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wyniepooh · 1 year

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aaron

hotch doesn't really like when fellow members of the team calls him by his first name. for you, however, maybe he can make an exception.

traumatized!hotch core, mentions of stabbing and TW: foyet 😔. The team investigates a case that reminds hotch of f*yet, he is not well and reader sees right through him. bau!reader, hurt/comfort/fluff that turns into something a lil more towards the end slightly bc it’s hotch so i can’t help myself .

hotch preferred when everyone called him by his last name. he never explicitly said it, but it was an unspoken rule of sorts. whether it was hotchner, hotch, or even whatever nickname penelope often came up with, he didn’t mind. as long as it wasn’t aaron.

'aaron' felt too personal to use with his co-workers. too intimate. as much as you guys were like a family, hearing aaron come out of spencer’s mouth would be as strange as a quiet crime scene.

and heck, was this crime scene hectic. the aftermath of a negotiation involving drawn weapons was always hazy— body overfilled with adrenaline and running on approximately three hours of sleep. all the law enforcement agents you could think of was present, interviewing people, collecting samples. all the lights and voices didn't help with the anxiety. but this scenario in particular had everyone scrambling to collect their thoughts.

hotch, especially. the mo of the unsub was eerily similar to that of foyet— the intricate stabbing that ensured the victim suffered long and hard but was still conscious enough to feel every inch of the next stab. the whole team was aware of the elephant stealing all the oxygen in the room, but no one really knew what to say or do given hotch’s constant stern affirmation that he was fine.

and so the whole team walked into the local police department in silence, hotch leading as the rest of you trailed behind. tired of the crickets practically sounding, you cleared your throat and exclaimed,

“so, does anyone want to get some food? i saw an authentic taco sta-“

your words trailed off as your eyes followed the figure in front of you, who was walking away haggardly towards the washrooms. you turned back towards your teammates, all of them shrugging and letting out a sigh. eventually, they all walked away with a promise to fulfill your hungry request and disappeared to their work stations.

you stood outside the bathrooms for at least five minutes, taking a step forward, then back. forward, then back. finally, you shook your head quickly, straightened your shoulders, and pushed the door into the room.

"h-hey! this is the men's-"

you didn't bother to acknowledge the young police officer by the urinal who was frantically pulling up his pants. you simply lifted an extended arm and nodded to silence him. you walked to the front of the stall where you spotted hotch's perfectly polished shoes, and stopped. once the guy left, you knocked on the door.

“hotch? i know you’re in there.”

silence. you began tapping your foot and crossed your arms, blowing out a rush of air. exasperated, you repeated again, “hotchner. open up. please.”

a click enabled you to release a breath of relief, the door opening to reveal hotch sitting on the closed toilet, head looking down with his hands crossed in between his legs.

“listen… i know you said you’re fine and that you're good to keep going, but we both know that’s bullshit. we know you. too well, even. we can tell that you're struggling, whether you like it or not. it’s obvious this case has brought up…”

your voice progressively got more silent as you noticed the response you got. silence. it wasn’t until you stopped talking did you realize his rapidly rising shoulders for each breath he took, and the way he fidgeted with his hands to hide the shaking. you immediately knelt down to his level, putting both hands on his shoulder.

“hotch? hey-“

“i'm sorry,” he mumbled.

“what?”

“i’ve been dismissive the whole day. i want to say it’s simply because i didn’t sleep last night, or the night before that, and that is part of it but… the reason i haven’t been able to sleep is because of the case. i thought the therapy was enough, i thought it would be fine once i was distracted with work,” he sighed, “i know i’ve made you all uncomfortable and i don’t know what to do about it. i wish i-“

“hotch.”

“-could just open up. i’m so sor-“

“aaron.”

he stopped his sentence midway and found your concerned eyes.

you chuckled, “if you say sorry one more time, i’m going to really make you sorry.”

it took a second for aaron to muster out a laugh as well, but eventually he did, and the sound put a genuine smile on your face.

still kneeling, your hand came up to softly caress his jaw. “don’t apologize for how you’re feeling, aaron. i’ll admit that the atmosphere is a little more tense than usual, but let's be honest here," you dropped your hand from his face, “we're all tense. we're profilers, for gods sake. what are we but tense?"

aaron gave a nod of approval, his lip curving into a small smile.

"and also, don't feel obligated to talk to us. everyone has their own coping methods. we're just reminding you that if you do need a person to talk to... we're here to lend an ear. and of course, we hope you remember that it's more than okay to take a break or admit you're uncomfortable. we get it. we won’t judge.”

you feigned a thinking face, “well, rossi might judge a little, but at least we won’t!”

he snickered and nodded again at your words, taking a deep breath. his hands had stopped shaking and his breaths seem to be more regulated. you smiled at him one last time before the both of you began to stand up.

as aaron straightened himself, he realized something. he didn't like the others calling him by his first name, but there was something different about the way his name sounded rolling off of your tongue. in fact, he would do anything to hear you say 'aaron' again.

before you could both exit, the stall door behind you suddenly closed. a surprised ‘oh’ left your lips, and aaron looked equally as confused. the inclosed space pushed you closer to him, and just for a second, you saw his eyes flicker to your lips. you expected him to open the door like a gentlemen or apologize for the close proximity, but nothing ever came. you opened your mouth to say something, but all you could breathe was a quiet whisper of his name before he crashed his lips onto yours.

a/n: the washroom stall door was truly a paid actor.

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cuoredimuschio · 6 months

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15 people, 15 questions

tagged by @patchworkgargoyle!! 💚💚

1. are you named after anyone?

my dead name was possibly in honor of my grandmother and great-grandmother, but i 100% named myself after noah czerny (trc) when i was 17 👻

2. when was the last time you cried?

probably yesterday? idk, it happens a lot and my memory's terrible

3. do you have kids?

no. probably never will, whether i want them or not. i'm a little too scared of how easy it is screw up in parenthood

4. what sports do you play/have played?

i played softball from kindergarten through eighth grade, but that last year, i had a coach who benched me for over half of our games and screamed at me during practice in front of the whole team and made me sick to my stomach at just the thought of playing, so i decided i was done with the sport and didn't try out in high school lol

5. do you use sarcasm?

constantly. too much probably. but like, not with strangers usually, and i try to make it pretty obvious if i am being sarcastic

6. what's the first thing you notice about people?

the way they look at me/their expression, maybe? i'm just like. constantly on edge in public and i don't pass super well and also i'm just like. wildly self-conscious, so i'm always like 'okay, let's see, does this random stranger already hate me? 🤔'

7. what's your eye color?

i guess hazel would be most accurate answer. i've always said brown (dishwater brown to quote the midwife who helped deliver me), but it turns out there's actually green in there too and it's just brown around my pupil (a fact i genuinely did not realize until i was like. 17) so....yeah, hazel

8. scary movies or happy endings?

you know i always say i don't like scary movies because i'm very easily spooked, but i'm currently back on my chucky shit (sorry followers, but tis the season) and honestly, i wanna cop out and say both, scary movie with a happy ending.

9. any talents?

the sad thing is, no, i genuinely can't think of a single one. like, all i've got is that i can make a star with a rubber band, but i don't think that's a talent lol

10. where were you born?

ohio, unfortunately :/

11. what are your hobbies?

writing, reading, playing way too much zelda/stardew valley, occasionally knitting, taking walks, crosswords, making niche playlists, listening to the same song on repeat for hours

12. do you have any pets?

i am the proud proprietor of the cutest dog this side of the mississippi, miss ellie rose. (seasonally-appropriate evidence of said cuteness below)

13. how tall are you?

5'4" (and three quarters) #shortkingnation 😔✊

14. favorite subject in school?

english and math!!

15. dream job?

honestly, i have no idea. i've never had very lofty ambitions; when i was a kid, i wanted to be a bus driver or a mail man, and i never really found anything that stoked my soul in the past two decades. trite english major answer here, but i guess maybe working in a library or a bookstore would be nice (i'd say author but girlie, i could never) 🤷‍♂️

no-pressure, zero-obligation tags: @hellfiredemon, @starryeyedjanai, @pizzaqueen, @thefreakandthehair, @cheatghost, @vecnuthy andddd that's about everyone i know, sorry if i double-tagged anyone!!

#tag game #about me #sorry if i tagged anyone that didn't wanna be tagged too #i'm always so scared to tag people lol

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gunsatthaphan · 2 years

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Hiii I'm the anon last week who said that JiWoo left SeoJoon to 'protect' him. Lmao I just want to tell you that I absolutely fkn hate this trope too haha 😂 It just didn't occur to me to say that in the ask lol sorry it was so confusing. But yeah I didn't want TMS2 to turn into WBL2 (that first had the misconception trope and then the “I’m doing this to protect you” trope, with never explaining anything and hurting both of them 🙄).

The misunderstanding thing I think I had a harder time with, bc I thought JW and SJ established a solid ground after what already happened in s1. Like even if it's hard for JW, eventually it works between them, “If it’s hard for you I’ll come to you” from S1 and then the flashback with the hangers from s2 showed that they worked together. JW tells what’s up and SJ gives him help and patience with that. Or I thought so lol…😞

But yeah at the time I was just speculating with what we had which wasn’t much, and now we still don’t have much either 😅 but I think it just comes to JW and the fears he has. Such as the fact they don’t have the same style of life, SJ spends his money on big things; and he’s an actor and already had troubles in the past with bad press, so JW doesn’t want to hurt his career. And that falls under the ‘protect’ thing. That I don’t agree with bc a couple should make decisions TOGETHER and not break the other person’s heart to fkn pieces and at the end hurting him even more!!!

So anyways I hope they resolve that quickly lol. For maybe SJ telling him he'd chosen to still be with him. And to give him hell before going back together of course 😌

hii there anon!!! 💜

I’m so sorry that I’m taking forever to answer but I’ve been so busy lately 😔

but anyway I know right??? that trope is just so dumb 🙄

I also agree about the misunderstanding thing. The miscommunication card is so cliché and I wish there was less of that in bls nowadays lol. Although I don’t think that’s gonna be an issue for SJ & JW because can’t have miscommunication issues if you don’t communicate to begin with amirite djkhgkd oh god. But also yes, they have proven to make it work, we know from season 1 that there is definitely enough love on both sides and also enough devotion on SJ’s side to make it work but maybe that’s also part of the issue. Maybe JW ended up relying too much on that and thought SJ would eventually come find him and fix everything without JW having to lift a finger. like it’s always been. but oops that’s not the case this time. go figure.

JW not wanting to hurt SJ’s career is not an invalid argument obviously but just,,,,, no. I can’t accept that lmao. Not good enough. Do better lol.

I’m repeating myself but I just hope we will get that explanation and it better be something more sensible than whatever JW was babbling back then.....

xxx

#to my star #to my star 2 #tms 2 #jiwoo x seojoon #seojoon x jiwoo #korean bl #bl drama

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robyns8thnest · 2 years

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Well, boy drama obviously. Cue: repeating same karmic lessons because I'm a dumb bitch. Wait, that's another lesson for me. To love myself. Ugh. But here it goes. I recently started talking to this guy L, who is an Aquarius sun, Taurus moon and Aries rising. I'm a Taurus sun, scorpio moon and Libra rising. I have my Venus in 8th house in Taurus and he has it in 12th house of pisces. I checked our synastry and his sun (and 4 other planets) fall in my 4th house, his venus falls in my 6th house, moon in 8th house and my moon falls in his 7th house. There were a lot of placements that screamed marriage synastry. I was fascinated. Got several readings on me. Everyone said he's bad news, sneaky, but my guides want me to continue talking to him. So, I did. I was frustrated though. I could sense something wrong. I ignored my intuition. Shared too much. We sexted, talked, it felt so validating to have someone adore me especially when I'm so bloody unloved and insecure. I come from a dysfunctional family and I grew up hating myself. He loved all my flaws. He was very accepting of them. I gave him access to parts of me I didn't want to because idk what I was thinking. I trusted the readings + astrology blindly. He's from my city and we practice same profession (law). I told him how he's a fuckboy, he's had many flings, he drinks everyday till 3 in the night, parties with his friends, we barely talk, he flirts and sexts but said he loves me and jokingly said wants to marry me and raise kids lol within a month and I was taken aback. He keeps saying he wants to me have sex with me or atleast go on a date or talk on a call.he knows about my childhood trauma too. I felt like it was a booty call. Texting in wee hours of the night. Too many red flags. He said he'd check our chicks out on the beach even if we start dating (he asked me out) because he's being honest and I should appreciate it. Idk I gathered courage and told him I don't see this going anywhere and stopped talking two days ago. He said he's not friends with his exes. I'm not sure if I'm an ex but yeah. Texted him hi today out of desperation. Now, his playboy phase doesn't seem to be over. I'm also not accepting of his drinking and smoking habits. He's into heavy BDSM and so am I. However, he said he enjoys slapping women. In bedroom of course. Which seemed like a red flag 🚩 not to kink shame but umm no. I'm terrified if he'll strike a conversation if we ever happen to bump into each other. A reader finally said he's sneaky and has malicious intentions. He's probably in only for sex. Sent me voice notes with fake accent lol. But hey, I knew I had to let him go. I wanted someone else to confirm it. The reader did. They told me he'll use some information against me. Idk what it is. But I'm scared now. :( idk why I attract so much drama. Fml. Fucking aries venus (in sidereal) 😭😭😭😭😭😭 sorry for the long vent 😔

-Anonymous

You should not be sorry about sharing when I asked you to do that. First, we both have Scorpio moon and venus in 8th.....what are the chances?? I also come from a dysfunctional family so I know how hard it is to know if someone is taking advantage of you or not. I am also an Aries Venus but in western... so yeah, I understand.

If someone is nice to you and then asks you to be thankful for a trait that should be considered a bare minimum, it is a major red flag. Also, WTF !!! Marriage and children within a month.....that man is desperate to have you girl and is bad news.....save yourself the trouble and don't contact him ever again.

#ask #ask game #free tarot #tarot reader #tarot community #secret #gossip

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scoups4lyfe · 2 years

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Hi Karen anon here, long time no see (cause 8 just check tumblr like once a week and that just to read your liveblog. Usually i come to check it on Wed cause uhh I keep remembering the 30 hours anon lol chile anyway).

See, thanks to the newly added tags it did make my reading easier. But, I was scrolling for fun when I encountered the (excuse me if this sound rude) that mf 'interesting' anon. So pls excuse me while I put my Karen wig on

I know this is just Tumblr but people should really be professional. Your blog isnt a ship blog or whatever (though I noticed you just merely implying it sometime) so I found it really annoying that the anon attack you for something taht didnt have anything to do at all. Cause well, I will be honest. Im just interested in your blog bc of the fun af liveblog and the amazing analysis (i read the Ikki analysis so much its my bed time story/hj). And Im quite sure almost everyone who came to your blog is also come for the same reason. So what our personal ship is irrelevant to this blog (well at least thats how far I observed it)

*Taking my wig off* now that was done.

As always, I enjoy reading the live blog. Though I find it weird that in the ep 22 preview, it felt like everything go back to normal? Like Hiromi didn't just unalived down the cliff 😂. But well I will be anxiously waiting for that ep 🙏🙏

Also funny story, so I am someone who likes spoiler. So I will search spoiler on twitter first. Apparently, they all said that Daiji was useless in ep 21 and Im like "Naurr dont be mean to Daiji guysss" (bc they say that /every episode/ it basically a joke). Unfortunately, after watching ep 21 myself Daiji did feel even more....useless (this is strictly my opinion I swear lmao). Like, nah Daiji I cant defend you anymore like this 😂

Well sorry for the long af ask. Thank you for your hardwork and I will wait for the Oltecca(?) analysis. See you next week 🥰🥰 (take care of your health. The covid cases in country really spike up so hard this week 😔)

KAREN ANON????

Ayyyyy howdy buddy.

I'm glad the new tags help LOL

JDSKFJASDFJSDFDSF

THE KAREN WIG

'm glad for your wig'ed defense 🤣🤣🤣🤣 and yessssssssss

yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

I'm glad you like my analysis posts LOL!! And awh <333 it's always nice to hear y'all are having fun with the nonsense I've thrown into the abyss aasjdfjsdfjdf

AND YEAH G, I felt the SAME seeing the next episode preview. Really lol'ed cause it felt like we went back to the 'monster of the week' episodes aksdjflkjsdfj.

Tho I know the writers like to troll with us so idk I wouldn't be surprised if every other moment in that episode is just 'sibs mourning' hours. Sooooo funny too cause if it isn't,,,, and everyone's actin like nothing happened lmaooo that's STILL in character

#repress repress repress LOL

AHHHH USELESS DAIJI !!! BROOOO

soooo funny that's Daiji's pet peeve about himself too lasjdfksdf ;;;that he can't ever seem to do anything (esp when it really matters LOL!)

See, Daiji hates being the "damsel in distress" but that's all he was ever taught to be (cause Ikki and Sakura literally did everything else) and that was another big reason why he went out into the world and got some crazy asf job -- because he wanted to prove to himself too that he's able to do things on his own

but likeeeeeee, idk old habits die hard hahahaha

(Also doesn't help that in times of great stress Daiji clams up instead of being able to properly react to the situation. Aka he just shuts down.)

My homie is still learning just *how* to do things on his own, and then the Kagerou fratricide-stint really had him back-sliding in any positive development he had previously LOL!!!

My homie is the picture boy for Learned Helplessness

"People that experience repeated abuse and other aversive situations eventually learn to become helpless if nothing they do changes it. It’s as if they internalize that since nothing worked in that situation, nothing will work in similar situations, either. The trauma begins to erode two other critical aspects of mental well-being — self-efficacy and internal locus of control."

haha yoinks. Man I wish we got more flashbacks of the Igarashi sibs past cause DAMN. Pls man give me some bread in this desert.

"Self-efficacy is your level of confidence that you can tackle challenges and learn new skills. Internal locus of control is the degree to which you believe your circumstances are under your control. When these two traits are high, you feel confident and empowered, even when things get tough. Stressors seem controllable, and you know that you can trust yourself to do your best.

When learned helplessness takes over, though, you don’t feel so sure of your ability to handle challenges. You don’t believe that what you do makes a difference, and that makes it hard to see a way out — let alone a silver lining."

(These quotes are taken from: 'What is Learned Helplessness and how do you 'unlearn' It?' blog post/article)

Anyways It's obvious that Ikki's over-parenting has lead to this situation. And I think what makes it worse is that Sakura is more useful/helpful than he is.

(She wants to be seen as capable so she steps up to do as much as she can / to manage what Ikki isn't able to)

So now he's placed in the position of being especially useless LOL.

Anyways, Daiji has a lotttt of problems :')). He's literally the perfect target for cult recruitment.

(Which might be one of the reasons why he's still so quick to defend shady ass Fenix. Fenix is one of the few things he positively attributes to himself, so if Fenix is bad then that just means Daiji's failed *again* at doing the right, correct, moral, 'good', thing.

It's the *only* thing he has giving him any lick of worth. The only thing making him useful. Everything he's accomplished will go to ZILCH the moment Fenix isn't part of the 'good guys.' So,,,for him its just easier to ignore all the red flags. Cause he doesn't want to hate himself more than he already does, rip.)

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jayflrt · 2 years

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Hey, Alice! I saw your post about the speech you wrote on your racial identity. I didn't know you were Indian! That's cool. In the past, when you mentioned being Asian, I always thought you were East Asian. But I apologize for assuming. It's just that a lot of the fanfiction writers I've met on Tumblr have been East Asian.

I, myself, am Chinese, and you were right when you said the things in your speech might be relatable. People often tell me to say something in Chinese for them, simply assuming that because I'm Chinese I know the language (I do, but that's besides the point). It gets annoying after a while. I have also had people make fun of the way Chinese people usually speak and the size of our eyes.

Now, I was raised in America, so I never really had much of a problem with acclimating to white people's way of life. In fact, living in America for most of my life has caused me to act more white than Asian lol. But I honestly wish that wasn't the case sometimes. I've tried tapping into my culture more by wearing traditional Chinese clothing and eating Chinese food.

Anyway, I'm sorry people have given you such a hard time just because of your race. I don't understand why it's so hard for people to just be respectful and kind. And I'm glad you feel more comfortable in your own skin and you're embracing who you are. I admire you for being so strong. You're an amazing person, and don't let anyone tell you different.

Also, can I be 🎶 anon (if it's not taken)?

hihi love !!! thank you for sending me an ask about what i posted, that’s so thoughtful :’)) 💘 and yesyes sorry if i was unclear but i’m south asian !! yk i noticed there’s a lot of east asian and south asian writers here too :o

omg yes !! i honestly did say things in my language whenever i was asked, but it does get annoying :// and it feels like they don’t actually care about what i can say ?? and when they try to repeat it sometimes it sounds sort of mocking 😭😭 and yeah there are so many racist and discriminatory comments toward chinese people it must be so frustrating ://

and yeah i’ve lived in america most of my life so it was p easy to acclimate !! plus i think i’m a very adaptable person in general LOL but i realized how out of touch i was and it got harder in college bc i rlly noticed how different i felt from my predominantly white school 😔 but i’m glad you’re taking the time to learn and embrace your culture !! it’s never too late 💞💞

and thank you for such kind words 🥺🥺 i think the thing with microaggressions is that they’re so subtle that u don’t rlly think of them as an insult until later on :// but you’re so sweet yourself anon !! and ofc you can be 🎶 anon 🥰💖

#💌 : love notes #🎶 anon

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borathae · 2 years

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HEY SIBIII IM BACCKKK! WAITING FOR CH26 WAS DEFINITELY WORTH IT N NOW IM BACK TO BOMBARD U WID MY THOUGHTS

YG BEING A PART OF 'The Creators' WAS A MAJOR SHOCK TO ME ...i sensed a supremacy to him as compared to others but i thought that came wid his past battles wid being a ripper and coming out of it... HOWEVER THIS NEW TANGENT REALLYY CHANGES A LOT. FK YEAH IT JUST HIT ME AGAIN SO IMMA REPEAT. A LOT.

ALSO I THINK IM MISSING SOMETHING HERE BUT... ISNT TAE RELIEVED TO SEE OC LIKE WHATS THE MATTER Y IS HE SO...HOW TO SAY? LIKE, UNAWARE OF HIS SURROUNDINGS??😂 IS IT THE TRAUMA TO LOSE JM? OR ITS SOME EFFECT OF NJ's MIND CONTROL OR IDK... UK WHT I MEAN RIGHT??ALSO THE ENTIRE SEQUENCE WAS VERY HEART WRENCHING AND THE DYNAMICS OF THE STORY R CHANGING SO QUICKLY ITS HARD TO DIGEST ONE SENTIMENT AND BOOM U THROW IN A NEW ONE

as long as i want to DAMN BOI OKAY!😳

I PERSONALLY THINK YG DECISION TO PUT TAE IN THERE , MAYBE A LIL TOO HARD BUT WAS RIGHT. ATLEAST FOR A WHILE.

No, but i'm an idiot😂😂😂😂

WHAT IS A VAMPIRE STORY/MOVIE WITHOUT A BACK AND FORTH CONTEMPLATION AND ARGUMENTS ON PRINCIPLES AND MORALS AND HUMANITY AND FEELINGS. SPOT ON PORTION OF THE CH🔥

YG BEING SO GENTLE WID HER... HE S GOLD.

HOBI N SJ ENJOYING THE SHOW😂😂 I LOVE THERE CHILDISH SNEAKY BEHAVIOUR IN HERE

Gluttonous ripper.💥

stop making sense and let us be angry😂😂LOOKS LIKE ME N MY FRIENDS TRYNA BE BAD BITCHES TO SOMETHING THAT WAS ACTUALLY CORRECT AND WE WERE JUST DUMB... RELATE SO HARDD

THE LAST JK PART WAS VERY BRUTAL TO READ ... GAVE ME CHILLS... IM SURPRISED AT HOW WELL U PICTURE AND THEN WRITE THESE SCENARIOS

SJ OC FIGHT... HM IM GONNA SAY... SAW IT COMING... LIKED HOW IT STILL FELT NEW N UNEXPECTED

I UNDERSTAND HOW TAE's IMPRESSION ON OC IS SUBJECTIVE TO WHEN SHE RAN INTO HIM... BUT I THINK THAT WUD BE THE CASE WID EVERY VAMPIRE... no newly created vamp wud go against their sole insticts to save humanity or to fall in love... if not for long then for a short period of time they are all very alike...

IK ITS THE INTENTION THAT MATTERS... AND CLEARLY TAE's WERE FUCKED AT ONCE... RN I JUST WISH HE S OKAY N SO IS OC N ESPECIALLY THE GRP AS IN WHOLE... LIKE NO INTER-GRP FK UPS PLS😭

ALSO LOVE TO KOOKIE AND LOVE TO U WAITING FOR THE NEXT CH💜💜💜💜-The Yelling Anon

YAS BOMBARD ME WITH YOUR THOUGHTS!! I LOVE IT HERE HEHE

ommgmgm I am so happy that you didn't see the twist with Yoongs coming gnfgnf 😏 honestly he is so hot hahfdha sorry I need to stop simping over him but I just cAN'T fadsf

Also I feel like Taehyung is experiencing major trauma and grief right now. Just how Yoongi said he is confused and suicidal and I feel like Namjoon's mind control isn't truly gone either so he is in this weird limbo state of feeling way too much and yet at the same not wanting to show it (because that's what Namjoon wants) and quite honestly all I am imagining to give myself a little bit of comfort of Yoongi taking the greatest care of him and making sure that he feels better 😔

I wanted to quote the part where you swooned over him being gentle with her but stopped myself because I need to cALM DOWN nsdng

no newly created vamp wud go against their sole insticts to save humanity or to fall in love... if not for long then for a short period of time they are all very alike...

ogmgmgm THIS omgmg :(

HONESTLY I LOVE YOU SWEETS!! YOU ARE SO LOVELY!! 🥺💜💗

#asks: sanguis alpha #asks #yelling anon

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hannie-dul-set · 2 years

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May i know the whole storyline/plot of us again because i love that work of yours so much 😍 im sad when you said that you're not planning to write it anymore because for me that kind of fic is hard to find 😭💔

hello bb! it warms my heart to hear abt ur love for us, again huhu. i had to much fun planing and writing the series and it's honestly a shame that i can't invest any more time into writing it :')) it's just so.....long......and complicated maybe even longer than peach tree HAGDJABSFJ so i can't rlly give u a /full/ breakdown of the events, but here's a somewhat abridged take of what was supposed to happen.

as we all know, mc can remember all of her past lives and on her current life, people, events, and memories form her first life started to recur. it can be interpreted as either (1) another chance given by the world to fulfill the first love that she had lost during her first life, (2) relive the tragedies that occurred.

ofc, whichever of the two will become the ending, it all depends on the mc's actions throughout the story, and even when things seemed doomed to repeat, things can still change and maybe all it takes is a second chance.

the story set in the past is as cliche as it can get HAHAHHAHA y/n, the commoner sister of an apothecary, and na jaemin (or han daegang, in this case) the 2nd prince of their kingdom fall in love. star-crossed. etc. etc. jaemin's mother Did Not Like that idea at all and somehow rumors spread throughout the entire village that y/n did some sorcery or witchcraft or whatever to make the prince fall for him (bcs her sister is a traditional doctor what the fucking prejudice). this, ofc, gives the queen a reason to punish the poor girl. hence the flashback in chapter 4(?) i think about her running in the forest --- where she was ultimately banished from capital, literally chased out of the damned place and ended up dying from a gunshot after falling off a cliff <////3.

(past) jaemin secretly followed the guards that suddenly went off that night and tried looking for mc as well, but was too late. he ended up witnessing everything --- mc's death --- which is why he gets panic attacks at present day when there are any loud/abrupt/sudden noises; another instance of the past being carried out into the present.

(side note there was supposed to be a scene in chapter 5 where out two leads got wound up in the park during a festival and fireworks started going off. at the first bang, you noticed that he wasn't well and before his condition could get worse, you brought your hands to the side of his face and covered his ears <//////3 the tension. the eye contact. and for the first time in his current life, jaemin didn't mind the sounds of fireworks exploding jEEZ THIS WAS SUCH A WASTE).

ahem anyway.

the rest of the present day scenes in the fic basically follow the same formula as the past but ofc in the modern setting + y/n trying her best to fight back the god damned Feelings and trying to be a bitch to jaem bcs him + you = disaster......but aha.......who could resist......na jaemin.......especially when he's looking at u with does eyes and saying "please let me like you" CMON how could u not break.

unfortunately, i have only outlined until chapter 7 and only have a vague idea of what happens next HHAHHAHAH but eventually y/n gives in and holds onto the hope that she can make things different this time around, shit happens but all in all it's a happy ending i would literally hate myself if i made this life's ending tragic as well HAHHAHSFAJSH

i'm sorry if this doesn't satisty you HUHU if u want you can ask for some more details regarding chapters 5-7 bcs those are the only parts that i have outlined 😔😔😔 thank you for loving us, again, bb! it really means a lot.

#💌: anon #help this is so LONG #us again

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Omg i love talking about skz so thank you for asking! They have so many songs I absolutely love, but if I HAVE to pick the songs that really mean something to me hmmm

Firstly, Silent Cry.. I feel like that's pretty self explanatory haha. It's literally just like being heard. And even though obv they can't actually be with me it makes me feel soo understood.

Second, SLUMP eng ver! This was one of the first skz songs I heard and it really drew me to them. I was so stuck in my life and it felt like all my friends were moving forward except for me so this song really spoke to me.

Third, For You (Mixtape #3) this is such a hopeful song and it really reminds me to keep going and that it'll get better. Not to give up because as they say.. Blessings wait for youuu!

I'm gonna do one more song before this gets wayyyy too long.. If it isn't already oops!

Last one not entirely skz but Changbin ft Chan Streetlight. Oof this one hit me HARD and actually it still effects me now. I have a really hard time opening up to people or relying on anyone and I'd just never heard that struggle being talked about like changbin did. He so perfectly frames it.. Its like He doesn't glorify the idea of being "strong" for others, like a lot of people do instead he said "I don't have the courage to rely on others" or I need you to ask me again. It's so good I love it so much!!!

Sorry lmaoooo you did not want a whole essay in ur inbox I'm sure 💀💀💀 please tell me about your favs too I'd love to know!!!

stOPPPP A WHOLE ESSAY IS EXACTLY WHAT I ASKED FOR 🤍 could've been even longer.. 💔 it brings me so much joy to get to know the specific things that ppl love about skz' music, it's as if i can feel the excitement through my screen<33 so!! the longer the better!! haha

it's so interesting that slump was one of the first songs you've heard! how did you end up hearing it???? and even more so, the english ver?? o_o

this is probably unbelievable but your picks are also the ones that i would put VERY high in my list (if there had to be such a list lmao cause tbh it's impossible to pick favs here😔), especially silent cry and streetlight too .. talking about streetlight, HOW DO U PUT IT SO WELL INTO WORDS i'm beyond amazed. that's exactly the feeling.. and the whole arrangement of the song which is so simple yet so powerful at the same time, i feel like the fact that it's changbin's voice delivering such message, it makes it even more powerful. cause his voice typically makes an impression of someone that's rather tough but the lyrics just go "ask me again if i'm okay, anybody" and it creates this sort of dissonance.. this feeling of paradox.. which in recent months i've been realizing more clearly that life is all about??

istg i could dissect every skz song under the scalpels of my mind for hours on end (what a weird metaphor coming through, didn't expect it myself 😅 lmao), it's like one of my fav things to do 🙄🥲

the track that got me completely into skz was 3racha's 42, and i'm saying this so surely bc i remember it very distinctly how i cried to that song for a good hour while repeating to myself how "i know i'll stay with them for a long time to come". at the time i was coming out of a very dark place mentally, and my intention to stay with stray kids for years to come was the thing about myself that i felt so sure about for the first time in my entire life?? like, that song broke me into pieces and i crumbled along with all the accumulated dirt in me, but then through the broken cracks finally some fresh air and light could enter.. this literally sounds so dramatic but there's no other way to express it 😭😭😭 it just IS dramatic like that for me when it comes to skz lmao. as you said too, i've never heard someone talk about such things/feelings in a song before???? and in kpop out of all places???? it felt so refreshing 🥺

wait wait, i have another very important question.. 👉👈what do you think the upcoming comeback's gonna sound like, or expect/would like it to sound like??? what do you think about the concept??? like i know it's probably useless to speculate since the album trailers give us zero actual spoilers u_u i'm really curious how you're feeling about it hehehe

#u see it's so hard to not ramble on about skz.... a REAL struggle...😔💔#―askbox

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