#I don't choose the hyperfixation the hyperfixation chooses me

[grotesque-butler]

ETA: i have since learned that my interpretation of kuro was slightly wrong, as in this post i refer to sebastian as "the villain" when that is,,, completely incorrect. my posts in the future will not have this error.

rant/vent post because i'm tired of everything.

about a week ago i was sharing my excitement for the new kuro anime in a discord server im in (that has nothing to do with kuro), and i come back to find that one of the members had expressed their discomfort for the anime because it "sexualizes children" and "romanticizes grooming". this felt like a fucking punch to the gut because not only is it such an anti take, it genuinely made me feel so shitty because kuro is my main hyperfixation and people talking shit about it made me feel like garbage.

first of all, yes, kuro does sexualize ciel. a lot, actually. and i'm sorry you were uncomfortable about that, but sexualizing ciel is actually the main point of the story. kuro is mainly told through the eyes of sebastian, who wants nothing but a meal. it is told from the eyes of a fucked up demon who wants to further traumatize and groom his master to make his soul taste better in the end. sebastian is ugly. he is disgusting. he's fucked up, he's a groomer, he's not the good guy. a lot of people don't realize that sebastian is the villain of the entire story.

kuro does not "romanticize" anything. just because you did not like, or were personally uncomfortable by a depiction of something does not mean it was "romanticized". just like how a show depicting murder and cannibalism does not romanticize murder and cannibalism. you cannot pick and choose here, and you have to consume media critically. it's surprising how many people think a piece of media has to hold their hand and explicitly tell the viewer that "hey these things are bad!" in order for them to enjoy it, because only children's cartoons do that.

i've said it before and i'll say it again: you shouldn't have been a part of the Super Fucked Up and Dark Series fandom if you are only going to whine and complain about how super fucked up and dark it is.

it's just sad how there's so many people in this fandom who can't look into the deeper meaning of kuro only because they see the content as "romanticizing bad things".

#proship #proshippers please interact #anti anti #discourse #purity culture #fandom discourse #tw grooming mention #fandom problems

[fouroddapples]

I AM hyped as fuck for the crimson mirror and can't wait to see what's coming, don't get me wrong, but ALSO...tide and bone are CLEARLY not releasing their chokehold on me anytime soon either.

✨I contain multitudes✨

#candela obscura #circle of tide and bone #circle of the crimson mirror #I don't choose the hyperfixation the hyperfixation chooses me #and the circle of monsters and fuckers has *aggressively* chosen me #I swear to god I'll be normal about them SOMEDAY #it's always the tragic romances and characters haunted by their trauma that GET me...god... #if the circle of the crimson mirror ALSO feeds us something along those lines I may not survive...I can't handle two of those at once??

[vcrnons]

[ MIX & MAX ] NCT MARK & JISUNG 'Some Minds & Voices' ( for @ncteez <3 )

#mark #jisung #mark lee #park jisung #nct #nct dream #put simply. i did this a) on a whim and b) for hon. #look okay i barely even go here. i just saw she said she wanted someone to gif this video and i said yes. that. #something i can and will do. so happy christmas or birthday or event of ur choosing i guess ;o; #am i aware that u may or may not have been joking or at least a little unserious? sure #but now. a few hours of hyperfixation and ignoring my sore throat later. here we are anyway #i don't know how to tag this && tbh i don't particularly care abt tagging it /gen #i am just playing the silliest of buggers and trying to navigate some more fun colouring rn. don't perceive me<3 #cw flashing #tw flashing #flashing gif #(this is probably part 1 of 2 because the other half where they've got the metallic shit goin on? OOF) #*mine #my gif

[euphreana]

"Because I love you."

Have some values studies of varying quality because I freaking love the composition in this movie.

#I don't choose my hyperfixations #hyperfixations choose me #nimona #spoilers #sorta #ballister boldheart #ambrosius goldenloin #nimona art #values studies

[cawareyoudoin]

You know what, fuck it. I am done with being critical about Murder Drones, because I am clearly getting something out of it, my brain is going "ooh shiny", and being negative about it is just making me frustrated and sad.

I will from now on be enjoying it uncritically. I've poured enough words over it, I'm done. Only good or neutral things.

I like this show. There, I said it.

#murder drones #i don't choose my hyperfixations #and it's not a perfect show but hey it's good! it's doing something interesting! i do like it! #cawpost #caw caws #i made like one post here but i have been pouring my heart out in youtube comments #and if you see me there i am so sorry. just ignore me

[westrnbound]

this is the only real thing i've drawn in months

#wasp rick #my art #ignore the arm and uncolored bit #im tired #also don't come @ me about rick and morty #i do not get to choose my hyperfixations okay #im just hoping it runs its course and leaves like a fever #referenced from that one screenshot

[dreamfilleddonuts]

I now have a Matt pin to add to my Near and Mello pins on my ita bag, thanks to @cheshirepins I also have a game boy keychain I got at work to go with my near fingerpuppet keychain to hang off of it. I just need a chocolate bar keychain to hang with them.

#i don't know when or why i decided to make my work purse nearlymellodramattic themed #but it is now #nevermind the l and light pins I also have #this is my ot3 bag #my purse was originally going to be sailormoon themed #i have lost control of my life #the hyperfixation chooses me man

[lesbianneopolitan]

What made you love Neo so much?

I've been asked this before, actually! So I'll just copy/paste from the older ask because my answer is still the same-

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I don’t even know where to start- the first thing that caught my attention about her, was the color palette and the design, but THAT caught my attention specially after seeing her attitude in the show

smug, smooth fighter that smiled through it all, a mocking and even sadistic woman that wasn’t as sweet as her appearances seemed- she wasn’t even scared to just outright KILL these students of Beacon, and that, caught my attention a lot LOL

I read Roman Holiday not long after catching up to V8 with my friend- despite Neo not being very prominent in the show, all her scenes were pretty memorable in my mind, possibly because of expressions and the fact she was still kicking ass, at the same time I saw her slowly descending into madness after Roman’s death (what made me love her more, the fact that even someone as ‘perfect’ as her had her own faults as well, she had EMOTIONS and could get hurt like anyone else)

but catching up with the book and her background as well only made me to grow even more attached, in the sense that I could empathize with her a lot for a few personal reasons, what ultimately solidified my interest for her

and so, here we are, she’s my fave character (alongside Cinder, wife material), the target of my copium and character to project onto because I love her and identify a lot with her, smol sadistic gremlin that breaks the law and just wants to be free to do whatever the fuck she wants!

#Ask #I don't choose my hyperfixations #the hyperfixations choose me

[doopcity]

so it turns out that my brain decided that it wanted to fixate on Tech E. Coyote so i had to draw him. Interesting to see how my style met his design halfway

#tech e coyote #no i haven't even watched loonatics unleashed yet #but a friend showed me a compilation of some of his scenes and for whatever reason i just got hooked on him #it's my brain and i (don't) get to choose the hyperfixation #but yea i'll probably watch the show eventually cuz it actually looks pretty decent #half assed draws

[writeouswriter]

Things I have not written: The original story idea I've been claiming to be my current WIP

Things I have written: Three (3) half finished fanfics for the most unhinged fandom imaginable that I won't even share the name of, I don't even know how I got here, when did this become my life, why are there 3, when did they become 3, I was normal up to a few days/weeks ago but today I was literally rotating between all of them at once adding like one sentence or changing like a couple words at a time for the past several hours. Girl, help. I mean, I'm happy I'm writing something, but why brain, why.

#one turned into a romance fic and I never write romance on its own ever #i don't even particularly like shipping i don't really ship things but these two i'm losing my mind i hate them i love them #I almost put a s*x scene in there and i don't even like s*x it would've been fade to black but still i backed up like hold on here +rewrote #I'm only censoring that cuz the tags are susceptible to bots but like what's going on my man #i mean i know what's going on it's the adhd and the unfortunate object of my hyperfixation #but why did it choose this fandom #the rest was angst/hurt comfort because angst my beloved but still this fandom this one really brain? #i shan't say what it is of course leave me be #brain please i'm begging you write my wip do it do it write my wip now #i'm being held hostage by my own mind here come on yip yip look over there at the shiny original story brain #ignore me #fanfiction #again i'm happy i'm writing something but again why brain why

[robosexualunderground]

the 80s 50s/60s nostalgia strip club with lava lamps on the table is such a vibe

#this song is my current musical hyperfixation. it's beautiful #the dawn will come and kiss away every tear that's ever fallen from your eyes?!?! as a sappy shroom i am here for it #and because this is tumblr i can say stuff like. i choose to read this song as sapphic yearning #i know it came out in 1990. don't @ me #concrete blonde #Youtube

[crystalkitty1220]

Welcome back to tumblr! Hope you enjoyed your break

It was very stressful. Ended up failing the marking period for English, but not by as much as I was failing before. Could still pull up the overall grade by the end of the semester.

#started writing a fic a few days ago. been a while since ive done that. #so far felix is very out of character but he's only gonna be the focus for the first chapter. plus i might go back and rewrite him. #maybe i should wait until the new chapter comes out tho so it's relevant to updated canon #anyway echos started brainrotting about chris in a /pos way so yeah a lot of my break has been rethinking old analysis #started to notice that he's a lot more fun if i get in the mindset that he's not poorly written he's just literally isaac's antagonist #also my siblings have been hyperfixating on DC so i watched a batman series. i think they're very disappointed in me for choosing batwheels. #snowy best vehicle #. what else #oh ive been doodling a nightmare design #been liking the idea of him and dream not being skeletons but dont wanna draw/write them as their canon human designs #because (if i'm correct) they get those designs at some point later in the story. and i don't want to confuse the timeline like that. #so ive been working on concept sketches for a less human design for them. ive also noticed that them being humans in canon actually #makes a lot of sense because the other guardians don't really have any connection between their species and it can be assumed that #whatever they are exists in the universes/multiverse they're from. so it makes sense for the twins to be humans because the utmv has humans. #. but i also like how they couldn't be given the human forms at first because of the lack of holes. #so the design im working on has gill/stripe-looking vents for the energy to come out of. #also gonna try to add little fire wisps into the design because i love their true forms so much #anyway i dont think there's been more that ive done. other than schoolwork. and watching qsmp. #oh i started working on an animatic. but i do that all the time. it'll be a bigger occasion if i finish one lol. #think im gonna still keep interaction on tumblr to a smaller scale because i wanna keep getting stuff done

[yummersluvsfennel]

Why cant I have normal interests. It was federal outdoor warning systems now its fucking discontinued sodas and fast food items... you guys wanna share a mcspaghetti and a coke Blak

#i don't choose the interests the interests chose me #i want to be report of the week #special interest #soda #fast food #autism #hyperfixation #MCSPAGHETTI

[wikagirl]

I gained like 3 followery simply because of the magical gabe drawing

#now watch these 3 folks get real disappointed when they realize that everything on this blog is temporary #and that I probably won't even remember that ultrakill exists in like a month or two because my fixation latched onto something else #there are still people following me from my rottmnt phase that have not interacted with a single post of mine since #babes you can leave there is nothing here for you and there won't be for quite a while #I don't get to choose my hyperfixation if you don't like any of the other shit I post you're free to leave #it's okay. go. be free. move on to greener pastures

[kingmlem]

If I get nothing else but pain from this game, at least it's got a damn good soundtrack.

#mlem plays #cdpr #cd projekt red #cyberpunk #cyberpunk 2077 #cp2077 #catch me stealing cars just for the radio #don't get me wrong the rest of the game is cool and i like it #but im kinda worn down from all the 'hero dies in the end' endings. #and sure i get it it adds flavor to the game but lik #shepard didn't deserve it #neither does V #its my mental breakdown i get to choose the hyperfixation; cyberpunk 2077 #its my mental breakdown i get to choose the hyperfixation; cp2077

[naura-speaks]

Anyway so I had Taylor Swift's No Body No Crime in my head this morning, which was really bad timing considering I was delivering to the funeral home lol

#taylor swift #i think i accidentally became a swiftie on accident? yet to be seen but i think it already happened #i don't get to choose my hyperfixations your honor they choose me