#I might delete this post later too

[raksh-writes]

We just got pretty heart-breaking news relating our dog and now I don't know what to do with myself, so I figured I might just as well share. Maybe it'll help, who knows.

Long story short, today was the day we had scheduled leg surgery for our doggo, but when we went in and the vet started to check her, he heard something he didn't like, so we did an x-ray aaaaaand it turned out she actually has a sick heart. And like, significantly. The surgery was canceled, while the vet explained to us what's going on with the x-ray and a comparison of how it Should look and yeah, her heart's basically twice the size it should be, pushing her trachea into her spine, where there should quite a bit of space there, and tbh, now it makes sense why she's been less and less energetic lately. We've been seeing it for months now, she doesn't run around or sprint the way she used to, and she also eats way less, sometimes doesn't even come in for her evening meal when before she was Always ecstatic about it. It's-- well, I didn't expect it to hit me the way it did, but damn... The vet was straight with us too - dogs with heart diseases always die, the question is what's exactly the sickness and how to maybe elongate the time with meds, but how long does she actually have?

He gave us a contact for a specialist, so we'll definitely be trying to get an appointment with him, but... yeah. We thought we were going for a relatively straightforward leg surgery and to get hit with this news was... rough.

It's a sad day today ngl...

#Raksh posts #personal #feels like Im just gonna be hit with random waves of heartbreak over it today #I really didn't expect it to hit me this hard #but since we've been seeing the changes for quite some time #it makes it all feels all too real and inevitable #we thought - or maybe hoped - that it's just the leg giving her issues but #damn #it really did look bad on the x-ray #compared to how it Should look #so the vet judged it too risky to go with the leg surgery #she'd need to be put to sleep for it so... yeah #I dunno what to do with myself now #I might delete this post later too #for now I guess i just had to express this somewhere

[98chao]

i watched heathers yesterday and i couldnt stop thinking abt how JD and veronica were so shadowpeach

#might delete later #i feel a little too cringe posting this #monkie kid #lego monkie kid #sun wukong #monkey king #six eared macaque #liu er mihou #shadowpeach #my art #ms paint #2023 #1k

[cloudysarts]

this show would be good if literally everything about it was different

#read these tags please(unless ur an HH fan in which case please ignore them) >>> I DO NOT LIKE THIS SHOW #i hate viv///ziepop so fucking much its actually unreal. every time i think about her i seethe #been hatewatching it ('legally') nd its awful. like i mean i knew it would be going into it but goddamn. so much worse than i expected #you may be like 'whyd you draw this then'. i wanted to make a finished piece with my redesigns #for funsies me and my boyf have been rewriting/redesigning the whole show . thats been our fun little craft #i feel similar about this that i do about fnaf and miraculous ladybug even tho this is objectively worse in every way #theres this eternal feeling of like. man. if the writers were competent then this concept would be interesting #but theyre not so. here we are #anyway. im gona try not to put hate in the tags lol #but i like how this turned out too much NOT to post it #anyways mutuals please dont unfollow me for this i promise im normal JDSFHJKDFHJDFKHJK #Hazbin Hotel Redesigns #Hazbin Hotel Critical #Angel Dust #Husk #Huskerdust #I guess. #genuinely a little scared to post this ones. im scared ill lose mutuals over this AND/OR fans will harass me for those tags JHKSDFHJKJK #im posting it and then immediately going to sleep. might delete later if even 1 thing goes wrong #EDIT RL QUICK i wanna add: i dont care if you like the show <33 good for you!!! i respect it!! i liked it when i was 14. i just dont now. <

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

Do you sleep with socks on

this is such a random ask that I feel like i’m morally required to answer it lol

and the answer is- this ✨mysterious✨ museum curator obviously never sleeps soooo that answers your question :)

#ask #the hellsite answers #anonymous #hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit #shitpost #shit post #also I actually haven’t been sleeping and just have been spending every waking moment texting #because like if I wasn’t a ✨mystery✨on here i’d SCREAM FROM THE TOO OF MY LUNGS THAT I HAVE A WONDERFUL GIRLFRIEND NOW #AND AM TOO DISTRACTED TO DO ANYTHING ELSE BUT TALK WITH HER AND AAAHHH #but i’m a complete and total ✨mystery✨ so i’m totally not saying that ahahaha nope #mysterious museum curator tour guide barbie obviously isn’t saying that and totally can contain her excitement and be so so chill about this #hahaha of course #you know it’s bad when I can’t help but EMOTION POST ON MY HHOF BLOG AAAHHH #help y’all I have to chill #definitely delete this tags later oops #I can’t not post them tho or I might explode #but also #like I didn’t post the other day for the first time in like 4 months #like wtf #am too busyyyyyy aaaahhh #this is when someone needs to scream ‘go to sleep miss curator’ into the void bc I might need that oops #this is a mega shitpost wow

[sharptoothed-gaze]

Damn now my ass is really concerned about Etoiles… I don’t wanna be parasocial, but now I’m sitting here feeling a bit stressed after hearing that his health is worsening.

Like,, that’s genuinely so sad and upsetting. Even though he’s a stranger to me, the idea that things are going bad for him hits. He’s, as far as we know, such a good person, so that fact that he’s not doing well rn really sucks to hear…

#gosh this is probably as close to a vent that I’ll post on this blog #let me know if I need any other tags #i might delete this later too #qsmp #etoiles #qsmp neg #neg

[10hong]

i dont think shaming people into supporting writers is the way to go, like im not gonna lie.

we aren't entitled to positive attention in the same way readers aren't entitled to our works. placing the onus of validation onto readers and continuing to prolong the belief that our art is only allowed to exist if the numbers justify it isn't really the solution a lot of posts think it is. support is great, amazing even, but so is having confidence in your skill extant from others' opinions. some people will just not like what you have, and you have to keep going despite that.

if that's not possible, maybe it is time to reevaluate both how you think about writing and why you write in the first place - from a genuine place of love.

to be clear, writing for others outside of yourself isn't a bad thing, but it does reflect whether or not you write and produce for social community rather than writing's own sake. that of which, again, isnt a bad thing. but don't hide behind others and stand next to your writing with conviction.

you cannot outsource your love

#miya.opinion #miya's space dust #might delete this later but like i also gotta stand by my convictions u know #thinking abt this bc im writing a paper on this lawl #also bc ive been seeing too many 'you gotta reblog likes mean nothing' posts #s/o to my bestie w that last line shes so cool for that

[natsmagi]

sorry for making yet another textpost but i came across that post saying they dislike transfem natsume because he "canonically hates being perceived as a girl and tries to erase all sorts of memories related to that" and also went on to shame genderbends of him aswell. So, as someone who not only draws genderbends of natsume but is myself someone who is nonbinary and hates being perceived as a woman, i thought id offer my two cents

first of all; i think its important to note that natsume does NOT hate his childhood. in fact, hes quite happy that he had such an unusual upbringing!

what natsume hates is being perceived as weak. thats why he was raised as a girl after all, it was his mother trying to protect him from evil spirits. he doesnt hate the whole "-chan" or "wearing dresses" thing because he has a hatred for womanhood, its because due to his upbringing hes now come to associate those things as being weak. he begs tsumugi to forget about it because that means tsumugi remembers natsume being weak, and natsume thinks tsumugi still referring to him as "natsume-chan" means he still sees natsume as weak. (iirc natsume did however once say that he is a little sad that he doesnt really know how to relate to young boys due to this in poltergeist, but i couldnt find the exact quote. either way that just adds to the complexity of natsumes relationship with his childhood, because while he is happy to be "abnormal" in that sense, it has left him lacking in some areas)

i have to ask though, should this conflict of his not be something we hope he overcomes? should we not want him to develop a healthy relationship with various gender expressions? should we not want natsume to overcome his belief that feminine things = weakness? i want natsume to reach a point where he can wear feminine clothing and not feel like some damsel in distress because of it. i want natsumes character to grow. i want him to develop a positive relationship with his gender because natsume DOES enjoy some more typically feminine things, like baking! he used to bake with his mom when he was little! and i want him to feel like he can indulge in that side of him without feeling insecure.....

i LOVE transmasc natsume, my primary hc for him is transmasc nonbinary after all, but with all these things considered, shouldnt people be allowed to headcanon him however they want? if they hear his story and negative relationship with femininity and how that resonates with them and they themselves are transfem, should they not be allowed to hc him as such too?

which brings me to my next point; my own personal relationship with gender and femininity. i was raised as a girl and i fucking DESPISED womanhood. i hated everything about it. i hated how i felt forced into a box i didnt want to be stuck in, and i hated how it felt like my whole life had already been planned out for me due to societal expectations, aswell as me needing to present a certain way. i was peak "tomboy" growing up, constantly wearing super baggy clothes and wouldnt even brush my hair alot of the time. but despite that i remained miserable. i frankly hated how i looked and would constantly dye my hair vibrant colors in an attempt to make me like myself a little more. it wasnt until i realized "wow, im actually not a girl at all" that i finally let go of believing i needed to look a certain way (and thus, defying it) and started to dress for myself. i started to dress in clothes that made me happy and feel pretty! alot of which leans feminine, but clothes doesnt have a gender, and how you dress doesnt define your gender either, but it can still be a bit scary yknow? especially since i dont want people to think of me as a girl, and drawing a bunch of femstars has really made me learn to love myself more in a funny way. i can put these characters in clothes i think are beautiful, i can explore the more feminine parts of me that i adore but dont want to express in public due to how i want others to perceive me, but it has also warmed me up to femininity even more. because femstars to me feels detached from the expectations of society because its not a real thing!! there are no canon femstars designs!!! i can do literally whatever the hell i want with it and its been so liberating to me!!

all this to say; i think it really sucks seeing the way this fandom treats transfem hcs and explicit genderbends, because like ive said before; they can truly be something so personal. you dont know why that person is drawing what theyre drawing, so its a little unwise to make assumptions based on ........ Well, whatever it may be. i know very well that women dressing the way society expects them to SUCKS, esp if you have personal ties to it, but you have to realize the issue isnt femininity, but misogyny.

#maybe ill delete this later idk but i just felt like i needed to say something #as i constantly see these things being spoken of yet never do these people actually reach out to femstarries #and ask Hey why are you doing this? #so instead they make bad faith assumptions and it really sucks. #and while im here; #trans hcs count as genderbends. Because you have changed the characters gender #*IF the org chara is a cisman and you make them a trans woman i should add #once again Stop treating trans and cis people as two separate things #if it was a cisbend itd be CALLED CISBEND #and the reason i tag genderbend is because i know some people dont like it #and thats valid!!! no one is forced to like this kind of stuff!!! #and some people who dont like genderbends might be new to enstars and dont know what femstars is #so should it not still be tagged for those people too? #should we not look out for the trans people who dont wish to see their favs be a different gender??? #i dont get it. i really dont #this post probably wont even reach the right audience but wtv #nat rambles #nats enst posting

[alienssstufff]

am iiiiiii like will u still love me if I post some oc art heere frum time to time erm😬?

wwww LIKE imgonnadowhatiliketanyway and I OBVS still do fanart more than og stuff but at the same time I don’t want ppl doom-thinking like UGH it’s joever for you Roman! he’s never gonna draw ___ ever again! nor did I ever like the trend of (namely) ex-mcyt artists formally addressing they’re NEVER going to talk/draw about ___ EVER that’s so dumb that’s so silly xP

Point iz I just want to talk abt oc stuff in an open space whileeee also crying throwing upp about my faves like Slimecicle and Bdubs! Simple as that!

Speaking of faves like from the QSMP/LifeSeries/Hermitcraft EXCITING things abt those are happening that im doing! …. Can’t say what any of that IS but iykyk 😚 I’m having a BALL drawing that’s all I’ll say 😉🩷

TLDR big sorrys I’m a bit spotty I’m so busy but I’m happy ^_^

#might delete this post later it’s meee being a lil nervy #nothing crazy just Roman talking abt things 😌 #other than drawing the dr campaign is going FANTASTIC I’m having such an awesome time rping with friends #I’ve also been writing for them too if ever I get a chance to show my writing for executions I’d love to post them ^^

[sad-emo-dip-dye]

Comparing the two I feel like Mersault fyodor could have been a little more wet and pathetic

#thinking about the post with Sky abt Dazai decomposing #is it too much to ask for a sad wet pathetic little man covered in his own blood #put him back in the soup he’s not done yet #don’t ask why I had the other pic on hand #i might delete later idk #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bsd fyodor

[vacueye]

actually I thought abt them again so have this haz spy doodle from march

#might delete later GHDJFHFJHF #when i get more time i need to draw haz and spy fighting its so fun #sorry its so fun drawing ppl beat each other up all my haz x spy stuff is just that.... #maybe i will post those too at a later date... #egg talks #tf2 hazard #tf2 spy #tf2 oc #tf2 #tf2 tenth class #tenth class #team fortress 2 #sketch

[pmpwbrrs]

orange!!!

#This is the first orange slugpup I've seen.. ever #so I want to show it #they have fun stats too #rw #talk.pmp #might delete this later :) this applies to all of my post tbh but still #rw 4013

[colourfulmes]

Bit if a ramble here idk don’t mind this but

The people who constantly ask from creators one singular thing bother me, it’s been happening a lot from Eggsmr with hazbin hotel fans begging him to make more Lucifer x listener ASMR Even though he’s ALREADY MADE 4 PARTS and said he wasn’t gonna do anymore, please be glad you got 4!!!

So much demand has caused him to state that he doesn’t feel like making anymore of character impressions/ASMRs and that sucks for the people who enjoy those but also Egg himself-

I’ve seen this type of stuff before, especially within fandoms such as NWTB, back when Nate was grinding pulling out so many FNAF songs just to please people and fans that he got sick of it, he only uses the FNAF brand to post music because he knows fandom music is the only thing that’ll reach to the audience and algorithm

Like, fuck YouTube for shadowbanning his ass to only make fandom music but I’d love to hear more original stuff not only from Eggsmr and Nate but other creators too!

As much as I love making fandom content and obsessing over my goobers, please respect others wishes on wanting to make their own original stuff, their things are just as good as the fandom things!!!!

#but idk that’s just been bothering me recently #feel free to ignore I wanted to post about it #be glad you got this stuff!!! it’s cool to have all this stuff but look at this other stuff it’s cool too!! #rambles #might delete later idk just wanted to get it off my chest #eggsmr #natewantstobattle #tw opinion

[cyberspacebear]

been sketching him for a piece… absolute damsel

#hivemind tv #riley john savage #btw it is surprisingly challenging trying to draw someone’s head who was wearing a hat in the reference photo #real hivemind homos know exactly what clip this image of riley is from too #might delete later because i never post wips and it’s a painting sketch so he’s not shaded almost all #but he came out kind of beautiful

[oh-wow-im-still-here]

Oh? What am I reading? Its this book series I really like called scum villain's self-saving system! Its one of my favorites.

Oh? What's it about? Hmm how do I explain it... Basically, Imagine revenge of the Sith except its fantasy instead of scifi and it has a happy ending where anakin skywalker and obi-wan kenobi start fucking instead of fighting on mustafar to save the world--

hey w-wait, where are you going? H-hey wait, please! Come baaack!!

#so nothing like revenge of the sith actually- #not really that big of an obikin shipper myself personally but i feel like the obikin people would get a kick out of danmei #i also just think binghe and anakin fit together a little too well if you think about it... #bingqiu star wars au when? plz send some my way thx! #svsss #scum villains self saving system #throwaway post #might delete later

[hwaslayer]

it’s my birthday!! just wanna say i know i havent been on this side blog for long but i truly adore every single one of you and appreciate all the support you’ve given me 🫶🏼

#gonna delete later enjehejsjs #another trip around the sun!! #i might post this on my main too so if you see it twice #just ignore lmfao #hwaslayer: ♈️

[philicheesecake]

Apologies for being mostly inactive lately. I’ve been struggling to get any work done, and all the stuff going on in the world has been taking a toll on my mental health. I’m attempting to go on a sort of mental health hiatus for the sake of my wellbeing. I’ll still try to post the comic updates on Tuesdays, but if I’m not around for that, the new pages automatically post on my comic website on schedule, so you can always check there. Take care of yourself y’all and be kind. 💚

#cake talks #I’m mostly posting this to remind myself I’ve got to take it easy cuz otherwise I’m going to keep ignoring my health #the pains of being trans in Florida #on top of a bunch of other BS going on in the world #I’m not going to talk about politics on this page cuz it’s so polarized and hostile rn #I just want everyone to be nice to each other and treat each other like human beings is that too much to ask #might delete later