when jean compared grayson to drake neil’s first thought was “yeah this dude’s gotta die”
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No because Neil is SUCH. An unreliable narrator but he’s also so convincing and also like confused and missing all these social cues and clues but like I am too??? It’s so easy to get swept up in his head The first time I read aftg I was just nodding along how does he make every decision he makes (most of which are insane) ??? so??? convincingly??? rational??? AND THEN (embarrassingly) the “doesn’t mean I wouldn’t blow you” blew BOTH OF OUR MINDS like upon rereading I was like … that was so terribly obvious and yet. And yet.
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(Trying out the whole simplification thing, and I fvck with it hard)
Also what’s with the people who draw Neil with teeny tiny paper cut scars? My man was mutilated. Don’t undermine his physical trauma cause you think he looks cuter “smooth”.
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"since my aftg obsession is back with the new book announcement-" what..? where'd it go?? it's been years and it won't leave me. i am it's mom the way i care for it with gentle hands and give it my hourly attention. trust that i've told the other moms at the book club about my son
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Neil let his cigarette burn to the filter without taking a drag. Let’s talk about it
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Me cosplaying as Neil Josten when I ignore my school work
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terms that jean uses for neil in the sunshine court:
tiny bastard
tedious malcontent
abominable cockroach
wayward child
rabid little Fox
wretched little runaway
ignorant child
miserable wretch
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by the way dear, we're alive, and it hurts 'cause we survived
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i didn't even realise that neil grabs jean's sleeve before he leaves the car when he tells him grayson won't bother him again. his sleeve !!! because he knows not to touch him without warning. the same way he does for andrew. i'm literally about to cry on the train. neil josten the boundary-respecting consent king you are !!!
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Random hc that Neil definitely definitely goes through every language he knows when he swears in like a list like - fuck shit putain bordel de merde schize etc - except that cause he speaks so many and swears are like the first thing you learn it goes on for agessss
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my favorite thing is neil judging andrew so immensely hard at first for being weird when he’s literally neil josten
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rereading aftg and realising just how oblivious neil was is truly hilarious
just a few pages ago renee told neil andrew is gay and neil literally had to lie down to process it, now he's admitting he watches andrew at the gym and is impressed by how much he lifts??? dude. you are down SO bad
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I just had the hilarious thought pop into my head that the phrase, “yes or no?” probably became a pavlovian response for neil.
andrew asks, “yes or no?” and neil is instantly thinking about andrew kissing him senseless in the middle of the locker room, when really he’s just asking if he can help him remove his jersey so abby can check a bruise
andrew asks, “yes or no?” and neil is blushing because andrew you can’t kiss me at abby’s dinner table, but all andrew is asking is if he can hold his hand
andrew asks, “yes or no?” while andrew is driving and neil is like you need to watch tHE ROAD? but andrew is just wanting to put his hand on neil’s thigh while he drives
no matter how many times andrew tries to say it in a different setting, neil immediately expects to be made out with.
andrew instead starts to ask, “can I?” because he never says that when he wants to touch neil in any suggestive manner
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