#I watched the episode and everything makes so much more sense

[transmutationisms]

Care to share some Janice thesopranos takes?

well im only up to season 3 but when she was first introduced i thought she was an interesting character with obvious ulterior motives much like every single man around her and then over time it became clear to me that the writers or at least some of them were actually intending for me to view her as ceaselessly uniquely and unrepentently self-centred rude petulant greedy etc. like i watched the episode with livia's funeral last night and it's insane the entire engine of this show is that we are invested in tony's psychology and his relationship with his mother is a huge part of that and yet! janice having been mistreated and disfavoured is constantly played as like her trying to steal tony's moment or drag up petty bullshit or make everything about herself when no one else cares. honestly very irritating to me justice 4 janice i think "wronged daughter who's out for her inheritance" could have been so much more interesting if they gave her half the consideration they do every single man in tonys orbit. also for like half a season they were really leaning on her doing orientalism but they never really had anything of substance to say about or with that, it was basically just supposed to make us think she's cringe. which she is but cant we do something more interesting with that. like we get so much about how the male characters view their own ethnic identity and how it informs their sense of belonging in the world again "italian american staking personal identity on shallow idea of The East" is certainly a concept to explore but in this writers room it is just an addition to their list of reasons janice sucks

#sopranos

[keets-writing-corner]

Thinking a LOT about Lucifer in the latest Hazbin episode. Idk what I was expecting but not this??

As I was watching my immediate thought was just "huh... Lucifer is kinda of weird..." but as the episode went on I realized the issue

the dude is off the chain depressed, like he says it as a joke but holy cow it is SO BAD

He's manically just creating rubber ducks cuz his daughter really like it that one time but it's empty, it's never good enough but he keeps doing it, maybe cuz he doesn't know how to pass the time otherwise.

like I get the feeling he HAS better things he SHOULD be doing than making rubber duck after rubber duck. At first I was like, "Bruh why isn't the king of hell doing anything?" aaaaand then it became clear...

The dude is disassociating so bad he can barely hold a conversation let alone remember information. He clearly WANTS to, he wants to be involved with his daughter so bad, he wants to care about the things she's doing so bad, but his depression keeps interfering. It's like he can only hear every other word and he grasps onto the ones he does hear semi-out of context. Like you can see every time he catches something that he hadn't before and he just "well shit I didn't catch that part"

and that's why he reacts so weird when people talk to him. He is struggling so bad to engage with the conversation he's only getting 50% of it

does that look like the face of a man who knows what the hell the conversation is even about??? he is STRUGGLING

like Charlie spent so long telling him about the hotel, and he STILL didn't understand what she wanted. Yeah it comes off as ditzy but literally I've been in that position where your brain just "nope, not doing this right now" and nerfs your conversation comprehension. So as someone who's BEEN in that position, to me it feels exactly like what he's dealing with. He's sorta engaged with the conversation, but only as much as his brain will allow

For example, when I'm dealing with this, this is what someone talking to me feels like this where the crossed out parts are what I missed and bold is what I catch, "Hey! You know I was thinking for dinner we could either make some chicken with rice? But if you don't feel like cooking, pasta is super easy and you love that right? What do you want to do?" you can kinda get that someone is trying to talk to you about dinner, and towards the end you get the impression that they asked something that needs your input so you can decently put 2 and 2 together and try and pass off, but crucial bits were left out, I would have no idea that either chicken or pasta is in the conversation only having heard "rice". When someone is just talking at me, I can decently pass off as being engaged but the second I'm required to participate in the conversation I'm screwed. Seem familiar? At which point I have 2 options, try to give a bullshit answer, or admit that I missed what they were saying and ask them to repeat

Lucifer, unfortunately, is trying so damn hard to hide that he's dealing with like 24/7 dissociation, so he can't admit that he's missing entire chunks of the conversation, hence his really weird replies. He does eventually get the full picture and then he and Charlie start having the real conversation

Also, the Alastor/Lucifer rivalry was hilarious but also really indicative of more of what Lucifer is dealing with

Alastor is, unfortunately, really good at picking up people's insecurities, and thanks to Charlie's description earlier and watching Lucifer clearly trying to overcompensate, he immediately picks up on the fact that Lucifer KNOWS he struggles to be a good dad (we know cuz it's cuz of the depression, hard to be engaged when your brain keeps turning off) and decides to rub salt in the wound by pretending he's been acting as a surrogate father to Charlie. Now why Alastor decided to pick a fight with the king of hell is beyond me, I do not understand Alastor (and I LIKE IT) (maybe it's cuz Alastor thinks he's hot shit and was expecting Lucifer to at least have heard of him but Lucifer just treats him like a nobody? who knows)(why would Lucifer listen to radio anyways when he can't even pay attention to a conversation it'd just be white noise)

But yeah I just was expecting someone who oozed either charisma or presence and instead I got a depressed dad who's dissociating so bad he can barely function and be present in his life. The only thing it seems he CAN do is make rubber ducks cuz his daughter really liked it that one time

Idk Lucifer is tragic to me. Whatever the full details of what heavan did to him absolutely broke him and he can't deal with it. He's aware of it, and he doesn't know how to fix it, so he tries to over compensate and sorta makes an ass out of himself but no one says or does anything cuz this guy is supposed to be THE king of hell

Suddenly it's making a lot more sense why he just rolls over and lets heaven do what it wants and even told Charlie to go in his place the start of the show. He's not in any headspace to hold a basic conversation let alone negotiate! He didn't even know who Alastor was, he's been so out of touch

idk I like him, he seems sweet, I hope Charlie brings some light back into his life. He really needs to get out of that rubber duck room

#hazbin spoilers #hazbin hotel #lucifer #lucifer morningstar #analysis #dissociation #look idk what to tell you all #I watched the episode and everything makes so much more sense #when you realize he's only intaking like 50-60% of the conversations #he's not bad at listening his brain is literally preventing him from getting everything #literally I've been there #the difference between him and me tho #is that he can't show it #he's the king of hell #he has to bluff his way through conversations #but yeah literally rewatch the episode with this in mind #and watch him reply to the things he DID catch #anyways #NEW BLORBO???? #who'd've thought I would go into Hazbin Hotel #and come out with freaking LUCIFER as my favorite character #I love him #he's so sad

[buttercupbuck]

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[image description: 5 gifs of evan buckley and eddie diaz from various episodes of 9-1-1.

gif 1: from season 4 episode 14. in the kitchen of the firehouse, bobby (offscreen) says, "buck, what happened to eddie was not your fault." Upset, Buck responds, "No. No, I was just the guy standing there when it happened who couldn't do anything to protect him."

gif 2: from season 5 episode 14. in the loft of the firehouse, buck reassures lucy, "that lady...she didn't die, cause you caught her."

gif 3: from season 4 episode 13. from under the fire truck, buck screams as he pulls eddie towards himself. his face is bloody. the gif is colored black and white.

gif 4: from season 5 episode 14. offscreen, lucy says, "so accept it was a lucky break and move on?" buck responds, "look, your luck could change tomorrow, so we take the wins when we can get 'em."

gif 5: from season 5 episode 14. buck looks up and smiles at eddie as eddie walks into the dining room and pulls out a chair for himself.

/end ID]

#evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 on fox #911 fox #9-1-1 #911edit #alicia edits #if this makes no sense it's just out of my hands at this point #like idk. it's really interesting to think about buck's journey in the context of eddie's and lucy's in this episode #bc like the both of them he also has to accept that he did everything he could do #and that fixating on how he could have done things differently won't change anything #but while they are feeling somewhat hopeless and struggling to see what the point of it all is #buck is oddly - for the first time in a while actually - incredibly optimistic and at this place where he is able to take the wins #and Honestly i think so much of it has to do with the fact that he feels he can finally help eddie #instead of feeling unsure and helpless as he watched eddie struggle alone like he had for all these months before #because yeah. maybe at some point he felt that it should've been him to get shot #but eddie is still *here* #and that's more important than any guilt or fixation on what else he could've done #eddie is still here. how can that not be a win #so buck will be too. he'll be there smiling at eddie as he comes home from his therapy appointment #and taking eddie and chris to equine therapy and helping eddie see that it's not all for naught #he'll be there for everything and all of it - the good and the ugly - is still a win in his eyes

[obessivedork]

I got so caught up in the euphoria of new Star Trek that I forgot SNW has some of my least favourite writing of the new shows. I think I’m frustrated with it because there are so many aspects I SHOULD like! On paper I SHOULD like this show more than I do! I just do not vibe! :(

#Happy for everyone who loves the show so much god I wish that were me #tagging for my own blog's sorting system not here to be a dick #it is only dethroned by season 3 of PIC for my least favourite writing #but. STOP TALKING ABOUT GENETIC MODIFICATION STAR TREK. IT HAS NEVER BEEN GOOD. IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN BAD. ALWAYS. #EVEN THAT ONE BASHIR EPISODE THIS IS A HOT TAKE I WILL TAKE TO MY GRAVE #(but there are other things that are good about that Bashir episode) #It's too nuanced and difficult of a topic to handle in a 45-60 minute episode. It really is #Children should never be blamed for the sins of their parents etc etc but it is SUCH a double edged sword #what they did with La'an was neat I guess. something something facing ancestral ghosts that put guilt on your shoulders #Like at least this guilt and trauma isn't entirely needless like the Gorn shit #It makes sense that a descendant of HIS would have complex thoughts and feelings. Just wish it was a descendant of a DIFFERENT #genegic augment from Earth's history. Makes the universe feel SO SMALL #The La'an episode got me reluctantly back into being willing to see where they're going with everything because it was a decent episode #I mean I'll watch the Lower Decks episode no matter what but I was hoping the show would grow on me more this season #and it still hasn't really #There are fun elements (Funky old engineer lady! Still mad about killing off the season 1 guy but she's fun! I'm so gay for Ortegas) #I want to like this show more so bad! :( #but I'm just overall not vibing :( #star trek #snw

[koipalm]

im really glad i have not read the original trigun because i would probably have a lot of nostalgia for it.... but right now i am just enjoying the hell out of whatever trigun stampede is showing me

#MAJOR TRIGUN STAMPEDE SPOILERS IN THESE TAGS. BTW. i finally got to watch it all yesterday #it helps that everything is new #i think the only thing to me is that it feels they skip out on some of the worldbuilding #because it is so popular but as a new watcher guys i have no idea #i think i will read trigun though when i have time #trigun stampede spoilers #<- only for the tags i am about to put #I FUCKING CALLED IT I FUCKING KNEW KNIVES DID IT ALL FOR VASH #I JUST. I HAD A FEELING #he was talking about how he made sure the plants would be fine.... #and considering they are both plants AND that vash seemed to be the weaker one #it just. it makes sense #fucked up sibling relationships will always be interesting to me #because they have so much potential #augh this new episode.... so interesting but so confusing #hoping meryl gets more agency in her character after this #i hope that if we get a season 2 milly will show up #she looks like a freak i like her #also. i feel like the episodes are too short for what they are trying to tackle.... #but to be honest it might just be a constraint that they have to work with so :'[ #i also hope we get more religious imagery keep it going keep it going #vash is like an angel to me.... DOESNT HE HAVE WINGS IN THE MANGA TOO. SHOW ME HIS WINGS #the plants being like angels to me is so interesting too #i feel like it goes off that idea that angels are an alien species #AUGH even better that theyre a higher dimensional species.... sooo fucking cool #txt #BT THE FUCKING WAY. BY THE FUCKING WAY. #i was hoping that trigun stampede would have a magical girl level of universe changing at the end of it.... #like madoka magica or sailor moon #WITH THIS NEW LOOK AT VASHS POWERS. I THINK WE CAN MAKE IT HAPPEN

[jolselin]

the thing about the main cast of moonlight chicken is that while the show is nominally centered around jim you could also make six different shows focused on each of the characters (so the hypothetical jim show would be even more about jim and a bit less about, for example, li ming) and they would all be great and interesting. i've just been thinking that if i had been given just one additional episode of mlc i would love to see a fuller picture of alan and wen's relationship and how wen fell out of love and then i thought i would watch a show told entirely through wen's perspective and with more of his background and then of course i thought i would even more gladly watch the alan show with both his backstory and the continuation of his storyline past the end of the original show (the alangaipa spinoff we deserve) and then i thought we saw even less of gaipa, in a way, so that would also deserve more spotlight, and finally there's so much to know about heart from the keyboard in his room to him learning sign language (we have to assume all by himself?) and to him finding community among deaf/hard of hearing people of pattaya and then of course to his university adventures in rochester. and as for li ming well one just has to check the tag to see that like half the audience either would rather watch the li ming show or treats the original as the li ming show.

so mlc could really be any of these shows but instead it's kind of like a little bit of everything with the focus on jim but not as much as if it were mainly a jim show. the trade-off is that you actually get so many wonderful characters and stories coming together in one show and isn't that great

#but mostly i would love to watch the alan show. obviously. i'm a first kanaphan girlie. #but also the wen show... #moonlight chicken #it doesn't hurt that mix first and khaotung could definitely carry a show as the main character each #like not the way mix plays the primary pov character in atots or first in the eclipse bc those are focused on couples #so it's not a mix show but an earthmix show etc. i think each of those 3 could play more of a spotlight character... does it make sense #and you could say that this is how normal tv shows are supposed to work and that's... true! and how often do you get that out of a thai bl #i personally have never suffered from the side couple syndrome. there's like exactly two good side couples i've seen in thai bl #but with mlc i feel like i need to point this out bc i think it's a source of audience dissatisfaction #e.g. people came in expecting a jim show and they didn't get a show that is solely focused on him #then some people would clearly rather watch a li ming show and well what can you do #but the show only has eight episodes and you could mine it for much more #so i feel like i need to state the obvious. besides it's not always even true... #e.g. with hate crimes md i would watch the wilson show but not the chase show or god forbid a cameron show #but that's not even an entirely appropriate comparison since mlc has only eight episodes... #hm well not everything can be the terror amc season 1

[zevranunderstander]

sex education is a phenomenal show with well-written representation, amazing actors, campy ideas, great character arcs and character growth and i would recommend the show to anyone, but it's just that the show also has the most boring and unlikeable main character of all time and the main plot of a season is usually the weakest plotline

#myposts #like i love this show w all my heart #and like??? maeve adam and aimee's character arcs are sooooooooo fucking amazing #isaac as a character??? viv and jackson??? erics arc????? #the new characters introduced in season 4??? the arc adams dad has???? all of these are fucking insane??? #but i usually dont care about the actual main premise of the sex clinic tbh because like. otis is so boring to watch #and like. whenever otis is involved in a plot its just that one post thats like #' 'i guess i blew up at you because i have unresolved anger from when my dad left' - NO throw their car keys in the drain' #like i liked the idea for 2 seasons but the season 3 main plot was so stupid im so sorry but like what was that #and then the whole 'competition' arc in season 4?? #like i liked that otis and o both grew over doing it and it exposed how much of an ass otis can be an shit #but the overall idea was so. meh? #and as much as i love isaac and aisha as characters the whole scene were the school protested for disability services was so. ugh. idk. #but like i think that is bc some characters plots dont really have time to breathe because we have to watch otis be boring half an episode #like? the idea for vivs plot was really cool this season but it was so rushed and easily would have been better if viv had more screen time #and i just dont like when the show gets really unrealistic with characters and is like #'noo all of the characters are now protesting for disability rights and it fixes everything and all characters decide to be more inclusive!' #or 'this persons dysphoria and sucicidal thoughts are alleviated by the fact that the school does a fundraiser just for them' #like whenever a character arc and the main plot meet. the character arc suddenly becomes really bad and boring #i hope i make sense and also. i fucking hate otis so much

[lesmiserablol]

i watched seasons of stranger things as they came out but never rewatched a single episode until recently which means i had forgotten practically everything that ever happened and got to re experience it all ldhdkdjdkd

#all of season one had me like 😧😧😧 #season two was crazy. love u sean austin #i remembered disliking season three when it came out but idk why it was fun #i also thought i was straight when i first saw it so watching robins coming out scene. 🥹🥹🫡🫡 #anyway i really should’ve done this before season four because everything makes so much more sense but ah well #like ohhh that’s who papa is that’s who that one doctor is etc etc #anyway time to rewatch season four now. and this time i won’t spend the first few episodes disliking eddie

[cosmicallyavg]

my undying love and excitement for all things doctor who and just the way i get all tingly and stuff when watching it or when i hear the intro or literally anything and i want to explode is part of the reason i rly think i am on the spectrum i am not going to lie 

#me literally having to scream to let out the excitement Multiple times while watching a single episode #is probably not normal lbr 💀 #like i genuinely get shivery but not in a cold way more just i have energy i need to release #and idk how to properly express it #but now that i do have this suspicion about myself i have been letting myself... stim? #like #flappy hands and stuff #and it helps it feels nice #yknow #idk idk its embarassing to talk about #and i feel like people are so quick to dismiss it as a possibility #but yeah #doctor who just rly gets me going okay i have so many normal emotions about it #and if im right about having the tism #it makes everything about me from when i was like 11 make so much more sense bro #does lauren have autism

[moniquekatie]

Restarted watching Vice Versa and oh my god, it makes so much more sense now I actually recognize the actors. I actually understand the jumps between Jimmy/Nanon and Sea/Ohm now instead of just being super confused.

#i watched the first two episodes straight after kinnporsche and i was so confused what was happening #knowing who jimmy sea ohm and nanon are has made such a difference #everything makes so much more sense now #vice versa

[hauntingblue]

Luffy expressing his emotions freely while katakuri becomes more unhinged as he uses repression to be calm and collected in fights but it no longer working bc he can't win and it's driving him up the walls..... exactly

#the animals seeing gear fourth (well the animals and rayleigh) #D: #ouh!. #luffy levitating in a miat of clouds??? hello??? well call that foreshadowing...... #THE HAIR AJDKAHSKS #SNAKE LIKE THE FUCKING GAME OMG #'the more it extends the more it accelerates' well i don't think that makes sense but i will let it slide on account of lit everything else #he turned into a donut.... you really are what you eat..... #sanji is way too smooth!!!! HE SHOULD BE THROWING UP BLOOD!!!! #they are literally lying down under the same blanket.... #luffy hurting and in pain... he suffers more than jesus..... and yet he smiles.... omg #'i have said how i feel. i have been freed' HELLO??? #black mamba???? #this fight had me tired for a while bc it has been going for ages and segmented so much but when it started to pick up.... goddamn #'i will free you from your suffering' 'no thanks' BARS #AND THE SABAODY BUBBLES??? NOOO #just rayleigh giving luffy some encouragement.... i cant do more flashbacks thank god #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 870 #BANGER ONE #32 minutes!!!! LUFFY END HIM ALREADY!!!! #enough!!! sanji is too smooth!!!! NO WAAAAAYYYY #LUFFY BACK TO NORMAL??? NOOOOOO #OMG KATAKURI DOWN!!! BUT LUFFY IS UNCONSCIOUS!!! 10 minutes maybe??? #jinbe and nami saying luffy might not even know he cant get out of mirror world without brulee akdjsksjk #LUFFY IS AWAKE!!!! crawling on the floor but awake.... katakuri again..... jesus man #'will you come back?? 🥺🥺' AND HE IS DOWN 'you are seeing a long future' omg luffy giving him his gangster hat as respect.... omg #OMG PEKOMS!!!! #episode 871

[loverboybrightsideghost]

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#four episodes into s2 #my thoughts are it’s kinda clunky but i’m having so much fun that i kinda don’t care #i do think they (ineffable dudes) have their work cut out for them with nina and maggie though #i kinda wish we had seen more of an established relationship btwn nina and maggie even if it was only from maggie’s pov #(since she’s the one with the crush atm) #and also i wish they were more fleshed out and when they’re introduced we have firmer ground to stand on with their characters #but oh well i guess :/ #i personally don’t think this season is bad at all i would just say it’s clunky tbh. like legos that don’t exactly fit #and even if it is bad at least it’s funny and gay like come on we have so little #bluebird.txt #good omens #good omens spoilers #every time i see posts about it though i’m like i haven’t even finished watching it yet but i feel deranged #i have seen some other spoilers that are not the BIG spoiler that make me go HUH‽!!?? #atp i don’t care about spoilers anymore like i unblocked the tag and everything #but i just scroll quickly past anything i don’t know yet going ‘AAAAAAA WHAT NOPE DIDNT SEE ANYTHING’ lol #i’m having a good time w it tbh :D #it also does feel very separated from s1 in my mind but that makes sense and idk that much about that like i said before s2 and the show #in general are just a different thing than the book for me #it’s another cake now

[kneeanderthal]

the awful balancing of story lines in season 4 always makes me tweak out a bit

#love most of them (not st*ncy...) but even if i did love all of them i cant because there is so much nothing #like so so so much screen time on pointless and unnecessary new arcs and then completely sidelining the good emotional arcs #and continuing to sideline the actaul main characters (lucas will jonathon mike etc) in favour of the fan favourites (st*ve) #UEGRH #idk everytime i watch s4 and i watch it alot because im unhealthily obsessed with this show im like eh.. #because maxs and wills and lucas and even el and mikes relo drama is more emotionally enticing #then the same repeated dance of will they wont they (st*ncy) and the weird new personalites from s3 (joyce and hopper) #when i first watched it ESPECIALLY volume 2 i was trying hard to give a shit about the storylines that took literal hours hours to convey #and i dont hate the new characters but there are so so so many characters and not enough episodes for them to make sense #but also not take the spotlighr #this doesnt make much sense but basically maxs arc > wills arc > everyone else because theres so much nothing #the great stuff gets lost (els whole arc is so drawn out it overshadows itself) #i could literally go on for days about everything #but ill stop now #because these are the tags #and the post speaks enough for itself #stranger things #stranger things s4 #stranger things vol 1 #stranger things volume 2 #byler #< target audience #lucas sinclair #< also target audience because his storyline was so so so overshadowed by st*ve and all the other bullshit

[snekdood]

wait steven universe came out in 2013...? why do i remember it coming out in like. 2015/16??

#ig bc thats when i actually started watching it...? ig it makes sense #since i watched multiple episode at that time lol #also apparently im in the minority for thinking season 1 was good actually #it may be a bit slow and the filler eps kinda suck but otherwise idk i think its a good build up to the next season #which i also liked #basically everything up until the whole... pink diamond shit. #also the filler episodes that are bad are usually the one w the conspiracy theorist guy lol..... #and also also ig i wouldnt have minded the pink diamond shit if they didnt make such a point of like. making her a brat basically #rose has like this. wise 'been there done that' motherly type attitude and pink diamonds just... a fuckin brat #and from the reviews im watching it sounds like they really really leaned into that more later on #which sucks so much lmao #pink diamond is so unironically unlikeable and shatters my whole perception of steven and rose as grounded characters #also im sorry but pearl... really really sucks lmao. #maybe she gets better later on but... considering the fact things seemed to have gotten worse and even some of the characters have gotten #worse or havent even changed in spite of apparently going through character arcs that suggest they did change... #kinda doubt she gets any better lmao. #im sorry i just have no respect for her. #worst intro to lesbian rep for any character on god. #on a kids show. hopefully she didnt end up making kids think lesbians are all like that hjbashjvsd #theres a lot of shit shes done that i see as pretty fuckin unforgivable but one of the most frustrating things is how shes technically an #adult and putting alllll this stress and responsibility on steven to help her work through her issues with rose. #instead of. idk. essentially seeing rose as dead. she decides to almost inadvertantly blame stevens existence for why shes gone. #and while thats technically kinda true- she should've been able to recognize that idk. hes not fuckin rose. hes an entirely different #person. and the whole 'i wonder if she can see me through your eyes' shit. like dawg.... #hes basically your adopted son and it feels like your simping for something inside of him that as far as you should be concerned doesnt #exist. #fucking creepy is what it is. #anyways it prolly woulda been easier for her to accept the idea that rose is dead or for gems 'shattered' and gone with that narrative #than to assume rose is somehow omnipresent through steven watching her #which again! is kinda technically true- but... also not really. and she doesnt know if thats even true. so its weird.

[januaryembrs]

CROSS MY HEART | Spencer Reid x wife!Reader

Request: read here

description: Spencer's wife struggles with the aftermath of JJ's confession

length: 1.5k

warnings: JJ's 14x15 confession spoilers (big ick, pull yourself together Jennifer) infidelity, thoughts of worthlessness, reader thinks Spencer is going to leave her for JJ.

authors note: I have loved JJ for all of fourteen seasons and fourteen episodes. this was a BIG ICK for me watching this won't lie

She should have known something was wrong the minute they left that damn store. 

It took her all of two seconds to throw herself into her husband’s arms, her voice choked with tears that had threatened to spill when she’d seen the video of Casey shooting at him, and she swore Spencer had never grabbed her so tight. 

“I thought you,” She sniffled, running her fingers through the back of his scalp, the entire spanse of his huge hands ran along her spine, counting every vertebra to make sure she was still intact, despite the fact he had been the one held hostage, “I thought he’d shot you- it came so close,” 

He hushed her mewls, a hand reaching to the back of her head and tucked her into his neck further, the sob rattling through her ribcage almost, almost, taking his mind entirely off what JJ had said in that stupid game of truth or dare. 

What the fuck did she mean she had always loved him? She had a husband and children who doted on her; Will, who loved every shred of her being like it was his only purpose in the world. His godsons who had known him as uncle Spencer since he’d held them in the hospital, covered in goop and looking like the cutest little aliens he’d ever seen. 

And yet JJ, his friend, perhaps one of his longest friends, was willing to throw it away for him? He, who had a wife he adored more than there were birds in the wind, leaves on an Autumn floor, more than there were galaxies in the damn cosmos. His wife, who had been there for him since the moment they’d met, who he’d known was the one since that first day she’d ran into him in the lobby, their files mixing together because neither of them had been watching where they were going, like one of those romcoms she forced him to watch and he pretended to hate, or like the silly thing she called fate that she insisted was very much real. 

Spencer was a man of statistics and numbers and facts; things he could see. But he was sure there was nothing in any textbook that could have ever made sense of how the one person so perfectly created for him, the blob of cells that made up his wife that seemed to call to his own as if they were coming home to one another, would have just so happened to bump into him on a random Tuesday in August. 

Most people waited decades for that kind of love, or something close, and he’d managed to get it at the ripe age of thirty three. 

And yet in the space of ten seconds, of four little words in a wretched game, he felt like the carpet had been pulled from beneath him. Because why would JJ, who saw as clearly as anyone else how much he cherished his wife and the future they were planning together, try to take that away from him?

And as if his own odd spiral of thoughts wasn’t a kick to the gut enough, his sweet wife had quickly released him from her grasp and thrown herself at JJ, who seemed to just now be understanding the gravity of her words as she looked around with wide eyes, tear stains wetting her cheeks, the guilt gnawing in her gut already. 

“JJ! Are you okay? Oh, you poor thing, you must have been so scared,” She sobbed, wrapping her friend in a loving hug that was shakily reciprocated, like JJ was waiting for the second she would get a fat shiner to the nose for confessing such a thing. 

But that never happened. Instead, she pulled away from the frozen blonde woman, who looked like she could burst into tears then and there and apologise for everything until her face turned blue, and ran a kind hand over the JJ's hair, stroking it behind her ear tenderly as she tried to quell her cries because she wasn't the one who had been held at gunpoint. 

She didn’t know. It hit them both at the same time. She didn’t know what JJ had said, hadn’t even got an inkling into what had happened, and god did it make the sinking feeling in Spencer’s chest swallow itself up into something the size of the Mariana Trench. 

And what was left, what had for a second been a horrid mix of confusion, shock, fear and then another big dollop of confusion for good measure, quickly was dragged away by the current and replaced with anger. 

Anger that JJ could do something like this to his wife; he frankly didn’t care how her words had affected him, that if he had been single he would have been left feeling unworthy of her affection the first time it had been offered around, like there was something so disgustingly wrong with him this was what it took for her to say anything. He didn’t care about any of that. He cared that this would absolutely destroy his wife. 

And it was for that reason Spencer hurried the paramedics into fixing the small graze on his palm as he watched with boiling blood his wife tend to JJ like she would any other time her close friend was hurt in the field. He seethed whenever Jennifer would simper and avoid her friend's eyes, how his beautiful, caring, devoted wife would stroke the woman’s back and will her to talk, to tell her what to do to make it better.

Because it was her who should be fussing over his sweet wife, certainly not the other way around. 

But he couldn’t say that, not there at least, and so he didn’t, not until he had got the greenlight from the medics to leave and he had all but cut off the circulation in her fingers with how tight he’d held her hand as he led her to the car. 

Spencer said nothing, not wanting to fight when she forced him to sit shotgun as she climbed behind the wheel, not wanting to cause a commotion when there was a much bigger bombshell he was sitting on that he knew would change her feelings entirely. 

-

“What?” Her voice was soft still, a murmur in the quiet night air of their bedroom. She sat, fresh faced, minty breathed, kevlar vest long gone and replaced with one of his old Dr Who shirts and comfy bottoms.

She said the word again, like she hadn’t heard him, but judging by the way her expression had fallen into something dejected, he knew that wasn’t the case. 

Sighing, drawing gentle motions up and down her legs with his warm hands, shuffled closer where he kneeled down in front of her submittingly. “JJ said that she has always loved me; that was her ‘truth’ in the game,”

“Well, she-she was lying right?” His wife said quickly, her voice shaking, trying to make sense of it herself. She didn’t get an answer right away, just her husband’s eyes casting down as he tried to think of the best thing to say, “Right, Spencer?” 

“I don’t know,” He said earnestly, and he saw immediately the way tears sprung to her eyes, her bottom lip trembling, her face warming in wet-anger, “But it doesn’t change anything, sweetheart. It doesn’t matter, to me- baby, please don’t cry,”

“Ofcourse it changes things, Spencer, it’s JJ. She’s literally the hottest woman to walk the earth, Pen said you were like in love with her when you started the BAU, and now you have your chance,” She whimpered, fat tears rolling over her freshly moisturised cheeks, and he swore he felt his chest concave at her words. 

“My chance? I don’t want a chance, I want you,” Spencer said in earnest, his hands rubbing further and further up her legs until his hands went under her night shirt, grabbing onto the soft of her hips with pleading tenderness, “I want you forever, no matter what JJ or any other woman feels about me,” 

She sniffled pitifully, her eyes still unsure and he took it as a sign she needed more, so he leaned in fully to hug her to him. 

“But it’s JJ,” She said again, like that was going to change anything, and he shook his head, stroking over the back of her hair softly.

“I don't care,” He said, and she sniffed gently into the crook of his neck, his skin wetting with the contact. She finally wrapped her arms around him, and he knew he was close to getting it through to her, “I had the smallest crush on JJ, what, fifteen years ago? Honey, I want you for the rest of my life, and nothing and no one is going to change my mind about that, not even you.” 

“Really?” His sweet wife whispered tearfully, and he chuckled sadly, hating how hard she had cried that it had ripped the life from her voice. 

“Cross my heart,” He kissed her hairline softly, tipping her head upwards with one long, warm finger under her chin, pressing a gentle kiss to her wetted lips, “Hope I never die,”

She smiled sorrowfully, kissing her husband as if it was the last time she could ever do so, hoping it made up for how puffy and ugly her tears had made her face. But he didn’t care, he never had, he thought she was perfect just the way she was.

And he’d remind her of that any time she thought otherwise. 

–

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[bookdragonideas]

Here's the thing. I'm a girl, and as a girl, I really like it when girls are portrayed in fiction. Especially fantasy.

But so much fiction/fantasy mixes up 'girls' with 'unstoppable forces of female badass' and there's not necessarily anything wrong with having a character who is an 'unstoppable forces of female badass'. But it gets old real quick. And it is not the same as portraying normal girls, or having good female characters.

And that's one of the many reasons I love Avatar the Last Airbender.

Because all the girl characters have flaws and weaknesses and sometimes act like idiots or jerks. They get emotional and make mistakes. They lose fights or arguments or are just wrong sometimes. Some of them are amazing warriors, and some aren't. Some are powerful or special and some are normal, with nothing special about them.

And I Love that.

I was around the same age as Katara when I first watched Atla. And I instantly connected with her as a character. I loved her optimistic attitude and her fighting spirit. And I could relate with her anger, and with her maternal instinct. I admired her fighting skills of course, but I loved how the show portrayed her compassion and kindness, the way she could both beat up a bunch of bullies AND enjoy a relaxing day at the spa. She was a baddass warrior that should never be crossed. But she was also a normal teenage girl who had a lot of the same internal struggles and problems that I did.

(I never connected to Toph on the same level, but I did relate to her on a few things. She's an adorable trash gremlin who would commit any crime for fun and I love that. But she struggles with being both independent and letting people help her, and I still struggle with that sometimes. I've learned that sometimes, you can help others by letting them help you.)

Yue is, in my opinion, a perfect example of a type of hero that seems to be disappearing. She is not a warrior. She is not a fighter. She's not even a bender.

Yue is a perfect princess, a perfect daughter. She is extremely feminine in a rather older sense.

And she was the only one who could save the world. She gave up everything for her people. She saved everything, everyone, the entire world. Without ever becoming a fighter.

Yue is a perfect example of a girl who was never more than a girl, and how that's okay. Not every girl has to be rough and tumble and fight for her rights in order to change everything. Sometimes it's okay to just be a quiet obedient girly girl. Sometimes that's all it takes to be a hero.

And I love that. Yue is strong in her own way. She is unique and interesting. She appears in only a few episodes and yet manages to be one of my favorite characters.

Song is another great example of this. Song is a healer in a small town. We don't see much of her but we see her compassion and empathy. She is gentle and generous. A healer not a fighter.

She watches Zuko steal her ostrich horse and does nothing.

Is that because she's kind and generous and knows he needs it more? Or is it because she's a healer girl who knows she can't actually stop those two from taking the horse? Maybe neither, maybe both. I have always thought that the scene where Zuko steals the horse and only the audience knows she saw it is one of the most thought-provoking in the series.

Suki is a badass warrior woman who is an awesome fighter and good leader. She is one of the best non bender fighter we see in the entire show. She was one of the smartest, most efficient, and powerful characters we ever saw.

She kissed a boy she had just met because she thought he was cute.

Now don't get me wrong I love SokkaxSuki. Its one of the best couples in the show.

But Suki totally did the old 'love at first sight' thing. And that is awesome. Because when she kisses him she delivers one of the best lines, not only from her, but, I think, in the entire show.

"I AM a warrior, but I'm a girl too."

Being a warrior doesn't mean that she isn't also a teenage girl. She might be a fighter, but she still gets crushes and likes to flirt with cute boys. And hey, she picked a good one. Not every boy is going to come break you out of prison.

Anyways, let's have more realistic girls in fiction. And please enjoy the next 24 hours.

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