#I’m coming back folks!

[builder051]

Alphabet Soup— all new q’s!

Send me a letter and I’ll give my opinion on the topic. :)

A is for aloe vera.

B is for beehives.

C is for croutons.

D is for Deadmau5.

E is for elevators.

F is for flunking.

G is for gobbling.

H is for hitmen.

I is for islands.

J is for Joaquin Phoenix.

K is for Kellog’s.

L is for lamentations.

M is for mistakes.

N is for non-participation.

O is for overdose.

P is for penguins.

Q is for quality.

S is for seahorses.

T is for tug boats.

U is for untying.

V is for vaping.

W is for whatever.

X is for x-ray.

Y is for yodeling.

Z is for zebras.

#ask game #ask meme #starbucks sunday #sort of #I’m coming back folks! #but still very easily overwhelmed and unable to stick to schedules #sorry about that #play anyway?

[viperwhispered]

Too Hard

Woop part 2 of the trip inside Jamil's head. Part 1 here.

The next time Jamil caught sight of you on campus, his first instinct was to turn around on his heel.

What a stupid thought to have because of you.

Besides, that would only make him more conspicuous, not less.

So, when your eyes met his, Jamil gave you a short nod in greeting. He would’ve left it at that and kept on his way, had you not walked up to him.

“Hi Jamil! How’s it going?” you said with that impossibly disarming smile of yours.

Why was it so difficult to look at you like he normally would? You had no right to make him feel so stiff, so unnatural.

On autopilot, Jamil exchanged a few pleasantries with you - those lessons from his parents had been instilled too deep in him for him to falter too badly in a simple exchange such as this. Still, Jamil quickly excused himself by telling you he still had to find Kalim before his next class.

Jamil didn’t miss the way your smile faltered. Had you hoped to get something out of him?

“Oh, okay. I’ll see you two later, then.”

Something about that irked him, though Jamil did not allow himself to dwell on it further.

His heart really had no business still racing as it did when he walked away, unaware of the frown on his face.

Just act normal. That’s all he needed to do.

After all, he had no time for dwelling in silly fancies.

If Jamil had been acutely aware of you before, it only seemed to worsen now that he was making a conscious effort to not act any differently with you. In fact, the harder he tried to keep you out, the more you invaded his thoughts, unsettling him.

The most innocuous words from you looped in his mind, and even the simplest actions caught his eye. For goodness's sake, he’d found himself staring at you while you were queueing up in the cafeteria the other day, not even doing anything other than standing around and looking bored!

For once, Jamil found himself grateful for all his duties. At least they provided him with something else to occupy himself with.

After all, if he was busy enough, it was difficult to think about those bright eyes of yours, your sweet laugh, or the way you bit your lip while thinking.

Still, sometimes it felt like no matter which way he turned, you were there, ready to throw him off-kilter. Not like it was his fault that often the most convenient route to class intersected with your daily routines. Or that your face seemed to jump out from any crowd, catching his attention.

Which certainly did not help his basketball performance. Jamil certainly did not recall you having such an interest in sports before, yet suddenly you were always there, distracting him. What had changed?

Could you possibly-

Jamil scoffed to himself, forcing his thoughts back on track for the nth time that day.

He picked up the tray of food and started taking it to Kalim. After dinner, he’d need to help Kalim with his homework, there were some housewarden tasks that would need dealing with, not to mention the preparations for the next-

Jamil froze in his tracks.

The voice he heard was quiet, but it was unmistakably you.

Really, it should not have come as such a surprise to him. You had become a rather frequent visitor to Scarabia, and Kalim often invited you to stay for meals. In fact, Jamil had started planning the dorm’s meal prep with your tastes and dietary restrictions in mind, just in case.

Jamil rounded the corner with strange exhilaration, his heart fluttering needlessly.

Yet, his mood evaporated when he saw you.

Why did you stop talking and look so guilty as soon as you caught sight of Jamil?

Jamil knew that look you gave to Kalim, had used it himself a thousand times. The one telling Kalim to keep quiet about something.

What could there possibly be that you would be comfortable sharing with Kalim, but not with him? That would give Kalim reason to sit so close to you, a comforting hand on your shoulder?

Jamil's mind raced with possibilities, yet could not settle for any single explanation.

He’d have to ask Kalim about it later.

Jamil gave you a short, polite greeting, his eyes lingering on you in an attempt to read what you were hiding.

“If I’d known you were coming over, I would’ve prepared something for you to eat as well,” Jamil said, already thinking about which parts of the dorm’s dinner to spruce up for you.

“Oh, no need, just figured I’d pop by. I’ll get out of your hair soon enough,” you said, something sheepish about your expression.

As expected, Kalim asked you to stay and dine with them, and with just a bit more persuasion you agreed - though not before telling Jamil that he should join you too and have himself a breather.

And since Kalim agreed with you, Jamil soon found himself sharing a meal with you and Kalim. Yet, even as he sat down with the food, his mind raced.

Had you been getting particularly close to Kalim lately? But surely Jamil would’ve noticed such a thing. Maybe someone from the dorm had been giving you trouble? But if that was the case, then surely you could let Jamil know about it, too. Unless for some reason you did not want to? But if it was something that concerned Kalim, then sooner or later it was bound to concern Jamil, too.

All the while, Kalim was talking to you about this and that, the latest topic being the animals kept on the Asim estate.

“I’ve got some pictures, let me show you!” Kalim said with an excited grin.

Only, a thorough patting of his pockets and a look around confirmed that Kalim’s phone was nowhere to be seen.

Jamil pinched the bridge of his nose. Where had Kalim left it this time?

Before Jamil even had the chance to say that he would handle it, Kalim sprinted off. Jamil hesitated for a moment, automatically halfway up from his seat, before he decided that leaving a guest unattended would be a worse offense than not helping out his master.

Jamil slumped back down with a sigh, mentally tracing the path Kalim took today, trying to recall the last time he saw Kalim handle his phone.

“Breathe. He’ll manage,” you said. There was the faintest of smiles on your lips, and Jamil could not decide if it was knowing or amused. Perhaps both.

Somehow, despite his frustration, Jamil’s own lips wanted to curl up too.

“Hmm. Maybe he will.”

Sure, Jamil could’ve called Kalim’s phone, to make it easier to find, but it was not that urgent, was it?

Jamil took another bite of his food, keeping an eye on you from the corner of his eye.

How was his mind so empty and so buzzing at the same time?

“You know-”

“So-”

You looked at each other, both just as surprised that the other had spoken up at the same time.

Even your surprised look was so-

“You first,” Jamil said. The way you bit your lip... Jamil had to raise a cup to his lips, slowly sipping his drink.

“Just… Feels like it’s been quite a while since I’ve seen you be still, you know. Or exchanged more than two words with you,” you said. You were attempting a light, joking tone, yet it was quite clear there was more to it.

“You say that like it would be unusual for me to be busy.”

He was not prepared for the way your soft sigh tugged at his heartstrings.

“No. It is not.”

You were both quiet after, poking at your meals. Normally, Jamil would’ve cherished such a moment of peace, yet this particular silence between you two was decidedly awkward.

Where was your usual chatter? Why weren’t you looking at him like you usually did?

“If you’re worried about me, don’t. I’m fine,” Jamil said, some softness creeping into his tone despite his best intentions.

“That's what Kalim said too,” you said. Yet the way you looked at Jamil made it clear you were still skeptical.

Wait.

Had you clammed up earlier because it had been Jamil you had been talking about with Kalim? That Kalim had comforted you about?

The thought twisted his stomach into knots.

Eta: you can find part 3 here, and part 4 here. Hasdhfsdf the way I fought with that last scene I swear. I don't even want to know how many versions I went through, trying to figure out how to say what I wanted without rubbing it into your face or making it too veiled. The joys of trying to convey things through a limited pov. Hopefully it came out reasonably balanced in the end. Rip to all those sentences that were lovely on their own but didn’t work for the whole. Hopefully I can rehome y’all one day. I do have thoughts for part 3 and part x (might be some chapters between those two as well, who knows at this point), so maybe we'll see those at some point, too. Tag list: @colliope @crystallizsch @diodellet @jamilsimpno69 @jamilvapologist @twstgo If you'd like to be tagged for future works, let me know! (Just be aware that sometimes I do also write nsfw, though you can certainly ask to be tagged only for particular kinds of works.)

#twisted wonderland #jamil viper #twisted wonderland x reader #jamil viper x reader #ner writes #jamil definitely knows how to deal with his feels #also writing this is making me wonder how aware jamil is of his inner versus outer life #like he’s very aware of how he comes across because that’s what he’s been told to watch out for #but how well has he truly learned to understand himself and his own feelings wants etc? #(I mean as you can tell I’m assuming not very well) #originally this went to more of a “jamil hears just the wrong part of the conversation” route but #a) I kinda hate that trope especially when it’s dragged on beyond belief and #b) Kalim maybe doesn’t want to spill anyone’s secrets but he really is such an open book especially with Jamil so #also it’s not like jamil needs the extra help to catastrophize he already does that well enough on his own 🙃 #tho then I went a little too far in the other direction and had to pull back #but let's just hope I didn't edit this to death by now #also also: since I seem to have a bit of a naming theme going on for this series #if I were to be the sort to go for the angst route what part would definitely be titled Too Late or something along those lines #also x3 but loved folks commenting on that part about reader being inoffensive in the first part #I certainly had fun writing that line #(and in general extra love to everyone who leaves comments on tags replies wherever always great to read those) #(and in general chat with y'all)

[loghainmactirs-archive]

helloooo beloved moots 🫶🏻

I’ve decided my hiatus will actually most likely be indefinite and that I may delete in the new year (I’ll remake end of next, maybe 😊). If you wanna keep in touch then this is my Discord (although I have been locked out of my account for a few days, so requests might take a bit to accept) and this is my Steam. Big love to you all and I hope to see you on my other socials <3

#just getting soooo tired of this webbed site and some of the people on it. I come here for cute gifs/friends and all I see are— #—folks that got bullied in high school deciding they want their turn at starting drama and being mean girls. Idk it’s pathetic lowkey and— #—I’m kinda over being here lmaooo #+ just wanna focus on work/maybe going back to studying/real life hobbies/escaping scroll holes #pinned

[terrificblanket]

Me @ the silly little puppet show that has the potential to ruin my life

#TOMORROW FOLKS #I’m begging you for the Professor to come back #I don’t know what I’ll do without him #watcher #shane madej #ryan begara #puppet history #the professor

[jemgirl86]

Scrolled SamBucky ao3 the other day for the first time in a hot minute, instead of just relying on email notifications from (and/or the archives of) my favorite authors, and whew chile lol. You know, I could write an essay about the SamBucky tag on there… and I could devote half of it to the way irreparable damage was done to an already… unpredictable place, during two months in 2021, but, well never mind lol

#i’m so f’ing judgey lol because we all claim to love sam but damned if it don’t seem like some of y’all hate that man #sambucky ao3 is like the young and the restless #you can take a six month break from it and come back and ain’t shit changed 😭😭 #you cannot convince that some folks only like sam when he’s being humbled or tortured smh #scrolling by kudos was always not the best option in that tag but now it’s a mess!

[casualhedonists]

DATING IS SO HARD WTF

#vent to follow in the tags lmao #like. what???? #people!!! chill the fuck out!! #i had some dude unmatch with me bc i didn’t respond to him YESTERDAY #and like it’s not that big of a deal we’d only just matched but like?? patience is a fucking virtue?? and i have a life? #he was all like come back :((( then two minutes later he was like ok sorry for bothering you bye and then LEFT #like. fine if you do that but the message?? what?? #anyway it came at a bad time bc. a bitch is already in crisis rn #cause i kinda feel like my irl friends hate me for some reason and i already feel bad that i’ve been so busy i’ve not been able to #talk to them that much #and i was supposed to go on a trip with my friend but that’s been postponed (not her fault or mine) #and my car still won’t start. we tried to jump it today and it didn’t do anything #anyway i’m like rapid cycling through major emotions and it’s like mimi chill the fuck out #and listening to way too much phoebe bridgers i know the end #also i’m in crisis bc i’ve made up with like. my oldest friend who used to have a crush on me and when i told him i preferred girls he like #stopped talking to me for a while #that was years ago and now we’re slowly becoming friends again but i feel so much guilt over it for no reason #and i get into avoidant episodes as a coping mechanism and like. i feel like im going into one atp #okay okay vent over im okay lmaoo #sorry folks hope your days going better than mine <3 #｡･:*˚:✧｡ mimi speaks!

[tariah23]

Now he’s trying to lie when he literally tagged Princeton like 5 fucking time. White people are so evil, bro. They always know what they’re doing when they do shit like that. With the attempt to bring harm to Black people who they want to “get out of the way,” because they don’t think that we belong in the same spaces as them while at the same time, believing they should be allowed INTO our spaces and afforded hospitality and a whole red carpet rolled out. The sad thing is, she has connections to the industry because of her uncle and name so what if this was just a random Black woman who worked for Princeton without this kind of protection at all…?

#I’m glad that she’s alright though #why is he trying to dumb down what he intended by saying that ‘she was trolling so I trolled back’ like she like many other black people #are always dead serious when we tell whites and nbs to stay out of black folks business #simply put #he just got offended since a black woman told him to stay in his own lane #he dumb ass didn’t even know who she was even though he’d interviewed her family multiple times before #a Russian making millions off of black culture what a joke #black people gotta be tired of being used #one day man #the sad thing is of course black men hate black women sm that they were defending vlad on his behalf (not surprised lol) #and I saw other black women being pick me’s going on about ‘what makes her SO much more special than other black people-‘ like are you…. #do you bitches have rocks for brains or… these same people are the reasons why nbs and whites will always feel comfortable coming into our #shit and wrecking the place you guys don’t stand for anything and you allow others to trample over your own people #stand up one day #the sad thing is #ppl are still gonna go onto his platform to allow him to interview them and make money off of their name #this is one of the first times that I’ve seen black people really get in vlad’s ass though because what he tried to do to this black woman #was absolutely vile and this is the kind of shit that gets black people killed and put into bad positions #fucking loser #rambling

[sandinthepipes]

Does the flag REALLY means death once again? Can’t it mean something else for just once? Why is the flag denied a fairytale ending even this time?

#I’m grieving guys #I mean today my mental health wasn’t strong to begin with #this was the nail in the coffin #bye I’m gonna go drown myself in herbal tea and no comfort show because I don’t have one anymore #I’m not coping well friends #I come from 10 days of high where nothing bad was happening and all the while I was dreading the happiness #becasue well you’re all as mentally ill as I am you know the dread of feeling happy #here we are folks depression’s holidays are over she’s back at work and she takes it very seriously #also my trust issues are being triggered by a stupid fucking show #I need a break and I’d like it to last longer than 10 days every 5 years #I digressed into a monologue of self pity brb I need to call my therapist #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #our flag means death s2

[rainbowsans]

ur valid to dislike what u dislike but lumping selfcest in w like... incest and underaged content is just kinda insulting to anybody who has been thru those things. couldn't imagine being an incest survivor and getting told ur selfcest ship (harmless, cannot be replicated irl in any way, is not incest) is equally as bad as, ykno, an irl traumatic experience u had. like if u think selfcest is problematic enough to be put in the same category as incest and the sexual exploitation of children, u need to consider how u express that and also maybe log off of tumblr for a while. say it makes u uncomfy n u avoid it, super fair, but the way u treat it is downright insulting to ppl who have gone thru actual real tangible trauma. selfcest isn't real- I can tell u have a stance on it by ur language but maybe reconsider, there's a reason the stance is unpopular

I was sexually assaulted when I was in elementary, I was molested by my cousins, twice. groped by my own uncles, when I was a CHILD.

insulting to people who’d gone through those things?

IVE BEEN THROUGH THOSE THINGS. HOW FUCKING DARE YOU.

also, also; here’s the thing.

that rule I have with Selfcest? is for MY personal boundary. I don’t LIKE it, I want people to be aware when they ask ME or come to ME that I prefer to stay away from it. people don’t read my rules so I have to remind them in the “nicest” way possible.

I’m not “insulting” anyone by having that rule, it makes me uncomfortable so I want to avoid it the best I can and I want people to be aware of it, in case they think about wanting to send me stuff involving it:

If people are “insulted” with me gently reminding people when I GET ASKED that “hey, I don’t like this thing so please remember that I won’t draw or do anything with it!” then that’s THEIR problem, not mine.

I am setting my damn boundaries and I won’t be told, again, that I’m the one that’s being MEAN or INSULTING for it.

This is my blog, my art, and I get to set down my rules and boundaries, that’s all.

I put it next to those things because it’s so normalized in the fandom, and whatever, I just want others to know that if they are expecting that stuff in my blog? it’s not there, nor is it welcomed. Period.

and guess what? IVE SAID COUNTLESS TIMES THAT I AM UNCOMFORTABLE WITH IT AND AVOUD IT, BLACKLIST IT, and guess what? I STILL have people keep pressuring and demanding that shit to the point where I see it constantly in my inbox.

I HAVE TO GUIDE THEM TO MY RULES, I’m not going to be a damn pushover, I’m not gonna feel like my rules are “mean”, they are there for ME to set boundaries and have a comfortable experience here or ANYONE who feels the same way.

GOD.

#txt #you must be new here because THIS? isn’t the first time someone send me shit like this #I can’t believe this. ‘it’s insulting to victims-‘ I AM ONE OF THEM HELLO? #the undertale fandom is something comforting to me and I’ve done my damn hardest to make a space for myself where I’m comfortable #and it gets draining and tiring when people invade that space for myself that I created to want me to draw that shit #Ive said it OVER AND OVER since back in 2018-19 #that I wanna avoid those pairings #do people listen? no #i tried being nice and avoid it but it’s become so normalized that it’s just expected #i made my blog for folks who wanna have a comforting experience away from that stuff. a funny goofy place in the fandom #and yet I’m always being told I should ‘CONSIDER other people who like it. THEIR feelings’ #or how I’m being so mean and unreasonable with my rules #it’s guilt trippy #just because ‘Selfcest’ can’t happen irl DOESNT MEAN I have to like it for christs sake #come on….I’m staying in MY LANE #and I’m asking people to please. PLEASE just move on from my blog or just block me. I’m tired man #anyways I’m done for now #// sa mention #// Selfcest mention #// incest mention #i can’t believe how guilt trippy this sounds to someone who’s also a victim…god

[cinewhore]

I just wanted to enjoy my eggs and toast this morning.

Instead, i get a book length email personally tailored to me from a man who is upset his film didn’t get selected for the festival i work for and he think it’s my fault as I am the programming coordinator. Never mind the fact that it’s not in my job description - i don’t have the personal last say in anything lol

Here’s my favorite passages and mind y’all, it’s not even close to all the other stuff he wrote:

“I have looked through your experience and frankly do not see the appropriate accolades to hold such a position, other than your social queerness. Your words not mine”

“Your accolades include a B.A. in visual anthropology but it’s obvious does not know film history” (he can’t fucking spell and his grammar is atrocious)

“And how, (my name) was selected as programming coordinator for a major US film festival and given the ability to control the fate of blood, sweat and tears made films?” (Which is false as fuck sir that’s not my job lmao)

“If you’d like to discuss anthropology, please allow me.” & “i have personally spent my entire life studying visual anthropology”

He went through my website and pulled information about me, attempted to use that as a way to discredit me and the job title i hold, and basically said I’m unfit and not qualified to do the work that i do.

A white man trying to tear down a black woman and mansplain her job to her.

#like #it’s Monday beloved #I’m not upset I’m rather amused #but I’m so tired of this shit lol #if your ego is that bruised that you got rejected from one festival maybe you should rethink your career #and folks who do this kick themselves in the ass because this will come back to bite you #normally I’d read and just go on about things #but I’ve got all the time in the world #and there’s nothing worse than pissing off someone who has unlimited access to the internet and time to waste #now that’s what i call blogging

[chlothequeen]

Okay but I’m so excited because like, if the next chapter deals with Neo, she isn’t going to be an issue anymore. Whether she comes to her senses about revenge or realizes she does not want to deal with Ruby when she isn’t holding back. And at a certain point, the Ever After is going to pick Ruby up and say “the only problems to solve right now are your own.”

#rwby #rwby spoilers #rwby9 #ruby rose #there’s also option three being that they go full SU Future and have Ruby kill her but I’m not sure how likely that is #nor do I think it would help her unless Neo were to come back due to ascension somehow and get redeemed through that #but we still really don’t know how it works or if it works on Remnant folk

[thefcmilymcn]

Howdy y’all I’m not dead I’m just a man now isn’t that rad

#yeah #so anyways howdy folks #I hope you all are doing well #I’ve genuinely missed this account. like no joke #maes has always been insanely important to me so I’ve missed writing him and working with him #I’m old and tired #and I’m a dude YALL who would have guessed #probably everybody #not a real shocker #yeah I go by he/him now! so cool #I probably won’t really use this account again ( can’t say no as a guarantee but it’s highly unlikely ) #yet hopefully #I can reconnect with some people I haven’t heard from in a long time #I’m also a very tired loon and not to say I’ll be choosy with who I welcome in fully but I take care of myself a lot more now #than I did in the past #I genuinely hope you all are doing alright. it’s seriously weird being back on here #I had a lot of wacky shit push me off of here in my life at the time and I was scared to come back #Y’know all that jazz #but I’ve missed him. #anyways prod me for a discord if you have one please #ooc #suddenlytrans #ALSO YALL TLOU SHOW IS FANTASTIC #thefcmilymcn

[badolmen]

Happy fiber optic Friday everyone :]

#ra speaks #personal #four more hours….I am slowly going insane. #I feel bad for the folk on the opposite side of the building it’s gonna be so dark #one the few instances where I’m lucky to have a west-side window in this brick box #when will my electricity and hot water come back from the war…. #see when I get into this bored anxious funk I usually shower to remember how to Human and I cannot do that so.

[o-wild-west-wind]

warning to all who will be partying for the ofmd holiday: do NOT overdo it on the rum. you will spend all day in your depression robe & sulking in a blanket fort. you may be cozy but you will forget how words work and lucius will not be available as your scribe. marmalade is only marginally effective for a hangover.

cheers m’dears 🫡

#made this mistake last night for my s1 marathon watch party and I’m only now remembering how to exist #on the plus side the last of my irl friends has been indoctrinated so…peer pressure works folks #but tomorrow I think s2 will be a powerful enough drug on its own #anyway gonna log off the internet soon and I’m only mildly afraid of coming back as the donald glover pizza meme #ofmd #our flag means death

[catgirlknighted]

Trying to help a friend with a project, but damn do some of you tempt me with your looks! 👄

#it’s sir I’m helping sir with a thing lmao so you know it’s dedication! #feel free to tempt me more in my DMs moots only for that so that way I have something nice to come back to after~ #only if you want thou! whatever you hot lovely folks are comfortable with! #rose.txt

[mutalune]

one of the funniest things about star wars fic is that you can very clearly tell when an author has no clue what meditation actually is

#starlight fandom #star wars fic #I’m no expert on meditation-mindfulness don’t get me wrong I don’t know a thing #but I do know that I giggle every time a fic goes ‘oh no they’re cut off from the force they can’t meditate!!! all of their emotions will - #explode and they’re going to LOSE IT!!!!’ like guys I have great news actually you don’t need the force to meditate #you also don’t immediately lose your ability to be a rational person just because you can’t meditate #I promise that the Jedi are not 4 missed meditations away from becoming sith #also again don’t get me wrong I love a good ‘calm Jedi goes apeshit’ plotline I love watching these monks lose it in fic #I just also think that meditation is easier and less dramatic than some folks think #this is also coming from me who has meditates daily for 2 weeks and then forgets and doesn’t for 2 months and then comes back for 2 weeks #in an endless loop #so like take it with a grain of salt #but also the Jedi are right meditating is good for you mindfulness is good for you connecting with your soul is good for you #I’m working on being a daily practitioner and it is v nice to be on a fixation where my fave characters ALSO do the habit I’m working on #me: idk I’m feeling pretty bleh I don’t want to meditate today #me remembering that obi wan kenobi meditates and catapulting myself to my meditation corner: nvm i gotta emulate