#I'M FUCKING LATE GODDAMN IT

[knifearo]

ultimately when it comes to shipping and fandom space treatment of aspec characters i just don't accept "aro/ace people can still date/have sex" as an answer from nonaspecs. like yeah. mhm. okay. now i think we both know that you're not saying that out of real interest in the diversity of aspec experiences. so you can turn in your seventeen-page essay on why and how you plan to examine this character's aspec identity within the context of a romantic or sexual relationship complete with evidence from canon and peer reviews from multiple aspec people within the next week or i'm putting you in the pit from the edgar allen poe story

#you know. the one with the pendulum #'hey. why are you as an allo person shipping this aspec character like this' #'oh aspec people can still date/have sex!' #'yeah. now can you answer the question that i actually asked you' #like goddamn just say you don't care they're aspec and you want to fulfill a sexual/romantic fantasy with them. that's Fine #it like. sucks. for sure. lotta aspec people will be unhappy with you. but everyone is entitled to their own wants and experiences. #but i'd prefer you just be honest with it rather than using our community's conversation points as retroactive justification #and ONCE AGAIN. you guys are real fucking cavalier with this shit and it shows a real fundamental lack of respect for aspecs #when most of you would NEVER ship a canonically gay character with the 'other' gender. cause again. it would suck. #you can do it. nobody's Stopping you. but it would suck. #and we understand that putting a queer character in situations that erase that queerness is shitty! until it comes to aspec characters! #and whoa... there it is again... people don't consider aspec identities to be queer... crazy how it always comes back to that #anyway. you all know what i'm talking about. have seen many posts about this lately #it is [ long sigh ] unfortunately a very hot button issue with the advent lately of alastor hazbinhotel #which. again. god i wish there were other canon aspec characters to be having this conversation about. #but we'll have to do our best with what we have #aromantic #aromanticism #arospec #aroace #talking #aspec #asexual #asexuality

[very-lost-hobbit]

"US proxy war in Ukraine" Beating u with lead pipes

#Ukraine. is. fighting. a. genocide. Yes USA foreign policy has a lot to be critisized but a TINY SLIVER of a defence budget #being sent to Ukraine is NOT one of them (except the fucking. lack of actual teeth and backing but that's not unique to the US) #UKRAINE. WOULD FIGHT. ANYWAYS. YOU GODDAMN DINGDONGS. #And the more information that comes out from liberated territories the more I'm pissed off that people piss and moan #about arming Ukraine (WHICH THE US ISN'T EVEN DOING RIGHT NOW BECAUSE OF YOUR STUPID INTERNAL POLITICS!!!!) #rusbots fuck off it'll be block on sight I'm not arguing about this lmfao #I'm taking a break from internet I've seen too much of this shit lately peace gang see you in a few days ✌ #current events #kat gets personal #me #ukraine

[woeismywaffle]

SJOWJSKWKSI JUST CAME BACK FROM WATCHING ROTB AND HOW DID THEY MAKE EVERY CHARACTER SO LIKEABLE?????????

#I was late and I missed the opening sequence #And I kept getting distracted by my friends because I'm an idiot #And I was devastated that I couldn't see each and every fine detail because the movie was in 3D and I need glasses #so everything looked slightly fucked #but GODDAMN I LOVE this movie #this might just be me but I would give a kiss on the cheek to every damn character #I would read many a fanfiction about them #esp. the robots <3 love those darn bots ❤️ #AND THE MUSIC WAS SO FIRE??? THE FINAL BATTLE SONG WAS JUST * M W A H * LOVE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭<333333 #anyways go watch Transformers: Rise Of The Beasts it fucks <33 #tf #transformers #rotb #transformers rise of the beasts #Transformers: Rise Of The Beasts

[esparafuso]

I'll be by the Batphone, if you need to get a hold.

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To the best friend I could ever wish for, thank you for obsessing over this ridiculous man and our beloved Monkeys with me again @sorethpid (Please don't repost my art!)

#HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY #I'm not late but I'm late I'm sorry #Also sorry for worrying so fucking much abt this drawing like goddamn #but I do hope you enjoy how it came out #drawing the monkeys again after all these years is like coming back home after a long trip #and I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you #cheers to us finally having the experience of attending to one of their gigs and seeing how amazing they are #I'll never forget that day and I'm so glad we did it together #NOW ANOTHER #AND I HOPE YOU HAVE THE BEST DAY #Alex Turner #Arctic Monkeys #TBHC #tranquility base hotel and casino #my drawings #gabifalcaoart

[autism-swagger]

I HATE BEING DISABLED!!!!!!!!!!

#I hate the constant doctors appointments and tests and procedures! #I hate all the medication! #I hate using my mobility aids! #I hate being so fucking scared and paranoid when I'm alone that my parents feel like they have to invite me on their anniversary trip! #I hate being unable to reconsume specific media because they remind me of my psychotic episodes! #I hate always being late to school because getting up is so hard! #I hate constantly obsessing over whether or not I'm keeping my movements even! #I hate not knowing what not being in pain feels like! #I hate being so goddamn tired all of the time that I can barely keep my eyes open! #and I just have to make my peace with all because I'm going to be like this for the rest of my life!! #I HATE IT SO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!

[tearlessrain]

seriously can catastrophes stop happening for five minutes my brain is already fried from the ones we're already experiencing

#I fucking. missed d&d tonight by accident #I straight up forgot #and just didn't show up to the session #my sleep schedule is absolutely fucked #I should be sleeping now but brain won't shut up #my creative output is the lowest it's ever been and I've been in some level of depressive funk since like early january #I am just deeply unfathomably exhausted #like mentally and spiritually #all the time #my memory and sense of time are both shit #my spelling is worse than it used to be for some reason?? #I really don't know what to do to make my brain start functioning again it's frankly worrying me #I couldn't even handle college so it should come as no surprise that I'm reacting poorly to the world being a perpetual screaming trash fir #and yet #idk it's been hitting again lately that I have never succeeded at anything in my life and just keep tripping and falling up for some reason #fucking everyone is in hell right now and with my overall success rate I should be dead in a ditch but I'm actually doing spectacularly #due to a series of improbable accidents and weird circumstances that happened to turn out in my favor instead of completely fucking me #aside from the looming spectre of my various failed attempts to have some kind of life trajectory #it just doesn't feel like this can keep up forever #like surely at some point the luck has got to run out I can't just keep living like some kind of folkloric trickster archetype #but my motivation and sense of purpose kind of died after the last failed attempt so I'm still just here #doing whatever this is #maybe I should drive out to the coast #maybe staring at the ocean would fix me I've been away from it for too long #I mean it can't make me worse #I should wait until further into summer though so I don't have to drive back in the dark #everyone around here has trucks with those goddamn LED headlights and I've got a little sedan that's directly in their blast zone

[hua-fei-hua]

god i'm so tired of this shit. let's go back to the internet in the mid 2000s. set me free on pbskids.org and adventurequest.com the way they returned the wolves to yellowstone

#i know these websites still exist and i do actually have a paid adventurequest acct now bc i'm an adult with money #but i also haven't touched it since i paid for it like two years ago bc i was sad they got rid of my basic staff lol #but the fucking dialogue in their game was so insanely fucking funny i Wish i could write like that #花話 #anyway. in case you guys were ever wondering what the fuck my childhood on the internet looked like. it was flash games LMAO #i wasn't on forums or chatrooms (with one exception) i was playing those goddamn flash games #and making animated cursors with pokemon gifs stolen via google images. god those were simpler days #that was like legitimately my entire online life until late 2014 i think #aside from occasionally watching youtube from like... 2012 onwards anyway #i wonder if this was also partly bc i was the kind of kid where those 'you must be this age or older to enter' notices fucking worked lmao

[ofcrossrcads]

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#( σut σf cσntrαcts || ooc ) #negativity tw #// this is your warning I'm about to be sad and annoying in the tags #// turn back now #/////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// #// bro I'm so fucking over being sad and tired ALL THE TIME #// I just want to feel like a person again. but all i feel lately is empty #// burnout and depression are teaming up on me AGAIN like goddamn can I have at least a few weeks of peace???? #// is that really too much to ask???? I'm trying so hard to do everything right and everything is still so shit???? #// I can't even like engage in hobbies because I don't have the energy #// i get on tumblr bc I want to write and immediately just get this intense sense of “i do not belong here” and sign right back off #// mayhaps it is time to call it quits

[emolgabrine]

Been feeling lonely even online these days, the very thing I was trying to escape from.

Wish I knew how to communicate properly with other people. Don't think I'm that good at it.

I just wish I was enough in general.

#vent #delete later #shit has been getting to me lately #always feel like that one friend no one wants in the group #always gotta be the one sending things first if I want to talk to someone #i don't know why I'm so upset about this I shouldn't be #people have more important things to deal with in their lives #I took my goddamn prozac this morning I shouldn't be sad over this #loneliness is a fucking bitch

[ceno8yte]

Yet another article (and shooting) to add to the list. Ugh.

#i'm starting to get more and more angry about this shit as of late. i dunno why it just. makes me more and more sad and pessimistic #(and misanthropic!) #i just feel so fucking powerless man. #if it can happen at a goddamn bowling alley in maine it can happen anywhere #and that's what scares the shit out of me #valtalks #the onion #serious #mass shootings #maine #lewiston

[pilots-and-protons]

Quick blanket-statement for anyone who is thinking of sending me messages:

I am fully aware and conscious that there are problems with every Star Trek.

I understand the ongoing issues with racism, sexism, and a number of outdated ideologies. TOS-VOY (which are what I watch, other than the movies) are all products of their time and incredibly dated in many ways, and it’s wonderful that people want to point out the flaws and issues and discuss the varying ways that Star Trek could have and should have done better even for its time.

But let me make this clear: Star Trek (TOS, TNG, DS9, and VOY) are my comfort shows. I am autistic and they’ve been my special interest for a long time now, and I cannot stress enough what that means to me. I watch them to be happy and to find a sanctuary away from the constant stressors of every day life, especially since I struggle with anxiety and depression.

I don’t want to talk about everything wrong with them. I just want to focus on the best aspects of Star Trek - the stories, the characters, the relationships. I want to talk about fascinating science-fiction concepts and the beautiful way Star Trek tried to bring important social issues to the table. I want to talk about found families who love each other, including all the ways they are strange and unique and different.

I know that there are problems and I am not ignoring them entirely - I just need a space to focus on the good things.

So please for the love of god, I don’t need people to question whether or not I’m aware of the racism or the sexism, I don’t need people coming after me because they don’t think I should enjoy specific characters, and I don’t need to be hounded about every little issue that ever existed because a bunch of (mostly) Cisgendered White Men were writing stories before we even reached the 21st century.

#personal #I'm not mad at anyone right now #I'm just burnt out and exhausted #been sick lately and my chronic pain has gotten REALLY bad #because I moved to a new goddamn state #and had to unpack a million heavy boxes #about a dozen times #all I want is some nice friendly people #to talk about my love of star trek with #all I want to do is yell my love of it into the tumblr void #even if no one yells back #just let me have this ONE NICE THING #when my life is fucking falling apart #and I have no goddamn friends to even share in my problems with #and all the stability i used to have #of a familiar home and a familiar town #are all gone #and as an autistic person #that's a huge fucking deal and a burden on me

[crashthegates]

the letter y has been pissing me off lately

#i'm sorry for making this post i really am but it HAS #i look at my writing and i think TOO MANY FUCKING Y'S #MANY HAS A Y #AND LATELY HAS A GODDAMN Y #i swear to god i'm not drunk or high this has been an issue for the last two days i'm taking my meds i'm drinking water i'm as fine as #i can be right now. it's just. the letter y is pissing me off #and i dont know why #(get it? get it? i hate myself.)

[chipped-chimera]

... wait, people in their 20s seriously consider themselves to be a 'late bloomer' lesbian?? What??????

#kerytalk #try 30 #like I could have slid into the 20s bracket but nope #I am 'late' just barely #but I just read a post by someone who is TWENTY ONE calling themselves that I'm- #no have a 10 year comphet relationship with a dude under your belt - THEN maybe you can say that #things that make me feel old #because if 21 is 'late' I may as well be 'ancient' #you're 21 and in your goddamn prime time easy networking hanging out on clubs age #I'm a literally chronically tired neurodivergent mess fucked up by 10 years of comphet #and turfed out into the dating market at an age when most people are 'settling down' #not used a dating app in my LIFE #THAT IS A 'LATE' BLOOMER #this has been a tag rant

[mieczyhale]

thank you @ alice oseman for including the "explanations for american readers" at the end of the nick & charlie novella. truly a god-send bc it covers a few things / phrases i've been lost on and haven't found a simple answer for anywhere else

like no, i didn't need to know these school terms to understand or enjoy heartstopper, but i wanted to know and understand them and now i do

little joys

#listened to the audiobook #it took a bit to get used to the voices #i'm so used to joe & kit #i still prefer joe & kit and their voices but these guys weren't bad. just different #loved it btw #v glad i spent the money to buy it #yeah i have a physical copy of the book but with my reading struggles and my ocd being as bad as it has been lately i really just did not #feel up to fighting that fight today #spend a day or more trying to read a book that took me two hours to listen to?? i feel like i gave up by doing it this way this time but #i just fucking can't #i cannot deal with that #i cannot deal with the mental battle every goddamn time i want to read something #its bad enough i have to fight through it to read fics or just posts on my dash or shit for work or literally everything everywhere #im taking the mental break where i can get it i guess #anyway #check it out if you haven't #the nick & charlie novella #i really enjoyed it #except for the fucking ******* part #i knew it was coming bc i'd seen stuff about it in fics and on here too in brief mentions but it still made me sad #i'm glad it didn't last long #maison speaks #myhsposts #alice oseman