when #the thought struck me that it looks an awful lot like the tableau vivants from the ep1 flashbacks in its stillness #i have no idea whether that was an intentional reference (a sort of twisted mockery of how that scrubbed and polished portrayal of history #contrasted with the deeply sad and inglorious reality #or some sort of meta about storytelling itself. i'm not really smart enough to say lol) but i made this anyways. enjoy #pattern recognition go brrrrrrrrrrrrrr #i bent over backwards trying to make this symmetric and harmonious. it isn't but if i don't post it now i never will

[egophiliac]

IT'S BUNNY TIME EVERYBODY

(feat. Dilla)

(bugle accompaniment by Yuu)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #white rabbit festival #ah...the eternal dilemma of 'is it hair dye or whimsical anime hair'. and so we roll the dice again. #so it's canon now that yuu is inexplicably great at bugling. everybody get ready to incorporate that incredible trivia into your characters #anyway HELLO THERE madam spade #i think we have enough evidence now to say that you're not allowed into nrc unless you have an absolutely smoking mom #(riddle's mom has a smoking crater where her heart should be but we digress) #dilla likes two things: BIG VANS and also telling her son's friends all about how he used to literally refuse to not dress like a bunny #and yet now he does not wish to dress like a bunny. :( deuce what HAPPENED #meanwhile epel is too polite to whine at his best friend's mom so he's just hoping vil never finds out he wore a bonnet #silver is like 'i'm the handsomest little marching band boy. i'm taking this outfit back to show everyone.' #and ortho put all his points into POWERFUL THIGHS #he minmaxed leg day and is going to go kick a tree in half #can't wait for part 2 to see if they resolve the exciting cliffhanger of whether or not silver finds an alarm clock

[inkskinned]

she says he won't let her get a dog, which is fine, because they're in an apartment, and that's the kind of thing people say about their partners. he won't let me get a dog. and you're at a dinner party and you tilt your head a little to the side just like that dog he won't let her get, because is this the thing that's going to upset you? you don't know every corner of their relationship, she could be joking, they could have had so many healthy conversations about the dog, right, and maybe she's not letting herself get the dog because of money and time and whatever. but, like, she did say let

and she wants to move away from his hometown and he wants to stay and then he tells you with a wink and a conspiratorial stage whisper don't worry i'll convince her and she laughs about it - so clearly this is something they laugh about. but you do just stand there and stare at him like what the fuck, man. you can't say what you want to say which is why do you get the final say on everything because they're both obviously aware of the other person's stance on this and have obviously had private conversations about it and what are you going to do about it except make a scene and then he'll be mad at you and call you one of those bitches behind your back and she'll cut you off, which is a loss that doesn't feel worth it just because he makes you a little skeeved out every 3rd comment

and they both agree he just isn't the type to get flowers which is fine because everyone shows love differently, and are you really gonna judge someone based on their sense of individual relationship responsibility? maybe he's constantly cleaning her car and writing her poems and making her furniture or something. maybe she doesn't even like flowers and this is perfect, actually. and no you couldn't date him, obviously, ew; but like, she tells you she's happy. you almost send her a tiktok that says don't be 25 and the cool girl that doesn't need anything, you'll hate not getting flowers at 30, but that's like, starting drama & you shouldn't start drama needlessly.

and you're a little older than her but not so much older you can pull the whole trust me on this one babe thing and besides that wouldn't have worked anyway (when does it ever) and besides you have trauma so you and your therapist both agree that you're always looking for a problem even when there isn't one. and you tell yourself that just because you see them for 15 minutes every month does not mean you can identify every single red flag based on a single shitty half-joking(?) comment

and besides, what are you going to do? she says i actually wanted another stand mixer but thankfully he stops me when i'm about to spend too much money and you're standing there like are you okay? is this normal? is this just something people say? and again - what are you going to do?

to your therapist you try to language it - it's not, like, any of my business. but sometimes, doesn't it feel like - you should do something. there's got to be something, right? you've tried dropping little hints but they sail right through and you've tried having a single serious conversation and she got upset because why does it matter to you, yes it's different but we're happy, it doesn't need to make sense to you and you're like. really unwilling to push a boundary about it anymore; because the truth is that you know logically it shouldn't matter to you, as long as both parties are happy.

and besides, you've been wrong before. it's just... like, every time you see them both, something else happens, some kind of shiver down your spine like do you even hear each other when you talk. it's their strange, bickering orbit. just the way he's on his phone through dinner or watching sports instead of helping in the kitchen or, fuck, another one of these little throwaway comments he makes about we'll see about that, babe. she laughs when he calls her passions stupid shit and meanwhile she gets him tickets to see the knicks and he tells you well at least she's smart about something and still! it's none of your business.

you say get the dog anyway and she laughs. like, this is is you being funny. and not you saying - no really. get the dog. get the dog and get out of here. pack up and start running.

#this btw is not including toxic friendships this is legit just something ive experienced MANY times now #writeblr #you ever have a friend in one of those relationships where ur like #u don't HATE their partner explicitly #but ur like. what the fuck y'all #like the weird part of being an adult is that you can't be like . CERTAIN their relationship is toxic #and also if u move too fast or push too hard u can hurt someone who is already in a scary situation so you just are like #frozen there. laughing awkwardly. saying ''haha..... yeah..... couldn't be me....'' #and like u can't tell - is this banter or does he actually think like. he's better than her. #all you can do is be there for your friend and hope they wake up to it #or ... that it really IS good #and it's just odd to you #tbh btw id rather have my friends feel safe coming to me if they have a concern about my relationship #like yes it's not ur business but it also IS bc im making u hang out with them and also ur my friend #it's a weird thing to experience as an adult bc it is such a blurry line and when u spend time #around couples that aren't like ACTUALLY ur friends but instead ''extended friend circle'' ur like #.... i don't know y'all well enough and he just called you a cow. and ur okay with that . and i don't know how to respond. #so ur like :) okay. um. go to couple's counselling i think #but also you are NOT supposed to pass judgement so it's like.... this weird limbo of feeling like you SHOULD say something #but knowing you CANNOT #idk that there's a way to resolve it!!!!!!!! it's probably a different approach person to person #edited my tags bc tumblr's new system fucked em up #PS EDIT: btw i should have said: #the pronouns in this can work in any and every direction. every gender and every sexuality and every #type of relationship tbh. even non-romantic relationships where ur like ''what do u mean ur bff calls u stupid''

[wasyago]

the man(?), the myth(?), the legend(?)

#actually one of the hardest designs to figure out for some reason #his voice and maner of speech have a *very* specific vibe in my head that i can't quite pinpoint #gave him a goatee in some sketches for that exact reason. he just doesn't look uh something enough without it #like? you know what i mean? #when niklaus says 'well. certainly' and 'let's make a deal. yes?' in his damn voice the image in my head is both very vivid and nonexistent #augh #anyway i like him a lot. he's cool :3 chilling in his ghibli themed pocked dimension #jrwi riptide #jrwi niklaus #niklaus hendrix #my art #sketch

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy Valentine's Day! (and this blog's first post anniversary!)

#poorly drawn mdzs #better drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Woah...it's been a whole *year* since I took the leap and uploaded my 'first attempt' art. #It's outdated now but it holds a special place in my heart for the fact it started all of this off. #Calling this 'poorly-drawn' was always about accepting that my art was going to be imperfect and messy - and doing it anyways! #There has been a staggering number of times I have drawn something I almost didn't upload because I didn't think it was 'good enough' #only for someone to say they liked it - or that it made them laugh. And it has helped me realize - #-The worst critic for my work has always been myself. If I listened to it all the time...well we would not be here now B'*) #And now that I have dabbled in other fandoms I can truly see how lucky was to start out with the MXTX fans. #The supportive messages and tags have truly been a guiding force toward my artistic and self improvement. #I really can't describe how grateful I am. #Thank you for seeing something worth rooting for when I was just figuring things out. #Thank you for being sweeter than the candy I have strategically hidden in the nooks and crannies of this house. #But watch out! If you forget to find them we will get ants. #I remembered to not hide chocolate in the bed this year. Yes I know it melted last time. Yes it did stain. I'm still sorry. #Thank you for loving me regardless <3 Even if it looked like I shit the bed real bad.

[keeps-ache]

overgrowth and languor

[recommended you click and zoom] (alt versions below)

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #eyestrain #HI i am So kinda proud of this actually #still can't tell if it looks nice but!!! #//click and zoom piece again !! i was starting to think i had just given up on ever doing that again hvbhs #//!!!! #so happy i've finally finished it yay!!! #ik i used to average like working 2 days on a piece at one point but i was not nonstop-working on those so lol #//tried something with the background!! #and the inks!! #drew a cat which is very swag!! #the colours are a WHOLE new thing and i love colours that are yellow on the wheel but brown on the canvas!! #REALLY love the blue one (i wanted to have a night version and that's close enough :D)!! #i like the little orange painting in the background (a LOT)!! #overall i am changing my verdict and saying Yeah i AM happy with this lol #//but yeah gonna go post on artstreet now lol :3

[outer-stars]

"hey, it's that waybright kid"

#i'm just saying #i think everyone was able to tell that something was DIFFERENT with the calamity trio when they got back #you can't just go through that much character development and not have your entire vibe change #and i think that it would be especially obvious at school #they literally faced life and death stakes many times- do you really think that they'd find typical school drama that important anymore? #idk i feel they wouldn't #<- has SO many thoughts and feelings on this #amphibia #amphibia fanart #my art #outerstars art #sasha waybright #amphibia sasha #calamity trio #this art is somewhat old but i still like it enough to share here :]

[bsdtual]

This is actually the most sad thing they could've done, i'm in pain

#i can't talk abt this ep enough #i've so much to say and no words enough #poor nikolai #someone pls hug him #i may make some gifs later #i just need to recover #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bsd 5 #bsd spoilers #nikolai #nikolai gogol #anime screenshot #anime screencap #lq icons #fyodor