#I'm just very autistic

[polycatyl]

oh no sorry about the orange chicken :c

it's okay, it just kind of sucks, I haven't eaten out in over a week and my partner got me food because he thinks i needed a little joy, the fried rice is good though, had to pluck out broccoli though

#asks #anonymous #he knew what to get #it was a place I haven't tried so it's not his fault #i'm just very autistic

[t00thpasteface]

"it's very problematic to make your space aliens autistic-coded" SPEAK FOR YOURSELF 👽👽👽👽👽🛸🛸🛸 ALIEN LASER BLAST ATTACK ✨✨✨🌠🌠🌠🌠🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

#when i was a very small very autistic kid and i saw invader zim for the first time i was like bro he just like me fr #my Also Autistic mom was always like you have to be nice to the humans ok. you have to trick them into thinking you're human #now that i'm better at actually dealing with The Symptoms i relate more to the uhhh non-planet-conquering aliens #shebbz shoutz #spock #superman #invader zim #actually autistic #autistic adult #autism

[neroushalvaus]

Koko the gorilla didn't know ASL but, like, you could say that without invalidating the existence of speech-supporting signs

#apparently english doesn't even have an established term for them so i'm not that surprised #but basically for many people with severe intellectual disabilities using individual signs without the proper sentence structure #that is obviously a part of sign languages #is a very important part of communicating #so yeah please criticize the gorilla and her handlers i literally don't care but there are actual people who actually use singular signs #and while it is not asl it's still important and it's still communication #edit:// and obviously it's not just people with intellectual disabilites; that's just the group i'm the most familiar with #but for example many non-verbal autistic kids use speech-supporting signs #and for them it's a very important part of communicating what they need #so idk stop acting like sign languages are the only languages on earth #where saying ''hunger eat food hunger'' doesn't communicate that you're hungry

[schmweed]

#David Tennant #Alec Hardy #Ellie Miller #Broadchurch #my gifs #Yes they're talking about something extremely serious. #But can you see soft way his eyes tenderly trace her eyes and just rest on her face like it's the best thing he could look at? #He spends so long just looking at her -- and she is so mindful of his comfort level and RARELY looks back when he's looking at her. #If he's looking at her she's always looking ahead or down or away. #Except if she needs to hold his gaze to get a message across. Like go make some tea. Or if they're both worried. #This reminds me -- she is so naturally instinctively understanding of him #We rarely hear her addressing him by name after the rant that falls out of him when he has dinner at her place in S1. #She gets that simply looking at someone while you're talking to them is enough. And you don't need to tack on their name on top of that. #Which astounded me actually! I wondered if Chris Chibnall had spent some time around an autistic person! #Because I feel EXACTLY like Alec does abt names! I hate names. I hate using them. It's so unnecessary. #I'm not as outspoken as him though so I use them when I can't get out of it. But I hate it and I hate ppl using my name. #That scene was ASTOUNDING I'm telling you -- it took my breath away to find my very specific struggle onscreen! #Anyway. Yeah. She doesn't bug him or insist even though to her it's second nature. #I bet you she's very good at coming up with pet names -- another thing my autistic brain shrieks at and sth I suspect Alec finds impossible #Oh Ellie -- beautiful beautiful adorable strong wronged Ellie! #Wronged by everyone except him <3 #Well and a few others -- Mark was kind to her despite his pain. Brian never treated her badly that we know of. #I will always love them for that. #I wish Jack had survived -- I think he would've been kind too. Maybe she would've hidden in his store when it got too much.

[nuppu-nuppu]

How the heck do people make themselves approachable irl and online I feel like people see me as a concrete wall with some graffiti on it that is a circle that says autistic inside of it

#like yes I do have a neutral face and I have no idea how to use emojis so Idk #or small talk! what the fuck is that #but some people are so turned off by how I appear externally that they don't really bother to get to know me #and when you get to know me I am actually very enthusiastic and smiley and talkative #but I am just very very very shy so it takes time to get to know me you know #but pls if you have any tips and tricks on how to be more approachable then pls tell me I would like to know #like plsss #pls I hope none of you think I'm rude or something I'm just clueless #actually autistic #autistic #neurodivergent #actually neurodivergent #and of course it's okay to be neutral all the time and not talkative or stuff it's just a me problem because I would like for people to get #to know me how I actually am you know?????? #pls #I'm sorry

[sciderman]

I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

#a lot of my traits have been exacerbated lately and i remember it was much easier for me before #and some of my friends have said “oh it's because you've been masking too long and now you're facing autistic burnout.” #and that made sense to me i think. #but then i found out about the stress thing. me overproducing stress hormone. and that's a very physical thing. #and that explains why i've been overstimulated more than usual lately. and why everything feels like too much. #and i wonder how many of these traits of mine are going to subside once i have lamar removed #and it makes me wonder a lot of things. and it's so weird how much your brain is tied to your biology. #i wonder how much i'll change. i wonder how i'll feel. i wonder if i'll still feel like me. i wonder how much me is me right now. #and how much of me is being altered by weird freaky hormones. who am i?? who will i be?? #i'm almost looking at this as like. a superhero origin story of some sort. like this is my spider-bite moment. maybe. #will i be different? will i cope with things differently?? now that my body isn't fighting something anymore?? #maybe i'll be normal. i don't know. i don't know. #i don't know what it'll mean for me. #but all of these things mean i relate to peter parker in a certain kind of way #i don't think you have to be diagnosed with autism to recognise and empathise with those traits i think #i think everyone can see themselves in peter. and i think that's the benefit of having characters that aren't diagnosed. #because there's so much overlap in the human experience. and certain feelings aren't exclusive to just one group of people. #peter has such a rich identity actually. it's an autistic thing. it's a queer thing. it's a jewish thing. it's a trauma thing. #there are so many overlapping parts of peter's identity that inform who he is and how he behaves and it's never just one thing. #it's a product of all of his things. #just like me! just like everyone. #so me? i guess i can be a million things. you can explain what i am in a million different ways. #a hundred different psychologists can all come up with different ways to explain why i be the way i be. #i don't think it's something that can be simplified. #sorry wow. i'm really going off here in the tags. #i hope people don't think i'm stupid. i don't know brain science. i'm just philosophising as usual. #sci speaks

[minotaurmutual]

I'm so used to being surrounded by kind and thoughtful neurodivergent people at this point that I've forgotten that sometimes neurodivergency can make us assholes in very specific ways and even though yes there's nothing wrong with us for being "different" and we shouldn't feel ashamed of who we are etc etc it's still kind of also our job to try and not actively hurt other people and then just excuse it with "well I'm autistic/have bpd/xyz so you can't be mad" or "if you don't like me treating you bad you're making me feel like I can't be my true self around you" or something like. I feel like it's very obvious to me because I have The Disorder That Makes Everyone Think You're Shitty so I'm always very aware of trying not to be, but others. not so much I think

#tldr one of my irl friends (who is autistic )consistently treats me like shit when she's 'low energy ' as she calls it #and those are situations where i offer her to leave her alone and make it very clear that we do not need to spend time together right now #ans then when i tell her that she's being really hurtful towards me she tells me that makes me feel like she can't unmask around me #and I'm like. ok #i literally have bpd I'm so angry it physically hurts all the time #am i supposed to just expect the people in my life to let me take my anger out on them and blame them for being ableist when they don't #like it or...? #idk man. #weird worldview

[punkeropercyjackson]

I don't think all these simp writers are going all out like they should because well i always see them talking about loving unhinged as fuck goths who have a mean surface with hidden softness and goofy balls of sunshine that're actually huge badasses and have secret trauma and being horny over them but they never talk about Steph and Cass from Batman despite like 65% of the fan content being x Readers so if you're a self-proclaimed slut then listen to the voice of god and make good on your word.Fuck Stephanie Brown and Cassandra Cain

#LITERALLY THOUGH how're simps for them non-existent stephanie's a hobie brown kinnie and cass is what fanon only jason todd fans think he is #< is a jt simp who discovered him through watch utrh and started reading his comics about three months into the fandom and is full of RageT #stephcass #cassandra cain #stephanie brown #t4t stephcass #blasian stephanie brown #trans stephanie brown #autistic stephanie brown #pastel punk stephanie brown #skater stephanie brown #team mom stephanie brown #trans cassandra cain #autistic cassandra cain #butch cassandra cain #batman!cass #batfam #the unbreakables #young justice #dead sidekicks force #honorary anomalies #mermaid shifter!stephanie #hades legacy cass #x black!reader #lemon #💌 #summerposting #edit:RIGHT uh i'm very much not h*rny for hobie i actually see him as a younger brother and pseudo-son i did not mean to imply otherwise💀 #just used him as an example bc of how popular he is in the fandom

[victorfrankensteinapologist]

could you talk about. Autistic victor frankenstein. If you like. (reading 1818 and have brainworms)

it is my genuine opinion victor as a low empathy autistic person is a lot more sensible reading of victor's character then just "selfish dick" because a lot of his other behavior fits it. obviously, a disclaimer that I am fully aware autism did not exist as a disorder in the time the novel was written and mary shelley certainly didnt say "my protagonist will be autistic", but also autistic people always existed, etc. anyways!

special interests: this one's a given. victor's obsessive interest in alchemy in his later teens is the most obvious, and then later on in chemistry in university, but also victor states a lot that since he was very very young he wasfascinated by the workings of the world itself. admittedly this is made more apparent in 1831 with the "it was the secrets of heaven and earth that i desired to learn" and "the world was a secret which I desired to discover" and other lines, but it's also made quite plainly obvious by him talking about how excited he was just to watch a thunderstorm

low empathy: he can't pick up on the extent of the feelings of others, and paired with his own very strong emotions, is why i think we often see victor talk about how he's the world's most miserable human creature. it also leads to him saying some pretty rude things, like that he feels worse then justine who's on death row and telling ernest to stop crying over william so he doesnt get more upset

literalism: "i will be with you on your wedding night", very plainly did not catch what the creature was threatening bc he took his words at face value. he genuinely thought the creature would be with HIM on his wedding night. because that is what he said

volatile emotions: victor on repeated occasions goes from calm to very upset or vice versa very quickly. walton mentions it when talking about victor's tone: Sometimes he commanded his countenance and tones, and related the most horrible incidents with a tranquil voice, suppressing every mark of agitation; then, like a volcano bursting forth, his face would suddenly change to an expression of the wildest rage, as he shrieked out imprecations on his persecutor.

repetitive speech: this comes up multiple times in the book in victor's dialogue, where when he gets agitated or upset he tends to repeat words and phrases. i cannot thing of examples off the top of my head but they are definitely there

repetitive body motions: victor repeatedly gnashes his teeth was agitated or irritated, the creature also does this once as I recall but I believe victor does it about three times

#victor frankenstein #frankenstein #victor is a character i appreciate because an autistic reading of his character shows the reality of being autistic in my opinion #thats its not always pretty and palatable #and in fact rarely ever is #i would talk more but unfortunately i am also autistic so explaining things very well [doc mitchell vc] just aint in my nature #i'm also probably missing some things. i havent really reread the book since frankenstein weekly haha #been meaning to do so though...

[canisalbus]

I adore Machete! He's such a well designed, compelling character. I wanted to ask, how do you know so much about Catholic history? What got you interested in it?

Thank you! That's so sweet of you to say, I'm terribly flattered you find him compelling!

I've been a fan of art, history and spirituality ever since I was very little, longer than I can remember, and I think a lot of those topics just happen to cross at Catholicism, at least from an European point of view. It's a subject I've learned a lot of because so many other things I like are so intrinsically connected to it.

#I don't think I'm exaggerating when I say that over the years it's become one of my autistic interests actually #I'm diagnosed just for the record #and believe me I get embarrassinly obsessed with things #one of my earliest childhood hyperfixations was cathedrals I just thought they were the most magnificent thing ever #also Machete is a very old character and has had clerical themes since the beginning so a lot of the research has been done just for him #don't make fun of me for not being able to be normal about the concept of religions

[steakout-05]

i forgor it was autism day yesterday so i'd like to wish a very happy autism month and late autism day to data from star trek specifically :)

#star trek #star trek tng #star trek the next generation #star trek next gen #data soong #data #commander data #data tng #autism #autism acceptance day #autism acceptance month #actually autistic #autistic #data's so autism it has to be canon #like #he doesn't get social cues or humour #he mirrors the actions of his human friends (especially geordi) #he has a flat effect #he has a special interest (sherlock holmes) #he can't process his emotions in a ''human'' way and doesn't quite get facial expressions #and even when he does get the emotion chip installed he still exhibits literally every other autism trait #that's what i love about data post generations. the emotion chip didn't suddenly make him human- #-or neurotypical. he's still good ol' autistic data he just knows how to laugh and cry now :) #that what i was afraid of when i first watched the movie because i thought they'd just do a whole 180 with his character- #-as soon as geordi installed the chip but luckily they did not and i'm very happy about it #anyway shoutout to data!! i love him very much <3

[eggsnatcheskneecaps]

Hey do you think Caprico's everything is waterproof or does he have abs because he hates water due to his robotic parts

Or even still a water hater Despite Knowing water wouldn't hurt him if he Is waterproof?

I can only assume Caprico uses medical steel for parts that are meant to connect with his body. He's not stupid, I don't think he'd have such a simple oversight as to use a metal that can corrode and/or rust. Especially for the chest piece. Medical steel is not supposed to rust.

Titanium is one such metal and it's used in prosthetics. I can definitely see him using that material, along with some silicone mesh.

Although, seeing as electricity is being conducted through his limbs and titanium is not a good conductor... There could also be some copper involved? (That one also doesn't rust).

But! Because electricity is being conducted, maybe sitting in water Does Make Him Feel Weird. I guess that would only be the case if he'd activate that function while taking a bath, which. Uh. Why? (But you could argue his chest piece needs constant energy; electricity? Because it's probably connected to his heart, if it's not part of his actual heart)

I'm also thinking he could be A Lite Bath Disliker because of um. His Torture Pool Experience™ in North.

#there are also autistic headcannons you could probably tie in to him being A Water Disliker #he's just. very autistic to me. #i love him 🥹 #also thanks for giving me a reason to ramble about The Best Man to Ever Walk This Earth #I'm always happy to jump on meta or headcannon trains akjkh #ask #lunanitic-moon #caprico #shining nikki #sn

[autistic-beshelar]

ah yes dungeon meshi, the manga where an autistic man gets repeatedly bullied by people he thinks are his friends and not a single person supports him

#dont get me wrong i am enjoying this manga #but i'm failing to see how this is some great amazing autistic rep #like yeah laios is obviously autistic #and the struggles he has due to his autism are VERY relatable #but it's deeply uncomfortable that even the people closest to him are routinely awful to him #specifically for his autistic traits #and their bullying is almost always a joke #not a single person defends him #literally senshi is the only character that's never been cruel to him #well and farlyn but lbr she's also autistic and also has been in like half a chapter that ive read so far #maybe ive just not read far enough or not seen enough posts #but im not understanding why the fandom are treating it like amazing autistic rep and how it understands us so well #you could argue that the narrative tends to support laios's methods and way of thinking #but nothing else does #the scene with shuro was fucking awful to read tbh #'you're so annoying because you're autistic. how dare you think im your friend when you should have just guessed that i hated you' #and not a single person defends laios #or calls shuro out on what a fucking horrific way of treating a party member that is #like i dont know MAYBE you could have just said 'hey i don't really want to be friends' #maybe you could COMMUNICATE. #but no it's the autistic man who's the problem. for the crime of.... being too nice. #i don't have a problem with the scene. #i have a problem with the fact that shuro is framed as reasonable here. instead of utterly fucking vile. #i have a problem with none of the other characters sticking up for laios. #dungeon meshi #maybe ppl will start treating him better #i would like to continue reading #but if he continues getting bullied in EVERY fucking chapter as a 'joke' then idk man

[wwheeljack]

I genuinely remain confounded by the two sides to the Tech debate in this fandom. I've seen so many people on the Tech Lives side proclaim that they will be attacked, or insulted or made fun of for their ideas, all while they argue that those who see Tech as dead do so only because they want him dead since he's "autistic".

I've seen people on the Tech is Dead side go out of their way to comment unnecessarily on people who want him back with their beliefs on his death. This is unnecessary, just as it is unnecessary for those who believe or want Tech alive to make assumptions about those who believe the opposite.

That multiple people believe that is why someone may believe he's dead is confounding. The idea that Tech may be dead is not predicated on a hatred for autistic people, or autistic like characters. It isn't malicious for people to either want him alive, or to have accepted his death.

Frankly, it is tiring how the main focus of Tech's entire being since season two is that he died, and he's potentially autistic (The Crossing included, he never has been outright confirmed as such). He is so much more than that, and deserves to have people focus on him aside from just his death.

Curate your fandom experience by muting words or tags that may upset you.

#As a fan of Tech (which should be clear if anyone's read my fics) I'm so tired of this being the sole topic for Tech #It wasn't malicious intent to have him die just because he could be autistic #People aren't out here yearning for his death just because he's potentially autistic #Be polite to people on either side #Do not interact with one side if it upsets you into believing ideas about that side without actual communication with that side #Tech stans have become very tiring #I miss him of course but the way his fans have reacted and treated people within the fandom since season two has made it tiring to engage #Then that does not even include all the drama from both sides of the ship he's potentially part of #It's all turned very exhausting even when I've muted all terms related to this entire discussion #If the fans could think of more than just his death so often that would be nice

[schmweed]

#David Tennant #Olivia Goldman #Broadchurch #my gifs #DI Alec Hardy #This exchange NEVER fails to crack me up! :D #I love Hardy so much! It's insane that I only just discovered Tennant weeks ago and through Hardy #Most people around me are Ellie Millers -- and it's very nice but it's insane #because I'm always out of place -- I wonder if many other autistics relate to Hardy? #because he is the only person I related to on Broadchurch and the reason why I wanted to watch more filmography by his actor #solely for Hardy -- at first ofc. I can't believe I was oblivious to David Tennant all this time #I mean -- all this time he was just one half of the Good Omens duo all over my dash #I even reblogged a fanart gif of him dancing because it was inspired by Pulp Fiction! #I even watched him as Barty Crouch Junior and I was oblivious! Unbelievable. #What a treasure he is!

[brittlebutch]

I genuinely love the way Billie holds herself with my whole heart; more characters need to start doing it like her <3

#N posts stuff #bnt #like i don't think her arms touch her sides at Any point in the whole movie and i Love that for her #relating to the way people move and hold themselves is Not something that happens very often to me it's such a thrill <3 #like her anxious hand clenching in gif 3 AND the stiff-excited way her arms move in the last one &&&& #her excited lip biting and how she smiles all crooked OAUHG just like me fr i love her so much <3 #bill and ted #bill and ted face the music #wilhelmina billie s logan #just noticing as i'm tagging this but it's fun to me how ted introduces his name as ted 'theodore' logan and billie inverts it #thea keeps the 'thea theadora preston' format though. ANYWAY we love autistic body language #billie and thea