#I’ve also considered maybe I’m just a bad actor and I’m not cut out for any of this. yk?

[rubysparx]

Hm.. having a lot of thoughts 2nite. Half asleep as I type tbh. Remembered I wanted to look into something quite literally “how to not feel bad when ur rpg character feels bad” apparently there’s a whole term for when ur character’s emotions affect your own. Character bleed/roleplay bleed or most commonly just “bleed” apparently originally from the larp community but applicable to any manner of rpg.

Thinking abt like . If being a definitely mentally ill person is just effecting the way I am… Affected by bleed- or if like. Nobody’s talking about the issue I had (slash still sometimes have).

I see a lot of talking about romantic bleed, or anger bleed. Yk like “step back and reevaluate how you feel about your fellow player” but like . Brother what if it’s just me. Like what if it’s totally internal. Brother what about depressive bleed. What happens when I’m playing a motherfucker who’s Fucked Up and shit is Getting Worse for her. What happens when every ending is bad and this bitch just keeps getting worse mentally, like what then. I mean I’m better now, I haven’t legitimately roleplayed in ages (mostly due to that experience) but I don’t wanna just. Never roleplay again. So how do I stop that from happening again?

#I’ve talked abt it b4 #and some people have said I just had a shitty narrator/gamemaster #but like idk I feel like a gm should have the liberty of writing a story with only bad endings #some really edgy shit #I mean maybe we shoulda talked about it more #but also!!! #I wanna have the liberty to play a really edgy and fucked up character! #I wanna be able to have a character who is massively depressed or some flavor of. #and like . not feel that personally in my heart and soul. augh #I’ve also considered maybe I’m just a bad actor and I’m not cut out for any of this. yk? #like maybe I’m just incapable #but that’s sad :( #I like rp I wanna b able to do it without destroying myself

[slugtranslation-hypmic]

would you ever consider translating sasara and rosho’s new duet? i’m sure it would be a real undertaking what with all the manzai, but i’ve always loved your style of localizing jokes! hope you’re having a great day!

You're very kind. Just for you, anon, I'll brave the horror of Dotsuhon lyrics translation. Under a cut for length. This post is so long Tumblr won't save all of it, so it'll have to be done in two goes.

Notes about style: No attempt to preserve rhyme or rhythm. Likewise, no attempt to match the vocal tone/line delivery/line length of the voice actors. (Ie, I'm not writing subtitles, so it might sound odd if you try to listen to the song at the same time as reading this.) The primary focus is on written tone, including wordplay, so strict adherence to literal meaning is not observed. In particular, since this is supposed to sound like a (radio?) comedy sketch, I'm trying to write it with the generally jocular tone such a performance would have in English. Some notes on jokes to follow for those curious. Sasara and Roshou: Hey, folks! Sasara: You're listening to the one and only Dotsuitare Hompo from Osaka. Roshou: Thanks for having us tonight! Sasara: We're Sasara Nurude and... Roshou: ...Roshou Tsutstujimori. Sasara: We usually have a third guy with us, our older buddy Rei Amayado, but he wasn't able to make it for some reason or another. So, you're stuck with the two of us today. Roshou: Sorry, sorry, and thanks again for having us. Sasara: Anyway, things sure are tough out there these days, huh? Roshou: You're telling me. Sasara: So I'd like to get on the mic and say a couple of jokes, cheer folks up a little bit in this whole mess. Roshou: You? You're the biggest mess there is. [1] But you're right. All anyone needs is a good, hot meal and a couple of laughs, and they're set. Sasara: Yeah! A good, hot banquet or three and a personal comedian. All a person needs in life! Roshou: A tad more expensive than I'd intended, but sure. Sasara: And then if you get a good night's sleep with a warm futon riiiight on the floor, then you're in heaven! Roshou: Wait, hold on. You'll catch a cold sleeping like that! You need a quilt or something at least. Sasara: But then what if I overheat? I'd rather quilt while I'm in bed. Roshou: ...Wait, you messed that up. It's supposed to be "quilt while I'm ah--" whatever, let's move on. [2] [Chorus] Sasara and Roshou: We'll keep our chins up and get through this bad time. And we'll set the whole city laughing until even Tsuutenkaku cracks up. [3] Sasara: Don't worry, everybody. I know things are pretty turbulent right now, but it won't last forever. And hey, at least the state of the world right now is like okonomiyaki, and we all know how much I love that! [4] Roshou: In what sense? Sasara: It keeps getting flipped upside down! [5] Roshou: Oh my god, Sasara. Well, at times like this, it never hurts to have seafood... Sasara: I see food, I eat it! Roshou: ...or anything fried... Sasara: After all this chaos, I know I'm fried. Roshou: ...not to mention smothered in sauce. Sasara: You getting saucy with me, mister? [6] But now you're talking my language! And also, the other day I sewed a--wait, did someone say soda? [7] Roshou: Yes, yes, we all know you love cream soda, but you don't need to bring it into every conversation! Sasara: OK(nomiyaki), that's fair. [8] Roshou: Same goes for okonomiyaki! Sasara: Geez, Roshou, what's your problem? Work with me here; commit to the bit. Roshou: Bit of what? [9] Sasara: The routine! That's my motto: always commit to the bit. Roshou: Well, maybe you'd finally get somewhere in life if you tried committing to the whole thing. [10] Sasara: Hey, low blow. We don't all come with your level of ginger. Roshou: No, but you know what does? Okonomiyaki! [11]

#dotsuitare hompo #hypmic translations #hypmic asks

[1moreoffkeyanthem]

Will I be projecting this into a South Park fanfiction at some point probably very sorry in advance to either Kyle or maybe Tweek but tbh I gotta rant real quick about my supremely awful day

(Cut for both severe anxiety and possible eating problem triggers)

So like I act and stuff right. Low budget independent shorts, projects for the local film school, things of that nature. And I had a shoot today for a class that’s essentially focused on filming an 8 page script in 12 hours, teaches the students professionalism, all that.

I woke up anxious for reasons I couldn’t pinpoint, wore Kyle socks under my costume for powers, figured I’d be okay once I got into the swing of the shoot. I was not. There was this chunk of very specific scientific dialogue that I just COULD NOT get to come out in the right order, and what did my bitch ass brain do? Fucking spiraled with it. Which made talking harder, which made the “YOURE A FAILURE YOURE A FAILURE” internal dialogue worse, and it continued. And I had a goddamn panic attack on the soundstage.

I wound up shaking in the green room literally crying, someone had to go get my husband from the editing suite because they didn’t know what to do, I could HEAR the professor talking to his class about “when talent has emotional problems during production it’s important not to let them know they’re holding up the shoot”, and the worst part? This was less than an hour before we broke for lunch.

And I’ve vagued about this before, but I’m a recovered anorexic. About five years ago, I did the whole outpatient thing or whatever, was in therapy for a while for it, almost had to drop out of college for it, all that shit, and for the most part I consider myself to be fine now. But that mentality pops up every once in a while, and that shit is AWFUL.

The AD called for lunch, and my first fucking thought was “you don’t fucking deserve to eat you worthless piece of garbage”, and like NO BRUH TF?!? Having a goddamn stroke on set is literally no reason to punish yourself, like if anyone else was having a gnarly anxiety day I would absolutely be encouraging them to take it easy on themselves, hydrate and eat, whatever they need, so how fucked up is it that I couldn’t do that for myself. I did wind up having a slice of the college film student set staple that is little cesars cardboard ass pizza bc Opposite Actions, but it was a huge mental struggle.

It’s definitely worth noting that NO ONE was nasty to me about my breakdown, at least not to my face, even though I was completely fucked in the head afterwards for the remainder of the shoot. I’ve worked with a lot of these people before, they know me and know it was just a bad day, and one of the girls I worked art department with on a previous feature was script supervisor for this one, and she came into the green room and sat with me, stopped me from biting at my fingertips because I hadn’t realized I was making myself bleed, kept me from hyperventilating until my partner got there. The director got with his team to work out what footage they could get until I was more steady. The AD checked in constantly for the rest of the shoot. The other actor was incredibly sweet and shared anecdotes from his stage acting days to cheer me up whenever I’d get anxious over a missed word in a take. No one was a dick to me. At all.

Except myself.

I don’t like to consider myself mentally ill, despite the fact that I know there’s no shame in it; I’m diagnosed with anxiety and depression, plus the whole eating disorder thing, obsessive compulsive disorder, I’ve been told I should get evaluated for autism (tbh yeah probably) like yall I’m a fucking disaster. But no one, NO ONE will ever be as hard on me as I am on myself. Also, it was a student production the Friday before spring break. They cut shots and wrapped early because nobody wanted to be there.

If you can step back and put shit In perspective, it helps. Unfortunately I’m very bad at that.

Very sorry for the rant being a person is fucking stupid but at the end of the day I love helping people tell the stories they want to tell and also wearing south park socks under my 1950s scientist costume.

#anyway back to the regularly scheduled pce being feral abt her favorite boys #my day sucked fucking ass and now I’m going to try and find style whump that I haven’t read yet #I’m a walking disaster #it’s fine #I will almost certainly not find any #personal #very sorry to anyone who reads this that may be triggered by both Ed thoughts and anxiety that’s not my intention #also shoutout to the boom op who gave a Tylenol and said *ARE YOU A FUCKING SNAKE* when I draw swallowed them

[all-about-the-tea-parties]

House of the Dragon Episode One thoughts as I watch:

I really like the two young girls so far they’ve been captivating and Matt Smith is promising as a creepy grooming uncle

Not sure I enjoy the… visuals?? It’s kind of uncanny valley. It both feels too real (because I can tell it’s a set) and not real enough (because I can tell it’s a set). Nothing wrong with the sets in question, just… disappointingly obvious. GoT had sets too (alongside a plethora of locations which gave it a valuable realism) but all the sets in Game of Thrones weren’t overly noticeable which meant they felt beautifully rich in terms of world building.

Also don’t like the editing style. Early GoT was frugal w/ editing. The dialogue took centre stage and actors were allowed to command a scene from beginning until end (unless there was a poignant reaction). So far the editing feels sporadic and unintentional. And certain camera shots feel a tad ambitious for no particular reason, which makes it seem indulgent. It’s all a little distracting.

The dialogue is actually good! Not word play levels that I expect, but contextually there isn’t much need yet. Not much politicking happening because there’s no real “enemy” whereas in GoT the enemy was everyone, so much politicking all the time. The dialogue, though clever, is very upfront (because the targs are unquestionable in their power). So it’s good. No need to distract ppl with so many cuts and weird shots.

Maybe they’re trying to distract from the sets?

It just feels a bit… modern? Staged?

A quick question: idk if it’s my tv or not, but like is the frame sped up? On my tv it all feels s little too fast in movement (sometimes tv offers a “hyper realism” thing and that might be messing w/ my experience)

There’s def a lack of proper intrigue. But I know that’s to come, so it’s fine.

Really it’s the visual part that bothers me.

Not sure I enjoy seeing Matt smith in a sex scene but alright

The girls are the best part for sure, and I know they’re the point of it all, so I do hope the writers aren’t sacrificing the intrigue of other characters for them.

Like imagine game of thrones if D&D framed Jon Snow as the main character from the beginning. It’d be boring af

I like seeing my guy from outlander here tho. Not enough variety in accents in fantasy and I appreciate it here.

NOT THE HORSE

I HATE JOUSTS

NO MORE HORSE ABUSE

Is it ok? It’s ok?

I wanna be grossed out by siblings being in love but like considering the family they’re in, it’s probably at warped attempt at normalcy. Like at least they were married to each other and not an aunt/uncle (or PARENT)

Ugh the “impossible choice” fucking starting to see this trend in film where men are shown to have to decide women’s lives during childbirth (obviously at sn attempt to humanise them and make them good “but in a bad position”) like honestly it’s the new “turning your wife’s death/trauma into your own for a plot point” like spareeee me the angst most men HISTORICALLY had no issue killing their wives

Oh fuck me he’s gonna kill her

Never mind he’s a bad person

Never mind it was gruesome

They didn’t frame it as a difficult choice or like “he didn’t have any other option” or “he’s still good actually because we cut away from it all”

Holy shit MAJOR trigger warning for a torture scene

Like sure yeah maybe they were both gonna die but the doctor clearly didn’t give af about the queen so I doubt there’s was much investigation for a better option (that saves her)

Wait so he has a son now

Oh the baby’s gone

I LOVE how Valyrian sounds 200 years before Dany

The rolllls

Small touch I really enjoy? The fires give off so much smoke and I’ve never seen it before in a show. Do they normally cgi it away?

Not sure I’m hooked, again, intrigue is missing, character across the board that are all thoroughly interesting, but I DO like our main contenders.

They did NOT just throw the Game of Thrones ending shade like that

They. Did. Not. Just say DANY was meant to get the throne (even if for a short while because I feel she’s only meant to have it to unite the realm for the battle and likely leaves/dies after, as an end to an age of magic).

Like the point of GoT was obvs that the politicking WASNT the point but it’s suchhhh vindication that Daenerys was magically destined to ascend the throne

I don’t care if you think Jon is an option - she was the mother of dragons not him

Doesn’t mean Jon doesn’t do important things during the war to come, or even become a king after Dany, as this show said a Targ w/ dragons is needed to protect the world from a position of monarchy - doesn’t mean that monarchy exists for very much longer after the war ends.

So TECHNICALLY she both WINS the game of thrones AND breaks the wheel

Coupled w/ the fact that they HIGHLIGHTED Dany’s name at the beginning

G RR Martin is practically shouting who becomes the head of Westeros during the winter war. (Again, not necessarily the PTWP, because this is a separate Targ dreaming, not the prophecy that Rhaegar became obsessed w/ but now I see why he became obsessed w/ it if he was given this info by his dad before hearing it).

Ahhhhhhh

V I N D I C A T I O N

#anyways this show said fuck Jon snow #I mean really #it did #he doesn’t have any attachment to a dragon #that’s allll Dany #this is a Daenerys Targaryen was RIGHT show #Jon Snow’s a STARK #take THAT #I might just defend this show to death because of that last line #the men online have put me through too much #they basically said season 8? what season 8? that’s bad fanfiction #Stan Rhaenyra’s #house of the dragon #hotd spoilers #hbo #house of the dragon spoilers #spoilers

[4acesofspades]

answer every single question on that ask game you reblogged xD

Welp, you asked, so here goes nothing..

(It didn't number right, but the questions are still labeled right)

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? 

Spotify

is your room messy or clean?

Pretty clean, sometimes there’s clothes on the floor

what color are your eyes?

Blue 

do you like your name? Why?

Not really, it’s way too common 

what is your relationship status? 

Married

describe your personality in 3 words or less

Old fashioned weirdo

what color hair do you have?

Natural blonde

what kind of car do you drive? Color?

Silver Honda Accord 

where do you shop?

Mostly Walmart 

how would you describe your style?

Cheap and changes depending on my mood. Sometimes it's sundresses and sometimes it's leather jackets.

favorite social media account

Like type of social media?  Or specific account?  My favorite type is probably tumblr but I don’t have a specific favorite account

what size bed do you have? 

I share a queen with my husband but in my room (yes I also have my own room) I have a twin 

any siblings?

One sister 

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? Why?

Maybe on the border in the us to help with the refugee crisis

favorite snapchat filter? 

I don’t use filters 

favorite makeup brand(s)

I couldn’t tell ya.  My mother in law buys my makeup. 

how many times a week do you shower?

Whenever my hair gets unmanageable

favorite tv show?

Ho boy, Leverage or Emergency! Probably 

shoe size?

8.5 women’s

how tall are you?

5 foot, 7 inches

sandals or sneakers? 

I have tanline stripes on my feet lol, definitely sandals.  But cheap, comfy ones

do you go to the gym? 

If I’m actively training for a race, then yeah.  Otherwise I hate it.

describe your dream date

On our honeymoon we got to stay in a (supposedly) haunted mansion in New York.  It was amazing.  Also it would be awesome to like, go through someone’s attic or something? 

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

I have a bunch of culver’s coupons?

what color socks are you wearing? 

None, I’m wearing sandals :) 

how many pillows do you sleep with?

One

do you have a job? what do you do? 

Nope, I’ve been looking for 5 months and haven’t found anything in my field, but I would love to work for a nonprofit.

how many friends do you have? 

Not many.  I have a few acquaintances I met in college, a couple good friends from high school, and some of my husband’s friends that I consider good friends as well

whats the worst thing you have ever done? 

Cut my best friend out of my life in order to get rid of another (toxic) relationship.  Regret it every single day. 

whats your favorite candle scent? 

There’s these Fir tree or whatever candles they sell around Christmas that smell just like the holidays and they’re my favorite

3 favorite boy names

Mason

Cameron

Eliot

3 favorite girl names

Eleanora

Rosalind

Kalia (Ka-lee-a)

favorite actor? 

I don’t really have one lol. I like the guy that plays Eliot on Leverage, and I like the guy that plays Johnny on Emergency, but I don’t really follow celebrities too much. 

favorite actress? 

See above 

who is your celebrity crush?

Despite my previous statements, I have a massive crush on Cote de Pablo. 

favorite movie? 

Idk if I could choose just one! Encanto and Moana for disney movies, McFarland, USA and The Outsiders for other movies, National Lampoons Christmas Vacation and 

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? 

I read quite a bit.  I couldn’t possibly choose a favorite book, but the most influential has been The Latehomecomer by Kao Kalia Yang

money or brains? 

Brains, always.  You can get along without money but not without brains 

do you have a nickname? what is it? 

My dad calls me flounderlips and squidlips and flapjoint.

how many times have you been to the hospital?

Couple times for migraines.

top 10 favorite songs

Currently? Or of all time?  We’re gonna go with currently as the list changes constantly. 

 Best Bad Habit by Danny Warsnop 

 Quiet as a Rat by Amigo the Devil 

Coat of Many Colors by Dolly Parton 

We Didn’t Start the Fire by Billy Joel 

Godmanchester Chinese Bridge by The Howl and The Hum 

Outlaw Pete by Bruce Springsteen 

A Symptom of Being Human by Shinedown 

Sometimes on a Sunday by The Glorious Sons 

Sing for the Common Man by Dolly Parton 

The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald by Gordon Lightfoot  

do you take any medications daily? 

Yeah I take migraine meds twice a day and vitamins at night

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

Idk, normal? I’ve never really thought about it 

what is your biggest fear? 

Amounting to nothing, probably.  I’m also pretty claustrophobic 

how many kids do you want? 

3

whats your go to hair style?

I have curly hair so wash and scrunch. Usually it’s in a ponytail or lazy bun 

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) 

Big old house built in 1925.  

who is your role model? 

I don’t have a specific role model.  I try to pull bits and pieces from all different things in life- favorite authors, people I meet, tv shows, parents, teachers, and friends, etc. 

what was the last compliment you received?

My husband told me my novel idea was incredibly original. 

what was the last text you sent?

I told my friends I don’t like frosted cookies as much as I used to. 

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

1st grade

what is your dream car? 

1967 Chevy Impala SS Coupe. I have indeed put much thought and research into this.  I would also be interested in a 1967 Shelby Cobra but I’ve never even seen one in person

opinion on smoking?

If you’re going to smoke I’d rather you smoke cigarettes around me than vape.  Idk but vaping really gets under my skin. 

do you go to college? 

Graduated December 2022

what is your dream job? 

I want to work for a nonprofit in their immigration department helping immigrants and refugees settle in and work through their transition to America.  Would also be interested in someday working as an immigration lawyer 

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? 

Rural.  Our town has about 3000 people.

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? 

I used to but I don’t anymore. 

do you have freckles? 

No

do you smile for pictures?

Yes

how many pictures do you have on your phone? 

1062

have you ever peed in the woods? 

Many times

do you still watch cartoons? 

All the time.  

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

Never had Wendy’s nuggies and I don’t really like McDonald’s 

Favorite dipping sauce? 

Fun fact, I don’t like any dipping sauce. 

what do you wear to bed? 

Shorts and a tshirt 

have you ever won a spelling bee?

HA good joke

 what are your hobbies?

Writing and music 

can you draw? 

Not even a little 

do you play an instrument?

Flute, clarinet, saxophone, and I’m learning guitar 

what was the last concert you saw? 

Nothing More last year 

tea or coffee?

I like both 

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

Neither 

do you want to get married?

Been married over 2 years 

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

My husband’s name is Daniel ;) 

are you going to change your last name when you get married? 

Yup, it was a pain in the butt 

what color looks best on you? 

I like dark red on me

do you miss anyone right now? 

Yes, my best friend in high school 

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

Door closed, I watch a lot of Emergency and am paranoid of housefires 

do you believe in ghosts?

Kind of

what is your biggest pet peeve? 

When somebody’s turning left and the person behind them can’t wait 2 SECONDS for them to turn and they speed around them on the shoulder

last person you called`

My daddy 

favorite ice cream flavor? 

Chocolate

regular oreos or golden oreos? 

For knockoffs, golden.  For name brand, regular. 

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? 

Rainbow

what shirt are you wearing? 

I’m not, I’m wearing a sundress. 

what is your phone background?

Nate and Eliot from Leverage being dorks 

are you outgoing or shy?

I’m really shy until I get to know people 

do you like it when people play with your hair?

Depends on the state of affairs.  If it’s already a mess I love it, if I just watched it, you’re risking your life by touching my curls 

do you like your neighbors? 

Yeah they’re nice. 

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

At night

have you ever been high? 

Nope

have you ever been drunk? 

Nope

last thing you ate? 

Salmon

favorite lyrics right now

From Quiet as a Rat by Amigo the Devil: “Time doesn’t respect what doesn’t respect it/ And kind isn’t a word I would use for man/ If everyone’s made in his image and even he couldn’t perfect it/ Then what the hell makes anyone think we can”

summer or winter? 

Summer for sure. I live in Wisconsin 

day or night? 

Day. I like the sun 

dark, milk, or white chocolate? 

Dark 

favorite month? 

I like May and June, but also September and October 

what is your zodiac sign

Aquarius 

 who was the last person you cried in front of? 

My husband 

#ask game #answered asks

[rottenbrainstuff]

I rewatched Legend last night! It’s not as good as other 80s fantasy movies like Willow or Labyrinth… but it’s interesting in its own little way. I have the European cut which I think has a better script.

I’ve watched the special features and I’m listening to the Ridley Scott commentary and I’m getting super tired of how often he’s talking about the princess being manipulative, she’s manipulating Jack, she’s manipulating the unicorn… she’s not manipulating the unicorn, she just wants to fucking pet it, and she sings to it like she’s trying to calm down a nervous horse. It’s not a GOOD idea, it’s like tourists trying to pet elk, but jfc it’s not MANIPULATION and he’s cheesing me off how much he’s talking about it. She’s a teenaged girl, she’s a little mischievous, she’s a little bit of a free spirit, for goodness sake wanting things and talking to people about the things you want isn’t manipulation, this is like listening to some anti talk about some children’s cartoon and why x character is actually abusive and bad or something. Stop it.

I’m also a bit confused about the “purity” narrative that they keep talking about, purity and the corruption of purity… it’s weird and it’s overly simplistic. What the heck even is “purity”? This movie (and Ridley Scott) takes for granted that the audience just accepts and understands this “purity”… I dunno, it’s just…. I get it, I can see maybe what they wanted to go for, but listening to Ridley Scott talk about the themes, I find it really unsatisfying, really underdeveloped, taking way too much for granted and not really exploring anything. When I consider his later films Prometheus and Covenant, I think when considered together you can see how he has a oversimplified… honestly maybe even childish take on religion and religious themes… or maybe he’s just really not good at filming them?

He talks a lot as well about how, if they made this movie today, x set would be CG, x effect would be CG… I’m not entirely sure what he means though, if he is GLAD he was able to make this movie using practical effects, or if he thinks it would be BETTER if it was made today using CG. I think it absolutely wouldn’t be better at all. Say what you want about the creaky plot, but the costumes, makeup and the amazing, amazing forest set (which btw burned to the ground unfortunately during shooting!) are absolutely beautiful, and wouldn’t look even half as good if this movie was remade today.

Tom Cruise irritates the crap out of me here. I actually have never liked him too much as an actor, and I think this is one of his worst roles. It’s all worth it to see Tim Curry though. Holy shit. Whatever nonsense is happening in the rest of the movie, this performance and this makeup make it all worthwhile.

It would be neat to imagine this movie being remade… I would love to see the clunky plot shaken out and updated, and having this really fucking irritating Adam and Eve, woman-is-the-temptress-and-downfall-of-man theme reworked…. But a character like Darkness, a set like the forest, these would absolutely be done with CG now and it would look like shit. No thanks. In addition I think in general we have totally and completely lost the knack (or desire?) for this kind of classic, fantastic fairy tale storytelling. It’s still fun to think about though.

#movie nerdery #legend

[bigdickevans]

i watched smile and wrote down my live reaction if anyone cares lol. long story short it was better than i thought it would be, the death/spooky effects were fun but it was kinda heavy handed with the mental health commentary

i went into this thinking it would be funny bad but. goddammit. ok i liked the opening.

the fucking back and forth shots of the main lady and the college girl’s faces, it set me up!!

then when it showed college girl had gotten up. idk man something about how empty and sterile the office is wigged me out even more.

and her cutting her neck was neato

at the title card now and alright goddamn it didn’t have to flash like that yeesh

oh also it sounds like this is just gonna be it follows but with suicide instead of sex

lord they’re trying to do mental health commentary. great.

ugh if i end up liking this movie i’m gonna be embarrassed

that cat’s dead. and nooo i don’t know that because i checked doesthedogdie.com

i was hoping the cat would smile lmao

WAIT THE BOYFRIEND

WHO IS HE

SLKJFLKSDF IT’S A-TRAIN

i’ve decided this takes place in The Boys universe

sorry i got so distracted by a-train that i forgot to say that main lady seeing the dead girl in the dimly lit kitchen did freak me out.

we’re back to the mental health commentary.

why does the cat have such a big fucking bowl

Young cop(?) dude gives me the creeps.

Haha sassy black coworker!! very funny and cool el oh el

ooooo i liked her passing the rooms and having to backtrack

bro is vibing stop snapping

im so sorry but this carl actor has a really silly voice

i feel like this boss also looks familiar

oh he was in designated survivor ok

actually i’ve been kinda constipated so maybe if i watch this on the toilet i’ll shit myself and finally be free

jesus this lady just can’t stop breaking glasses

none of this would’ve happened if you just KEPT YOUR HOUSE WELL LIT

WAIT STOP EVERYTHING

YOUNG COP CREEP IS THE EMO GUY FROM JENNIFER’S BODY

wow what a cast

i sorta missed the whole bit where she listened to the recording and heard stuff, i was unclogging my toilet

main lady and blonde bitch are sisters?? wow that went straight over my head until now. i knew they had to be related in some way? but i kinda thought the husband and the main lady were siblings

dead cat moment

love that they felt the need to clarify it was her cat lmao

when the boy picked it up it looked like really bad cgi

DAMN

TABLE SLAM KO

yeah babe sometimes you just gotta yell it out

SLKDFJLS THE PAIN ASSESSMENT CHART

im sorry… mental health preachy message aside, are you telling me the fiance had to look up the fact that mental illness can be hereditary??

for some reason i feel like the main character’s spiral happened way too fast

but to be fair i guess she does have that trauma with her mom, so maybe even though she works in healthcare she’d still be more susceptible to this line of thinking?

the number of times they say “crazy” in this movie is getting ridiculous

love a good smashed in head, i appreciate they didn’t add a loud noise with it considering the amount of jumpscares in this fucking thing

thank god horrible events always happen to artists so we can have ooky spooky drawings

these “coincidences” are so obviously connected it’s ludicrous that literally nobody noticed until now

I mean cops being inept is nothing new i guess

main character is being? unbelievably unreasonable here?? yes, calling a mental health professional is what you’re SUPPOSED to do when someone around you starts acting like this

i thought one of the whole points of this smile demon thing was that it could look like anyone? they haven’t really been utilizing that as much as i assumed they would which is a bummer

OOOOOOOOOOOOOO

loved that moment with the sister at the car

it is kinda neat that the death has to be super dramatic so it inflicts as much trauma as possible

but also couldn’t you just do something traumatic that doesn’t involve murder or suicide?

like pretend you murdered someone or killed yourself in a crazy violent way in front of someone so they believe it happened, orchestrate a big practical joke

the demon voice is goofy

putting a knife that big up your sleeve seems like an atrocious idea

LMAO AWESOME DREAM

it’s like in chainsaw man. the whole door thing with denji. i’m not elaborating bc i don’t wanna spoil anyone.

the mom is kinda hot

lol i like how slowly rose closed the door

ooooooo!!!! suddenly tall mom!!!

i’m a tad disappointed with the monster design :/

HELL YEAH you thought a house fire could kill a demon?? lmaoooo

I TAKE IT BACK THE MONSTER DESIGN LOOKS RAD

rose the throat goat

hell yeah love a good person burning

#gail babbles about dumb shit

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Ok I just FINALLY finished bojack horseman after taking a very long break from it cuz it was not good for my depression BUT!!! I was strong enough to finish it and I’ve followed this blog for years and I know you self ship with bojack but I don’t think I’ve ever seen a post explaining how you fit into that world?? Like, what’s your role, how did you and bojack meet, how does your story grow along with the others? AND!! Woooo, “the view from halfway down” episode was. Wow. How would you/your s/i (idk which one you use) react to all that? Are YOU maybe the one bojack calls instead of Diane? Do you/your s/i have their own “view from halfway down” episode? Sorry if this is a lot but I’m back into this show now and I’d love to know your role in the whole thing. :)

SOBBING CRYING SHAKING RN HOLY SHIT YOU DONT UNDERSTAND HOW EXCITED I GOT SEEING THIS FJEJCJEJXJS

Also i get having to take breaks with this show bc if you aren't doing well it will NOT be good for you fjekwjcje I'm on my 4th (5th?) Rewatch rn after like a year (it's a comfort show) [ALSO VIEW FROM HALFWAY DOWN POG??? <- (my top favorite episode)]

BUT ALSO IM. SO GLAD YOU ASKED BC I HAVE SO MUCH LORE FOR THIS MFCKER AND IM TOO NERVOUS TO TALK ABT IT WITHOUT BEING PROMTED !!!

I'm gonna put everything under the cut for SPOILER REASONS but also PLEASE read the tags just in case!!! We're talking abt the mfckin CANON timeline I have for my self insert shits depressing as hell (also I hope I generally explained everything fjejcjdh bad at doing that smtimes)

I'm almost glad I'm not talking abt the Childhood friends au bc its SO softcore like wheres the angst bestie? But also damn. Why all the angst in the canon tl? Chill OUT /lh

Generally the canon tl follows the show pretty accurately, aside from the fact that IM there and a few things r obviously different

I met him in a bar during the 90s! It was one of those "Oh we're both actors! Pog." And we basically drank together and trauma-bonded. They quickly become good friends (It was funny, considering the first thing we said to eachother was "oh you look familiar" and "YOU'RE THAT GUY FROM THAT SHOW I WATCH!" Truly the start of a wonderful friendship.)

And, I basically stayed around him. The Whole Time- through Herb getting fired and both of our shows ending and various depressive episodes (on both ends), parent funerals and hallowern parties and benders and awful horrible shows that definitely should never be mentioned nor have been put on air.

And weird one night stands with eachother that never get brought up the next day (or at all for that matter) just to keep things from being weird.

So I've known him for awhile, and I've stuck around for awhile, basically a ride or die friend (with a tiny little crush that I'm not acknowledging) that's my role, the Yearning Best Friend- so cringe but it works out in the end.

I think, major event wise, everything still happened the same. It's right until S4 when things are, a little different? (Not by much though)

When he heads to his old family summer home he invites me to come with (I also didn't think itd be smart to leave him alone) and through that entire trip he told me about Horsin Around and his family and at a point a drunken rant abt New Mexico that neither of us remembered in the morning. (It was a bonding trip, definitely the start of Feelings too) we start dating in the middle of that season (specifically when we all got trapped underground, you confess a lot when you think you're going to die)

So naturally, S5 is different too, he's not dating Gina in that season, but everything still happens the same otherwise. (Of course I knew something was off the whole time, you don't stay friends with someone for several years and NOT notice when something's off, motherfucker wouldnt *talk* to me though, and when he did it was to tell me someone was trying to sabotage the show and of course you cant have two paranoid mfers under the same roof, they just end up fueling eachother until it's too late and something horrible happens)

And something horrible happened, and Diane told me about what she thought happened in New Mexico, and I'm thinking "I feel like I've heard this story before." And then Bojack tells me what happened in New Mexico and then he choked his co-star and hes going to rehab and everything is obviously too much and I tell him I can't visit of course, because theres a lot of information i need to process, but I'll still write and I'll still text and watch over the house while he's gone since I practically live there at this point but I cant see him rn.

And I didn't! Until he got out of rehab, of course and it was back to "Bojack and Jackson against the world!" And "Let's move! Go somewhere different get a change of scenery!" And we did. He got that job at the university and I! Stayed with him, ever the loyal boyfriend. (Until in getting calls from a reporter and suddenly we're trying to figure out what shitty thing he did before the reporter calls and Oh. It's about Sarah Lynn and Oh!! Thus is certainly new information I wasn't told about! Fuck.)

After the interview- the second one- it was...complicated. I didn't want to leave but i also recognized that i needed to. For now, to let him deal with the aftermath of his mistakes because if he came to me- and he did- he'd be looking for reassurances I couldn't give him. We got into a really bad argument, it was moreso implied that we weren't dating anymore, neither of us said it but we both walked away and that was the last time we spoke.

It's so funny that you asked abt The View From Halfway Down because I was literally just thinking about that episode the other day and if he would've called me and not Diane and honestly! Yea. He did! Tho he called me. Twice that day, once before, after he left Angela's house, and again before he got back in the pool- I picked up the first time but he was pretty much incomprehensible and I couldn't pick up the second time so when I called back and he didn't answer I was. Quick to panic. (I was right for being worried too, all things considered)

And then he went to jail. And we didn't see eachother again until PC's wedding (bonded a lot with her, during that break up period. It was hard y'know? But she got it. Also I was Helping Babysit with Todd, she was rlly making me rethink my opinion on adopting a kid)

We didn't start dating right away tho, but we did start hanging out again? So that was a bonus!

#oh my GOD ok im sorry parts of this are longer than others my brain was like RAMBLE TIME but also NO KING ITS ALREADY TOO LONG #the canon tl is a lot worst bc its realistic abt our relationship? angst at 100 but thats just how it should be #usually my art isnt apart of the canon tl. its either for the childhood friends pack or a Good Ending tl #good ending pack: where my general presence skips over certain major plot events but not too many where its suddenly the PERFECT Outcome. #srry im rambling in the tags cjdjcjdj #ty for letting me talk abt the tl srry if its...jumbled? while my s/i has the most lore out of all of them. im still bad at talking abt it #in a coherent manner #also! dont think Jack would have his own view from halfway down or at least if he did #its bc he joined Bo.jack in his near death experience which i haven't actually thought abt until now? definitely smth to think abt :0!!!! #fjfjdhf rambling srry- ty again! i love talking abt them sm #♡: i love you mr. blue #☆ask #tw alcohol mention #tw drug mention #tw death mention #ask 2 tag #☆lets put a pin in it

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April favorites 2022!

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May 27 / 2022

Hello,

Finally updating the monthly favorites, not much has changed except I delved into some GL series this time around and let me just tell you that the drama is minimal compared to BL manhwas. Lol. Maybe it’s because I can sympathize in a situation rather than a portrayal of how female writers perceive boy’s love. In which I’m always angry at the dumb choices that were made....boys be boys I guess

I would say that I liked how minimal the drama is in some of these stories in GL, even if there are characters that are considered “villains” you can’t really hate them, where as I can list a bunch of men in BL that I despise, mainly because of their attitude and decisions they make leading up to a more complicated situation than it really needs to be, also their inability to understand when to quit or leave a situation and just continue to make excuses for themselves.

Sigh...I need a break from all that as you can tell, so enjoy some of the titles of this month which will include some GL/ adult shoujou.

Anyways, I also have some fan art coming so look out for that, I’m just in training for a summer job at the moment so whenever I have a moments rest I don’t want to do anything...lol.

Happy reading!

Sheena

Semantic error k-drama:

Not going to talk about this in detail since I have done a manhwa review on this earlier, but here’s the actual live action and I have to say it wasn’t as bad as I thought, I honestly don’t know if  I would enjoy an adaptation of manhwa into live action, especially BL since I’m sure they would cut out all the intimate scenes. To my surprise I think they did a good job, I just wished it was longer than 12 episodes.

I liked the actors too I think they chose a good actor for jaeyoung, he wasn’t like I imagined visually but his attitude was hands down like the character, which is more than I can ask for.

I heard a few more BL titles are in the works for a k-drama adaptation, so i’m excited to see some of them.

Recap:

I’m just going to put up the ongoing list only. I also eliminated some titles because they are now completed or I dropped them for now

Ongoing  

Liveta

Pearl boy (hiatus)

Turn off the camera

Semantic error (hiatus)

The third ending

Secret relationships

Kings Maker (S2) (hiatus)

Love tractor

Dear door

One night mate

Night fragments

Updates on ongoing titles:

Just looking at the list getting smaller...aww, most of them are completed now, it makes me happy that I have talked about them for so long and seeing how their stories come to an end is really nice.

Secret relationships:

I really wanted to avoid discussing topics about this series because I’ve seen some people on twitter get really heated about these characters and it honestly is sad, especially if you would fight people over a fictional character that does not exist, I honestly don’t get it. For instance I like Dooshik from pearl boy, if some person were to come up to me and tell me why he sucks that's fine, it's your opinion, but come up to me and tell me pilwon is better then....go put on your clown suit... clearly you didn’t read the story lol.

I’m joking.

I will mention this again; these are my opinions only and have nothing to do with what the creator does with the story. This means they don’t matter, so take it with a grain of salt.

People are taking “your opinion matters” to a whole new level.  No it doesn’t, cause no one cares.

Anyways back to this monstrosity, I have talked about how I was taking a break from this series because right now they are in the middle of explaining flashbacks of the past of the doan-jaemin-soohyun triangle and I don’t give a sh*t about it, some people read this and change their opinions on these characters as if it justifies what they are doing now. I have said this before and I’ll say it again here, I don’t care if they were a good person in the past...it doesn’t change the person they are now, they made those decisions and this is where it got them. Anyone who does that does not get any sympathy from me.

The posts that I hate seeing the most are the ones that see these chapters and panels and just say “oh they used to be so good together” why can’t they just go back to being like that?

Good question...why? think about your own break ups, you broke up for a reason, your ex is your ex for a reason...you didn’t work out before what makes you think getting back together with the same person is going to be better the second time?

I know that some people defend soohyun by saying that he liked doan for 10 years...and I’m sorry that means nothing...

This screen shots are from the third ending, where yoonseul asked his sister if the people in the drama should get back together and her response is basically this and all I can say is WORD! this is exactly how I feel...

One person having an unreciprocated love for 10 years is their decision, I have close friends that have dated their partners for 10 years and end up breaking up in the end, the duration of someone’s love is just a time frame, it does not mean anything...

So I’m just going to wait until these characters are ready to sort out their problems before continuing because I feel like this whole scenario is getting ridiculous and it just seems like the author is just trying to advance in fan service rather than getting on with the story.

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Okay..onto the actual good reads ...lol.

I have one BL, 1 adult shojou..I don’t know if it actually is, and 1 GL series...so an actual good range lol.

The pizza delivery man and the gold palace:

So there is no official English translation that I know of so I’ll try to summarize what it is about

“ Woowon works several jobs in order to pay off debt that this father had left him and his mother, one day during his pizza delivery shift he went to deliver the pizza to someone living in the gold palace, which is an expensive apartment complex in which wealthy families move into. The most important part of the place was that the tips were hefty, but as woowon went to deliver the pizza, the customer was not very happy at first but later on finds out that woowon was the person that helped him out with a kind gesture the day he was feeling unwell. Knowing this, the customer Seo an attempts to meet with woowon again by ordering pizza every meal in hopes to see him again. Little does he realize that they would have many encounters from then on and begin to form a sort of bond.”

That summary is horrendous, please excuse me. Like I said this one does not officially have an English translation, I do know that there is a English fan-translated version floating around ‘cause I have seen it. It is up to you whether you want to read that or not, but I do ask that you support the author when the English translations officially come out. I’ve just been reading it through my crappy Korean reading skills and summaries from another person who have summarized the story, so I have a gist of what’s going on. I’m only suggesting this if you know Korean and want to just read it then go ahead.

As the summary goes, woowon is a regular 28 year old guy that is working part time through several jobs to pay off his father’s debt, his mother is living separately from him and is also working to pay off the same debt, he would call her sometimes to check on her but would not complain about his struggles since he does not want to worry her. It is apparent that woowon is over working himself but doesn’t complain because thinks this is what deserves...you know that saying “well...such as life” is basically how to describe his living situation. The pizza place that he works part time for is notorious for having really good looking delivery people and of course the manager had his sights on woowon when he applied. Despite being “casted” for his looks in most of his jobs, he was a really hard worker, spending only when necessary in terms of living expenses and rental fees, the rest of the money is to pay off the debt. One day he was going out for a delivery and the pizza was to the gold palace, which as a well off apartment complex in which his co workers described as a gold mine, mainly because of the tip-ing culture that had been seen by the people who delivered to those apartments. It was a good amount and of course the best way to get more tips is to let them see your beautiful face right?

Woowon had not experienced delivering there so it was like a golden opportunity for him to make some extra money. The person who had the pizza delivered to his place was named seo an, it turns out his friend was coming over so he just ordered food to his place without telling him.lol.

Of course anyone would be annoyed and Seo an was not the best when dealing with people,

Other than his small group of friends he does not interact with other people, which made one of his friends worry. As the pizza was here he was woken up abruptly and was a little cranky, as he took the pizza from woowon he didn’t say much and just left him, woown was not expecting that and just brushed it off as the customer having a bad day.

Later the same friend came over and ordered pizza again...omg seriously dude? And seo an went to answer the door, this time woowon took off his mask and Seo an was able to see his face. It turns out they had met before, when seo an was feeling down he went to a nearby convenient store and as h left it started raining hard and he didn’t bring an umbrella. Luckly, woowon was nearby and offered him an umbrella to get home with since it was really bad weather, seo an was thankful for the small gesture and wanted to thank him if he ever saw him again...well voi-la!

He took the pizza from him and thanked him, his friend was teasing him that woowon was his type and that’s why he took his sweet time at the door.lol. As soon as he knew woowon worked at the pizza place he had ordered pizza during every single meal in order to meet with woowon again since he wanted to give him back the umbrella. In the very last attempt, he finally got to see woowon again; he explained that he gave him an umbrella that day it was raining, and woo won seemed to remember him finally. He just wanted to say thanks, which made woowon happy that he was able to make some ones day by just a simple gesture, since he feel like he is less than nothing, he has really low self esteem you guys...I was literally like is this me right now? Because this is honestly how I see myself.

Seo an had previously talked about woowon to his therapist and was suggested to see him more since he didn’t feel uncomfortable around him. I turns out that seo an had previously had social anxiety and decided to seek help through therapy...which, is the smartest thing I’ve seen anyone in BL do...I’m like thank god you aren’t like the others, he is a person that realizes he needed help and actually seeks it out, finally! Literally majority of the problems can be solved in bl manhwa if the protagonist actually goes to a therapist. Seo an you have my full respect. After wards he had ran into woowon because he had found him in a motorcycle accident, in which woowon injured his arm and could not drive to make his deliveries, it seemed like losing this job would mean the end for him and seo an made a suggestion to drive to do his deliveries until his arm is better. Of course woowon didn’t want to involve him in all of this but he really needed to continue his work or else money is going to be an issue for the month, so he took seo an up on his offer. The two became quite the partnership and they were able to get a lot done together, wowoon was really grateful and wanted to treat seo an to lunch on their last day of working together, this was when he had witnessed see an’s panic attack in an open area. Seo an was waiting for woowon to finish delivering his pizza at the university and so he stopped at a coffee shop to buy them both coffee and as he realized that it was more crowded than he thought and it made him nauseous, if you ever have had claustrophobia, its literally the feeling of being in a tight space and you can’t get out, but instead of a tight space it’s a space surrounded by many people crowding around you. Seo an was able to get out as soon as he got his coffee but apparently he forgot his card and the cashier chased after him and seo an started having a break down outside of the cafe. Woowon had noticed people gathering in a circle panicking and asking people to call an ambulance. It turned out it was seo an and woowon quickly noticed what was happening and told people to leave the area and give him space, he held onto seo an while he was having an episode, after a few minutes seo an started to calm down. After seo an was better woowon explained that he knew someone that was in the same situation so that is why he knew what to do. This probably means that his mother had had the same panic disorder since he thought of her after seo an had his episode, he decided to call his mother to check up on her.

Woowon was grateful to seo an for helping him and they began regularly texting each other, woo won had lost some money and felt discouraged and shameful at himself, and seo an wanted to cheer him up so he drove to his work place after woowon finished and asked if he wanted to go for a night drive...hmm...so romantic, yes?

There were a few panels where it was just them on a bike and the view they were seeing, there were no words exchanged but you can feel the atmosphere from how the creator portrayed those scenes in those panels, it made it look more like you are watching an anime or drama instead of reading a web comic. I really liked those scenes which is why i brought it up. They talked about what has been bothering them and why woowon is working really hard. There were several more exchanges in which seo an ran into woowon and they share a heartfelt moment, my favorite was the scene where wowoon was sick and seo an went o visit his apartment, you finally get to see their thoughts about each other, it was really cute the way they look at one another when the other is asleep.

Which leads me to stop here, this is a fairly new series and so more will be revealed later on in the updates. You can read this series in Korean on ridibooks or whatever source you choose...I’m bad at reading Korean characters so i will definitely purchase the English version when that comes out. Can I also say that they have an uncanny resemblance to soohyun and jaemin in secret relationships, which in contrast I dislike those characters and I really like these two.lol. personality matters people...

Love is a fantasy/ Love is an illusion- The queen:

“Park Do-gyeom, who is crazy about sex, decided she wanted to get married. She asks her secretary and long time friend, Seung-ah to search for her future partner, but would doing so complicate their relationship?”

Okay, so if you have seen my trash segment, you would know that i dropped love is an illusion as soon I read the first chapter, so you may be wondering...why this? It’s from the same series, so it is technically a spin off. Yes, you are right I know nothing of the characters in this series but I guess it does not matter, there is something about a dominant alpha female being the leading lady of the story that makes it intriguing, unlike the opposing alpha male which turns me away from series...

Do gyeom is the literal definition “sigma female” she is pretty, rich and open minded, not repressed in terms of her sexuality and preferences, she is what other females in manga wish they were.lol. and I’ve never seen a character like that. So I was intrigued right away, I honestly don’t like omega verse stories cause most are really hierarchical and rapey...

But there’s something about a woman with power and money that is very attractive.

It starts off with do gyeom doing her thing and while witnessing how her other family members are happily married with children, she makes a statement that she wants to be married too and so began searching for a partner that is compatible in wealth and status, her secretary was a boy she had been friends with since high school named seung ah, but of course it wasn’t easy for do gyeom because all she wanted from her potential partners was to see how good they were in bed...lol. I mean....shouldn’t you if you are going to marry them?

And because of her luring many partners into intercourse, seung ah had to clean up after her mess by silencing them when do gyeom was not interested after. This whole situation made seungha uncomfortable mainly because of all the headaches he gets cleaning up after her but more importantly he seems to have romantic feelings towards her.

After several attempts to find a potential partner, she was feeling down and claims that may be she will end up alone in the end, but seung ah made an effort to consol her saying that even though people in her family are happily married does not mean that she achieve happiness on her own. this exchange i found really cute since it’s true that you can be happy on your own even without marriage and children.  Do gyeom thought blind dates were the wrong way to meet people so she took the old fashion route and just went to drinking parties. LMAO.

There was a weird exchange where seung ah was being hit on by a guy and do gyeom misunderstood that he was trying to rape seung ah and beat the sh*t out of him. After wards they seem to have fights off and on which lead to do gyeom thinking that because of her tardiness, seung ah is suffering the most so she made an attempt to clean up her act. In the next few days she was seeing another woman, one of which she had sex with early on and decided to date her seriously, to which seung ah didn’t like, he thinks do gyeom may be settling with someone less than her social status, but do gyeom just wanted to try dating her seriously since it could lead to something good.

I’ll stop there, the general plot is not anything ground breaking since you all probably know what happens next, but it was an interesting read considering it is about a woman with social power and a male with less social status. So far so good, we shall see what happens next. I believe you can read this on lezhin only; the story is new so there are only a few chapters to read so far.

Moonlight garden:

“The enchanting flower maidens of Moonlight Garden are coveted by all, as they are known to provide sexual pleasures beyond the imagination. But Dohwa, a young flower maiden who has not yet ?bloomed,? concocts potions in the hopes of escaping her destined fate at the brothel. One night, she is caught stealing ingredients for her potions by Lady Hyewon, the new mistress of the Garden. But it turns out Dohwa isn?t the only one with an agenda. Lady Hyewon harbors a few terrible secrets of her own”

If you recognize the art then you would have known that it is a story from the same creator of “turn off the camera” but less messy.lol.

So basically flower maidens are a part of the brothel in which they serve ministers of the court (who are all women) and provide entertainment and selling their talents and sometimes their bodies. Being born a flower maiden is looked down upon in royal households because they would end up dead by a certain age as the flower curse will take over their bodies and end the person’s life. But of course the lady of the house of seo, haewon ended up being awakened as one and to prevent others from finding out, her aunt, the former mistress of the seo household found a girl in slave trade that looked liked haewon and adopted her to be haewon’s replacement during the period when she is blooming.

The period in which she blooms is kind of like when an alpha goes into a rut...for all you omegaverse readers out there to understand. At that time she will need a partner to satisfy her sexual desires or it becomes painful and the curse will end up causing death. That girl who was adopted was named yoosun and she would be the one to help haewon during the blooming cycle, this went on for a couple years, despite being in a weird situation with each other, they treated one another like family.

The seo household was going through a transitional period in which haewon is now the mistress in charge of the moonlight garden brothel, and so she was introduced to all the ministers when she moved into the brothel with yoosun. So our main protagonist is named dohwa who was the plum blossom maiden and she has a hobby of selling apothecary fragrances to other women in the brothel to enhance their scent. But in reality she is working with another lady to test out the blooming periods of some of the flower maidens, in order to make an antidote to get rid of the curse for good. She wanted to get out of the brothel and go back to her home town in which she lived before she was sent away her because of her “ condition”. One day when she snuck into the flower garden to gather ingredients for her potions, she ran into haewon and they both show animosity towards each other, dohwa even tried to drown haewon and herself and was ultimately saved by yoosun. Yoosun became interested in dohwa and found her pendant lying on the floor after rescuing her. That pendant was given by her mother after in order for them to reunite when she leaves the brothel, dohwa was in a panic when she found out she had lost it.

She tried to retrace her steps and ended up seeing haewon at the garden again, so she tried to sneak in unnoticed. In the end yoosun found her and asked her to leave quietly before haewon finds her and gave her back the pendent. Haewon found the two of them and noticed dohwa was the same girl who tried to kill her.lol. and in a panic dohwa grabbed onto yoosun and knocked her mask off  revealing that haewon and yoosun looked exactly alike. Now that thier secret is discovered by this girl, they thought of a plan to keep her silent and theat is to keep her close by and keep her pendant as hostage in order to have her cooperate.

The next day dohwa realized that haewon was the new mistress of the brothel and thought she had been in trouble for everything that she has done to her. Haewon proposed that dohwa be disciplined by her in order to improve her studies of being a gaesang “geisha” since once she becomes of age she would need to start seeing clients. Despite hating haewon she liked yoosun and wanted to spend more time with her so being around the twins was not as bad as she imagined. Haewon eventually warmed up to dohwa and started to have feelings for her the same time as yoosun was. It wasn’t as messy as it seems, since dohwa eventually started to like haewon more towards the end of the series. I have thought that even though she initially liked yoosun she would eventually like haewon since opposites attract and they have things in common that only one another can understand.

Lol. It gives me hope that yohan from turn off the camera might end up with jihoon, though I’m sure it’s not likely...haewon and yohan both have the same personality so maybe...anyways, this series is completed so you can read it in all its entirety on lezhin.

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Trash segment (21+)

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a.k.a the part of the series where I shit on your favorite manhwa/manga/webtoon etc. Joking but not really, you have been warned.

This is the new section where you’re going to find titles that I dropped and the reasons why I discontinued the series all together, fair warning if you triggered by people criticizing your favorite series then you may want to skip this section all together. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and not every series that is “popular” or well liked by others will be like by all...therefore if there is content that makes a person uncomfortable enough to stop the series, that is on them and please don’t judge them for their morals.

So to recap, the series that I mentioned dropping so far are

Love or Hate

Yours to claim

Wistful summer

Anti-p.t.

The sound of fire

Kiss damnation

Cherry blossoms after the winter

Chasing Mr. CEO

Who’s a sweet cheater?

I’m sure I have one...I just can’t think of them right now. Remember the trash list does not mean the series is Bad...it’s just ones that I dropped, but let’s be honest some of them are pretty bad...lol.

I’m slowly trying to cycle back into listening to k-pop, but only the really old songs, I have no idea what is going on with k-pop for a while now since I’ve been out of it

If not this it’s pas’edoble music.lmao.

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Ending note:

Okay thanks again for reading this month, I have selected a few titles that stood out in my reads this month and I hope you enjoyed it, I should actually try incorporating more genres, but that would mean reading a whole lot more than I want to.lol.

I will try to incorporate more titles as they come, so please look out for now. I hope you enjoyed and I will be back with more new art soon, please look out for that soon! I’m slowly getting back into the groove of things after months of just school and even with a bit of time, I still don’t want to do much lol.

Please follow me on social media below for more updates. If you have an questions please leave it in the comments below.

Alright, take care!

sheena

#manga review #shounen ai #yaoi manga #bl manhwa #manga recommendation #boys love #girls love #manhwa recommendation #monthly favorites

[laurenceslife]

Chapter 75

- My divorce was finalized in May – Laurence drank a sip of his drink on a July weekend, at his New York house where he was drinking with Keanu who he was filming John Wick’s third part with on the weekdays.

- And what does it feel like to be completely single again? – his friend asked but there was commiseration in his voice.

- It’s odd. This hasn’t been for fifteen years… - Laurence reflected, looking at the table – When I had a date, and a photo was taken about me with that woman who some people wanted to put me in touch with, it was written that I hadn’t even divorced but I was already dating… But it didn’t even come to anything. Besides, practically, we’ve been divorced already then. They could also know from the internet that Gina also has a new partner already, and she’s told already a long time ago that we were divorcing. Of course now, they wouldn’t write it anymore…  It’s the same, let’s talk about something else!

Keanu was considering how he could brighten him.

- I just saw Ant Man and the Wasp! – Laurence started cheerfully – I didn’t play much in it but the movie turned out to be an incredibly entertaining, funny and family movie, one can bring anybody to watch it from eight to eighty years so Delilah came with me, too. It’s a big-big experience, I enjoyed it very much! On the other hand, I think it wouldn’t be worth making a movie about insignificant superheroes and evil characters.

His friend stumped the cigarette that he was smoking till then.

- I’ll watch the movie, too, I love watching movies – he said after it, smiling, and then sat back – I don’t watch plays, on the other hand, I’ve heard that your mom’s playing in a musical play! – he continued, smiling.

- Don’t tell me! She’s constantly talking about it – Laurence grinned – Her dream came true. She wanted to be in show business since her childhood, also that was why she pushed me so much – he laughed.

- But then how come she succeeded in doing it only now? – the younger man wondered.

- I think she’s ihot because of the family scandals – the older one said bluntly – First, Montana, and then she, and last time, her granddaughter again… Some people are quite capable of employing people without particular talent, just because people are curious about them because of completely different things…

- And she used this? – Keanu asked, startled.

- She’s quite up to it.

           His friend was sleeping at his house like he does when they are in one city and he goes to his house in the afternoon.

Keanu had gone to take a shower and to go to sleep in the guestroom already, on the other hand, Laurence was still meditating, so after going to sleep, it wouldn’t be on his mind that maybe he should cut ties with his mother too, again, and exactly then when he didn’t have wife anymore, either, and still wasn’t keeping touch with Montana, either.

Next day, he reflected about it again, and arrived at the result that he still shouldn’t cut ties with his mother because of it – Who knows till when she lives, too, she might die soon, like his father – he thought. He didn’t want to be on bad terms with her punctually when she will die – Besides, maybe she also  thought about that opportunity that way, that once in her life, she should experience this, and maybe she can’t wait long anymore.

- I understand it – his friend said after Laurence explained the situation to him while having breakfast.

- I wanted to tell you in any case, so you don’t think any bad thing about me because of it. I have no one more such a smart and charitable friend like you – he continued more cheerfully – That would put the lid on it if I lost you too or our relationship deteriorated. You could live here every day while the filming is going on. Anyway, I’m lonely nowadays because I’m living alone. Every night when there’s time after filming, we could watch a movie or talk. Before the other actors, during the filming breaks, we can’t talk about such personal things, anyway.

- Thanks, if you’d like it, I can stay.

- So we could start with Ant Man and The Wasp already tonight! – the older man said loosely and cheerfully – Of course, if there’s time after filming.

- That’s agreed.

           For Laurence, the filming lasted till late July, and then he went back to his Hollywood house, because it was arranged with one of his pals before that on the occasion of his birthday, they were going to have dinner together on the Walk of Fame. Besides, he didn’t want to be bothering Keanu, he knew that sometimes he wanted to be alone since he’s so introverted, as a real artist.

For the birthday dinner, he put on a purple, long sleeved shirt and fitted, long pants with sunglasses, and special, yellowish shoes; and they were talking and eating till late at night in the restaurant. He only noticed after it that his shirt was torn. While getting ready, he was constantly thinking that after fifteen years, this was his first birthday as a divorced man and thinking about how bad it was going to be to live alone again.

He didn’t want to spoil his pal’s mood so during the dinner, he didn’t speak his mind; they were just cheerfully talking about the good things, and after going home, it was late at night in vain, he needed to be meditating before going to sleep to be able to fall asleep.

- Hi Gina – he answered the phone next morning, what woke him up – How come you’re calling?

- My series’ filming is gonna start soon. You know, which is about my character in Suits. During it, Delilah could be at your house – the woman came to the point.

- I thought it’s evident. While you’re the one who’s working, especially when you’ve got a leading role, she’s living at my house. We talked it over.

- But now you’re filming, too, you’re just not the co-star – his ex-wife said firmly.

- My scenes are shot already. When is your filming gonna start?

- Next week.

            The man was happy that he could be living together with her daughter soon. As an addition, exactly then, when he had to be dealing with his series “only”.

            After Delilah had arrived, they walked the dogs together a lot, and when she didn’t happen to be at school, he was even teaching the eleven-year-old girl to cook.

And then, of course, her sister’s latest scandal came.Then the reason why there was a warrant for her arrest, was because she didn’t go for the drug test, and left the city without permission. She stated she didn’t take any drugs, went through every drug test, and as she knew, any permission wasn’t necessary to leave for anywhere, she tried to visit her mother in New York.

Laurence didn’t know if he should tell her sister. And then it came into his head that maybe she would hear it for the first time at school if he wouldn’t tell her.

- What about having dinner in a restaurant tonight? – he asked Delilah in order to tell her there, where they were far from the home’s problems, so she would bear it better.

- In the Moun of Tunis? – his daughter answered back.

- I think it would be better somewhere else… In some new place. What about you’re choosing the place?

- Why? – the girl had misgivings.

- I’m gonna tell you there. So will you choose the place?

- OK, let’s go to the nearest restaurant, just tell me now! – Delilah said worryingly.

           Laurence agreed to it, but before dinner, he was still using his trampoline and meditated, and his daughter was using the internet during it.

When her father was ready, he told her that they were setting off.

He noticed, frightened that her daughter was watching her phone, coming downstairs from her room – She was surely using the internet till then too, and maybe she already knew it – he thought – Although she surely would have spoken about it…

But she didn’t even dress up. Although surely because this time she was only curious to know what he wanted to tell her… - it came into his head. Just this once, he didn’t dress up, either, because of this.

They were going by car even to the nearest restaurant, so his daughter couldn’t get it out from him even accidentally, what he got to know.

- Will you tell me now why we’re here? – Delilah asked restlessly, as soon as they had sat down at a free table.

- First, choose, and I’m gonna tell you while eating – the man said so during it, eating’s joy would compensate for the further disappointment in her sister. That was why he took her exactly to a restaurant, and that was why he didn’t want to tell her on the way.

- It’s like you’re deferring it. Did some big trouble happen?

- In the end, any such thing didn’t happen which would be very new…

The girl guessed by his tone that it was about Montana again and that any big trouble didn’t happen to her either, and she calmed down.

Laurence calmed down, too, that the news weren’t going to shake her very much, because she counted on a much worse thing, so after they had chosen, they weren’t even talking about anything else until the meals were brought but he decided to get it over with it already before it, and told her.

Already before his daughter could have answered, a white, ginger-haired, blue-eyed woman came up to them.

- Laurence! Is it you?! We haven’t met for a thousand years! – she began to speak excitedly.

- Bronwyn from the acting school? – the man asked politely.

- Yes, we went to the same school decades ago! – the woman grinned – Is it your daughter? – she asked shyly.

- Yeah, it’s Delilah… I would say to you to sit down but I think you’re eating with somebody else.

- No, we just finished eating off, and I was just setting off for home when I noticed you.

- Then sit down! – Laurence said loosely, smiling.

- Is it sure that I’m not bothering you two? – Bronwyn asked shyly.

- Dad just told you to sit down! – the girl said loosely, too. She decided to make them a couple.

- Thank you – the woman obeyed, smiling shyly – So you are Delilah. And how old are you?

- Eleven – Delilah answered cheerfully.

The waiter had brought the food, Bronwyn also ordered a whine, and she continued getting to know each other with the girl, and then the man and his daughter jointly told how many things have happened since they met, and the woman told that she became an actress, too, but she only played in the theater, and fifteen years ago, married a minister who’s thirty-seven years older than her. Bronwyn was forty-four years old.

- We’ve got to go now. Delilah has to go to sleep in time before school, but if you give me your number, I continue the conversation with pleasure – Laurence said after it.

- You don’t have any social media, either?! Neither do I! – the woman laughed.

- If I had, my data would be on the internet forever, which I don’t want. So do you give me your number? – the man gave his phone to her.

Bronwyn gave him her number, smiling, and then they said goodbye to one another, grinning.

It came into Laurence’s head on the way home that while they were talking with the woman, he completely forgot why he was there, and that Delilah hadn’t even had an opportunity to have a comment, but it seemed it didn’t even bother his daughter. And instead of it would have come into his head to ask what her idea was about what happened to Montana, it was on his mind that Bronwyn how feminine and charming woman became over the last decades. Delilah saw what effect the woman had on him so she didn’t mention the original subject, either; she was only happy that it seemed she would succeed, or already succeeded in getting his father a partner. She saw that her mother was much happier since she had a new partner, and pitied Laurence that it wasn’t that way about him. She thought the reason why the old friend agreed to be sitting with them and the reason why she gave him her number, was because she got divorced from her husband yet, or that old man died yet, or they were divorcing. She saw that she liked the man, too.

#laurence fishburne #keanu reeves #gina torres #montana fishburne

[vendettaparker]

Peanut Butter and Extra Jelly [T.H]

Summary: Tom’s long time crush on you becomes painful when you and Harrison are cast as love interests in a movie. 

Paring: Tom Holland x Actress!Reader 

Word Count: 5.8k

Warning: Suggestive themes, fake smut (very light), jealousy, probably some typos, swearing 

a/n: i have no idea how filming a movie, or auditioning for one actually goes so don’t crucify me for this. i’m pretty happy with how this turned out, especially considering that this is the most i’ve ever written for a fic. also, Burt Kreisher is one of my fav comedians in real life, he has 3 shows on neflix and a mini series.  

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     Tom was not a jealous person. At least, that's what he always told himself. He prided himself in thinking he was a very level headed individual who didn’t let his emotions get the best of him. That worked best for his job anyways; always being able to control his emotions and not get in his own head. That simple, pacifistic mindset seemed to change when it came to you. 

      You were one of the many actors Tom got the pleasure to help hone their technique and work closely with. You were new to the lifestyle of Hollywood and the only roles you had before were in small indie films that never garnered too much attention. The first major role that you landed, which also happened to help kickstart your career, was in the MCU. You played the secondary villain in the third Spider-man movie. 

     Meeting the cast was a dream come true; they were all extremely helpful and they provided tons of tips and tricks in navigating the hectic schedule required for such a huge production. By the time filming wrapped up, you were considered part of their little Spider-man family. 

     Tom was easily the most helpful. Whenever he saw you struggling with anything, he offered to help. You two spent hours upon hours together in his trailer, ordering take out and practicing lines. Some nights you two planned to work through your script, but inevitably ended up falling asleep binge watching The Office, and laughing about crazy shit that happened on set that day. 

     When the movie wrapped up and you went home for a month before the press tour, you were completely unsure and nervous about what direction your career was going in. You auditioned for a few new movies, but had yet to hear from any of the directors about casting decisions. You kept in touch Tom during the month you were apart and expressed your concerns. 

     “I don’t know, Tom. I’m just so sick of waiting around and hoping that some director out there throws me a bone, ya know’?” You said on facetime, while making cookies. 

     “Yeah, I totally understand that, (Y/N/N). I had that issue a couple years ago before the Marvel movies. Trust me, you did outstanding in that role and once it gets noticed I’m positive you’ll have directors calling you, begging for you to audition.” Tom smiled warmly into the camera as he walked around his apartment in London. 

      “Yeah, easy for you to say, movie-star.” You giggled, turning your face away from the camera in hopes that Tom wouldn’t notice the blush his compliments painted onto your cheeks 

     “I’m serious! You were outstanding! Like in that one scene where you—” 

      “Tom! Tessa chewed a hole in my trousers again!” A voice came from outside of the frame, “Mate, you gotta get her to stop doing that somehow.” 

     Tom sighed, and waved his hand dismissively at the figure, “Okay, sure. I’m busy right now.” Tom looked back to the camera, “anyways, as I was saying, don’t stress about not having a new project yet, (Y/N)—” 

     “(Y/N)?” The other voice whisper-yelled. “Let me say hi!”, suddenly the phone was yanked out of Tom's hands and the video shook around a bit as Tom wrestled to get it back. Finally, the camera stilled and Harrison was on the other end smiling. “Hi, (Y/N)!” 

     “Oh, hi Harrison!” You smiled back, laughing. You'd met Harrison a few times when he visited Tom on set. “How are you?” 

     The camera started moving around more as the background behind Harrsion whizzed past. You assumed Tom must’ve been chasing him to get the phone back. 

     “I’m good! I just auditioned for a new movie. You should audition too! The main female lead’s description looks just like you.” He exclaimed, running past the kitchen to his room. 

     “Oi! Give me my phone back you div!” You heard Tom yelling in the background, no doubt in hot pursuit of Harrison. 

     “I don’t know, I'm not sure I’m prepared for a lead role.” You sighed, “What’s the movie called? I’ll look into it.” 

     “It’s called ‘Collateral Damage’, it’s a spy movie.” Harrison said, shutting the door to his room, while Tom pounded on it from the other side. “Yeah, it’d be really fun working with you. Tom constantly talks about how much fun you are on set.” Harrison wheezed out, trying to catch his breath. 

      “Aw, that’s sweet of him.” You laughed. “Well I’ve got to go. Just tell Tom he can call me tomorrow or something.” You waved at the camera. “Bye!”

     “Yup, bye.” Harrison said right before the video cut out. 

      Harrison finally opened the door to a seething Tom. Tom grabbed the phone back from Harrison and noticed that the call had ended. 

     “Dude! Why would you do that?” Tom whined. 

     Harrison just patted Tom’s back, “Sorry, mate. She said she had to go, though. I was about to give the phone back.” 

     Tom huffed and sulked for a moment. “Whatever, I’ll just call her later, I guess.” 

     Harrison nodded and smirked at how whipped Tom was. “You should just ask her out if you’re so desperate for her attention.” Harrison teased. 

     “Shut up. I’m not desperate for her attention, I just like her voice and her personality, and the way she talks, and her funny sayings, and how her hair looks when she just woke up.” 

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     It was only a few days later when you received an email from the director of the movie Harrison told you about, asking for you to audition. You were ecstatic, Harrison must’ve already sent in some things about you since the director seemed adamant that you were of high interest for the role. 

     You called Tom immediately to share the good news. 

     He picked up after the third ring, “Hello, darling! How are you?” he beamed when he answered your call. He usually was the one to call you so he felt a sense of pride knowing that you were calling him for once. 

     “Tom! The director of the movie Harrison auditioned for just emailed me asking for me to audition!” You squealed excitedly. 

     “Really? That’s wonderful, love! Harrison just got the part of the lead too, so you’d be filming with him if you got it.” 

     “That’s so exciting, I’m flying to London for the audition in two days. Are you still there?” You pulled the phone away from your ear and switched it to speaker. “I’m booking the flight right now.” 

     “Yeah, I’ll be in London for another week and a half. Then we have the press tour starting in Japan.” Tom said, also switching to speaker phone to look at his calendar. “You can stay with Harrison and I while you’re here. Since we have to go to Japan together anyways.” Tom offered nervously. He really wanted you to stay in his flat with him. It’d be all cute and domestic, and maybe, just maybe, he’d spend enough time with you to not feel nervous about asking you on a date. If he was lucky, that is, but awaiting your reply he was a jittery ball of nerves. 

     “Yeah, that sounds wonderful. I won't be intruding though, right?” You said, smiling from ear to ear. Thank god you weren’t on facetime and Tom couldn’t see the stupid smile adoring your features. 

     “No, of course not. Harry will be so excited to see you. And Tessa too, she really misses you.” Tom shuffled around with his phone, shooting a quick text to Harrison letting him know you were coming to stay for a week. 

     “Ok, thanks so much, this is really thoughtful of you. I absolutely can’t wait to see you!” You gushed, finalizing your purchase of a one-way ticket to London. “K, the flight is at 2:30 pm here, it’s about 9 and a half hours, but you’re also ahead of me, so I’ll be in around..5?”

     “Yeah, that sounds right to me,” Tom chuckled, “I’ll come pick you up. I’ll wear my incognito disguise.” 

     “If you mean that stupid t-shirt you got that says ‘I’M NOT A CELEBRITY’, then maybe I’ll ask Harrison to come pick me up…”

     “That’s cold (Y/L/N).” 

     You giggled softly, “I’m sorry, Tommy. If it makes you feel better, that shirt isn’t as bad as that stupid blue beanie that you never wear correctly.”

     “How the fuck would that make me feel better? You’re killing me, (Y/N/N).” 

     You laughed at his over dramatic reaction, “Sorry that you’re a sensitive babe. I gotta go now, see you soon!” You hung up before Tom could respond with a sassy quip. Then immediately after you received a text:

Tommy: The second you get here I’m bout to 👊 

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     Tom called Harrison up after you got off the phone, he needed to make sure his best friend wouldn’t say or do anything to embarrass him in front of you. 

     “Tom, don’t you think this is a bit obsessive? I mean, she’s only staying with us for a week and you already know her so well from spending all that time filming with her.” Harrison sighed, sick of listening to Tom ramble about every possible embarrassing situation he could be put in, in the coming week. 

     “Yeah, yeah, you’re right. It's no big deal. But don’t mention that time I accidentally shit my pants at the club, or that time I got hit in the head with a golf ball ‘cus I got distracted by a flock of geese, or that time a got chased by a flock of geese, or—”

     “Geez, mate. At this point we might as well not even talk to her.” Harrison chuckled, thinking of all the stories he could bring up about Tom around the dinner table with you. Tom really was just a walking ball of embarrassing moments. 

     “Stoppp ittt,” Tom whined, “when we were on set it was usually just the cast and Harry around, but you? You could do some real fucking damage to my love life, Haz.” 

     “What love life?” Harrison barked out, laughing. 

     Tom then hung up and began praying to whatever god was out there that this week could go by without a hitch, and then you and him would be on your way, together, to Japan. 

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     The whole week spent in London actually went really well, especially the audition. Tom and Harrison both accompanied you for moral support, well Harrison actually had to be there to be your scene partner, but it was still nice knowing he supported you. 

     The director shook your hand and you went through the normal formalities before beginning your scene with Harrison. It was a quick scene with a monologue in it. The main premise of the movie was all about choosing love over work, especially in dangerous, life-threatening scenarios. The scene you used to audition with Harrison was the scene where the main character, Lincoln, and his lover interest, Mallory, were arguing, trying to push each other away to keep each other safe. The scene had a lot of raw emotion that you were able to tap into, and the directors gave your performance a standing ovation once the scene concluded. 

     They said that they’d get back to you within the next few days, but they also mentioned how the chemistry between you and Harrison was off the charts, leaving you hopeful. Tom and Harrison both gave you hugs and pats on the back. Tom had watched the whole scene unfold and he was in complete and utter awe of your talent. Part of him was annoyed that he didn’t audition for the movie and a chance as your love interest. But Harrison deserved this big break and so did you, so he was hopeful of the outcome being something that benefitted both of his best friends. 

    After the audition the rest of the week went by nearly perfectly. The real kicker was when Tom’s family invited you and Harrison to join them for dinner. Tom had not anticipated his mom asking you to come to family dinner, so he wasn’t able to stop the embarrassing anecdotes his mom told on his behalf. 

     “Tom had the cutest little tush,” Nikki exclaimed, placing the old homemade scrapbook in your lap and flipping through a couple of pages. “See look,” she happily pointed to a picture of Tom as a toddler in a bath, surrounded by bubbles, his little bum poking through them. 

     Tom sat uncomfortably on the sofa next to you, cringing at the now 21 year old photo of him. He expected you to also cringe along, or worse case scenario, get up and make a flimsy excuse to leave his crazy family, but you just chuckled along with Nikki and continued making your way through the scrapbook, making little comments here and there. 

     “Oh, and this one,” Nikki said, pointing to a photo of Tom crying and Sam holding up a superhero action figure triumphantly, “that was Tom’s favorite toy, but when Sam saw how much Tom liked it, he made an effort to always be playing with it when Tom came into the room and he wouldn’t share.”

     You giggled at the little whiny face Tom made in the picture, and turned to him, replicating it on your face, making fun of him. Tom laughed along and playfully shoved you. He adored how well you seemed to fit in with his family and his feelings for you only multiplied. 

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     The week in London was one of the best in your life. You didn’t realize how much you missed Tom until you got to the airport and he was there waiting for you, unfortunately in his stupid blue beanie, and no, it wasn’t on right, his big ears poked out of it horrendously. 

     The last day you had in London before you and Tom went to Japan, you finally received a call about the audition. The director called you to congratulate you on getting the part, and he sent you numerous emails about scheduling, where to be, and when. Harrison was elated to have a familiar face playing his love interest on screen, and Tom was over the moon excited for you, this on top of the Spider-man movie coming out, you were certainly becoming a force to be reckoned with. 

     You spent the night celebrating at a club, Harry and Sam also showed up to party with you. The night was still young and the club was already packed and in full swing. Tom ordered two shots for each of you to start off the night before he was whisked away by a few fans to sign autographs. When he didn’t return you took it upon yourself to have his shots, giving you an extra edge to help spice up your night. 

     Harrison found Tom in the corner of the club talking to some fans. But throughout his whole time taking pictures with them, he couldn’t help but glance at you every once and a while. You looked so carefree and beautiful, dancing around in your shiny silver top and leather leggings. 

      “Tom.” Harrison interrupted Tom’s gawking and directed his attention to the small group of fans Tom was with. 

     Tom nodded and finished up his pictures and autographs before wishing them all a good and safe night. Once he reached you, you engulfed him in a bone crushing hug. 

     “Thank you for such a great time in London, Tommy.” you slurred, already feeling the impact of the four shots you took. “I had the best time of my whole life.” You pecked his cheek and pulled him close to dance with you. 

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     The following month or so on the press tour was a once in a lifetime experience. You travelled to more cities than you even knew the name of and you had all of your friends by your side. More so, you had motivation to remain approachable and well liked by fans considering that you were moving up in the industry. Some interviews were mostly for Tom, Zendaya, and Jacob. Your role in the movie was big enough for you to be needed for some interviews, and most people were genuinely interested in getting to know you, but there were also a handful of press activities that you weren’t included in, which you didn’t mind. 

     When you didn’t have anything to do for an hour or so, you would text Harrison and send him funny memes. He was quickly becoming one of your closest friends; you had already created a surplus of inside jokes with him just over the phone. 

     Tom noticed how you were always laughing at your phone or rapid fire texting. Even when you were being interviewed, Tom could faintly hear the buzz of your text message notifications going off. 

     “Tom,” you snapped in front of his eyes, “did you need something?” 

     “Huh?” Tom blinked a few times, “Uh—no, sorry.” Tom’s cheeks flushed pink, embarrassed for having been caught staring at you. He couldn’t help it though, you were dressed so pretty that day. You had your hair done up in two bubble braids and you wore his pink sweatshirt over your yellow sundress. 

     “Okay then.” You smiled at him. You went back to your phone, reading what Harrison had just texted you. “What was the name of that comedian we watched the other night?” 

     “The one on Netflix?” 

     You hummed out a yes, tapping away at your phone. 

     “Burt Kreisher, why?” Tom asked, leaning over to your chair to try and catch a glimpse of who you were texting. When he saw the contact name “Hazzy”, he couldn't stop the little angry pit of jealousy that started in his stomach. Sure, you were here with him now, not with Harrison, but when you two were apart you also texted him nonstop, and the texts seemed to all be inside jokes, which was something you also shared with him that he held near and dear.

     “I made a joke referencing him to Harrison and he didn’t get it. Fucking nerd.” You chuckled, texting Harrison a link to the skit you were referring to. 

     Tom chuckled along, but he couldn’t help but frown slightly at how bright your smile was when Harrison replied. 

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     The press tour and premiere of the movie seemed to go by lighting fast. You’d never been to a premiere for a production this big, and your nerves for the red carpet were starting to get to you. 

     You and Zendaya were stuffed into a hotel room with both of your respective teams, both trying to rapidly get both of you ready for the event. 

     “So when do you start filming for your next project?” Zendaya asked, she sat in front of a broadway-equse mirror, bright bulbs of light giving a luminescent glow to her already near flawless complexion. She hadn’t even finished her makeup yet and she was so pretty.  

     “In a month, I have to go back to London next week.” You said, sifting through the opinions you brought for dresses. You brought three options, just in case you changed your mind after seeing yourself in the dress. “Harrison and I are going to go over the scripts together and we were also told to go out in public a few times; for press and whatnot.” 

      “That’s exciting!” Zendaya mused, she glanced at the clock and gave her hairdresser some instructions about how much time she had to do hair. “It’s a good thing you guys are already friends. I remember when I filmed ‘The Greatest Showman’ I didn’t know many of the actors personally, so we had to go out together and do press all while being almost strangers. It was a bit nerve wracking.” Zendaya smiled at you fondly, she was like an older sister to you during this whole movie-making process, she constantly had your back. 

     “Yeah, I mean I’ll probably be in a situation like that at some point, but for my first lead role it’s nice to be working opposite a friend.” You smiled back, finally deciding on the red, sequined dress. 

     You both sat and worked through the makeup process in comfortable silence. 

     “So you and Tom…” Zendaya broke the silence and looked at you with a smirk on her face. 

     “What?” You looked at her with a dumbfounded look, before nervously laughing, “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

     “Don’t play dumb, (Y/N/N).” She poked your arm and laughed, “He’s literally obsessed with you.” 

     You laughed at how ridiculous that sounded. A movie star, and very famous movie star at that, obsessed with you? You? Impossible. 

     “Yeah no, sorry but you got the wrong girl, babe.” You sighed, pulling out your phone to snap and selfie with her for your instagram story. You quickly snapped a pic of the two of you, her kissing your cheek, leaving a small, faint lipstick mark. “I mean it’d be nice,” you back tracked, “but I’m sure that’s just my wishful thinking.” 

     “What wishful thinking? I thought you were a pessimist?” Zendaya chuckled, taking her own photo with you to post later. 

     “I am, but I can’t help but indulge a bit.” 

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     Before you knew it, you were back in London, staying in a rented out flat for the next three to four months. Harrison was kind enough to come over to help you set up a work space, but he also offered you to spend most of your time at his place. Since Tom was in New York, doing interviews about the new Spider-man movie and having meetings with the Marvel Cinematic Universe team to try and gauge his future in the MCU, he wouldn’t be around for almost a month, so Harrison offered up Tom’s office when you needed to go over a scene by yourself and wanted a place that was already set up. 

     The days of filming seemed to go by in the blink of an eye. Most of your scenes were with Harrison, and he was the perfect scene partner. He rarely messed up, but if he did then he was quick to use it as an opportunity to improvise. His skills weren’t as well honed in like Tom’s, but it was obvious that their style ranged from a similar source. 

     The main thing about this movie that you were excited, but extremely nervous for, were the two sex scenes. The first one is at the beginning, where the two leads give in to each other for a night, then there's some implied stuff in between, and the last one is when the two leads part ways for the final time at the end of the movie. The first one had to be rough, fast, and needy, whereas the second one was direct to be more slow, thought out, and sensual. 

      Both were extremely stress-inducing to film. Harrison had also never done any scenes like this before, so he was on the same boat as you. Thankfully you had an amazing director and stunt coordinator to work with and with the help of other crew members, the scenes were mapped out so that it wasn’t too much improv or guessing on your part. 

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     The first intimate scene you shot actually happened to be the one at the end of the movie. That scene was more tame and dealt with more emotional subtexts than physical. Since you filmed that one first, you went into filming the next one with more confidence. It only took a few days to get the first scene down to perfection, so with this newfound confidence, it shouldn’t take too long to get the next one done. 

     On the days you shot intimate scenes, you only needed to wear the costume you wore before the scene and then you changed into a robe with nude underwear underneath. The bits with the outfit on before were already shot, so the director called a 30 minute break until you could begin shooting the actual sex part. 

     You were standing by the snack table, eyes scanning the table for any more muffins leftover from breakfast. The robe you wore made your skin prickle whenever a draft came onto set. 

     Just as you had found the muffin you were looking for, a pair of warm hands covered your eyes. 

     “Guess who!” An all too familiar warm, British accentuated, voice called. 

      You turned around in his arms, effectively nudging his hands from your face, and soon you were met with the warmest hazel eyes. Eyes that you missed so much this past month. 

      “Tommy!” You squealed and thrusted yourself into him in a hug. He immediately reciprocated it and wrapped your body in warmth. “What’re you doing here?” You asked once you let go of him. 

      “Harrison gave me the location so I could come watch you film. I just got home, like, two days ago.” Tom eyed you up and down, not realizing what little you had on. “Um—are you wearing anything under that?” He pointed up and down your figure. 

     “Nope, today and tomorrow we’re scheduled to film the sex scene.” You said casually, doing a silly twirl. Tom gulped. 

     “A s-sex scene?” He choked, “I didn’t know you guys had one.” 

     “Yup,” you smirked, “two actually, this is my first one ever, Haz’s too, I think. Well actually, we filmed the sex scene at the end of the movie last week.” 

     “Yeah… t-that’s cool.” Tom smiled weakly. 

     Right as you were about to continue your conversation with Tom, an arm swung over your shoulder and pulled you close. Harrison smiled at the both of you. He wore a similar robe to yours, except he left the front open. His plaid boxers on full display. 

     “Don’t listen to her, Tom. She’s a natural.” Harrison pinched your cheeks. Tom clenched his jaw at the comment. He knew Harrison hadn't meant to imply anything with it, but he couldn't help but hear the hidden meaning behind the otherwise innocent compliment. 

      You giggled and pushed his hand away, “Only ‘cus my scene partner is so darn cute.” You retaliated, poking and tickling his pecs. 

      This kind of goofy banter was normal between you and Harrison, but Tom hadn’t seen either of you in so long. He also had never seen you two interact so fluently with each other. He watched the interaction with a tight-lipped smile, nodding along and shrugging every once in a while to seem like he was paying attention. In reality though, he couldn’t pry his thoughts away from how close you were to Harrison. 

     “Ok everyone! Places! Let’s wrap this scene up and put it to rest today!” Your director called. You and Harrison smiled and waved goodbye to Tom. Harrison pointed to a chair in the room that had a nice view of the set where Tom could watch. Tom nodded and walked over to the chair, enthusiasm for watching you work completely dissipating. 

     The scene started off rough right off the bat. The second the director said ‘Action!’ you and Harrison were practically pouncing on each other. Harrison had you pressed up against the wall and you were both breathing heavily. He was leaving sloppy, wet kisses down your neck, then across your collar bones. Your moans, which Tom always imagined to sound like music to his ears, sounded too real for his liking. But no matter how much he tried to look away, his eyes were glued to the two bodies moving fluidly with one another. 

     “Cut! Cut!” The director yelled, effectively ending the scene. You and Harrison pulled apart and he gave you a peck on the cheek, as in saying ‘good job’. “That was good, but Harrison,” The blonde nodded, awaiting further instruction. “You gotta be a little rougher, hm?” 

     Harrison nodded along with the critique. “(Y/N)?” the director moved his attention to you, “would it be okay if Harrison marked you up? Just a few hickeys to really sell the illusion. We can do without, though, if you feel uncomfortable.” 

     Tom overheard the interaction and internally hoped that you were too uncomfortable for that, but deep down he knew you would do it. You were never the type to stray away from a challenge. 

     “Yeah, that’s fine.” You nodded, chest still heaving from the scene. You looked at Harrison. “Is that okay with you?” 

     Harrison nodded, a shy smile tugging at his lips. Yeah, you guys have been working at this scene for days now, but he’d never been rough enough to leave marks. He’d be lying if he said the thought didn’t invigorate him. 

     So the scene started from the top, you pressed up against the wall, all your weight shoved between the flimsy wall of the set and Harrison’s strong arms. Harrison did exactly as the director required, leaving noticeable dark spots across the top of your chest. Unlike your previous moans, which had just been for show, this new roughness in his actions tore real moans from your lips. 

     Tom sat uncomfortably in his chair, wishing he picked a different day to visit you on set. He shifted around, watching twin moans pull from both you and Harrison’s throat. He watched as you nipped at Harrison's ear as he faux thrusted into you. The jealousy that had pitted itself in his stomach soon turned to self-loathing. You looked really into the scene, he couldn’t help but feel like he was intruding. He knew you were a great actress, but he couldn’t believe that this was all acting. In his eyes, he believed that some part of you must wish that this was real. And part of you did like this scenario, but you wouldn’t have picked Harrison to be opposite you in this little fantasy. 

     Your moans and Harrisons both grew louder, leading up to the climax as scripted. Tom, not wanting to watch anymore exited the set quickly before he could watch the scene end. 

     You and Harrison finished up, gaining applause and praise afterwards from the director and crew members on set. 

     “Where’s Tom?” You asked, scrambling back into your robe and smoothing out your now roughed up hair. 

     Harrison, now noticing the absence of his best friend, began to feel a bit guilty. He knew Tom had a thing for you, maybe he should’ve told Tom not to visit set today. 

     “Um, (Y/N)?” He mumbled, pulling you aside slightly. 

     “Yeah?” You still looked around for Tom a bit, heart sinking when you realized that he must've left without saying goodbye. 

      “I shouldn’t be the one telling you this,” Harrison began, drawing your full attention, “but Tom really likes you. He always downplayed it, so I didn’t realize how much, but I think watching this scene might’ve upset him a bit.” Harrison looked towards the exit, no doubtedly where Tom left through, out into the parking lot. 

     “Oh—oh!” You gasped, feeling terribly for having put Tom in such an awkward position. “I didn’t know he felt the same.” You whispered, smiling softly to yourself. Guess Z was right after all. You pulled away from Harrison, “I’ll go talk to him.” 

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      Tom didn’t go far. He still wanted to be there to support you; he didn’t want to come off as a jealous prick, but he couldn’t keep watching that intimacy between you and his best friend. He sat on the curb outside of the building the set was built in. A few people passed him going to their designated buildings on the lot, but he didn’t pay any mind to them, too lost in his thoughts. He needed to tell you sooner rather than later how he felt. No time to be a pussy anymore. 

     “Tom?” You walked up next to his sitting figure, still only in a robe, tightly wrapped around you. He looked up to acknowledge you, mumbling a soft ‘Hey.’ before looking back down, trying to collect his thoughts and courage. It’s now or never. 

     You sat beside him and rested your head on his shoulder. “Harrison told me something interesting in there,” You paused for a moment before continuing, “about you.” 

     Tom’s head shot up, and he looked at you with frantic eyes, only imagining the worse. There were too many things Harrison could’ve told you about Tom to sully your image of him. 

     “Whatever it was, he's a lying prick!” Tom rushed out. 

     You giggled, lifting your head up to look him in the eyes, his dark hazel eyes boring into yours. 

     “That’s a shame then,” You shrugged, “considering I like you too.” 

     Tom breathed out a sigh of relief, before looking back at you, doing a double take. 

    “Wait, what?” 

     “Mhm, yeah.” You said casually, standing up. “But since Harrison’s a liar then I suppose he was wrong.” You teased. 

     “No!” Tom grabbed your wrist and pulled you back next to him, but his aim was a bit off and you ended up in his lap. “He lies about a lot, but not about this.”

     You smiled at him, “I should hope not, considering I’m crazy about you.” 

     Tom couldn’t help the smile that beamed across his face, but then he noticed the marks left on you by Harrison. Remembering why he was insecure in the first place, he looked away. 

     “What about Harrison?” He asked. You looked at him utterly confused. Tom caught on and explained further. “You looked like you were really into that scene with him.” 

     You giggled and pinched Tom’s cheek, turning it red. “I’m an actress, you idiot.”

     Tom scoffed, “I know that. It’s just— I didn’t realize you could fake that kind of love.” 

     You looked at Tom’s downcast face. You leaned in and kissed his neck, just under his jaw. You nipped and sucked softly, leaving a nice, dark pink blotch that would go away in a few days under his jaw and he whimpered softly.

     “I’d never fake that kind of love with you.” You grabbed his face, holding it gently in your hands. “I’d never have to.” You whispered, pulling him in for a kiss, soft and sweet. 

     Tom pulled you closer, resting a hand on the small of your back, kissing back fervently. 

     The short make-out session being cut short by the door to the set bursting opened. Harrison rushing out, now dressed in slacks and a white button up for the next scene you needed to shoot that day. 

     “(Y/N)! Hair and makeup need you.” You lugged yourself off of Tom’s lap, promising to talk to him after you finished for the day. You went back inside, jokingly blowing a kiss to Harrison on your way. 

     Harrison stayed outside and sat next to Tom. 

     “Did she confess first?” He asked after a moment of silence. 

     “Yup.” Tom smiled happily, licking his lips, tasting the strawberry chapstick he saw you put on earlier. 

     “You owe me 10 pounds then, you wimp.” 

     “Oh, fuck off.” Tom groaned, promptly pulling ten pounds out of his wallet and handing it to Haz. 

#tom holland x reader #tom holland x actress!reader #tom holland angst #tom holland fluff #tom holland x y/n #tom holland oneshot #tom holland fanfic #tom holland smut #harrison osterfeild fluff #harrison osterfield #platonic!harrison osterfield

[maxwell-grant]

Having asked your thoughts on designing Frankenstein's daemon, might I now ask your thoughts on bringing Count Dracula from the written word into illustration? (I'm definitely in favour of the 'Hairy Old Mountain Man of Horror pretending he's people' look from the original novel; one of the small tests too many Draculas fail to pass is an absolutely tragic lack of the Evil Beard and/or Wicked Moustache explicitly described by Mr Stoker).

Unlike with Frankenstein, where I think the design needs to be painstakingly thought out in order to achieve the best balance of the creature's traits for horror and tragedy alike, I think with Dracula you can actually just take an approach of "whatever works". Because as I mentioned before, I think much of the appeal and longevity of Dracula is how the character's both a layered villain as well as a shapeshifting narrative force that can be tailored to whatever you want to do with. Granted, there are bad or dissappointing Dracula designs, of course there are, but in regards to the leeway you get for reinterpretation, you get a lot more of it with Dracula than with other literary icons.

Like with Frankenstein, I'm gonna bring up how I'd tackle a less grim, more comedy-centric Dracula first, one that's less a force of horror and more of a charismatic villain, and I think to that end I definitely agree that people are sleeping a lot on the hairy old man barely-passing-off-as-humanoid of the original story. Despite very much loving these performers, I'm actually not a fan of takes that mold Dracula too closely to people who've portrayed him, like Bela Lugosi and Christopher Lee, partially because I think it's a waste of an opportunity to create your own Dracula design. Since I can't draw (yet), I'll do what I usually do and make a board of images to try and convey some of my thoughts on one way I'd design Dracula.

(Pictured: Kiwi's design for Dracula, Hotel Transylvania concept art, Nandor, Castlevania Dracula, Charles Dance in Dracula Untold, Vladislav, a Transylvanian rug)

I used the images in my other Dracula post and I’ll post it here again because I absolutely adore @kiwibyrd's designs for Dracula and it's main heroes, in particular I love the way it strikes a good balance at making sure Dracula looks distinctly separate from the humans, but not too much that he couldn't conceivably operate in society as just a harmless old man. I also adore the mustache and bushy eyebrows and pointy ears and I think these three are wonderful features to keep on any Dracula design. I'm also very partial to the Hotel Transylvania concept art, even if it makes me incredibly depressed to look at all the great designs they had for Dracula that they threw in the trash because they somehow decided making him look like Adam Sandler was the idea to go with.

I deeply adore What We Do In The Shadows, both the movie and the show, and Jemaine Clement's Vladislav is one of my favorite (maybe even my actual favorite) on-screen Draculas. But I also enjoy Nandor just as much, and I think it's really great that as a character he's completely different from Vlad while also being ostensibly a take on Dracula, and in particular I bring up his Jersey look because "Dracula in common clothing" is a criminally underrated concept for a joke.

As a character, I'm very partial to comedy takes on Dracula that play him up as a decadent aristocratic supervillain, the kind that can get away with talking in third person. I also have this idea for a version of Dracula who dresses ostentatiously in finely-broidered Romanian or Transylvanian patterns, maybe even wearing a rug as a cape, claiming that he's carrying the legacy of his people on his back. And of course he's lying, he's not Vlad Tepes and he's not even Romanian, he is just a parasite pretending to have a history to be proud of, but good luck getting him to admit that. And finally, I'd like this version to be played by Charles Dance, and I consider it a tremendous crime against humanity that he has yet to play Dracula proper even despite being in a film with the character's name on the title.

So that's kinda how I would design a take on Dracula for something more comedic or more based around him as this guest character and personality on-set. Now, if we're talking a more serious version, I think the possibilities increase, and I won't be getting into all of them because I may prefer to keep them to myself, but I'll elaborate a few ideas.

For example, the edition of Dracula I personally own comes with these really scratchy, really creepy B&W illustrations related to the story, that I can't find scanned online so I'm uploading them here so you can look at. They don't necessarily depict the scenes but rather some of the story's moments, like Van Helsing staking Lucy, Renfield in a straightjacket, Dracula as a coachman, and they are more focused on conveying the horror of the concepts at play.

Dracula never looks the same way in any of the illustrations, in fact you kinda have to piece him out of them by trying to find teeth or capes or eyes or bat-features to see where he's hiding this time. In the first, it's the half-man half-bat, in the 2nd, he's the shrieking bat silhouette next to Renfield, and in the latter, he's the gaping jaws and eerily humanoid eyes in the wolf. The effect to me almost feels like if you were to look at a bunch of tv static and then see a humanoid shape form for a split second before everything went back to normal, something like you'd get from Slender Man or other modern creepypastas, and I’ve argued before that Dracula’s form of horror is a very modern one. 

In terms of illustrations of Dracula that keep up the original traits while still pulling off horror, I definitely have to hand it to the one at the left of the image above, drawn by regourso on Deviantart (account deleted at present). Going back to Castlevania’s many takes on Dracula, two in particular that stick out to me would be Castlevania: Judgment’s armored dress Dracula, who’s got this great twisted heart/rose motif going on in his outfit, and Dracula’s final form in SOTN where he just sits in his throne and his cape twists into all these monsters, particularly how it’s depicted by witnesstheabsurd’s depiction. 

I’m not particularly a fan of how Dracula’s “final form” in these games is usually just some big demon, and part of what I like about his final form in SOTN instead is that, while it’s not a particularly challenging final boss, I do find it interesting the idea of us never actually getting to see what Dracula’s true final form looks like, only an ever-shifting pitch-black torrent of teeth and claws and bloody veins pouring out because that’s ultimately what Dracula is and brings to the world.

On the flip-side of the rotten old monster, we have the charming seductor Dracula, and while I’m really not a fan of how various adaptations have convinced people that “the point” of Dracula is that he’s a seductive force and an allegory for Victorian xenophobia and I’m reeeally even less of a fan of adaptations that make Dracula some misunderstood tragic hero (and I think I’ve made rather violently clear my feelings on interpretations that play up a romance between him and Mina), that the seductive force part exists is impossible to deny, so conversely, while on one hand we can have Dracula as the gargantuan whirlwind of predatory violence, we can also go for Dracula as the tantalizing lover.

I’ve seen a lot of opinions proclaiming Frank Langella as the best Dracula because he was the best at actually being seductive while still playing Dracula, although I haven’t yet seen his performances. If I had to point at one picture I look at and do buy for a second the idea of Dracula as a romantic character, it would be that particular still of Raul Julia in the left of the above image. And it’s strange for me to think of Raul Julia as attractive because I mainly associate him with his brilliant comedy performance of M.Bison (I know it’s far from the highlight of his career but, look, I grew up with Street Fighter, I can’t help it) but those eyes are definitely looking pretty convincing to me, if nothing else. 

And I’ve included this still of Sebastian Stan in the right because, during a conversation between me, @krinsbez and @jcogginsa about who could be a good fit for Dracula, jcog suggested Sebastian Stan, partially because he’s Romanian, and I’ve learned recently that Stan was actually interested in playing the character in Blumhouse’s upcoming remake. And you’d think I’d hate this idea  considering how much I don’t care for tragic anti-hero Draculas, but who says that’s what he’d have to play? 

Do you have any idea how much actors, who are traditionally known for heroic or supporting roles, usually LOVE it when you give them a chance to cut loose as the main villain?

I’d want Sebastian Stan to put all of his charm, all of his talent, all of his good looks and etc, into playing the absolute most vicious, bloodthirsty and irredeemable Dracula put on screen. Someone who is exceedingly, eerily good at being a lovable protagonist, who’s all smiles and charming eyes and politeness mannerisms and maybe even a funny accent, and then it isn't as funny when he's flying through your window intent on kidnapping babies to feed to his brides, except he may take a moment or two to do so because he's feeling pretty hungry himself right now.

Now, admittedly this is kind of a lot to juggle in regards to a single character, which is why my answer for questions like these inevitably has to be “depends on what I’m going for”. That being said, if I was going to try and cast someone who I think could both look the part of Dracula, as well as respectively, play “cartoon aristocrat” Dracula, “mercurial embodiment of evil” Dracula, as well as realistically be an attractive, even seductive performer who can charm viewers even as the character descends into horrible villainy, and juggle these performances even?

I think I’d have to go with Mads Mikkelsen. Not specifically because of Hannibal (I actually haven’t watched it yet), although it’s definitely a factor, the thing that actually made me pick him specifically is, other than his looks, his voice, his reputation for playing sinister characters, the fact that he loves the role and wants to play it, or how many people are deeply in love with this man, or that people already joke that he looks like a vampire, was watching him in Another Round, and specifically that glorious final scene where he’s just dancing to his heart’s content and just, moving with such spring in his step and such joyful vitality even though he’s past his mid-fifties, and that was the moment where, in regards to how much you all love this man, I went

And now I am going to add “casting Mads Mikkelsen as a dancing Dracula” to The List of Reasons Why I Became a Filmmaker.

#replies tag #dracula #horror tag #bram stoker #charles dance #sebastian stan #mads mikkelsen #castlevania #raul julia #wwdits #what we do in the shadows #vladislav #nandor

[wonderfulworldofmichaelford]

Michael After Midnight: Watchmen

Alan Moore.

Zack Snyder.

These two men are my archenemies. For years on my blog I’ve made it a point to mock both of these men. Alan Moore is a pompous, stuffy old bastard who gets ass-blasted every time someone turns his comics into a movie and subjected the world to Harry Potter firing lightning out of his peehole; Zack Snyder is like if Michael Bay was overly pretentious and liked slow-mo more than explosions, and also had a fanbase that makes the one for Pokemon look sane and rational in comparison. I have made fun of these guys so many times across the years, and now here they are, having both contributed to the work I’m reviewing tonight. But before we begin, I have a confession to make:

I don’t actually hate either of these guys.

Like yeah, they have both made some things that are undeniably ass, and Moore has a really pissy attitude (though it’s at least partially warranted with how he was treated in his heyday), but in general I like their stuff. Snyder has 300, one of my favorite action films ever, and his version of Justice League was solid if a bit ass-numbingly long. And Moore has a long and storied history in comic books, so just because he made a shitty boomer comic where he made Harry Potter the Antichrist doesn’t change the fact the first two volumes of League rule. And both of these men have one thing in common that I think is genuinely great: Watchmen.

Watchmen is Moore’s deconstruction of superheroes that dropped right around the time the Dark Age of comics was ready to get going, so he often gets blamed for starting it (which ignores Watchmen wasn’t this huge cultural icon at the time and so was way less influential than something like The Dark Knight Returns or The Death of Superman). It’s a fantastic tale with tons of brilliant visuals, multiple interwoven stories, fantastic characters, and some really deep shit to think about. Because of all that, the comic was for a long time considered unfilmable. Who would be insane enough to even try to tackle a comic this dense with supplementary material, background elements enhancing the narrative, and all that? Well, that insane man would be Mr. Snyder, who brought the same level of slavish reverence to this movie as he did to 300, right down to using the comic panels to storyboard. The resulting film is a genuinely great movie, maybe even one of the greatest superhero films ever made, though I’m not going to pretend this is a flawless masterpiece, because hoo boy are there some problems.

(Quick note: I am using the Director’s Cut as reference here. It’s the only version I’ve ever seen of the movie, and it has that trademark ass-numbing Snyder length, but I won’t hold it against him this time since I haven’t seen the theatrical cut or the cut where they shoehorn in the animated Black Freighter short film)

This movie has an absolutely phenomenal cast, and they all do a stellar job at bringing every character to life. Billy Crudup brings the cold, emotionally-detached aura Dr. Manhattan sorely needs; Patrick Wilson is as endearingly schlubby and vanilla as Nite Owl should be; Matthew Goode has that phenomenal, almost godly aura that Ozymandias should exude. There’s not a single bad choice in the house here, but there are two actors who stand head and shoulders above the rest. The first is Jeffery Dean Morgan as the Comedian, the resident psychotic asshole nominal hero who rapes, murders, and commits crime against humanity after crime against humanity under the government’s orders as well as for shits and giggles. This guy was Peacemaker before Peacemaker (except he was also based on Peacemaker) and despite being one of the most morally reprehensible characters in the entire movie, Morgan makes him an utter blast to watch. I don’t think anyone could have possibly brought the man to life quite as well as Morgan did.

But the best of all is, you guessed it, Jackie Earle Haley as Rorschach. To this day, there are few comic book movie casting choices that are so utterly perfect. The comic Rorschach came off as more of an emotionless sociopath than anything else, but here in the film Haley plays him as a snarling, ranting lunatic that a guy like Rorschach definitely would be; I mean, the dude’s essentially Alex Jones as a vigilante, he needs to be rabidly psychotic. Haley just absolutely kills it in every scene he’s in, delivers all of the famous lines with gusto, and is the part of the film absolutely no one will dispute is perfect (except maybe Alan Moore).

The story is kept mostly intact, with fairly little changed. This is both a blessing and a curse. On the one hand, Watchmen has such a great story that you really wouldn’t want to change anything, would you? Most of the alterations are pragmatic, such as the squid blowing up New York being changed into Dr. Manhattan being framed, so it’s not really too bad or anything. On the other hand, though, it’s to the point where things are so dense it’s hard to filter through it if you haven’t already read the comic. And if you’ve read the comic, why would you want to watch the movie? You’ve seen this all already! You’re basically just watching the world’s most elaborate audiobook at that point.

It doesn’t help that Snyder kinda misses the point in some regards, such as the heightened violence. People often (rightfully) point to the scene where Laurie and Dan brutalize thugs in an alleyway, a scene that just absolutely makes no sense in regards to the characters or narrative and that is just unbelievably stupid, but that’s just the obvious one. The one that has always bugged me more is in Rorschach’s flashback to the kidnapped little girl where, instead of chaining the killer up and leaving him to die in a fire, he kills the guy with a cleaver instead. It sort of changes the context of things, making Rorschach’s breaking point far more generic and honestly less powerful than in the comic. There’s also the excising of a lot of the iconic subplots of the comic, which again, makes sense because of the difference in the medium, but it does rob quite a bit of impact. In particular, Rorschach’s shrink in prison gets the short end of the stick despite having one of the best arcs in the comic. The loss of a lot of the supplementary stuff doesn’t help either, and leaves the story feeling slightly (but not overly) bare at points.

Honestly, I think a better balance needed to be struck here. This film comes off as way too slavishly loyal to the text, and that’s just not a good thing for an adaptation to be; adaptations need to respect and honor the original work, yes, but they also need to be their own thing as well and do stuff in a different way. I get why Snyder didn’t want to change much, seeing as Watchmen has become a sacred cow in comic book circles that it’s sacrilegious to criticize, but at that point the movie kind of fails as an adaptation because it’s not doing much to justify watching it over reading the comic. You’re not really getting much different out of the experience beyond a change in medium. Compare to another Moore adaptation, V for Vendetta, where the movie did dumb down the politics of the book to be more palatable to general audiences but still managed to keep the core ideas and themes (and also the prisoner’s letter, which if removed would ruin the entire story. I’m not joking). I think that movie works way better as an adaptation because it offers something different depending on what you’re looking at while still keeping the same core.

I don’t think it’s any wonder this film didn’t do well, because even back at the dawn of the modern superhero movie scene this was just not what audiences were gonna be looking for. Noted fan of the film and Doctor Strange director Scott Derrickson called it “the Blade Runner of superhero films,” and frankly that is a very apt comparison. This is a film that didn’t do well at first but got reevaluated over time to become a cult classic, and a lot of people these days see a lot more value in it than they did initially. Sure, everyone always loved that opening credits montage, because that shit rules, but nowadays people have finally learned to appreciate Zack Snyder’s cheeky payback towards the studio-mandated sex scene by making it slow-mo and playing “Hallelujah” over it (making it the only acceptable use of that song in cinema aside from Shrek).

It’s hard to call this a great adaptation of the work so much as a great copy and paste job, but the thing is, this is still great. Moore’s genius still shines through because the writing is still all there, and Snyder’s clear love of Moore’s work is obvious even if there are points where he clearly missed the mark. It still has the great ideas, the great characters, the great philosophical points, the great moments… It’s still Watchmen, by design, for better and for worse. As much as I would have liked to see some more creative liberties taken here and there, it’s hard to say where I’d want that, because Watchmen is such a great story that it’s hard to really say what I’d change.

This is a great movie, and arguably Snyder’s magnum opus. He’s kind of fallen off in recent years, and you can see a lot of the problems in his modern superhero films in this movie, but this is still a great time if you’re willing to get on its level. I think it’s aged better than a lot of older superhero films, especially since this is a deconstruction of the genre that came out before the genre really took off in cinemas. I don’t think I need to tell Snyder fans to watch this, as they’ve probably already put this film in a jar that they are slowly filling up with their bodily fluids like it was Rainbow Dash. But if you’re a fan of superheroes or even if you’re tired of superheroes, this is a great film to watch. If nothing else, watch it for Jackie Earle Haley, because by god that performance is worth the price of admission alone.

Alright, with all that out of the way I guess it’s time to make my peace. Zack Snyder, Alan Moore?

#Michael After Midnight #review #movie review #Zack Snyder #Alan Moore #Watchmen #Jackie Earle Haley #superhero movie #superheroes #cult classic

[somewhat-sane]

TCF Spoilers

One thing I’m mildly surprised that the tcf fandom never wrote (or if they did I haven’t seen it), is an AU where Choi Han remembers the original/BoaH timeline. How much he remembers can be up to interpretation. Maybe all of it, maybe it’s just kinda vague.

Just the idea of Choi Han being confused by KRS!Cale and being like ‘wait weren’t you an asshole before?’. Choi Han being a bad actor wouldn’t be able to really hide his suspicion/concern, but Cale might think this is normal as Choi Han this early isn’t supposed to be trusting.

Add that with how Cale seems to be aware of everything going to happen, Choi Han is definitely not going to be as willing to accept it as is. Not sure if even Cale making the Vow of Death would help as much, as Choi Han’s view on GoD will also probably be different.

(Stuff with og!cale/Choi Han under the cut)

Oh wow I’ve thought about this a bit (though in a bit of a different direction, as it was originally me thinking about it in reference to a fic where KRS reincarnates as Cale’s uncle and becomes a great parental figure)(those thoughts I’ll leave in tag if anyone’s curious)

Okay but og!Cale and Choi Han being a thing in the original timeline would be absolutely be a bit heartbreaking in TCF worldline. Most fics I’ve seen them have them have a vitriolic type of relationship, but gets better over time. Breaking down walls and growing to trust the other, that’s really meaningful, especially during war time.

So when Choi Han goes back, and ends up meeting KRS!Cale he’s thrown for a loop. This isn’t his Cale from when they first met, or a Cale who he grew to know and has also managed to go back. This is a different person, no matter how similar he may try to act. Has he truly gone back in time or into a new world all together? (...technically both?)

(Probably brief concern over White Star body stealing, considering how similar they apparently look)

If Choi Han was aware that ogCale’s deal, well I suppose he would be still sad but not nearly as potentially confrontational. He gets to see everyone he’s failed to save be rescued by someone using their name and face, yet also see that person hurt themselves on multiple occasions to make it happen.

He’ll separate the two identities in his head, but will get used to KRS eventually.

....Honestly taking out the shipping part it was intended as, this would probably still work even if they were just friends in the original world.

But yeah, imagining this new potential dynamic between Choi Han and KRS!Cale is pretty interesting.

#trash of the count's family #tcf #Choi Han #cale henituse #og cale henituse #KRS Cale Henituse #I speak to the void #okay now for the rambles I made for that one fic where KRS becomes Cale’s uncle #author if you’re reading this #it was really good #I’ve had a lot of thoughts about it but for the tags now I’m focusing on potential ogCale and Choi han #For this I also made Choi Han remember BoaH and have a relationship with the previous Cale #however #despite Cale and Uncle Rock being two separate people #This Cale is still different from the one he knew #He’s happier and hasn’t picked up any of his precious trashy habits #(protective of his Uncle #and who the heck is this guy he wasn’t here before #but he is helping him and is nice to Cale so..) #So here comes the issue of #The same person but with two different upbringings and thus honestly being a relatively different person #as I stated earlier #it took a lot to build up their relationship in the previous worldline #the things they went through #it’s not the same #even if some of the things they do are similar #this isn’t his Cale #but it doesn’t feel right to be unhappy about the fact the person he cared for ended up having a better life then they did before #so that’s a whole hurdle for Choi Han to get through

[g0nta-g0kuhara]

I’m still not feeling great from yesterday but I thought I’d try to write down my trial 4 feelings to get them out. Otherwise I might just be lying in bed anxious for the rest of today. Under the cut cause it might get long and rambly

Cw: I do talk negatively about Kokichi in this post so if that upsets you please tread carefully

First I really appreciate the three of you who replied to my post from yesterday. I’m feeling very intensely about this and I’m glad you all get it. This case was heartbreaking to me and it’s hard to talk about but I’m gonna try. I’ve learnt from experience that when I feel this way about a hyperfixation I will just bottle it up and feel terrible until I break down a few days later, so it might be better to get it out now

This case was really well set up. I thought miu’s body discovery was a bit underwhelming but that also might be because I was freaking the hell out about Gonta and have been for the last while. I’ve never felt so strongly about a character like this and it was eating me up inside every time I played. I know it was very obvious but even back then I was scared. I relaxed a bit through the investigation and into the trial because I thought, there’s no way right? Gonta wouldn’t hurt anyone this way. I should’ve seen the red flags at his development at the start of the chapter but I just thought they were setting it up for later.

When we got to the second half of the trial I was so convinced that Kokichi had done it. I mean obviously right? He’s been acting so fucking weird this whole case I couldn’t wrap my head around it. When shuichi lied to try and implicate him and Kokichi was like “you know what? Fuck you. I’ll ruin the mystery for you. The murderer was Gonta gokuhara” I flinched hard and my heart started pounding. There was no way right?? There was no way. He’s lying, he’s always lying, but I couldn’t calm down.

If you were on the stream last night we did have to take several sporadic breaks because I kept getting light headed. It’s stupid, I don’t know what power this game has over me but I couldn’t calm down. It was also frustrating because I wanted to keep going so badly but I was at serious risk of passing out. My hearing kept going in and out and I was just trying to focus on implicating Kokichi somehow. It kept getting harder and harder.

During the key smashing part of split opinion I couldn’t really control my hands? I was hitting the keys so fast not because I was good at games but because my hands were trembling and hitting the keys faster than I normally could.

When shuichi had to start considering if it could be Gonta I still thought there was hope, maybe it was someone else. But I knew it couldn’t be Kokichi, or kaito, but I just couldn’t accept it. Gonta started breaking down and both his in game voice actor and lily’s amazing acting made it harder because he was so distressed. He didn’t know what was happening and he couldn’t even remember hurting miu.

Kokichi’s crocodile tears(?) didn’t help. I keep saying it but I hate him when I play the game and when I’m not playing I find him fun and fascinating. But would could be so horrible in the flashback light to convince them to do this? I don’t know and I strongly doubt it’s from the mercy in kokichi’s heart. It was manipulation the whole time through. It hurts so bad that Gonta was manipulated so much by him despite the insect meet and greet incident. Yes, Gonta decided on his own that it was hell outside and it was true despair regardless, but it was KOKICHI that made him look at the light and it was KOKICHI that even gave him the opportunity to kill. He didn’t deserve being used that way. I can be a bit naive and unaware when someone is not acting with good intentions towards me so this really hurt. After the stream ended we did finish the post trial. I don’t know what to believe with Kokichi anymore, and I think that’s the point. He’s an incredible antagonist, but I hate him so much right now. I hate that I drew him and Gonta hanging out so much in the early game. I strongly dislike shipping them too, but that’s just my own personal feelings. This was just one step too far for me and I don’t think anything could redeem him in my eyes to the point that I could forgive him for this

The murder itself was hard to watch, the way Gonta kept apologizing. It hurts so bad. The way Kokichi just stood there with that grin on his face. Ugh.

The way everyone was fighting in the trial was cool to see. How angry everyone was with each other, with Kokichi, THE WAY KAITO DEFENDED GONTA. It was so hard to see but the way everyone kept fighting for Gonta eased the pain a bit. Even the way shuichi gently walked through the comic at the end to try and explain it to Gonta. That was kind writing. Though not all of it was and I’m getting to that.

Gonta crying but believing shuichi and accepting it, and apologizing so much, it felt so terrible for him. He didn’t deserve any of this and it was so much monokuma’s fault, but also Kokichi. To me it feels like Kokichi killed Gonta, in a way. Which makes it so terrible that Gonta was both murdered in my eyes AND was executed.

And his fucking execution is what broke me. If you were there you’d know I didn’t even fucking watch it. I turned around because I knew it would be too much. But most of it sounded okay. I’m just so fuxking angry about the monokubs. What the actual fuck. Why would you send off a character who they probably knew was extremely well liked with THAT happening in the background. Maybe I’m placing all my sadness into this one bit to convince myself id feel okay if only that one part was changed, but I do really feel like that. Gonta deserved a somber, respectful end even through a stupid over the top execution. It makes me so angry and so deeply upset that they didn’t respect the people playing this game enough for this shit. But I really should have known. This game series is objectively terrible, gross, and harmful. But this hurt me the most. It makes me so upset that gonta’s execution is as bad as MIKAN’S.

At least when gundham died his execution was kind to his character and his fans. He died in a way that when I think about it I feel sad but in a cathartic way. This just makes me feel disgusted and insulted. It was extremely insulting.

I’m sorry if I said any extreme things on the stream that hurt anyones feelings vis a vis character and ship opinions. I wasn’t thinking straight and through the second half of the trial I was half way to passing out at all times. I was just trying so hard to make it to the end and see it through past my deep anxiety. I didn’t mean anything mean that I said, I really don’t feel that strongly about anything.

Thank you again to the people who were nice to me. This felt good to write out. I haven’t felt this horrible about something fictional since the ending of TMA, but at least that was cathartic and well written. I don’t think I’ll be able to get over this for a while. For both the good and the bad reasons.

#trial 4 might’ve been my favourite in the game if it weren’t for the monkubs #shut up me #drv3 spoilers #gonta gokuhara #thank you all for your time I’m gonna get out of bed now #I had a small cry while writing this and I think it was good to get out #sorry if it makes no sense #idk what this means for next week’s dr Friday but I guess aster will keep you posted

[cellard0ors]

Fic: Movement (1/?)

This is dedicated to @peachworthy - my plan is to work on this when I can. I was going to try and write a full long thing (all puns intended) but thought it might be fun to just do sporadic bits instead!

“As you can see, it’s a pretty nice place…” Mr. Super Tall and Super Handsome and Super-Out-of-Link’s-League tells him as he walks him around the place. Link’s only been half listening because he’s been trailing behind this uniquely sexy giraffe of a man for about half an hour now and it’s been hard to not just…eat him up with his eyes.

Link’s lived in LA for about two years now and while he’s seen some attractive people, they all pale in comparison to…

…oh gosh, he’s forgotten his name again! Not a good thing to do when being toured by your potential roommate to be. Although Link’s pretty sure his current tour guide is just being nice.

No way he’s seriously considering letting Link move in. First of all, Link is a late in life college student trying to get a film degree. Second, this guy could have anyone live with him.

Anyone.

The fact he even needs a roommate is staggering. After all, this place is already furnished. It’s clear he’s lived here for a while now – so the need for someone else-? Link doesn’t get it.

But he sure as heck can’t stay on campus anymore. It’s embarrassing. Most of the other students there think he’s a professor as it is; and bunking with kids half his age has been a nightmare.

Not because he can’t identify with them per say, but because he just-? He wants to interact with people on the same wavelength as him.

And no way is this Greek God and he on the same wavelength. No doubt the guy’s an actor. Almost everyone in LA is. And, no doubt, the guy has probably had some gigs. Several, if the house is anything to go by…

Maybe he lost a role recently? Maybe that’s why he needs the extra income? It’s the only thing Link can think of and he’s stupid enough to voice that, “It is a nice place, man, but I don’t see how I’ll be much help. What you’ve got here looks pretty well lived in. Take it you’ve been here solo for some time and I’m not sure how-?”

“I have,” Handsome admits and oh, that southern drawl. It makes Link think of home. How perfect can one man be? “And, frankly, I don’t need a roommate, but I’d like a roommate.”

“For parts? Like the Black Market?” Link can’t help but joke, and the guy throws his head back and laughs and oh, no…

…Yeah, Link can’t live with this man. It hasn’t even been a full day and Link is practically already in love with him. And thinking of the ‘him’ he forces himself to sheepishly ask, “Um, I, ah, forgot your name again...”

“It’s Rhett.”

Of course it is.

Rhett is such a romantic name.

Rhett Butler immediately springs to mind and Link sighs, “Look, Rhett – like I said, it is a nice place, but-!”

“I tell you what I’d expect in rent?” he asks and when he lists the price, Link decides that – besides being insanely attractive – that the guy is just insane in general.

The rent is cheap. Far, far cheaper than Link expected and it must show on his face, because Rhett shrugs, “Look, Link – I can’t say what it is, but I gotta feeling about you. I’ve met with a couple of potential roommates and, honestly, none of them have gone this far. I haven’t let ‘em. But there’s something about you…”

“My natural charm?” Link asks, but he’s sort of giggly and weird when he does and oh, gosh – why is he so awkward? Isn’t he too old for this? Don’t you reach a certain age and awkwardness just…drops off?

But apparently not and, apparently, Rhett isn’t turned off by it, because he gives him a warm grin, “Might be.”

“Rhett…”

“Might be the accent to be honest,” he confesses, seeming almost shy and that should be illegal, because it just highlights how cute he is, “I’m from North Carolina and it just-!”

“Hey!” Link perks up, “Me too!”

“Really?” Rhett gushes and Link nods, “Yeah, Buies Creek.”

“Oh! My family and I almost moved there! Ended up in Charlotte instead!”

“Wow! Crazy! What are the odds!” And Link hates every cliched thing coming out of his mouth right now, but he can’t seem to stop and Rhett just looks so damned pleased.

As if his feeling about Link is right on the money and Link wishes it was, but this can’t possibly work. Can it? And just as Link is about to voice that, Rhett suddenly looks…apprehensive. Fidgety.

And Link’s caught a bit off guard by it, because – up until now – he’s been so cool. Cool and collected. But now Rhett runs a hand through his thick mane of hair and sighs as if a great weight is upon him, “Ah…actually, I, ah, well – I forgot…”

Here it is. Link’s been waiting for this. The big secret. The big reason someone as amazing as Rhett would need someone like him. Maybe it is the Black Market thing. Link has some nice organs. Real juicy. Maybe revealing his background has made the big guy feel bad – like he can’t carve up a fellow North Caroliner.

Rhett rocks on his heels, “I told you, none of the other potential roommates made it this far and…there’s a reason for that. Even the one or two I kinda considered…well, I, um, I told them what I do for a living and that’s when things sort of fell apart…”

…oh shit. He IS a Black Market organ dealer!

Link’s Adam’s apple bobs as he looks around skittishly. The house is big and they’re alone in it. He’s been so distracted by how hot Rhett is that he hasn't even thought about that fact.

Until now.

What if the other potentials didn’t get this far because they got cut up beforehand? Maybe the whole roommate thing is a farce! Maybe it’s a con! A con to draw people in and-!

“I work in the entertainment industry.”

Link blinks. Blinks and feels like the dumbest man on planet earth as he says, “Well, yeah. You and half of LA. Heck, I’m here trying to get into film myself! Do some directing or sound editing or-!”

“No,” Rhett says firmly, smoothly, meeting Link’s eyes head on as he says in a full deep register, “When I say I work in the industry, I mean it. I’ve, um, had a pretty healthy and…and long career…”

“Really?” Link asks, eyes wide behind his glasses, “Have I seen anything you’ve-?”

“Doubt it,” Rhett interrupts with a humorless huff, “You don’t seem the type. But then,” he eyes him thoughtfully, “I’ve been surprised before…”

Link doesn’t know why he’s being so cagey about this, “What’ve you-?”

“My resume is…” Rhett finally looks away, as if he can’t bear to look at Link when he says it, “…of the adult variety.”

“The adult-?” Link starts to repeat and then it clicks. It clicks and it hits him so hard over the head it’s like a physical blow. The house, the handsomeness – the…everything.

Rhett looks back at him, jaw firmly set as he speaks, “Look, it’s not that I’m ashamed of what I do. Far from it. It’s just a job and it’s one I happen to be good at. But it’s also one that people in polite society aren’t too keen on and considering you’re from my home state you might-!”

“Porn?” Link croaks out and he feels a little like he might faint, “You’re a porn star?”

Rhett just kind of shrugs and the reason Link feels lightheaded has nothing to do with his shock at the man’s career and everything to do with the fact that Link has only seen a few porn films and none of them have ever stared someone so breathtakingly beautiful. The idea that Rhett has been in something like that…

Heat suffuses through Link’s system with equal mixes of lust and shame. Lust because, well, look at Rhett and shame because Link doesn’t want to just view the man as a sex object, Granted, that’s kind of his job, but it just seems…rude.

While Link doesn’t know Rhett well, he knows him well enough at this point to say he’s just a regular guy. An extremely gorgeous regular guy, but a regular guy all the same.

Thinking of him in simple black and white just doesn’t do him justice. So he’s a porn star. So what? He’s nice and this place is amazing and the rent suggested is fantastic and-!

“Take it by your silence you’re gonna decline…”

“No!” Link cuts in quickly and Rhett’s eyes shoot to him, wide and amazed, and Link feels a little sense of superiority at that. At catching this giant off guard, “No, uh – your…your profession isn’t a problem.”

“It’s not?”

“Well, I mean,” Link looks around once more, "You don’t-? You don’t film here, do you?”

The laugh that booms out of Rhett at that makes Link’s toes curl with pleasure, “Nah, man. This place is sacred. Like to keep my personal and professional life separate.”

“And…” Link scratches at the back of his head, “And you won’t, like…bring over a-a partner or partners and-!”

“Don’t have one,” Rhett admits and then the sexiest crinkles form around his eyes, “Although I gotta say, that’s about the slickest way anyone’s ever asked me if I was single…”

The heat from before returns full blast, no doubt coloring Link’s cheeks pure red and it comes completely from shyness, an emotion he is much more familiar with than most, “Oh, no! I-I wasn’t-!”

“Think you were asking if I do some weird sex shit here in the house of the personal variety and, again, no. You work in my field you kinda lose a bit of a taste for it.”

“For sex?”

Rhett nods, “And for a lot of things. It’s like I said – I'd like a roommate. Mainly ‘cause I’ve been feeling a little…disconnected of late. Feel like I need someone in my life who isn’t in the business. Someone I can just, y’know…” his shoulders roll and he bobs about a bit, clearly bashful, “…jam with.”

“Someone on your wavelength…” Link whispers and suddenly, Rhett’s idea that Link might be someone worth keeping around feels totally legitimate. Because Link is suddenly reciprocating it and then some. Because Link's starting to have a feeling about him too.

A feeling that this could work.

It really could.

And, this in mind, Link asks, “When can I move in?”

#rhink #randl #my writing #now one of my earlier question posts becomes clear does it not? #the title is from a hozier song #because that song sounds sexy and i couldn't think of anything else!