#I love both locations so much

[thatcrazycrowgirl]

Make Me Choose

@susann-noir asked: Paris or London

“It’s a bloody marvelous time to be alive. An age of invention. So many clever blokes dreaming up impossible machines, sorting away more gold than Queen Victoria herself. But none of those shillings ever makes it into the pockets of the poor devils, whose blood is spilt building this glorious empire. The working class sleepwalks through life, unaware of the machine that drives them. Let’s wake them up, then...shall we?”

#Susie; I love ya; you know I do <3 #BUT FML THIS WAS HARD XD #I love both locations so much #I love free roaming through them #and Paris has some beautiful architecture and I love the Cafe Theatre #but there's something about the gritty and industrial London setting that resonates with me on a deeper lever #(in truth it's one reason why my OC was created in the first place; to have a character to explore that world) #thanks for the ask! I had fun making this! #(and feel free to send more if you wish hehe) #Assassin's Creed Syndicate #my ac gifs #Make Me Choose

[bog--unicorn]

life of a bog dog

I’m really starting to love December

#my pics #dog #dogblr #22 weeks #she’s really such a happy friendly little guy #and in the last couple weeks has just hit that point where dumb puppy brain switches to big kid brain #she still struggles with overstimulation hyperactivity #but she tries very hard to refocus on toys like I’ve been teaching her #she is very mouthy like most acd’s but she has been EXCELLENT at learning ‘gentle’ #now that she has at least a bit of an attention span I’m taking her out walking pretty far #both on leash and off #we live on a farm surrounded by other farms so there’s lots of space to roam #next I need to start reinforcing cues by drilling outdoors / in strange locations #need to work on stay #and then I can really get into teaching her how to herd sheep #she LOVES being around them #and honestly there’s nothing that makes me happier than being out grazing the sheep w a dog #really just having so much fun with my little bud

[spookykestrel]

a $50 increase isnt that extreme. and $500 for rent isnt bad at all

no anon what you dont understand is its 1K for a one bedroom apartment . i could not afford this is if i lived on my own. i d have to share a bedroom with my roommate (which isnt the end of the world but for that id rather just stay with my parents for that). to be fair i did not search hard, but after a quick search, that was the cheapest i could find in like 20 miles. when my aunt was paying $450 rent, she was sharing with a couple other people and they had their own rooms. i dont know the exact details but if she had 2 roommates, that would still only be like 1250 for three bedrooms. thats an average price for a one bedroom around here.

Ok im rereading the tags I left in that post they’re not clear apologies — it’s not the cost I’m balking at, it s what I get for it

#i would love to pay 500 for an apartment that would be great i wouldnt complain! #but first i would have to find a roommate and also an apartment with space us both for $1000 #you can find $500 apartments an hour away from work(factoring in rush hour traffic) #but thats for..100 sq ft and i know nothing more abt location amenities etc #and i dont make enough to afford anything much more than that :] #yippee woohoo #kestrel calls #chitter chatter #i dont think it would be that bad if i could find a roommate but thats the first struggle lolll #its not that i NEED to move out so i cant complain too much #i just...would like the freedom id like to keep my job rather than move across the country to do who knows what #i didnt want to go off like this but you opened a door and this is just all i can think abt lol

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#its so weird. i feel like march 5th went on for more than a day somehow. i guess that's just bc we were awake for just abt all of it #my dad wanted to start doing things immediately so he was calling and scheduling all day. we went to the funeral home we went to the store #and it was weird bc as we were moving around it was like wow we r a 4 person family now. this is it. and theres so much to do after a person #dies. or at least there is when they were loved so much and jesus christ my mom was one of the best ppl a LOT of ppl knew. she did so much #for so so many ppl. and with her childhood she had every reason to b a fuck up but no she was kind and selfless and amazing. her mother is #trying to bask in the attention of her death when its like: truely go fuck urself. her being such a good person has nothing to do with u. u #treated her appallingly. fuck off. and fucking everyone knows it. god. she is a product of her grandparents kindness. and it sounds like her #dad was amazing like her. but he tragically died in a car wreck when she was 3. she was in the car. no one in my mums family believes in a #god now. too many bad things happened to the shining gems in a collection of wild alcoholics. but its not all bad. my family's staying close #my dad is taking it hard bc this means hes alone now and my mum took care of so many things bc she was so smart and he feels so dumb. he #feels he didnt deserve her. hes working on giving more hugs now. and hes using us to anxiously talk things out the way he did with mom #which is good. i cant imagine if this happened when we werent 3 adults and he was windowed with 3 kids to raise himself. and its funny. were #saying things we never would have told her. we looked thru pictures of her and she was so so beautiful. a total smoke show. my parents were #a cute couple who produced cute kids. and my mom had trouble communicating and being affectionate tho we knew she loved us there was #distance. theres a pic of my dad pulling her close and shes being tippef towarf her while standing away and thats indicitive of their #relationship. they were 2 partners who lived together independently and that worked but its sad bc my mum couldnt b vulnerable in her #expression. ppl r being so kind tho. ill be in ohio now for like 2.5 more weeks as the funeral stuff shakes out. we have to have 2 bc she #grew up away from her and so many ppl loved her in both locations. she was a popular lady. its so weird to b here on pause. but i feel clear #in my head. i think this will change a lot of my outlook on life. its nice to focus on the person she was and not the horrible 12hrs where i #saw her half dead. i cant imagine how awful it was for my sisters and dad to see her downslide into death. she didnt expect this to b The #Fever that killed her but it did and now she'll never finish a million things. and the house is full of pill bottles and all her junk and #unopened amazon packages and a truck with the fuel left on empty. bc she was an absent minded goofball. ay. well miss her so much #unrelated

[wayfinderships]

The F.ire E.mblem Tellius games need to stop having so many pretty men-agjsbfkd My heart can't handle it!

#pan rambles #I.ke and R.anulf and R.eyson....GJDBGKDN It's too much for my heart! #I'm not immune to making poly ships but the thought of being smooched by three guys makes me so flustered! #Oh also I don't think I ever shared my thoughts about my s/i! #They're a Branded (their age in Beorc years is about 21)! Half Beorc and half Raven Laguz #They were born in Crimea and probably lived alone for quite a while- #then one day they meet V.olke and he sorta adopts them. kinda #He taught them everything they know about thievery and assassination! #Their class is Thief <3 #Also I haven't decided on the location of their brand yet but it's probably on their neck #Their Relationship with Ike is probably very respectful. They both respect each other's skills and probably got close by training together #With R.anulf it sorta happened via association with I.ke. He probably makes them laugh often #And with R.eyson it's a case of a Thief falling in love with a prince #poor Panchi was smitten at first sight-afjsnjfd For a moment they thought they died and went to heaven bc R.eyson looks so angelic #I have a few more thoughts about this s/i bit yeah #that's the gist of it!

[kubominero]

I haven't been drawing FNAF for a very long time and I miss these two SO MUCH I love them <3

#FNAF movie got me so hyped to the point where I wanted to draw Springtrap again #The middle one is my sona btw I really love both Springtrap and Ennard so much #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf 3 #fnaf sister location #fnaf springtrap #five nights at freddy's sister location #fnaf ennard #sister location

[artykyn]

Not me crying because I had a really bad beginning of 2023 and signed up for a program that would proceed to make the rest of my 2023 rough and I spent the whole first three months of 2023 trying to pick myself up and motivate myself like "I'm gonna make it through this year if it kills me" and well look at that I made it

#timeline for anyone not in the loop: #Late 2022: Moved a thousand miles from home to Oregon for a new job. I love LOVE the area. #new job gives me very nice salary so I get myself a nice apartment all to myself #January 2023: Company I moved for decides to close Oregon location. Offers me choice to relocate again to CA this time #*panic because I can't afford my apartment without that salary and I'm still on a lease for 7 more months. Also I love Oregon so much* #*continue to panic because there are no other companies nearby doing that same type of niche work so I'd be giving up my career if i stay* #February: Ultimately decide to stay in OR and figure it out. Look into my options #March: Sign up for an accelerated program to learn software engineering #Interview for it and get accepted. Take out loan to pay rent so I can stay in apartment where I'm settled and comfortable and can focus #My last day at my old company comes and I am officially unemployed #April: Start the program. Most bootcamps are 3 months. This one is 7-8 months. Up to 11ish if you struggle and need to repeat some sections #It's like 70-80 hours a week of commitment to both classes and homework #Mentally prepare myself for the rest of 2023 to be hell and possibly early 2024 #Still no idea how well I'll pick up software engineering so I might struggle and take up to 11 months #May through November: thankfully it turns out I'm really good at picking up the logic. I successfully complete in 7 months #December: My brain shuts down for a bit to rest and recover. Still unemployed but feeling optimistic and ready to hit the job hunt #Bring it on 2024. Bring it on #mine #memories

[daisychainsandbowties]

oh no i went for a walk and got infected with an avatrice assassin’s creed au

#the halo is a piece of eden #bea is fully an Assassin & she rescues ava from abstergo bc they need her to locate other pieces of eden #& cam is their animus tech #and lilith is their shaun because it's holding hands emoji of being assholes but loving the animus tech (cam) embarrassingly much #BUT. consider. bea goes into the animus with ava so it's like a co-op situation #they're both in revolutionary france they're both in the renaissance they're both VIKINGS #i can cram every historical au into this one girls #i'm not going to do it but i have a week off phd stuff so i MIGHT #warrior nun #avatrice

[skrunksthatwunk]

i just finished saw v and i don't have high hopes for the rest of the franchise (based on what ive heard) but im in too deep to stop now

#no i haven't enjoyed the last two no i don't expect to get much out of the next five or so movies. but i need to know. #i guess saw v mightve suffered bc i watched it basically immediately after iv #something i didnt do with any of the others #but i was told v was one of the good ones so i was looking forward to it. i dont think it was burnout yknow #but uh. i didn't like it. i think i liked iv more honestly. strahm and hoffman do absolutely nothing for me #i liked the traps. that was it though #it felt so pointless and empty. it was the first one where i genuinely wondered why they made it. why did they decide to keep going with #this. i think ii and iv both function more/better as setup for their following films but like. at least iii was pretty good yknow #like both amanda and hoffman's accomplicing feels kinda retconned in but at least amanda's an interesting character #what does hoffman have. what does strahm have. nothing. and no i don't think they have much in the way of homoeroticism either. #i don't tend to be so negative and im sorry if someone goes in the saw tags and feels bad about me talking shit about something they like #because i know that doesn't feel good. honestly i'd love to hear why people like v. maybe it'll change my opinion of it if i look at it a #different way yknow? but for now im just annoyed by it. iv was engaging in the moment but very forgettable #i liked riggs well enough but we barely learned a thing about him. he wasn't a deep character at all and i think that's a shame #but v was just a paperwork-based cat and mouse chase. 90 minutes and it still felt like they were wasting my time #why did strahm go to the old trap locations? i don't think he found anything out there. likr it was just a framing device for the flashback #but he didn't actually have a reason to go there. waste of my time #not an original critique im sure but saw ii on seems to be more focused on scale and layers of shit (i.e. having two games going at once) #than using the traps to examine the characters. i mean you go from two guys in a bathroom for a couple hours #learning about who they are gradually at a slow pace vs like 8 people in a house plus cop stuff plus 90 second traps of dubious fairness #hoffman has no real relationship with kramer (unlike amanda) and basically everyone who'd been following jigsaw is dead and so are jigsaw #and (presumably) amanda. what am i supposed to be here for? the vague outline of a saw trap? the type of torture happening? #im not even opposed to that per se but frankly the more they focus on the cops surrounding this shit the less fun it is #why are you making all the traps like 15 seconds long and tied to characters who aren't the primary focus. it's saw #ughh i miss adam. i miss amanda. hell i miss kramer and he was pretty present in this one (flashbackwise) #whateverrr. anyway that poll comparing chainshippng shotgunnshippng and coffinshippng where shotgun was last? lesbophobic. #im only half joking about that. im sure ppl have their reasons for coffin but i also think it's the tendency fandom bias for “two white guy #ships. but hey maybe vi and onwards will add more context to that that'll make me reconsider. i mean i wouldn't have liked the amanda #accomplice thing That much if i'd only seen ii. i think iii really makes it mesh better and it leads to fun character stuff #(though i still think i would've liked it more bc like. amanda was always grateful to jigsaw right? again hoffman comes outta nowhere)

[takasgf]

focusing on two f/os at the same time is tearing my brain apart atom by atom but i wouldnt change it for the world

#i keep changing the location + story every minute. its confusing but i prefer it this way!!! its fun to have so much love in your heart #'flak why dont u imagine both ships in the same scenario' i just told you my brain is mush how can i possibly focus on 4 people - #at the same time😢 #'flak where is the secret frogeru lore' erm erm ERMMMM

[stressedmonster101]

ok we know the space theme, we love it, but there is SO much potential now that there’s 4.

fire, earth, water, and air.

wands, pentacles, swords, and cups.

also, keeping with the space theme, our solar system is split into two groups of planets.

two groups of 4.

#hmmm #limited life #trafficblr #traffic smp #methinks martyn is fire/wands pearl is earth/pentacles scott is water/swords and grian is air/cups #kinda bc the mean gills and skyblings both being opposing element pairs #has so much potential #limlife spoilers #limited life spoilers #oh my god i just realized how perfect the first four planets are #grian is mercury. the closest to the sun. named for the roman messenger god known for his winged shoes. #scott is venus. hottest planet. roman goddess of love. #pearl is earth. so painfully human. gaia is violent and powerful but in a way that is so pearl. #martyn is mars. people have been comparing him to this already i dont even need to explain #watch ren win the next season and be jupiter id go feral #ALSO LOOK WHAT I FOUND FOR WHAT THESE PLANETS MEAN IN ASTROLOGY #Mercury is about a quick wit quick thinking possibilities opinions reasoning and the ability to rationalize things #Venus rules our sentiments what we value and the pleasure we take in life. #The Earth represents your physical location and dharma or sense of purpose. It's the mirror image of the sun. #[mars is] all about aggression survival and animal instinct #im gonna combust PLEASE SEE MY VISION #grian #inthelittlewood #pearlescentmoon #scott smajor #edit: #GUYS. FOUR HORSEMEN. #HOW COULD I FORGETTT FOUR HORSEMEN METAPHORS IS MY THINGG

[lockawayknight]

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#been burdening my friends and partner too much with bitching about life but talking abt it makes me feel better so. i’m here. #new job is awful. but in a weird way. #i’m learning things and love my coworkers and the location and clients and work itself #but my boss is. my god. #it’s a little local place owned by one woman operated from inside her extra home on her property #she runs everything #and she is nice but she is??? loud ig. abusively loud #she screams and cusses and berates and belittles everyone and like #they all think it’s silly. it’s just her personality. they laugh or shrug it off. it’s just how she is. but i can’t do it #every day i tear up or cry on the way home cus she raises her voice at me or i hear her cussing and screaming in the back about like #me fucking up. over silly things. like i took a message for her but didnt say it was urgent. #then i hear her in the back HOW COULD SHE FUCK UP LIKE THIS SHE SHOULD KNOW THIS SHIT THIS IS SUCH SIMPLE SHIT WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH HER #and i just cant handle it man!!! #and she is so nice and supportive and texts me almost every night to ask how i am and if i’m okay #and like fuck dude i guess?????? but im also!!!!! not!!!!!!!! #my partner and mom both said i should quit and i think im. gonna. #the other place that wanted me is still hiring. i’m gonna talk to them monday and see if i can take that job still #but fuck dude. i dont wanna tell my boss im leaving. i dont think she’ll blow up but if she does????? #idk #i just hate that things aren’t getting better. i dunno. i just wanna cry and sleep all day #hopefully i get the other job and my boss understands. we’ll see. #thanks for reading

[wickershells]

txt

#i just dont really know what to do. my friends never express concern for me and they never tell me they love me without overt irony or some #watering down of the sentence. they never reach out when i need them and everything they say is so detached and distant and cold #and maybe im just in my head again maybe its getting to the time of year when my life routinely falls apart moreso than all the other month #but i feel so abandoned all the time. and stupid. and unloveable. my friend once told me that her love for me would erode #whenever i vanished for mental health reasons so i stopped vanishing and started instead pushing through the illness and opening up more to #her but it was too much for her to handle and all my baggage almost ended our friendship so here i am vanishing again except this time with #the debilitating knowledge that every day she loves me less and less and less. if i am not there she stops loving me and if i am she stops #loving me. what do i do. my illness takes everything from me every damn thing. she wont call me but she bought a ticket to see me in januar #and i cant reconcile it. shes visiting her girlfriend and its the same price to come over here too so i guess why not. its not really #for me. we dont have plans to do anything for my birthday and i doubt she will offer and i dont want to be the one to do so like last year #i want someone to love me without me asking them to. i want to be able to trust people without having it broken. i want to feel like an #equal and not so inferior all the time. i'm not her best friend anymore. she doesnt tell me personal things she doesnt share everything #she used to with me. i try and try to start doing the things we used to but she doesnt do them. i shared my location again but she didnt #share hers. so i stopped again and she didnt even ask me why. she has not asked if im okay in weeks. if i vanished forever i dont think #she would even notice. i cant see her mourning the loss of me. i dont think i matter that much to her. and it is so painful #with both of my best friends i watch them gladly do things with other people and never do things with me unless i beg. i am constantly #excluded from their lives i am the outsider friend. and it is so damn lonely. and every time i'm presented w the opportunity to make new #friends i'm paralysed w fear because how many times have i lost people. i'm either too little or too much or both at once. constantly absen #or constantly sad and it's poisonous i feel poisonous. i'm not fit for community despite how desperate i am for it i just feel perpetually #undeserving. and so stupid and unsuccessful in comparison to them. i'm too much effort to be around and i get why i really do #even this it's just so much heaviness all the time i am such a burden. they just don't love me as much anymore. love lost #added to my family baggage and my dead childhood dog and the nothingness of my future i just can't see myself continuing i don't know what #to do. my parents don't support me my friends are never there the nhs is a joke i am actually genuinely alone lol #what if i can't recover. some people are destined not to. what if that's me. what if i am never happy. i'm never going to accomplish #anything i'm stuck here. stagnant and unmoving. the most disposable and useless person alive #sorry. will delete later as usual. but for reasons stated above i have nowhere else to put these thoughts #and i am drowning in them #vent

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

Gilear and gortholax i am rotating them in my mind

#random thoughts #fantasy high #gilear absolutely fucking instigates it are you kidding me #like after a while of gilear and gorthalax hanging out for fig's sake they're in a weird 'only friends cuz out kids are friends' kinda thing #except their kids are the same kid #also they both work at the school so they're in meetings and at school events #and gilear keeps the cooler in the locker room stocked with drinks and snacks for the bloodrush players so you KNOW #you KNOW they're bumping into each other #the teachers have a bimonthly get-together where the location changes each time #sometimes it's at krom's diner or basrar's soda fountain but it's MOSTLY at the black pit for drinks #before gorthalax started his job gileat never attended one of these get-togethers because 1. he's gilear and 2. couldn't afford it #gorthalax didn't hear about it until he was in a conversation with a fellow teacher and gilear and the teacher brought it up #gorthalax's like 'why didn't you tell me about this??? we're going' because that man LOVES SOCIAL INTERACTION #and he offers to cover all gilear's drinks because he just wants him to get out of the house already #and gilear's like 'well if you're paying i suppose it would be rude of me not to indulge' #gorthalax is the designated driver for the night </3 baby can't drink #gilear gets absolutely SMASHED for the first time in god knows how long #he goes from ramrod straight 'i am extremely inebriated' to loose and giggly and leaning into gorthalax's side because he's very warm #and there is some point in the night where gorthalax goes from 'hell yeah im helping my friend have a good time' to 'oh dude' #'i think you should sit down' to 'oh you are VERY MUCH COMING ONTO ME and you are VERY DRUNK' #he eventually takes gilear home early (it's fine porter doesnt drink either) and stays there until he falls asleep #and also sleeps on the couch because he's a LITTLE concerned gilear's gonna get up to some shit #just imagine gorthalax sleeping on this tiny couch. like a mastiff in a cat bed #he ends up cooking him breakfast which gilear takes in the COMPLETELY WRONG WAY and is like 'oh god did we . . . ???' #and gorthalax is immediately like 'NO NO NO YOU WERE WAYYYY TOO DRUNK I JUST STAYED OVER BECAUSE I THOUGHT YOU'D HURT YOURSELF OR SOMETHING' #'btw your kitchen is like. super sparse. i bought you some groceries.' #gilear is also very apologetic for coming onto him 👏 the 👏 whole 👏 night 👏 and hopes he didn't make him uncomfortable #and gorthalax is like 'oh no you're fine i would have stopped you if you crossed a line. would have stopped you very easily actually' #'im eight feet tall' and gilear's like 'that you are' #gilear's flirting is the epitome of 'how tall are you?' 'idk 8 feet 8'5 with the horns' 'with the horns you're SO funny' babygirl's deranged

[mothheart]

I started exploring my first chasm for the robbie quest and whewww. Really just getting started here huh

#its soooooo cool #i knew from the first time at hyrule castle that 'zelda' was probably not actually zelda #and the more i find the more i think shes probably some kind of illusion being used by ganondorf (?) to further his hold on hyrule #/ progress his agenda until hes got his own corporeal form to use. well. one that isnt a corpse #seeing everyone talk about zelda and how worried they are and how much they miss her .... they all love her so much 😭 #that little girl in hateno who checks zelda's house every day 😭😭 and she saw illusion zelda too #and. the big storypoint locations ive reached thus far are death mountain and rito village #both are very spooky. now i really need to see gerudo town and zora's domain lol #im still like. waiting. to see. if they hold up on 'darker than majoras mask' yes. i will hold them to this bc i mean. thats a big thing #but storywise so far. i can see it #i love the rito village music so much but i dare not even try to search it to listen to lest i see the most spoilery thumbnail in the #search results. lol #i <3 being a social media hermit. i know nothing that is going on. i should do this more ofteb #my biggest thought is this is the same cherished botw experience while also managing to REALLY feel like a zelda game #im so happy #i jabe a lot of thoughts stay tuned or whatever #totk spoilers #tears of the kingdom spoilers #miles rambles