#This is like 4 thousand words

[inkskinned]

it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.

yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.

it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.

how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.

chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?

how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.

"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.

i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.

#writeblr #warm up #i can't write rn but i have SO much words in here bc im reading the chorus of dragons books #(just started book 4) #and this woman's writing is just LIVING in my brain. let me out!!! #(i read roughly like 2-4 books a week usually bc i go on long walks with my dog but when a book is REALLY good like. it eats my life. ) #anyway ...... so like here's a story that idk i've tried to explain to other people as being wild #but maybe im the only one who thinks it is wild??? #so i play pokemon go (i just started in jan) bc i love pokemon and as i have mentioned i walk goblin for like an hour in the morning #and i don't like a lot of fitness trackers due to the fact it makes me .sad. but i also wanted the little digital rewards. enter pokemon go #anyway so they make you make friends to complete quests. so i used a reddit thread. i do not usually use reddit. i don't have an acct #i lurked. i just googled like ''pokemon go reddit '' and randomly added a bunch of numbers #i was on that page for all of 15 minutes. there are THOUSANDS of responses on that page. #here's what's wild: in that group of people. even though i am not on reddit and it was one random event once #it turns out one of those people lives in the town i live in. or at least very close. i only know this because #when we send each other gifts. it's from the same freaking area. #i can't ask them to meet up bc pokemon go doesn't have a messaging app lol but like . what are the fucking chances that #a random person posts in a random reddit thread and HAPPENS to get added by someone ELSE from their SAME TOWN #who by pure fucking CHANCE is ALSO playing pokemon go and looking for friends #i googled it there's only 42000 people in my broad region. the .......... smallness ! of the world!!!

[ccircusclwn]

uhhh sketchdumps AGAIN bcs i had to get them out of my system after this busy ass week

also hiii new mkulia redesigns dropped ^_^!!

#my art #total drama #tdi 2023 #td mk #total drama mk #tdi mk #td julia #total drama julia #tdi julia #mkulia #td mkulia #total drama mkulia #i rlly wanna draw all the tdi cast as dramaeama but #i also need to do like a thousand rhings n im soo overwhelmeed!!! iii #m gnna finish intertwined chapt 4 this weekend ;;;;; i think im like 6k words in now?? #ughhh i hate everything #BUT hopefully u guys like this new style cause i sure do!!^_^

[foxilayde]

Any interest in a Peter Roiter fic about him attending his parents wedding in 2023— thirteen months before his own birth—where he meets someone (*ahem* YOU) and things get sci-fi sexy?

#there are like one dozen fans of Case 63 #i swr2gd i feel Iike someone from the silent generation listening to radio plays in the parlor of my family home #doing embroidery while we all listen on the family Zenith #I am almost 4 thousand words into this fic and just now getting to the smut lmao #i don’t write for glory i write for the girlies who want that time travel d*ck

[suddencolds]

almost done... 🙏

#before yvverse i was never the kind of person to write 4-6k word chapters #i have been writing this chapter since february 6th #it was agonizingly difficult... line by line crises type of difficult D: #i still have no clue how people like write thousands of words in a day and then hit post 🥲 i have spent so long on this. i think i spent #an hour this morning writing one paragraph #but now that the finish line is in sight i just feel so ready to post it (even though it is not done. and needs at least 500 more words #on top of editing) #anyways. apologies for yapping 🙇‍♀️ #in terms of difficulty... i feel like writing this series has been eye opening to me as to what i find difficult to write? which is #interesting. fool me twice pt5 was also hard for me in the sense that i rewrote it no fewer than 5 times... and this installment was hard #in a different way. T_T i want to claim victory! but not yet! i haven't earned it #anyways... please expect the next chapter at some point over the next week (and if it's not there i have likely fallen into another crisis)

[joenotexotic99]

#felt like making this #but seriously #i will write nothing for a week or 2 straight #then write 4 thousands words in undwr 24 hours #also #i made this and i would love for people to reblog this #just please dont steal it #thank you <3 #young royals #wilhelm x simon #twd #twd fanfiction #the last of us #tlou fanfic #twd x reader #tlou x reader #tua x reader #the umbrella academy #top gun fanfiction #band of brothers headcanons #band of brothers

[g0nta-g0kuhara]

The ending of Gundham's trial makes me feel bittersweetly at peace with his death while also more determined to keep moving forwards. The ending of Gonta's trial makes me want to scream into a pillow for 10,000 years

#shut up me #someone put one of Gundham's last words in my notes and just #Dont get me wrong 2-4 still makes me incredibly sad #but Gundham went out on his own terms #like Kaito! but even more in Gundham's favour than with Kaito #Gonta tears my heart out every time. I just can't with it #very very good trial. emotionally devastating for me though #ugh i know ive made basically this exact post a thousand times and im sorry for that but i will never be over 3-4 #drv3 spoilers

[irelandseyeonmythology]

Not people asking Celticists to do critical editions of texts because they asked us nicely to.

I would love to edit and translate manuscripts all day long, on top of working as a teaching assistant, my side job in the field that also pays me, preparing conference papers for presentation, which often includes translating Latin, Middle Welsh, Old Irish, Early Modern Irish, and Modern Irish myself, even when scholars before me have translated them (to ensure that the nuances are captured), adapting those papers to Powerpoints, arranging accommodations and flights for said conferences, playing Stardew Valley, organizing conferences/conference panels, working on my phd, working on projects that are actually publishable in the field, plotting the next Fomoire invasion of Ireland, as well as my various and assorted commitments to different groups and organizations that I am also doing without pay in order to bolster my CV so that there is a snowball's chance in Hell that I have a shot at employment, while even more senior scholars in the field have to struggle to justify their translation work. It reminds me of an article on the Celtic Students blog that talks about how the overwhelming amount of public outreach in the field, at the moment, is done by Grad Students, yours truly included.

In these digital spaces, students of Celtic Studies (predominantly graduate students) carry the brunt of the public's attention, and work to amend persistent pervasive errors or misunderstandings (such as 'did the Celts really fight naked in battle', 'were the Celts really matriarchal', and 'why did Saint Patrick commit a genocide against the pagans') that have found themselves deeply rooted in public consciousness. These misunderstandings appear to have been perpetuated by the rise of the internet giving the public access to wildly out of date scholarly publications, the Wikipedia articles on medieval Celtic literature being deeply inaccurate, and a small cottage industry of people producing exceptionally inaccurate self-published books (and ebooks) about 'Celtic Mythology' that dominate digital marketplaces such as Amazon and the Kobo storefront. 

Despite this being important work, and entirely legitimate scholarly labor, it can be disheartening when this work is not recognized as legitimate or worthwhile by senior members of the field compared to standard scholarly activities.

#like it's a request but it's an inherently unreasonable one to ask of anyone #we KNOW there's a lot to be translated #we WANT to share it with the public #but we CAN'T #we're working on it as best as we can but we are GRAD STUDENTS #we are functionally amoebas in the field #amoebas with very uncertain futures #in a time when translation work isn't only long and tedious work #but also increasingly unfashionable #*I* wanted to do translation work for my PhD and I was basically told no #if you want me to do work that will not get me anywhere as far as my future career...pay me #per hour #Given that you're asking for the product of approximately 4-5 years of training I think that $25 is reasonable #Keeping in mind it can take me that long to translate a sentence...sometimes even a word #and of course in order to do a TRUE critical edition I'll need to see the manuscripts #which depending on if it's online or not means that you'll need to pay for my flights and accommodation in Dublin (most likely) #which if you know Dublin prices...*woo* #It's only a few thousand dollars or so #if it's that important to the public it's worth it

[yrbutchgf]

i'm still not sure if those screenshots of "fan fiction" for goncharov are real or if someone shopped a screenshot together for the gag, but i will say, if they are really on the site, it raises an interesting question about how we define fan fiction versus short stories, in a VERY different direction from the way the conversation usually goes. in this case: is it actually fan fiction if it's written for a piece of media that does not exist?

on the one hand, my impulse is to call that a short story, because there's no actual source material. on the other hand, people on here have bizarrely managed to scrap together a series of disjointed plot points and characters seemingly without collaboration such that there's now more or less a loose understanding of "canon material," though there is of course no canon to speak of. and so in that way, the content of the stories is meant to reference understandings of characters, plot, and themes which are, to greater or lesser extents, shared among a group of people who are apparently making fan art and fiction based on those understandings. and so thinking of it from that perspective, it very much would be fan fiction. but the fact that the movie doesn't actually exist really throws a wrench in things obv

#text #goncharov #unreality #it just occurred to me bc like. there is now 'fanart' and 'fanfiction' for this thing that does not exist. what level of abstraction #has everyone gotten to at this point #edit: i just checked. there seriously is fan fiction posted on ao3 for this fake movie #one of the fics is 4-thousand words long and is apparently a 'script novelization.' what the fuck is happening

[thatrandombystander]

Kinda whack when you're a huge fan of a longfic fanfic for a media work that you're not that big a fan of because it's just that good.

Am I fan of Fallout 3 or Fallout 4? Not particularly. They're fine but kinda bad, and yet every time this ongoing Fallout fic with 700k+ words (so far) gets a new chapter I go feral and have to restrain myself from installing the games.

#alas the fic has just done an exceptional job of fleshing out the world and making me feel immersed into it #which is NOT what I'd get in the games >:( #the basic premise is what if Deacon Fallout 4 was actually The Lone Wanderer (Fallout 3 protag) #and boy does it RUN with the concept in the best way #ramblings of a bystander #i haven't been able to read any fic except for tr*gun because of the fixation for the last couple of months #<- asterisk so it doesn't show up in that fandom's tag #and am now going through my backlog of fic subscriptions #boy they've posted more than FIFTY THOUSAND words since May. #and this is after having no chapters for like a year and a half #i'm going to go feral reading all of that #i'm looking forward to it :)

[hella1975]

dabi’s had like 5 mins of screentime and ive already made a playlist for him this is embarrassing like this is actually embarrassing

#im only on season 4 he’s literally done NOTHING yet 😭😭 #except like. kidnap bakugo but that was funny enough to warrant playlist levels of love in its own #no it’s acc bad i know his entire backstory (thank you mha fandom spoilers <3 FUCK endeavour) #and I’ve read tens of thousands of words worth of fic about him already. i am obsessed #at this point the ratio of media ive consumed between canon and fanon dabi is so out of equilibrium that im gonna be FLABBERGASTED #when he acc gets more focus #but idc i simply do not care #i know most of what happens anyway #im so EXCITED #i want to see my new favourite criminal!!! let him kill!!!! he did nothing wrong in fact i think he should have been worse!!! #mha #mha dabi

[afniel]

Okay, I sat at my desk thinking I'd write, but instead I'm so tired (distinct from being sleepy. I'm usually tired. I'm almost never sleepy) that sitting at my desk hurts and I can't focus worth shit.

I'm beginning to understand how I can write doorstop-size novel(s?) from my phone actually...horizontal is a great position in general.

#I went out and Socialized today #and then came home and made dinner AND chogled chib coogies (nobody can stop me from saying it like that) #(but it's chocolate chip cookies. just for the record) #and this was starting from about 4/10 fatigue and 6/10 pain #so I fully knew what I was getting into. like. I'm not surprised in the least here. #the thing about having autonomy is that you're allowed to make decisions that are bad because the tradeoff is acceptable anyway #sometimes you do in fact decide to push yourself bc what are you gonna do? nothing? #I've been trying to hang out with a friend for like 3+ weeks and I'm not going to get less tired for at least a month so. #that's just how it works! #anyway I want a coogie and to go lie down now and perhaps write a few (thousand?) words #and THEN what I want. is for Magpie to not YELL ME THE FUCK AWAKE through the bedroom door at like 8am #I am 30 or 40 years old and I do not need this

[sergeifyodorov]

stalling starting a new unethical writing project by reading all of my old forever-abandoned wips

#hrpf project hrpf wips btw. some of them are even good! #not that i'll ever like. write them properly but one thousand words of ovi ordering mcdonalds for dylstrome at 4 am just outside dallas... #u mean the world to me

[bejeweledmp3]

ok so. good news and bad news regarding totp: bad news is i'm 90% sure i'm going to have to up the chapter count from five to six. good news is that if i do that chapter four is like. almost done

#totp tag #CHAPTER 4 IS ALREADY 20 THOUSAND WORDS LONG. WHY DO I DO THIS TO YOU GUYS TO MYSELF #AND I DIDN'T NOTICE TIL JUST NOW??? 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #it would go up one chapter because the last section (the last kimberly finds her father in yidi yada) that was going to go on this chapter #would get its own separate chapter #and then the last chapter would still be the same just. the sixth instead of the fifth you know?? does that make sense?? #anyways if i do that then section 1 of ch4 only needs beta reading and section 2 is almost done so i can edit it so it can be beta read. #so if it all goes well the chapter would be up next week at latest #god!!! fuck!!!! #i'm truly sorry it takes me so long to write i really hope you guys will like this one!! i do!!!

[fishyartist]

Wanting 2 make a scope creep nightmare of a visual novel vs my inability to focus on jack shit ever in my life.

#it’d also be like. if not directly a danny phantom fan game rewrite then something blatantly derivative which would b fun #but I couldn’t sell it or anything and the amount of work it would take is #like when I say scope creep nightmare I mean this thing would take place over 4 years and be a full series rewrite w/ dynamic paths #like the series itself would be 200000+ words (52 episodes * 22 minutes * 200 words per on-screen minute_ #and that’s with 0 branching paths or narration bc it’s a kids cartoon and not a visual novel #plus I’d need to add more content towards the backend bc season 3 mostly sucks and the ideas that don’t suck need to be earlier on #and that’s before we get into the fucking art scope creep #bc I played slay the princess and scarlet hollow so now I’d ‘’need’’ to make thousands of assets like those games #’’need’’ as in ‘’I have so many ideas for scene-specific sprite background interactions if I don’t do these I’ll die’’ #yes I am genuinely planning shit out no this game will never actually exist #because again. scope creep nightmare. guy who can’t focus. guy who’s never written anything substantial before. #ALSO I STARTED PLANNING IT IN THIS INFINITE CANVAS APP #NOT KNOWING THE LASSO SELECT TOOL COSTS 39.99 TO UNLOCK #theres more in that price but for the most part I just need the lasso and that’s not available on its own #and the only other way is through a subscription which is dumb. fuck that #lalala

[anotherpapercut]

a friend of mine sold me a cello for $100* and I'm literally so stoked about it I'm not even sure like. I don't know what to do with it. what do I do first

* for context the only cello I could find for $100 on Facebook marketplace or craigslist was actually an upright bass and it was broken in half

#for further context to the context nobody on facebook marketplace knows what the fuck a cello is #there was also a violin for sale as a cello because why not #I considered messaging these people but is that like a dick move #no i dont want to buy this because you're charging a ridiculous amount but youre also stupid. please google the word cello #literally the cheapest actual intact cello ive seen is $500. theyre typically thousands #and he gave me his rock stop rosin bow and a practice book. the case is broken tho lmao #id like a hard case for it but those ALSO cost thousands lmfaoo #so if any of yall have a hard case for a full size cello you dont need hmu how does $100 sound lol #side note he told me it was a 3/4 but its not its a full haha dumbass. now ive gotta make fun of him #already lost my best joke bc every time i sae him i used to say 'hey you owe me a cello' but he doesnt anymore

[ginwhitlock]

I wrote a “why is jasper quiet/oh he’s not quiet in bed” jasper/bella breeding fanfic if anyone is interested.

#I must start writing like actual length fics. like 30 or 4 thousand words #I am a short story woman at heart and I can’t break that #it’s my hatred of plot that gets me #and the adhd #mine #twilight #thetwilightsaga #jasper/bella #my writing #fanfic #twilight fanfic