#I don't know what else to do

[lulu-nightbon]

alright, i... didn't want to do this. i didn't want to have to do this. especially with all the hate ive been getting in my inbox recently. but i don't have a choice.

hi. im lulu. im a 21-year-old autistic immunocompromised queer person. i currently live with my mother (senior) and my little sister (10 years old). i need your help to get out.

(context and avenues to help below the cut)

as some of you may know, my stepfather died on august sixth from a heart attack. we lived in his parents basement, as it was all we could afford, and we depended on his income. he had a stable job, and mom decided to become a housewife and sell some things from the buisness they created together. when he died, the buisness was dissolved, as it was an llc partnership. his parents are extremely controlling, and as such, he was only able to finally start building up credit when mom came along, and we were almost at the point where he could qualify for a home loan so we could get out and get away from his parents.

that's gone now.

mom cannot qualify for a home loan because of her student loan payments and the credit card payments. we do not have the money to pay these off, and mom is trying desperately to get a job. we need the money to get out, as my stepfather's parents have been trying to get my sister away from my mom and shove both her and i out of the family for years. things are only getting worse now as we have reason to believe they are spying on our conversations and even going so far as tracking us (for example, they found a spare key to the car and went and took it and "cleaned it out" without mom's knowledge or permission, as it's her car now). they have been trying to circumvent mom and go behind her back during the entire process with the funeral home, coroner's office, all the legal documentation, and they are extremely infuriated that they cannot decide anything or push mom out because they are not the next of kin and have been trying to circumvent this. we have reason to believe that they're going to attempt to sell the cars that are still in my stepfather's name to collect on the money and never give us a dime, like they had with almost all of the money my little sister received as part of the college fund we set up at my stepfather's funeral as well as any money that my little sister had won in the past. we will never see a dime of it, and it's extremely upsetting that they are doing this. they have been running scams for years, and they have been nothing but hellish towards my mother, claiming she's withholding information from them when she has offered more than they've asked for and they have done nothing but take my little sister out and about without ever telling mom anything (for example- they screamed that mom was withholding information when she said she didn't copy the tox report for them because it was empty and claimed they needed to know his cholesterol levels [which doesn't even show up on a tox report- they didn't run his blood, either, and they didn't check his cholesterol levels anyway because they know that's what killed him, they could see it] and would not provide reasoning why [it does not affect them anyway just by nature of it being cholesterol], while on sunday they took my little sister out the whole day and failed to communicate with my mother that she would be with them and would be home after dinner).

they have been screaming at mom for collecting social security as though she was stealing their money and demanded that she doesn't get a job, and we have more than enough reason to believe that they are trying to get her to default on the bills so they finally have legal grounds to take my little sister and kick us out, leaving us with nowhere to go and no options. they have even gone as far as to threaten to take my sister away using force in the past, and, as they have firearms, that is a terrifying threat. they are unhinged and extremely upset that they cannot control us and make us do what they want, how they want, when they want, and they are up in arms over it.

when we move out, all hell is going to break loose, but the longer we wait, the worse it's going to get.

my stepfather, being 37 when he died, did not like thinking about his own mortality, so he didn't have a life insurance policy, a 401K, a will, nothing. we have been left high and dry by his death, and that is pushing aside the grief. we do not have the money to pay off the bills, pay for a lawyer, pay to have the car re-keyed to keep them from stealing it again, or to even flat-out buy a house to circumvent needing a loan, and on top of it all we have to deal with stepfather's parents not allowing us to grieve and implying that mom is a tramp and a heartless bitch that will blow any money given to her when she is more financially responsible than them. we also have to worry about them stealing our things, especially with how much they complain about how messy the basement is when most of the things here are theirs (stepfather's parents are hoarders- more specifically, his father hoards cars, and his mother hoards everything else, going out and shopping frivolously almost every day).

we need help with money, and i hate to ask, especially with the requirement of revealing my legal name and in light of the harassment i have been receiving for over a month now, but we need to get out of here, and we need to get out of here soon. it's only going to get worse the longer we stay. we need money to help with the bills, my mom's student loans, getting a lawyer, and getting a place to move into.

im posting this because im the only one my stepfather's parents won't find on any platform that i choose to use. my current goal is $9,000 USD, if only just to get enough money to get a cheap plot of land to move into, or one of the really cheap houses out here. this won't cover the loans or bills in addition, or the cost of getting a lawyer or anything else we need, but it is enough to get us a cheap place to live. i know it's a lot of money, but we are in a dangerous situation and need the money to escape. if we were to pay for everything, the goal would be in the hundreds of thousands, and i feel horrible just asking for this much. if you can't donate, please reblog, even the visibility might help and please do not spread my legal name. please remember to put "payment" or something generic in the reasoning box if it's required so that i will actually receive the funds instead of having my account purged from the site. i didn't want to ask for this, but i have no other options. please help.

c*sh*pp: $lulunightbon

v*nm*: @Lulilial

Goal: $0/$9,000

#im sorry #i don't know what else to do #please forgive me for this if you ever can #financial aid #autistic #trans

[heretherebedork]

Death by adorable. Just look at this. How dare they be this cute. Absolutely how dare. Illegal. Unallowed. Banned for cuteness. Banned for adorable. Banned for being this sweet. Banned I say.

Especially with the world starting to glitch the more in love he is... ooof, rough, being in a video game is dangerous.

#love for love's sake #korean bl #myungha x yeowoon #bl drama #bl series #asianlgbtqdramas #asian lgbtq dramas #korean bl drama #korean bl series #kbl #korean drama #korean series #too cute #absolutely too adorable #i don't know what else to do #and the world is starting to glitch #just as he realizes how in love he is

[mygoogledrivescaresme]

I know this is a tiny blog and few people will see it but I'll just leave this here

#stop kosa #kids online safety bill #kids online safety act #please #I don't know what else to do

[awlumii]

i feel very wrong, like i'm in a permanent moment of sensory overload. it's a debilitating experience; i'm currently immobilized and physically unwell, meaning i'm unable to provide for myself and i will be for a while.

that said, it's been days since i've eaten properly and i have no money whatsoever to speak of. the overload is probably worsened because of my physical weakness. so i'm really sorry to ask, but if it's not too much trouble, could you please visit my ko-fi and help me out so i can buy myself something that will hopefully last me through tomorrow?

if you can't help, that's alright — reblogs help just as much, and maybe someone else who sees it can help. i just really need help right now.

#[❗️— important! ] #kofi #ko-fi #i'm really really sorry to be an inconvenience #i don't know what else to do #there's literally nowhere else for me to turn

[helenmarie95]

Petition Against Raising the Income Requirement for Family Visas in the UK to £38,700 (Only Sign if You are a UK Resident)

So among the other awful things the Tories are doing to this country, they have decided to raise the minimum annual salary requirement for a UK citizen to bring their foreign spouse to the UK from £18,600 to £38,700 from next April. They have more than DOUBLED IT.

This is incredibly fucking stupid for an number of reasons, chief of which is that the median salary across all British jobs is £35,000 if you are a white man, and even worse if you are not that.

On a personal note, this does affect me as an American living in the UK with my British spouse. Luckily, since I changed jobs in October, we JUST BARELY clear this income requirement - and if I hadn't done that, I would be frantically searching for a new job anways. And we have to hope that our situation does not drastically change before I apply for Indefinite Leave to Remain next September.

Here's the thing: I am INCREDIBLY LUCKY. It's also took me five years to get to this point, including over a year working remotely for my parents' business because no UK company would hire me for 'reasons' (my fave being that I didn't sound sophisticated enough. lol.) I'm thinking of so many of my friends right now who suddently have to come up with another £20,000 in the next six months, which is absolutely insane. I'm thinking of my friends who have just had children and are counting on their parter's income to support them during this time who cannot afford to do that anymore. I'm thinking of university students who fell in love on a study abroad like myself, and had everything all planned out for their spouse to move here, only for everything to go up in smoke. I'm thinking of everyone who through no fault of their own are working essential jobs that they enjoy that are suddenly not enough. The NHS, which at this point is built on the backs of immigrants, is going to get even worse.

The government is forcing poor people to choose between the UK and their spouse. And these people are going to choose their spouse, because DUH. And people are going to leave. For some people that means moving back to their spouse's country and hoping that country lets them in. But what if they are LGBT and they cannot go back to their spouse's country because queerness is punishable by death? What are they supposed to fucking do?

It is high-key xenophobic to force British people to ignore foreigners and expect them to marry British spouses. And it's even more heinous considering that this new rule does not apply to the rich. Our own bloody PM has a gajillionaire wife who is not a citizen.

I made a video at the start of this year about my feelings being an immigrant in this country, and so many of my points still hold up and are even more true today.

Heck, I just got an autism diagnosis but because I'm not a citizen I cannot get disability benefits because I am not allowed public funds - the SAME PUBLIC FUNDS THAT I PAY FOR THROUGH TAXES ON MY PAYCHECK. And don't even think about protesting, because you can be arrested for 'being a nuisance', whatever that's defined as.

But I'd still rather be here that in the U.S. where health insurance and student loan companies would rob me blind and there's a high chance of getting shot walking down the street.

More and more, merely existing in the UK as a person had the gall not to be born here is one of the most radical things you can do.

And I'm going to continue to do it. And so are the rest of us.

So if you do happen to live in the UK, please sign the petition in the link. If you don't, please consider phoning your country's representatives to ask them to condemn this move. Moth and I and all of the others affected by this new rule are extremely grateful for any support you offer

#uk #uk politics #helenmarie95 #i am exhausted and frustrated and angry at this point #i don't know what else to do #immigration #immigrant experience #Youtube

[queer-spectre]

Hi. Hopping on briefly to specifically talk to my fellow United States citizens -- we have to be writing our fucking reps. Call them. They should be swimming in emails and phone calls about Palestine.

The US is trying to back Israel and support even more colonialism and genocide (like fucking always). If they're going to support this, at minimum, they should have to fucking feel it. Name what they're doing and make them feel our eyes on them. Let them know that their actions now will be known forever.

Free Palestine.

#do not look away from Palestine. #there's so fucking little we can do from so far away but please #send money for aid/talk to your reps to call for an end to Israel's siege and bombings #i don't know what else to do #free palestine #United States politics #if any of y'all say anything antisemtic or islamophobic you will be blocked expeditiously. fuck right off #not here to talk about hamas either if you think a terrorist attack justifies genocide (which has been ongoing since the 1940s) I genuinely #don't know how to fucking help you understand. i just dont.

[romeo-lovely]

This will be my last post.

I am not safe and I haven't been for a while.

I have not been making content because I want to, but because I have had no other option and it is no longer enough.

I cannot do this anymore.

I have done quite literally everything within my power at this point.

I have no way out on my own other than to kill myself and I'm surprised I haven’t already.

I have never wanted to say that but I just don't have it in me to pretend anymore.

I have contacted my family many times to ask them for help and they will not do anything.

At this point I am so numb that I can barely even cry about it anymore.

So I am begging anyone that sees this to please at least share it because I am at the end of my rope.

I will be putting links to the places you can send money or purchase content to help me in this post, or you can go to pretty much any of my other posts and find them on my linktree.

My Fansly will remain up but will now be only PPV with lowered prices and I will no longer be adding new content.

Even though I have not been creating there because I enjoy it, I still encourage you to buy the content if it contains something you will enjoy and you have the funds to do so.

My wishlists will also remain up but will no longer contain anything sexual.

Even if you can only share, send a dollar or less, or purchase one thing, I will not be able to thank you enough.

Three individual links will be under the cut along with a direct link to my linktree that you can use to view all of my links in one place.

Thank you, and I'm sorry to those who have enjoyed my account but this is the end of it.

#I don't know what else to do #please reblog #please help #i need help #pls help #please help me #please help if you can #need help #emergency #time sensitive #help please #please share #please boost #urgent #donations needed #donate if you can #boost please #donate #ftm nsft #ftm ns/fw #ftm kink #ftm puppy #ftm sub

[serpulalacrymans]

I dont care if you cant project love... Even if you cant feel- If your just a shell-if your just a memory-

I was made for you..

Even if you dont want me-even if you changed your mind and dont want to be my friend in the future..

You didnt- i didnt think you loved me-no one can! Im not silly- i know my limits!

i..i just thought youll keep me...

I had to sleep on it. I'm sorry. I hope I didn't worry you at all.

What do you want from me? What is it you're wanting to achieve? If I have a clear idea I can make it better. I can make fix it. I can fix it and we can be okay again. But I can't do that unless I know exactly what you want. I'm sorry. I've apologized. I've forgiven you. You loving me means so much it's so special to me. I want to be your friend.. What we did was nearing on magical and I wouldn't change a thing. But what do you want now? To put this to rest?

How do you want me to keep you?

#I already keep you close.. To me.. #Like.. Emotionally?.. #I don't know what else to do #Let me try

[lightwing-s]

I know it has taken me some time to come back here and say something, but I was so stunned by the response to midnight kiss that I was a bit scared to come back here lol.

I just want to say thank you so much for all the love given to that post, I did not expect a response like this, like ever. so thank you thank you thank you.

And now, I'll be completing the batboys as 2000s pop hits (male ver.) blurb(?) and posting it soon, hopefully today even, and my inbox are open for any request. pls give me ideas because I'm out of them and I need something to do lmao.

#dick grayson x reader #jason todd x reader #rai rambles #i'm so happy lmao #i don't know what else to do #this is such a confidence booster for my writing #because i never thought it was good #but now i think it might be? #thank you <3

[wickedlittlewordsmith]

Please Help

I really hate having to do this, but I have no other options atm. I’m currently $400 in the negative in my bank account, and I’m currently unemployed now that I’ve finally graduated. I’m trying to find a job and have been for about 3 months now with no such luck. I’m not giving up, but a little help in the meantime would be greatly appreciated

I don’t have many talents that are profitable, but I’ll happily write people things if I’m familiar enough with the source

Please don’t feel like you have to give something if you can’t. A simple reblog would help, too. Honestly, any little bit helps

Paypal: link Ko-fi: link

#☩│redd speaks #mutual aid #please please please #i don't know what else to do

[borderlineclown]

coping with the breakup by being hyper sexual and just throwing myself at people, fully knowing it makes me feel gross and ashamed after the fact <3 i love bpd

#i cant stop doing it though #i don't know what else to do #how else to cope #besides finding attention from random strangers #attention that i wish i could get from her

[politicalmamaduck]

...

#i can't take another heartbreak in addition to the work stress #hope strengthens desperation impairs #clinging to that and my prayers right now #i have nothing left to give #i don't know what else to do #behold i am the handmaiden of the lord #let it be done to me according to your word #i am so ready for the blessings i've been promised #i am so ready for my roses in real life #i want to sing panis angelicus with joy instead of thinking about my grandma's funeral #i am so tired of crying

[darkrunsout]

I hate this fucking system so much.

#I've been looking for help in form of many different kind of therapies for months now - MONTHS #and I haven't even gotten on 1 (ONE!) single waiting list #and that's not just from regular insurance covered therapists #I was willing to pay for horse riding therapy lessons or now a service dog myself #but they all don't even have an open waiting list anymore #I mean what else am I supposed to do now? #I need some form of therapy really badly #and asking for help again and again is difficult enough when I have barely any energy for all those phone calls #but getting rejected again and again? #it's the absolute worst feeling. #like I am here somehow trying to get my hopes up again and again in order to be able to reach out for help again and again #and they're always getting crushed again and again #how am I supposed to not despair especially with depression? #how is it possible that the only thing I hear is to 'try again next year' when I'm having acute problems? #I mean no one tells someone who broke their leg that all the doctors don't have any appointments left anymore #and that they should just try to reach out again next year #I just can't anymore #I don't know what else to do #I'm just like screaming here asking for help #and not only is no one helping but everyone is refusing to do so

[simplysimplyloveleh]

El muchacho monday Charles Leclerc version anybody

#charles leclerc #f1 #lestappen #formula 1 #formula one #i don't know what else to do

[celestialsonata7]

Are there any gifmakers out there that are willing to view my situation from an objective standpoint and tell me if I'm being stupid or not?

#Text post #Gifmakers #CS: talks #Drama #I don't know what else to do #I keep going over it in my head and I have no idea how to feel about it #Maybe I was being mean and unreasonable #Or maybe that person took advantage of me #At the end of the day it was just about stupid gifs on a stupid site #I shouldn't be so upset #I wish I could just forget about it and move on

[kindaeccentric]

Friendship ended with 'eating has no moral value and I can eat' I want to be hot now : (

#seems like the only way for me to lose weight is not eating because just eating less doesn't fucking work #i don't know what else to do