#I will delete it

[copsecore]

my thoughts on the "fanon-isation" of sam (and his newest ba)

(taken from a long winded text conversation i had - slight NSFW talk below the cut) [WORD COUNT: 1047 WORDS, IM SORRY]

psa: while i am complaining about it, it's just my own thoughts, and none of which is an actual criticism of erik, feel free to add your opinions, as per the usual

Maybe its coz time is passing, and the relationship is developing but i feel like i’m enjoying the dynamic between sam and darlin’ a lot less than i did at the beginning. It feels a lot less “human-realistic” and more “tailored for fan preference” (you sam fans gotta hear me out on that bit okay).

Clearly erik isn’t “pandering” towards the fandom or anything, however there HAS been a change in sam’s writing that i don’t know if anyone else can see, or whether it’s just me.

 Fight me, but i feel like whatever’s happening to guy, the reverse is happening to sam. In the sense of where guy is gaining lore and becoming more plot relative, sam seems to be losing that position, which doesn’t cover all of my opinion, but it’s the simplest way i can think of putting it. 

He feels more “disconnected” as a character and I wish i could write this more specifically but there’s almost no “good” way of putting it, i’m just trying to put my vibes about this into readable thoughts in a way that’s somewhat well communicated.

It feels like he’s being diminished, where there’s less of the gruff dad-type personality, protective semi-asshole, gently-caring-in-a-non-tsundere-way, and a lot more “here’s your standard cookie-cutter southern bf who just so happens to be a vampire, however that’s essentially irrelevant because it’s never referenced in a way that’s plot-needed”. 

It’s quite flat and 2D now in a way that i can’t explain, so therefore don’t yell at me for saying it. While he’s still hot ofc, I don’t enjoy his character nearly as much as i did pre-quinn era, which is a shame because it’s difficult to let go of the fact that he’s one of my favourites, but the energy’s shifted and it’s “off” now. 

Maybe it’s because I’ve changed as a person in the last four years, which i know i have, but it doesn’t seem to be just character development, in the nicest way possible, it feels like he’s being written “out of character”.

Character development in any way is good, I’m a writer myself, I would know that, but those words aren’t what i would personally use to describe it. Forgive me, but i just felt like i needed to get everything out so i could see if anyone else agreed. 

You could say “it’s not that deep” but I’m autistic; this is my special interest, so as much as you can say otherwise, it is in fact “that deep” for me. 

Don’t get me wrong, i still thoroughly love sam as a whole, complete character, and the more recent videos that i don’t like as much could never take that away from me, so again, don’t come at me saying i’m “hating on him”, because i’m not.

This is as constructive of a “rant” that i can make it, and yes, my anonymous asks are turned off. I’m not gonna go on about how “i’m not criticising erik, BUT-” because if you know me at all, you’ll know i would never send hate towards him. 

With the “fanon-isation”, that’s just a word i threw out there to header this whole thing. I meant it mostly in reference to how a large part of the fandom seems to idealise or romanticise darlin’s character, and somewhat how that seems to be translating to the canon of their relationship with sam, and thus effecting him as well. But that wasn’t the right wording - the sam fangroup is big, and i’m already throwing myself to enough proverbial wolves as it is.

The thing that sparked all of this - and if you don’t have the patreon then you probably won’t know - is that Sam biting darlin’ for the first time happened in his most recent ba, which wasn’t something that i really liked. It felt weird to me that, even though it was fully communicated and both parties were okay, it would happen FOR THE FIRST TIME in a sexual setting. While it made sense for darlin’s character, it made less sense for sam’s.

 It also means that (at least as i’m writing this) the non-patrons won’t experience the very plot-important aspect that is sam biting darlin’ for the first time, considering how built-up it’s been throughout their storylines, it didn’t feel right.

It almost felt like the only reason the reverse-comfort audio even previewed for a ba was because THAT was the video that fell on release day. The circumstances just didn’t feel right for it, not given sam’s past and everything that happened in the quinn arc. 

i figured it would at least happen with a sit down conversation, in an sfw audio, even if it was ON patreon, but free. Of course - knowing darlin’ - it was going to be sexual at some point, but i didn’t think it would happen for the first time.

 I’m not going into any more specifics on the audio itself, but those are my thoughts on that bit. Sam bites darlin’, and i didn’t like it. My gripe is neither that it happened, nor that it’s not available to the public, but that nothing about the setting or the build up felt right, and it felt like it happened “just because”, which was a big let down for me, personally.

It wasn’t even the first time I’ve gotten the gist that something was “up”, THAT happened in sam’s hbs 2023 audio (NOT the ba, just the youtube access one) where it definitely felt more like “this is what the audience wants” because yes, who wouldn’t want to see a hot southerner get down and dirty in a club? But it didn’t feel right, and I couldn’t put my finger on it at the time, but more so now it seemed like fandom influence of a sorts.

Almost like I was reading a fanfic or something that was posted on here (no hate of course, I would say my "platform" on here is mainly constructed of fan based content, just that it seemed more “headcanon-y” and less Just Canon) rather than something that erik himself wrote.

TL;DR: sam feels more and more “out of character” to me as a long-term viewer, and it all came to a head in the most recent bonus audio

#let me know if you feel the same way #im interested to hear thoughts on any part of this #however if it's mean or shortsighted #i will delete it #redacted asmr #redacted audio #redacted sam #redactedverse #jed’s food for thought #redacted patreon #dms and asks are open regarding this however anon is turned off because yes #i am a 'massive pussy'

[elliesdeadite]

Dakota Johnson is so mother

#Dakota Johnson #madame web #don't come into my inbox with madame web hate #i will delete it #cassie webb

[thepavementsings]

omg Pierre’s so up w the TikTok trends

#this is not serious it was simply too big of a file for discord #i will delete it #i could be a tik tok manager yall #i dont even gave tik tok but i DO have a vision

[artsolarsash]

Hi guys, it’s hard to say. I’m gonna delete all my photos and drawings of tmnt and others. I just realised how stupid I am, posting the same things that I thing everybody gets sick of. My mom noticed my drawings on my sketchbooks, iPad, and even in my laptop. So today i will delete it and start new drawings different but it’s not gonna be tmnt fandoms, promising to make comics about them, and other things that my mom doesn’t like it (she thinks that tmnt is too childish and I should act grow up and act like normal girl and artist)

Sorry if I upset you but the reality is cruel and I should change of something.

This message I send to: @kawaiibunga @janna-the-breaker @sivy-chan-blog @narwals14 @rin-rin-winter @turtlesmakemehappy @angelcatlowyn @nightsoulsworld @angelicdavinci @cowabunga-doll and others

Thank you for everything, I had fun to spend time with a wonderful people, drawing characters and many things in the blog. I will miss you 😢

#it’s time to say goodbye #I will delete it #it’s sad but it’s true #sorry 😢

[aliengirl]

Months ago i created a side blog to be my new cc finds bc the old one was untagged and i was even reblogging things twice and never knew what i left out and dont downloaded

did i use it? No

#im still reblogging things in the old one #BUT I WANNA CHANGE #I WILL DELETE IT #the old one #just let me finish downloading what i just rebloggedkakjs #i wanna taags #i need organization to function #but i cant be neat for the love of god #alien talks

[digglesgiggless]

blog is dead so hope someones here. heya, my name is freesha! and in 2017/18 i did some shitty stuff and u reblogged the callout post on me. that was awhile ago and im lookin to scrub my digital footprint. i was wonderin if you could delete that old reblog? when i look up my username on google i still get those ancient discord screenshots from that callout post and i just cringe. id really appreciate it if youd do this but no forcing ofc :]

i'm personally not really sure what to do about this because i really don't respect you considering what you did, you posed as an adult multiple times and hassled adults sexually, and even minors and were super manipulative towards people that cared about you. i feel like this is far less then "scrubbing an internet footprint" when people were genuinely hurt and traumatized, i HOPE you're a good person now, but i can't even find the post anyhow so i'm not really gonna be able to delete it anyways. and i still don't really trust you especially since we've never met.

you really did some disgusting stuff when you were younger man and if you've changed? then props to you, but i have every reason to feel hesitant even answering this.

#i lied abt my age as a kid #so i know how stupid like #it can be. #like people try to hold the past over my head a lot too #even though im older #but at the same time #i wasnt like #downright......a bad person #who went out of their way to hurt people #i was just a dumb kid #and when i told the truth abt things i accepted the consequences #i never tried to erase what i did. #because i KNOW it was wrong #and im upfront with my followers in telling them the shitty thing i did #you should be too if youve really changed #instead of trying to pretend it never happened #if i find the post though #i will delete it #because i believe in improvement #but you better be serious abt changing man #what you did was horrible. #diggstalks

[mythgirlimagines]

Fuck part of canon, Tsumugi’s restricted. Make her less of boring Mary Sue like Junko.

(Since it's a new day, for those who are just joining us, this is in relation to some other asks about whether or not Tsumugi would be able to cosplay as some of the shorter V3 characters)

#answered ask #anon #headcanons #tsumugi shirogane #danganronpa #ndrv3 #if this reads too much like character hate/discourse #i will delete it #bc i do think it might come across like that #just lmk #swearing

[piratecrew]

doctortoasterbath is a terf :(

:(

#i will delete it #asks #okcomputeroknotok19972017

[dishsaop]

the worst part about being an adult is thay its no longer socially acceptable to just roll down a really big hill and then run back up it and roll back down again. "oh is this a syphilis metaphor" passerby would ask. "is this for a tick tock". no i just wanna come home covered in dirt and scratches and bask in the the solace of childlike mirth

#m text #everyone rbing this without the addition and commenting 'op did you mean sisyphus' yes. yes i did #'where did the discord screenshot reblog go did you delete it' well in the 10mn after posting it someone had a funnier reblog #so i was like oh. ill delete the less funny one i did for the funnier one #and then. guess what got big.

[skrunksthatwunk]

see 0 note flop posts aren't that bad when they're personal but 0 note fandom posts feel literally so bad. like if you don't wanna play toys with me anymore just say that. i'll pack up my super cool awesome things and go and i'll sit on the other side of the playground by myself and i won't even look at you. fuck

#yes i AM thinking about a particular post. no it wasn't that good but still. a moment of heartache for sure #like it feels so bad but im too prou dto delete it and also too lazy

[football-in-tuxedos]

What's distressing, but also important to understand, about JK Rowling hitting the "Denying trans people were targeted in the Holocaust" point is that it's kind of the last stop before she just goes full alt-right weirdo.

Joanne is denying the Holocaust (if a group was targeted, denying they were targeted is Holocaust denial) and that's going to lead to pushback from historians and experts. But Joanne is too deep in to believe what anyone who disagrees with her says, so she's just going to dismiss what those historians and experts tell her. And once she's disbelieving them about that one thing, well it's just a tiny step to start disbelieving them about other things.

This isn't by accident either, transphobic circles are swarming with far right agitators, ready to use hatred of trans people as an in to recruit people into their causes. They have handbooks for this sort of thing and they are, unfortunately, good at it. I suspect Joanne will be spouting coded versions of Great Replacement stuff by the end of the summer.

This is not a plea to try and pull Joanne out. She's too deep in, and even if she wasn't, she's already demonstrated an inability to examine her own prejudices, an unwillingness to hear criticism and a weakness to flattery. She is perfect recruitment bait for people who know what they're doing, and my impression is she's surrounded herself with people like that.

No, this is to understand two things: First is to use her as an example, to understand how a well meaning liberal can chase their own prejudices down a very dark rabbit hole. We are none of us immune to propaganda and even if we can't change what's happened to her, we can at least use it to protect ourselves.

And second is to understand that one of the main reasons you can't pull Joanne out of the transphobic pipeline is cause she is the pipeline now. She is the transphobic banner bearer now, she is funneling money and attention to these groups, she is their most famous celebrity and she is helping recruit people. Being able to show people how far she's gone, how deep into the right wing rabbit hole she's going, is important to help other people who still think she just "Had some concerns" know where her path leads.

#jk rowling #joanne rowling #transphobia #terfs #I'll probably delete this #I just wanted to write it

[nonbinary-arsonists]

I will take that rabbit and give him found family whether he LIKES IT or NOT.

Click for higher quality + alt text :)

#my art #digital art #comic #tadc #tadc fanart #tadc jax #tadc pomni #tadc kinger #tadc ragatha #tadc gangle #tadc zooble #the amazing digital circus #tadc comic #amazing digital circus #pomni #is. is caine in there. technically #ALT TEXT IS SO HARD OMGGGG #i had to write the 4th pages alt text like 4 times bc tumblr kept deleting it

[samgiddings]

@staff @support @engineering @music @books

Have you ever considered this is a really stupid layout to have when there’s no way to easily get your account back if you accidentally hit the wrong button???

#med mumbles #im mad actually what kind of UI is this #top post #I guess 😭😭💀💀💀 #edit: @ing staff doesn’t actually do that much so try filling out a quick feedback form on their site #also #it doesn’t *ALWAYS* ask you for your password #yes it does in some cases but there are situations where if you link it to your email it doesn’t ask!!! #look through the tags and see how many people have accidentally deleted their blogs before you decide to be a smartass

[acorviart]

everyone should attempt an artisan craft at some point in their life because it would cut down the number of comments questioning why handmade goods like ceramics or textile craft or woodworking are so expensive

and this is an unrealistic expectation, but I think the attempt should include seeing through to the end at least one "finished" item, no matter how clumsy or lumpy your first attempts might be. like to me, there's a huge difference in perspective between attempting to learn how to crochet or throw a pot for a few days, acknowledging that it's harder than it looks and giving up, versus committing to finishing that scarf or clay pot you started and working on it for weeks while you painstakingly learn from your mistakes and grow attached to your project while also simultaneously hating it.

once you finish the latter, your perspective changes from "why does this crocheted blanket cost $200" to "holy shit I can't believe they're charging $200 for this crocheted blanket instead of $2000" because you may have known crocheting is hard, you may have easily agreed with the idea that "handmade goods take time and effort" even before attempting a craft, but now you know firsthand the absolute time sink it takes to make things. like yeah dude, that one item took you 2 months to make and probably wasn't even an ultra complex item if it was the first thing you made, now imagine attaching an hourly wage to that time to calculate the cost (and this is ignoring every nuance of the artistic element and master crafters being able to work faster/charge higher because of their years and years of experience)

anyway this rant has been motivated by a comment I saw on someone else's ceramic post asking why a mug was $60 and they understand it's handmade but $60 just seems overpriced, and bro do you know how long ceramics take to make. that mug probably took at minimum 3 weeks between how long it takes to throw the mug, dry partially, trim the mug, dry fully, bisque fire, wait a day for the kiln to cool, sand and paint and glaze, glaze fire, wait a day for the kiln to cool, take product photography of the mug, write description and list the mug online for sale, im not even including the skill needed to complete all these steps without the mug literally exploding or collapsing while also making it an appealing piece of art, aaaaaaaaaaaaa

#$60 is overpriced my ass #if I priced my ceramics by the exact number of hours they took literally no one would buy anything #holding up a plate like oh yeah I started this in uhhhhhhhhhhh august and it finished in december #wrote this intending it to be a rant and delete post but im sending it out into the world

[platyroonism]

but if I'M a traumatized kid and YOU'RE a traumatized kid... who's playing the game!?

#frisk #chara #undertale #i just think the player as some kind of eldritch entity would be sooooo funny. the eldritch god capable of deleting everything #wants to smooch a ghost #also i'm not really a subscriber of 'demon chara' theory/canon #like thematically they DO represent the player or whatever #but also #.... they are just a silly kid :) #who likes chocolate :) #plart

[powdermelonkeg]

Fun fact: We know the size of the Pokémon world because Scarlet and Violet has framerate issues

I'm not answering any more questions

#i watched boundary break and have Feelings and Questions #pokemon sv #*sigh* very close to deleting this. sick of the outdated ver popping up in my notes #wait. i can turn off reblogs can't i