#I’ll hold you all the same

[soulinkpoetry]

Skies don’t fall. They stand there through it all…. they hold thunder the same way they hold the sun.

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#thunder and sun #I’ll be your sky #I’ll hold you all the same #soulinkpoetry #poetry #couples quotes #thoughts #feelings #poets on tumblr #poets corner #writers and poets #through it all

[bruhstation]

you never change, do you

#thomas the tank engine #thomas and friends #casa tidmouth #ttte henry #ttte gordon #3x4 #senjart #I DONT CARE. #I DONT CAAAARRRREEEEEE!!!!!!! #<— he did in fact care. #thinking too hard about this pic makes my head hurt #its okay if you hate me. its okay if you think Im not the same man that you know. its okay if you refuse to change. #I’ll change for you. because thats how things are always like from the very start #Ill listen to all your stories even though you wont listen to mine #maybe thats how you always are gordon. its okay #youre so selfish. so greedy. so childish! but its okay. thats okay. thats why I’m here to take care of you #you dont want to hug me back? hold me? thats fine by me. anything for you gordon #…… #………. WELL #WELLLLLLLL #GOODNIGHT ALL. I NEED TO BE SEDATED

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF SHENKO 1/?

The end of the world has a way of reminding you of all the things you forgot to say do. Mass Effect: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #kaidan alenko #sophie shepard #EDI #shenko #fshenko #mass effect #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #OTP: you're real enough for me #i learned i am physically incapable of creating less than like 20 gifs at a time #but shenko stonks are up right now!! #gif’ing my favorite bisexuals gives me joy 🥹 #even though ME2 is dry as shit for shenko content like it’s literally the sahara desert #like a whole ass 10 minutes max of cutscenes between shep and kaidan like come on #like 2 minutes in the prologue and like 8 minutes of cutscenes on horizon #and then an email and looking at the picture in your cabin before the suicide mission #i'm so sorry y'all ME2 shenko canon is absolute shit (besides kaidan being rightfully angry on horizon) which is why we ✨ignore it✨ 🥰 #but i rant about ME2 VS treatment too much so i will not write another essay about it in the tags #i will say the EDI line isn't the exact quote from the game but i think about it a lot tbf #same with the quote i borrowed from anderson too lmao (which is also a tiny bit paraphrased) #i just love EDI asking shep for relationship advice when you get to follow shep and kaidan's relationship/struggles across 3 games #and anderson's quote about all the things you forgot to do in relation kahlee to is just *chef's kiss* when you think about shenko #like whether it starts in ME1 or ME3 shenko has some really fantastic moments across the series #two characters with strong morals who realize that they're falling in love and literally start to become each other's strength?? #their soft place to land?? their support when they need it?? shenko will always have my heart #also the shenko quotes you get are the most fire thing in the world #you're real enough for me?? you make me feel human?? i want to be your strength- your soft place to land?? shenko you will always be famous #I FORGOT IM GONNA FIGHT LIKE HELL FOR THE CHANCE TO HOLD YOU AGAIN TOO LIKE?? #but i’ll stop ranting now bc i do that wayyy to much in my tags lol. have a good day wherever you are! <3

[clingyduoapologist]

i hate how i kinda like the c!tommy design in comparison to the rest. art is shit bc it’s done by fucking worst man alive but if the butch Hartman c!tommy was drawn by anyone else and didn’t look like he was six years old it’d be like. a decent c!tommy. which is not what you can say about his other designs which are just baffling as fuck. like c!dream having a million pouches and c!wilbur being. like that. he’s the only one who’s design is semi-coherent and i think it’s giving me stockholm syndrome bc of that.

Yeah cuz he copied an actual good design 😭

#idk what the exact search term was but #if you googled something along the lines of like #dsmp tommyinnit or c!tommy or something #the first google search result had basically all the same design elements Hartman used in his #hold on I’ll try to it rq #asks

[tennessoui]

no.stop. not allowed to have anymore titles with water themes in them!!!!! Dammit kit way to difficult to remember which is which now. U stop that. For fucks sake. Use another element. At minimum there's 3 more. LAVA! THUNDER! EARTHQUAKE! anything but tides or waves or

literally this could be a “kit to kit” message because I have thought the same thing I really have

and I spent a lot of time thinking about like. ash and fire and being burned for the hunger games au fic and I liked some of them ok but I just feel like that’s too harsh — anakin does love obi-wan, he’s not just a fire. And having a title centered on ash sort of implies one has been destroyed unwillingly in the passion of the other.

having a title like what the Google doc is currently named (NOT final but 8/10s of the way final) “running through your riptide” implies like “I know you’re dangerous and I know you can kill me. But I’m there. I’m willingly putting myself in your path and I may die for it” which feels more like obikin in hunger games au

#asks #hunger games au #BUT if I can think of a title that isn’t water related I would weigh it unbiased #I’m an Aquarius what can I say I’m the water bearer #drowning you in fics where the titles are indistinguishable #but also I lol’ed for so long at this ask #I literally thought the same thing #another water title come the fuck on kit #thankfully I only have roughly 2k and the first chapter is like 8k probably #and I’ll hold it back until I’m all in one way or another #titles submitted on anon though are automatic no’s because I’m weird about crediting ideas #aka I would want to credit you as the person who came #up with that title if I used it

[samuraisharkie]

that virtualtoybox person literally told me they aren’t reading what I said and then tried to talk to me w about as much in their tags lol. i never understand people that go ‘I’m not reading all of that but you should read what I have to say” bc like. imagine how infuriated ur gonna get when that response is leveled right back at you? and judging by their tags they didn’t read past my very first line. bc they started comparing animals and animal rights to eugenics which is EXACTLY what I was saying is extremely dangerous to do. That’s exactly how people start calling things that happen to animals a ‘Holocaust’ and I’m positive such a statement is made in that book they told me to read. I’m disabled too. I know what I’m talking fucking about too. In the animal section, I for SURE know more than you do! Because if you knew and truly cared about animals and their welfare, you wouldn’t be talking like PETA. Here’s a trick to other disability activists: learn about animal welfare by volunteering on farms and educating yourself on breeders and the industry rather than getting involved in PETA! And another critical trick: NEVER compare animals to people! That’s exactly what the freaks that think any living thing with a deformity that should die are doing. These people would clutch their pearls the moment they hear farms cull undesirable animals bc they can’t afford to keep every single one and have to streamline their breeding and raising to what will help keep the farm running. That doesn’t mean these farmers want to do the same to people, because the animal is NOT a person and doesn’t live like one. Our lives are not even remotely comparable! People like OP are the people that keep a wild bird with an amputated wing alive bc in their mind it would be insinuating all amputees should die if the bird is put down, and next thing the bird is on the Dodo as inspiration porn. Duex Face is an exception to two headed animals, not the rule. Don’t tell me to do my research when you’re spouting talking points from people that have caused more problems for animals as a whole second only to the commercialization of animal industry. Maybe you need some research (field research) instead! They’re going to block me and I’m assuming that’s why I can’t rb the post anymore even if I wanted to (like I said I didn���t want to start a fight so like. I’m not going to be yelling and acting like an asshole. I swore a bit in the tags initially bc I feel very strongly about how animal rights activists have fucked up disability activism by acting like there’s equivalency in our existences, but that’s not targeted. Most was going to respond telling them that if they feel this strongly they need to be reading more about the animal industry rather than relying on people that are in no way experts on animals talking as an authority on them, and using that to tie with their human rights activism as if animals rights and humans rights are even remotely the same in any way. Whatever though at least the tags are there if anyone who cares enough actually reads them and thinks about them. Will most likely just attract militant vegans and ARAs like the op but whatever)

#ableism tw #why are people caring more about animal rights than human rights. acting like an animal has the same existence a human does #why aren’t we instead pointing and making books about the HUMAN eugenics happening right in front of our eyes. #why do we have to talk through fantasized anthropromorphized animals #why do you people have to imagine an animal feels like you do in order for people to care. #to an extent I’m sure there is a level to which you can say ‘yeah this person is ableist’ judging by how they talk about outside subjects #and I agree that the people who want Deux Face put down are ignorant and a few likely are ableist #but treating it like there is ZERO NUANCE and that every person who holds concern for whether the animal is suffering or not is ableist #is ignorant and harmful #this situation is way way more than what op made it out to be and you can already see in the replies how ARAs have latched onto it #to get on their soapbox and declare that anyone that treats animals as anything less than human are ableist eugenists #(while simultaneously disrespecting people that are actually living through those situations aka comparing animal culling to a Holocaust.) #it doesn’t matter if you’re part of the demographic that’s being harmed and you have no problem with it you don’t speak for all of us #and despite being an activist you CAN be misinformed and fueled by bias! #if animals are fur babies with human emotions to you than of course you will prefer the ‘beast of burden’ argument #I’ll check that book out honestly. would be good to know how to refute what OP built their beliefs off of

[majoringinsarcasm]

People hating on a literal child because she doesn’t physically look like a character in a book who we only ever saw in concept art and fanart vs me who was kinda sad when I realized book Percy wasn’t black because the description of a young boy living in New York who’s close with his single mother parent who is constantly seen as stupid troublemaker by both peers and teachers and his moms awful boyfriend and who’s only friend is the only other Outcast (non white) classmate who’s only ally is the literature teacher who then he finds also has doubts about him felt very if not fully black then at least mixed coded.

But then I moved on and enjoyed the story for what it gave me, can some of these people say the same 🤔

#I have not yet watched the show I’ll probably wait for more episodes bc I canceled D+ like two months ago #but idk many of yall are not 12 anymore and saying Leah won’t do a good job or it won’t be as good #we only saw any of these characters in our minds eye #or concept art #im not saying you can’t be disappointed when things aren’t 100% a match bc you want to see a good adaptation of the Book #and I need to do a reread but I would think Annabeth’s whole other shit aka running away cross country at 7 always being nosy and wanting #a quest being ready for battle but learning to have fun too #is more integral to her character ESPECIALLY IN MARK OF ATHENA #the blond hair in the books is a trait from Athena so it’s not a unique hurdle other girls in the cabin wouldn’t also face #it mattered bc she was a main character #But taking the core struggle of not being taken seriously works pretty damn well for any girl but especially black girls AT ALL TIMES #and not to be funny but saying the other characters are already diverse feels like a side step #like look Hazel in her eyes and say not being taken seriously BECAUSE of your HAIR COLOR is on the same level #as not being taken seriously because you’re a black girl #and if this breaches containment #yes the show would have been fine even if a picture perfect accurate cast had been hired #but if we want to move past people being cast bc of how they look vs how they act #you can’t hold the gospel of a book series against literal children who are probably having the time of their life #or would be if grown ass adults were attacking them bc SOMEONE ELSE HITED THEM #if the show is bad it’s not bc Annabeth is black or Percy is blonde #hell in good omens both leads are older in the book they’re described as looking 25 and 30 #can you imagine good omens as it is now with book accurate casting bc I can’t

[waywardstation]

Happy WIP Wednesday! (Which I forgot about until a half hour after midnight ^^;)

Here is a segment from I Won’t Leave You Behind.

This one’s got brief description of inflicted injury for anyone who would rather avoid that.

Enjoy! Wording is apt to change.

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“Well,” Ingo readjusted his position, shifting closer to get a better look at Akari’s Pokédex notes. His finger moved to point at the head of one of Akari’s observational drawings of a gabite, tapping gently on the paper.

“Notice their heads, how their lower jaws are considerably less bulky than their upper ones. While the muscles that open their jaws are surprisingly weak, their downward bite force is incredible. Every muscle in their neck is fashioned to specifically assist with this, resulting in quite a powerful steel trap for a set of jaws.”

Ingo’s finger moved down to the neck of the gabite as he talked, emphasizing his words. Akari found the information to be new and interesting to her, but she didn’t quite understand the reason for the impromptu biology lesson. Not until Ingo sat back, the campfire illuminating his side as he turned his head to her.

“Now, the design of a garchomp’s jaws improve upon this in every way, pushing power to a one-way extreme; practically all of its lower jaw strength is sacrificed for maximum downward bite force. Nothing can force its jaws open once they clamp down.”

Akari glanced up at Ingo as he continued to talk, all prior attention for the Pokédex in her hands now abandoned. The worry in his voice had completely snagged it.

“Miss Akari, I cannot imagine the force behind the bite of an alpha of the species. If we are unfortunate enough to cross tracks with that alpha tomorrow, I cannot stress it enough; above all else, stay away from its front. Do not let it catch you between its teeth. Nothing will ever get those jaws to open once they clamp down, besides the alpha itself. And alphas do not easily deviate from their one-track minds.”

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Rows of jagged sawteeth clamped down hard, easily perforating right through his coat, tunic, and underlayer, puncturing straight through his skin, and settling deep into his muscle - sturdy as a steel trap.

#i won’t leave you behind #I imagine Garchomp have multiple rows of teeth just like sharks #and their jaws work like crocodile jaws #incredible bite force #and impossible to open their mouths once their snap down on something #but the muscles that open their mouths are so weak #you can easily keep their jaws closed with your hands if you hold them shut and they won’t be able to open their jaws again #ALL of the muscles in their neck and designed for locking their jaws shut to keep prey from escaping #and I think that’s terrifying #and powerful #and really cool #and Garchomp and gabite have big heads and thick necks but thin lower jaws #so I wanted to apply the same anatomical feature to them #you cannot open a Garchomp or gabite’s jaws once they clamp down on something #but gible are a different story those guys have the thickest lower jaws around #I think this would be more of an anatomy lesson than a biology lesson but I’ll leave that for revisions to figure that out haha

[nateserenas]

i think i’ve made this post like 15 times but you see the thing is that blair and serena and nate were best friends and they were each other’s home and nate truly loved blair and blair was everything good in the world to serena and serena had been pointedly changing the subject in her mind whenever she felt the small changes that had developed over a long period of time in her feelings for nate like she would just refuse to think about it and nate had been feeling and letting his mind wander and imagine but it was theoretical because he loved blair and they could never hurt blair but then there’s the shepard wedding and they’re both drunk and alive and everything under the surface pushes past they’re blocks and they’re not thinking about blair or consequences or anything they’re just feeling the feelings they’ve buried and then serena runs because she’s just betrayed her best friend the person she loves more than anything else in the world and she can’t face that so she leaves the wedding and then later that night she can’t face herself either so she leaves and she doesn’t talk to blair for a year because she can’t. she can’t face that. she can’t face the hurt she caused the person she loves so much so she ignores it and her. and nate spends the year waiting hoping for serena to come back because now that he’s opened the door in his mind he can’t close it and he doesn’t want to try but serena’s gone and blair’s here and she’s his best friend and he doesn’t want to hurt her for nothing because he loves her so much in whatever way and he doesn’t want her to leave so he lies to her for a year and that lie along with his newfound knowledge that he’s fallen out of love with her causes him to push her away and then blair and suddenly in a night her best friend and the person she loves most in the world leaves and refuses to talk to her and her boyfriend best friend is pulling away and clearly keeping a secret and then her dad leaves and her world keeps blowing up and she’s all alone and she wants to talk to serena more than anything but serena won’t talk to her serena was the first to leave her so she goes on and starts building her empire and clings to the perfect vision of herself and her life and she doesn’t let anybody see that none of it’s perfect because her best friend left and her dad left and while her boyfriend is technically still there the real connection they had is fading away and she’s losing another best friend but she pretends because he’s part of her perfect. and then serena comes back and blair hates serena for leaving her alone she’s so angry she’s so hurt she tries so hard to want serena to keep away but she can’t she doesn’t want that she can’t want that blair was so alone serena being beside her being her best friend was always where she had felt safe and warm and home and blair hadn’t felt that in so long and she wants so badly to feel that way again so even though she’s still angry with serena for taking it away in the first place she misses it more and she after fighting with herself and with serena for a while she lets herself have it and be vulnerable in front of serena and let her back in. and then nate the second he hears serena’s back knows that he wants to risk it all and throw the mapped out life course he’s on down the drain she comes back and he feels more awake than he had felt the whole year she was away and he wants to say fuck consequences and be with her. but serena doesn’t want to fuck consequences. she’s determined to be a good friend and to be a good person and she chooses blair. serena loves blair more than anything and she hates herself for betraying her and she’s determined to be a good friend. and she won’t say fuck consequences with nate. she won’t choose him. and nate who had been happy and hopeful at her return is so hurt by that he spent the year choosing serena by not telling blair anything and then when she tells him that she doesn’t want his choice he in an act somewhat driven a tiny bit by spite and driven a lot

by hurt but also by a fear of losing both of the people he loves most in the world both his best friends he then chooses blair and tells her what happened at the shepard wedding. and blair sure is hurt by nate but like it’s not the most painful part about this by far for a year he’s been lost to her anyway and more representing the perfect golden future she’s determinedly marching towards rather than their once meaningful bond still meaning that much she’s hurt but like that’s overshadowed by other hurts most from or involving serena. involving in that blair has felt second to serena always and now in this too? nate pressed down on her biggest insecurity and she’s angry and hurt. but that’s also not the biggest hurt. because even though she’s always felt second to serena, serena had still always been safety and home and love to blair. and now that’s gone. blair learns that serena betrayed her she did something that would of course hurt blair so much. blair’s best friend in the entire world who she trusted more than anything betrayed her. blair’s alone again. and she’s angry and she’s hurt and lashing out and trying to make serena hurt as badly as she does but nothing she does can compare to the hurt serena caused her but she keeps trying because she hurts so much. she air quotes forgives nate to get back on her perfect future track but she cannot ‘forgive’ serena in that same way because even though they both betrayed her betrayal from serena hurts a million times more. serena betrayed her. it’s not about nate for blair it’s about serena. it’s about the fact that serena was willing to hurt her. that hurts way more than nate’s willingness to hurt her. okay back to nate so he’s ‘trying’ to fix things with blair and blair tells him not to talk to serena and at first he doesn’t want to hurt her so there’s his i needed to talk to her secretly in chuck’s bedroom to tell her that i can’t talk to her moment but then well he sees serena and dan and he sees how much serena has not chosen him (she chose blair) and he’s so so hurt by that so well now driven more by spite and even more by hurt he sticks to his earlier choosing to fix things with blair even harder and again spite and hurt like literally does not speak to serena. and serena’s really hurt by that she’s hurt when she’s learns at brunch that he would consider not speaking to her and she’s really really hurt when he just literally does not speak to her and it’s like serena chose blair and she’s determined to fix things with blair and to do that she needs to not speak to nate but that doesn’t change the fact that it hurts her so so much that he won’t speak to her.

#ok i have more to say really i could go on rambling all day about blairenate betrayal and choosing and love but this is an insane amount of #words but like them needing each other nate hovering over their names when his father goes to prison #and serena going when he needs her even though they aren’t speaking #but pulling away because she loves blair #and blair and serena just six seasons of them holding on and loving each other #but never quite trusting each other #and it’s never the same #but what’s you is me i’ll never let go #is this healthy maybe not but they cling and they never stop saving each other #or hurting each other #also just thanksgiving episode season 1 full stop #blair and serena deciding to spend it together #but then they getting mad at each other and splitting up #and then blair needs serena and serena comes as soon as she gets the call #also nate phone scene he’s alone he needs them it’s broken he can’t call anymore #with the flashbacks them being each others home #anyways this was brought on by me listening to taylor swift exile #there is now a fully plotted blairenaye video in my head #it’s like you were my town now i’m in exile seeing you out #you’re not my homeland anymore #so what am i defending now? #five whole minutes to pack us up and leave me with it #holding all this love out here in the hall #like he’s just your understudy like you’d get your knuckles bloody for me #second third and hundred chances #balancing on breaking branches #you’re not my homeland anymore. #anyways so sorry about this i realise it is incoherent #but i think gossip girls back on my brain going to answer the asks which have been there for months so sorry 😭 #blairenate

[coulrology]

So what's the lore with Juniper n their relationship with Vitimir n Hettie?

WELL for both, their relationships go back to their school days! Although the difference being that Juniper and Hettie went to St. Epiderm together, while Vitimir went to a different school (Glandus at the time he met Juniper).

I’ve briefly touched on how Juniper and Vitimir met here, so that explains their first meeting. To reiterate, Vitimir was a shy kid that didn’t really have any friends growing up (aside from bugs/whatever little creatures they spent their time around) and was bullied frequently, so that single positive interaction with Juniper, though small, really stuck with him and he never forgot it. Juniper didn’t forget it either, but being the sociable type meeting and talking to lots of different people, that moment sorta blended in with the rest of their memories. So fast forward to them both working as Coven Heads at the same time, Vitimir immediately recognizes Juniper. Despite Juniper changing a lot since his child self, that one good memory left such a big impact on Vitimir as a kid that he still held that soft spot for them. So of course, when Juniper eventually approached him on their own time, Vitimir already had this layer of vulnerability. Even though they might not have recognized him, from Vitimir’s perspective, there was that sense of familiarity and comfort; Juniper might have changed, but that kind kid was still in him. Now that they have the chance, Vitimir wants to actually get to know this one person who had plagued so many of their thoughts as a kid. And the rest is history!!

As for Hettie! Again, she and Juniper attended St. Epiderm together. Hettie was just as terrifying as a kid as she is now. She was everything- a jock, a princess, a bully, a weird girl, whatever you can think of. Though she’s very open about who she is, everyone around her was always so intimidated by the fact that she was unpredictable (and the fact that she’s both the smartest AND strongest person you’d ever meet is terrifying enough on its own). Most everyone- except for Juniper. To Juniper, Hettie was always such a character. She’s always been so confident and unapologetic, able to command people’s attention without even saying a word. Her unpredictability made everything she did so interesting. Juniper so deeply admired this about Hettie. And the fact that she’s 100% his type only drew them closer to her. Hettie was Juniper’s first ever crush, and that love Juniper had for her never faded. Though as kids, they weren’t in the same social circles, they did cross paths a lot, whether it was through Sonia (Scooter Crane’s daughter and childhood best friend to Juniper, who was also in the Healing Track), or Juniper getting injured for whatever ridiculous reasons. At this age, Hettie didn’t reciprocate her feelings (yet), but she had a fondness for Juniper because he was so different from the other kids for the fact alone that they had a (very obvious) crush on her. And while their crush may have caused them to do embarrassing things, and foolishly being used as her own guinea pig from time to time to practice her magic on, Hettie had cared about Juniper. To her, he always made life more fun and interesting. Fast forward to them as Coven Heads- Hettie has grown a stronger affection for Juniper. He’s changed over the years, but he still makes life so much more fun and interesting. Perhaps now, Hettie admires Juniper for the same exact reasons they always have her. They’re still a bit pathetic around her, but Hettie finds it endearing. Not to mention, Juniper still makes for a good doll to experiment on, and she takes good care of her favorite dolls ;-)

#ask #juniper jazz #vitimir #hettie cutburn #junimir #medical mirror #I HOPE THIS ANSWERS YOUR QUESTION I tried my best to make it sound coherent and not ramble on about certain things 🙏 #tried to talk about hettie more bc i don’t think I’ve explained much of the medical mirror stuff publicly yet #or. anything tbh 😭😭 #BUT I MEAN I GOTTA GET EVERYONE ON THE SAME PAGE EVENTUALLY SO THIS IS A START 🙏🙏 #I can always expand on anything else if anyone wants me to and is curious :3c #you KNOW how much I love yapping about my stupid peacock I didn’t put all my blood sweat and tears into him for nothin 🫰 #ALSO!! FUN LIL THING I WAS GOING TO MENTION BUT DECIDED NOT TO IN THE END BC IT WOULDVE BEEN TOO MUCH- #long story short lets just say hettie chose to hang out w juniper during the night of a school dance 🤭 #THAT’S ALL I’LL SAY FOR NOW ABOUT THAT i have Art Ideas for that i -really- want to get to one day #okay i gotta stfu now i told myself i was gonna hold back on the yapping 😭😭😭 #OKAY WAIT ONE LAST THING- #idk if anyone actually cares but reminder that I’ve got both junimir and med. mirror playlists if you wanna get a better idea of them!! #theyre not perfect but theyre still fun Okay I’ll shut up for real fr now ✌️

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

I kind of want to try making mead or ambrosia 👀

Obviously not right now because I have Shit To Do; but maybe during the summer after I’ve moved

#alcohol mention #Apparently you can make mead out of honey and I love honey so of course I have to try it #I want to make more food from scratch so I can reduce my plastic consumption #because my ten-year goal is to convert to a completely anticapitalist zero-waste lifestyle #Just for me… I don’t put pressure on anyone to do the same unless they’re well-off and being ridiculous about their consumption #Except for maybe encouraging people to switch to reusable water bottles if they’re in an area where the tap water is potable #(like where I live) #or flaunting my canvas shopping bag that I got for 5 dollars at a hardware store whenever possible #Okay I guess I do push people a little bit #But it’s all reasonable things directed at people I know are physically mentally and financially able to do those things #or I’ll just casually mention microplastics and pollution in conversation as a “fun fact” #But I’m not ridiculous about it with anyone but myself #I hold myself to some weird standards that I don’t hold others to and I’m fine with it #Obviously it’s the corporations’ faults that everything is the way it is and no single person can make a huge difference #But if everyone does one thing to help the planet; then it might buy us some time to change the system #There is also the issue of supply and demand; if more people reduce plastic intake then less plastic will be produced #But again: it’s very hard to be ethical in this society. EVERYTHING enjoyable is packaged in plastic and it sucks #(ok not literally everything but consider: most candy is wrapped in plastic and clothes have plastic tags and chips are in plastic #sushi is in plastic containers and meat is in shrink wrap or styrofoam and most modern chewing gum is a byproduct of vinyl #toys are packaged in plastic etc. etc.)

[frecklystars]

god I really used to love my starlight so much. our anniversary would be — or is in two weeks. and i always feel hopeless and depressed when he enters my mind. I don’t go a day without thinking about my TF F/Os because I had that habit of thinking about them for 3 years straight. now it’s going to be 4 years, 1 whole year of having cptsd attacks and being triggered just looking at this fictional franchise. i used to love them so much. now I wish I never ever knew of their existence, then I never would have met my abuser and none of this would have ever happened to me

I love Barbie and Ken so damn much, but I am never going to love anyone the way I loved my robot F/Os and now they’re gone and my brain marks them as “unsafe” and marks *all* F/Os as “could be potentially unsafe. Barbie and Ken may love you now, but later they might become dangerous. You’ve learned that people you trust and love are going to hurt you and everyone you care about has bad intentions towards you. If it could happen with starscream, whom you loved more than anyone, then it’s gonna happen with Ken/Driver/Six/etc. you loved this F/O unconditionally and someone convinced you that you’re only lovable to them through violence and disrespect of boundaries to the point of feeling stalked. if this could make Starscream feel like a threat to you, when you felt 100% safe and secure with him at all times… well, just about anyone is a threat now. Nobody is ever fully safe for you” so wow it’s almost like I’m traumatized or something

and yet my brain won’t just put TF down and let me forget them entirely, they keep coming into my head and I keep mourning and grieving and crying and stress vomiting and UGH 😭😭😭 I wish I knew a way to heal but I don’t! know! how! And I can’t afford cptsd therapy any more than just once every couple of months so my healing progress with TF feels nonexistent.

and I’m scared I’ll never feel safe with ANY f/os ever again. not just TF. Like … I love Ken so much but I never feel 100% safe with him. or I might have days where I feel safe, but I don’t believe he loves me, I feel like I’m only lovable if I’m someone’s punching bag. god. I miss my old self, I can’t believe it’s been a year. This should have been 4 years of loving STSC but it’s just been a year of mourning everything I’ve ever lost

#stumbled on my old art where he’d say ‘I would never hurt you I love you so much’ #I miss believing that. my god. i miss myself. Jesus where did she go #I miss feeling safe with TF I miss my honeybee I miss my starlight I miss my sunshine I miss my knight #i miss my home. i miss feeling good looking at flower meadows. i miss watching princess movies for my AUs #I miss my red energon necklace … I miss… missing steve #I don’t even miss steve anymore I don’t feel anything at all #sucks I still can’t find the old art I’ve been digging to find lol. but god I drew so much starkeri didn’t I #I just wish I could look at or even think of a character. and not. shake. I’m so jittery and for what? #they used to feel safe and now I look at my old art where they’re holding me #and my brain is like ‘no they’d kill and abuse you etc etc’ #I don’t think I’ll ever feel the same again. i have never had F/Os be so tainted before in my life #I’m so relieved I have ken but I don’t know how long I’ll have him y’know. the hyperfixation I mean. #once I watch all the Ryan movies… that’s kind of it #then what. just go back to crying over STSC 15 times a day #ughhhhhhh #I don’t even know if I love STSC anymore I just fear him. like the love is gone. there’s no love left #it’s just fear and stress and stress vomiting #vent #delete later

[magnus-rhymes-with-swagness]

me when i’m constantly grappling with my own nature and locked in a futile yet never-ending battle with the immutable essence of identity

#gonna put aroallo into my bio. #shouldn’t be a big deal on tumblr (land of the aspecs) but it is To Me #i may seem confident and proud when it comes to being aroallo but in truth ‘tis mostly wishful thinking lol #like i know it’s a beautiful wonderful thing to be and nothing will ever change my mind abt that #but at the same time i have all this like. internalized guilt and shame. bc society hates us lol #crazy how you can hold a strong opinion 100% and yet have frequent thoughts that oppose it because Society #almost no representation. constant societal messages that demonize us. gets tiresome! #the assumptions that some people make about us are awful and i am not a fan of them! #but also i do want to put it in my bio bc it’s important to me #i have a lot of thoughts about this but i’ll save them for another time #anyway doing this on aro visibility day because today feels like the right day for it #deep breath here we go and happy pride 💚💛 #my words #personal

[hella1975]

my mum will say the nastiest rottenest things to me and then she’ll calm down and be like ‘sorry 😝’ and ill move it on bc it’s not worth getting her angry again but inside im like babygirl maybe u have some anger issues maybe

#at one point she was like ‘do you think im mean?’ and I was MAD mad at this point and both of us mad is never good #bc we’re just trying to hurt each other for no other reason than to know we’ve got through to the other #so I was like ‘YES I think you’re mean’ ‘but only when I’m angry’ ‘that doesn’t justify it’ ‘but you agree only when I’m angry’ #and I didn’t know what she was getting at so I was like ‘yeah?’ #THIS BITCH GOES ‘huh I can live with that’ LMAO??? #anyway I moved out of my uni room today and a year ago when I moved IN me and my mum rowed the entire time #and it’s a real sore point for me bc it was her saying how cold I am and that she basically doesn’t like how I’m turning out #(direct quote) #and me saying how her temper ruins everything and she can’t see sense #and low and behold we effectively had THE EXACT SAME ARGUMENT today a year later #‘your lack of empathy astounds me. I despair of you’ (that’s a new one. 11/10 word choice she didn’t need to go so hard with that) #and me going back with ‘I hate you when your angry’ and very dangerously close to ‘your just like your mother’ territory #shits and giggles! #I’ve just had a nap bc we’ve been up since 4am and she came upstairs #and I fully pretended to be asleep bc I know that means she’s come to apologise #which means she’s actually taken a second to BREATHE and stop being so fucking angry #and low and behold it returns all logic and critical thinking skills to her #and I’ll have to forgive her because I do genuinely hate her when she’s angry #and it’s just not worth holding onto so I’ll take an out if she gives it me #but it’s soooo frustrating and unnecessarily upsetting for BOTH of us #and I hate that we still fucking do this and I’ve got a whole summer of it and I can’t just go back to uni now and yeah #live love etc #delete later #don’t reblog

[rosicheeks]

If I were dating you I'd make sure that you get so much love and care so that you feel like a pampered Princess and you can just lay with me and just talk when your feeling down so I can listen to everything that's bothering you 🥰 Maybe late at night I'd also give you treatment that's not very Princess like 😉

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#my monkeyyyyyy 🥰🐒 #honestly sweetie I think you would be the best partner #anyone would be fucking lucky to be yours #you are such a sweetheart with a kind soul #you definitely found the perfect career for you cause you are going to help so many people 💖 #you already make me feel like a pampered princess 🥺🥺🥺 can’t imagine what it would be like to be your gf 🫣🥰 #and then I would do the same for you!! #whenever you’re feeling down I’ll lay you down on my chest and hold you while you talk about what’s on your mind #also also also #I feel like you’d treat me like a princess 24/7 #just at night I’ll put on my tiara while you’re ruining me 😇 #so you can see what it’s like to fuck and destroy a princess 🫣🥰 #uhhhm also the way you say princess makes my heart jump #ok that’s all 🫣🥰 #I’m sorry I haven’t been around lately it’s been a rough week but I can’t wait to talk to you soon #(I can’t thank you enough for being patient with me too you’re amazing 😘) #sending you all my love as always 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 #ask #🐒 anon

[samuraisharkie]

gonna start unfollowing ppl that still follow dyatlovpassingprivilege after he started showing his ass recently. shit made me real uncomfortable. not comfortable with people following ‘tumblr funny guys’ even after they’ve shown themselves to be dumbasses who agree with 4chan bigots

#I was almost gonna rock the boat and post a username that spurred this but I’ll hold back #bc they’re mutuals with my mutuals and interact w a lot of ppl but I don’t feel evil enough for that #sorry the moment they were like ‘megapope was a martyr’ I was blocking LOL megapope was racist and transphobic #the fact that they doubled down even after ppl were like ‘this is weird to say’ #they’re very good at making it seem like they’re the rational one despite being the person that defended some deranged rant #also he’s made some very Weird posts before about atheism and shit #same w pissvortex who has been a raging racist for Years #and ppl are like ‘lol can you imagine being bothered by Discourse’ and keep following as if they’re above it all #ppl just keep calling this shit ‘discourse’ to make it sound stupid that ppl are offended when a popular guy shows some bigotry #emphasis on guy. every single one of these fuckers is a cis man dunking on trans women #and deciding they know what is and isn’t transmisogyny