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#I have no power in yours. it's just how it is. use ur judgement. have fun chillin
b4kuch1n · 7 months
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Hi, I've been inspired by the composition and abstract style of your artwork for a while now, if I made an experimental art piece inspired by your composition style would you want me to credit you as an inspo? or would you just not be comfortable with me using your art as inspiration altogether? (which is fine btw, i don't wanna do smth that would make you uncomfortable)
oh sure! feel free! I don't mind at all lol
#ask#bakuspeech#tbh I do think this question is like. somewhat redundant in art. or idk unnecessary?#all of art is inspiration man. very frequently from art by artists you're never gonna have the chance to reach out to#large cause bc they've been dead for decades to a few centuries#and like. idk as an artist you kinda have to accept that people will actually look at ur art and interact with it in their own space?#so like. yeah there are things that if I see you do with my art I will block you for. but on principle I cannot bodily stop you#this is all to say that like. if the question is about my personal boundaries it's gonna be more complicated. like if you make something#with ill intention and then cite me as an inspiration source. of course I'd not like that#but also that will be on me to reflect on that and like. do what I need to do#but outside of that. saying 'don't take inspiration from my art' is 1/genuinely patently unenforceable and 2/antithetical to#the way that I do art at all#like! I thrive on remixing! it's what transformative fanstuff is. how would I ever get on someone else's case for doing the exact same thin#anyways yeah don't worry about it I guess all of the above is more like. somewhat of a blanket permission#do whatever you want with my art! if it's cool and u want me to see it feel free to tell me. if u know I wont like it dont get caught by me#I am aware that I have before mentioned things you can't do with my art. those are personal boundaries. I enforce it in my own spaces#I have no power in yours. it's just how it is. use ur judgement. have fun chillin#that's it babey I go get snack now. its past mid autumn so the moon cakes are on sale so Im gonn#a get a bag of dried corn
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msperfect777 · 9 months
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“how to detach from ego?”
why would you care about ego if its not real? as the observer, you only observe so you are just observing ego and thoughts etc. there is no need to “detach” bc everything is you and nothing is serious.
ego is the one whos asking those questions bc ego loves to search search search for answers even tho the only answer there can ever be is you: consciousness. those questions are as unreal as ego itself.
but ego wants to experience peace… i get it. yet consciousness is already peace. you are already peace.
dont you get it though? you are already consciousness so there is no ego to detach from.
remind urself that you are consciousness. you are everything. there is no separation bc everything is you so consciousness is all there is. no “ego” exists. theres just the appearance that there is an ego which is the illusion. why would consciousness/power get caught up in an illusion even when the illusion is consciousness itself?? stop acknowledging unreal things as real.
realize urself. be present and silent and still. nothing is real. when there are no thoughts or no movement of the unreal human body or anything else… whats left? silence. aka consciousness. consciousness is silence bc consciousness is only the observer. observe something in “ur” room or observe “ur” hand or “ur” breathing. observe the lines on ur hand. observe the object in the room. observe the sound of “ur” breathing. be aware of it without thoughts. still the unreal mind. thoughts go as soon as they come so observe thoughts too in silence if they come. know that silence is you. thats how you realize ur true self and start getting farther away from unreal ego.
try meditation. even tho consciousness already is mediation, i would recommend it bc since “you” thought you were human for so long, so ofc it would be “hard” or weird to understand and know that you are only consciousness. meditation is not necessary but try it bc it can help you realize and experience the silence that is you and always was you. try meditation and/or being present a few times during the day to get used to silent, pure consciousness bc most of the day ego is talking and talking and thinking and thinking🙄
quotes from my non dualism series about ego:
“even if you dont understand non duality, you are still always consciousness. you are still always aware. everything is still not real. its the ego that "doesnt understand" this yet for your true being, consciousness, thats all you know, thats all you are.” - msperfect777, part 5
“stop and realize that you are just the observer = consciousness / awareness and those thoughts and feelings are never going to be real. as the observer, just observe the thoughts and feelings come and go. consciousness doesnt have opinions; consciousness doesnt categorize things as "right" or "wrong" or "up" or "down" or "green" or "purple". consciousness is neutral. ego is what categorizes things as "good" and "bad" be ego is "logical" (which is also unreal). since you are neutral consciousness, observe the thoughts pass without judgement.” - msperfect777, part 6
“i observe my breathing and quiet the mind and thoughts and observe. if thoughts dont stop coming, i wouldnt fight it be they are just unreal. they are harmless. i just observe the thoughts. with or without thoughts, i am always the observer. i observe what i want. silently observe. with the challenge as said: observe / be aware of the things happening in the present. dont get swept up by the unreal mind and unreal thoughts. calm, stress-less, limitless, silent, neutral, peaceful. thats awareness. thats you.” - msperfect777, part 6
“remember the ego will always be a hater and make it seem that you need to do something big in order to get something. its all false. turn it off and observe, be silently aware. just be.” - msperfect777, part 8
“there is nothing to do. you know you are only consciousness and all this is just forms of consciousness therefore all unreal and all an illusion. knowing its an illusion is enough to "get rid of it" be you have acknowledged that there is no thing real except pure you.” - msperfect777, part 11
“if you (observer, awareness, etc) knew you are The Self (consciousness), there is no fear to arise because it is unreal. if you identify as the body-mind, fear arises. there is nothing to get rid of other than the idea that you are the body, the mind or the ego. if you do that, there is no fear.” @infinite.ko on instagram (also in part 11)
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cowboyjen68 · 8 months
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Hi!! For the past 8 months I’ve had a messy on and off thing w this girl. She was the first girl I ever had hooked up with & first person I’ve ever fell in love with. I always had trouble navigating the relationship bc I am used to fuckboys and having to work around boys being assholes & have no prior experience w girls romantically. We are on an off period rn and I am absolutely gutted. None of my friends or family have been with a girl so they don’t understand how much more devastating the heart break is with girls than it is guys. Do u have any advice on how to get over ur first woman heartbreak? I am so sad I will never find a connection with someone like I had with her.
I can't speak from any sort of bisexual experience since I don't have any connection to men beyond friendship but as a lesbian I can understand how, perhaps, a woman with sexual attraction to men and women would feel a closer connection with women. Having shared experiences and emotional pattern would lead to having a more intimate relationship, both physically and emotionally.
The age old answer of TIME is pretty accurate. I would suggest not dating anyone and taking some time to focus on things that you love whether that is your career, school, classes, friends, hobbies or whatever.
I have certainly had a powerful connection to a woman and thought to myself that I would never find another only to meet a woman with whom I not only had a deeper bond but who was able to love me for me and make me feel always safe and that we had a mutual passion.
Break ups are not failures. Not all relationships are meant to last a life time and that does not make them any less real or important, it just means they ran their course.
It sounds like, at the root of it, you two are never going to commit to being each other's one and only and that is not a judgement call. Not all two people who find love with one another are compatible. Often Love really is NOT enough.
You need to decide. You can continue in this cycle of on and off and be okay with that being how it is OR you can break it off and move on to heal and look for something more fulfilling and befitting of what you really want which is to be in a full time committed relationship with a woman.
Healing will take time and distance. Friendship between you is possible but not always the best or a feasible option. You can always circle back around to friendship once you have put the relationship aspects in the past.
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they-bite · 8 months
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Can we please get your Kryptonian oc lore ówò?
sure! :D
he mostly exists just to see if i could swing a kryptonian oc to begin with lmao. his name is kars-ur (sounded out like the middle of ‘incarceration’), his parents are jax-ur and mala, he grew up as a prince of their regime on new krypton (see superman: tas, where they escape the phantom zone and use their powers to take over a planet). when clark discovers the situation, he gains kars-ur’s aid, and kars’ ultimately leaves with him to allow the new kryptonians to recover & rebuild on their own terms.
(i don’t have any nicer/more recent art of him but here’s some outfit concepts? left to right: new krypton imperial wardrobe, new krypton minus cape, and earth superhero costume)
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kars-ur himself is pretty sedate, and harbors a lot of guilt about the whole thing/doubts about his own judgement. he does have a fun dichotomy of a goof-up streak, impeccable manners & a fierce commitment to the bit, which is how he ends up working for lexcorp. he got the job completely by accident (lois & clark hadn’t briefed him on the whole “lex luthor is evil” thing yet.) he fully intends on turning in his two-week notice, but it turns out he’s good enough at the job to gain lex luthor’s notice.
he spends the first few months of his job internally screaming, but like here’s the thing, i think lex luthor is overwhelmingly more entertaining if he can’t clock superheroes. any of them. at all. even when he sees them everyday and they have naturally white hair. and eventually kars-ur catches onto this, and is like, “you know what. i’m nothing if not familiar with the language of oppression & capitalism. i can fuck with this guy.”
so he’s basically clark & lois’s inside source to everything lexcorp, and lex luthor’s favorite (derogatory) social media manager lmao.
other fun facts abt him: after kars-ur arrived on earth he developed a hyperfixation on political/economic theory and conner is quickly edging him into punk territory; he’s frenemies with my reach oc who’s in a similar predicament; kars-ur & lois get along well in a bantery kind of way; clark offered him the house of el seal but kars modified it out of fear that he’d be too presumptuous if he accepted; he’s very nervous around kids & will probably be a mess around jon in the future; he has an emotional support cat but has held out on naming it because he insists it’s temporary.
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dragondroid · 7 months
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Christianity is fascist. It didn't ally with fascism, it didn't become fascist, it always was fundamentally a fascist movement (Note that I'll be looking at specifically Evangelical Christianity as that's what I grew up in and am most familiar with; however, I'm interested to see how people raised in other Christian sects' experiences compare).
Specifically, if we look at Umberto Eco's excellent essay Ur-Fascism, which lays out a framework for understanding fascist principles, we see a lot of interesting parallels with Christian ideology and Biblical excerpts:
- Cult of Tradition: The Bible is explicitly stated to be all the wisdom that is needed (2 Timothy 3:15, Psalm 19:7) by mankind. In Eco's words, "There can be no advancement of learning [inside fascism]... The Truth has already been spelled out one and for all, and all we can do is continue to interpret its obscure message." Christian doctrine is heavily built upon interpretation and re-interpretation of the Bible; even Christians that try to be progressive focus on re-interpreting problematic passages or attempting to give them context, as opposed to acknowledging that modern knowledge and sensibilities have made those passages obsolete. Admitting that modern knowledge has surpassed that within the Bible casts doubt on its status as divine and "perfect," which leads us to...
Rejection of Modernity- The Bible very explicitly says that modern, human-found understanding is inferior to primordial, divine wisdom (Colossians 2:8). Christian rhetoric frequently emphasizes the unknowability of God, framing attempts to understand him and his creation as futile. Many Christian sects deliberately work to create a distinction between "worldly," or human, and "godly" things. Throughout Genesis, we see stories like Adam and Eve and the Tower of Babel, and in the New Testament we see frequent metaphors regarding sheep. The subtext is clear- Learning and building humanity up is folly, and the ideal state of humanity is that of placid, blissful ignorance.
Disagreement is Treason- Churches are not places of equal discourse. The reason so many schisms exist within Christianity is that disagreeing viewpoints are fundamentally not allowed; those with disagreeing viewpoints must be converted to the "right" path or condemned and suppressed. If someone makes a valid point that opposes yours, it's not cause to reconsider your own stance, it's demons trying to tempt you away from the Righteous Path.
Obsession with a plot- What else would you call demons? An invisible, pure-evil race of trickster demigods who pull the strings behind the scenes, and whose sole purpose is making bad things happen- demons could he anywhere, even in your own thoughts, trying to tempt you from righteousness.
Enemy is both strong and weak- This is rampant throughout Christian rhetoric. Demons are both powerful enough to orchestrate the suffering of the world, yet weak enough to be steamrolled by God on Judgement Day. Christians have almighty power on their side, yet somehow seem to always be persecuted (according to them, at least). The Secular World is out to get you, but they're not powerful enough to just get rid of churches.
-Life is Permanent Warfare and the need for a Final Battle- Christian rhetoric commonly focuses on life as a noble struggle against sin, temptation, and Satan, a neverending battle between God's followers and the machinations of demons, until eventually God swoops in and crushes Satan in Armageddon as foretold in the Book of Revelation. Metaphors like the "Armor of God" and children's songs like "The Lord's Army" are probably the two most blatant signifiers of this.
-Everyone is Educated to Be a Hero- I've talked about this at length before, but Christianity idolizes martyrdom, painting it as a valorous ideal. One common story for Evangelical children is about a child in a school shooting who is asked if she believes in Jesus, and when she says 'yes,' she's shot. We were meant to see the girl as brave and a role model to look up to; some of us even had to act out saying we believed in Jesus while an adult pretended to hold a gun to our heads. Death is seen as a goal, where you finally get to go to heaven and leave behind a rotten, painful Earth.
I'd also like to point out that most of these are found in all Christian sects I've been in- the specific examples I gave draw on my own experiences, but the fascistic aspects of Christianity are as widespread as they are insidious.
Ultimately, this is because Christianity serves the same purpose in its followers as fascism does; it takes a frightening, morally-grey, complex world and flattens it into a simple, black-and-white, easy-to-digest world of pure good and pure evil, where all of your problems can be blamed on one group, and all of the answers are already there in the hands of the leader. No building to new heights, no searching for answers to the world's mysteries.
Just a man reading a 2,000-year-old-book, forever.
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limpfisted · 8 months
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WYLL’S FLAWED PERSPECTIVE. or, how to “read” my replies!
i personally believe wyll is a flawed character and its important to give him the full spectrum of emotions beyond “good” “kind” or “bad” “evil.”
i am personally working on trying to stay “ic” and true to my characters, without pushing the character into saying something that will like, be good for a ship, or like, be an “rp people pleaser” if that makes senses!
i don’t JUST want to have interactions where wyll is perfect. to me, wyll has flaws in the way he communicates and sees the world. this does not mean he is not heroic, or a kind, decent man—it just means i love him as a character for his layers. these things make him more REAL and complex than i think wyll as a PERSON wants to be, in a kind of “hide my truth, hide my feelings, elsa frozen kinnie” way
so without further ado, here are some things wyll might do or want to do or say incorrectly or percieve your character in the wrong way even tho i personally would not behave in the same ways irl On Purpose For Some Of These Things
CONDESCENDING. wyll believes he knows best. wyll believes he can say all the right words and “fix things.” he can make EVERYTHING better. he has a SAVIOR COMPLEX. while never being a perfect martyr, he really does think he can “ahaaha dont have depression ur so sexy” ur ass by being gentle and kind and roleplaying a fairy tale with you. additionally, if you seem “soft” in some way, or “meek” in some way, wyll want to “help you” more.
AVOIDANT. wyll does not want to talk about what he wants, what he notices, what he feels, except in poetryor tall tales or threats of violence. his pretty words sometimes hide an emptiness, a dreaminess. he speaks of things he cannot have and will not ask for. he is embarrassed to want, embarrassed to need, attention, desire, anything but charm and protecting the innocent and meek.
OVERLY ROMANTIC. this ties in with above. he idealizes people, he puts them on pedestals, he treats them like they are made of glass. he does not humanize others or himself enough, and prefers to live in a world of fantasies and pretend.
BOASTFUL. wyll tries to be humble—but this is to match a persona. if you dive even slightly deeper into things, he’s all too happy to tell you how strong and heroic he is, to the point of condescion and vanity. on the other hand, he will not take you seriously if you threaten him! he’ll threaten you back! he doesnt give a single fuck!
BLACK AND WHITE THINKING AND SNAP JUDGEMENTS. to wyll, you are either “hunter” “prey” “hero/villain” the person he needs to protect people from. he will bide his time—but it is difficult for him to trear villains kindly, and he will NEVER truly respect them as people, unless they prove they have changed or are not trying to hurt anyone currently.
WILL WORK WITH VILLAINS. WILL MAKE DEALS WITH DEVILS. WILL ALSO HUNT THEM FOR SPORT. easy to understand, wyll believes he can “control” devils, if they are useful to him. wyll can ally with evil—even if he is just biding his time to kill them later.
VIOLENT. ROLEPLAYER. if you are evil, he will just want to kill you and that’s that! he wanted to kill every goblin at that camp! he relishes in violence as long as it’s for justice. he gets off on the power and pomp of it n his heroism—even when its not actually heroic
WORDS GET AWAY FROM HIM. he will speak with intention, but has a tendency to ramble poetically. when angry, and threatening someone, sometimes he makes no sense at all bc he just wants murder myrder death death justice
A SILLY BILLY!! he can take himself very seriously, but also he is brainweird and skin hungry n loves to touch n be weird and wrestle n write funny poems and get drunk n dance under the stars. he’s a silly ex-(would have been a theatre kid but his dad wanted him to join jrotc instead) kid! he likes big bold gestures. he is EXTREMELY REPRESSED, but the closer he gets to u, the more ull see his joy n not just his “good hero”
DEEPLY LONELY AND APPROVAL SEEKING. wyll really likes it when people pay attention to him. nore than he likes actually doing good things, sometimes. note: there is nothing wrong with doing good things for recognition, everyone deserves recognition of hard work n pain. but it still makes him more interesting to me than generic hero!:
EASILY CORRUPTABLE / MOLDABLE / MANIPULATED. he approves of killing for auntie ethel n them immediatley goes. oh. fuck. oh no…. i fucked up. im trash…. he got i. cahoots with mizora and thinks he CHOSE that bc hes so so good!
NOT IN TOUCH WITH HIS FEELINGS. wyll doesn’t always know wgat’s going on his beain/heart, n honestly he doesn’t want to think abt it too hard! but i will! i always will, wyll.
SMART, BUT DOESN’T CARE ENOUGH TO QUESTION. i dont feel like writing anymore god free me. free me from the sin of my hubris. free me. no more writing
THERE ARE MORE THINGS PROBABLY BUT I DONT FERL LIKE WRITING THEM. LOOK AT MY PRETTY HC BANNER ITS SO PRETTY. GOODBYE FOREVER
something so,ething hes traumatized and pushes people away n puts them on a pedestal so they can never know how scarred and scared and unworthy he feels bc of the deep loneliness inside him from his family’s emotional instability coupled with being homeless as a teenager with only an abuser to guide him thru his late teens, etc
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silviakundera · 2 years
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So now that I've decided to overshare my opinions about Love like the Galaxy... SPOILERS SPOILERS
Ep 25-26 were really interesting to me watching Ling Buyi try (and fail) to be good at anything but military affairs. Very earnest and like NN he is so used to people being awful that he's mostly just good at stabbing back. The people he loves either aren't really interacting with the world (mom) or are so absolute powerful that LB doesn't have to worry about trodding on vulnerabilities (emperor the foster dad). Plus, perhaps a huge part of why LB is how he is comes down to how emperor father figure sincerely thinks this kid is kind and loyal. He gets away with murder (pun INTENDED thx) because his terse, abrupt manner and stubborn behavior are always taken as good faith from the emperor. This hasn't really encouraged him to moderate himself. (now ok emperor, pop quiz on ur dadding: has that I Have Social & Political Power Over You But Also Unconditional Love role model ultimately made LB into a husband option who has boundaries but is also patient and non judgemental???? Let's see!)
Evidently he's going to struggle at first to communicate with NN, who has MASSIVE (understandable) trust issues. She's used to people not truly listening to her reasons or caring, so she has stopped trying to have reasonable conversations with people. What's the point? Wasting her breath. Growing up she was degraded and mistreated by her aunt and grandmother. Her mother again and again has refused to take her perspective seriously or address the context around her actions. And so NN has simply stopped trying to explain herself. She's decided to be unreasonable, because that's how she has been treated and labelled.
The critical thing Ling Buyi was trying to express in the carriage with the bread discussion is that when he says "you shouldn't do this, cause this reason" this is the start of a discussion in a healthy relationship. (He's used to comfortably pushing back on dictates from THE EMPEROR 😂😭.) NN took it as an order that can't be questioned, because that is all she's experienced growing up and with the arrival of her parents. Ling Buyi is Not Good at expressing himself, so it'll be a rough ride I assume until he can get NN to trust he actually wants them to be partners who communicate and compromise with each other.
In a relationship like for real you do listen to your partner's opinions and you can't just randomly do whatever all the time. Your partner might say no, you shouldn't stay up all night watching Netflix because tomorrow we have to go to buy supplies for the stairs repair. And the other party is expected to listen and either say yeah, good point. Ok I'll go to bed in 2 hours. Or they might say, I hear you but I have insomnia and am super stressed out right now and this is what I need to do to handle it. Don't worry, I won't sleep in and mess up our plans. And other person takes in that explanation. Relationships take communication every day.
The question is, how much tension is this pair going to have until she learns to trust he is not trying to always shut her down and will listen to her. That he actually does care about her reasons and wants to understand them. And that she can in the same way give him feedback and expect him to listen.
(Like honestly, the more I think about it I'm... Foster dad u do get a 9/10 congrats. LB just assumes NN would be comfortable debating right back at him when they disagree, because he's so secure that this is how loving relationships go, even where there is an imbalance of power. You nag and fret because you care, then maybe they tell u why it's totally not gonna happen. Remember the consort and empress just kicking the emperor's ass OUT?! 😆 The emperor just venting on him and he pops up like a windup toy 😂😭 OMG DAD I WOULDN'T HAVE BROUGHT HER HERE IF U ARE JUST GONNA SCARE HER GAAAAWWWD 😭😭😭😭😭😭)
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hotgirlmythology · 6 months
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The Extinction from the magnus archvies
Honestly I fell off listening to it after about 130 episodes but I heard about the extinction and was like :D wow cute ur my bitch now terrifying entity of spookiness, and I think it is interpreted wrong by a lot of people.
A lot of people compare it to the desolation and the end because that's what first comes to mind when you think of what would make us go extinct. But to me, the extinction is more than the fear of just mass destruction and the end of humanity. If that was the fear at play then it would have shown up far earlier what with all the religions preaching about judgement days where the earth would be destroyed.
The fact it showed up in 1860 is interesting because that's just after Charles Darwin dropped his bombshell of a book and the idea that life could change began to gain true traction in the scientific community. Coupled with the rapidly advancing industrial revolution upsetting many of the societal structures of the time, I think the extinction was initially a fear of change to the status quo, the idea that the world you were stable and secure in is changing around you and you don't understand how to keep your footing. Basically it used to be a lot more general.
How it became specifically associated with the end of humanity fits with this idea. The atomic bomb and the revelation of climate change both brought about a huge shift in the world's mindset - there was a very real chance that the world could experience "the biggest" change, which nobody would be able to find their footing in. Everyone was terrified of this prospect, especially because of how quickly information spread, and so the extinction rapidly grew in power. Growing in power from this particular fear of change, its nature became primarily that of embodying the changes many people feared greatly but were powerless to stop, for example, nuclear apocalypse, climate change, replacement of humanity by machines/genetically modified organisms, because these fears were unlikely to disappear any time soon. Thus people now associate it with the apocalyptic terror it thrives on, and not its more general existence as fear of uncertainty and lack of control
This theory also kind of explains its aliases: "The Terrible Change" = change is scary oh no it is terrible "The Future Without Us" = this is more jiving with the modern extinction ngl "The World Is Always Ending" = change is always happening!!!! the world is literally collapsing!!! argh!!!
manifestations (ripped from the wiki soz) Man made objects + technology = oh no new and modern things that people are unsure what effects they may have on our species!!!! Yum Destruction of nature + natural order = obviously partly because of the apocalyptic tendencies it has but also because the natural world is something many view as immutable so destroying it is a big uncertainty thing
TLDR: The extinction is the fear of change and uncertainty given modern form by the wide array of existential and very dangerous horrors we have to worry about
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iwrites-blog · 2 years
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Challenges teenagers face
So...umm...this isn't the usual dry and boring write ups that are most times judgemental and too ambigous. I'm writing as a teen so I'm in a better position to state the challenges I,we face.lol.
Being a teen is very difficult because we are always faced with making approximately a billion decisions a day and I bet it's exhausting, a truth adults; especially parents would not want to believe because they feel teenagers are "lazy slots" waiting to be served and are not willing to get their hands dirty. I know every teen can relate because you wakeup each morning to decide to brush your teeth,take a bath,the kind of breakfast you want to have and honestly it's tiring. Not to talk of other decisions affecting your social life.
This brings us to one of the top challenges teenagers face which is INFATUATIONS... infatuations are often mistaken for love because it makes one feel like they just had "molly"( yeah...molly makes you feel like you're in cloud 9)
I had an experience while in highschool where I got so infatuated with my computer studies teacher. I felt so...in "love" with him I would literally see him in my dreams and I would always study the notes under computer studies inorder to remember his words and of course visualize everything ;his smile, his jokes etc. Yeah, I felt head over heels in "love" with him but I cannot remember exactly how I got so infatuated with him but I recall every other thing that I had done.
This infatuation got to a point that I really wanted to express how much in "love" I felt with him. I thought, and then I came to a conclusion that i would write him a "love letter". Got home from school one day,had my lunch then my bath went up to my room pulled out my pen and paper and began writing this "love letter" to my teacher.lol. yeah I know it's crazy but at that time I felt it was a great idea. It took me almost an hour to finish writing the letter because I was pouring out my feeling into the paper after my scribbling ,I felt so fulfilled I was happy. Gently folded the letter and placed it in between the pages of my computer studies notebook.
I was eagerly waiting for school the next day to take the letter to the teacher but when I got to school I got the most heart wrenching news ever, the principal came and informed us that Mr.Aaron, my computer studies teacher had gotten a better job in Lagos Nigeria and he relocated to Lagos . I felt like I was going to die my whole world had crumbled I was so...pained I was gloomy the entire day but with time I got over it. We got a replacement teacher,a female, and as expected I lost interest in the subject though I still always aced it .lol.
Infatuations are dangerous and as the saying goes "Be careful what u feed ur heart" it can push you to making rash decisions that would often times lead to regret which would lead to depression and even suicide attempts. Always share your feelings with parents or close friends and do not be in a haste to make decisions especially making such decisions alone. Remember" a problem shared is a problem half solved" I'll be writing other challenges teens face in my next article..yh I ghat you.lol.you only live once so stay safe, stay happy stay strong, you're powerful, you're a winner .
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maybe it's the autism but like. i can't put away morals for someone. i can understand where someone is coming from, empathize with that, but i can't like. excuse their actions, if that makes sense. like i'm not morally neutral. if i see a character on tv and they're objectively attractive, but they exploit their systemic power i can never be like 'i am attracted to this character.' because. like it's not attractive to be an oppressor?
it's why i don't get people obsessed with like. kylo ren or some shit. like did you...ignore the fact that he's a fascist or...? like i get it if characters are regretful about it, which is why i don't hold the same level of scrutiny for like, darth vader stans or something but it's still like. 👍 cool ur in love with a fascist arm of the state.
idk it seems um. weird. and it's specifically about systemic abuse. idc about u shipping with a slasher lmao yeah they're hot all covered in blood like that. because while what they didn't wasn't like...right, (though in some cases it absolutely is) most of them are not literal fascists or monarchs or dictators or like. rich people. idk. its just confusing to me because i can't understand how people put aside the actual ideology behind the actions people take. if you commit a war crime it's like. ok there are situations where this might be acceptable or understandable. but if you fundamentally believe that you have the divine right to rule a country, and that by birth you are fundamentally worth more than everyone else. i'm like. 👍 cool kys.
idrc how much you suffered if you use that suffering as justification for the leveraging of your systemic power against the working class, you know? go cry in ur castle built by slave labor, babe <3
and this isn't a judgement of the people who ship with these people, really. it's just me tryin got get down my internal reasoning around some characters. i'm just. trying to figure out why i think the way i do. if you ship with people like im describing, i genuinely don't care unless they're an actual, literal on-screen nazi. ship with ur thanos or ur davros etc i love you for that and im glad ur having fun. im just. confused about how? if anyone wants to talk about it let me know i'm genuinely curious. i'm trying to encourage myself to be more lenient with my definitions or 'right' and 'wrong' because sometimes it causes me like. genuine distress lmao.
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lonelywhalien22 · 1 year
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Bestie don't apologize for taking too long to reply!!! LOL. I was oversharing my life with you 💀🤣
It's not that big of a power dynamic! You can just think of it as like he's in a grade above me 😂 and could have some say in things I do, but ultimately doesn't dictate it either. I don't like to pass judgement right away, but he gives me vibes of the latter bro 😭 He's not rude/entitled per se, but some of the comments I've heard him made and how he delivers them just rubs me the wrong way - like social cues/EQ ain't there and not in an endearing kind of way (like Vernon or Dino when they zone out ya know?) LOL. To say the least, I don't feel the most comfortable around him 😅 If he asks again, maybe? If not, I'll just let it pass lmao.
Oh I'm an extroverted introvert, so if I have no problem approaching someone I'm interested in for better or worse HAHAHA. It was just a small work crush - like "aw you're a great guy - I hope you live a happy life" kind of feeling 🤣
I'm on two ends of the spectrum: either too straightforward and I scare them off or oblivious/in denial and don't realize that they like me at all 🤣 Also no worries - I have . . . limited experience in the world of l-o-v-e too 😂😭 I've been in situationships, but never like anything full-blown real 💀 Partially my fault, partially the situation, partially other ppl . . . We'll find our person some day (if you want that ofc!!)!
Cheers!!! Wishing the best for the both of us <3
@twogyuu I like your perspective - It sounds like you know what you want and you go for it! Trust ur gut and you'll def be fine! I wanna be you when I finally grow up lol!
And I def want a person so thank you for the well wishes <3
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as a 16 y/o i had a crisis of faith having been raised catholic and going to catholic schools but starting to realize that there was something wrong with me that made me different from everyone else. laying in bed unable to sleep one night i begged god to show me an angel so that i could believe, and suddenly i felt myself yanked upwards, out of my body. i couldn't see anything, but i felt a certain intensity- maybe it was just fear. i felt my physical body and my "astral" body as separate entities. i heard someone screaming from behind me, i dont know if it was my physical body trying to pull me back in, or a part of the vision trying to tell me what my job on earth was. when i came back, i was flipped 180 degrees in bed from where i remember laying. for some reason, i couldnt stop myself asking "can i see a demon too?" which was only responded to with silence, and the immediate surge of doubt into that negative space... not sure if demons work as sneakily as that, or if i realized my own doubt in that moment, even with how vivid it was. this was the final straw in me being able to be faithful in christian god at all. i realized that even the sisters who were teaching me would tell me that i'm crazy if i tried to explain the experience.
im so desperate for something like that to happen again. recieving such a powerful reality shattering experience but going on living after that having little more than my own hunches and intrigues to follow feels scary :<
thanku for sharing this w me anon, im sorry you couldn''t go to the sisters about it, makes me sad when organized religion leads to distrust & judgement like isnt this the opposite of what it's sposed to be all about ? this experience sounds like you were able to astral project to some degree, however, because u were just a teen and inexperienced maybe something tried to psychically attack u? from what i read there are many demons and entities in the astral plane so its dangerous to go there. not that it sounds like you were trying to do that on purpose. i mean, even being able to do that at all, but especially kinda by accident, thats rly powerful. you seem to be an inquisitive person thinking deeply about these matters & wanting answers. psychic ability is like a muscle, we all have this muscle, & the more you use it, the stronger it gets. the more u notice the timing of things, study different theories, question the meaning, insert the search for the unknown into ur consciousness, the psychic muscle is being trained. look to all the small tiny mundane synchronizations that add up, they'll lead u to the bigger stuff. books im reading explain earth as a soul testing ground. so its kinda like, if u ace a bunch of the little assignments (noticing small phenomena), u get rewarded by moving up to the next level of psychic awareness. for me, thats the reason to live..it fills me w passion unlike anything else, i want to break open the worlds shell AAAHH!! listen, anon.... those hunches and intrigues... you must pay attention to them, dont be afraid, u have great potential. dont be afraid!!!!! the hunches will guide you to your next awakening. and u will be stronger for it this time. peace & love anon i hope u have a good night #<3.
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lilithsrecord · 3 years
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𝖗𝖔𝖒𝖆𝖓𝖙𝖎𝖈𝖎𝖟𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖘𝖈𝖍𝖔𝖔𝖑
part 2
♱ 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞
outward appearance means nothing if your are unable to carry yourself with grace and confidence. it’s important to radiate an aura that is unique to u and is beautiful and enchanting to others. find your essence. are u an ethereal innocent angel or a bombshell femme fatale? Just by channeling in a sort of character in your demeanour can drastically change how other people view you. you might be wondering “hey this is a bit much just for school,” and ur right but it’s all fun at the end of the day
𝐭𝐲𝐩𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬
𝔣𝔢𝔪𝔪𝔢 𝔣𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔢:
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femme fatale: noun
an attractive and seductive woman, especially one who is likely to cause distress or disaster to a man who becomes involved with her.
"a femme fatale who plays one man off against another in pursuit of money"
a femme fatale is a women who shows power through how well she can toy with a mans brain. in hindsight she might seem like a women catered to the male gaze due to the strong enchantment she has upon men, but do not be fooled. a femme fatale is a strong willed and powerful women who only caters to her own needs. she achieves her goals by seducing her pawns to use them to her own advantage. channeling in the characteristics of a femme fatale can make one feel powerful, sexy, and oh so alluring. to become a femme fatale you must ooze with seduction. femme fatale examples include gilda, from the movie “gilda”, jane smith from “mr. and mrs. smith, and amy dunne from “gone girl”.
feel powerful when you walk from one place to another. let other people stare at you while they feel intrigued by ur allure but never completely give them what they want.
make your appearance look bold and striking. be sexy. dress to show off what other people want for themselves. wear dark and luxurious colours. let your hair be free and voluptuous. a bold lip and sharp eye makeup brings attention to the most seductive parts of your face. a femme fatale is nothing without a striking appearance
have your voice sound like smooth whiskey. speak slow to captivate others. make sure your voice comes out prominent and clear. add a slight rasp into your voice. each word u speak should be carefully chosen. people should be addicted to hearing you speak. be sassy and smart but always with class.
smell expensive. pick a scent that exudes class. examples: black orchid by tom ford. mugler alien. good girl by carolina herrera.
a femme fatale makes sure to always get her way. don’t be afraid to use ur seductive quality’s to get what u want whether that is good grades or social status. [ however do not put urself in dangerous positions. please don’t sleep with a teacher lmao ]
𝔠𝔬𝔮𝔲𝔢𝔱𝔱𝔢
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coquette: noun
a woman who flirts.
in my own definition a coquette to me is a girl who is delicate and radiates innocence. she is more commonly known as the girl next door or the pretty girl. people become attracted to this essence due to the childish ways of a coquette. though that sounds concerning, a coquette isn’t a women who tries to act like a child on purpose. she is just a women who is naturally sweet and innocent. they hold onto a childlike quality that the rest of us have lost and so desperately crave. the allure of the coquette is ultimately her adorableness. her demeanour is light hearted and youthful. no one feels the need to do her wrong because she is just too cute for any harm. she is an ingenue. examples of coquettes are lizzy grant, cat valentine from “victorious”, alice cullen from “twilight”, and marilyn monroe.
wear clothes that make u look cute. the coquette aesthetic has been around for quite a while. the main aspect of a coquette outfit is its innocently teasing nature. wear bright colours that compliment ur skin like a blush pink, bright reds, and pretty lilacs. make people around u appreciate ur innocent look but know that there imagination is running wild. the makeup for these looks are more natural and rely on the condition of ur actual skin. take good care of ur skin. have a set routine but remember that it’s completely okay if u have pimples! you can still be a pretty little coquette even with acne.
vanilla or any kind of sweet scents are a staple for the coquette essence. ariana grandes perfumes are perfect for making people mouths water for a sweet snack when u walk by. olympea by paco rabanne is my personal favourite.
be kind and sweet to people who deserve it. people need to see u as a sweet and innocent doll who can do no wrong. but don’t be afraid to be risky and be the complete opposite of that once in a while. the rare moments where u show ur femme fatale side will have people incredibly intrigued by you.
perfect your voice. your voice should sound pleasant like some sort of princess. make your voice sound higher but not ear screeching high. add a beautiful mix of air and softness to ur voice. a breathy voice is incredibly intoxicating and suits the coquette.
𝔭ê𝔩𝔢-𝔪ê𝔩𝔢
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pêle-mêle: adverb
in a confused, rushed, or disorderly manner.
also known as the manic pixie dream girl, a pêle-mêle is the essence of a girl who is described as whimsical, eccentric and is quite literal the life of the party. though at first glance she’s all rainbows and sun shine, the shadow side of the pêle-mêle can be described as a tortured artist. her optimism is delightful. she is not afraid to take risks. she’s a mess but people can not help to be intrigued by her free spirited ways for she is a drug to people who crave adventure. examples of a pêle-mêle include ramona flowers from scott pilgrim vs the world, mia wallace from pulp fiction, harley quinn from the DC comics, and holly golighty from breakfast at tiffany’s.
don’t be afraid to take risks. risks and adventure is what the pêle-mêle lives off of. be brave. do things you are afraid to do. start small and work your way up like from riding that roller coaster your so afraid of to having a motorcycle race with your friends (trust me those are so fun!). show people just how daring you can be and immediately people will be magnetized to you.
wear clothes that are unique and you feel comfortable with. the pêle-mêle rejects conformity and the way you appear should reflect that. wear clothes that harmonize with your crazy personality. be daring and bold with your makeup. make sure you stand out from the crowd and that you do not care what people think. the alternative style perfectly suits someone who embodies this essence.
be confident. obviously this rule applies to all the essences but confidence and self love is at the core of the pêle-mêle. you need to show people that you do not care what they think of you and that at the end of the day, you are just here for a good time. the more you practice self love, the easier it will be for you to express yourself without the fear of judgement from others.
be a socialite. don’t be afraid to speak your mind to people. pêle-mêle’s are usually people persons. they love good company that they can go on adventures with. make friends by being your true self and don’t hold yourself back. even a few mishaps by saying the wrong thing from time to time can make people fall in love with your clumsy nature.
obviously there are plenty of other essences you can achieve for yourself but these are my top three favourites. to find out who exactly who you want to become try the few tips listed below!
how to find your personal essence
what kind of people captivate you? what type of personalities do you see that you wish you could be? do you find yourself being envious of the pretty girl next door, the man eater, or the mysterious persona? figure out what kind of a person do u wish to truly become and inherit their manner. find out the characteristic of ur desired essence to the littlest of detail. this can include from the way you walk, talk, eat, sleep, look, smell ext. think of this as becoming your ideal best self. take the female archetype quiz to get a better understanding of your self.
what kind of aesthetic catches your eye? do you enjoy the glamorous high fashion life or do you like the softer cherry coke and heart shaped sunglasses niche? maybe you enjoy completely different things or a blend of a few. live up to this aesthetic. do this by expressing this aesthetic in the way you dress to how u decorate your room.
what kind of environment do you feel the most comfortable in? are you someone who loves education and school? or do you love the idea of being free and living in an RV for the rest of your life? maybe you just want to live in a cozy high rise new york apartment or a huge mansion up in beverly hills. envision where you see your ideal self in 10-20 years. your ideal environment can reveal a lot about what kind of lifestyle choices you want to make.
you might be thinking to yourself hey these aren’t the best tips for school. and at an educational standpoint you’re right. but it’s important to embody your best ideal self to truly enjoy this lifetime. these are little things that can be used to motivate you. i believe that inner self work should be prioritized over your school work though both are important. make sure you are taking some time out of your week to find out more about yourself and who you want to become. be the best you.
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i’m sorry but i luv your writing/thot process so i have to share this: imagine superstar trainer kiri marrying ur mom. he’s only a few years older (and you had a crush on him first) so you avoid him bc you’re shy/uncomfortable with it. your plans are foiled when mom’s away and y’all are stuck at home during a snow storm, power out, no heat/gas, and no matter how many layers u use nothing beats body heat. kiri is so sweet and just wants to get close and keep you warm/see whats under ur sweats
I’m literally melting rn 
Like imagine Kiri shuffling closer to you on the couch, scooting underneath the blankets you have piled around your body.
He keeps getting closer and closer and closer until he’s pressed up against you, and he feels like a heater, warm and cozy and comfortable. You don’t mind burrowing down into his side a bit, only blushing a little when the big man chuckles at your behavior.
There’s a movie playing on the TV, but you’re kind of sleepy, and your stepdad feels so sturdy and safe against your side, and you’re finally warming to a comfortable temperature, and before you know it, you’re fast asleep.
When you wake up, you’re laying down on a solid surface, heat wrapped around your body and trapped beneath the blankets. The surface rumbles and shifts, and only then do you realize that Kirishima must have moved you.
The room is dark, TV off, lights out. The wind is still howling and moaning outside like a mourner at a grave, beating against the windows and crying to the sky.
Lifting your head means you get a view of Kiri’s face, of his handsome, relaxed self as he gazes down at you, a pleased, soft smile on his features.
You go to apologize for falling asleep on him and for inconveniencing him, but Kirishima doesn’t let you. “It’s warmer this way, plus, I like holding something while I sleep.”
He has his arms wrapped around you, thick biceps pressing heavy against your shoulders, keeping you flush to his muscular chest. You blush a little at the position, shifting your legs and trying not to do anything weird.
But in moving your legs around, you find yourself straddling his thigh, the stocky limb flexing underneath your weight, Kirishima twitching.
“Sorry-” You blush again, intending on moving, but your stepdad drops a hand to your hip, steadying you.
“No, don’t apologize, I get it.” He winks at you, before jiggling his thigh a bit, settling you down further onto it. “I remember doing stuff like this back in high school, I know it feels good.”
A long moment of silence stretched between you two as you processed his words, feeling increasingly awkward.
“Um, okay...” Was all you could come up with.
Kirishima laughed a bit. “You’ve never cuddled with anyone before? It’s nice, isn’t it? ‘Specially with the heat out like this. Power went out while you were sleeping.”
You felt a little silly now, ducking your head and dropping your gaze. That would explain why the lights were off. You had just assumed the movie had finished playing and your stepdad had turned it off, but apparently that wasn’t the case. 
“Temp’s gonna drop fast, we’re probably going to have to use good ‘ole body heat while we sleep. You wanna move to the bed? Or just sleep here?”
A shrug, and Kirishima smiled. “Okie-doke, bed it is. Thank goodness, my back would kill me if I tried to sleep on the couch. Gettin’ old s’no fun.”
The man sat up, and you quickly disentangled yourself from him, ignoring the way his thigh rubbed in between your legs as he moved about. As soon as you felt the chill of the room, you shivered, clacking your teeth together and snatching the blanket tight around yourself.
“Oh, that’s so cold, fuck.”
“Hey, watch your language-” Kirishima chided, rising to his feet as he gathered the rest of the blankets up into his arms. “No potty mouths in this house, yeah? Keep it clean.”
He’d been married to your mom for almost a year now, and Kirishima had easily fallen into the “father figure” role, despite the fact that it wasn’t necessarily needed.
But you indulged him by laughing at his corny dad jokes, complimenting the various meats he grilled for meals, keeping your judgements about his questionable fashion choices to yourself instead of blurting them out to his face.
Kirishima led the way to the master bedroom, the room he shared with your mom, stating that the bed was bigger, it’d be more comfortable. Did you really expect him to fit into your bed?
He was a big man, strong and solid. He was able to throw you over one shoulder, your mom over the other, and run around the house whooping while the two of you laughed and pounded on his back.
“Alright-” Kirishima tossed his armful of blankets onto the bed he shared with your mom, immediately fluffing them up and pulling at the edges until he was satisfied.
The man pulled back the edge, holding it ups as he turned to you. “Head on inside!”
It was cold at first, the sheets and blankets chilly. You snuggled up to Kirishima as soon as the big man laid down, making him laugh a bit as your teeth chattered together.
“S-sorry it’s just so-so c-cold.” You explained.
“Your nose is all red, you look so cute.” His smile is warm, his hands even warmer as they begin to rub up and down your sides.
You don’t know how to respond, let yourself relax into the comforting touch, his fingertips dancing over your sweater.
“So.....” Kiri starts “You’ve never had a boyfriend then? You got so quiet when I asked if you’ve cuddled with someone before.”
A blush rose to your cheeks, and you shook your head. “No, I have. I broke up with him a little bit before you and mom started dating.”
The redhead’s quiet for a moment, then tucks his chin over your head, drawing you closer into his chest. “I’m sorry. Relationships can be hard, I know.”
“It was for the best, I think.” You continue, letting your stepdad rub your back as you talked. “We just didn’t really jive well together I guess. Wish we’d figured that out sooner though.”
The man pressed against you is so sturdy, solid and radiating heat like a furnace. It’s easy to relax in his easy-going presence.
“Well, if you ever miss cuddling, don’t hesitate to come find me, yeah? It’s one of my favorites.”
Kirishima was a touchy man, and it was obvious that his love language was touch, so it made sense. He always had his thick arms wrapped around your mom, was holding her hand, holding yours, placing kisses on your cheeks, kissing your mom every chance he got.
Sometimes he asked you to brush out his hair for him, when you weren’t busy or anything. He’d relax into jelly as you ran the hairbrush through his red locks, contented little sighs falling from his lips.
“Okay, I’ll do that.” You chuckle, thinking to yourself how the world had a funny sense of humor.
Truthfully, when you’d first been introduced to the man your mom had recently started dating, you’d developed a hopeless crush. He was attractive, kind, funny; if your mom wasn't dating him, you would’ve asked for his number.
A small part of you was irritated that the man was young enough for you to date him, your mother unbothered by the sugar stereotype she’d developed.
But ah well, what’s done is done.
“You know, I didn’t know what I'd be like having a daughter.” Kirishima soft voice breaks you out of your thoughts. “You’re almost more like.... I dunno, a friend? If that makes sense. I feel like we’re buddies.”
“Yeah, I feel like that too.” You confess, breathing into his neck, able to smell the cologne he uses, something heady and strong and manly.
A comfortable silence settles around you both, nothing but soft breaths and Kirishima’s warm hands rubbing gently over your body, against your sides, up and down your back, massaging your shoulders.
They traveled too close to your tummy, and you choked out a laugh, flinching away from Kirishima.
“Don’t, ‘m ticklish.” Came your breathless, giggly warning.
“Yeah? Yeah?” The redhead grinned, a glint in his eye, barely noticeable before he pounced, rolling over until you were smothered beneath his hefty weight, unable to move.
Horrible, terrible fingers descended, dug into your ribs and you shrieked, wide smile breaking across your features as your stepdad tickled you.
This is what happiness was made of.
Warm and fuzzy, the smell of rain, the sound of it pattering against the roof. Strong arms around you, a laugh on your lips.
Kirishima’s thigh slipped in between yours, pressed upwards, and you choked on a breath, hands immediately clutching at the man’s biceps.
“You’re so sensitive, it’s so cute.”
No time to say his name, ask any questions. He was situating you on your side, legs tangled with his, a big, beefy thigh still flush against your clothed sex.
“Mm, you ever do this with your boyfriend?” The redhead was moving, hands gripping your waist now, dragging you along his thigh, and you kept bumping up against his chest, his toned stomach.
“Yes-yeah.” Was your breathless reply, head whirling, eyes wide. This isn’t really what you were expecting, not from your stepdad.
But it wasn’t entirely unwelcome.
That’s why you weren’t screaming your head off, recoiling in disgust, scrambling for the phone to call your mom, the police.
No, you were still, pliant against Kirishima as he moved your body, his lazy red eyes fixed on your face. “Hm? Feels nice, doesn’t it? You like it?”
A shaky nod is all you can muster, feeling yourself beginning to drip against your stepdad’s thigh, slick all over your folds, the skin tingling, making your hips jump as your clit pulsed at the stimulation.
God, it felt good.
“You make me so happy, y’know? Such a pretty, smart girl.” He praised, and now you could feel it - feel the cock filling out against your tummy, hot and wet, leaking.
“I really hit the jackpot. A beautiful wife, a gorgeous daughter... I love you so, so much.” Kirishima was breathing heavier, his fingers digging into your hipbones as he dragged you back and forth against him. “You’re the best thing that ever happened to me. Just wanna take care of you, yeah?  Make you cum lots, whatever you want.”
Almost feverish now, his hips twitching forward, pushing against your tummy again and again, rubbing his cock against your soft flesh, groaning in your ear, breath stuttering-
And then a long moan, a burst of warmth soaking through your pajama shirt, right where the tip of Kiri’s cock rested.
“Oh shit-” He gasped, sucking in air, muscles flexing as he drew back his legs, hands shakily pushing you onto your back.
“That - Jesus, you really got me goin’.” Kiri panted, beginning to kiss at your neck, one of his hands diving into your pajama pants, straight down to strum over your clit.
Already keyed up from the dry humping, veins pumping with excitement, arousal, the thrill of being touched and fondled by your-your stepdad.
A finger teased at your hole, then inched inside, and you bucked your hips, crying out a bit.
“Hey, hey-” He was still a little breathless, a little lightheaded from his orgasm, but the man was determined. 
“It’s okay, it’s okay. I got you. I’m always gonna take care of my girl.”
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boozye · 2 years
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Since you're giving us some tips with the event, I thought of climbing in on that. They are really helping, thank you!
So I wanted to ask- What is your preferred number of pulls for the celestial blessing boxes? The tens or the one? Also is it a good idea to stay and pull every item or just move on after getting the most valued item? (I have just "13" cheat points, because I didn't have enough saved up and ain't lucky either.)
The celestial boxes offer no special benefit from doing pulls of tens over singles or viceversa. So it really is just a matter of:
1- What your goal is.
2- How patient you are.
Which goes right into your 2nd question!
Is it a good idea to get every item from the box? That depends on your goal! But to do it efficiently, it's not as simple as just getting the reward you want and moving on to the next box asap. Here's why:
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Each level of boxes contains plenty of AP rewards. This event features 3 whole lessons, one of which has a branching path even. So it is long. To use all of your available daily plays and make the most of it, you will need more AP than in regular events (regular events needing around 600 AP daily if I remember right). I haven't given it much thought yet but, when you have a small bonus, it's probably better to use as many plays as you can daily.
So it is worth keeping that in mind probably. I know in HDD these rewards made it much easier for me, personally, and I wund up getting all the rewards from most boxes. But you have to consider the AP spent to won ratio, which depends a lot on if you have a bonus, and how big it is, and that the AP rewards increase with each box level... (Sorry, I'm not up to making those calculations right now... I need breakfast. So I will leave it to your own judgement.)
Another thing to take into account is; are your cards weak? Do you need to power them up? If you can't power them up because you are missing materials, then this is the event for you, the boxes are full of them! If you want a specific material then it's worth checking what box level has it, and trying to get to that one asap if nothing else interests you.
Do you want the bunny boy icons/wallpapers? The tickets? It really depends on your priorities.
And while it won't be to the degree of HDD '22, you will find yourself with lots more energy drinks after this event if you aim to get them (assuming you won't use them right away)
Personally, I aim for the UR/SSR cards, the vouchers, the drinks and the points. But I know I will try to get every icon and wallpaper too... And I preffer to do 10 pulls when I start the box, and check regularly if I got everything I wanted. If I'm missing like just 1 or 2 items I'm aiming for, I do singles.
Hope that helped!
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circethegoblin · 3 years
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STAYING ALIVE MASTERPOST, FROM A BROKE TEEN WITH ADHD
here you go. some down to earth tips on how to not die metally nor physically.
tired of those "drink three liters of water everyday uwu" and "wake up at 5 am" and "buy a bath bomb and a fec mask and some other things you don't have the money for" shit? i'm here for ya.
1. NOT DYING
eat at least three meals a day, one of which m u s t be warm and above 300 kcal (it can be istant ramen with an egg added if you have to)
you technically should shower everyday, but we know how it is. A change of clothes is sometimes enough.
DRY SHAMPOO AND BABY WIPES!!!
keep bottles with water everywhere. On your desk, near that spot on the floor you always end up sitting on, near your bed, basically whenever you know you spend a lot of time. No need to get up and go to the kitchen will help. Obviously change the water in the bottles as often as you can.
Get some form of physical activity. It doesn't have to be much, you can for example replace scrolling on tiktok by walking around your room and scrolling on tiktok! Brilliant, isn't it? Obviously, running or doing those 10 minutes workouts from youtube is better, but you are still getting like an hour of walking.
Buy blankets. Steal blankets. Summon blankets from other dimensions. Just make sure you have a lot of warm, soft blankets in your house. You will thank me when you won't have the anergy to wash your sheets (just take them off and throw some blankets on your bed), or when the power goes out.
If you have pets, ALWAYS keep spare food that'll last for a week for them.
things to always have in the kitchen: milk, eggs, flour, rice, pasta, yeast, cheese, oil, a leafy vegetable, onions, tomatoes, apples, patatoes, some flavourful sauce, sugar, salt, spices and an emergency chocolate bar. You can make a lot of food with those. Just make sure you won't eat the chocolate too fast.
Have a lot of spare batteries. A lot.
Get urself a flashlight, a lighter, and a pocket knife.
Remember the apples? eat one a day. if you don't like apples or you can't eat them for any other reason, you can take a kiwi, banana, orange, basically something that will give you vitamins and non processed sugar.
do the dishes before your sink starts developing it's own ecosystem
drugs from that one guy around the corner = very bad time
2. NOT DYING INSIDE
Open the damn window.
Don't watch so many commentary videos. You are probably not even checking the sources, so you can easily make unjust judgement, and like. did you even hear of half of those people before?
make a discord server just for yourself. get into the habit of writing little things that happened to you there. rant about the fanfics you read. or the movies. vent there if you don't have anyone you can vent to. write your ideas there, write e v e r y t h i n g. make a section for passwords, for quick ideas, for your to do lists. you won't lose it as you do with sticky notes or notebooks. there is no risk anyone will see it. oh, and when you'll have a strong impulse to tell emily that you hate her? write that message in your private server and list all ur arguments. look at tat the next day and decide if you really mean that.
life sucks. come to peace with it.
cuddle ur pets if you have them
1 hour a day without a lot of sensory input. if you have to, reduce to half an hour.
if you find yourself scrolling endlessly through social media, make sure it's pintrest (just don't compare urself to the people here; if you have issues with that, tumblr may be better)
delete. twitter. from. your. phone.
influencers are lying to you; maybe not even intentionally. remember when you were watching that cute-aesthetic-productive morning routine, and you were wondering why your life isn't that pretty? why your room is a mess? why you cannot for the life of god be aesthetic 24/7? its the filter. don't worry about it, their lifes arent that nice either.
realize there's actually nothing stopping you from screaming as loud as you can right now. like there is no physical barrier. think about it. realize there's no actual physical barierr to many other things.
your body is your body. you can decide how it looks like; just remember it's in your greatest interest to keep it healthy.
3. BEING A LITTLE BETTER THAN JUST ALIVE
If you wear make up, take it off before you go to sleep.
moisturize your body; everything is better when your skin doesn't feel dry
have a one brand of cosmetics that you love and buy things mainly from it. they often have sets of products that complete each other. i like ziaja. it's a polish brand, it's surprisingly cheap and has nice quality
cleanser, moisturizer, face mist
of you can, change your sheets once every two weeks
do the dishes before your sink starts developing it's own ecosystem
do a deep house clean once a month (don't beat yourself up when you don't tho)
keep your workspace organized (it doesn't have to look organized to other people, remember)
sunscreen
cook your own food
keep a calendar
no money for scented candles? got ya. make a simmer pot: throw some apple peel, a couple of cinnamon sticks and whatever spices that smell good you have into a pot, add some water and simmer. boom. your house smells good, and you haven't spend 20 dollars.
If you really like candles, buy scented wax melts. it's cheaper.
Buy urself scented mists. they're pretty cheap and will make you feel A LOT better.
keep your clothes clean. if you aren't sure if that shirt thats on your chair is dirty or not, throw it in the washing mashine anyway. better be sure.
if you can, make your bed right when you get up
wear clothes that make you feel good. put some effort into your outfits. really.
4. OTHER PEOPLE
be nice to essential workers.
if you have money, give tips.
remember, you do not owe anyone love; it is not something you can force. even if they saved your life. even when they helped you in your darkest time. if you don't love them, you don't.
you don't have to be in a romantic relationship to be happy.
if you want to, date! date everyone! date girls, date boys, date nonbinary people! date people completly different than you, date people from different countries, date them!!! just make sure they're kind and won't kill you. even if you don't end up in a relationship, you can learn a lot.
don't be afraid to piss off people that deserve it
smile to strangers :)
5. NOT FAILING SCHOOL
heard of dark academia? check it out
romanticize the heck out of studying
do not let your studying be just reading the same partagraph over and over again. it won't work. believe me.
seterra for geography, quizlet for everything else
try to make yourself intrestet in whatever you are studying (watch veritasium, listen to podcasts about weird history facts)
notes are for you and you only; don't worry about them looking pretty. doodle on margins, make weird metaphors, squeeze in as much info as you can.
when you're studying, listen to music without words/in a language you don't understand.
chew gum while you study
get the forest app, get attached to the trees, focus.
don't feel guilty for taking breaks
grades aren't everything, but they are important.
eat something in school
don't just use the cheapest pens. invest a couple dollars in something that will make writing enjoyable and smooth
those study with me videos? they're great
if you like to argue with the teachers, take care of your grades becouse. they may not like you afterwards.
be nice to your classmates and help them with homework. if you don't do your homework they'll help you
executive dysfunction won't let you study? been there. sometimes it's better to wake up ealier tommorow and do that homework then.
don't feel guilty for failing a test
go to the goddamn class
don't pull all nighters oh my god don't especially on weekdays
6. OTHER LIFEHACKS
don't get involved in the crime, and if you do always have a believable explanation why you were doing it
have different alarm sounds for every day of the week
set a daily limit of money that you spend
great hobbies that don't require a lot of money; urban exploration, writing, hiking and learning other languages
thrift stores
don't eat grapefruits while on meds
nail polish removers dissolve most strong glues.
if you have a cut on your skin, desinfect it. do it. please just do it.
always have pads with you. even if you don't get periods, at least one of your friends probably does
sign up in your local library. its free
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