#I'm a disaster

[just-slightly-chayotic]

got so distracted by jeff posts that i forgot about my steeping tea for 15 minutes and then accidentally poured in pineapple juice instead of milk. i give up

#why is the lactose free milk carton the same colour as the pineapple juice carton?? #i'm a disaster #i shouldn't be allowed to human because clearly i suck at it #i just wanted a tea #is that really too much to ask for #tea's ramblings #goddamnit jeff satur

[whothefuckgavemeinternet]

My headcanon about Leo - which is also shared by half of the RiseFandom - is that he has ADHD. I believe that he actually plans for every situation his family encounters faster than anyone else, but the only reason his plans don't come to fruition is because instead of speaking out loud and providing an actual explanation, he believes that his brothers can read his actions and mind as well as he can read theirs. This leads to frustration when things don't go as planned.

The thing is, his struggles with communication are partly, if not completely, due to his ADHD. Things can be very clear in his mind, but when he tries to explain them to others, his system malfunctions, and he is left with nothing but useless rambling or jokes that lead nowhere. Leo has the brain to make plans and be a great leader for the team - a thing that only Splinter has been able to see. It is for this reason that in the movie, Leo is doing his best to force the leader role onto Raph again. My man is in denial; he is scared, and for me, the script going on in his head is "No one has ever understood me before. My plans always end in disaster for my brothers, and I've never been able to explain them to others. How am I supposed to be a leader if I can't guide?"

I say this because something that happens a lot to people with ADHD or autism is that they have been misunderstood all their lives. So, when it comes to explaining things, we tend to over-explain a "simple" topic to the point where it is both confusing and useless. Leo is scared of failing his family in every sense. He feels like nothing without them, and he has said this before to Hueso in season one.

I know everyone is obsessed with the "It wasn't about me" line from the movie, but it's not in the Leo-centric way that everyone likes so much. It's about his brothers and how the pressure of being a leader for the team and the lack of trust from his brothers is scaring Leo so much. In the movie, when Leo makes Raph-Kraang hear him and then his brothers fight the Kraangs, it's also him showing how much of a leader he can be when he is left with no options but to throw his fears away and get in the first line.

This is also why Future Leo was the greatest ninja. He didn't have any more options than to keep on trying and leading not just his siblings but the whole resistance. Leo has trapped himself with his insecurities in the back of his brain and fights every day to be better. Excuse me, but that's what a leader does.

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I apologize if I'm a disaster at explaining things. I hope my point was clear enough. I really love them and wanted to share this with other people who could appreciate it.

#rottmnt #rottmnt headcanons #rottmnt leo #2018 Leo #leonardo hamato #i'm obsessed #adhd #like geez #i'm sorry #i'm a disaster #Leo is a leader #rise raph #rise leo #rise mikey #rise donnie #donatello #rise april #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #headcanon #i love these boys #angst

[silverskye13]

Doodle dump! Because I've got a lot of stuff kicking around and I like some of these sketches.

Bottom one is one of my OC refs for Art Fight. Assuming I finish it XD Better late than never I guess.

#spazzcat doodles #theres like... a little bit of everything here #spazzcat ocs #mourn the paladin #caliban from the clocktaur wars #there's two whole helsknights in here #grillby fanart for a fic a friend made that i never finished because i'm shit #and a drawing of Tango getting tossed in the air by a ravager -- loved that perspective #anyway its 3am it'll be 4 before i get to sleep but i'm not tired #even though i was on the verge of passing out all day #i'm a disaster

[recovery-nuovame]

I'm desperate, broken... and I just want to cry.

#mental illness #mental instability #tw sick mention #recovery blog #ed mention #broken #I'm broken #i hate me #i hate my life #i hate my brain #i'm a shit #i'm a problem #i'm a loser #i'm a disaster #i am a disaster #i am a degenerate #i am a disgrace #disaster #i'm sad #sad days #sad life #sad thoughts #i hate myself #hate myself #i hate my existence #depression #depressed #disgusting #i'm disgusted #crying

[ritzzor]

I'm a little drunk

I had a small sip of an alcoholic drink and I'm already feeling emotional about FFXIV as a whole and how much I love Emet-Selch as a character, help I'm a disaster.

#I love FFXIV as a game can you tell #especially emet-selch #please talk to me about FFXIV #I'm a disaster #FFXIV #is such a good game like wow #and I lovwe my wol he's so prety

[existennialmemes]

Disaster Mode

Engaged

Stand back and prepare for second hand embarrassment

#shitpost #shitposting #memes #i'm a disaster #disaster mode is always engaged

[shyvioletcat]

OKAY STAY WITH ME FOR A SEC. So the perils of writing/posting late at night is that I completely forgot the timeline of my story. I had to rework some things, because Rowan should have been in his new job for about a year *face palms*. the main joke is still there but the plot around Lorcan’s visit changed a bit. I’m so sorry, this is embarrassing. Please enjoy... again... if you wanted. 

How’s One To Know? Masterlist

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– – Day at New Job: 330 – –

Lorcan pushed the trolley through the grocery store aisles, his little companion sitting in the seat behind the handlebar. He’d come to Orynth for a break. His workplace was becoming a certain kind of hell and he needed out for a little while. Rowan seemed to be thriving here so Lorcan was curious to see why, see what had changed him so much. Right now Rowan was at home catching up on a few things, without that back breaking pace Maeve demanded over everything, and Lorcan had offered to take Ivy for a while so he could work uninterrupted. 

So he had picked Ivy up from her daycare and brought her with him on the grocery run to pick up some essentials Rowan had asked him to grab… and Lorcan decided that maybe he’d pick stuff up for dinner as well. It was more than Rowan had asked him to do, but he was the one who had offered his home to stay in—free of charge—and had been more than accommodating. Making dinner was the least Lorcan could do.

He felt little warm hands press over his and he looked down to see Ivy grinning up at him. “What are you doing there, huh?”

The only answer he got was a stream of giggles. 

“Well, I think we just need to grab some milk and yogurt and then we’re done,” Lorcan said. 

“And Da at home?” Ivy asked.

Lorcan nodded. “Yep, waiting just for you.” 

He booped Ivy on the nose and that earned him another giggle. The two of them wandered down to the milk and Lorcan put a three bottle in the trolley. Just a little further down was the yogurt and Lorcan grabbed a tub for himself. 

“Hmm, looks like we’re done.” He was about to head but then he noticed the sugary array in front of him. Yogurts and custards were on display in little pouches decorated with the latest cartoon characters to catch the attention of children. “How about a treat?”

“For me?” Ivy’s face was positively gleeful. 

“Yeah, bud. A treat just for you,” Lorcan told her. 

Her eyes went to the chilled shelves immediately, darting over everything on offer. “‘dere, Uncle Lor.” 

Ivy was pointing past the figurative bags of sugar to the flavoured milk. Lorcan obeyed the command and pushed the trolley down the aisle. 

“Yeah, these,” Ivy confirmed. 

“So, strawberry?” Lorcan guessed, reaching for a pink bottle.

“No.”

“Banana then?” He went to the next flavour on the shelf. 

“No, chocolate,” Ivy said, pointing with more fervour. 

Lorcan nodded, appreciating her selection. “Chocolate milk. Yeah, that’s the good shit.”

“That’s the good shit.”

Oh, he was a dead man. Lorcan froze, the small bottle of chocolate milk in front of him which Ivy was all too eager to relieve him of. Her little voice had echoed his words right back at him. With nothing left to do he laughed, a lot. It was too funny not to, and hopefully Ivy wouldn’t repeat it.

“You got that right,” Lorcan said, his voice still shaking a little and held out his fist for a fist bump. 

Ivy gave it to him, then used both hands to shake up the milk. Seeing the little girl so content with her treat, Lorcan knew his job was done and headed for the register. 

~~~~~

The door of Rowan’s apartment opened and he heard his daughter before he saw her. Ivy was giggling at something Lorcan had said and she was nearly in hysterics. That sound brought a smile to Rowan’s face and he closed his laptop. He had got some work done, but nearly not as much as he would have liked to. There was a big project that he was working on for the company and it had him working out of office hours which was unusual. But Evalin and Rhoe would understand if it wasn’t finished quite yet. They were always more lenient on him because of Ivy, and he had told them he had a friend staying as well. They had nearly extended his deadline over that. Rowan had refused, he had this under control. It was so vastly different from how his workplace had once been. 

“Da!”

Ivy ran to where Rowan was sitting at their modest dining table and he caught her. He hugged her tight, taking comfort in the way she hugged him back. It would have lasted longer if not for the something digging into his shoulder, which made Rowan pull her down to sit on his knee.

“What do you have there?” Rowan asked, noting how Lorcan went to deposit more than one bag in the kitchen. He’d just asked him to grab some bread and milk, it was surprising he had more than that. 

“I gots chocolate milk,” Ivy said, holding the bottle up so he could see. “That’s the good shit.”

The rustling in the kitchen stopped and Rowan very slowly turned around to face his friend. Lorcan looked both nervous and amused, Rowan was just plain mad.

“You taught my daughter to say what?’ Rowan’s voice was lethal. 

“It just slipped out,” Lorcan said, trying to brush it off but his laughter ruined it for him. “Come on, it’s funny.” 

Rowan’s traitorous lips did twitch. If she hadn’t sounded so godsdamned cute while she said it, it would be much easier to stay mad. 

“You like some, Da?” Ivy offered him the bottle. “It’s good shit, Uncle Lor says so.” 

Uncle Lor lost it completely at that, laughing without restraint in the kitchen. Ivy started too, knowing she’d made the joke but not knowing exactly what it was. With the two of them laughing Rowan couldn’t help it and he joined in too. 

“No thank you, my love,” Rowan told his daughter, kissing her silky hair. “That’s all for you.” 

Lorcan finished up in the kitchen, sitting down at the table with a sigh and a beer in his hand. “Get much done?”

Rowan shrugged in reply. “Enough for now.”

He remembered when enough was never good enough, those night and early mornings where he would work himself to the bone. Nowadays he not only enjoyed life, but he enjoyed work as well. It was strange. Looking at Lorcan he wondered if he was starting to feel the same strain that eventually had led to Rowan breaking. We wondered if there was an ulterior motive to his reclusive friend visiting him out of the blue. 

His thoughts were broken by Ivy taking a sip and muttering to herself, “Hmm, good shit.”

The hand over his mouth did nothing to hide Lorcan’s laughter. 

Rowan lent over, swiping the beer before his friend could take a sip. “You are never babysitting again.”

Lorcan snorted. “You try telling that to her.” 

Of course Lorcan would use that line of argument, he was Ivy’s favourite uncle. It was just a shame that they didn’t get to see each other all that often. Maybe, after a few more days, Rowan might be able to convince Lorcan that Orynth had more to offer than the bleak existence he would return to. After seeing there was another way to run a publishing company that didn’t rely on such a totalitarian control, there was no way Rowan would ever go back. If he played his cards right, who knows what might happen.

~~~~~

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#it looks the same but it's different #trust me #i woke up this morning and was like #no... oh no #i'm a disaster #thank you for bearing with me #rowaelin fanfiction #how's one to know?

[enchanted-keys]

top 5 characters from anne w an e!

I'm prepared for this one!

Gilbert Blythe (to the surprise of absolutely NO ONE, lmao)

Anne Shirley Cuthbert

Josephine Barry

Matthew Cuthbert

Cole Mackenzie

I remember you telling me to make a gifset of my top 10, but I only posted n°10 and then sort of gave up. I'm sorry :') I'll pick it up again if I have enough time, though!

#i'm a disaster #awae #asks

[zhukzubast]

#sunday snail #how am i posting it late again #i remembered on sunday up until the moment i was supposed to post #i'm a disaster

[overworkedunderwhelmed]

Me: *struggles to write for months on end*

Also me: *catches feelings and inspiration and cranks out a 2000+ word fic in an evening*

#hi #i'm a disaster #fanfiction writer #fanfiction writer problems

[spxnglr]

Someone fuck him to this song please.

#𝙷𝙾𝙻𝙳 𝙾𝙽 - 𝙿𝙾𝙿𝚂 𝙸𝚂 𝙷𝙰𝚅𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙰 𝚃𝙷𝙾𝚄𝙶𝙷𝚃. (OOC) #icb I'm getting to this point with my absolutely demi muse Egon #I'm a disaster #USFW

[unwinthehart]

"I had so many more" -> drop your other favourite blahmood moments!!

I'm gonna be good and restrain myself to just 5 more, otherwise this will go on for days. For everything I've missed or forgotten here (but hell, even for those included here and in the other ask), stay tuned because if I loved it, it'll probably end up in a gif 😂 1. That interview during Sanremo's week, I think it was for Il Fatto Quotidiano. Anyway at some point Blanco just smashes his face into Mahmood's arm and sniffs him. Without reason or logic. 2. Eurovision week, the Vanity Fair exhibition date. The one, you know, during which Blanco "never speaks except when he does it in Mahmood's ear and when he does he embraces him." (thank you La Stampa for that cursed quote). 3. Sanremo's Serata delle Cover: omg Blanco was so sweet during the entire performance and knowing Mahmood had been sick just before going on stage I guess he just wanted to make sure they'd get through it fine. 4. That time Blanco got naked and hid into that food cart to be smuggled into Mahmood's room @ Sanremo 5. Il cuore tecnologico + relazione tossica 🤖🖤

#ask #Anonymous #blahmood #good Lord the women you put on this Earth to fandom #and ship #have to do it in their (too short) lunch breaks #btw there's still more obvs LMAO #i'm a disaster

[androgynousbirdtale]

Bisexual Awareness Day is on Friday, 9/23. Put up a 🤙🏼if you're a disaster like us 😄.

#bisexual #bisexuality #bisexual awareness week #2022 #I'm a disaster

[acrazybayernfan]

Top 5 dance moves at a party : )

Hello dear <33

Swinging from one feet to the other

Spinning around

Swinging my hips

Making weird sort of circular movements with my shoulders

Blowing to excuse myself because I stepped on someone foot

#If there is one thing I wish you it's to never see me dance #I'm a disaster #thank you for the ask #<333 #ask #top 5

[manusweetmadness]

«E poi ci sono quelle donne che io chiamo "disastri".

Loro sono terribilmente intelligenti, così tanto da non essere in grado di accontentarsi di nulla.

E sono più donne di altre donne.

Loro si fanno un sacco di problemi per tutto, perché sapete la regola?

"Chi ha tanta testa, ha un sacco di problemi col cuore."

Sono quelle dei libri poggiati sul letto, quelle delle serie TV, quelle delle cuffie, delle canzoni romantiche e malinconiche che toccano l’anima. Sono quelle che ci rimangono male, quelle del buio più profondo.

Anime selvagge, quelle che si riservano il diritto di soffrire, perché anche il dolore serve.

E le “donne disastro” sono affascinanti da morire. Nella loro autoironia, ridono e soffrono.

Non odiano e amano, amano tanto loro, anche in silenzio.

Troppo silenzio.»

#i'm a disaster #i'm a beautiful disaster #my 📸

[just-an-enby-lemon]

I have class rn and I'm sleep deprived, having an alergic crisis and sad over an angsty scriddler fic I just read to try to keep myself to nap. How does anyone thinks I'm a functional human is beyond me

#i'm a disaster #alergical reactions to wheather changes and other ridiculous things #i'm soo tired #bad sleep habits #scriddler #should I mention this is the super exigent professor who says a student is only fit if they have full marks in everything? #my life is in a downright path #it ends in hell