#I'm hoping for somebody to care

[uncanny-tranny]

If somebody in your life offers to knit or crochet or, really, create anything for you, please be an active participant in the creation of the piece they are making. I adore making and gifting things, but nothing bums me out quicker than a person who passively just goes "okay," to my ideas about what I'm making them - it can send the message that they won't like it, or that they don't care, even if they're happy about my offering. The back-and-forth feedback is a great way to make sure that you are being gifted something that was truly worth the time, effort, expertise, and money that will inevitably go into the gift!

I know it's really hard to be an active participant, believe me, I'm an anxious ball of horror, but it will only do good for both parties to interact in this situation. It is a big deal to be offered a hand-crafted gift, but it's also something we want you to love and use, and that can only happen if you tell us what would make you fall in love with what we create.

#advice #relationships #art #fiber art #knitting #crochet #i always try to remember that some people's responses to something big is to clam up and become more passive... #..i just want to remind you that you aren't in danger of Ruining Everything by suggesting things or asking questions or saying what YOU wan #like i asked my dad specifically how he would feel if i made him items SPECIFICALLY so i could gauge if he would like them for instance #i don't just want to create something i want the recipient to actually LIKE it #which is why i typically (not always) ask how somebody would feel about me giving them a specific gift #i know some people genuinely don't care in the sense that they would appreciate ANYTHING but sometimes that doesn't always translate i gues #im crocheting a set of coasters for my dad and i really hope hell truly like them because i'm not sure based on how he responded to my ideas #it makes me so happy to gift things but it's with the caveat that the recipient will think it is An Amazing Gift That Is SO Good And Useful

[roseverdict]

i've previously gone insane over NFC stuff and 2D barcodes (amiibo tech and QR code tech, basically) so now i have a plethora of leftover knowledge and also a few nfc tags i never got around to giving a purpose.

#rosie babbles #technically #word nerd #but only in that 'word nerd' is my general catch-all tag for 'the great and powerful information encoding special interest' akdjaodjaksa #random polls #my polls #tumblr polls #polls #somebody peeks at my room and sees a recreation of that one VR test room and thinks i'm doing some mad digital science #but actually i'm just audhd scatterbrained and need a physical representation of things to look at that stimulates the fixation zone of my #brain if i want any hope of ever actually acting on that thing. and i have more tabs open than i'd care to admit dedicated solely to very #in-depth ao3 searches that i keep losing track of and trying to recreate #this post goes out to 'i just filtered the tmnt bayverse category so i get solely bayverse teetles w/o smut or incest and slashed the numbe #of fics down from like 1.5k and change to 324' skdjsodnskdjaa #nightblogging

[itscooltoskate]

Lionel Messi 🤝 Timo Boll

Wonder child

Lefty

Can effortlessly switch hands/feet and still make incredible shots

Stayed in one club for nearly all his career

Is/was the mvp of said club

Loved by everyone

A true players’ player

Has won pretty much every trophy there is

Has been no 1 with 36 +-1 years old

True sportsmanship

Humble

Introverted

Can't separate him from his respective mate/coffee

Really cares about and takes time for his fans

Just a guy™ with some massive talent and a hobby

No drama, unproblematic king

Married to childhood sweetheart

Been a pro athlete for way longer than normal people

Getting retirement questions in interviews and answering them with “I’ll play for as along as I enjoy it and haven’t thought of that yet”

Most importantly: adorable af

I rest my case.

#if anyone even cares about this #timo boll #table tennis #lionel messi #football #tenis de mesa #fútbol #I love one (1) type of athlete lmao #when timo was a child he also played football and in one game scored 9 goals #in the whole season he scored 90 goals #this was in u9 #he also said in one on ones he’d lose because he’s a softy and not that tall/big lmao #and he'd just get thrown around #the parallels just keep adding up #please tell me there isn't anything problematic about messi that'd suck #I can't see timo boll being problematic in any way whatsoever but I'm hoping it stays that way lol #thanks for coming to my tedtalk #still here whoops did I miss anything? 🧐 #I'm pushing the timo boll agenda hard but somebody needs to do it #even if that'll be me one post and ramble in the tags at a time 🫡 #they are both so adorable

[buppypuppy]

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#vent post essay ahead lol #having complexes about talking about your emotions is literally the fucking devil . its miserable. it sucks so bad. #the aamount of damage that is caused to someone by like #i mean im talking abou t me here obviously. #being the person whose like. overall ultimately tends not to feel horrible as often is like. #it's nice not feeling bad emotionally all the time but also it's like. i develop this complex about being like able to help. #i don't feel bad anywhere near as often as my friends so i can help them out and listen to them vent i can have the mental room to #like listen to them talk about their problems. yeah. but it makes me feel like. well this is my job now so i shouldn't fucking talk about m #i shouldnt vent when i feel bad because that's not what i'm known for. plus my friends already all feel worse than me more often than me. s #i don't want to dump any more on their plate than they have to deal with. i don't want to burden them anymore than i have to. and like it's #it's hard. i hate fucking talking about it and it's made so much worse when its like people i love . always been a fucking problem becaus #i just feel fucking horrible admitting that i feel bad i hate that so much. i don't want to like turn away people who care about me but li #i feel like if i tell them what's wrong with me i'll like do it anyways. i feel like i come off as super normal and happy go lucky and like #ostensibly fine. so when i admit this shit its like. oops the facade is cracking!!!!!! uh oh uh oh you can't help people so you feel bad!!! #because your fucking npd has made you feel self centered in a way that means you want to help people or some shit i dont fucking know #and so when i feel bad or get mad over something unreasonable it's like. well i hope i fucking keel over and die or something i dont like . #i don't want people seeing me like this or whatever. and my stupid fucking personality disorder just ruins every god damn thing its so bad. #my past experiences giving me complexes that lead to me feeling fucking left out over like small stupid stuff but god the worst part is lik #my brain categorizing something as being ''My Thing'' so somebody else talks about liking my thing AFTER my brain has designated it mine #makes alarm bells go off and feel like theyre fucking. i don't know encroaaching on my turf or what the fuck ever? it SUCKS ASS #it makes me feel HORRIBLE . and it's like i'm not gonna fucking bring it up because i don't wnt to be like a dick but also it's like well. #i feel fucking miserable about this but it's just like mean and unnecessary and cruel to like stifle people's fucking fun because of my dum #fuckin complexes. it's fucking constant. like oh look at you girl you feel fucking left out because you never get characters who really gri #you mentally and so now you have one but oops! someone else talked about them and now you're seeing red! you like this person though #so you're gonna feel fucking MISERABLE about this . you're gonna feel HORRIBLE because of this. and there's nothing you can fucking do #and it controls my goddamn life and i HATE IT i fucking HATE IT i wish i knew how to fix it. ghghrgurghrughruhg i want to fucking explode #and then you feel bad about feeling bad because you are fucking sisyphus. you're sisyphus. and your own anger is your boulder. you ingrate. #i hate this. i just wanted to have a good day. #jane mary cry one tear

[dogin8]

What do you mean you don't want to? You always used to love humouring me

#this has been in my drafts for a million years #i hope to reword it someday #it has so much punch in my head delivered as dialogue #but i couldn't fit that nicely into text i don't think #like #the concept of somebody growing up and establishing boundaries and then a figure (parent. guardian. older sibling etc) from when they were #younger. tries to do some of the same things with them #but the person is much better at establishing that they don't want to do something #it's like ''You don't want to do [thing that they don't like doing]? we always did it together when you were a kid'' #''Why don't you want to do this thing you never enjoyed? I never cared about your feelings so i assigned that you loved it because i do'' #but in the post the intention is to say it plainly #it's like a satire or something #''why don't you like doing this thing you hate? you always used to humour me'' #it's self awareness but not change #like a character saying ''Hahaha I'm so evil'' or whatever #idk I'm just rambling at this point

[frecklystars]

I'm so sorry if this sounds insensitive, please delete this if it does, but I loved your vent art you made. The one where you're hugging the orange dinosaur. It's been so long since I've seen you post any art and fuck it looks so good! But I know you made that when you were really hurting so I'm sorry if this comes out weird

OH thanks!! No it's not weird at all and I totally get what you're saying. Thank you for clarifying! I'm so glad you thought my art looks good, it's been so long since I've drawn anything... it's been 9 months actually!! I'm very pleased that my art style hasn't gotten too rusty after it had been forever since I'd picked up my tablet pen.

I was actually crying while drawing it, tears literally rolling down my tablet screen, yet at the same time I was thinking to myself while coloring "hoooo damn this SLAPS actually!!! 😩✊✨"

#anonymous #asks #Triceratops is a TF character but I have literally never drawn him before days ago #and he felt 'safe' to me (at the time) because... i dunno... he's not in many eps #and I never saw my ex-friend commission herself with him or even talk abt him #and I was trying to rewatch some rid episodes to try to reclaim my Saving Starlight AU #i looked at rid Starscream and thought oh he wants to beat me to a pulp. which. isn't good! #i used to think he'd miss me terribly and i used to feel SO comforted watching my saving starlight eps #and then Triceratops walked onto the screen and I was like. oh. this guy. this little dude. I need somebody to hold me and You're It #and I looked at that little orange beast and I was like 'YOU. COME CLOSER' #I still felt like he wouldn't love me or care about me at all but I drew it anyways #I'm so numb to all characters but I'm hoping with time that will change #I rly resonated with him bc in one episode he keeps saying how he doesn't trust anyone #because he's been so severely hurt. and betrayed. and deep down he's so scared. #and I feel like he'd understand how I feel even if our situations are different

[mostlyanything19]

Oh you guys weren't kidding, the Ashton/Percy confrontation is fantastic

#critical role #c3 #cr3x36 #p #somebody said ashton went on the offense so hard that he accidentally dropped every defense #laid it all out for percy; where he's coming from; the miseries of his life; how angry it makes him #percy recognizing all that anger as something he knows al too well. he rarely got hot-headed about it; he didn't rage or shout #but he knows anger alright. he knows /hatred/ even. and he speaks from experience when he tells ashton to #try to make that anger into something that creates; that builds; that /makes/. and then defend that with all you've got #it's probably good advice. it's not hot air at the least. #and ashton being like ''fuck love and joy and hope and all that crap that's not why i'm here #begging for laudna's life at the doorstep of some lord. it's because there's something important here and she's important for it.'' #like i mean he might be right or not but that's beside the point the point is that ashton cares about his friends SO MUCH even if #he thinks he's hiding it well #and i can't understand why some people are complaining about percy being an asshole i mean - first of all Duh. where have /you/ been #he's always known how to act righteous and condescending and come across rather coolly. but that's not even very relevant imo?? #bc he absolutely has the right to take the stand he's taking i mean jesus #if /anyone/ has the right to say a hard no to delilah briarwood coming back to life in any capacity #it's percy. he's suffered more than enough at her hands to have that right and be foreceful about it #and i'm glad obviously that his isn't the last word spoken on the matter but all that still is true #also just the /juiciness/ of taliesin going up and shouting at his own old pc with his new pc. amazing. #love the layers of it. love how right and wrong they both are.

[airbenderedacted]

Is anyone experiencing a tumblr glitch that's causing them to randomly follow people they've blocked, or did this just happen to me bc my phone is breaking??? 😭

#ngl i kinda hope it's the latter bc as cringy as it is for this to be an ''I took *awful* care of my phone'' problem... #the thought of there potentially being a BUNCH of people on my blocklist suddenly in my followed blogs list bc of a glitch is. kinda scary #i'm kinda paranoid abt being perceived by certain pr0sh!ppers Ever (woy mutuals iykyk) and uhh. #yeah a lot of blogs i block over squicks at best & lowkey triggers at worst (not counting like.. occasional bigoted freaks i block) #and uh. also literal predators bc that was A Thing once so uh. ok fuck now im fr starting to worry if this is a glitch that's happening uh #fuck dude please tell me this is smthn my breaking touchscreen somehow??? did h #i was on twitter earlier scrolling some random tweet replies and my touchscreen started wigging out and #kept forcing open some random person's following list???? even tho there was NO link/button to view that ANYWHERE ON THE PAGE #SO #please tell me this is a phone broken thing PLEASe 8') #only found out bc someone i have blocked popped up in my DMs and i was like. . ????? ?? What. AND APPARENTLY I WAS FOLLOWING? #which is way better than somebody u blocked finding a way to circumvent it & dm you bc that freaked me out for a good 2 secs but #yeah fr pls tell me tumblr isnt randomly unblocking and following people for you bc DUDE? DUDE?????? 😭 #my go-to reasoning for all weirdness on tumblr is the fact that this site is held together by gum but pls lord tell me tHIS is my bad #AOUGH..

[28mindgames]

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#it's saturday night and something happened that made me realize how little i mean for somebody i really care about and now i'm sad #on a friendship level #and now i'm in a spiral of thinking thinking and thinking #and also realizing how little my friends emotionally supported me when my dad passed away #:( #i hope this is just pms

[born-to-lose]

"Legs up for infidelity" in Trivium's This World Can't Tear Us Apart is such a Line

#it's just. a friend of mine was cheated on recently and i want to kill that guy with my bare hands #they were together for like 2 years almost? i'll never understand why some people decide to cheat in their partners #when there are so many other ways to work around that like talking about issues or even breaking up if there's really no hope #so every time this happens to someone i know (or me with my shitty first boyfriend) i'm so mad #and this line is the perfect mix of sarcasm and anger and bitterness #tho it kinda puts the image of your partner fucking somebody else in your head but it expresses that upset and angry feeling you get #it's one of my favourite metal love songs but also makes me sad because of memories #fuck why did writing this hurt so much. it's been ages and i'm 100% over that asshole but why would someone do this to me #similar thing goes for people who hook up with someone new straight after getting out of a relationship. something itches me about that #tho i think that's more of a personal and not universal thing. it just feels a bit disrespectful when it's too soon #like a few days or weeks afterwards idk i just wouldn't do that personally but maybe i care too much #no shame if you do tho as long as i'm not involved #mel talks

[starchild--27]

<<🙏🏻>>

#i'm only rarely posting about horrible events anymore #simply because i get overwhelmed by the bad news. because there is so much of those. #because there are always horrible things happening. there are things that have been happening for years that no one talks about anymore. #not posting abt something does not equal not caring - i think it's important to say that again #as a reassurance for myself really #because i know that i am incredibly privileged for being able to decide what badness i let into which spaces of my life. #not everyone can have a safe space like this. people live and die in wars everywhere around the world. peope live and die in protests. #people get stripped from their rights. people are unrightfully imprisoned. people are forced to work under horrible conditions. #people people lose their homes. people are hungry. people have no clean water. people get sick. #people get crushed in a too big crowd in a too little street on what was supposed to be a fun party night. #my thoughts are with the injured. with the dead. with everyone who lost somebody under such horrible circumstances. #we all just want our lives to be ok. and horrible things keep happening for reasons that are sometimes easy sometimes hard to understand #i always hope everyone is safe and i know that is impossible. but i still hope. #i hope everyone can still find pieces of happiness in these trying times too. #on that note: i am fully supporting sm cancelling the halloween party and postponing jongdae's album. #it's the right thing. anything else would be disrespectful towards everyone. this hits so close to home for them. #i hope they all are ok over there #anyway i am rambling. i just needed to put these thoughts into words. #in a way that won't depress me when i go through old posts in the future #stay safe everyone. if anyone feels alone with this or just the need to talk with someone i am always here. take care ♡

[yeslordmyking]

I'm so lonely and bored, but the company I want and the hobbies I want to engage in aren't holy, and I don't want to have to repent for doing what I like. I hope the changes my heart need to make come soon and with as little pain as possible.

Put on the new self. Even if you have no idea how not to be the old self anymore..

#I just wanted to be myself. now she has to go away forever and somebody else has to become my new self #someone I don't know. someone I don't feel like I'll enjoy being. someone who's not really real just someone i know I'm supposed to be #someone better. holier. more righteous. more pure. a good example... until that person becomes who I am naturally #a saint. I must become a saint. God will make me do it if I don't willingly die to who I am now. who I've always been #we're not supposed to miss and mourn our less holy selves. but I will #and I'm scared of the spiritually mature woman I have no choice but to become if I am to claim that I love God and want to go to Heaven #maybe this mentality will all be in the past #when i'm old and boring and want Heaven more than I want any future on this evil earth #but right now it feels like death even though I thought I already died when I got baptized. maybe I was still young and foolish then #this is the mature spiritual mindset I should've had when I got baptized but instead I was too caught up thinking I could get what I want #die to your flesh every day brothers and sisters. I guess the phrase 'even if it kills you' makes sense now #I just hope the people I pray for will be saved before the end even if I stop keeping up with them and knowing what to pray over them #at least let me have that Lord. if my life must become a wasteland of what I usually used to love please at least save what I love #so we can reunite in Heaven in purer holier forms that are acceptable to you #yeah... Ok rambling instead of sleeping. #nobody on here cares I scared away all oomf s long time ago... back to lonely full circle. goodnight to myself 🫂♡ #night depression #late night thoughts #oversharing #tmi #christian struggles #personal #random #may it please the Lord

[tell-tale-taeil]

Once people stop assuming that whichever two random people following each other on Instagram are automatically dating, the world will be a beautiful place.

#how can somebody who's following tens or dozens or hundreds of other celebrities or people dictate who you should or should not follow #that's beyond me #'why did he suddenly unfollow her so quick?' #girl cause you were being WEIRD about it omg?? #what else can he do than to unfollow and hope that the children will soon forget about it #idiotic annoying kids with too much time on their hands #like grow up you will never date your idols okay I'm sorry but you won't #so let them do whatever they want with their lives #this rant is now greater than the original issue but I don't care #I had to get it out #NCT #kpop

[skippingseaglass]

i have at least 4 hours total in my persona 3 reload save wasted singing color your night past 10 pm but like i was enjoying myself so guess that's the point of it all huh

#as sick or miserable as i get listening to color your with headphones and going on with what i'm doing will never not be relaxing #healing power of music or whatever but god damn #this song has somehow made living in this house a little bit easier #i hope i can make music that can do that someday #probably not but i'll try if i can! #i love sort of mimicking the fondness in the singer's voice near the end #usually i think about somebody i care about when i sing it so maybe thats why too #maybe tumblr will hear me sing one day who knows

[askshivanulegacy]

Hey this isn't like me yelling-callout-post-NOW or anything but I was scrolling through replies on the trolley-problem-palestine post and I do want to say that I have to unfortunately be invested in US Politics as a non-US citizen because of the way these elections affect the rest of the world, culturally and politically. The US is one of the richest and most influential countries in the world and the way it decides to interact with the rest of us, where it sends money and military to, and the conversations people in the US are having even about domestic issues end up shaping the conversations that happen outside of it (trans and immigration issues for example). It's horribly unfair and I'm fuming about it always why can y'all veto shit ❤️ but uh yeah, just a minor nitpick with the influence of the elections on everyone else. I could be entirely wrong in my perception of the way things are but that's how it seems to me rn.

That post was a long time ago, so I can't remember specifically what I said about it, but I don't disagree with your ask.

My big beef (and what I typically rant about) with most of the chatter about the US elections and Palestine isn't that the elections influence other countries. They definitely do.

My beef is that all the US tumblrites are making Palestine into the one single issue ever, in the world and in the US, and they're putting on blinders to everything else.

Palestine isn't even CLOSE to being the single issue or even the most major issue. It simply is not.

And in a US election, Americans NEED to take a look at OUR issues. The issues that affect everyday life. Affordable and accessible education, housing, healthcare, LGBTQ+ issues, rights to bodily autonomy, etc., etc.

In a US election, those are the things that are the most important. In a lot of ways, those are the only issues that functionally exist, within the context of the election bubble. Yes, you can and should consider foreign policy as a factor, but it should NEVER be the only factor ... not when there are so many raw and bleeding gaps at home, and clear, obvious, and impending threats to the very lives of the people these sjw tumblrites claim to care about.

I'm saying that election time is the time for Americans to focus on America for just a minute. And when all I hear is Palestine to the exclusion of all else - all rational thought, all sense - with the conclusion being "punish Biden because he happened to be president when Israel was being a little shit," then that's when I say none of that matters.

Because the US election is not about Palestine or any other country. It's about the US.

People desperately need to remember that.

No, I don't want to put America first, and I care a lot about how we interact in the world. But by God, you don't put your own country LAST in the election that is specifically for your country and will determine how you survive ... and IF you survive. You don't throw your country and everyone in it under the bus.

We have the right to be a little selfish for our election. Not Trump-selfish, but selfish enough to have some sense for the things happening here. It's time to set Palestine on the shelf for a while - at least long enough to realize that "punishing Biden" is idiocy.

Also that Biden is not only America's best strategic option, but he ALSO happens to be Palestine's and the rest of the world's.

Honestly, I've seen more of that perspective from non-Americans, and I hugely appreciate it. I just need the actual Americans in the room to realize that 1) they need to take off their fucking blinders, and 2) their stupid little short-sighted Biden-punishment stunt will not only harm themselves but also all the other countries they seem to care about more than their own.

And I want them to start giving a fuck about the country they currently live in.

#asks #answers #sorry if i took your ask as an excuse to rant a bit #i hope everyone can recognize what I'm trying to say: the election is a multi-dimensional issue #many things can be important and true at the same time #if all you think about is Palestine you're wrong #it's terrible and we should help AND we need to make good strategic choices for the future of the US that are based on issues in the US #AND those good strategic choices ALSO happen to align with the most helpful choice for Palestine and everyone else #for people worried about their 'conscience' and 'morality' #FUCK your conscience and FUCK your morality #i don't give a DAMN #about your little whiny baby feelings #i DO give a damn about logical and strategic choices in this election chess game #that is the only thing that matters #go make a strong strategic vote and then go cry into your pillow about it. if you must. #i don't care so long as you vote very deliberately FOR someone and not merely weakly and ineffectually AGAINST someone #because you have the character of a wet noodle #buck up #go vote! #i know somebody is going to read this and think I'm saying 'Palestine doesn't matter' #if you do I'm sorry for you #this whole thing is about the context of the US election and ONLY about that #Americans are sometimes the worst honestly #like they're SO PERFORMATIVE and APOLOGETIC about being American but at the same time they have zero concept about identifying as a citizen #OF THE WORLD #their whole identity is to reject America wholesale but they don't ascend to any other identity and they fail to use their very real ties #to America to actually act in a beneficial strategic fashion #you can be a citizen of the world but you also have a responsibility to steer your country #Americans don't even realize what America HAS #do you even realize what a gd GEM this country is. it's imperfect but there's so so so much potential.

[kenobion]

The palpable tension between me and the dating app on my phone that I've never opened

#I keep hesitating like something's holding me back or like there's some reason not to do it #but . . . there isn't and nothing tangible has happened so what do I think I'm waiting for #no one has popped up out of the woodwork to say they like me #why am I like this #it's not like waiting has worked out for anything else before #all it has ever been is more of the same and no one has ever come along to change that so I guess all I can do is do it myself #this does not help the way that I feel I can hardly rely on anyone :/ #I'm sick of doing it all myself and wish it would change and somebody would care and not just assume I'm strong and can do it on my own #I'm tired of 'being strong' #maybe this urge to wait is some screwed up version of hope that thinks somebody one day might change all of that and shake things up #but it seems I've given that too long of a chance now - if something's going to change now it seems it only will because I make it happen #I guess that's all I can stick to going forward #it's terrifying but living like this the rest of my life sounds worse #ugh. #personal #random