#Maybe I can do this after all

[probablygayattorneys]

I have exciting (for me) news!

We have a new person who will be around mentioned around this blog and that is my friend Juliana!

Juliana is the head of the department of Holding Me Accountable For Playing Layton. Since she doesn’t really know Layton very well but she likes watching her friends do things they like, she’s going to carry the enthusiasm when I can’t and drag me through Azran Legacy if she has to until my will to actually do things, even things I used to love until my bipolar hit an all time low that lasted all summer and I’m still sort of hanging on that cliff like Randall where I could fall back down or maybe be held up, but either way, once or twice a week she’s going to go over and watch me play and help me with puzzles. Last night, for the first time since… June? July? I actually played a little bit and we even solved a puzzle tomorrow. I still don’t trust myself to not completely ruin this because I do have a tendency to do that sometimes, but… I have a feeling Juliana won’t let me and maybe I’ll even be able to come up with a joke or two? We’ll see.

#personal #housekeeping #god bless all my old friends #and god bless me too why pretend? #maybe I can do this after all #maybe I can watch Emmy drive off into the sunset and be okay #pl5 spoilers #mm spoilers

[youwerelikeanangel]

not me still writing my ba thesis, not having started my masters, but coming up with a topic i desperately wanna write my ma thesis about

#maybe i CAN do this after all

[aphrogeneias]

(un)cool anon is going to singlehandedly revive my fanfiction writer career

#maybe i am capable of writing stories that matter to people #maybe i can do this after all #luiza.txt

[ramblinganthropologist]

Inspecting the mod

Oh there’s instructions. @hatboyproject’s looking out for the idiots like me!

#Maybe I can do this after all #Watch me still wreck my game lol #But I'll try for Joker and all the work put into this mod #if you wanna smooch your pilot check their blog out!!!

[lemongogo]

i just like his long hair ok 🧎

#vash #trigun #trigun maximum #my art #kind of sillay.. #artist who only draws solid bgs sweating @ having 2 set smth under him #Nyways . at first i was like this is eriks but like . vash coat #but no.i think i wouldve drawn eriks diff .. he doesnt . hmm. back 2 the drawing board ppl #can we talk ab lina cutting his hair fr though. SWEETEST GESTURE EVERRRRR (hlding back my tears) whn he hugged her after . stop #or maybe tht was before idr HAJAHAHAHAHAHHAH #anyways this guy shldve grown it out after . #I LOVEE WHN HE PUTS HIS HAIR IN A PONYTAIL ITS SOOOO CUTEEEE #smth smth me and my characters w all their long hair #<the way i refuse 2 draw knives w/o it HAJAHHAHAHAHAHAH #idk i say that but i like nicks choppy haircut . hm.idk . and meryl i like her hair short too #legatos is staying short on principle i wouldnt do that to him☝️ #every1 else .. dominique . elendira . zazie . millie . livio razlo.. SINGLE FILE LINEE

[ruporas]

in a mood (ID in alt)

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #doing straight up nothing with the bestie. really good activity of doing nothing #i mainly drew this just so i can test how itd be not drawing their faces bc i Love drawing their faces a little too much. #maybe ill throw them in a more intense situation next time i try it bc it just ended up focusing on wolfwood and his silly newspaper #he's reading the news... cruel happenings all around no mans land... have to keep up to know where to go next and where to avoid #but theres also some guy in the same room being distracting as hell. i think they can coexist without bothering each other but theyd #be so painfully aware of the other person... both of them usually have tended to their own space after all for years. ww especially i think #would be easily distracted with vash's presence bc he's spent 2 years thinking about him already (for his mission...) #and thinking about vash is a Little easier than dealing with his personal anguish #though it can definitely overlap too. and sometimes its not that bad. sometimes its just vash's hand feeling unexpectedly nice and gentle #ruporas art

[mayasaura]

one problem with a theatrical adaption of tlt is htn, where the reveal that Gideon lives on works because of the change of second person to first.

the only way i can think of it working is that the actor playing gideon works backstage, like the lights system (but is hidden from the audience aside from subtle hints)

the biggest hint is when when wake breaches pal's river bubble she 'breaks' the lighting system and the stage goes dark. harrow is ushered into the wings by pal so she doesn't see anything, but the lights flick back on just before the curtains drop for a scene change, and pal looks directly up at the light box in surprise and smiles. if the audience is quick to turn around they can see a flash of a black robe.

Oh boy my friend, have you come to the right place!!

So, fun fact about ninja. Bear with me, I am going somewhere with this. The image of a ninja covered head to toe in black, with a hood and mask, comes from Kabuki theatre. It was originally a stagehand uniform. Like stagehands in modern theatre, stagehands in Kabuki would wear all black to signify that they were not really there, and whatever effect they were causing (carrying a prop, creating a breeze, ect.) was to be taken as happening on its own. Basic stagehand stuff, a lot of productions in many styles around the world do it, especially if they don't have fancy rigging systems.

Someone (I don't remember who now, or in what play) had the idea to dress the ninja in a production up as a stagehand. In the convention of the theatre, this made them invisible. The audience was already so used to ignoring stagehands, they didn't know any more than the characters that the ninja was present, despite the actor being clearly visible on stage. Which meant when the ninja struck, it was as if out of nowhere. I can only imagine the uproar in the theatre the first time it happened. It worked so well as to become commonplace, and the rest is history. The popular image of a ninja is still a kabuki stagehand.

So, back to the stage play of Harrow the Ninth. I think you've hit almost exactly on how to incorporate the Gideon twist into a theatrical production. But not as a lighting tech. Gideon is a stage hand. Maybe there would be more than one stagehand, maybe she would be the only one, but she would operate in full view of the audience, literally setting the scenes. I think it works best if she's the only one, but if the production needs more, she should subtly stand out in some way. As the play went on, we would notice that this one stage hand... increasingly interacts with Harrow, though Harrow never acknowledges it. At first it might look like she's playing Harrow's necromancy, because that would be the main special effect she would need to help with. When Harrow is unconscious at the end of a scene, it's always the same stagehand carrying her out. But we all know she's not really there. Until Palamedes acknowledges her. Turns to look right at her, and speaks to her. I can see the scene clearly. He would look at her, stunned, until Gideon finally took off her mask. The line "Kill us twice, shame on God," would be addressed to Gideon, and then he would turn back to Harrow, kiss her on the forehead, and tell her to go. Gideon, always out of Harrow's line of sight, would guide Harrow away while Harrow looked back at Palamedes.

#the locked tomb #harrow the ninth #I have a few ideas how to do gideon as harrow but it needs a lot of workshopping #I love this idea #htn spoilers #gideon nav #speaking as someone who has worked as a light tech that specifically doesn't work so well #because techs are rarely on stage messing with the lights during a production #maybe if there was a spot on the catwalk or if the array was small and the gels needed changing #but anyone who can turn off all the lights on stage is usually behind the audience in a little control room with a lot of switches and dial #that said the stage SHOULD go completely dark immediately after this scene #and the lights should come up suddenly on Gideon and Harrow alone on stage together #harrow having a crisis and staring resolutely forward while Gideon behind her reaches for her and can't touch her #just for a brief moment

[canisalbus]

i've returned for 2 seconds to tell you that they're not leaving my head. (sort of unrelated but i've been thinking as well. what if vasco died before machete ? what would go down)

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#ah this is so terribly cute #makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside #“possessed by the vaschete spirit” you and me both #their expressions are so sweet #couple of dorks #and I like the dusty desaturated color scheme! with pink and darker brown accents #gift art #insect-shenanigans #own characters #Vasco #Machete #as for what would happen if Vasco died first #and I'm assuming of natural causes like illness or old age #I suppose Machete would try to sneakily sponsor his funeral #throw the fanciest burial possible #and maybe add some kind of anonymous half hidden obscure tragiromantic inscription on the grave #about wishing to see him again one day #and then either go on to do what Vasco did and commission art in his honor #or get a bad case of widowhood effect and go downhill quickly after his passing #oh yeah he might start to financially support Vasco's widow so that there was a little less pressure on her to get remarried #as you may remember she's a lesbian and one lavender marriage was probably enough for her #I can see that being a thing in certain circumstances

[hajihiko]

Another silly

#an art #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Hajime hinata #I once again feel so much better after talking to a friend #Sometimes after a while without close friends I feel like some sort of invasive organism into human life #Like I just cant connect to other ppl at all. I'm like a marionette. BUT. #Talking to my friend who gets me makes me remember I DO have a rhythm with someone and they do get me #Intellectually. I have other friends who get me socially. Another who gets me emotionally #Both very important. I am more confused about how to portray it maybe #But conversation. Those two exclusively do that. Someone you can talk to forever without having to pause to explain #Very valuable.

[muzzleroars]

in the tomb of saint gabriel

(may your woes be many)

#ultrakill #v1 #gabriel #ummm....hi. #couldn't stop thinking about a fallen angel gabe boss fight ok!!! #his tomb is fashioned after his role in the annunciation #with a sculpture that depicts gabriel in his human guise as its centerpiece #importantly....this is not his true face at all but it looms over his casket #a perfect image that is perpetuated to both deny his fall and to shame him at the same time #in the fight itself he can no longer fly or teleport nor can he conjure any weapons #he's just fast and brutal and definitely goes after v1's wings #he's lost in his mental and physical anguish doing everything he can to tear v1 apart #REALLY leaning into when he said 'fight me like an animal' ig.... #like i imagine him a lot like a bull....even using his horns maybe..... #doodle tag #UHUH i might do some more sketches but nothing so involved !!! #i can't see straight after staring at a billion cathedrals #ALSO i'll get back to asks soon thank u for ur patience!! #rise and fall au

[depressedlochnessmess]

ok yeah yeah voltron in 2023 what else is new

#this one is just for the tumblr girlies #voltron #vld #keith kogane #lance mcclain #klance #when vld was big i was still really not confident in my art #in hs and all that #so sometimes when i remember something that i liked a long time ago that i felt like i couldnt draw for #i think hey #why not give my past self a treat #so yeah this is for 2016 me or whenever vld started #you can finally draw them now clap clap #maybe just do yourself a favor and stop after s3

[baalzebufo]

additional doodles of The Silly

i love the idea of fakey being solid Most of the time... until its convenient for it. either it gets goopy when its feeling strong emotions or if its just like ‘oh im being pushed away?? you’re pushing me? well thats incorrect. im slime now. hi :)’

also ive been drawing and writing a lot of freaky/antagonistic interactions with these two so peppi deserved a hug

#alloyart #fake peppino #peppino spaghetti #pizza tower #also hi thank you so much for all the positive feedback to my other doodles and that Thing I Wrote it means a lot #i love writing fakey as this just. unknowable Thing half the time. he doesnt mean bad... but it doesnt exactly mean GOOD either #its just doing what he knows to do. which is not very compatible with peppinos desires to have a normal afternoon #but i think he learns to stop trying to eat peppino after a while and they have a less antagonistic relationship #... well maybe he doesnt COMPLETELY stop. but. enough that peppi can brush it under the rug. lol

[moeblob]

No, I don't think I will recover from the VA's growl after Gallagher says he used to bite people. Thanks for checking. (but seriously, was that just a VA choice or is that a direction he was given? Does he rawr in other languages? I've only heard the English line).

#honkai star rail #gallagher #i maybe have a problem with the fact that hsr has decided to pity me immensely #ever since i used my free 5star after three hundred standard warps #to obtain my beloved astral express dad i have had so much better luck getting dudes #this is fabulous until i cant level them all up #this is great for me personally until i cant use most of them #i wanna use gallagher so badly but i dont have enough resources rn to invest #and in addition to that im TRYING to do story progress when i can so i just use my same team all the time #so maybe i can draw more silly lil guys interacting when i get further along #the weird lil rawr has lived in my brain since i listened to it

[treasureplcnet]

btw i love revenge stories i dont think anyone should ever move on peacefully. a bit obsessed with the way weissman went to the synagogue and rabbi and asks, "my choices killed a child. would god take mercy on someone like me?" and the rabbi says "it's not god's mercy you should look for. its the child's" and like you think that would spur this man into charitable activities and to maybe look out for orphans but instead he goes on a 24 hour revenge bender that ultimately ends in two revenge killings and his own death. what's better than righteous anger and wrath and love twisting someone into the worst but also a truer version of themselves <3

#like im not even reaching here. (sort of am. whatever) #rabbi goldstein essentially goes 'think of esther. you need to be a man she would take mercy on. be someone she can forgive' #and it takes all of 10 minutes for karl weissman to decide yeah ok what i need is double homicide #do i think esther would have wanted revenge in her name. dunno. maybe. #she is 11 and very much the victim of this story. maybe she would have wanted karl to just live. kids are cruel and kind in that way #but to be fair this is esther 'fuck with me and you'll hang like a dog' jankovsky #so im willing to believe she was rooting for him #also the immediate choice to make elias suffer by shooting his leg (? maybe arm) before actually killing him #i dont know. the deliberate cruelty right after he visits the synagogue. an act of defiance. giving himself up after its done. it gets me #i love . I LOVE REVENGE :) GREATEST PLOT POINT EVER!!!!!!!! #sorry everyone about the bodies thoughts. i have no idea how long this is going to last #bodies netflix #karl weissman

[uncanny-tranny]

You know, I feel like other trans people might get this, but it's honestly kind of refreshing when a cis person has, like, undeniable tboy/tgirl/whatever swag. It's like when you come across somebody who speaks the same language as you and you only find out when they start speaking it, too.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #all this to say that we are existing on a rock hurling through space #and this universe is going to collide into another and does it all truly matter in the end? #a lot of this is based on ideas we have about what constitutes certain people and i think it can be a fun observation #so long as you do not inherently ascribe certain traits as being indicative of who somebody Is #it can be amusing when you're SO confident that somebody is a certain way until you realize how Wrong you were #the amusement for me only comes because it's like... 'you tried your best to box somebody and you FAILED lmao' #and in a weird way it's kind of comforting because it reminds me that we all come into this world with bias that Will be challenged... #...so the best thing you can do is recognize those biases and then try to overcome them through great effort... #...so yes maybe i did think that cis dude had tboy swag but. that's not inherently his problem you know? #it probably just means he's confident in his manhood in a way that reminds me of the trans men* i know and love #i noticed that in him and it reminded me of my friends who are trans so i think 'oh! maybe that's why he's giving off those vibes!' #so while i won't treat him any differently before or after finding out i was wrong i'm still going to appreciate the fact that... #...he and i are literally just Vibing on the same planet and we both don't have time for petty arguing about manhood #i'll acknowledge what inspired those thoughts in me but that is Not his problem and that's good and beautiful actually #i don't always mind the tboy/tgirl swag meme just so long as you don't treat it like an Inherent Trans Experience Only Trans People Have #just recognize where those ideas are inspired from and it's fine <3 #sometimes you will be Wrong and that's actually fucking neutral <<3 #anyway rant over i just think this is /generally/ harmless and fun #like astrology. sometimes you just look up your star sign without ascribing your Entire Life to it <3 #i think what i lot of people mean by saying a cis person has tboy/tgirl swag is just that... #...that cis person has an understanding of themself that comes from deep introspection that isn't necessarily expected of cis folk... #...but it is often something trans people do as part of our exploration of gender... #how is this the FIRST POST to reach tag limit... ask me for more thoughts if you want lol!

[dayurno]

this is somewhat of a vent post & something i said i would not do again but has been plaguing me enough that i think getting it out might feel better. so. has anydoggy else been. Baffled and upset by nora sakavic’s refusal to speak on how terribly aftg has treated its characters of color? with the author of the series coming back with a new book and starting up on her online activity again, and questions of what she’d change about aftg bubbling up, it’s particularly glaring to me that we are all playing this very long game of pretend where we ignore how badly the non-white cast has been treated & her lack of thoughts on it

and i understand not wanting to bring up nicky and thea because people pick on her for it. i’m not trying to discredit nora sakavic’s terrible history of getting harrassed online by aftg fans. but i think it is very cynical, and it is very juvenile, and most of all very cruel, that she gets to ignore the very real ways the books have set up these characters to be hated. i think it’s obvious why the characters who get the most hate are the only canonical characters of color, and i think we do not get to treat this like a deliberate decision on the fandom’s part when the books have put these same characters in degrading and embarrassing and terrible positions in the first place. aftg is not a story about nice characters with clean pasts, but there is a very specific nastiness to the only characters of color being a brown man who sexually harasses and later assaults the main character, a black woman whose only scene is her lashing out at her love interest after being ignored for the first two books, and the japanese villain who gets maybe two lines of complexity before he goes back to being a terrible person. the white cast, in comparison, while not at all free from flaws, are never shown to commit mindless evil; all of their actions are ultimately justified. the book goes out of its way to give them concession after concession. we know exactly who to side with, because aftg tells us who these people are. does nicky’s assault ever get addressed in the books? does riko’s reasoning to be the way that he is ever gets more than briefly aluded to? is thea reserved even a shred of humanity or grace in her one scene?

anyway. it’s been years of talking about this and the fandom has been constantly hostile to criticism in this regard, and more recently any criticism at all, and it’s Grating to be on the other side of this discussion. it’s exhausting to know that in ten years we do not get even an acknowledgment besides the author saying she will not answer questions about nicky and thea anymore. it’s upsetting and it’s ugly and i wish no one had to talk about this again, but we do because what i thought was common sense has been washed away by a sudden influx of no-nuance adoration for the trilogy. basically i hope we all explode

two hours later edit: you're allowed to reblog this! sorry about the confusion

#this has been so upsetting to notice but 🥹whatever #there is a different kind of bitterness to thinking about how ten years have passed #and we are getting new content that changes and maybe even rectifies many of the ways we see and interact w aftg #and none of it not a bit of it addresses the racism #how it’s been ten years and the only thing we really get to show it is a book about a ship between two white men the fandom came up with #after seeing them be Suggested to interact in canon #i understand not wanting to hurt nora sakavics feelings by asking her about this #but imagine how tired we are. Imagine how tired we are #do you know how bad it feels to read through nicky’s worst moments in aftg #and know that he was written this way because he looks like me? #do you understand how exhausting it all is. can you imagine? #the fandom has been so quick to undo the criticism fans of colors have been making since day one #and for what. for what! my doves. for what? #have we come out of it any greater? have we done anything but lie to ourselves? #and anyway this is not some mindless pessimism #this is not me telling you that aftg is bad and you cant love it; cant have it mean anything to you #this is me saying that when we acknowledge these things it makes us better readers and better people #nora sakavic if you are reading this from whatever hellhole america you find yourself in #grabs you by the shoulders. This is not the end #this is not something to sit back and feel bad about #you have opened the floodgates of hell with tsc. kick the door in and release a revised version of aftg #there is a real material way for you to make this better. it is possible and it will not kill you #i would read a revised aftg. my mutuals would. many many many many fans would #making mistakes is not just a human right its a human inevitability #but we do not have to let ourselves get defined by them. We can do hard things #lets go of nora sakavics shoulders. anyway. where were we #aftg #txt #tsc