#I literally lost my mind writing this

[theboy-withthetigertattoo]

Cw: fem reader, sex worker!Jisung, sub jisung, mommy k!nk, squirting

Jisung is one of the most popular workers in your home town broth3l. Recently, when you try and go see him he’s all booked up for the night. But at the early hours of the morning you’ll get a text saying

“Sorry I missed ya tonight, doll. Until next time❤️”

Whenever you went to see him you never made an appointment. You always just walked in and hoped he had some time available. You’ve tried hooking up with the other workers when he’s busy, but no one could satisfy you like him.

It was your birthday in a couple of days and you definitely wanted a sweet ending to your day. This would be the perfect time to make an appointment with your favorite boy. So you called the brothel and set up your time slot. Finally you’ll get to have some fun.

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You walk into his place of work a little more nervous than usual. It’s been awhile since you’ve seen him and you’re worried he’s already replaced you as his “favorite customer”. You figured he only says that because you’re paying him, but another part of you feels that he truly means it.

“Hi sweety!” Jisung squeals as he sees you enter the room. He runs up to you and pulls you close to give you a kiss.

“It’s been so long baby~” he whines “I’m sorry I’ve been so busy… if you want me so bad you gotta make those appointments early!”

“Well mr. Popular… I’ve been lucky with just being able to walk in and get you, so I never thought about it”

“Fair enough” he says as he struts away from you. He looks so sexy in that silk robe you can’t wait to take it off of him.

He stops in front of the bed and turns to face you again. He motions for you to come over to him and you can’t seem to get yourself to move. Why are you so nervous? You usually are so confident with him.

“Don’t get shy on me now~ usually you’re tearing me up as soon as I shut the door”

He walks up to you and cups your face to kiss you. Running his hands down your neck all the way down to your hips. He pulls away and grabs your hand and has you lay down on the bed. He straddles your hips and his lips are back on yours as soon as you’re head hits the pillow. The make out session is getting hot and heavy very fast.

He sits up and starts to untie his robe. The lingerie set he has on is in your favorite color. Your pussy throbs at the sight of him.

“Happy birthday, baby. I got this set just for you” he purrs as he grabs your hands and guides them to feel up his chest. You love how his pecs feel under the meshy fabric

“Wow sungie, I’m surprised you remembered my birthday! You must really like me” you joke

“I do, mommy” he leans down to peck you on the lips “I really, really like you”

You can’t hold yourself back anymore. You switch positions faster than he can even think. He’s under you now and he feels your mouth on his neck and your hands all over his body. Stripping him completely naked in the process.

“God I missed this so much… can’t wait to feel your pussy” he moans

You rip off the dress you have on and he’s literally drooling at the sight of your tits and visibly wet panties. You start rubbing your clothed pussy over his dick and he gasps. You do this a little longer just to tease him then you move your panties to the side and start sinking down on his dick.

“Oh fuck!” You both say at the same time. It really has been too long.

“Wow mommy… you’re so tight…. No one has fucked you since you’ve last seen me, huh?”

You shake your head no

“poor neglected pussy… I’ll make it feel better”

Now he’s the one turning you around. He asks you to get on all fours and you oblige. He sinks back into you and you get into his favorite position- face down, ass up. He starts off hard and fast and you’re already a moaning mess. He’s eating it up, though.

“This is what your poor pussy needed isn’t it? You just needed some good dick to make it all better”

“Mmm yes,…. Make your mommy’s pussy cum baby please…”

“Fuck yes mommy, I’m gonna make you fuckin squirt all over me”

He changes the angle of his hips and hits that perfect spot while rubbing your clit. Making you squirt just like he said he would. One thing about Jisung is that when he says he’ll do something, he’ll deliver.

He pulls out and rubs your back as you calm down. You roll over and pull him in for a kiss.

“How much time do we have left for our time slot?”

“Don’t you worry about that baby, I had my whole schedule cleared for tonight. I’m going to make your birthday so special”

“Oh- are you sure? I don’t mind spending the money baby but-“

“Who said you’re paying for any of this?? This is all my treat, because like I said, I really really like you”

You’re amazed. He doesn’t give you time to question him as he starts getting some toys from the beside drawer. What a way to spend a birthday.

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Hope you enjoyed ❤️

#I literally lost my mind writing this #sub han jisung #han jisung #sub han jisung smut #skz smut #skz #han skz #stray kids #han imagines #han x reader #stray kids smut

[crossbackpoke-check]

Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman

part one | part two

#me when everybody is posting the maple leafs sad narratives and i am furiously generating this like HOLD ONNNN HOLD ONNNNNNN #honestly i could've been SOOOO MEAN about this because i saw this poem & alexandra got the preview on the poetry blog #where i just reblogged the first half of this poem point blank with the tags #kyle dubas #toronto maple leafs #& got yelled at aksdaksf & it literally only didn't go on this blog bc i usually write more & then it was percolating & i looked up the poe #& it was only the FIRST PART i'd reblogged i didn't know there was more & then brain immediately went brrrrr ok time for an edit. #this is a long one lol & i also have no idea if it makes sense to anybody but me but because y'all know me i will always overexplain so!! #my reasoning for the reasons obvi kyle. that's a given i hope he's doing well i hope he & his family r good but man is not coming in to wor #the second edit took me a stupid amount of time bc i am nitpicky but also i learned how to do the layers & transparency from the claude edi #that actually y'all don't know about lmao but i lost my mind when i saw how perfectly those pictures align i was scrolling getty & was like #ok december i'm gonna do a headline one (in my brain with the november/june quote about choosing to die again) w/ maple leafs playoff odds #how they say at winter break you know who's gonna be in the playoffs & who'll win & they thought they had a shot but it's mitchie overlaid #the 2003-04 team who'd last won a playoff round with the atlantic division stats from dec for 22-23 & how long it's been & dec headlines #i wanted breakup/recent/never loved to be a recent trade acquisition somebody who bounced around & somebody else so i almost had simmer #brodie & zar but then i wanted to make murray for breakup at any time &i forgot zar & him were on the pens together &it hit me like a truc #bc there's a photo of the two of them EXACTLY the same so close it's scary of this one but them as pens so they had to be it & i did always #know never loved again was mitchie. sorry. also mitchie in the penalty box the last game but i couldn't find footage of it & this one works #no i could not find a photo of tyler bertuzzi fighting a leaf for a dog looked at me yes i tried. #i almost made the bunting photo jt but instead it's 'bunting a rat etc' anyway the one i really feel unhinged about is dead pets bc at firs #i was gonna make it the handshake line & look to see if the leafs had drafted anybody on the panthers (dead pet former draft pick) #& they had & it was carter verhaeghe & i couldn't get a good pic of matthews & verhaeghe but it's fine bc i thought about the mo/luke schen #narrative (in which they are a perfect d pair long lost) & schenn was drafted by the leafs & that line fits jut trust me. also how i feel #about the kniesy luminous line that one possessed me it had to be kniesy idk why. i almost put gussy as girls are too pretty though ALSO #did u like my joke. daylight SAVINGS time on the goalie. thank u. also my photo magic on the jt (me very poorly editing in him as an isle) #OK ALSO HOLD ONNNNN there is a part two but i have to wait for the Content i want it will come out as soon as [redacted] or sooner #if i get bad at waiting &everyone will pretend like it is always the way it will be once i have the photos i want. speaking of did the leaf #simply not take a team photo this year?? it Does Not Exist for me i have tried very hard to look for it also i'm excited for part 2 #one of them is named oh you're so unhinged for this one & the finished product is you're unhinged in ways you didn't even know u were sorry #liv in the replies

[chatpeach]

AND NOW ADRIEN KNOWS!!! HE KNOWS!!!! HE KNOWS MARINETTE HAS BEEN IN LOVE WITH HIM THE WHOLE TIME AAAAAAUGH BUT ITS TOO LATE and even though he has his hopeful little “but maybe she can love me again” it’s like, YOU KNOW HE KNOWS HE JUST-A-FRIEND-ZONED HIMSELF OFF THE FUCKING MAP

#im losing my fucking mind you guys #i have literally been in that situation too #like realizing after the fact that someone has been in love with you but they moved on and you lost your chance #auuuuuugh its actually such good writing #idc what anyone says this is a good show #mlb #miraculous ladybug #elation spoilers #s5 spoilers #5.09 #exalation spoilers #exalation #marichat #mlb spoilers #ml spoilers

[roobylavender]

do you believe Bruce is emotionally abusive? ik fans prioritise physical abuse and ultimately ignore emotional abuse tactics like parentification etc because it’s not “that bad”. I don’t believe Dick ever resents Bruce for letting him be robin (he’s grateful for it) , but in ntt he mostly resents him for being emotionally closed off, and rejecting him as a partner. Bruce worries for his kids safety so he pushes the whole “if you’re not perfect you’re dead” mentality onto Dick which ultimately is harmful to him. He’ll never regret being a hero but the rift between the two isn’t just a “we want different things” scenario but more that they’re incapable of giving the other what they want.

bruce being emotionally closed off from dick is what’s revisionist about that version of canon though. i think bruce can be bad at communicating sometimes esp when he’s deeply pained (like in knightfall, for example) but for the most part he and dick are shown to have great communication for decades before new teen titans and the adjacent post crisis starlin canon starts to rewrite that dynamic into something else entirely. per that version of canon i do believe he’s emotionally abusive but it’s not a version of canon i particularly appreciate bc it requires overriding the dynamic they had previously where they could certainly be prone to disagree at times but bruce was nonetheless willing to have an open and understanding conversation with dick about whatever the disagreement was. even the whole idea that bruce is responsible for dick believing that he has to be perfect or he has to be dead is one that new teen titans cements (or that issue of batman where bruce makes dick quit and jason is introduced thereafter)

i get that it’s easy to take new teen titans as gospel bc it is in essence the textbook source for dick but i think there should be some awareness too of how it twists that relationship between them and not necessarily for the better. i’m not opposed to bruce having faults he has to answer for. i absolutely agree he’s not cognizant enough of the complexes dick develops as a result of wanting to be seen as an equal, and thereby can’t realize the effect it has on dick for him to still be protective and fearful even if it’s ultimately out of goodwill and love. and there’s also the fact that even if he gives dick the space he desires to lead his own life it doesn’t mean he should be hesitant to reach out bc he’s afraid he’ll overstep by doing so, as a parent he should reaffirm his love for dick regularly regardless of knowing he might get some pushback bc dick is growing into his own (again, knightfall is a really superb example of this). but i also think those are tensions you can wholeheartedly explore without rendering bruce into a controlling and abusive figure, and i’m not sure who it benefits to write bruce as such in the long run

some of dick’s problems have to be his own, and he’ll never escape bruce’s shadow if the only source point of issues in his life is his relationship with bruce. that’s something i would actually apply to the robins at large. hardly any of them are allowed to explore problems entirely unique to themselves and i think that’s in large part bc writers simultaneously portray a mildly to explicitly abusive bruce at their leisure while refusing to ever actually address the elephant in the room that is literally of their own creation. a lot of people believe the bruce shouldn’t be an abuser argument is framed entirely as a resistance to bruce’s character assassination and for me i can admit that’s part of it, but a more pertinent part of it should also be the fact that bruce being written as an abuser is what truly chains his children to him forever to the point that they can never grow beyond that abuse bc writers refuse to allow them to. imagine the problems the robins could be addressing individually in their lives if not everything came down to them being fucked up bc that’s the way bruce raised them or failed to thereby. there’s a lot about the robins as individuals that’s deeply interesting and i think it’s not just a disservice to bruce but to them as well to write the relationships this way bc it obscures their own agency and ability to be explored for more than a haunted legacy narrative

#sry this is so very long. please know it is not me venting at you i simply have many thoughts 😭 #but yeah like i think something that gets lost in translation is like. i absolutely do think those portrayals of bruce are abusive #i simply don’t think he should have been portrayed as such to begin with #starlin era bruce is very bewildering for me in all honesty i dislike it deeply #the issue where dick meets jason is one of my least favorite for the way it portrays bruce it feels so out of character for me #considering bruce was more than happy for dick to go off to college or to find his own place with the titans #and even with that famous issue where dick meets bruce after learning jason has died the writing is quite odd to me #i think bruce is very much someone who directs blame and frustration inward as opposed to outward #he’ll let himself get dog walked if he thinks he deserves it. which i think knightfall illustrates fabulously #the beginning of no man’s land as well #what i don’t think he would ever do is lash out at others when he knows the blame lies with himself. bruce is very self critical #so honestly that whole scene in the cave with him and dick. doesn’t exist to me i would literally rewrite it 😭 #and i think it is very significant that wolfman chose to recreate that slap three times if memory serves while every other write in bat #editorial at the time straight up ignored it and acted like it never happened. like idk that plus the way bruce was characterized during #knightfall to me says a lot about how that was not supposed to be the status quo at all #anyway. sorry this has devolved into a whole other rant please do not mind me 😔 #outbox

[writeouswriter]

Absurdity absurdity I need to write something so surreal and bizarre but so so real, something that captures the human condition, something that captures the duality of man, something that captures the essence of humanity and bottles it up into a vial of glitter that gets swirled around in a thunderstorm and I'm just saying words at this point aren't I but I have been driven mad and bewitched by the power of storytelling, the thrill of finding meaning in the unexpected, the dynamic of tragedy and comedy married as one, finding sadness in the silliness and silliness in the sadness, I am watching a sunset in the heart of a hurricane and my eyes have never been so open

#if you knew what sparked me making this post you'd definitely think i lost my mind even more than i have #writing #writer things #writeblr #aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh #textpost #tragicomedy #oh don't mind me just slowly losing my mind to the essence of the tragicomedy #and to finding meaning in the most unexpected places #hi yes sorry i have extremely bad undiagnosed adhd and probably more and my head is abuzz from something i shan't say... a show #i literally am in static mode and just going aaahhhh

[thislittlekumquat]

Eyeballing the fandom wondering if the girlies new to the scene since like 2013 are ready for the flavor of grelliam I have in store for them

#you know the moment they summoned a rasengan with their death scythes to finish off thomas wallis #and then no reapers ever did that again #yeah that is the vibe #like that was their wedding and the rest has been garnish #anyways #i am literally insane about grell yall are valid i've just been lost in the sauce since 2009 don't mind me @_@ #reaping what you sow #my writing

[glimblshanks]

I know I'm not the first to point out how insane it is that Starfleet puts daycares on their ships, but as someone who grew up in a maritime family and spent a lot of time on boats as a kid I really can't express enough just what a baffling world building decision that is.

Like my dad used to work on cargo ships, he would sometimes be gone for months at a time for work. It sucked! But growing up on a cargo ship would have sucked more. Boats like that are socially isolating and dangerous for the adults on board, raising a kid on one would be down right abusive.

I'm friends with a lot of people who grew up in the local fishing community. Commercial fishing is incredibly dangerous and most of them had family members died at sea when they were kids. It's terrible and tragic, but do you know what would be more terrible and tragic? Actual children living and dying on those fishing boats.

My older sister was a little kid when my dad was still working on submarines. He missed a significant amount of her early childhood while he was enlisted and I know he still regrets it. But he'd sure regret it more if his four year old had been living on a nuke sub in the middle of the god damn Cold War.

You would never put schools and daycares on working vessels irl because that would be blatant child endangerment, but somehow, dispite the fact that almost every ship we see in Star Trek is a merchant or military ship, it suddenly becomes okay when it's in space? An environment even more dangerous and deadly than the ocean???

Who's untopian future is that? I am so serious. That Ferengi in Rascals was right - it's awful and fucked up that starfleet officers bring their kids onto ships with them. What is wrong with these people?

#rant #it just blows my mind #like Bones relationship with Johanna is way more accurate to real life than anything else happening in Star Trek #Voyager gets a pass because they're literally lost in space #but why the fuck where there kids on the Enterprise? #no! what?? #I realize I'm taking the fun sci fi show too seriously by posting this #but in my defense the fun sci fi show also takes itself too seriously #so I think I'm allowed #- also none of this negates the fact that I am infact writing a fic where star trek characters decided to raise their kid on a space ship #because I too love babies and warp drives

[kelin-is-writing]

i'm here with more dabi thoughts 🧍 (they never stop fr xD)

this one is little angsty? or hurt/comfort i guess 😏

imo dabi is prob a little very scared of touching you esp once you get into a relationship

for one there's his quirk. he's rly good at keeping it under control when he doesn't want to use it but you always manage to fluster him causing a little steam to come out of his ears lmao

so baby boy is worried he might hurt you by accident 😢

and then there's the other issue - his scars. he's terrified you might find them ugly and/or disgusting. he tries to avoid touching you as much as possible and always dodges any advances you try to make so you wouldn't feel the (what he would call it) "weird" texture of his burnt skin 😭

he's so insecure about it and once you notice what the issue is he better be ready to be drowned in love and affection

- 🥛

NO PLEASE. DO NOT MAKE ME START ON HOW HE FEELS ABOUT ACCIDENTALLY HURTING YOU, I BEG.

the last thing he wants in the world is to become like that scumbag of his old man, so even just a little unintentional swat at your hand make him panic internally and while you can’t see it on his face, his eyes says it all. dabi really didn’t want to do that, but he had moved his arm exactly when you were about to touch him, so automatically his elbow clashed with your palm but he didn’t hurt you.

he turns to you with an anxious knot inside his belly, from the fear of you possibly hating him now, apologizing right away as he felt his throat become dry from panic.

you smile to dabi while reassuring him but still notice how his bitter gaze stays on you even after you tell him he didn’t hurt you, so cupping his cheeks (which, at the start of your relationship, makes him flinch slightly as he isn’t used to it) you lean into him pressing your lips lovingly against his before moving only an inch away from him, noses brushing against each others as your eyes are fixed into his warmly and once again you reassure him with tender voice while rubbing your thumbs on his cheekbones.

right away dabi’s eyes soften, shoulder and forehead relaxes as a long sigh come from his nose while nodding briefly his arms go slowly to surround your shoulders, pulling you closer to him; he seriously has been holding back his breath until now from the worry without even realizing it poor boy 😭💔

and my god... those scars (that i don’t find ugly at all, if anything they attracted me to his character more 🤧), whenever he looks at himself in the mirror he ponders why the hell were you dating him when he looks like this.

usually dabi thinks that question inside his brain, but one night the two of you were laying on bed with you resting onto his chest caressing his skin, even the scarred one, happily which confused him and naturally that question came out of his lips before he could even think it through “what do you even like about my ugly self?”

now, what was he going to do if you decided to leave him after this? in the silence of the room, dabi bit the inside of his cheek taking in anxiously your surprised and upset expression. this was it, you were going to break up with him because his words made you realize that it wasn’t worth your time to stay with someone like him.

but no, instead you crawled up to be face to face with him and caressing his cheek you told dabi that you wished he could see himself with your loving eyes, how you see him through them “you love even these ugly scars?” and with that you told him he played himself because his scars were one of the many things you loved about him which takes him by surprised, making you giggle at his bewildered expression.

you told him that they did make you sad and cry from time to time whenever you remember how he got them and what he went through, but they were a proof that despite all the challenges god threw at him he was still alive because there were greater things in store for him “and one of those great things is me~!”, you joke with a little exclamation that has his heart flutter because of the beautiful smile on your face and your sparkling loving eyes, after not hearing him say anything you mutterd that you were just kidding of course, but instead with that calm of his dabi defies you “no, you’re right princess.” he comments with one of his most genuine, loving and beautiful smile ever seen on him.

automatically your cheeks become flame red before you melt on his chest under his confused gaze, then lifting up your face you look at him pouting and furrowing your eyes “i love you so damn much.”

#kelin responds #answered #🥛 #bnha fluff #mha fluff #dabi fluff #touya todoroki fluff #bnha angst #mha angst #dabi angst #touya todoroki angst #FINALLY!!!! wanted to finish write this so bad but i had peoples at home and had to let it on stall 💀 #nearly lost my mind at the amount of times i was called my god– #BUT IT'S HERE NOW MILK!!!!!!! #AND YOUR ASK WAS ON POINT LIKE ALWAYS AS EXPECTED UGH– #god fr though... if dabi was ever to tell me he's ugly i would flip like– BITCH HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT ABOUT MY FUTURE HUSBAND?????? #i'm in LOVE with his scars literally so he better never use them to degrade himself or i'll fucking cry #I'M NOT SCARED TO DO IT!!!! (threateningly)

[always-a-joyful-note]

may I also bring this contribution as you wander down the enstars rabbit hole (it's enstars characters and their supposed crimes)

OP I appreciate you so much, but I fear that you are trying to kill me? Just -

Just a few questions.....

- Why are Switch and the seniors of Ryuseitai and Wataru??? on kidnapping?? (wait, did he kidnap Hokuto is that it?) - Wait, what did Tetora and Sora DO? - Midori's in attempted murder?????? WHY??? - What's with forgery?? Why's that on there? Why am I questioning forgery when sexual harassment and murder are RIGHT there??? - Yeah, I still can't believe there's a literal idol duo who is also a mob group.... - "tried to break the windows with an iron pipe" what - of course Hokuto has the ultra specific one (I love him so much. Rich airhead princess to me, so far anyway). - Bullying for Subaru NO what have you DONE starshine boy??? - and at this point I've given up on getting mentally tortured by the others

I am eternally grateful for this list. Why did it have to exist? OP, come back here and let's just talk - actually. No, I desperately want to sit down with the writers and ask what they've experienced to do this.

#look i know the idol industry is not sunshine and starlight #but whats with it becoming a literal conglomerate and yazuka series? #the more i learn about this game the more im convinced that the writers really just spun a crazy roulette of any genres tropes #you have urban fantasy portal fantasy rpglit steampunk victorians nonsense literature historical fiction drama poetry etc etc #also detective fiction and war fiction and thats just the roulette of genres #stars i want to write like them #you guys in the fandom arent okay are you....you guys are all so nice giving me all this #but to let this get to my head youre also doing this to torture me specifically arent you? #my mind is already lost i dont know how i can lose it further #enstars #ensemble stars #fandom spamdom #things i find funny #stuff i say #this reminds me of my bsd starting days #i was so in denial that i was into bsd because it was so insane and unreal #and somehow a slice-of-life idol media is equally as unhinged and deranged i hate and love it here #(but in all honesty thank you for the ask op! it's SO fun to see people engage with each other in this fandom) #coincidentally i am pretty sure ive also blocked the most tags in this fandom because youre all insane (affectionate...i think?)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno? #it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated

[lottiemilfews]

tried to read leviathan wakes and came across the absolutely worst sentence known to mankind ive decided this book is not worth my time

#im having such a hater moment rn sorry #it was a 'german' sentence. its like [sentence] he said in gutter german #I CAM ASSURE YOU TJAT WAS NOT GERMAN #it was literally translated word for word from english resulting in an absolute senseless atrocity #SCHRAUBEN SIE SIE WEIBCHEN #im sorry im in distress. how on earth was this published its so embarrassing #ive immediately lost all faith in the authors like if you cant do your research and write a normal german sentence like maybe ask someone?? #im not trusting you. #BYE #schrauben sie. im sorry this is just too bad im losing my mind #schrauben sie?????? #what tje hell #m.txt

[caramelmochacrow]

grumble grumble. (hater-ness under the cut)

you ever have a fic idea for a certain pairing and then someone already writes it for another pairing w one guy from the pairing you like is w another person? so then when you eventually write that it looks like you copied them and made a version for your pairing bc you hated it even tho you've had the idea stewing in your mind for a few weeks before they posted it?

hate it.

whats worse is that they also like a lot this certain pairing a lot and then. you're currently writing that one person from their pairing set up the pairing you like (which has the other person from the pairing they like) so it looks like you wrote it out of spite. even tho you've been working on the fic for months. like. yikes my dude.....

#NOT TAGGING THANKS HAHA. #im gonna forget abt it. #i will be an adult and move the fuck on #i will not let whatever Horrors plague my mind stop me #im not writing the first thing tho (i lost the want to write it lmao) #ive been working on the second one for months im not gonna scrap it now #im being more and more of a hater i think i should go. see things that make me happy. #i think im just tired. im gonna sleep it's almost 3:00 in the morning #(literally 3 minutes)

[hecate112]

FROM RIVER TO THE SEA, PALESTINE WILL BE FREE

CEASEFIRE NOW!!!

#i have so many words in my mind but this is the only thing i could write #i keep reading about the atrocities happening and keep spreading them to the people i know beacuse these crimes of Israel should be known #and Israel should be held responsible for it international war crimes and crimes against humanity #but i feel so restless beacuse i cant do anything else and living in an asian country which is maintaining its silence on this matter #i feel helpless and kind of am #do these politicsns who have the power to change matters dont have any ounce of humanity left in them #cant they relaise they are being complicit in a literal genocide #why are people who have the power not doing anything or stopping this or helping #did Israel forget that they are also humans because we all are humans because we have humanity in us and Israel seems to have lost theirs #wonder what that makes them #from river to the sea palestine will be free #free palestine #free gaza #free rafah #ceasefire #stop the genocide

[dallonwrites]

actually i will be very brave and read what i wrote over nanowrimo 

#i kinda dont look back on nanowrimo fondly anymore because everything about it #big word count goals / tracking word count goals / writing sprints etc etc #is so antithetical to my writing process #even though it was very fun in the moment i had massive burnout from it #but i do miss my apocalypse... #kinda have to replot it majorly though because i dont like my original ideas for it LOL #also it probably doesnt help that nanowrimo started literally a week after the worst event to happen in my life oops #which probably contributed to the burnout OOPS #on paper doing nanowrimo in those circumstances does not sound like a good idea but if i hadnt i would have actually lost my mind #but i dont wanna do anything like it again lol

[yxstxrdrxxm]

YOU WERE MAD ST ME????? 😭😭😭

- 🌑 anon

IM NOT MAD AT YOU HELP???

is it the post abt me reading the entries? If so pls Im literally at awe with how we're similar in some of them and I legit went "oH MY GOD YOU'RE JUST LIKE ME FR /pos"

Proof:

(covered parts is the submission LMAO)

#💌 ;; messenger writes #💌 ;; a letter from: 🌑 anon #💌 ;; promising letter: one last call #;; pls i use caps lock often but trust me #;; 9/10 my tone is literally /silly and /lh #;; AHIUDSHFI #;; sorry i also ranted to a friend of mine because I literally went “oh my god. this is so relatable. THEY'RE SO ME FR!!” #;; (I lost my mind... and I am not sane /lh)