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sailorsally · 1 year

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Sally's Purcon Chronicles

(heads up, this is a long post)

I am on the last leg of my journey back home so I think it's the right time to write up what my experience at purcon 7 was like, as something I can look back on (because it's inevitable that time will fade some details) and maybe as a little guide to many first time congoers next year.

Purcon 7 was the first con for me too.

I met Misha on Friday evening for 'Cocktails with Castiel'. I was at a table with 9 other people and we got to talk to him about 10 minutes. He arrived late of course. Seeing him step into the room was the most surreal feeling, not going to lie. I think up until then my brain hadn't really comprehended properly that the actor man is real. He sat down at the table across the room and for a while my eyes were glued to him in a desperate attemt to make it familiar to my brain as quickly as possible that he existed in this space and was very much real. There were mostly female fans there so even though he was still a couple of tables away from us you could distinctly hear his deep voice amongs all the talk at times and I did cherish that.

I inquired further and it did very much sound like he was talking about my favourite Georgian dish, too. Which tbh almost made me cry on the spot but I pulled thru it to tell him that hearing this made me very happy because I've been watching Roadfood a lot and imagining what it would be like to see Georgian food featured there, even though I know that is highly unlikely since it's not that big of a deal in the US. This made him very sad and he got all 🥺 and apologized that there aren't many Georgian restaurants in US and looked like he was on the verge of crying so I assured him once again that it was fine and he couldn't do anything about it. (Though he had this 'you can see gears turning in his head' expression for a bit so I wouldn't totally exclude seeing Georgian cuisine on Roadfood in the future idk 😂).

When he finally got to our table, he said hi and sat down and our hellos were kinda delayed and everyone stopped talking for a bit (understandable xD) so he took it upon himself to get the conversation flowing and started asking where everyone was from. There were three people from France and they told him about their travel to Germany and how they hadn't had the time to sleep yet. I asked him how long his journey took and he said about 18 hours so I said "okay you win then. Mine was just 12". So he asked where I was from and I said Georgia and right away he asked me "Tbilisi?" [the name of the capital] and not gonna lie, I have huge respect for Misha and I know he is a clever fella but I never expected for him to know the name of the capital by heart and also pronounce it so damn correctly (honestly to this day I have never met a foreigner who doesn't butcher 'Tbilisi'). I was very impressed by this and a bit shocked tbh but I managed to get out 'yeah. Born and raised' so he of course asked what the situation was like in Georgia atm. I said that not that good, like in most places in the world rn. He wanted to know more so I said politically it's been complicated because of the influx of Russians and how the population of my city has grown twice because of that. Then I joked that he should come visit us to restore the balance, tbh I was desperate to keep the conversation flowing, and boy it was worth because the next thing he said was thee most insane thing that I could never have imagined in a thousand years: he told me he has been to Georgia, years ago! 🤯 And how the family he was staying with in Georgia cooked him one of the best meals he has had! in his ENTIRE LIFE!

This was the biggest chunck of out conversation. I know this is not something that will excite the general public here but it was damn special to me personally and I shall forever cherish this lil conversation with him 💗

I did also manage to revel to him that I had only ever seen Supernatural from S4 to the finale, so all his episodes exclusively and he said that was the only right way to watch it 😂

On Saturday I had a photo op with him. It was all very fast paced, so no proper exchange of words but I did get to watch him for a bit because he took a lil break before the person in front of me got their turn. It was very hot in the room so he drank some water, sanitized his hands and took a peppermint. When it was my turn he looked at me and highly likely recognized me from the day before so he winked at me and opened his arms and I just went straight into them and hugged him and he hughed me so so tight!!! 🥺 I was trying to remain respectful but the man wouldn't let me breathe 🤣

On Sunday, I got to ask him a question about the extra poem in Russian edition of his poetry book & we got to argue about the color of my pants 🤣

(thank you so much for this iconic pic, Bex ❤️)

Later I got my art signed. They were rushing the autos because Misha had a flight to catch so he was pretty stressed at autos. I jokely apologized for bringing it to his attention that something had gone 'wrong' with his book in Russian and he said no he was glad that I did bring that up and how he'd have to talk to his publisher about that actually. Asked him if I could give him a gift - a belt buckle. He said sure, so I did and in the rare moment of bravery I said I hoped he'd wear it and then winked at him 🤦‍♀️

I think this pretty much sums up my direct interractions with the actor man over the weekend.

I know M&G and alike are expensive as hell but if you can affort it I would say definitely get them. It's the only time you'll get with him up close and personal. As far as entrance tickets go, I had a weekend ticket for section 3 and for someone with bad eyesight it wasn't the best option, I wish I had been closer to the stage. All in all, if I had to categorize the extras as best to worst it would go like this:

- Cocktails with Castiel

- Photo Op

- Autograph (I believe autos usually give more time to talk to him and it was rushed just this one time because Misha needed to catch a plane)

Also: Yes, this is an 'actor centric' con but you will get to make new friend and finally see your online friends too which tbh makes this whole experience what it is! Shoutout to the wonderful @bexfangirlforlife @blanketforcas @deancrowleycas , I loved spending time with you so much! You made my first con experience very special 💕

#misha collins #purcon 7 #purcon shenanigans #purcon

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katzirra · 6 months

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Aggressively rubs my face, complaining about anything in life feels so tedious compared to what's going on in the world. World events and disasters and genocides and just fucking everything make you feel so small and worthless. Like god damn I feel guilty for thinking how stressed I am because HAHAH COULD BE WORSE, BITCH. WHICH is kind of a weird thing the internet really uh, perpetuates. Which is kinda what people get at when they say take care of your mental health.

Like I'm staying as up to date as I can but it's... wow it's hard to stomach, and it's hard to know what to do when you're in a financial spot lmao... Fucking god damn. Like carrying on like normal is really hard because there's that thought in the back of my mind right now about how upsetting it is realizing so many people can't do that. Will never do that again. It's like tv static in my head lately low key saddening me more and more.

But yaknow that just sounds like I'm complaining about a world event, but it's not. It's just...a profound sadness. Saturating things. I find myself just kinda sitting lately unsure what to be doing that feels... productive in this time. Not really feeling, uh, creative or happy. I dunno. Low simmering fear as well tbh.

That wasn't the topic I was planning to post about uh... FRIVOLOUS UPDATES I GUESS... I USE TO DO THOSE, YEAH? IDK WHO CARES ABOUT MY PERSONAL LIFE THESE DAYS TBH LOL

Taking a break from Xig because I'm just ..out of it and need the expectations off me for a second.

Having anxiety even checking my art blog because people weirdly correcting me/giving me a compliment that's shorter than a correction and making me come off rude telling them I'm not wrong makes me anxious as hell :))) so I end up avoiding my own haunts!!! How fucky is that.

I am almost done with my small sketchbook?? I was fixing a few pages up before hitting a few dried out Copics, which lead to me checking all of them to see who I needed to fix/replace and uh... relocate them in my office. Which became redoing my pen pouches and seeing if those got fucked up. Hopefully I'll finish that and start scanning. 2018-2023... with huge gaps in there lol...

I miss doing art I liked. Its kinda stagnant atm so I might take the rest of the year to do studies on angles and shit tbh. I need something. It all feels same same.

Uhhh figuring out some dental stuff - bought myself a bougie electric toothbrush and I think my old one's timer was fucked up and making me brush too long?? Which is bad!!! So this new one already has my teeth feeling better 👏 mom's genetics have me terrified!! My teeth feel better after two brushes??? insane.

Getting bloodwork done Thursday so hopefully figuring some shit out about my weight and health :))) I'd like to lose the like 20-45lb I mysteriously seemed to gain over the past few years??? Uhhh??? And figure my periods out, money has just been BAD since Hannibal's surgery....

Having panic scares about if my job is going away in December or not and hating every job listing I see online so I gotta look for whatever listing sites exist outside indeed. Also something this decent with the same pay :)))))) so that's on my todo list... again.

Box spring is busted on my bed, so hopefully I don't have to replace the mattress just yet because of the previous point AND THE FACT I JUST STARTED GETTING TO SAVE FOR MY PC..... first world problems but fuck, dudes. Vakarian is fucking suffering sometimes... :(( but we'll see because MATTRESS PRICES.......!!!

I cleaned my office and room and that made me feel like I've accomplished something for myself so that's... something.

Trying to focus on things. Depression cocktail is going on..... money, job, housing, health, the world... it's all so much all the time, man.

#kat life #kat talks #ignore me #this is just feelings and ugh updates on my shit!!

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erisolkat · 3 months

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if any of yall are friends w me on discord and are confused by my unusual listening habits atm (girl in red, arctic monkeys) im listening to my special cocktail of a playlist called "🙄" aka "sad queer on valentines day"

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lovebillyhargrove · 3 years

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Harringrove Ask Game

Thank you @wherearetheplums for tagging me back ahhah ))😘

1. Your zodiac sign? - Libra. I can't make a decision. Yeah, but ... Well, of course, but ... And then I'm sitting with all those piled BUTS like 🤯🤯🤯 what do i do, what do i do ... 😅

2. Favourite season/time of year? - Autumn (September/early October) when the colours are ❤️ and every leaf is a masterpiece 🍁🍂🍁

3. Your fav time of day/night? - Late evenings when I'm all to myself 💫

4. Your most MOST fav Billy scene? - My MOST FAV Billy's scene?? Probably the first one, when he steps out of the camaro. He looks so badass rocking us like the hurricane that he is. No, the one where he's smoking and getting ready to go on a date.. he looks so hot. Also he looks so hot (and badass) when he's drinking beer+smoking+lifting weights, yelling at Max and approaching the door .. no, the one when he's picking Vicky up and driving off, his hand just hangs so attractively out of the car window. OH NO, all scenes where he's driving the camaro !!!!!!!!!!!!! Or the first encounter with Steve, it's just ... So intense. Or where he's doing a keg stand, check out his wet abs!!!! Or the iconic "am i dreaming" and the "heebie-jeebies" scene 😂 Or when he's opening the door to the swimming pool AND smoking.. yeah love those bossy vibes. BADASS. OR when he's blowing the whistle and yelling at the running kid ?????? Or the getting info out of Karen scene, his smile just kills me!!!!or when he's flirting with mrs.wheeler at the pool, but IN REALITY he's flirting with Steve. OR........ AHGSGSHHXJDJCHXHDAAHDHXHDHDJDJDJXHHXAAEAHDHXHXHX

Why is this question so damn hard???????😥😥😥 I CAN'T CHOOSE

S3 scenes just make me hurt for him.. they are SO heartbreakingly sad. Dacre acts beautifully, but it's SO MUCH PAIN, and i don't deal with pain well, especially if it's a kid's pain((

ALSO if i say BADASS 1000 times more, will the duffers FUCKING RECONSIDER??????????????😡

5. Food you're craving atm - Sushi, always. And burgers 🍔

6. Your favourite kind of alcohol - Aperol Spritz (i literally can get wasted with ONE cocktail)

7. Neon lights/hustle and bustle OR the quiet of a small town/countryside? - Probably a small town, not enough energy level for cities that never sleep. But a once-in-a-while visit, why not?

8 . Sugar!daddy Steve OR sugar!daddy Billy? - BOTH. Canonically, Steve's the one who has the means to spoil Billy. But i 💘💘💘 me some Sugar!daddy Billy AUs (a shout-out to @neonponders 💖) mafia!AUs and such🥰🥰

9 . The place you wanna be rn? - close to the turquoise peaceful sea/ocean🌊

10. Heat or cold? - I'll quote @disdaidal on that one)) "Average. I hate sweating my ass off and it pisses me off. But I also hate freezing my fingers, toes and ass off." Unfortunately, with the obvious climate change, I'm afraid we are in for more unpleasant surprises

11. Country you would like to visit - the USA (cause friends) and, for no reason, Portugal

12. Yes, regrets 😔.. OR No regrets!!!!!!!!!😝 - Tbh, regrets. Like .. why was i SO stupid wasting my precious time on dead-end relationships????? Shoulda, woulda, coulda

13. ONLY IF YOU WANNA!!! A selfie???

Me upside down)

And I've tagged a whole lot of people in my previous post, so .. maybe @c0bblenygma @imyoursandthatsitwhatever @withoneheadlight @hoegrove (again, girl😂 Tumblr show my tags!!) @hardonhargrove @irishbeings @harringrovehq and anyone who feels like doing it)))

#ask game #tag game #i wanna know harringrove people better!!

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deadlysansa · 4 years

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Your prompt is: it’s Christmas season and I’m pulling out my fake Christmas tree only to find a giant ass spider living in it, I scream, and you (my flat neighbor) come running to my rescue

Thank you for the prompt! It was a challenge writing Christmas going into a crazy hot weekend but an attempt was made lmfao. Nobody proofed this for me I’m just trying to distract myself from the world like everyone else atm! I hope you can enjoy

Read on AO3.

Christmas in Flip Flops

James loved Christmas. He was a straight up Christmas fiend.

That being said, he didn’t own many Christmas decorations. Every year, he packed his bags and drove to his parents’ house for the holidays with his childhood friend Marlene in tow. It was a lot nicer than his one bedroom flat in central London where she often crashed on the sofa.

“ Ow, shit, shit, shit, shit,” James groaned to himself as a pile of junk slid off the shelf and into his shoulder.

It was 6.30pm on a Saturday night two weeks before Christmas and he was standing fully in his small storage cupboard which had become a bit of a dumping ground. Unfortunately, it was also the home to his forgotten plastic Christmas tree, so here he was, pulling it from the wreckage.

James had been renting alone for two years now, ever since his two best mates had fallen madly in love and decided James was definitely cramping their romantic bliss. That didn’t stop Sirius and Remus from demanding he host a Christmas party at his place and advising he ‘spruce it up a little’. They claimed it was because James lived closest to their favourite pubs, but he had a sneaking suspicion they were dying to get a look at the neighbour that he had maybe, possibly mentioned a couple of times since she’d moved in six months and twelve days ago. He’d also told them about her boyfriend and the heated argument four months and twenty-three days ago which turned him into an ex-boyfriend. It didn’t matter. His mates had had enough of hearing about how Lily Evans in Flat 5A was making it quite clear she wasn’t ready to move on.

Thoughts of a certain intoxicating redhead who liked to hang out in her doorway sipping coffee and rolling her eyes at him made him distracted enough to be almost taken out by an old baseball bat making a break from the top shelf.

James’ hands finally landed upon the box in which the tree was kept and tugged it free of the dusty confines of the cupboard. Grinning at his success, James carried the tree to his small living area. He hoped it looked better than he remembered, because he only had a few strings of tinsel and the sprig of mistletoe he’d hung above his head which looked slightly pathetic. James pulled a face at the hanging berries. At Christmases gone by, he didn’t even need mistletoe for a cheeky snog but now he’d turned into someone who lingered in the lobby of his building if he knew Lily was due home.

His saving grace for this party might have to be the festive cocktails he’d made (and sampled) earlier. James’ version of a cocktail was actually a catastrophic mixing of any alcohol he had on the shelf, but fuck it, it was red.

“Hey, Mr Flitwick, how are you?”

He heard the familiar melodic voice in the hall thanks to the criminally thin walls and James stopped his assault on the cardboard box. He looked up at his closed front door, as though he could see Lily on the other side rooting through her bag for her keys. Every single day without fail, she took two minutes to find them. Every single day, James wondered how much crap she had in her bag and whether she was over her stupid ex yet.

He heard a door click close and with a sigh James turned back to the tree. Maybe he should have invited her tonight, but he’d stopped asking when she turned down his first ten invitations to the pub. Even he didn’t fancy being snubbed at Christmas.

Freeing the tree, James saw that it did look very sad and —

“AAGH! Fuck, fuck, fuck!” James shouted as a giant black house spider darted from its hiding place in his ugly fake Christmas tree. Leaping onto the couch, he was horrified to see the spider scuttle in the same direction.

“NOT TODAY, YOU LITTLE FUCKER!” He was practically screaming at the eight legged nightmare, not aware of how loud he was being or at how he looked as a 25 year old man fleeing from a glorified bug.

James lobbed a cushion and shouted again, as though a spider could be yelled into submission. He didn’t notice the door bang open and Lily Evans flying into his flat with the determination of an FBI agent in pursuit, flip flop poised, until she was two feet away from him.

She skidded to a stop, breathing heavily. James was frozen, fear completely forgotten as he stared at Lily in his flat. She had never even crossed the doormat.

A frown was forming on her face, “What the hell , Potter?” She stared at the spider, now still on the carpet. “Are you screaming at this spider?”

James composed himself, hand instantly going to his hair, realising it would be tricky to jump down from the sofa with any shred of masculine dignity.

“Um, no?” James replied lamely.

Lily looked up at him, smirking now. “You were.” Laughing, she dropped the hand holding her flip flop. “Oh, I can’t wait to tell Bertha in 4C that tough guy James Potter nearly cried over a spider.”

She was practically gleeful, and James had to work hard not to just pull her up for a kiss. The only thing that stopped him confessing how much he liked her every time he opened his mouth was his emotionally buffering confidence. James refused to let his embarrassment show, and zoned in on the shoe she held.

“All right, Evans, easy on the tears talk,” James protested. “Were you planning on defending my honour with a flip flop?”

Face turning pink, Lily hid it behind her back. “Oh, shut it.”

“Tell me, what are the statistics on flip flops and self defence?” He teased, spurred on by her blush.

Scowling, Lily picked up a nearby glass and trapped the spider where it was with a pointed slam. Oh, shit. His dream woman.

Stepping off the couch, James grinned down at her.

“Thanks for saving me.”

Lily rolled her eyes. “You’re an idiot.”

“You’re the one in my flat, Evans.”

“Your door was unlocked! Which I’ve told you a million times is crazy, by the way.”

“I leave it unlocked in the hope you’ll come barging in armed with a flip flop,” He said with a mocking seriousness.

It was at that moment he realised he was standing very close to her, and she smelled so bloody nice and looked unnervingly good in a thick knitted jumper bearing Santa’s face and soft blue jeans.

Lily’s mouth twitched then, “Is that right?”

“You never come over when I’ve asked you, I figured I’d trick you into rescuing me,” He answered smoothly, not being able to conceal a smile at their awareness of his bullshit.

Lily’s emerald eyes glittered with mirth until she looked up and suddenly leapt away from James like she’d been electrocuted. He missed her instantly and she was a metre away. ‘In trouble’ was an understatement.

“Sorry,” She mumbled, tucking her hair behind both ears. “Mistletoe.” Lily pointed a delicate finger toward the ceiling. James followed her gaze and tried not to let his heart sink all the way down to his knees.

He raised his brows, “Sorry? It’s just mistletoe.”

“How’s Marlene?” Lily asked abruptly. Seemingly unable to meet his eye all of a sudden, she stared at the trapped spider that James was diligently ignoring.

Now the poster boy for bafflement, he shrugged, “She’s fine,” James said quickly. “Are you friends?”

Lily’s face was turning steadily pink and she laughed nervously, “Not really. Don’t worry, I’m not spying on you for your girlfriend or anything.”

The sentence was so funny to James that he burst out laughing. He didn’t know why Lily looked so scandalised, it was a good joke.

Lily’s embarrassment was morphing into annoyance and she folded her arms, “Why are you laughing?”

That’s when it hit him. His laughter died and he fixed her with an incredulous stare.

“Do you think Marlene is my girlfriend? Marlene?”

Lily’s eyes flickered, “It’s a very logical assumption to make. She always sleeps here! She goes to your parents’ house with you!” .

James guffawed, his mind racing to wrap around this new predicament. “Yeah, we grew up together! Mar’s parents live next door to mine. She sleeps on the couch after a night out so she doesn’t have to drive home.”

Lily opened her mouth to retort, but the truth struck her and she closed it.

“Oh,” She bit her lip and James took a measured breath. She was relieved. He couldn’t believe he was about to ask what he did until he heard the words.

“Wait, does my relationship status… matter to you?”

Lily covered her face with both hands. “Shut up, 5B,” she said through her fingers, voice muffled.

James grinned, gently prizing her hands apart. Her skin was warm and soft as he slowly slid his fingers between hers, giving her the option to pull free.

“I asked you out multiple times. You should have said yes,” James said, not caring that his voice sounded practically yearning.

Lily watched their interlocked fingers, “I thought you were in a relationship and felt sorry for me for being freshly single in a new area.”

James huffed a laugh, “I definitely did not feel bad. Evans, I’m ashamed to say I was bloody ecstatic when you got dumped.”

Emerald eyes finally met his in indignation, “Hey! I dumped him .” Lily chewed her tongue. “It was over as soon as I realised I fancied my neighbour more than my boyfriend.”

James’ grin was now positively shit-eating but he didn’t care. Lily Evans fancied him - apparently, she had for a while. His gorgeous, mad, funny neighbour who yelled when his shoelaces were undone in the post room and ran to defend him when he screamed like a child at a spider.

James stepped into her space so that the tip of their shoes were aligned. Lily inhaled swiftly, her mouth dropping open before she bit the inside of her cheek.

“James, why do you think I stand in front of my door so long everyday when I get home?”

James smirked, so close now that their shallow breaths mingled, “You can never find your keys in that giant bag.”

“I keep my keys in my pocket,” Lily said simply, gaze flickering to his lips in a way that made his blood hum. “I just mess around in case I catch you coming in or out. All so I could share thirty seconds with you.”

“Well, next time you want to mess around,” James said in low voice, tightening their linked fingers to pull her tantalisingly closer. “You can come straight to me.”

She smiled softly, her eyelids almost closed in a dreamlike state, “Only if you lock that bloody front door.”

Unable to resist any longer, James bent down to catch Lily’s lips with his own and she responded in kind, surging upwards into him with an urgency he could only have dreamed of. Unlocking their hands, she plunged hers into his hair, scratching at his scalp in a way that made him groan, and he wrapped both strong arms around her waist so she was lifted off the ground.

This was bliss. Happy fucking Christmas.

Suddenly, Lily pulled back just a fraction.

“James,” She whispered, her breath skating over his mouth. “I just kicked over the spider glass.”

Right, the spider that had wingmanned him here . He was still absolutely terrified of the thing.

James tightened his grip around Lily and pressed his forehead to hers, “Get the flip flop.”

#jily #jily fanfiction #james potter #lily evans #prompt #challenge #ao3 #hp fic #marauders

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gracelessfighters · 4 years

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23, 25,26??

23: My relationship with my sibling(s)

- my sister is the person i’m closest to in the world we’ve shared a room for most of our lives so we’re each other’s best friends (even if that sounds vvv sad), i have a stepbrother who is my age and we were in the same year at school and we’re not that close but we do get along, and i have another stepbrother whose older but he left our family because he’s a dick so obviously we don’t get along

25: My idea of a perfect date

- i’m not that fussy tbh, like ive been on a date where we went for cocktails and chatted and that was nice, but i think going to a movie followed by a meal is a class date, because if the conversation slows down you can always talk about the film you watched and its a nice way to break the awkwardness

26: My biggest pet peeves

- i have quite a few but i have to say the main one atm is people wearing masks on their face but like their nose isnt covered or ive seen people move their mask off their face to talk, or when it’s on their chin or some shit it’s just really pisses me off

#asks #anon

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madonna-la-cardinalessa · 4 years

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Another tag by my beautiful friend @tiffany-of-wales which I am glad to do finally :D

Flower tag:

jasmine; what mythical creature do you wish actually existed?

Unicorns. And I also believe that what we call mythical creatures once did exist and somewhere still do.

lavender; soundcloud or vinyls?

May I say CDs instead? I always like to have a CD booklet and like own the CD, putting it in my cupboard and say “ Look, I own this.” – not only on an online platform.

primrose; what book does everyone right now need to read?

Hmmm. Everyone? I do not think every book if for everyone but I recommend classics from Goethe, Schiller, Lessing and Shakespeare.

lunar mist; do you like wearing other people’s shirts/jackets?

I share some clothes with my mom. But if I had a boyfriend rn I would love to cuddle in his hoodies at times I think^^”

bird of paradise; what was the best thing that happened to you this month?

That I finished my bachelor’s thesis. I learned so much and I hope the work was worth it so that I pass it and get a good mark!

gardenia; what’s a promise you’ve recently made to yourself?

That I will try to get things done now that I have time during Corona.

lion’s fairytale; would you rather be the sky, the ocean or the forests?

Forests!

whirling butterflies; would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Definitely not Ö.ö

marmalade skies; do you plan your outfits?

Yes!

apricot drift; how do you feel right now?

Bored. I don’t like the current situation.

everlasting daisy; what’s the last dream you remember having?

Omg this night I dreamed sm shit, I swear. I was horse riding at night in the forests (no sane soul would do that lol) and found a deserted planetarium.

queen’s cup; what are you craving right now?

Getting a good mark on my bachelor’s thesis xD Oh, and I hope that I will be able to visit Rome this year – we had to cancel the Rome trip that was planned in a week for obvious reasons..

lavender dream; turn ons/offs?

Dangerous vibes/ being clingy and/or wimpy.

water lilly; when was the last time you cried?

Last week I think. Maybe the one before that.

lily of the valley; did the one person who hurt you most in your life apologize?

No.

winterberry; do you bite or lick your ice cream?

Depends, actually I do both.

honey perfume; favorite movie ever?

Hände weg von Mississippi (2007), Die Wilden Hühner (2006), most Studio Ghibli movies.

desert rose; do you like yourself?

Yes, I do.

snapdragon; have you ever met or seen in person a celebrity?

Yes, I did.

night owl; how many countries have you visited?

Only 5.

heliotrope; have you ever been in a castle?

Many, many times. I love visiting castles and monasteries.

creams and sky; what’s the craziest/bravest thing you’ve done?

Riding nearly every day into the woods with my high speed thoroughbred? xD Does that count? My girl is FAST.

lantana; what’s on your mind right now?

My horse Poly <3

pumpkin patch; what’s your zodiac sign?

I’m a Capricorn.

tulip; name 5 facts about yourself.

1. Even though I may look like it, I am no party girl at all.

2. Since childhood I had to deal with envy towards me which is why I never had many friends.

3. My best friend and I broke up several times – we’re both stubborn but we love each other a lot.

4. My love for history started with a documentary I watched when I was about 14. It was about vampirism in the balkan states. And it manifested with watching “The Tudors”, since then I knew that I wanted to study history – and now I do.

5. Without my friend Sandy I would have never settled down in church history during the Renaissance.

daphne; do you believe in karma?

Absolutely.

queen of the meadow; ever been in love?

Never with a person from this time period, no. I hope I will in near future tough.

wisteria; whom do you admire and why?

People who don’t spend their time with overthinking what other people might think of them.

angel’s face; what was your favorite bedtime story as a child?

The tales my father invented for me.

remember me; did you make someone laugh today?

My dog when I offered him a bit of my banana.

iris; do you believe in ghosts?

Yes.

lilac; if you could go back in time which time period would you visit?

That is hard. Renaissance Italy sure is fascinating but 17th century Europe comes to my mind more often, it’s weird.

caramel kisses; would you want to live forever? why/why not?

Maybe not living forever, But I would not mind at all staying young and beautiful as long as I live xD

primula; what makes you sad?

What mankind does to the world, to the earth to it’s creatures: plants and animals. I think we deserve to suffer and die out.

rain lily; was today typical? why/why not?

No, since everything is upside down thanks to Corona.

queen anne’s lace; who do you trust the most?

Myself.

Lady’s slipper; what did you have for breakfast today?

Toast with Nutella and fennel tea. <3.

forget me not; do you have any regrets looking back in your life?

I wished I had done more social things during my teens. I was always studying and reading with my head in the clouds. I wonder how things would be different now when I had been in relationships earlier etc.

lunaria; what’s your favorite fictional universe?

Torn between LOTR and Harry Potter.

violet; favorite tv show?

Borgia, now and always.

sunflower; share a favorite quote.

Look like the innocent flower, but be the serpent under it.

snowdrop; what does your ideal day look like?

Getting up early, go seeing my horse and take a long ride into the woods. The weather would be cold but sunny. After having a nice lunch with my mom I would relax in the afternoon and then go visiting my best friend, for dinner we would have sushi and watch a nice movie together like best friends do. When I got home I would watch an episode of Borgia to relax and then go to bed <3.

tiger lily; do you have any hobbies?

Reading, writing, history, horse riding, dreaming…..

peony; share a small random book passage that means something to you.

In Neil Gaiman’s Coraline when Coraline is about to find the last child’s soul and the other crazy old man says: “You’re too clever and too quiet for them to understand. They don’t even get your name right.” I feel that sm.

tea rose; what’s something you always wanted to do but were too scared?

Partying maybe? I am a very shy person and would feel uncomfortable but I am afraid I miss something always staying at home at night.

honeysuckle; do you usually date people your age or older/younger?

Mostly about my age, but I like the guys to be older than me tbh.

sweet pea; who means the world to you?

My horse Poly.

love in the mist; best books you’ve ever read?

Actually I really enjoy Ludwig von Pastor’s History of the Popes. It may have it’s flaws but I it is really good researched and I appreciate all the notes and footnotes. Even though it’s academic literature it is still enjoyable to read.

foxglove; who is your favorite cartoon character?

Sailor Moon! If that counts as a cartoon.

magnolia; coffee or tea?

Tea, I have one right now.

crown imperial; would you rather be extremely rich or extremely loved?

Can’t I have both?

snowflake; are you a dog or a cat person?

I love both but probably more a dog person.

bell flower; what is your biggest addiction?

History.

cosmos; do you ever think about the galaxy?

Yes, we are so small, aren’t we? And yet mankind pretends to be so special and to know everything. How pitiful.

moonflower; what’s your favorite color?

Fir Green.

freesia; do you have a good relationship with your parents and siblings? why/why not?

I think so, yes.

sundrop; are you a morning or a night person?

A morning person.

poppy; have you ever dealt with a mental illness?

Yes, but I try to lock it inside.

clover; how would your friends describe you?

Calm but clever.

dandelion; do you consider yourself and extrovert or an introvert?

Introvert.

lilly; what’s something you love watching/reading but you are too embarrassed to admit you do?

In romance novels I am always waiting for the s*x passages lol xD Probably because this kind of thing is missing in my life atm xD

anemone; describe yourself in 3 words.

Astute, spiritual, special.

lotus; best memory as a child?

The holidays in Bavaria. Nothing was more beautiful.

angelonia; what is your eye and hair color?

Smokey grey, blonde.

dahlia; do you like crystals?

Yes.

buttercup; if you could change one thing in the world, what would it be?

Let everything bad for the environment disappear.

baby’s breath; what’s your hogwarts house?

Slytherin.

calendula; biggest pet peeve?

Pollution.

blanker flower; would you rather go to a cocktail party with your best friends or stay home and read a book/watch a movie with your pet?

If you read everything till now you will now – stay home with my pet and watch a movie/read a book. xD

blazing star; share a secret.

Why would I?

carnation; would you rather live longer or happier?

Happier.

petunia; who’s story is your biggest inspiration in life? why?

I stopped looking for rolemodels but try to live and be the best I can.

bluebell; do you wear glasses?

Nope.

And I tag everyone who wants to do this :D

#about me #me

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shmothman · 4 years

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I was tagged by @dovahhkiin thx bri ily <3 <3

Who were you named after? Nobody

Last time you cried? hm.. it couldn’t have been that long ago... maybe a week or so? oh no wait that video of a tiny chick i reblogged yesterday made me cry,, it was so SMALL

Do you like your handwriting? I mean,, i guess its fine?

What is your favorite lunch meat? im a vegetarian rip

Longest relationship? a couple months, i guess, technically?

Do you still have your tonsils? nah, i had strep a lot as a kid so i got em out!

What is your favorite kind of cereal? hmmmm i dont eat much cereal... but i like cracklin oat bran :3

Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? No lol i slip them off

Do you think you’re strong willed? not,,, particularly? i dont think? maybe i am when it comes to some things. but for most other things im a bit of a pushover

Favorite Ice Cream? mmmmm graeter’s strawberry chocolate chip. its only in season a couple months and i eat so much of it

What is the first thing you notice about a person? sounds cheesy but how they make me feel? i guess vibes~

Football or baseball? ugh neither

Favorite donut? boston creme....

Last thing you ate? soup and biscuits :3

What are you listening to? nothing atm!

If you were a crayon, what color would you be? bubblegum pink

What is your favorite smell? Lemon, or jasmine

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? My extended family over zoom lol

Hair color? brown

Eye color? brown

Favorite food to eat? i like so many foods,,, you cannot make me choose,,, also i honestly have no idea bc once a food is not in front of me it does not exist and i very very rarely have cravings lmao

Scary movies or happy ending? Happy endings ONLY i do not do sad. and im a huge baby when it comes to scary stuff

Last movie you watched in a theater? Birds of Prey

What color shirt are you wearing? Grey + purple

Favorite holiday? Halloween!

Beer or wine? Wine, but I dont really like it either. im more of a fruity cocktail kinda guy.

Night owl or morning person? Im much happier in the mornings... if i can get up before like. 9.

Favorite day of the week? Saturday. bc capitalism is hell and i work m-f

Favorite animal? bats!!!

Do you have a pet? A cat and a dog that live with my mom, and i help take care of my sister’s snake when she’s at school!

Im tagging anybody who wants to do it!! love yall <333

#tag meme

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punkscowardschampions · 4 years

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Flat Whites & JJ

Mia: Mum can take four of us, so three of you are still going to need to find your way there, Dad's away on a Golf weekend 🤷 Grace: I'll ask if any of the fam can take the rest of us 🤞💜 Mia: Aw, thanks so much, babe Mia: so you're cool not coming with us then? Grace: there's like 1000s of them so 🤷🙄 someone'll will totally be talked or bribed into doing it 💅 Grace: oh yeah sure, it's like not even a problem, babes Mia: 😂😂😂 for real, got to have some upsides, yeah? Mia: Great 💗 Mia: the rest of you, you can only bring what you can hold on your laps, Dad took the range so we're in the sports, the boot is like non-existent 💁🙄 Grace: ugh IKR?! 😂😂😂 Grace: at least we can take SO MUCH of the stuff whoever's behind the wheel, you're so welcome huns Mia: Love a helpful queen Mia: Asia, are you even coming with us or are you going to ditch us for your boyfriend, again 💅 Asia: Of course I'm coming!!! Asia: Literally just got my hair done 👌👌✂ Asia: [and a million pics that nobody asked for] Jimmy: 😍😍😍😍😍 Grace: WOW! SO CUTE Mia: Yeah, but are you coming with us or coming with us like Maya's party where you left SO early with him instead of having a good time with your besties Ella: 😏🍵 Hollie: wasn't so early she didn't have a good time with ME tho! 💃💘 views to prove it Asia: UM like isn't it LAW that what happens at parties stays there?! 🤫🤫 Asia: & he doesn't even wanna come with soooooooo Jimmy: 💔 Ella: Oh, so we're your 2nd choice? 🤔🤔 Mia: 💔 is right, so rude Asia: ???!! Asia: not even Mia: We all heard you, you can't deny it Mia: at least own it, babe, omg Asia: you asked if he was coming?? Mia: Literally no one is concerned about him but you 😂 Mia: shame he's not, I might need your seat, actually Mia: but that's cool, yeah? seeing as you've got so many options Asia: ?????????? Mia: 🤫🤫 Grace: Why might you need her seat though? Spill on who you're trying to bring, thank you Mia: I'm not trying to make this convo all about me Mia: so cringe Mia: we're meant to be planning, thank you Jimmy: Go on, we're obvs all DYING to know Mia: Have to wait and 👀 Mia: be a nice surprise for you all Janis: How will we ever bear the suspense? Jimmy: there's only one of you who's getting mouth to mouth if you stop breathing, soz Janis: Things are looking up, Asia 🤞 Jimmy: I'm SO not going if Asia's not going, FYI Janis: 💔 Mia: There'll be room in whatever you're showing up in Mia: assuming she doesn't ditch you too, it's her thing rn Jimmy: put her on my lap ✔ you don't mind, do you, babe? Ella: 🤢 Jimmy: green's right Jimmy: no need to be jealous, El Ella: Don't ever call me that Jimmy: Babe 💔 come on Jimmy: this TENSION between us Ella: Repulsive and delusional, cute 🙄 Ella: Why are you even in this chat, though 👏 it's not nice to make fun of Asia, or helpful rn Jimmy: Bit rude to chuck me out of a chat she started Jimmy: but alright we can plan without her Jimmy: Mia* Mia: You aren't funny, new boy Jimmy: is that @ Asia's boyfriend or? Jimmy: he's got a name Janis: You aren't funny, babe Janis: what's to plan anyway, we have tents, we have lifts, sorted Hollie: Is Asia coming? Mia: Grace, can you please explain to your sister how much more there is left to do Mia: and Asia why are you like making people ask after you??? hello, answer a question, would you, silence ain't cute Grace: Janis does lowkey have a point, babes, it is chill Grace: she doesn't need or want to be involved in our outfit planning, obvs 😂😂 Asia: I LITERALLY SAID I'M COMING Ella: 🔉 Ella: Why are you shouting though Asia: why are you the volume police, Ells?? OH MY GOD Mia: Obviously Mia: but there's actually important stuff still to do, thanks, like who's getting the drink, for one Mia: Asia needs to calm down and find herself a seat, and a whole new tent if she's going to bring everyone down with her attitude??? Mia: don't take your relationship drama out on us tbh Jimmy: The unfunny dickhead with the unflattering fake ID, duh 👋 Jimmy: Love me again now, don't you? Mia: Don't get excited Mia: I want 2 bottles of vodka Jimmy: You gonna put me on a timeout, an' all? Cute Mia: El? Ella: Same Janis: You know it's a weekend Janis: you two don't need 4 bottles between you Janis: and you aren't even meant to have glass anyway Mia: You suddenly care about the rules? Mia: We'll pay you now, chill out 😂😂 Jimmy: I was waiting for the #flex Jimmy: can rest easy and count my 💰 now Mia: 🙄 you wanna pay for us Mia: literally none of us will be impressed Jimmy: and live off bread and water for the foreseeable? You're alright Jimmy: So poor, me, you just put the reminder out yourself Mia: 💔 Mia: like we're all SOOOO rich Jimmy: 🙄 Mia: like, bang on about it more, so not boring Mia: is anyone else going to order or are you just going to keep him waiting forever? Mia: what's wrong with you lots, like are you being shy Hollie: you bringing up Maya's party has me 🤔🤔🤔 maybe we should chill out with the 🍾🍾 idk Mia: You make those little videos sober, don't think you need to worry about being any more cringe, babe Mia: why are we going if to not have fun, come on now Hollie: WOW, ILY too babe Mia: it is what we 💗 about you Mia: so funny Hollie: 👌👌👌 Mia: OMG, this MOOD Mia: you're all stressing me out, actually over this Grace: Vodka is like totally fine for all of us, okay? Just get enough to have fun with, like Mia said Grace: without getting CRAZY like Hollie warned Grace: then we can all just move on Jimmy: 👍 Mia: Yeah, this is so much fun Mia: 🙄 Mia: I'm over this convo Jimmy: 💔 Mia: El, be ready in 15, okay? Grace: Is that everything? Mia: 🤷 Mia: Like I'm doing all the work for what? Mia: You wanna be boring, you'll have to work it out yourselves Grace: I'm literally asking so you don't have to do it all yourself, honey Mia: I said, I'm over it Mia: We're going shopping, you can all do what you want Grace: Ugh Grace: everyone stop Ella: The problem is you're doing nothing though? 💁 Grace: Excuse you? Ella: What? 😂 Grace: That's like the opposite of helping Grace: I'm trying to sort everything out Ella: 👌👌👌 Grace: Do you wanna talk to Asia rn? cos I don't think you appreciate how upset she is Grace: That's what I'm doing Ella: Such a saint 🙏 Ella: she's got nothing to be upset about, just like the rest of you, this is such a joke Grace: mhmmm Grace: we all know you wanna call the whole thing off, Ella Grace: but maybe the rest of us wanna go, so like ?? Don't be so rude Ella: That's why me and Mia are the only ones who have made any suggestions in this chat??? Ella: Okay Grace: 4 bottles of vodka isn't a suggestion, it's a shopping list Ella: We all know you can't handle your drink Ella: so why don't you ask for some cocktails in a can and get realistic about it Grace: 🙄🙄🙄 Mia: El, leave it Mia: this chat is so hormonal Grace: Call off your clone please, so over her Ella: Ha, now who's excused Ella: what was that about green? Grace: yeah cos I was so in favour before Grace: okay Grace: I literally don't care, count me out if this is how it's going to be the whole time Ella: The tantrums 😂 Ella: your sister finally invites you to something and this is how you act Grace: my sister isn't the one being a total bitch, you are Grace: eat something, you'll feel better Ella: Seen enough changing room meltdowns to know that's not worked for you, hun 😚 Mia: This is so toxic and we all know why Asia: I don't Mia: 🙄🙄🙄 Mia: God 😂 Mia: she speaks Hollie: stop shading her Mia: And another one Hollie: her and her bf will be done before the tents are set up, like hello? Hollie: it's not worth dragging her over Asia: 😱😱😱 Asia: Hollie! Mia: Wow Mia: it says so much about you that you only pipe up when things get bitchy Mia: both of you, where was this enthusiasm earlier? Damn, say how you really feel, Hols Hollie: I have to do my own dirty work 🤷 Hollie: if Ells had a twin too, I could sit back and get comfy too Mia: No one's asked you to be such a bitch Mia: this is why people don't fuck with you, so uncomfortable 😬 Hollie: yeah cos only you two are allowed, isn't it? Hollie: is it a boy you've invited? Mia: 😂 show me where Hollie: maybe where Ells is about to pull Gracie's weave out? Hollie: or when you uninvited Asia cos you're so salty that she has a bf Mia: Grace is trying to threaten she's not coming and Asia is clearly doing the same since no one uninvited her Mia: like, try to hide your drama behind us some more Mia: we're shopping for outfits, MY mum is driving us, I've paid for my drinks? Mia: sort your lives, honestly Hollie: my drama is you, you're being cringey bitches and I'm so done 👌 Asia: So I can come with you? Ella: Mime to a sad song, you'll feel better Ella: duh, Asia Hollie: I'll feel better when that boy you have a crush on, who I won't name to the entire chat cos I'm not that bitch, slides into my DMs again Hollie: thanks so much though, Ells Ella: It's tragic you think that means anything Ella: as if you've ever made it to the tent being put up Hollie: It's sooooooo funny that you think that's going to get to me Hollie: I don't want a 💍 and you know it Ella: that's lucky Ella: don't think they do engagement rings in man-sized Jimmy: Well I'm fucked then Jimmy: soz babe, the proposal's cancelled Mia: Are you two legit still here? Mia: That's even more pathetic than you three, you're in luck Jimmy: waiting on my shopping invite, no manners, you Mia: You've got your list Jimmy: But how can I join the cult if you don't tell me the dress code Jimmy: Kool-Aid's on order, like Mia: 🦗🦗 Mia: less reaction than your fake proposal bombshell, I am SO sorry, sweetie Jimmy: I proper felt that, you should go to drama school Ella: and Brits are meant to be decent at sarcasm Ella: try harder, new boy Jimmy: What's sarcasm? Please tell us, attack dog #1 Ella: Get Grace to, seeing as she's such a martyr Ella: Asia's stopped blubbing now Grace: Get over yourself and my name out of your mouth, hun Grace: your changing room meltdown atm isn't my problem Ella: OMG, a real-life 👼 Ella: deigning to talk to us commoners for a sec Ella: you wanna talk about names in your mouth, be sure to tell Asia what you said about her after she left Maya's, k 😘 Grace: Jesus loves everyone babes, even you Mia: 💁 so true Mia: make sure your hands are clean before you start pointing the finger, Gracie Grace: Oh please, I was drunk after I left that party cos OBVS I can NEVER handle my drink, DUH Grace: Do we wanna take a moment to talk about what you both said about my sister and her boyfriend after they invited us to this festival or no? Mia: Try on another excuse, see if that one fits Ella: 😏 Ella: doubt it Grace: we for sure don't wanna take any moments to discuss body image, unless of course you really would like to leave the chat and focus on your ootds Ella: 🐢🌵💚 Asia: ??? Asia: what does that even mean?? Ella: She knows Ella: Asia are you at home? Asia: not my home Asia: why? Ella: to pick you up Ella: you still need to get stuff too, right? Asia: OH Asia: I'll get him to drop me off rn Ella: 🙌 we'll wait 💗 Asia: 👌💗 Mia: We'll do nails and tan after, Dad's paying Asia: I can't tan too dark tho it'll clash with 💇 Mia: 'course, babe, that'd be so cringe Mia: you'll look amazing 😘 Asia: 💗💗💗 Mia: k, toodles 👋 Asia: SO excited Ella: Us too 💃🍾 Hollie: 🙄🙄🙄 Ella: Your negative energy is really draining Ella: speak up if you've got a problem, Hols, maybe we can help Hollie: I just can't remember stepping into a time machine and popping out again when we were like 12 tbh Ella: Your backne is acting up again? Ella: Worst timing, the sun will do it wonders though, don't worry Hollie: 😂 Ella: See, that's more like it Ella: positivity, ladies Hollie: Mia, are you really doing this? Mia: Doing what, babe? Hollie: you know Hollie: 🥶🥶🥶🥶 Mia: I really don't, though Mia: sorry 😕 Mia: DM me if you don't want to say it in front of them, yeah Hollie: okay Hollie: be really cool if you could swat Ells off your shoulder first though Hollie: just saying Mia: Why are you being like, jealous Mia: so weird Mia: we're all friends, 'cos we're not 12 😂 Hollie: check your inbox Hollie: you won't be BFFs with her when you read that Ella: Beg an invite harder Hollie: you'll be begging to keep yours, babes Hollie: gonna have to do your own tan, uh oh Ella: You'd know all about that Ella: 🍊🍪😷 Asia: OMG yay! I understood that time Ella: 😂 it'd be hard to miss, right babe Ella: bless Asia: 😂😂

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shop5 · 5 years

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Ok so I got like 2 hours of sleep because I had a really bad nightmare and I need something to occupy my mind ATM -- So I’m just gonna live blog Punisher under cut obviously spoilers

I love how genuine the look on his face is

And holy shit the shoot out in the woods in episode 3 when Frank shoots the Molotov cocktail in that dudes hand???

then this exchange:

Oh and I really like small town sheriff guy

This shot right here:

Frank castle summed up in one picture:

EP4 ------------------------------

What do you have there Billy? A knife. NO.

Also Billy has the kind of scars I draw on characters where you want them to look bad but they just kinda make the character hotter

Curtis puts up with so much and I love him

!!!!!!!!! Frank and Billy flashback! also some of franks childhood backstory

Billy killing the pedophile was pretty fucking sweet

Also Dad Frank is my favorite

EP5-----------------------------------------------

Frank mid lecture getting excited about pizza is adorable

Also Madani going to Curtis’ group

“It wasn’t the war that twisted Billy, it was greed” -Curtis

This exchange:

EP6---------------------------------------------------------

Frank listening to Amy and not killing the guy but burning down the studio instead but come on he 100% should have murdered that dude and made him suffer

Curtis having a girlfriend and I’m scared for her -- JUST LET CURTIS BE HAPPY

Curtis getting this guy glasses and helping out homeless vets I love him and he deserves to be happy

Billy is such a creepy dick but god damn Ben Barnes is hot

oh my god Frank opening up to opening up to Amy about Lisa and crying and now I’m crying and fuck this show I love it

“Dad:Are you crying about the murder show? Me: I MIGHT BE”

Supportive dad Frank teaching amy how to take a gun off someone and shoot all while being equal parts proud and really bothered that he has to teach her that shit

DONT HURT CURTIS YOU ASS HOLE

oh thank god he didn’t hurt Curtis

Billy’s got a new weird murder gang, he’s got friends now

Madani Frank and Curtis team find billy and end it

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Frank, Madani and Curtis hashing it out

Noping right out of the therapist fucking Billy nope

Ok it wasn’t that long of a scene and Billy is awful but he’s still a fucking interesting character

awe billys gang has a club house

not gonna lie Billy training his gang is great

Curtis saying Franks just “looking for an excuse to keep moving”

Lillian is a fucking BAMF

HOLY SHIT FRANK IN THE VEST TO SCARE BILLY IS AMAZING the colors in this scene are perfect -- The legit actual pain on Billy’s face when he realizes it’s Frank

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Bad ass Curtis to the rescue!

Holy shit Billy is an evil mother fucker but but god damn he’s a great villain

Frank had the shot and he froze he still couldn’t kill Billy and it’s heart breaking

Ben Banes is really good my dudes

LIKE he’s evil but him being so confused about Frank still hurts

Curtis finally being done with Frank’s shit good for him

Jon Bernthal is so fucking good like just so good

Oh no Frank went to the grave yard here’s the feels again

I love urban westerns so much

Frank crying my heart

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Everyone in the trailer like the most awkward family reunion ever

“No one really likes making their friday night the punisher pity party” I feel called out

“Maria knew what I was and she loved me anyway” ouch

More awkward Billy therapist sex scenes again luckily not that long still uncomfortable

god frank killing those dudes in the ally should be as great as it is but it is

The Billy and Madani face off is so tense and intimidating

And then Billy’s like:

Poor worried dad Frank with his flip phone

why is this therapist Lady Macbething Billy

YES AMY TAKING THE GUN AND SHOOTING THE FUCKER and frank taking the last shot so he killed him

Franks “I’m gonna do all I can to make that different for you” to Amy after she says is that all there is “Alive or dead?”

EP10-------------------------------------------------------

oh no more Billy Frank flashbacks

Frank and Curtis hug!

Dude the fight scene with Billy’s men tho

oh shit Billy setting up frank to make him think he killed those women

That’s just...damn man

EP11----------------------------------------------------------------

Oh man the Kastle episode here we go

Poor Curtis he puts up with so much

KARENNN I love her

this whole episode is a bunch of women telling frank to stop being a dumb ass and I love it

More Frank and Karen crying and I can’t

Karen Madani and Amy working together!

Can we just appreciate Frank in the policeman’s uniform

EP12-----------------------------------------------------------------

Don’t. Hurt. Curtis.

Oh good Curtis is ok.

oh shit goodbye terrible therapist

EP13----------------------------------------------------------

This is it folks the home stretch

Oh good Madani’s alive

AMY AND FRANK on the job!

ELEVATOR FIGHT SCENE

don’t jump on moving cars Frank

Billy passing out getting the bullets taken out Me: Suffer bitch.

BILLY LITERALLY IN THE TRASH WHERE HE BELONGS

A+ Alice in Chains

You’re the whirlwind

God damn I hate billy but hes so charismatic and sad it hurts

OH MY GOD FRANK KILLING BILLY WAS SO SATISFYING

Franks monologue fucking chills and their revenge with amy is so perfect

good dad frank is good

MY HEART

#Punisher spoilers #TPS2 spoilers

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spongebobsquarepiss · 6 years

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all the botanical asks

Bless u, i love you jasmine; what mythical creature do you wish actually existed?Unicorns lavender; soundcloud or vinyls?Vinyls primrose; what book does everyone right now need to read?The Snow Child lunar mist; do you like wearing other people’s shirts/jackets?Y e s bird of paradise; what was the best thing that happened to you this month?hmm. i went to see the testosterone dr person ladygardenia; what’s a promise you’ve recently made to yourself?ill be a better bf than i have been lately lion’s fairytale; would you rather be the sky, the ocean or the forests?Ooh forests or oceanwhirling butterflies; would you kiss the last person you kissed again?Yes def marmalade skies; do you plan your outfits?Sometimes apricot drift; how do you feel right now?anxious and sadeverlasting daisy; what’s the last dream you remember having?Ummmm. we were all trying to watch infinity war but i couldn’t get to the theater at all and i was disappointing my friends so i started crying queen’s cup; what are you craving right now?Love and affection and cheeze its lavender dream; turn ons/offs?On: discreet flirting, being sexy without meaning to beOff: being called anything femme tbh, put into the stereotype that i like what girls like in certain more sexualized situationswater lilly; when was the last time you cried? why?right now cause i feel bad for not being a great bf sometimes and im not a great friend, i just rely and take from others and don’t give a lot. lily of the valley; did the one person who hurt you most in your life apologize?Not really winterberry; do you bite or lick your ice cream?Bite?? maybe lick???honey perfume; favorite movie ever?God idk man. atm it’s Brothers Bloomdesert rose; do you like yourself?Nosnapdragon; have you ever met or seen in person a celebrity?Yeah.night owl; how many countries have you visited? None. until we go to France none besides the US lmao heliotrope; have you ever been in a castle?God no but i wishcreams and sky; what’s the craziest/bravest thing you’ve done?came out as translantana; what’s on your mind right now?i wish i was a better person pumpkin patch; what’s your zodiac sign?Taurus tulip; name 5 facts about yourself.im trans, i play the tuba, im musically talented, i love all of my friends, i love my dogdaphne; do you believe in karma?Sure?queen of the meadow; ever been in love?Yeahwisteria; whom do you admire and why?My gf cause she’s brave and loving and caring angel’s face; what was your favorite bedtime story as a child?i didn’t get bedtime stories. at least not that i remember remember me; did you make someone laugh today?maybe?? i think in AP music i did. iris; do you believe in ghosts?Nahlilac; if you could go back in time which time period would you visit?idk man the past kinda sucked unless ur a straight white male with lots of moneycaramel kisses; would you want to live forever? why/why not?No. Life is sad primula; what makes you sad?Legit. almost anything if there’s enough emotion put into itrain lily; was today typical? why/why not?Def not typical. ive been an anxious wreck all dayqueen anne’s lace; who do you trust the most?My gflady’s slipper; what did you have for breakfast today?a barforget me not; do you have any regrets looking back in your life?A to lunaria; what’s your favorite fictional universe? Honestly. Marvel violet; favorite tv show?The Flash atmsunflower; share a favorite quote.Time is the only resource you can never get back and get more of snowdrop; what does your ideal day look like?sleeping in a little bit. reading. practicing. cuddling with my gf. texting my friends tiger lily; do you have any hobbies?Yeah i like reading and i love playing my instruments tea rose; what’s something you always wanted to do but were too scared?Audition for things, make more friends, be more outgoing especially at danceshoneysuckle; do you usually date people your age or older/younger? My agesweet pea; who means the world to you? why?My gf she’s amazing and tbh i wouldn’t be alive without her she’s a dork love in the mist; best books you’ve ever read?the Snow Child foxglove; who is your favorite cartoon character?Aomine Daikimagnolia; coffee or tea?Tea crown imperial; would you rather be extremely rich or extremely loved?Lovedsnowflake; are you a dog or a cat person?Dog bell flower; what is your biggest addiction?Sleeping cosmos; do you ever think about the galaxy?All the timemoonflower; what’s your favorite color?Navy bluefreesia; do you have a good relationship with your parents and siblings? why/why not?Yeah. my parents are understanding and open minded and just want me to be happy sundrop; are you a morning or a night person?Nightpoppy; have you ever dealt with a mental illness?Uh yes clover; how would your friends describe you?gay, musical, a dorkdandelion; do you consider yourself and extrovert or an introvert?Introvertlilly; what’s something you love watching/reading but you are too embarrassed to admit you do? Hmm. Sports anime and gay manga anemone; describe yourself in 3 words.Sad, musical, trying lotus; best memory as a child?fishing on the little su and it’s sunny out and i caught a super huge fish and my dad’s proud angelonia; what is your eye and hair color?Hazel eyes, brown hair dahlia; do you like crystals?Yes buttercup; if you could change one thing in the world, what would it be?everyone would be open minded and caring baby’s breath; what’s your hogwarts house?Slytherin calendula; biggest pet peeve?Out of tune instruments blanker flower; would you rather go to a cocktail party with your best friends or stay home and read a book/watch a movie with your pet?Read a bookblazing star; share a secret.i have a fear that everything i do is fake and no one actually likes me, they just tolerate me and don’t care. im really scared that ill mess up again and ruin this relationship and/or ruin my mental again carnation; would you rather live longer or happier?Happierpetunia; who’s story is your biggest inspiration in life? why?i have no idea man. Everyone is learning and trying their best and honestly small stories make me the happiest and most inspired bluebell; do you wear glasses?Sometimes nymphea; forest or river?River orchid; do you like exercise?Yeahpansy; do you like poetry?Yes morning glory; any special talent that you have?i can play sixteenth notes on a tuba at 200 bpm and i intend to go faster someday

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scarypoolparty · 6 years

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28. what was your last lie? i’m not sure tbh29. dumbest lie you ever told? again not sure, i’m blanking our rn but i’m sure there’s plenty of dumb ones bc i’m not a good liar tbh30. is crying in front of ppl embarrassing? for me it is31. something you did and you are proud of? hmmm well i’ll just say recently i accomplished something pretty big, or at least i think it’s big 32. what’s your favorite cocktail? i’ve only ever had a screwdriver so i’ll go w that 33. something you are good at? ruining myown happiness tbhhh34. do you like small kids? honestly not a fan of kids period 35. how are you feeling right now? a little anxious tbh and sad 36. what would you name your daughter/son? i LOVE the name shiobhan37. what do you need to be happy? AFFECTION lmaooo jk maybeeee, but tbh i’m not sure 38. is there someone you want to punch in the face right now? honestly maybe but lowkey 39. what was the last gift you received? shoes 40. what was the last gift you gave? oh boyyyy idek tbh i have like no money sooo, i bought the food when hanging out w someone a while ago, is that a gift?? idkkk41. what was the last concert you went to? never been to one 42. favorite place to shop? i don’t have a fave really 43. who inspires you? no one atm44. how old were you when you first got drunk? i don’t rlly remember, maybeeee 1445. how old were you when you first got high? i was 16 i think46. how old were you when you first had sex? ehhhhh 47. when was your first kiss? 8th grade 48. something you want to do until the end of this year? idkkkkk 49. is there something in the past you wish you hadn’t done? of course50. post a selfie: hmmm i might tomorrow

#answered #anonymous

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kaaras-adaar-a · 7 years

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Semi hiatus.

// Alright, I think I need to really start concentrating on my physical health at the moment. The last few weeks have been very stressful on me, and it’s getting to a point where the last 48 hours my stomach has been burning in pain which I know is because I’m stressed out and not looking after myself. This happens quite often when I’m under a lot of stress, and I’m one of those people who stresses over everything, even when there’s nothing to stress over. I don’t cope with it well, I know, but it’s unfortunately how I am and I don’t know HOW to cope with it, so it all wrangles into my stomach and causes knots and pretty much an ulcer which is likely to occur if I keep going this bad. I already have appointments with gastro doctors I’ve been to who have taken bloods to see if it’s an underlying disease.

I’m not going on a complete hiatus, and I absolutely will still be around, just not as much. Rping makes me happy, but being stressed out and choosing it over my personal health is not healthy and is making me physically ill. So... I’m going on somewhat of a semi hiatus.

What this means is: I might not be on discord as much. I’ve been interacting with people for the whole week and I feel like I’ve not had any time to myself just to relax around the house. I seriously, right now, cannot handle other people’s emotional stress on top of my own right now, I’m legit struggling to not have a mental breakdown at home because I am feeling so much right now. I’m at Molotov cocktail point right now where I can’t tolerate other people’s problems atm.

I will be writing, but I will be taking breaks and making sure to give myself proper food in between and take breaks to play games, as those ARE a way for me to de-stress as well as give me inspiration and drive to write. Lately, I’ve been looking at threads and feeling absolutely no drive to write them :( and that makes me sad, because I love rping and writing, and I LOVE my muses and yours! But stress has made it so I look at them and just feel the pressure and my drive has been disappearing from me and I’ve had no motivation because my head is a mess >:

So, it might take longer for me to get to your replies, especially certain replies that are just too much for me atm, etc. I’m not going to drop any of your threads, because I do enjoy the current list I have, but please note that I won’t be churning them out super quickly like I generally do, and I might pick some favourites. This means replies might take more than 4 days and up to a week, so if you have a limit, and if you prefer we dropped it if it’s not answered in your limit, just let me know. I won’t be upset. :)

Thanks everyone for having patience with me and hopefully understanding why I need this bit of a break. Like I said, I will still be around here and there, but I honestly need to just chill out and recluse myself for a little while so I can get my energy back up and look after my mental and physical health <3

#ooc #off the ram #(( I'll still be posting aesthetic stuff and probably headcanons and maybe some question memes here and there ))#(( and replying when inspiration actually strikes ))#(( but for now just know that I WILL be slow compared to my usual behaviour ))

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hauntedtrolls · 7 years

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EELETH

FUCK I RAMBLED, SCREW U EELETH FOR BEING SO DEVELOPED

Cries like, during every Disney movie, ever. No exceptions. Happy ending? He’s crying. Sad-montage 45 minutes in? Crying. Mom character dies? Crying. Opening to UP? You fukcign BET you look over and he’s a sappy teary eyed mess. Even towards the later half of his life, he holds a soft spot for happy endings.

Owns a framed picture of Leslie Knope in his hive somewhere. Has a crush on Leslie Knope. Not Amy Poehler, just Leslie Knope.

Gets “PEPE SILVIA” obsessive over some things. Complete with a wall of conspiracy and news paper clippings linked through red-thread across an entire room and eye bags that come from 12 cups of coffee. Isn’t always right.

Gets a lot of comments on his morbidly low body weight, (which is understandable, it’s capital C for Concerning) but he actually does eat like a frickin’ teenage boy. When people bring this up, how he manages to eat twice as much without anything sticking to him, he usually turned to them with a bubbly “I’m perpetually starving to death 8D”(although, that’s made things complicated for him atm) Nowadays, comments like that mostly irritate him, but he’s too tired to really protest so he usually lets them go without comment.

Is actually fairly decent at cooking. Partially to keep to his own dietary/health needs, but also started as a way to nurture and take care of his neighbors and friends. Sometimes he stress cooks for therapy. Sometimes that winds him up with 3 complete roasted turkeys and chicken dinners on every surface in his kitchen while he lies face-down on the floor.

Carries a knife on him at all times since the whole mess with Jeofre, mostly as a “just in case”, so he isn’t caught without a way to defend himself. Usually has it hidden on his person, but his fingers tend to trace over where it is as a bit of reassurance.

A lot of statements that sound absolutely hopeless to most people are things that he actually finds hope in. For example, that some people are just… broken forever. “Some people can not be fixed” is something he tells himself daily, not to lock out the possibility of healing or recovery for himself, but more as a way to remind himself that its okay to be broken, that maybe there are some parts of you that will never me completely fixed. For him, it’s much more important to find peace with your broken parts than it is to search desperately for a way to fix them, because that day may never come. You may as well try and live as you are now, than spend the rest of your life despairing over a lost version of yourself that may never have existed.

Has a whole swirling cocktail of emotional/mental health issues, nnnone of which he has names for. Because he has very little words to explain what he’s going through, he constantly feels like he’s losing his mind, or that his feelings and emotions are slipping through his fingers. He feels that he somehow lives in a different world than the people around him, since- as far as he can tell -no one is having the same kinds of problems as he’s having, so it must be his fault.

Has to remind himself pretty regularly that none of his quadrants are full anymore. They still feel like they’re there.

A lot of people will say that he hasn’t changed since ~The Switch~, that he’s been relatively the same angry person since he donned black and became a man of hate. That’s not entirely true. For the first half of his self-destructive spiral, after killing Jeofre, he was confident that he had figured out every question he had in life and could take on all of Amityville by storm. For the latter half, all that energy disappeared, and he became a tired hermit of a man that barely thought he could do anything right. The only thing that lingered was his pessimistic outlook on the world.

#eeleth kuvlew #....i like how this started as ''HAHA FUN FACTS NOW YOU KNOW!! ;)'' and very quickly turned into Angst #god dang #how in the fuck did this character wind up with This Much Shit. it still baffles me #i feel like i should go back and change some of the ones that are ''DEEP FEELINGS SPECIFIC'' but w/e man its done its out there #okay now for characters that arent made of pure feelings- [sees airrow in inbox] SHIT #iskrowrioutha

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