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fluffywolverine · 3 years

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so season 6 of lucifer came out.

there were some things that i liked, but generally i hated it. i believe that was SUCH. BAD. WRITING and it left me frustrated. so i decided to write down all things that pissed me off and sometimes i try to fix this by giving other ideas that – in my opinion – would have made the story better. Check my points out and feel free to add your points of view. without further ado: let’s talk.

- imma start with the big one – fucking time travel. ok I generally hate this trope in the media, because it’s complicated and often leads to some logical mistakes – and they happened here. so rory time travels because of her anger which was caused… by her anger?? i think this was unnecessary. it also brings trouble with this whole free will vs. fate discourse. lucifer says, that he chooses free will… but at the same time he goes the path of his fate. he disappears from rory’s life, because he HAS TO in order of the events of the season to happen. just because he chose to do it, doesn’t mean it’s free will.

- lucifer becomes the very thing he desperately didn’t want to become. “bUt It WaS fOr ThE gReAtEr GoOd” screw this bullshit, if writers wanted to make it better, they could have easily do so. they could have altered the rules of time travel so that his choice of staying could have resulted in rory disappearing. yes, that would have been heart-breaking, but it would have been a great lesson for lucifer, that he can’t make the same mistakes his father did.

- chloe and Lucifer get a child without even talking about it. “bUt MaYbE tHeY tAlKeD aBoUt It We JuSt DiDn’T sEe It” you may say. but the point of writing anything - whether it’s a book or a script – is to show any thing that matters. and talking about having kids is one of the most things any couple should do. also not every couple needs to have kids and forcing deckerstar to have it feels so far-fetched. this thread was very unnecessary.

- rory herself is a big problem. to begin with – she wanted to KILL her FATHER. i get her frustration, but commiting a murder?? just because he wasn’t there for her?? I would have thought that chloe taught her better, taught her that, like, killing people is bad. turns out she did not. secondly… she just isn’t necessary here. i elaborate later so in conclusion – her thread could be altered with michael’s and it would have made much more sense. i also don’t like the actress (why was she blinking so much??) so i certainly didn’t help.

- of course ella has to end up with a boyfriend. because earlier she always ended up with “bad boys” and now, without any help, she is just able to have a healthy relationship! yay! for me this creates a toxic view, that in order to be happy one HAS TO be in a relationship, because being alone is aLwAyS bAd. well, it’s not.

- i also have troubles with lucifer starting up a foundation for her. firstly, he didn’t ask her. secondly it – AGAIN – shows, that anything good ella got, was because of another man. firstly because of her relationship with carol, secondly because of lucifer’s idea. it could have been so easily altered! there could have been a scene of a conversation e.g. with amenadiel where she expressed a will to do better and be better for someone (given that she sees a lot of dark in herself). amenadiel could have then told her, that she is an inspiration and that it is her biggest strength. that could have been where ella came up with an idea to start a foundation blah blah – it’s just a rough idea but I believe that written well, it could have been so much better;

- and the last thing about ella – of course she had to find out about celestial stuff because sHe WaS tHe OnLy OnE rEmAiNiNg. umm what about trixie? i'll come back to her later. ella was portrayed as the only one believing in god and having her seeing that he really exists ruins the concept of faith. it’s not about knowing something exists, it’s about believing in it.

- WHERE THE FUCK IS MICHAEL. i must admit that i loved this character AND I CAN’T STAND HOW AWFULLY HE WAS TREATED HERE. so at the end of season 5 lucifer says “everyone deserves a second chance, even you michael". and what does he do then? COMMANDS HIS TWIN TO CLEAR THE FLOOR IN HELL. yes, i agree that michael should have been punished for his rebellion plan, but… he already has his wing cut off. now he’s stuck in hell, with no way out and is he supposed to learn his lesson? this is cruel. instead of this the entire season could have been centred on him – his journey to self-acceptance, learning how manipulating someone is toxic and starting to realise how to be a better person. at the end he could have become god (because amenadiel is such an obvious choice), which would create a beautiful connection – michael in heaven and his twin in hell.

- lucifer doesn’t feel like being god and that’s cool. damn. people died for him to win this place and he’s like “actually you know guys i’m not the right person bye”. while i believe that anyone should step out if they have a reason, but at the same time lucifer should have faced any consequences of his decisions. falling frog and kool aid in the river are not enough.

- adam’s plot feels just quickly sketched, not actually written. i really appreciate this take on toxic masculinity but it all felt too fast-paced. it’s good that they show this idea of “strong and not-showing-any-feelings man” kind of attitude, but it is impossible for ANYONE (especially The ManTM) to change their mind in a matter of a few days. it takes weeks, months, years even, especially given that adam is like a gazillion years old, he should have especially taken a long time to process this.

- carol is just too pure to exist. he’s also one of the most boring, plain and one-dimensional character i’ve ever seen. i feel like they gave him a problem with alcohol because the writers were like “hmmmmm he has to have some weakness. LET’S MAKE HIM AN ALCOHOLIC”. we don’t see any signs of his everyday struggle, why did he fell into this problem, how did struggle. it just feels like a dull plot device to show that he has flaws. oh and also he’s so pure that he doesn’t mind ella BREAKING INTO HIS HOUSE. acceptance should have boundaries and violating someone’s personal space isn’t right.

- why did they forget about trixie again? yes, i know that scarlett estevez had another project but this does not justify the bad writing. the girl lost her father and we only see her crying once because of that. no signs of this affecting her everyday life, not showing any consequences of her relationships with other people, not glimpse of any change in her behaviour. oh and also she loses lucifer too because time travel! great idea, writers! losing another close to her person would have been soooooo good for her psychic for sure.

- i also hate the idea that suddenly rory becomes the only child they care for. where is trixie when they spend their day on the beach? where is she when her mother dies? did writers forget about her as well as they did about michael?

- amenadiel being a police officer is… problematic. i was looking forward to this thread, i was kinda scared too and it turned out… meh. i’m white and not American, so this of course does not involve me at all, but i felt like this was not enough. harris basically said that there is nothing they can do to make it better for black folks. even though chloe and amenadiel want to make everything more just, we don’t actually see any change. the only thing is that harris becomes a detective (right? i’m not sure if i understood it correctly, so correct me if i’m wrong, please) which is a total contradiction of what she said before. suddenly she does not have to protect people anymore?

- in season 5 they stated that heaven and hell need to be fixed, as the system is unfair and unjust. at the end we don’t see any change, the only thing that is different is lucifer helping damned souls. it doesn’t help at all! these people still go to hell, they still suffer and there’s nothing that changed here! plus there is also this thing, that a sociopath who murdered people in cold blood goes to heaven (because he does not feel any guilt) and a person abused by her parents/partner/whoever goes to hell (because have been manipulated to feel guilt).

- dan making amends with trixie while… there wasn’t really anything to make amends about. like, most of the parents make mistakes while upbringing their children, but does this make them unworthy of heaven? i would have preferred dan to slowly regain his self-consciousness, how he positively affected the lives of people around him and by doing so – through conversations or maybe reliving some of the memories, he could have proved to himself that he is worthy of love and redemption.

phew, what a ride. i really liked dan being reunited with charlotte (it went just as i imagined) and mazeve dynamics. i even felt like they are finally a real life relationship – with people hurting each other by not understanding each other, but then talking and seeing other’s perspective. generally though, i’m very disappointed.

sorry for any mistakes, lacking commas etc. writing a text this long in not my native language was not easy.

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mintyfrosty · 3 years

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Love Without Words

DID I HEAR DETECTIVE AU FLUFF!?! WELL GUESS WHAT YA GOT IT!!!

Hope you enjoy this!

Tick. Tick. Ti-- SMASH

It was a wonder how the Hell Reginald put up with that pocket watch ticking in his pocket all the damn time.

Especially in a time like this; when it was just Reginald and papers. Papers upon Papers upon Papers.

Same old bullshit, he had known.

Of course, every one of them was important, but you learned that your eyes got tired of the same black lettering that came from the typewriter. The same pattern over and over and over. It made his mind go insane. Since, well, this job had a lot of this. Just had a different flavour of spice with every new case you received. Some horrific murders, others manslaughter, others just self-defence. And everyone falling under the bracket he worked under. Homicide.

Well, him and his 'partner.'

It was no secret to The Toppat Detective Agency that the two despised one another. At least, Lieutenant Copperbottom seemed to think so. Detective Right treated him like garbage; the only REAL explanation was that he hated the lieutenant.

And dear God, Reginald wished he shared that sentiment. He didn't.

Letting out a grievous sigh, the lieutenant leaned back in his chair, letting his aching shoulders stretch out from being hunched. Overworking yourself came with many pitfalls, but pained muscles had to be the worse of it. At least in his opinion. Besides, sleepness nights and empty stomachs had become the regular for him. This was homicide they were dealing with; not a joke. He could miss some of that out for his work; this was serious. Deathly so. Yet, his tired bones did make him regret somedays. This was one of those days.

Feeling his eyes look forward, a scoff came to his lips, seeing the lack of his partner across the desk. Must've gotten up when he was deep in thought; obvious because of how scattered the papers were (Reginald wished he would clean up one day). Mumbling to himself, the lieutenant rose out of his seat, neatly tucking it in as the bones in his lanky frame popped. Wasn't long before quiet footsteps echoed through the silent agency leading towards the balcony that had a door half-open. Exactly what he expected to see; Right looking out to the city with a cigar in his hand.

Of course.

"Thought I told you to stop smoking." Grumbled Reginald, having his arms folded, soon being by Right's side within a couple of steps. The detective gave some sort of a grunt for an answer, taking in a long inhale of smoke and blowing it out to the wind.

People did what they could to get by with the stress of the 1920s. Liquor was one of them, which Reginald dabbled in slightly. Smoking was the other; Right seemed to be on that lead.

...

"Want one? A smoke gets yer mind 'f t'ings, ya know."

"Pass, thank you."

...

"Wot's 'at? On yer wrist t' ere?"

Oh.

At the comment, Lieutenant Copperbottom looked down, eyes brushing over the dollar chain bracelet that ran over his gloved wrist. Feeling his heart brighten at the sight, Reginald leaned an elbow against the railing of the balcony, resting his chin in his hand, feeling the wind flow through his hair. A million lights greeted his eyes as they fell to the sea of bustling activity within the streets of the city. Huh. He'd never taken the time to look at the view before. With his gaze out in the distance, the answer formed.

"Oh. Recently, I've been receiving these notes on my desk. Someone's got an attraction towards me in the agency, I believe. Small things, like a cup of coffee and a note wishing I had a good day. Or, oh, finding my papers stacked up neatly, just the way I liked it when I fall asleep at my desk."

Loosely, he jingled the jewellery with a flick of his wrist. "Found this today on my desk with 'from the one who loves you most.' written on a napkin."

Judging by the other's movement, Reginald assumed the other looked down to observe it.

Right had seen it before, he realised. On one of their first cases, Reginald had spotted the sight of it in the window of a jewellery shop. Immediately, he fell in love, telling himself to save up for it (even though he'd much rather steal it but that didn't look good for his reputation). Yet now, someone had heard of that interest and bought or stole it for him, leaving it anonymously on his desk. Which, to be fair, was flattering. Money didn't come easy nowadays; always a struggle to get by with the growing popularity in Moonshine. The question was; who had the money AND the dedication to Reginald to spend so much on him? Well, his partner had probably spread the word of it around the agency, he concluded; since why the Hell would Right buy such a gift for him and leave it anonymously on his desk? And well, the detective had a distaste for the lieutenant. No way he would do such a thing if he hated him.

"Yeah, right. So someone's got a big ol' crush on ye?" Mumbled the detective, taking another intake of smoke.

Well. Yes. Seemed to point toward that conclusion.

"Suppose you're right. Didn't think you'd have an interest in it." The lieutenant's ears caught the sound of the detective scoffing.

"Don't. Just find it funny someone's got the hots f' ya. Can ya blame me? Who'd wanna go pinning after you?"

... Well. ... Hm.

It...wasn't a secret that Reginald had quite the ego and took a lot of pride in his work. And so, it made a brief amount of sense why Right was so abrasive with his banter. Thought he could take it. And he could! He most certainly could; Reginald always spitting back something to amend to his comments. Curiously, however, the same rule didn't apply to this, the lieutenant's voice feeling dry as he mumbled something underneath his breath, the reflection of the night's lights in his eyes.

Heh. Who WOULD want to go pinning after him? "I don't know. I don't know."

...wasn't expecting his voice to break. Nor the tear that fell from the balcony to clash with the concrete ground after a long fall. A gloved hand brushed by his left eye, straightening himself up from the balcony. The small-dollar, gold bracelet on his arm twinked back at him, the lieutenant letting his voice give out a sigh. "I dunno. Probably an idiot."

"Ye know I'm only jokin', yah?" ...eh?

Curiosity filling his torn spirit, the shorter male turned his eyes up to his partner, who had his gaze somewhere out in the distance. Cigar twisting in his finger, the detective let out a grunt. "'m sure ye gonna find love."

... "...what?"

Well, that was... ...certainly unexpected. Yet welcomely unexpected. Just 2 minutes, Right said something that completely contradicted his statement, yet that was 'joking' as he phrased it. No way he was being genuine about Reginald having someone who was in love with him? That was almost perfect teasing material. Feeling conflicted, the lieutenant raised an eyebrow at hm. "Since when do you...not joke about things like this?"

"'til now, s'ppose." Alright then, be vague. Wasn't like that was the most out of character thing the detective had ever said to him.

Keeping a curious eye on him, Reginald reached down to grab a cigar from the pack that Right had left carelessly on a bench out on the balcony. And whilst he discouraged smoking, it was probably important to take a moment to ground himself, even if that was through Tabacco. Already heard Right scoff out a smile. "Thought ya said smokin''s bad for ya."

"It is. But do as I say, not as I do."

... Sure he was going to find love? Reginald's eyes fell to the pendant along his wrist, letting out a breath of smoke of his own.

If he was a fool, he might've thought that Right was trying to comfort him from the statement he made. Despite being a lieutenant and a master of handling evidence, he hadn't a clue to why he made such a statement when Right was usually coarse with his language. Whatever the reason, it was a mystery to him. The least he could do was to say: "Thank you..."

The other's eyes turned up from the city, body turning in his direction. "F' wot?"

"Figure it out; you're a detective." Without another sigh of smoke, Reginald dropped his cigar to the floor, stamping on it before making a walk back inside. The break was over. Had to return to work.

Blinking curiously at the door, the detective slowly turned himself back to the city, carelessly letting the cigar fall from his fingers down to the bustling city below. Someone else could deal with it. Finding himself to be very much along, Right planted both of elbows against the railing holding his face in both of his hands.

"'I dunno. Prob'bly an idiot.'" Quoted the detective, shaking his head to himself. "Ya know this idiot ain't good with 'is words."

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mooglesorts · 3 years

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some 7 days: decide your story sorting thoughts after the cut, philio edition, because i love him. ending spoilers below!

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Philio

philio is 100% an exploded lion primary. with a REALLY LOUD exploded badger model, but he's definitely not a badger. for one thing because he doesn't seem inclined to dehumanize anyone, even the undead; for another, he's absolutely willing to let people get hurt for the sake of the cause (including himself).

i briefly considered bird for him, because he values the test so much as an external thing that shows you who really are, but given everything else about him and his themes i'm thinking probably not. he’s all about immovable, rock-solid certainty in his cause, and any attempt to reason otherwise with him rolls off him like oil off a duck’s back.

another interesting thing is that on the surface his morality seems to be fairly obvious ‘be kind do good help everyone...’ but when you look at it closer, it’s a little bit to the left. the actions that lower or increase his approval are actually really hard to predict until you’ve played it a few times, and have made an effort to pay attention to his actual goals and morals. otherwise, so much of the time his opinion just seems like it’s contradicting itself.

this could be a birdy thing--building his systems around logic, just maybe not the logic you’re expecting--but the way he goes about it also seems very lion-flavored. he doesn’t explain the underlying systems well, and he certainly doesn’t seem willing to change them; he just says things and expects other people to understand, end up at the same conclusions he did, and act on it. he comes across to me as a lion with a bird model, but instead of the classic--using it to replace his intuition because he doesn’t trust it--he uses it to convince other people that he’s Right, and explain to them how to follow his morals. except he’s, uh. not great at doing that! because he leaves out some pretty critical factors in his logic! it’s all so self-evident to him!

and my GOD will he judge you if you don’t follow his morals. on the flipside, no matter how far you’ve gone against them, the moment you turn around and start going The Right Way he’ll be completely fine with you again. which... on the surface it’s almost like he models bird, only it’s how he thinks everyone else should act, and in some ways it’s kind of admirable: he believes it’s never too late to turn back and start doing better. except that for him, the emphasis isn’t on so much changing your system; it’s on whether you were secretly a good person all along and just had to dig down beneath surface-level shittiness to reveal it. it’s REALLY unsettling.

(side note: this is by his standards! sometimes those standards are 'willing to do morally dubious things, in this case shoot a willing victim, to reach the goal you’ve set yourself on when there's absolutely no other way. but while refusing to kill unwilling people or do harm otherwise.' hell, that's how you get the best ending. it’s also entirely possible that he just really wants kirell to live, hence the contradiction; he doesn’t judge you or show any disapproval if you can’t bring yourself to kill him. either he’s working off a logic system here that i still haven’t quite figured out, which leans more bird, or he’s a lion who goes with his gut when it comes to what he thinks is right and therefore contradicts himself a lot.)

the secondary, now... the secondary is harder.

initially i thought he was a self-hating snake secondary with a lion model, but now i'm not so sure? he values truth and authenticity above all else, but a lot of the language he uses and the way he approaches it feels very... burned snake who's consciously choosing to tie their own hands behind their back, and forgo their masks, because they think that's the right thing to do. he's really, really frustrated by people not believing him, even when he's baring his intentions as much as he possibly can--them being suspicious of him because he’s trying so hard to convince him he’s being genuine, even. this might be a lion thing, or it might be ‘oh come the fuck on, i burned my snake already, what more do you want from me?’ talking.

a point that seem to lean in favor of lion: the fact that he’s so oblivious to the fact that people will be freaked out by his sheer frankness, especially about his motives and the things he’s willing to do for them. he realizes he’s distressing kirell by inviting her to kill him for her test, and is just like ‘oh. i’ve upset you, haven’t i. sorry about that (offer still stands, though).’ i feel like a self-hating snake secondary would probably be more aware that people could be upset by too much honesty about something like that, instead of it just not occurring to him... but it might also be that he’s neurodivergent and relies so much on masks to socialize like a ‘normal’ person. when he doesn’t have them available because he’s refusing to use them, he doesn’t know what’s appropriate, or how to tell that it’s not going over well, until the signs are obvious enough for him to pick up on them.

another point that initially seems to lean lion, but seems more snakey on closer inspection: throughout the game there’s only one part i can think of where he outright lies about something, and he’s brutally honest about some things, but at other times he’s perfectly willing to be cryptic, leave out information, and work with ulterior motives (benevolent though they may be). you might read that as a particularly slippery lion being selective about what parts of the truth they choose to emphasize, but i think the major thing that makes me lean burned snake is how he behaves in the bad endings.

if you turn out to be a piece of shit, on the last day he gets blisteringly sarcastic and passive-aggressive, and taunts you with things like ‘oh, who, me? not like you very much? no no no, of course not, where would you get that idea. :^))))’ that kind of spiteful delight in playing with the truth reads a whole lot more to me as a hurt, furious burned snake, bleeding through the iron control they normally have over their masks, than a pissed-off lion. which REALLY says something about the sheer strength of that lion primary, because holy shit.

...you know what? yeah, snake. i’m gonna call snake on this one.

Verdict for Now: Lion Snake, Babey! (with bird and badger primary models, and lion secondary model.)

#sortinghatchats #7 days philio #7 days decide your story #lion primary #snake secondary #lion snake #badger primary model #lion secondary model #burned snake secondary #exploded lion primary #burned houses #exploded houses #character sortings #7 days tag #philio is a fantastic god damn character and i love him so much #little clairvoyant doctor man has extremely dubious morals news at 11 #i already knew he was a lion snake but it's nice to dig into it some more and confirm #haven't got the faintest queue

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8requiems · 3 years

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A Webcomic Review of “Deadlove”: I think I am a Sadist now.

Intro

WHOA WHOA WHOAAAA, before you skip this part, I tweaked the process of how I review webcomics after reviewing the webcomic before this one, “Wizard of Arsenia”. The changes aren’t earth shattering, but I just wanted to put that out there.

If you don’t care. I mean, you can skip reading it. I guess it's cool. I don’t mind...not like I didn’t spend time refining it- but it's OKAY.

Before we get into this review, there are two main parts of the review:

The General Review

This route will give you a simple idea of the webcomic you are about to read. It will naturally include my personal opinions, but they will not be inconsistent to any prior or future reviews I do (in the sense that I don’t do double standards when I talk about said webcomics).

Said opinions won’t really dominate this route because I will be mainly establishing what the webcomic has to offer in each part.

Because of this, my opinions will always be presented at the end of each section.

If need be, I will refer to events that might be considered as “spoiler territory”.

I will read as far as I require in order to get a good idea of the story I am reading, so the amount of chapters I read will vary. At a baseline, I will have read at least 10 chapters.

Granted, I doubt anything too important will change how you experience later chapters since it isn’t as, lets say, a “Season Review”.

The only sections that will be fully opinion within this route is: Execution and Conclusion.

2. Beyond the Border

This route will be available if you scroll to the very bottom.

Think of this route as the “New Game+” equivalent of the review.

I will read further either because the story has me hooked, or if I want to see if my criticisms still hold true.

EXPECT TO SEE SPOILERS. ESPECIALLY IF I GAVE THE REQUIEM TRADEMARK COPYRIGHT APPROVED THUMBS UP.

Disclaimer:

If you decide to skip “The General Review” to read “Beyond the Boundary”, don’t let it affect your opinion of the work too much (if you are easily swayed). Despite how open I am to webcomics, I might have opinions that could contradict with how you might view the webcomic if YOU were to read it.

I do advise that you read “The General Review”, and with that information in mind, proceed to “Beyond the Boundary”, if you so wish.

The Description:

*Ahem*

" They say you can’t run away from your problems... and Joel just learned that the hard way. Talk about having cold feet! Joel is all set to marry Kim, his art school sweetheart, but in a moment of poor judgment he has an affair with his roommate Zoe. Hounded by the guilt, but unable to fess up to his fiancé, he decides the most responsible thing to do is... run away. As far and as fast as he can. He now finds himself selling cosmetics at a shopping mall in New Zealand. Sure, he is homesick, and everything is unfamiliar, but at least he can work through his issues in peace and quiet, right? Wrong. Read this comic to find out how Joel’s plans fall apart, and how he puts himself back together, with the help of an unexpected guest… “

Y’know, this is usually the part where I give my own synopsis of the story, at times because the description is in no way useful.

But, I have nothing to add.

I will say that when I first read “Deadlove”, I don’t believe I read the description, and I think not reading it was a welcome surprise considering that although I was expecting a “Comedy with a simplistic art style that is kind of charming”, I think I got a bit more than I bargained for.

I should also note that if it were not from my blind curiosity, and I were to judge it purely on description and the title art, I probably wouldn’t have read it.

It doesn’t do justice towards how creative the Webtoon itself presents its characters and the story it wants to portray.

But we’ll get to that in a minute. For now, let’s get a good idea of the characters we will be following.

Characters:

Joel:

(A panel in the middle of Chapter 1)

As you will quickly understand, Joel as far as life decisions go is the definition of incorrigible. Despite having many opportunities to confront his problems, or even having moments of foresight. These 5 chapters, if you are one to hate misunderstandings or easily resolvable conflicts, will be hell for the reader.

Maybe it was because I was forcing myself to read another webcomic before getting to this one, but I somehow was not personally annoyed by the way Joel was acting.

Granted, if I read this on ANY other day, I would have been seething and/cringing at the sight of this imbecile.

Which, as Creator Teo reveals in his editors notes at the end of every chapter, will be a very common theme.

(The last paragraph of Chapter 2’s Creators Note ^)

(The beginning of Chapter 3’s Creators Note ^)

I think it’s safe to say that Joel's current situation is the logical extreme of not taking responsibility for your poor decisions and refusing to confront and learn from your mistakes.

I feel like because of how his character is written, everyone is going to be on the same page, regardless of personal views on life when reading this webcomic, specifically because of how comically stupid we as the audience see Joel as.

I mean, at the very least that's how I feel…

At the same time, after reading the first chapter multiple times, I decided to set my personal biases aside just so I could be sure Joel is full of shit.

There were two parts of the Webtoon that caught my eye:

^ For this dialogue portion, the part that caught my attention was him brushing past keywords that we have likely heard before when hearing about cheating: “Love isn’t Binary”, “I thought only assholes cheat”, and “She looks hot”.

Now, I could easily be reading too much into these lines, and I probably am. But this isn’t the first time I have heard or read about someone cheating on someone they love for “X,Y, and Z”, so I decided to look up a random case to see how the cheater in that situation felt.

After reading about it, I felt myself not necessarily thinking he wasn’t an ass, but I did end up feeling bad for Joel. Not because of the lines I just showed, but for the lines in the following panel towards the end of the chapter:

In the case that I looked up, they felt miserable at the development that had come of their new relationship, despite cherishing the one they already had.

Now granted, Joel does say that he isn’t a reliable source of info for the story, but I feel as though the points where he does start deviating from truth are obvious enough to the viewer that we can differentiate it from the real truth.

At least, that’s what I believe, I tried reading back to see if there were any obvious deviations in truth but I couldn’t find any. Maybe you found some? Share what you found in the comments section down below if you have.

I think this simple meme panel that is shown at the end of chapter 1, although very simple, justifies the way I think about Joel as a character:

Execution:

When I first started reading “Deadlove” I thought the charm would come from the simplistic art style, and I wasn’t wrong about it not having charm, but it is certainly not the main appeal of the Webtoon. The way the visual and writing style compliment each other reminds me of my time reading “God of Bath”. But with “God of Bath”, that would moresoe be applied to the gag panels.

For “Deadlove”, it's every panel of every chapter.

Visual Style:

I think my favorite part of the Webtoon would have to be the way Creator Guy makes visually metaphorical jokes, and just the way he decides to show Joel’s interaction with the audience as he breaks the fourth wall.

An example of a visually metaphorical joke would be something Creator Teo actually had to point out for me. Had to do a whole double take:

( ^ A panel in the latter half of Chapter 1 )

( ^ The fourth paragraph of Chapter 2’s Creators Note )

( ^ Joel revealing his wishy washy nature to the audience in a panel towards the end of Chapter 5 )

Although there might be better examples of Joel’s audience interaction, I personally love this one. I can’t help but chuckle every time I remember it.

The Writing:

I rarely consume media that breaks the fourth wall. And even then, they would break the fourth wall for comedic effect, not for telling a story.

Then again, many stories will have a narration at the beginning where they basically guide you in the beginning portions of the story, only to return every now and then.

Joel is telling the story as he is living it. I mean, he does say the story isn’t linear, implying that this isn’t the case, but I still appreciate how the story is written nevertheless.

Conclusion:

Overall, I feel like I’ve communicated how much I love “Deadlove”, and I shouldn’t be surprised considering the talented duo of Creators Teo and Guy have experience telling simple yet fun and captivating stories, such as “The Adventures of God” and “My Dictator Boyfriend”. Both Webtoons that I love.

I already feel like I am someone that Joel is talking to, making me in some way a part of the story too, but having Creator Teo talk say reveal some insights about the Webtoon and giving some giving some thoughts about “Deadlove” shows a connection with me, the reader, that I don’t really feel in other Webtoons, even if they do Q&A’s every now and then.

That being said, I think that Teo’s quick tidbits are a consequence of the very stylized nature of the story itself.

I would suggest “Deadlove” to anyone, even if they would hate a character like Joel. Just because I feel like he is interesting enough to see him continue to make mistakes and follow his overall journey.

#webtoon #Webtoons #webtoon review #WebtoonFeatured #FeaturedWebtoon #webcomics #webcomic #Webcomic review #deadlove #GodofBath #God of Bath #Naver #NaverWebtoon #Naver Webtoon

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thoughts on andrew jackson specifically on how hes remembered vs how he really was 🤔

Ah yes, one of those guys that no matter what you say or think, people are never going to completely agree with ya. Super complicated man. Oddly enough, his complexity is part of why he’s kept himself in the top of my interests.

So, nowadays, he’s usually remembered as an insane genocidal maniac. Well, at least that’s the tone a lot of people give off anymore. I don’t think *everyone* views him in that black and white of terms, from what I can tell though.

Jackson was a man of contradictions. He was a wild gentleman (my favorite way to refer to him). He had a rough time growing up and suffered MUCH loss in his life. He had a fiery and passionate attitude. We all know he fought many duels in his life. When he loved, OH BOY did he love. When he hated, OH BOY did he hate. He also had the ability to totally go off unhinged one moment and have perfect gentlemanly composure the next.

He inspired a whole chunk of younger people. James K. Polk was HEAVILY influenced by him. Franklin Pierce was too.

He was a horse of a different color as a politician. He wasn’t like the others before him. While he came into his own fortune and became a rich man himself, he still gave the regular working class white men hope. I get it though. A self-made man is much more appealing and something to aspire to than that of a man born into the elite class.

But Kenny, The Indian Removal Act.

Yes, I was getting to that. Truly a huge, unsightly scar on our nation’s history. I remember when this was discussed in my college US history class, we did look at multiple angles, as our instructor preferred us to. He liked debate and hated the idea of telling us what to think. Love that style. Anyways, as we know, many natives died because of this Act. Was that the intention? Well, I feel like that is varied. Some people felt it would be better for the natives to have their own way out west, away from the white men. I’m sure some just didn’t give two shits about the natives and just wanted more land. Some people legitimately thought getting the natives away from the white man was BETTER or them. See, now we can look back and we see that it was not the best thing because of what happened.

In fact, from what I can tell, Jackson himself at least gave off the image of this being the best bet for them. He felt if they stayed where they were, the white man surely would spell the end of them. To be brutally honest, they were fucked either way. Do I support the Indian Removal Act? No. Like I’ve said, it’s a giant, gross scar on our nation’s history. The attitude of the white man in the US and colonization in general was dooming them though. There’s really no good way to look at what happened or what could have happened to the Native Americans during this time. Even today, they get royally shat on.

Jackson did, of course, right on fight against natives. He also fought alongside natives. He adopted one as a son that he cared for. Many other “war heroes” in our history slaughtered natives. Our nation’s history is full of sinners. Humans tend to be a nasty creatures.

If I sound like I’m justifying things, I’m not. If anything, I’d prefer to be showing that I’m critical of stuff humans do in general. I am against the idea of elevating human beings to the level of saintly Gods. Yes, George Washington, John Adams, Alexander Hamilton, Abraham Lincoln, etc were all deeply faulted human beings that we should never look at with rose-tinted lenses. Can we appreciate things they did that we like? Yes. Can we point out their flaws? Yes, we should keep them in mind. Does this mean we can’t take inspiration from them? No, we can. If anything, we can learn from their faults and build on their strengths.

That’s a lot of how I look at my favorite historical figures. Do I find a lot of “problematic” figures interesting? Yes. But pretty much every historical figure is problematic, if we want to be realistic. I also just have a tendency to be drawn to immensely complicated figures.

Jackson certainly was a president to stop and invoke some sort of feeling in people. Good, bad, or somewhere in between, we all have some sort of feelings and thoughts on him. He did things I admire/agree with and he did things I detest/disagree with. Literally any historical figure I’ve ever been drawn to has. If I only had interest in those I completely match up with…. Well I would just never have interest in anyone.

He certainly left his mark. And honestly? I think that was one of his goals in life. Leave a mark on the world. Make some waves. Cause some change. Funny I mention change, since his last words involved telling everyone to be ready for the change. He knew society was changing. He may have been a hot-headed Western man who didn’t have *formal* education and probably suffered from lead poisoning that probably affected his mental state, but he was smart in some instances (well, I mean, duh, we’re all smart when it comes to something). And honestly, the way he was reminds me of many of the men I grew up around, which is probably another reason I’m drawn to him. That’s probably why I don’t understand why people seem afraid of him. Like, nah, I’ve been close to men like him since I was an infant. I mean, I’ve also faced the barrel of a gun, been shot, and lived. My scope of what I should be scared of is a bit different, perhaps. If Jackson was an earwig or a centipede, I’d then be afraid of him, to be honest.

But yeah, Jackson was complicated as hell. People can disagree with me all they want, but it is my conclusion that the most realistic way to look at him is in various shades of gray. Though, I’m probably going to tell you that’s the way to look at any figure. Except James Buchanan.

Honestly, at the end of the day, we’re all gonna take our own view. Best we can do is look at the facts and context as much as humanly possible and go from there. Our own personal views are going to affect that as well. I don’t know if we’ll all ever fully agree on Jackson, and perhaps it’s best that way. As complicated as he was, I think it would be impossible anyways.

#andrew jackson #colonel-robert-lee

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randomnameless · 5 years

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Final Chapter - Dozel to Freege!

Seliph continues to liberate the land of his grandfather, and settles down the feud the Chalphyians had with the Freeges for 3 generations.

AND WE SEE THE RISE AND FALL OF OUR HERO - SCIPIO OF JUNGBY

You had men out there? I forgot. I was focused on, you know, the Master Knight with a Holy Weapon.

I hope you’re calling your men cowards, not the Dozels! Or is it another way of Kaga to pile shit on the Dozels, even from within their side?

Yeah, once and for all given how you’re one of the rare bosses to run away and not to die when we defeat you.

A plan?

This is a way to warn the player of what kind of backup units/mechanics are going to happen, so we won’t be going “WTF” at, idk, ballistaes popping up after the 10th turn in a defense map, but it defeats the plot purpose!

there’s no surprise here, so of course Hilda’s plan doesn’t work. If we knew in FE5 that Dastard Jr was going to blow up the bridge after we sent units to cross it, then to send Reinhardt and his pals on us, it wouldn’t have the same impact - we would curse Saias less, but his “tactician” gimmick wouldn’t be translated into the game

Hilda means to fight to death. Well, this is the final map so...

The Gelbenritter, or what’s left of it looks menacing! Hopefully Arvis gave Seliph the Tyrfing in the previous chapter, else Seliph wouldn’t have been able to plow through those guys like Ares does on a regular basis - welp that sounds wrong doesn’t it

What do you mean, random? Is this not a holy war on its own, us having to fight against Loptyr himself?

HE ASKS US TO SUMMON THE TRIFORCE? SUMMON THE POWER OF THE HYLIAN GODDESSES SELIPH!

?? To this day, I still don’t understand what the fuck are those trails. Julia and Seliph? Leif and Seliph? Julia vs Julius? (one good light vs one evil light?)

At least he gave us sufficient funds to repair our HWs.

“slow down you jackass you have a horse now !”

“remember you’re weak and i have to protect you, the usual routine” “hey i have my holy weapon now”

? You’re scared now, but when we were fighting in Thracia you weren’t? OTOH this is the end of the journey, and during Siggy’s end everything burnt, so maybe Larcei’s afraid of that, or she knows that if she manages to rekt Julius before, now he is stronger.

IDK, maybe having your WIFE and not only her BLADE at your side?

Larcei’s supposed to find this romantic, or she’s pissed, idk.

Finally someone’s going to sing something good about the Crusdaders, Neir and co!

smite the devil with a demonic blade? Like in Pokémon when ghost attacks are very effective against ghost types?

Odo and Hezul hated each other guts or something? One is a saint, the other wields a demonic blade...

Apparently Baldur is only remembered as very pious, or something? the Tyrfing shines in the dark?

WHAT ABOUT THE OTHER CRUSADERS DAMN IT

and Baldur “shines a light” but Heim “prays”? I mean, if something should be shiny and have a “light” imagery, it should be the Book of Naga, not the Tyrfing but...

Ooh!

So Heim prays to the white dragon who destroys the shadow dragon, that’s why praying is important and Heim’s reserved stuff!

So the white dragon means light? Baldur and Heim were cosy enough to share their attributes, or Baldur did something awesome to be called the holy knight with a sword that shines light?

Well, wait 60 turns and see.

for we have the power of savestates at our disposal?

OTOH, if Seliph and Julia die here... We can only pull a Manfroy with Linoan, and hope for her Naga-grandson to continue the fight

Children will finish what their parents started, the game is called Genealogy after all!

or he is talking about the power of savestates

MMH

Never lost? The Barahra family nearly went extinct because someone only had eyes for a married woman who ran away!

You believe in Lester, who’s only following us?

I believe in Linoan too, even if she isn’t in the game. Or by light you meant people who want to fight against Loptyr?

You raised more questions than answers, but this song makes me understand what the randoms in Granvalle are really thinking (or what Finn thinks they’re thinking^^) - only the sword crusader counts and that irks me a lot!

Stop swarming us from the rear damn it genealogy of the rear attack : the holy innuendo

Scipio is into dubious kinks

more seriously, who compares himself to a snake? That’s not a noble animal!

DERMOTT NO - he managed to dodge this

Hilda knew Tailte had another child? She must have heard about how Tine defected to join her brother and made 1+1.

She can dirty them around killing randoms, but not by killing Hilda? It doesn’t make any sense :’(

Hilda’s aware that she’s going to hell? Or that, whatever she is/was doing, she knew it was something that no one could condone?

HOW’S THAT “WHAT ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO BE”

You’re being rude to your street urchin of a cousin Scipio!

the sprites beg to differ, but again, to Scipio and everyone around his age who grew up in the empire Siggy and pals, even Briggid were traitors!

Family bonding time :)

ULSTER NO

YOU RUINED THEIR FAMILY BONDING TIME :’(

Maybe he felt conflicted by hearing that he is the son of Jamke and how the Empire and the Jungbies never gave a flying fuck about his country

Fee remembered that Arthur’s dad was the guy who berated Arthur’s mom for wanting to kill her own dad, Arthur mustn’t slay his relatives! So she’s the one to kill Hilda.

Farewell Hilda, at least you’ll join Blume and you’ll live happily ever after together, with your daughter joining you in the next update!

Come on i’ve seen this before

Try to be more inventive next time, would you?

Finally, we settle things with Freeges! By seizing their castles!

Seliph thinks of the children :)

Felipe ex machina

Oldvis had an aide? With Aida dead, he maybe wanted to share his dastardly plans to someone, or maybe he wanted to talk to anyone who wouldn’t trashtalk him unlike his son(s?)...

OMG OMG OMG

Even the ones from Thracia?

THEY’RE ALL HIDING!!!!

Which raises several issues, how can they all fit, how many were they, how come no one noticed that no children were in Belhalla and reported it to Julius, etc...

Remember that Hilda was the Queen of Miletos, so she spent the majority of her time there!!

And Freege isn’t Hilda’s city, but the Ducal seat of Blume and the Tordo royals!

and here the Ishtar gambit is revealed!

So Ishtar has wrath in her skillset? I never noticed

Hm... You haven’t met a lot of people.

She and Oldvis were really getting along then! We could glimpse it in their convo, too bad it ended in, well, you know. Loptyrpocalypse ruins everything.

Oh, so the children signed their presence sheet, then skipped the “i will sacrifice myself for the sake of Loptyr, our God and Savior” classes.

It still doesn’t make any sense, but why not

They’re going to gie you armorslayers and vulneraries, ask Leif!

Thank you revealing crucial elements of caracterisation the game couldn’t offer us in some other way

“Some results” is the reason why so many people joined Seliph’s quest, and the symbol of the Empire’s tyranny, but whatever

But yes, the real job awaits.

Dead is the only logical conclusion, but the game isn’t logical. And how’s that the only option? Master draconic tactician can’t guess that Loptyr murdered the only one who can kill him before she could hold the tome of Naga?

Or is he desperatly clinging to the little shred of hope he has of Julia being alive not to think about his own naivety of letting her get captured when she is the only one able to save the world?

That’s not what you told us in Chapter 6, you said only Seliph’s destiny was “to free the world from this evil grip” as the “one true heir of Saint Heim”

Freeing the world from the evil grip means getting rid of the idiot sitting in Belhalla, right?

Hopefully even this guy doesn’t contradict the game’s lore. At least one positive point I found about you, yay!

“what about you, you raised her for years?”

“i only fed her wild berries and gave her a roof - i spent more time training Arthur in wind magic than talking and being a relative to Julia, remember how i dropped her on you during your Isaachian campaign without any tomes or staves?”

Hopefully, Julia dosn’t need to be convinced by those dolts, because it’s her destiny as a Falchion to slay an evil Dragon!

#FE4 run #FE4 #final chapter #we finally close the Freege and Jungby chapters #the last one was disappointing as i already pointed out #i don't know if the random's song was really indicative of anything but #why singing about Baldur and not the other granvallians crusaders #or the others from the others countries?#because Seliph's Chalphyian?#and Ares and Shanan are by his side?#Altena too #i know she can die but Shanan and Ares too so why?#i mean Faval helped us just like Ced and we just shit on them?#and really what is going on with all of the light related stuff for Chalphy? I though Belhalla was all light and stuff #because naga #i start to grow as pissed as Oosawa!Langbalt about this #i know our heroes are from chalphy #but there are 13 crusaders #we don't see Roland being raised above the other heroes in FE7/6 #even if roy Eliwood and Hector are from Lycia #so why the special treatment?#RIP hilda :'(

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why-to-kay · 5 years

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On the Process of Thinking

That’s it, I’m rambling.

Sometimes it just hits you hard. A single pang that strikes straight through your chest and out the other side. Sometimes it cripples you, hinders you, makes you stop and wonder how the fuck can you stop feeling this way. Other times, you ascend. A perfect order of feelings like the heavens themselves aligning in unison to bestow unto you the joy of... joy.

Imagine for these bastards to clash. Imagine two mutually exclusive feelings battling to reign over your mind. Internal conflict is the power struggle of directly opposing mental deities clashing to invoke dominion over their own battleground and subsequent kingdom: my brain.

It’s a tale I’ve told many times, it’s a feeling I’ve tried to express in so many different ways so many different times. And yet, I find myself discovering new ways to fucking explain it and vomit it out to the rest of the world. I lie here, wondering when o’ when will it cease. Can the fires of war be quenched by my surrender to these two colliding factions? Can I simply find a day of peace where I do ascend for joy?

Asking those questions perpetuates the things you try to escape from in the first place. Those everlasting questions that will not disappear despite the begging of a break. To ask them is to force yourself to answer them. Why am I saying all this? Well, forcing myself to answer yet another question, I am craving some understanding. I feel crazy sometimes. Not mentally insane, but uneasy at the possibility that I am obsessing over what all my thoughts mean or, needlessly digging way, way too much into a hole that’s already been dug enough.

What we all desire more than anything is for someone to get us, to understand us, to see us without judgement or confusing look in their eye. I type this and I hope thag even just one person thinks to themselves “oh my god I totally get this”. Those moments of understanding give extra validation on a subject that might not necessarily need it, but sure do appreciate it. But sometimes, you just need to expunge the truth out of you in order to feel better and see it for what it really is. Sometimes you need to do it and not be worried if someone understands it or not because it’s your truth, it’s personal to you. It’s not pivotal but merely a small expression of a mental state. I need to do one of those. I braced the start of this post saying I’m going to ramble and that’s what I’ll do. I’ll inevitably contradict myself but I think I just need to vomit some truth from my conflicted mind.

The truth is I’m afraid. I’m afraid that things won’t fall into place like i planned. I’m afraid that all the things I’ve been doing have been wrong and I’m afraid that things just won’t get better. Copy and paste that onto your life and you probably wouldn’t be surprised if it still made sense. We’re all afraid of those things, to a degree. So allow me to delve deeper and get directly specific. I’m afraid that one side of my internal conflict will win and it’ll be the wrong one. In all honesty as well, I don’t know which is the right one, and it’s incredibly hard to admit that. In fact, it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to admit.

I keep trying to realise the scope here. Physically, yeah I’m fine. Emotionally, I’m not too bad, it’s not like I’m very depressed or hyper anxious or manic or anything like that. I hate to invalidate my own feelings here, but I really could be worse and I am of course thankful that I’m not. However, I am kind of... struggling. I’ve mentioned this internal conflict before but now I’ll actually explain what it means to me. There are two sides here, one that wants to move on and one that wants to “upgrade the past”, as it were. Fuck it, I’m not sugar coating this; “upgrade the past” obviously means to not move on and try to do the classic Nunya of winning back the ex. I’m reluctant to say it because, and not to invalidate how I feel here but, I’m tired of it. Every post on this blog has something to do with her in some small or large kind of way. I mean, I’ve had family members die, close family members, hell, I’ve lost a whole two years of memory as an after effect of a family member dying and yet that pales in comparison to the pain and hurt I feel right now thinking about the dreaded breakup. Yep. It’s fucked. I sound angry here because I sort of am. The perspective I have is that because I’m living in the present, everything feels much more intense than the past. But objectively, comparatively, should it? I said I felt crazy earlier because I cannot tell if I am going through each day having the feelings I do as a huge overreaction to something I should (and again, I hate to invalidate myself here) “get over” or is it justified?

So when i say “i don’t know which is the right one” it tears me apart, because i need to be sure. I have to be sure. They both have their merits and their convincing points. One side has nostalgia as an ally and the other is trying to thrust me into the great unknown. The objectively right side is the one that tells me to move on. It’s the one i’ve been trying to follow and trying to reassure myself with but i have doubt. The one crying to win her back is the instinctual response, the gut feeling, if you will, to it all. It’s a classic case of do you follow your instincts or your brain. I keep trying to type a conclusion here saying “but of course the right way is to follow the brain here” but i feel dirty saying it. I have doubt. “i can still win her back and get on with my life, they’re not mutually exclusive. I can still attempt the goals with which i setup in the hopes of completing them. So what’s so bad about still trying?” That’s the most convincing argument that side can present. It’s what i keep ruminating upon. It’s having my cake and then eating it a goddamn second time.

“But it’s okay” i say to myself. “one side will win and i know it’s the right side, the moving on side”. Yet doubt strikes me again. No matter what resolution i come to, doubt undoes the words. I know this could all be worse though. I could be a month ago where i was plagued with dreams of my ex, every single fucking night. I could be two months ago where i was a ghoul in the daytime and my mind was a running theatre of old memories highlighting the loneliness around me. Both those things are gone now so obviously i am getting better. Sometimes i forget that. But while those things required me to bear through them and reassure myself, how do i reassure against doubt? In these times, the cure is a revelation, an epiphany, a moment of pure clarity.

This whole post, this is a singular unedited thought process. In comparison to a year ago, i never ever would have been able to do this and show it off to the outside world without fear of judgement. Even just three months ago i would have been very apprehensive to do this. I mustn’t forget, i have come far. I know i have a lot to go but goddamnit i have come far. All i wish is for a person to share this with. I don’t know what i mean by that though. I typed it and i’ve spent a few minutes mulling over what i mean and, honestly, i don’t know. There are so many ways to interpret it yet it felt like the most true thing to say. What i do know is i feel a lot better after writing this all out. It is so very very easy to slip in the quagmire and cover yourself in the mud. But looking back on the trail i’ve left, it’s easy to see how the trail yet to come can also be made easier to walk.

Exactly a year ago, i remember that i just felt awful all the time. I had this underlying sadness that would not go and i would love to wallow in it. It’s so odd but the sadness was more comfortable and more comforting than the love of a good person. I say that because that must’ve been what it looked like from that person. To empathise here, it must have felt like the sadness and loneliness i constantly looked to and went to in my mind was more of a girlfriend than the actual girlfriend. Only right now have i realised that. Thinking now, there’s probably many more examples of that kind of thing, many more moments that i have to painfully look at now and see it for what it truly was. There is no more romanticising the past. Sadness induced ignorance i think is what i shall dub it all. Vacuousness that doesn’t stem from lack of interest or care, but the shrinking of a man into his own mind. I feel guilt now. There were times when i just said “i’m sad” and didn’t explain it nor help it, and simply slumped into the warm embrace of apathy. How cold the aura that must give to the bystander, how painful must it be to watch as someone retreats in themselves. You don’t realise that your own feelings reach out to others in ways that you didn’t think were possible.

It was only recently i woke up out of this state. It was a few days after the breakup where i realised “shit, i’m presenting to others how i feel inside”. It’s only literally right now i realise the true extent of that. Maybe this will actually help me pick a side. After typing those words, i still feel the same confusion as earlier.

I think i shall stop now. I could keep writing and writing but i think i’ve exhausted all i needed to say on this and some new revelations need pondering over. i fee better after typing this though. That internal conflict has died down a bit. As i said earlier, that was an insight to my thought process. You also got to witness a revelation in the making! Ain’t that cool. As a final note, i implore everyone that’s struggling with their feelings to write out their entire thought process like i did. It doesn’t have to be on Tumblr, it doesn’t even have to be on a device; writing anything on a piece of paper would be more than beneficial.

#self love #self care #long reads #long post #thinking #ruminations #relationships #nunya

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bossmedley · 7 years

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Hey I'm talking about those matsu's again

So I've been thinking alot about the F6 forms of the matsu's and how I can over analyze them so I've come to some conclusions. What I see the F6 forms as is what the matsu's themselves think is cool/the kind of person they want to be. This goes for EVERYONE if you think about it for long enough honestly (even chibita... Let The Guy Be Tall.) But we see mostly only the matsu's and totoko in the F6 forms so I'll probably only talk about them (ofc I'm bringing totoko into it)

Osomatsu

So his F6 personality is kind of like his normal personality on surface level. I kind of thought they were similar at first but the one thing I'd say is the biggest difference is the charisma. They describe F6 oso as like a charisma god (I can't be fucked to go back and look exactly right now ;;). Now that's the complete opposite for actual osomatsu who gets his ass beat up trying to hit on a girl and I think that's the main thing about his F6 form. He just REALLY wants to be able to charm people and inspire them in a way? But he's kind of clumsy with it and goofs around alot.

Karamatsu

OH BOY do I have some stuff here. So karamatsu's F6 is DRASTICALLY different from his normally self. F6 karamatsu is an ultimate bad boy who calls every girl he sees ugly and beats people up in the street naked. Yet underneath he is a kind hearted soul, just alittle rough outside. This is NOT AT ALL our karamatsu holy shit. Actually karamatsu is all sugar, no bad boy at all despite all the leather jackets he wears. I feel like the more drastic the change of personalitys the less cool they probably think they are, and I think karamatsu doesn't really like where his personality stands. He thinks it's SUPER cool to be some kind of tsundere guy who can be above everyone else and beat people up, but he's not that at all. He cries easily, he's easily manipulated, he doesn't have that cool personality that he so desperately wants. He wants to be cool and kind but he just got a bad mesh of the two.

Choromatsu

OH BOY another F6 form that changes DRASTICALLY from the normal version. It's pretty easy to see choro thinks intelligence is ~super cool~. His entire F6 form is the beauty genius. But obviously normal choromatsu is /not/ beauty genius. Something else I notices though was how calm and collected F6 choro is compared to the normal choro. Normal choro is quick to scream, and hes pretty loud and tries to take control of a situation. Choromatsu WANTS to be seen as the leader. F6 totoko even has a line in the first episode along the lines of "hes totally the leader, isn't he!?" When referring to F6 choro. And that's what choro wants. To be a calm, cool, collected, and intelligent leader figure. But normal choro isn't really,, any of those. Looking deep into F6 choro he may be more different from the original than karamatsu, but they're both different as all hell. Choromatsu really does just want to be looked up to and seen as reliable, but normally he just can't catch up to that

Ichimatsu

Ichimatsu is the last one with a large difference, I'd say. The first kind of interaction F6 ichimatsu has is him approaching F6 totoko and placing a hand on her shoulder, handing her back her purse. He comes off as mysterious and cool. Well, with normal ichimatsu we have a shitload of contradictions. As I've said with most of the bros, he isn't cool. He wants to come off as cool, but in normal life he just doesn't. Hes messy and grumpy. Speaking of that, F6 ichimatsu isn't particularly sad like normal ichimatsu, just mysterious. I mean, it's no surprise of me saying ichimatsu has low self esteem but it's a thing. But the mysterious part of F6 ichimatsu is really important. Ichimatsu doesn't want anyone (anyone) to know about him and his feelings. Whether he thinks it's cool, or he just doesn't like sharing his emotions is up to interpretation. Ichimatsu WANTS to be mysterious, but he ends up not really being that at all. Sure, he can be unpredictable and seemingly mysterious, but he's easy to crack. And he hates that. Also F6 ichimatsu has really big eyebrows-

Jyushimatsu

Not too much is different surface level, like osomatsu, and there's really one thing that sticks out to me with this form. It's how /calm/ F6 jyushi is. Normal jyushimatsu is bouncing off walls and always moving around, but F6 jyushimatsu is much more relaxed. I'm seeing it as jyushi not really liking his own hyperactivity,,. He wants to make people happy without scaring them off with his hyperactivity and he'd probably worry about it a bit. Yet, with jyushimatsu, I don't see him being too self conscious about these things. Surely he can be, but he is alot more naturally outgoing (but maybe that's just what he wants us to think)

Todomatsu

Again, fairly similar. I think his f6 form is closest to normal todomatsu. The only big difference would probably be that F6 todo is really lying. I don't think all of normal todomatsu's personality is a sham, but we do know that some of his cute front is just to get things he wants. But F6 todo is naturally cute and charming, and that's what todomatsu wants. Also, normal todomatsu can be loud mouthed like choro (not as bad, hes able to keep his temper better, but he can still do it a bit) whilst F6 todo, like all the others, stays calm.

Totoko

You'd think I'd leave her out??? My 100% wife??? Think again. Totokos F6 form is a completely different turn from the other forms in that she is the girl taking on all the passion of these boys. (you can also say another part of the normal matsu's wanting to be cool would be totoko loving them in the F6 form) but her F6 form is definately different. F6 totoko is more humble than normal totoko, and I'd assume F6 totoko shows normal totoko's desire for atleast one (1) lover she can fall into. The christmas episode, if I remember correctly, begins with F6 totoko running some kind of charity booth. Honestly there's a bit more but I haven't gone back and watched the F6 episodes to take in character (and I'll die before I rewatch the lube episode jadjhenahd) but I feel like normal totoko just wants to be loved by people she can love back. Her standards are REALLY HIGH (and I could make a whole nother post about why) and she wants to be pampered to all hell, which is what these hot boys can give her. Normal totoko is alot more honest and less humble about things, and isn't getting the pampering she wants in real life. Yet its what she wants: shitloads of positive attention. And if all she's gonna get it from are some low life NEETS who aren't hot Dreamboats, she'll have to accept it

#ive been thinking about this for a while #uhhhh #ososan #also this is really long so it's under read more #its about F6 #its very messy but I wanted to put my ideas down #also i mightve written the most about totoko ;)#you know..

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hilmihisham · 7 years

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#77 : Stupidity is incurable..

..but, stupids won’t catch cold either..

(Ah, that’s why lah I rarely had cold.. I see, I see..)

Yeah, trying to enlighten the mood a bit there, didn’t really work while I’m typing this..

It’s only Monday afternoon and I’ve already managed to flip up, fumble, wreck, ruin my day - you name it, it’s everything negative that you aren’t supposed to do at the start of the week.. I know, I shouldn’t be negative and not that I have any superstition or whatever to start the week badly and everything will go down the drain for the rest of the week. But think about it, if you already on the back foot as early as Monday morning, then the rest of your week will only be you playing catch up with your life again. It’s only just that, no superstition involved.

I’m stupid. It’s a well known fact, really (or even if it isn’t, it’s something that I’ve admitted to since long ago). But that’s not just a reason that I can just let everything bad happen, let it go and say “nah, I’m just stupid, that’s why la that happened..”.

I still have that self-consciousness that I can say to myself clearly “no, this should not happened in the first place!”. (Oh yeah, on the side note, this piece is written with me having full consciousness. No subconscious writing in this one. I’m mad at myself right now that I can’t afford to be jilly-jolly at myself, whatever that means..). Think of that self-consciousness as like I can see myself from 3rd person perspective. If someone makes mistake over and over again, other people bound to be mad at that person. I feel like so, too. I’m hard at myself, yes, but I know that that’s what I need to be because if not, then only God know how much stupid I can be.

But, there’s only so many things that yo can do from outside. I see myself, I assess myself, I know I’m stupid (unbelievably so) and I need to change, but that’s it. It’s the same as our computer actually. Guest account can’t change anything inside the computer, it need Admin access in order to alter stuff. My self-conscious tells me to change and my stupid me can totally understand that, absorb that, know how severe the current condition is, but 3 seconds later I can also just brush it aside and just say “meh”.

Third person me can access me and say “critical change needed ASAP!”. Stupid myself will reply “oh shit, this is totally important. So?”.

That’s why I said I’m stupid.

As of right now, I can see the severity of this issue clearly, really. I need to change. But come several posts after this, I can also predict that I will still say “yeah, I’m stupid. Told ya before I’ll change but I’m still stupid..”.

I guess maybe banging my head on the floor several times could help.

Now to properly assess myself :

Procrastinating is bad. Do work ASAP!

Sleep on time, wake up on time. 12am is a good point to turn off the lights, 1am is the end time for your eyes and fingers to be kissing that touchscreen. Sleep, bodoh!

You don’t have that much of a horsepower to pedal the bicycle like it has some engine on it. Get out early!

Kau bodoh. Belajar!

..and several (read : lot more) other stuff..

I can read that list over and over but I know I can still manage not to change myself.

Change is not an easy thing. You’ve fallen into your comfort bubble, and even if you know it’s not the best bubble, you still feel comfort enough. Why bother? Right?

I know, I need to start small, and try to make it continuous. At the end, I can come out being better that what I’ve used to. I think I can manage to do that.

But, after reading all this, maybe you’ll wonder “he knew all the stuff already, like which part he need to improve and what the step he need to take to change. So, how com he’s still be the same day after day?”

“Well duh, I’m stupid okay..”

There’s several stuff that I’ve said to myself before coming here in LA - no matter how big or how small the degree is, the me after grad and coming back must be better than the me when my feet didn’t touch Malaysian ground anymore; and I’m me and that will never change. Well, the second one was more about my physical, my appearance and what makes me, me but yeah, those 2 were undeniably contradict one another.

Maybe those two parameters makes it harder to me to change myself but that’s not the reason I’ll use. I mean, I know it myself for circa a year and a half I’ve been here already, I didn’t change at all (if not digressing or stepping backwards).

I hate myself. I do.

I remember hearing something along the lines of “don’t put your happiness on other people” and “how people look at you don’t determine your happiness”. Well, I kinda agree to it somehow - I already have this mindset since long ago that I sort of don’t really bother what others said about me as long as I think that I’m doing the right thing. And by the right thing, I mean it as what my 3rd person said that that’s the right thing, not my own judgement of the right thing. Well, my 3rd person is still me but you get the point (right?).

And I know that right now (the very reason of what makes me to write and bust out all these stuff) I’m not doing the right thing. I need to change but changes is hard but I can try bit by bit but I’ll naturally just brush it all aside again and I’m stupid and I hate that about me and what the hell me just be better than before okay damnit?!

Oh, at this point I remembered something about changing ourselves to be more positive by changing “I’m sorry” to “thank you”. They give the example that instead of saying “sorry for being late”, say “thanks for waiting” and it can somehow make the other person to think more positively and you can get that positive vibe by it. Or something like that.

Well, it depends on the situation, I think. I mean, if I’m late at things that I’m not supposed to be late, I’ll say “sorry” just to emphasize “yes I know it’s all my fault” instead of “thank you” that makes me feel it more like “ah thank you for being on time but wait for me anyway”. Maybe it differs from person to person viewing this but for me, as I’m harsh to myself, that “thank you” things just looks like it’s making light of the other person really. I can’t really put my thoughts into words for this thing. Maybe it’s like having a light laughter at the other person like “hahaha thank you for waiting” or something like that - seems to me that I’m seeing the issue of being late as nothing at all, like it’s a normal thing to be late or something like that..

Ah, maybe I just get the wrong advise of how to be positive after all..

I’m seeing myself negatively because I’m harsh at myself - I need to because I lacked discipline. I know it all but I’m still like this. How more stupid can I be, right?

And after writing all of this stuff, I do feel like I can put aside all this stuff and go on my life like I’ve always been.

I’m helpless, huh? Can someone just punch me in the face, really? I need it.

I know from the start that I can’t change. Heck, I do feel like crying looking at myself. Ugh!

Who said study overseas is all fun and joy? I’m miserable over here.

And I know after typing all this, I’ll go back home and unbox my Nintendo Switch that I just got a text that it finally have arrived at my house right now and be all happy again. Hahaha..

I can’t stay depressed for a long period of time - not sure if that’s a good point of me or not.. Laughter is a best medicine and I mudah terhibur..

I probably need to find another way to change myself. Nothing will work if I continue the same path like what I’ve written up so far.

Yeah, that’ll be my conclusion.

(I don’t know how the tone of this text will be to you but know that I wrote this all while feeling depressed. If all of these seems like a heavy stuff to you and yet you still keep reading up to this point, I thank you really.. (and no, this is not that sorry-thank you thing earlier, I legit thanking you))

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automatismoateo · 4 years

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View point of Islam from a 18 years of experience from an ex-muslim via /r/atheism

Submitted December 06, 2019 at 02:05PM by wetsuitbattery (Via reddit https://ift.tt/2rmQC13) View point of Islam from a 18 years of experience from an ex-muslim

I am 18 years old, I live in the middle east, in a muslim country. Over the past few years, I have come to the conclusion that Islam is just one big lie, here's why, from the view point of a person who experienced islam (and still is) for 18 years.

I want to get this off my chest, here I can not really tell anyone, more on that below, this can be long but It features all of my thoughts on Islam.

You get taught Islam as soon as you're born, learn about heaven and hell, good and bad. In school (most of them are single-sex) you have a subject called "Islamic Studies", just like math or history, you learn it for 12 years. You are tasked with remembering PAGES of the Quran (the bible equivalent in Islam), and many "Sayings" (I don't know how to say it in english) by the prophet Mohammad.

No one questions this "Brainwashing" system, I believe, after experiencing 18 years, of which last 3 I started questioning, that Islam is built upon Fear. You are taught since you're a little kid that if you do bad you'll go to hell and burn for eternity, even Questioning the truth of what you're told is Forbidden and can lead you to hell. I Don't believe in god now, but I can not tell anyone, In Islam, you get BEHEADED if you leave, and they say religion of peace and tolerance. I've come to realize that I HATE Islam.

I'm going to list some of the main things that ticked me off, since islam is supposed to be "God's religion", there are supposed no contradictions, but no.

1- In Islam, you are allowed to marry 4 women, you are allowed to marry non-muslim women, but the opposite is forbidden, women can only marry muslim men. People don't question this, and take it for granted, but now, I think it's just a thing that "Prophet" Mohammad and his peoople made to get their things.

2- About Love: You can not fall in love or be in a relationship, You get arranged-married to someone you don't know, have kids and the cycle repeats, It goes against the human nature. If you have sex without being married, you, in the QURAN, either get 100 whips or if you're married and cheat, You are put in a pit and ROCKS ARE THROWN AT YOU UNTIL DEATH. They say, that is to prevent diseases or whatever, let's say we believe that, but then, you realize that in war, you are allowed to take the women of other people and do whatever you want, without marriage that is, why?

3- One of the things you're taught are "Proofs of existence of god and the Validity of Quran", one of which are scientific things that the Quran said that weren't known at that time, but as you go more in detail, They are wrong, and people use the arabic language to say that this doesn't mean what It CLEARLY means, but it has a hidden meaning. Other kinds of proofs are proofs from the QURAN, What?! they present proofs from the Quran about the truth of the Quran.

4- Destiny: they say, God knows everything and knows about your future, but why would he then, if he knows, let "Atheists" live, when he knows that they are going to be "Bad" and eventually go to hell. Whenever my teachers are asked this question, they say nonsense like "God knows stuff we don't". Also why would Your destination, heaven or hell be based on your family and country of origin, that is absolute nonsense.

5- We are always promised, by god, of victory against our "enemies", and they say "we" are not winning now because our belief and prayers aren't enough, then why do we have Muslim countries in Africa dying of hunger? can't god send some food?. Teachers would always say, "It is a test of our belief", What the fuck does that mean? That means God Is a big fucking sadist.

6- War: To motivate the soldiers, the "creators" of Islam promised heaven and women in heaven and houses in heaven and the highest degree of "heave" for people who die for god, It's the easiest way to motivate people to fight for absolutely no reason. You are not allowed to convert from Islam or you will be beheaded, If you leave your country because you don't like it, you are a SINNER, this is one way to keep people in line.

7- Stories of previous "Prophets" and religions: Many many stories of previous Prophets(In the Quran) contradict all of the history we know today, some contradict everything the Islam presents, one of which is one of "Moses" stories, where his teacher killed an innocent kid in front of him, and said that God told him he is going to be a sinner in the future, why was he born if god knew he's going to be a sinner? can't "God" make everyone BELIEVERS?. Islam is the religion of tolerance, but any believer of other religion that Islam is going to hell.

8- The existence of Adam and Eve, (which is in the Quran too), contradicts scientific evidence of Evolution.

9- Things Prophet Mohammad did that are contradictory, for example he had 13 wives, for what? protect them is what every teacher says.

I know this is long, but it is my 18 years accumulated experience and thoughts and what I've ended up believing, no one knows about this, I can't tell anyone about this.

Please tell me your opinion. Ask me anything in return, I'm happy to Answer.

Edit- forgot something

#reddit

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venetianblossom · 7 years

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God’s Attributes and Philosophical Dilemmas and My Brain Arguing with Itself

A Mind Talking to Itself

So. My brain likes to have debates with itself for its own amusement and entertainment. They happen all the time sometimes running in the back like white noise while I’m eating, painting, or walking about. Half the time these debates are of a theological nature. I was having so many thoughts lately about the attributes ascribed to God, and my philosophical struggles with some of them, that I decided to write down some of my conclusions.

God’s Goodness and The Euthyphro Dilemma This one is a bit of a headache. I remember first coming upon the Euthyphro Dilemma and finding it fascinating. I had vaguely asked myself a watered down version of the question once when someone somewhere at some church gathering suggested that things are good because God wills them. That stirred an unsettling flurry of puzzlement for me. I knew deep down there was something not quite right about such a statement. I thought, “well holy hell Batman, what if God declared that raping golden retrievers was a ‘good’ thing?” For those who aren’t familiar, here is the dilemma laid out in the simplest of terms (the following words here are not my own):

“Divine command theory is widely held to be refuted by an argument known as “the Euthyphro dilemma”. This argument is named after Plato’s Euthyphro dialogue, which contains the inspiration for the argument, though not, as is sometimes thought, the argument itself.

The Euthyphro dilemma rests on a modernised version of the question asked by Socrates in the Euthyphro: “Are morally good acts willed by God because they are morally good, or are they morally good because they are willed by God?”

Each of these two possibilities, the argument runs, leads to consequences that the divine command theorist cannot accept. Whichever way the divine command theorist answers this question, then, it seems that his theory will be refuted. This argument might be formalised as follows:

The Euthyphro Dilemma

(1) If divine command theory is true then either (i) morally good acts are willed by God because they are morally good, or (ii) morally good acts are morally good because they are willed by God.

(2) If (i) morally good acts are willed by God because they are morally good, then they are morally good independent of God’s will.

(3) It is not the case that morally good acts are morally good independent of God’s will.

Therefore:

(4) It is not the case that (i) morally good acts are willed by God because they are morally good.

(5) If (ii) morally good acts are morally good because they are willed by God, then there is no reason either to care about God’s moral goodness or to worship him.

(6) There are reasons both to care about God’s moral goodness and to worship him.

Therefore:

(7) It is not the case that (ii) morally good acts are morally good because they are willed by God.

Therefore:

(8) Divine command theory is false.

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So after reading this you come to find that divine command theory is false but you still might find yourself puzzled. Where does goodness actually come from then, if divine command theory is false? See I weaseled myself out of the dilemma by coming to the conclusion that it is actually kind of asking the wrong question. “Good” can be such a superfluous-seeming idea or construct. What does it really mean? If God doesn’t answer to some “good” authority outside of itself in order to will “good” things, then it almost seems to suggest that God is assigning things as good completely arbitrarily (divine command theory). Which inevitably leads one to asking, “well why didn’t God make rapes and assassination the common good?” or the more insidious, “what if we’re doing it all wrong in fact?!” #showerthoughts. The other alternative might be to just conclude that indeed God is not worth caring about or worshipping. I’ve yet another answer that satisfied me, maybe it’ll satisfy others. What can you say about the creator of the universe with absolute certainty because it is self evident? There’s really a lot that is pretty much impossible to prove empirically. But it is pretty clear that a creator, is by nature and by definition, creative. For better or worse, if there is a creator, it is clear that it preferred life and creation and flourishing and vast complexity, over nothing at all. This fact of definitions ties in perfectly with “harm principle” ethics, which we see echoed across many human civilizations and also throughout the bible. I’m going to reduce harm principle quite a bit but the basic aim is to not cause unnecessary harm and that you are free as long as you do no harm to others. “The wages of sin is death”. You will also find that several of the sins echoed throughout Christian ethics include things that lead to unnecessary harm or destruction. Gluttony, envy, and wrath, for example, are all destructive and are all paths to destruction. “Hell” is described as the wide path to destruction. “Satan” is constantly perceived as a deceiver and a “destroyer”. Even when we are destructive in self defense, there is a bit of sadness in having to enact any destruction at all in the first place--- a sentiment that is seen in some Eastern philosophies and particularly in some martial arts practices. Some martial arts in fact are entirely consisted of defense moves to disarm the opponent, and not to initiate harm or destruction. Some of the core virtues we can see echoed throughout Christian ethics as well as other cultures, happen to be ones that contribute to life, creation, and flourishing. Love, courage, compassion, honesty, and production (as opposed to hate, fear, selfishness, deceit, and sloth). The Jews of Jesus’ time expected Jesus to rise up with them and fight back against the Romans but Jesus did an unexpected thing. We could argue about the things he did but one of the things seemed almost as if to say it is better to be martyred as a pacifist than it is to enact harm, tribalism, and war. This is how I solve the dilemma regarding the attribute of God’s goodness (and this is not covering “the problem of evil”--that's a whole other thing). It’s quite simple that God is just creative, and many* (not all) of the things that feel beautiful and good to us (with the exception of sociopaths), empower us to be creative beings and contribute to creativity (this is how I interpret the verse that we are made “in God’s image”). “Goodness” and “loving creativity” are pretty much one in the same, under this model. And you don’t have to answer to the dilemma with this model.

God’s Omniscience and Omnipotence (all-knowing and all-powerful) It used to drive me absolutely bonkers trying to figure out how free will functions if God is all knowing and is the first-mover. If you invent an algorithm and know exactly how things are going to play out ad infinitum, and you flick the first domino, then how could any of those domino's even think that they have any free will whatsoever? You find yourself either thinking free will is a complete farce, or God isn’t actually omniscient. For a while I found “free will” to be a condition more readily proven to me so I went with that instead. But this isn’t entirely satisfactory. It’s reasonable that God is far above us in intellect and knowledge. So again, I weaseled myself out of the dilemma. I realized these things are only problems if you think of them in very absolute terms. When people say “free will” they get caught up on the word “free” without considering that it is not entirely unbounded. You might choose someone to marry, what to eat for lunch, and not to punch a coworker in the face. But no matter how hard you will it, you will not wake up as a penguin tomorrow. No matter how hard you will it, you will not reproduce asexually. So, we have a premise here. “Free will” does in fact have limitations and boundaries/parameters. And if that’s the case, to answer to God’s higher level of “knowing”, I find it more satisfactory to say that “relative to us”, God is pretty omniscient. But we also ought not to think of “omniscience” in absolute terms like we typically do. Can God truly be surprised by anything? Probably not surprised by his ape-like human creation’s tendencies. But maybe God rolled the dice while creating some parallel universe and was actually surprised at what it turned out. We don’t know if God experiments. Or if parallel universes exist. I mean, we don’t know. But the point is, omniscience is too absolute. It is far better to say that God is all-knowing relative to us; and our free will, while it is active since we are active components of consciousness in the universe--able to move things and alter things even chemically-- has its bounds and is not completely free into infinity.

God’s omnipotence is solved in a similar manner. I can’t remember the philosopher but one philosopher somewhere once asked the very crafty question, “Can God create a boulder that God cannot move?” There is great problem for the believer in this question. If you answer yes, then God is not all-powerful. If you answer no, God is still not all-powerful. But this is an issue with taking “omnipotence” too absolutely, into its outer extreme. I personally think there must be some sort of limit. For example, can God annihilate itself? Maybe but I’m leaning towards no. Can God create a round square? Again, I lead towards no. Christians have also often said, “God can’t contradict His own nature.” This gives us the idea that there are still some bounds on God. Which, I’m rather fine with and I find it perfectly satisfactory to say, relative to us little humans, “God is all-powerful”. I mean, of course, any being that is of a higher dimension than beings below it is pretty much practically omnipotent. Just not in the way people think when they think of such a descriptor. Hope You Enjoyed My Trip Down the Rabbit Hole

I feel better now that these thoughts exist outside of me and not just bubbled up in me. Thanks for reading. Hope it entertained.

#theology #debate #omniscience #omnipotence #omnibenevolence #God #dilemma #philosophy #morals

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