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oops-all-concrete · 3 months

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What would you think of how would each BG3 companions to Tav being secretly a god that has been tagging along with them all this time? Just curious

(SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO GET TO THIS, MY BRAIN HELD MY MOTIVATION RANSOM MIDWAY THROUGH ME WRITING THIS)

Ooohhhhh this sounds funnyyyy

Context: I'm imagining Tav is a god and has God status, a place in the pantheon and everything, but-! So continuity makes sense and the whole journey is still necessary, I'd assume them a curious God of some miscellaneous small thing so their powers wouldnt be THAT useful anyhow (God of clouds, God of fur, God of bread) but yeah!

BG3 companions react to Tav secretly being a...God???

(MILD SPOILERS FOR ACT 1/2)

Lae'zel -

She's suspicious at first, disbelieving of course. But as she watches Tav just summon (whatever they're the god of) from thin air, she frowns. "Chk. You may be of godly status, but if you're unwise enough to get kidnapped by a ghaik nautaloid, you are no mighty God." She finishes, nose upturned and almost- dissapointed??

Shadowheart -

Once shes been convinced, she frowns. "I don't think I've ever known of such a God...granted, Lady Shar only allowed for us to study her." She admits. She's quite hesitant, but she does ask. "Have you ever...met lady Shar/Seluné? Can you tell her I say hi? Is that appropriate?"

Wyll -

He's also hesitant to believe, but he's so curious once he believes you. "Wait, so, what's it like being a God? Does being a mortal feel weird? Are you immune to anything? What happens if you die? Does someone become the new God of what you're the God of? Are you even allowed to be here? What does the immortal plane smell like?" Just, a million and one questions and he wants ALL the stories.

Karlach -

"Woah! That's so cool, I wish I was a God...I'd be the God of potatoes. Is that already a thing?" Regardless if its true, she let's Tav have their fun. She also refers to every time she's saved by Tav as 'Divine Intervention' which isn't...wrong?

Gale -

"Ah, I got that impression, albeit with doubt." He says, sounding only a little smug. "Your disguise is well crafted, I'll give you that. Definitely something I aspire to learn from" he smiles fondly. Then there's a pause. "...I understand its not quite your field but you wouldn't be someone who could fix the whole...orb in me chest could you? Or would that also put you under Mystras ire?"

Astarion -

He seems immediately intrigued. "Really? I thought you were a little calm for all of this, but I never would have guessed- no offense. I'm sure you're very...powerful in your own way!" He says, somewhat forcing a smile. "So- does prayer work, or does the world have to be ending for everyone in order for you to pick up a summon?" He asks, curious, but seeming somewhat irritated too. He doesn't elaborate on why.

Halsin -

He seems doubtful at first but believes you quicker than you expected. "I hadn't imagined thr gods would send one of their own to come and save me from goblins or...help lift a shadow curse left by Shar of all people." He says, a faint smile on his face. "While I am in your debt, you should my life is already pledged to Silvannus. I hope what I'm already doing is enough"

Jaheira -

She looks Tav up and down, crosses her arms, and then- chuckles? "Sorry, I just- I feel like I finally have evidence I've been here too long. I haven't passed away to some dumb idea yet, so the Gods sent one of their own to get me." She laughs it off but then looks at Tab quite seriously. "...you're not here to get me are you?"

Minsc -

"I know!" He replies happily, not missing a beat. "Boo alerted me of your origins immediately. He's delighted to be joined by another of the pantheon, even if a lesser God" He smiles, mindlessly as ever.

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riftstone-of-the-calm · 5 days

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brother I'm not even looking at stats, this mindset kind of baffles me lol

at the very least I'm making sure they have decent (emphasis on decent - not necessarily THE BEST) armour/weapons and have useful skills equipped, then I'll hire them; this just tells me the player cares about the pawn being outfitted well (aka they care enough to actually equip them with good stuff - you wouldnt believe how many pawns I see wearing the most basic of armour at level 61)

but other than those things I'm not analysing damage output, because a brief look at gear should give you a ballpark of where the pawn is at - being a little "behind" is not noticeable in the fucking slightest. I've had no issue with major fights.

Also saw someone say "i'm not giving people a rating or gift if their pawn is fucking useless" and that really irritates me. What is the definition of "useless" in this context? They mostly run on programmed behaviour - people can't teach their pawn to exclusively do stupid things. If a pawn is making stupid decisions, blame capcom's AI programming - not the player that has shit all to do with how the pawn behaves in someone else's game.

#i am...annoyed lol #dragons dogma 2

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shirefantasies · 1 month

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hey hi hello!! i saw that these were open and i wanted to take part in them. new follower by the way (^_^) and happy 300 followers!!

im an introvert, usually very quiet and calm and rather hard to provoke at times. i'm easily irritated and lack patience with people who don't really think things through (though i grow warm over time as i grow tolerant in SOME cases). im very loyal and reliable as told by my friends and act similarly to a nagging aunt of sorts?? i'm rational and rather stubborn in the things i do but i relent depending on the severity of things. im also quite petty in certain cases.

i've been told it's easy to be around myself as a person, and people are really comfortable to be themselves in my presence. generally, i'm very blunt since i don't know how to phrase my words any better and some people (& even friends) at times, take the things that i say the wrong way without meaning to. i tend to get along with most people as long as they deal with the same mutual respect back.

i'm rather sarcastic and tend to tease a lot out of the fun of it. it's really easy to get me flustered, especially with flirts because the first thing i'd do is laugh and try to get out of there as soon as possible 😭 i think use both my words and actions equally since i (usually) follow up with what i say. i have tendencies to be a people watcher and observe people going about their day..

i wouldn't really consider myself the most passionate or enthusiastic person either but i really enjoy listening to those who have one. really makes me happy to see people enjoy the things they do. in a sense, i like when people have the things that i lack (energy, passion etc) i just love seeing it A TON. at times, i also have trouble in wording the things that i want to say so it ends up falling flat at times. so i wouldnt say im the most persuasive person either.

appearance wise, i'm about 5'4 and on the chubbier side of things. i have brown skin, really dark brown eyes and 4B black hair. i have small hands and lots of moles on my body but specifically i have 1 on each cheek. as for interests im really into anything that interests me since i get bored easily. most things that catch my attention are typology, videogames, music and gardening. im also learning to play the bass guitar as well. id prefer male interests from the hobbit, thank you!! hope that you have a good night/day!!

Thank you for joining the following! Hope it’s been a pleasant stay 💚 Hopefully I’ve found the right man dwarf for you when I say…

Fili!

One of your first conversations involves you rolling your eyes about having to show one of the older dwarves how to use something; Fili overhears and adds some sass and the rest is history. You’re quiet, he grants, but you provide the best commentary he’s heard beyond all the jokes with his little brother and it’s relaxing to sit by your side as you practice your instrument. Soon he begins making more normal conversation, asking things like what you want to do when this whole journey is over. You aren’t sure, you admit; you went on this quest because you were tired of simply watching life go by. “Then why not stay in the Lonely Mountain?” Fili asks. “Won’t be so lonely when we’re done with it, after all.” “What will your uncle think?” You arch a brow. “Don’t worry about him,” the golden-haired dwarf waves a hand, “I can handle him. Convince him denying outsiders is a bit elven of him, you know.” You can’t help giggling at that.

Soon you two are at each other’s sides more often, backing each other up in fights and moving in great sync. Your strikes build off his and vice versa, and he once convinces you to essentially let him toss you into the fray. You, him, and Kili are quite the menaces together! They always save you a seat between them at fireside, quips flying between you three. Kili holds you there so Fili can flirt with you, having learned you're quite a runner when you get flustered. Nice try, Fili thinks you're too cute like that!

Sometimes you get frustrated with each other, and interestingly enough it is over a shared trait- both of you are very self-sacrificing. Loyalty dominates, leading both of you to block thoughts of self out to save others and put yourselves in compromising situations and danger. The other confronts and sometimes things snap or blow up, but these are the moments when you realize how much you care about each other. Fili takes you in his arms and tells you he loves how stubborn and caring you are, but it would kill him if anything were to happen to you. It is during one of these arguments that you admit your feelings for each other, biting them out in the heat of the moment and effectively halting the argument in favor of battle by your lips instead.

He loves to cut off flustered words with a kiss to each cheek or a quick peck on your lips. Your small hands fit perfectly in his; he loves holding one between his or both to keep them warm! One of his favorite forms of affection with you, that as well as walking arm-in-arm. Fili absolutely adores your hair, too. Gorgeous curls he would be happy to learn how you care for and of course braid if you let him! At least once, so he can show the world you're his king/queen and no one else. "That's right," he adds the proud remark every time he says those words.

Your enjoyment of gardening intrigues the dwarf, who grew up with the pride of mining, jewelry-making, and chemistry in his people. Loving growing things is quite charming, bringing the prince to investigate what plants can stay underground as you move with him into your lovely mountain nook. He helps you dig up the freshest soil and buys you the most beautiful stoneware pots for your plants. Also insists on naming them, so have fun with that! It's just one of his habits, like the little jigs he does when you get playing your music. He's stubborn and silly and selfless and that is why you love him.

#the hobbit #the hobbit imagines #the hobbit x reader #the hobbit matchups #fili #fili x reader #ask #anon #requested #💕 300 follower matchup event 💕#matchup monday

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okthatsgreat · 4 months

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Ocs in AHL anon here, I'm now wondering how well your OCs would deal with the Convention from lgowab.

YOURE SO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok ok ok so. long story short: not fucking well

SPOILER TAG FOR LGOWAB LOL

just to get her out of the way, i honestly think billie would be fine. shes fifteen years old but not a season 53 member so i guess she'd be a spinoff character?? not involved in the main plot, kinda like a warrior of hope maybe. shes unassuming and nobody would be actively targeting her, she would NEVER be chosen as an enforcement team member, so as long as she keeps to herself she'd be fine. honestly it would just come down to luck, worst case scenario she gets gunned down after a failed task (this honestly seems most likely lmfao).

i think season 50 would be eighteen/nineteen at this point (since their season aired mayyyybe threeish years ago), so unfortunately most of the convention considers them to be past the age of "kids". which means theres not gonna be a lot of people watching out for them. Sad! sae is one of the "older" participants at 34 so she'd really be on her own here

from most to least likely to survive/what probably happened to them here we go (THIS IS NOT INCLUDING THE RANDOM FACTOR OF THEM BEING GUNNED DOWN BY THE FAILED TASK!!! ALSO TW FOR SUICIDE):

yoshito is fine i think. he's a protagonist that is liked enough and pretty damn harmless in most peoples eyes, so he'd have some kind of influence and isnt likely to be targeted. he wouldnt be asked into the enforcement team but he'd likely lean more towards the future foundation's side. he'd absolutely be in mental agony over his "i can save everybody" mentality but he'd make it out alive!

mika is smart enough to stick by yoshito and has been with danganronpa enough to learn how to survive it, she's scrappy and headstrong and i reckon she'd be fine. again she would lean more towards the future foundation side of things, would have major feelings of inadequacy and would have multiple breakdowns throughout the entirety of the convention but would probably make it out with a few scratches

sae would be asked onto the enforcement team just because of her physical strength and she would not have a good time about it, might have a target on her back during the latter half of the game but would be fine for most of it. would spiral quite a bit and definitely emerges with like a million mental illnesses resurfacing

rie is smart about appearances and extremely paranoid about her safety after her killing game so she would do quite a lot to survive. not sure if this includes killing anybody but she would deffffinitely change quite a bit. joining the enforcement team will be veryyyy difficult just because she isn't close enough to mondo/sayaka to get in while the team is being formed and she can't sell her smarts like miu did, but i think she'd try? that, or i can see her forming a more lowkey kind of alliance just so she has more people around her to protect her. super paranoid about not dying again, definitely has an ugly breakdown at some point, probably attracts a bit more attention than she would like to

ryobe would struggle BAD. BADLY. he has serious trauma from getting killed by a gun and what is the primary weapon of this convention? GUNS. he would be a completely different person, genuinely so frightened and traumatised, totally unlike his normally goofy and lighthearted self. would get irritated easily and become emotional at the drop of a hat. i have no doubt in my mind he would run around like mad and get himself caught in even further chaos. also he's the antag of his season so he has somewhat of a target already. would definitely need to be wrangled in to survive

erin would be in TROUBLEE since she has already been established as an AHL member. major target, massive presence, would really struggle to keep up her persona and actually could become quite violent if provoked and frightened enough. i think it's unlikely she survives this one to be real with you

straight up i think naomi just takes herself out i dont think there is a universe where she doesnt have a serious psychotic break and kill herself to be real with you. she can not handle another killing game and especiallyyy after her killing game and all of the trauma she is struggling to endure she would absolutely be the person who walks off the roof at the beginning of the story

and andi, of course, is a hologram

THANK YOUUU FOR THIS QUESTION!

#ask lee #lgowab #anonymous #dr: 50th

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the-heaminator · 2 years

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Oh can you write ukfrain? I thought like a love triangle (real one) and they're all too dumb to notice they're in love with each other. I do like Frain being very close and lot of PDA dispite them not saying and England feeling jealous because he/she isn't between them.

Oh wait. It can be nyo if you want 👀

OH, OH ok apparentl;y this turned into the horniest thing ive ever written. maybe im just feeling gayer than usual. A lot of this went into describing what i like about women im so sorry

Y E S. These shits being oblivious and England being jealous and all being very gay

Names bc Nyos: Isabella (Spain) Francene (France) Elizabeth (England)

Dammit why was Isabella so pretty!

This was the simultaneous thought of more than one very gay women in the conference room as Spain flounced up to give her speech.

Spain in a suit could turn most women gay, let's be real here, but if they were already gay, that could be a small problem.

As she droned on about agriculture most people had tuned out and were busy doing various things, like being on their phones, irritating someone or staring at Isabella's hips, luckily for Isa, only 2 people were staring at her hips. But unluckily for her, it was Francene and Elizabeth, one was her best friend (and fuck buddy) and the other was her past rival (now occasional fuck buddy.)

Now you could argue that Francene and Isabella's relationship had long surpassed being just fuck buddies, looking after each other and cuddling in the rain, being there when the other was down, kissing eachther goodnight, while sleeping in the same bed.

Normal homie behaviour at its finest.

After that it was Francene, she gave an actually well delivered and structured speech about strikes and why they happen and how to prevent them to avoid major closures. Most people were listening and to some extent Isa and Elizabeth were too, but they were also getting occationally sidetracked by Francenes clothing choices. A very close fitting waistcoat that left little to imagination and even though the skirt reached the knee, it showed her stocking clad calves and if she stretched, parts of her thigh and it was really sending Elizabeth around the bend.

She knew that Francene was mostly occupied by Isabella, but she really wanted to be held dammit. Preferably by either or both of those 2.

When it was finally Elizabeth's turn to speak, she pointedly avoided looking at either of the two. After all she was not wearing anything exactly provocative and her bodily dimensions left a lot to be desired, so she wouldnt have to worry.

At least that's what she thought.

Her bin provocative clothing and her overall dimensions did nothing to stop the two romance nations imagining things that would have gotten them flogged in centuries past.

I mean Elizabeth has done it before, so why not again.

Elizabeth's presentation on urban and rural development was the end to the incredibly long meeting.

Most nations had agreed to go to the pub before going to their hotels and probably sleeping, though some noises occasionally said otherwise.

Elizabeth walked to the canteen, avoiding Isabella and Francene like the plague, even if that meant being around Julchen and Amelia, two women who had no idea what being quiet was.

Except today, they were mostly silent, only muttering to each other under their breaths.

After an infuriating 5 minutes she asked "What is wrong with you two, neither of you have said awesome or dude yet and you're being awfully quiet."

Julchen, being an absolute beast at covering up her tracks and 100% wanted to torture Elizabeth said "We were talking about how I'm pretty sure that Isa and Francene have a thing going on."

"Oh you think I dont know that? I hear ✨sounds✨" she said, quite disgruntled as you would imagine.

She looked over at the two who were being so sappy that she couldn't look away defo not imagining herself in some questionable positions .

Elizabeth stopped her beer while Julchen did as well, Amelia was being a pussy in the corner and drinking coke.

But a couple of beers later, everyone is understandably a bit tipsy and whilst Amelia was stuck with dragging a mooning Elizabeth and a very depressed Julchen out of the bar.

Amelia looked on in dismay as Elizabeth sort of walked (she wasn't stumbling but like still a bit wobbly) over to the very passionately making out duo in the back.

And her tongue being plied with a generous amount of liquid courage says "Can I join you?"

The two considered it and debated for all of a minute and said "Sure, but this commitment lasts the night, kay?"

Oh and indeed it did

#hws nyo england #hws nyo spain #hws nyo france #hws nyo prussia #hws nyo america #look i was feeling gay im sorry this is what you got #i 90% will write another chapter bc otherwose this woukd get too long or it would be unfinished #and if anyine wants ti write the sex scenes be my ghest #guest #i have no clue on how to write it #ukfrain #fruk #frain #spuk

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dorylinae-supremacy · 2 months

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Ìf you could pick one story of yours who's characters you could meet and talk to who would you pick (like phill In a fluffy fic would be a sweet neighbour but a dark phill would be like you sure you need your kidneys mate)

Personally I'm fine with any as long as dark sbi arnt asking me how much I drink and if my kidney is weak lol

I have almost 20 fics so bear with me lmao. We're gonna take a real long walk on this one. Also I'm only counting ones I've posted because otherwise that feels like cheating.

Long rambles below cut!

I think I'd have the best chance of survival with one of my STH inspired fics but that feels like cheating too. STH Techno can do no wrong and I'll always stand by that.

Honestly this with most my fics would probably be hell lmao. While the DSBI I write aren't usually outright aggressive they're more than a little loopy and would just find a reason to off me probably.

AFN and any Four Seasons fic are immediately off the list. Afn Techno might currently be a sweet little angel but I wouldnt wanna meet him after he's finished his change. AFN Phil goes without saying.

Even if I was meeting Techno at the current point in the story I don't think I'd survive since Phil really wouldn't take well to a random stranger talking to his kid. There's also Kristin but she is absolutely horrifying to meet so thats another no from me.

Four seasons would imply the existence of fae and I think I'd disintegrate in an environment like that. Also four seasons Phil is terrible and just sadistic. Believe it or not but he's playing nice with neo trio in those fics. I wouldn't want the chance to ever meet him.

Seeing as I'm working on a fic where ILMG Techno kills a neighbour for being irritating I don't think I'd ever wanna meet him. ILMG Phil and Wil could be fine but they're not fleshed out enough for me to really know.

I think I'd have an alright time in BFOB though. Its just the DSMP modified so I could have a passive chat with Tommy or Phil and that could be alright. Same goes of IDFR, thats a more accurate version of the DSMP and I don't think that'd be too terrible.

ODDO Phil could be nice to meet as well. He was just a sweet, lonely guy that lived by the seaside. He probably had a pretty fun life before that since I like to think he travelled. If this is post-horsing though then I'd have to pass.

ELTY, SGFA and EST are all royalty AU's so I'd have to pass on them as well. While Wil is skrunkly in them, his family is very much not and they totally abuse their power in their respective universes.

That all leaves me with DELG, Henchman and Harbingers to sift through.

Don't Ever Let Go could be fine. Its a superhero AU and talking to Kristin or Phil wouldn't result in immediate death. I brush over it in MBMB but Phil is passively friendly to everyone and people like him pretty decently.

Kristin does go off on a lot of 'work trips' but after acquiring twinsduo that cuts down. She's a villainness but whether its justified or not, I haven't decided yet. Its not as much fun when the narrative is 'the heros are the real bad guys'.

Its more interesting for me when the villains are villains and do bad, unjustifiable things. Makes more complex characters too, at least in my opinion. Either way I think she could be fun to meet but given the fact that they put up the facade of 'very normal boring family' I don't think it'd go anywhere too fun.

Henchman is probably off the table tbh. Techno would instantly try and shank me for money, Wilbur is a rich little asshole and I'd just wanna fight him. Phil could be ok but since his power is 'death upon touch' I'd be playing with fire.

Sure, he's more of a crime boss than steryotypical villain, but I think meeting him would just make him think I'm a cop or something. I don't think he'd believe the 'I'm actually your creator' story.

Harbingers could be fine as well. Phil is just an insane man and neo trio are more of a passive thing than an active threat. I haven't fully fleshed out their personalities yet (besides Phil and Kristin) but I don't think they'd instantly try and murder me.

They're kinda like a physical manifestation of poison, staying around them will just slowly kill you. I haven't worked out exactly how it works but meeting them would have me walking away with various health problems probbaly.

Phil could be fun though. But he is completely delusional and will become violent if you try break what he sees as his reality. That man belongs in a ward but instead he's been adopted back by his eldritch family.

I think in the end I'd go with ODDO Phil since he's a pretty chill dude. Even in the sequel I'm working on, he's much calmer than neo trio when it comes to murder. If it's pre transformation then he'd just share little stories with me and bake me some lamb based dish.

Post transformation would be less friendly but not outright hostile, he'd be more confused about how I knew so much about him than anything. He'd probably just brush it off as some kind of magic stuff though since he's cool like that.

#dory answers #lady-rafael

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morphogenetic · 10 months

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Mediaposting 2023, #35: Banana Fish (anime)

[said while vibrating very quickly and typing out like 20 different bullet points] i like this series a normal amount

okay so. non-spoiler thoughts:

step 1 YOU SHOULD READ/WATCH THIS. it does have content warnings for literally everything you can possibly think of as needing a common content warning (drug abuse, sexual assault, racism, and thats absolutely just the tip of the iceberg) but my fucking god. no wonder it's been such an influential piece of media on literally every jp anime/manga crime story (especially the BL ones) written since

for a series that is literally one of the early genesis points of BL as a genre i was ABSOLUTELY expecting more actual BL than was in this LOL. not that i'm really upset, bc honestly i really like the way that ash and eiji's relationship is written in a shoujo-y "they obviously care about each other a lot but it's not going to be outright romance" kind of way. bc like, honestly? that makes it way more emotionally satisfying (and devastating). i think it would actually make less sense if anything more happened In the story (though more happening in the epilogue wouldnt hurt LOL)

how the FUCK was this published in a shoujo magazine

the time period change to modern day from the mid-80's has both helped and hindered this series bc like. on one hand. much easier to do everything with a phone. also the update to shorter's character design was excellent,10/10 no notes. on the other hand. the Everything About It makes it so obvious that it was written to be a product of its time.

speaking of ^ ash turning from A Guy Who Knows How To Use A Computer into a hacking genius is so. why. i mean you can update it for sure but Why Like This

god i wish this had more room to breathe sometimes bc the exposition goes WILDLY fast sometimes. why did they try and do 19 volumes in 24 episodes. the 39 episodes that the director wanted would have been so nice to have

that said: the emotional moments that i actually give a shit about and that make up the core of the weight of the story are given what they deserve. at least up to volume 5 they are. gestures at ep 9? and 22 with a pained smile

i literally could write an essay about why it works so well as a spin on the american-style gangster story even while it definitely has flaws. and how its influenced so many fucking things. my god.

it has flaws for SURE but the rest is so good that i don't care. which is rare for me (gestures at nirvanai/neo twewy being other examples)

spoiler thoughts under the cut (like full-very-ending-of-series spoilers) but YEAH UH I LIKE THIS THING CAN YOU TELL BY HOW MUCH I WROTE ABOUT IT.

it does kind of annoy me that literally all of the canon-MLM (probably gay but you know) guys are horrible people lol. like wow love how the gay predator stereotype is on full display here. feeeeels baaaaad. i know i know asheiji homoeroticism i am ON THAT TRAIN

however yut-lung being feminine out of a wish to carry on his dead mom's legacy is kind of a slay. ive seen people go "ugh it sucks that one of the villains is a feminine man' but while he is definitely not a good person hes one of the less terrible villains, just like. as a person. hes also a teenager in shitty circumstances just with way more power and sway

here's the part where I admit that I was spoiled on the ending so it didn't hit as hard for me OOPS. however. the anime DOES leave it open-ended and it fucking irritates me that anime-only people are like "boo i hate the ending bc ash dies!!!" when it is LITERALLY AMBIGUOUS. i have heard that the manga is less ambiguous about it but :') oh well. anime-onlys what are you doing

speaking of ^ i actually like the ending. like i think a lot of people who absolutely hate it must not have a lot of familiarity with gangster movies as a genre bc it is a genre convention that the Main Gangster dies in the end. granted this was a hayes code thing which the manga definitely did not have to do LOL but its definitely supposed to feel unfair bc ash's damn LIFE is unfair.

however i'm glad the anime makes the ending ambiguous bc that feels like a more fitting end. like ash's life was always in limbo, considering what he was doing, so making his life in limbo at the end too? Good. Yes. Do That

the fucking. everything with shorter and the sa-yo-na-ra bit. i die. that shit is so emotionally painful

i know this sounds weird but i kind of wish they dragged out the "what the hell does banana fish mean" thing a LIIIITTLE longer but by that i mean like, halfway point of the series. like they could have used a little more time to figure out what it is. also that would have let shorter live a little longer ay lmao that said this criticism also almost definitely applies to the manga soooo. you know

#and yes i'm gonna finish the manga at some point. i just bought all of it like a lunatic after reading the first few volumes so. lol #junpei.txt #mediaposting #finished this last night but just doing a thorough write-up on it now

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isekyaaa · 6 months

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It's been literal years since I last had an anxiety attack like this like I lowkey was under the assumption that as long as I was taking my meds, my anxiety wouldnt appear anymore. Usually anxiety only appears when depression gets bad, but this is just popping up on its own. LOL

It's understandable, but sometimes I forget the degree to which I am affected by the reactions of the people I care about. I accidentally irritated my supervisor today and I'm not sure exactly what I did that caused it, though I can think of a few things. It feels like once she starts seeing people in a bad light, she'll always see them in that light. Not to mention her habit of just venting about people all the time behind their back.

I told her that I wasn't going to come in tomorrow after my doctor's appointment because my huge project being due, but I'm probably going to go in anyway. One, because there's an event tomorrow that I'll need to help set up for, and two, to apologize. On one hand, it's because I can see the way I acted today and how it could've came off badly without my intending to do so. But I can't deny it's also to make it clear to her that I am well aware of the fact she was upset with me and that I can read her reactions.

My supervisor has this habit of getting really irritated and bothered with people. She, for lack of better words, is a serial bitcher and that's what she prefers to talk about majority of the time. But to the person's face, she acts like she's their friend. So I need to nip things in the bud. I'll apologize so resentment won't build up within her (because there's a chance it'll happen if I don't) and to make it clear that I won't fall for her act.

The thing with apologizing to people like that is that like... Those types of people tend to take everything personally. It doesn't come naturally to them to comprehend that people exist as independent entities. They consider themselves as the main characters of their world. They are the center of the universe. People can't do things. All actions are done as something for or against them. What a genuine apology does is get them out of that mindset.

When you apologize to people like this, you are basically making them realize that you are not the villain in their story. You lay everything out of the table so they absolutely cannot make you the bad guy anymore. When you did those things, you weren't doing it against them. You had no intention to hurt or irritate them. You were a victim of circumstances they simply were not aware of. But the key to being successful with this is being truly genuine with your apology.

To which someone could say, "Are you really sorry when you're approaching this like 4D chess, Ekolu?" To which, regardless of the other motives I have, yes, I am sorry. I didn't mean to irritate her. I didn't mean for my actions today to come off as rude or demeaning. I was in the wrong. I have no doubt about that. I don't ever mean to treat people that way. However, that doesn't mean I won't capitalize on my feelings to accomplish some other goals as well.

If there's one thing I hate more than anything, it's feeling off balance emotionally. I can't sit with the horrible feeling knowing that something is wrong without doing anything about it. Leaving things alone will make them become worse. Letting things come worse will make me feel worse and will take much longer and require more effort to resolve. So might as well skip all the hassle and fix things as soon as they come, right?

#rambles #tmi #the more mentally ill i get the more analytical i become LOL #istg i am not like this normally

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serodev · 2 years

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hello!! i'm here for the Demon Slayer matchup :)

• my name's gyro. i don't know if this is important or useful, but i'm an entp and an aqua sun, scorpio moon and aries rising!!

• im a lesbian, but honestly, i don't mind being paired up with a male character for this since it's all just fictional characters and for funsies- so yeah, i really don't care

• to be honest,, i don't really have any hobbies as my life is a little too busy and stressful right now. but i do enjoy sleeping all day long and i love, l o v e eating !! another thing i really love is listening to music, highest volume, if possible. i feel like i'm not listening to music properly if it's not hurting my ears. also love researching about the occult, especially about demons

• i wouldnt really say that i dislike something a lot, it's just that i have some major anger issues and sometimes tend to get irritated by the smallest things. i usually get over it pretty quickly though

• as for my personality.. i'm a rather loud person. i tend to lose myself and get really excited when i ramble about my interests (which happens a lot) and i get sudden bursts of energy. but at the same time, i also get extremely exhausted pretty quickly, to the point where i isolate myself and push everyone away for a while when things become too much. you could say that i just need that time for myself to recharge my batteries. i think it also ties together with my anger issues, but i'm very straight forward and won't hesitate to say my opinion about certain things / topics, even if others might not like it or agree with me (pls inosuke is one of my highest kins and i've been told i act like sanemi a few times too). i'm also a very clingy person whose main love language is, who would've guessed, physical touch

• as for who i'd like to get matched up with.. if it's possible, both a demon and human, but if your inbox is exploding and it's too much right now, preferably a demon? but at the same time i don't really mind, so if there's a human that you think would fit more, that works too :)

anyway, that should be it!! i hope this isn't too long. thank you soo much for doing these, i hope you have / had an amazing day <3

Note(s): I totally get you with your lack of time when it comes to hobbies because life can be hell from time to time. I also get your love of sleeping and eating shfh... those are the two best things that life has to offer. I hope you enjoy your matchups!

I match you up with…

Aoi Kanzaki!

» Your loud personality is something that Aoi would love about you because, for her, it means that you can take care of yourself while she's busy with other things. It might not look like it, but she's a really caring person who wants you to be okay while she might be elsewhere!

» It took a while for her to learn how loud you actually like to listen to music because while she's used to loud noises due to certain people (cough, Inosuke, cough), music was a different thing for her. She learned to like it, though!

» Aoi can be kind of sassy when it comes to her personality, so you two might bicker here and there, but it's usually really small, and you two can forgive each other with a quick peck on the lips.

And Daki!

» It took really long for Daki to learn to your outspoken demeanor because she's used to having people basically submit under her, but she likes the "challenge" that you brought to her life!

» She also likes how loud you tend to listen to the music because she's just like you when it comes to that, and she also loves to sleep in once in a while, especially with you in her arms~

» Daki can, however, get annoyed with your ramblings from time to time, but it's hopefully easy to understand why. Plus, she always makes sure to apologize to you if she ever happens to snap at you.

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angelsswirl · 3 years

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Vellichor

The One With Shit and The Fan

A.N. Yall are about to be very mad at me, but it must be read.

~•~

Oh and I know

And you know that we've been here before

I think I know how it should end

We got an audience calling us crazy

You feel like a white suburban mom.

The ones that hoot and howl over every little thing in preparation for company.

You feel like that, because that's exactly what you're doing right now.

Hooting and howling over every little thing in preparation for company.

"If you move a pillow to sit on the couch, what do you do with the pillow when you're done sitting on the couch? YOU PUT THE PILLOW BACK! HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU GUYS?!"

You had finally managed to convince Jisoo to agree to a civilized dinner with Taylor's parents. It involved a lot of placating and a lot of sex.

So naturally, you had to make sure the house was spic and span, because you wouldn't be caught dead in a filthy home.

Luckily, your children had pulled their own weight and helped, you were now just doing the finishing touches, like putting throw pillows in their proper place and screwing the cap on the milk jug tighter.

You also made sure to keep an eye on Jisoo just in case she decided to booby trap the place. At this point you wouldnt put it pass her.

Ryland came bouncing into the kitchen excitedly, "What did you make for dinner tonight, mommy? You got my text about the Bae-Park's dietary restrictions right?"

Despite being the second oldest, Ryland still called you 'mommy' occasionally. Especially, when she was excited or wanted something.

"Yes. Suzy and Jackson are allergic to peanuts and Taylor won't eat anything with a face. We'll see how long that lasts because you're a carnivore like your mom. And I passed it along to Lia because she cooked." You fussed around the kitchen. Dusting and swatting at imaginary dust.

"But what if mama convinced Lia to poison Chaeyoung?!"

You rolled your eyes. Did your daughter really think her mother would do something like that? Or better question. Did she really think you would let her mother do something like that?

"Jisoo has been here all day and I have her phone. I talked with Lia about everyone's needs and she made something suitable for everyone. Everything is going to be okay. Calm down, baby."

Ryland pouted, "How do you know if Chaeyoung has any restrictions? I didn't text you about her."

"We dated, remember?"

"No. I wasn't there."

"...Everything is going to be okay. Now, get out of my kitchen and set the dining room table. You might have to bring some more chairs in from the garage."

Ryland nodded.

~•~

Jisoo stared at her wife with a partially unreadable expression on her face.

She had been tricked into this. Bribed, if you will. Maybe even conned.

Sure, she was more or less fine with Taylor dating her daughter, but she wasn't really fine with spending more than an hour in a room with one of the only other people on the planet who knows what her wife looks like naked.

Great.

Her wife looks great naked. And Park Chaeyoung knew that.

She was doing her best to hide her blatant jealousy and anger but Jisoo wasn't an oscar winning actress for a reason.

"Are you getting all primped up for me or for her?" It sort of just slipped out. You had been putting on makeup for the past hour and Jisoo couldn't help but wonder.

You had never rolled your eyes harder in your life, "I'm not about to start this with you."

"You're avoiding the question."

"Because you should know the answer by now."

"For me?"

You put the finishing touches on your dark tinted red lip. Smacking them dramatically, then placing the tube of lipstick back onto the vanity.

You turned toward Jisoo with a smirk, "Oh no. For me."

Jisoo could only watch you walk out the door and into the main living area of the house.

Jisoo would try to keep the snarkiness to a minimum. If only because she's sure if she doesn't she'll never get to see your great nakedness again.

~•~

Dinner, to everyone's surprise, isn't that awkward. Probably due to the fact that Taylor easily dominated the conversation, you're a bit preoccupied with fussing over Kaleb, and Jisoo has had a full glass of red wine.

"Tay tay! How did your parents react to you telling them Ryland was your mate? Did they throw a tantrum like mama did?" Peyton asked, her mischievous smile poorly hidden behind her glass of lemonade.

Sometimes, you think Peyton forgets she still lives with you unlike her older siblings and can most definitely still be grounded. You had to resort to your signature glare, but it did the trick as Peyton slumped into her chair, thoroughly frightened.

Taylor looked confused at the question. Peyton knew the answer. They're literally best friends. She was the first one she told.

"No. Mom just mumbled that it probably made sense and then I went to go play soccer."

Ryland smiled lovingly across the table at Taylor. Lia made a gagging sound.

You thanked whatever being was listening that Peyton's chaos energy hadn't prevailed. If you thought, Ryland was your demon child while you were pregnant with her, you surely hadn't seen anything yet.

"Okay, why don't all of you kids, go do whatever it is you do in the livingroom. Mom doesn't need you to see her scarf down an entire bottle of merlot in one gulp." You mumbled that last part under your breath.

Everyone but Lia left the table, happy to be excused.

You stared at her blankly.

"I'm 22."

You're not exactly sure why but your patience is wearing thin quickly.

"Did I ask how old you were?"

"No, ma'am. Excuse me." She bowed her head dramatically before grabbing Kaleb and scurrying from the table.

"Kids. So....interesting." Chaeyoung said in an attempt to break the silence.

"Yeah. I keep telling myself that my reward for not killing them are future grandchildren. Well, actually. I'm already terrified of whatever Peyton procreates."

Both Chaeyoung and Suzy laugh at your joke.

"So, how'd you two meet?" Jisoo asked inbetween sips of her wine. She wasn't even looking in Chaeyoung and Suzy's direction, if only because it was sort of hard to peer around you in their positions.

You tried to listen for answers, you really did, but your reasoning for the irritability comes to light. You're sweating and almost slumped over into Jisoo, but you somehow managed to keep yourself upright.

Jisoo and Chaeyoung's eyes snapped to you at the same time. And the last time you felt this much dread, was when you found out that Jisoo and Chaeyoung found out about each other.

It's almost like you see Chaeyoung's mouth move in slow motion. You will her not to say anything, just let you silently excuse yourself from the table and take your suppressants, but no. Things were never easy when it came to Chaeyoung and Jisoo.

Chaeyoung offhandedly mumbled "That's familiar." She doesn't really mean anything by it. You knew that, hell even Suzy knew that.

But you can see the glass in Jisoo's hand start to shake.

"What did you just say?"

"Huh? Oh nothing. I didn't mean anything by it, Jisoo. I swear."

"Chu...let it go." You do your best to calm her down with a light touch to her thigh.

"It's no big deal. It was stupid I shouldn't have said it."

"You fucking my wife isn't a big deal?"

"Jisoo! What the hell?" You stared at your alpha who seemed to be looking right through you to Chaeyoung. The pent up anger in her eyes was quite astonishing.

"What's your problem, Jisoo? It's been years and the only one who still fucking cares is you." Chaeyoung said with a shake of her head.

"My problem is you."

Chaeyoung rolled her eyes, "I'm married with two beautiful kids. I don't want y/n and she doesn't want me. Grow up."

Chaeyoung gathered her belongings and gestured for her wife to follow her. Suzy did so reluctantly, she shot a glance of sympathy toward you but otherwise didn't say anything.

The family left, two confused children in tow.

You swallowed harshly, it was surprisingly easy to fight off your heat instincts considering you wanted very little to do with the person that's supposed to help you through that.

"Well. Congratulations."

Jisoo's brows furrowed, not in the least bit surprised when you dont elaborate.

You got up from the table without a word. You headed to the livingroom and poked your head in, "Peyton, do you mind cleaning up the table. You don't have to do the dishes, just put them in the sink. Thank you." Abigail and Ryland stared after you.

Peyton set about doing the task without any fan fare.

You then hurried into your bedroom. Wiping at your eyes and your makeup.

You knew Jisoo had followed you. Probably wanting an explanation about what you said.

"Why can't you just let it go? It's been twenty years. You said you were over it, but every time you're even slightly reminded you blow up. You know how sorry I am but it feels like I'm still being punished."

"You slept with her. You're mine and you slept with her." Jisoo looked at you like she didn't understand how you didn't get that.

"I'm yours now. I wasn't back then. Even if you imprinted on me I wasn't your mate. I wasn't even your girlfriend. I didn't cheat on you. Why does everything I did have to be some slight against you?"

Jisoo huffed, "You knew I loved you. You led me on you made me think that it was only me. That you were only going to choose me."

"What did I ever say to make you think that? Was marrying you not enough? Is being your mate not enough? Those three beautiful babies not enough?"

"We have four kids."

"Oh, hop off it. You know that's not what I meant."

Jisoo doesn't say anything further. She only stares at some point passed your head.

"Am I not enough for you, Jisoo? Because I don't know what else I can give you. I gave you my life, my love, my womb. But it's still not enough for you. What else do you want from me?!" You tried not to raise your voice too much, but it was sort of a hard feat to accomplish around your tears.

"To go back in time and not sleep with her. To say she never meant anything to you."

"Oh. You want the impossible." You nodded slowly, not agreeing in the slightest. But you got it now.

"Say it."

"You know I can't."

"Say it, y/n."

"We told each other that we would never lie to each other, and I'll be damned if I start now."

"...Then tell me to leave."

"Jisoo."

"I need to go, but I can't do it unless you tell me to."

You choked on a sob, "Fine. Go. Just know, if you walk out of that front door everything that I have said tonight, will be proven right."

That got Jisoo to hesitate. To rethink breifly. But the alpha is telling her to go before she does something she really regrets. So, she leaves. And the pain that encompasses her heart is nothing like she had ever felt in her life.

You heard the door slam shut and with it, Peyton walked into the room. You pretend that you dont see the tears in each other's eyes, "Mommy?" Her omega is calling out to yours, probably more than she realized.

She's technically a pup and she needs comfort, so even though you felt like curling up into a ball and dying you give it to her.

She practically falls into your lap and she sniffled. Your and Jisoo's bond isn't broken by any means, but even the children can tell there's something not quite right.

"I didn't mean for you to hear that, baby girl."

"Are you two going to be okay? I've never seen mama that mad before."

And that question coming from her daughter seemed to hurt the most, "I hope so, Pey. I hope so."

#jesssica's fanfic #blackpink fanfic #blackpink #jisoo fanfic #jisoo x reader #vellichor

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arkhamkjay · 5 years

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What do you think about the titans TV show? Tell me everything: what do you like and what do you dislike

anon I literally went and watched the entire show in two days to answer this for you. the reply won't be short.

I'm starting with my dislikes.

the excessive, fatal, violence. writers in live action esp LOVE forgetting that Batman’s strict no-killing rule often comes with a certain approach to violence - the way he does it and the way he trains others to take others down is almost medical. he doesn't support needless violence. dick internalized a LOT of Batman's training, whether he likes it or not. dick has high morals, and he has followed the same rules as B unless something really, really pissed him off.

I can get dick’s character arc here - he felt the violence was controlling him, he wanted to get away, he wanted to find who he really was. I do. but I also feel like that was really badly done. he was constantly conflicted and it turned out as a bad look. i feel like my explanation is off but there were bits where i really hated dick’s characterization here.

i didnt like the tony zucco bit

also i hated most of the flashbacks when dick was a teen. for whatever reason they had, the show avoided casting and showing us a bruce wayne. that turned out real bad because they tried to cover it up with dick running away, and instead of having bruce take care of it, we get a bunch of people telling dick he should stay and let bruce raise him, just because he’s super mega rich. its true bruce isnt an expert on parenting at this point, but this made it so he didnt have a chance to prove himself, you know? made him look like a prick. actually, the entire series give us the sense that batman is a huge jerk, and i , for one, am not a fan of that!

rachel. from the moment they found her bio mom it was so fucking stupid. do they think their viewers are a bunch of dumbasses? oh, sure, this woman is her mom. lets never try to investigate her even once, and just let her off. what about asking about rachel’s dad? wouldnt that be smart? because the gang has been through what seemed like days, maybe even weeks, of being chased after people who wanted rachel because of her father, or whatever. for a comic fan its pretty fucking obvious who is he, but even then its just more the reason to try and talk about him earlier. normal dads dont have fucking hell power in them, or whatever trigon has.

im a jason stan so like im supposed to be all giddy about having him in live action and i am, but he also really sucked sometimes. just making him look impulsive and rush and full of anger, but also like a kid who thought it was all a game.

i. i dont really like hank hall. i disliked him almost right away because he’s a violent, jealous, possessive man with drinking problems and i dont like that. but then they showed us he was a csa victim and that. i dont know, personally, it irritates me when writers add a trauma like that to characters i hate. like its ment to make me feel empathetic for them (which it does) even though they grew up to be shit people

THE ENTIRETY OF THE LAST EPISODE. who the fuck ends a season with a cliffhanger

things i like?

i looooooove kory. i love her so much, she was gorgeous and powerful and stunning.

gar is cute as heck

the doom patrol gang was so great, larry esp! hes my fave and when the doom patrol series comes out im watching it just for him!

the doc is a dick tho

it was fun to watch, most of the time. ignoring the gloom, dark lighting and the violence, it was pretty nice

and it is great to see comic book characters you love so much come alive on screen!

#amy answers #titans tv #dc #dctv #titans #dick grayson #batman #Anonymous

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mjalti · 6 years

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Ok so I know u are in the same boat as me (no real relationship experience so far, 20+ [correct me if I'm wrong]), but u still have a solid, moreso developed understanding of love/what it requires etc, & I feel like I can relate there as well (of course there are things I'm not quite actively good at yet even if I understand it & I'm sure there are things for u like that too). So with that being said, do u ever find that ppl don't take u seriously when it comes to love n relationships? Like (..)

(..) like ppl undermining ur knowledge & saying things like "oh but what would U know!" & treating u child-like with these things? ppl do this with me & it always irritates me & I'm never sure how to go about it when ppl do this. Of course there are some aspects i wont fully understand until im committed to another person, but ppl treat a lack of experience as a complete lack of knowledge or even common sense. I hope u get what I'm saying

hey honey. i know what ur talking about but i havent often been on the receiving end bc i dont really offer relationship “advice” to others. i never offer my opinion unless i am directly asked or there is a huge red flag so i dont often get the condescending attitude too often. if someone is like “what do you know about relationships” my go-to answer is literally “what do any of us know about love?” bc literally throughout all of history and time, people have always tried to define love, limit love, break love, be in love, love love, hate love, etc. if they knew anything deep about love, they wouldnt have all these questions. when i do give perspective it’s usually based on healthy-love articles i’ve read x books x observations WITH the added disclaimer that i also like everyone else dont know anything. like at the end of the day, just bc you’re in the driver’s seat doesnt mean u have the perspective of a passenger in the car or that ur a better driver than the passenger. just that it’s ur turn to steer.

#i grew up weird so i dont really take people's shit if they have anything to say to me #find something that im wrong in saying and we will talk #qnotqueue #Anonymous

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not-close-to-straight · 6 years

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Yes, they're pirates but sometimes you just... fuckin don't. If someone was spying on you then you'd cut their thraots no questions asked because you're pirates. Why the fuck would you not keep that in mind for everyone else?! I don't know, I can't say I feel all that sympathetic to Steve or Bucky. Don't hate em. Wish em well, but you had to see that coming. Can't have your cake and eat it too. I guess I'm just irritated with them because I think they could have handled everything better. TBC

Ok you seem to be worked up about the whole spying thing lol

Keep in mind that these are the same men that Steve initially used when he was trying to find out information about Obadiah and how they could infiltrate his company and take him down. So at that time, he was probably getting insanely detailed reports from them, detailing Obadiahs habits, his coming and going, any change in his routine, exactly who he spent time with etc etc

So when Steve asked them to keep an eye on Tony, they just automatically added the same amount of detail. He already expressed concern that it was too invasive for Tony, he knows that its a little inappropriate but he also feels like short of abandoning their mission (nope) and racing to New York to make sure Tony is alright (a mistake, because Tony wouldnt want to see him) this is the only way to make sure Obadiah isnt pulling any shit.

Of course they could have handled it better lol but they are PEOPLE-- they dont make the right decisions all the time.

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yayaiamlordee · 4 years

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I work at a bagel shop. This lady and her family came in yesterday. We have a new guy on his 3rd day today and doesn't necessarily know how coupons here work. So this lady gets a buy one get one free and asks the new guy if the coupon will work with both 4 sandwiches when really it was only good for a 2 sandwiches. I didnt realize until the lady was getting irritated. I told her I was trying to be nice so I was going to override the second sandwich for free. Well her response was "yes you will" and I ended up saying "well never mind because I'm sorry i wont do it if you're just being demanding. Thays not how this works" and I said it nicely! She got SO pissed. And asked to speak to the manager but my manager was just telling me to override it for her but I was really not wanting to. So I go back up front, tell the lady my manager said to just override it and she was now wanting to talk to him about my "attitude" even though I was legit calm the entire time. I just told her no. Then I said ma'am hes busy. He wasnt going to come up. I tried to explain to her that I would think she wouldnt let her child treat someone like this right? She was like "I'm not your child" I said "obviously but this is not how you treat someone". I'm still keeping calm even though I'm panicking and kn the vege of crying. All of this because I simply at first told her that the coupon was literally only for ONE sandwich and I apologized for the miscommunication. I WAS the one trying to be nice. Like sorry. I'm not taking demands from someone. I told her that the guy didnt know coupons and I said sorry. But she got so mad about it. Eventually I handed her reciept and my boss comes up FINALLY and I'm getting really fucking angry and told the lady to just please get the hell out of here. So probably bad in my part in the go away but I think I handled it well and I'm proud I didn't let someone verbally abuse me into free shit. Like fuck off. Then the lady from yesterday sent her husband in today and basically said they wanted me fired. My boss apparently said I was suspended for three days. Im on 3 days off normally. I'm so angry and I even called him going what the hell? I get that I said to the lady to get the hell out of the store but I wasn't given much of another option. He avoided her and left me by myself even though she asked for him. I tried to be nice. She lost her shit on me because I simply said never mind because I shouldn't allow people to demand things. I technically am not allowed to override anything but I was trying to just help her. I'm really upset that he didnt have my back. And it hurts. I'm FURIOUS because I asked him to help me. And plus he said our DM who is holding our boss's job over his head, would fire me if it was reported. Which if I tell her this lady was verbally abusing me but I stayed calm and ALSO that I havent had one single problem at all for almost 3 years it would be BULLSHIT if I got fired. But idk. I mean at this point I'd rather lose my job for standing up for myself then stay there and let someone abuse me. Idk. Maybe I'm overthinking this. Bht I've already applied for other jobs. I'm distressed. I'm sure I could have had other options but with shit escalating I held my shit together til the very end. But I'm also like why didnt my boss have my back? Why did he tell the person that I am on suspension??? Like okay. FUCK you then. I'm just very angry and it's been the absolute worst week.

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actual-talking-trashcant · 7 years

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Do all the asks, if you have time. I'm especially curious about number 14 from the story time asks.

ask #2

Tattoos: What is art to you? Does it have an important place in your life? things that people make. yes

Soil: Something that you have grown from, or that has helped you grow. tbh my life as a whole

Dusk: Name something that captivates you. the sky

Ravens: What is something you are inexplicably drawn to? the sky, water, and skateboarding oddly enough

Natural curls: List some things that you like/love about yourself. at this moment in time not much

Zack: Describe someone you love. (Can be s/o, friend, family member, fictional character) i really love my mom. she cares all the time.

Pomegranates: Talk about something that is meaningful or has personal significance to you. music.

The Smiths: Share some artists, songs or albums that you adore. ajr, pwr bttms right now

Jars: Do you collect anything? If so, what do you collect and why? coins, money, boxes, instruments, books, regrets, metal

Mountains: Do you have any sanctuaries, or places you feel at peace in? my room, the youth room, sometimes trees i need to find a good tree

Hugs: Is there anything/anyone that helps keep you going on the really rough days? my mom, music

Caves: Something that terrifies yet also fascinates you? space, water, music, relationships

Mythology: Is there anything you have a vast knowledge of or enjoy studying? a good few things

Ruins: Are there any places in the world that you would love to see or visit? rome hawaii the gay parts of canada

Road Trips: What gives you that sense of freedom and adventure? walking alone at night

Megan: Is there anyone in your life that you admire? my mom

Bubble Baths: Where or in what situations do you think most clearly? in ones where i have a bubble of space and can think and are not about relationships

Evening Walks: Are there any things you do that put your mind at ease? music

Amy: Is there anyone in your life you would consider to be a kindred spirit? my mom

Crossroads: You are at the crossroads and there are four roads. The road going north will take you somewhere or to someone that is home. The one going east will be a long journey that you will learn from, a message will be given to you. The road leading south will be an epic, unpredictable adventure. The west road leads you down a beautiful path to a body of water, where you may bathe and heal from something that you have endured. Which road do you choose and why? in this moment I'm not really up to adventure so probably just north

Folk Metal: Tell me about something you get really excited about. music

Full Moon: Describe an experience you had that was somehow related to the moon. i was at my grandmas and i was just thinking about how i had wanted someone with me to see how nice it was so i was going to draw it but i never did

Live Music: Have you ever been to a concert? If so, what were some of your favorite ones you’ve been to? If not, who or what would you love to see? yes. I've loved all of them because I've loved the people that I've gone with. still pissed that i missed oh pep and i really want to see them.

Spill your thoughts

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? yeah02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? my mom03: Do you regret anything? probably

04: Are you insecure? yes05: What is your relationship status? single06: How do you want to die? hm. quickly ig07: What did you last eat? cookies that were not for me08: Would you want to know what happens in the future if you couldn’t change it? i think so because then i wouldnt have to waste my time09: Do you bite your nails? i used to a lot now i dont usually10: When was your last fight? dont remember 11: Do you like someone? i dont think so12: Have you ever pulled an all-nighter? Why? i couldn't make it because i never sleep enough anyway13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? donald trump14: Do you miss someone? yes15: What would you see in the Mirror of Erised? (What do you most desire?) people around me16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? not much. not good17: Ever made out in the bathroom? i dont think so. I've been kissed in a bathroom and got a hickey in a bathroom though18: What are you afraid of? the dark. being left behind. 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? probably 20: Where was the last place you made out with someone? my bed21: What are your plans for this weekend? i went to wisconsin then i didn't do anything today except feel shitty22: Do you want to have kids? How many? adoption. as many as i can handle, 2-323: Do you have piercings? How many? no24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? i like science and math, though i never study either25: Do you miss anyone from your past? yes26: What are you craving right now? how i felt yesterday27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? maybe28: Have you ever been cheated on? i hope not29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? yes30: What’s irritating you right now? a lot of things31: Does somebody love you? my mom said she did a little while ago so32: What is your favorite color? blue33: Do you have trust issues? yes34: Who/what was your last dream about? dont know35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? people yesterday36: Do you give out second chances too easily? yes37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? forgive38: Is this year the best year of your life? no39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 14 i think40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? maybe when i was tiny51: What is one book everyone needs to read? I'm sure there is one but i can't think of anything52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? probably 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? watched too much skateboarding youtube54: Is cheating ever okay? i dont really think so55: Are you mean? i hope not56: How many people have you fist fought? outside of martial arts like maybe 257: Do you believe in true love? i dont think so58: Favorite weather? nice59: What is your perfect day look like? i dont know60: Do you wanna get married? i dont know 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? in any context at this moment no62: What makes you happy? music friends 63: Would you change your name? yeah64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? no65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? say sorry66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? not really 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? my brother68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? probably rhys69: Do you believe in soulmates? maybe70: Is there anyone you would die for? yes

Clean and Simple

A. What makes life worth it? good question

B. Hidden talents? i dunnoC. Last book you read? frankensteinD. Are you seeing anyone? i dont see anyone right now because I'm alone and also noE. What color do you look best in? let me knowF. Favorite place to nap? my roomG. Last film you saw? boys dont cryH. Best advice you’ve given? dont do itI. How many languages can you say hello in? a few probably J. How often do you nap? not oftenK. Favorite fast food? meatheads friesL. Piano or drums? drums because i find piano really hard. both are hardM. First thing you ate today? i think a piece of brownieN. Best Birthday party you’ve attended? i dont know. ones with friends O. What’s your typical Tuesday? school soccer homeP. Celeb you’d most like to meet? kaitlyn alexanderQ. Weirdest phone call you’ve had? i dont normally call people R. Favorite memory? sleepS. Who gives the best hugs? this girl from my church retreat gave really good hugs and so do my friendsT. Sitting on laps or piggy back rides? as long as I'm not on topU. Best holiday song? white christmas is my first thoughtV. Last shoes you bought? no ideaW. What’s your skin care routine? badX. Coolest thing about your best friend? artY. What’d you have for lunch two nights ago? uhhhhh Z. Something kind you’ve done recently? i was nice to people yesterday

Story time

Put a number in my ask and I'll tell you about a personal story/experience with that theme!1. Happy story? when i got into my school

2. Injury story? I sprained my ankle running down the stairs on easter3. Funny story? me saying “i would eat- CELIA” 4. Scary story? i almost died under an inter tube 5. Random story? my dog and i breathe the same sometimes6. Sad story? my dog died from cancer my day off of school7. Secret story? (A story you have never told anyone before) 8. Infuriating story? when the varsity soccer coach acts nice but she is not9. Awkward story? i threw my phone in the closet after telling my friend i was gay10. Fun story? i caught a turtle because it bit me one time11. Self incriminating story? i stole $20 from my brother one time because he had more money than me12. Embarrassing story? i dyed my hair green and gold 13. Weird story? my friend opened my other friends photos and the first photo that popped up was a dick pic14. Oddly sexual story? I've only made out standing up once and it was not super serious. Also i almost stuck my hand down someones pants because i am competitive15. Face-palming story? “where do you wanna dye?”16. Food story? i like carrots and ketchup 17. School/college/work story? my mom is friends with my principal. its weird.18. Illness story? my brother got a concussion from snow tubing and he only had this really tiny cut19. Event story? (Something that happened at a public event) i got kissed but paid more attention to the music my friend didn't20. Boring story? today i watched 5 episode of bones

100 questions to invade my personal life

1. What's your middle name, and do you like it? jane, not terribly2. are you artistic? nope3. Have you had your first kiss? yes4. What is your life goal? graduate college, do something cool, get a nice house with bookshelves and a music room5. Do you have any expieriences with a famous person? I'm friends with this family who are in the tv and play industry and my nickname is nugget6. Do you play any sports? soccer, martial arts7. What's your worst fear? dark, being left8. Who's your biggest inspiration? mom9. Do you have any cool talents? music?10. are you a morning person? not really11. How do you feel about pet names? they're kinda weird but sometimes nice12. Do you like to read? yeah but I'm shit at actually doing it now13. Name a list of shows that have changed your life. glee and a few others ig14. Do you care about your follower count? no ( but i have 295)15. What's the best dream you've had? can't remember16. Have you ever kissed someone of your same gender? yes17. Do you have any pets? yea i have a beagle18. Are you religious? yes19. Are you a people person? sometimes20. Are you considered popular? i used to at least21. What is one of your bad habits? worrying about not working but not working but also not resting22. What's something that makes you feel vulnerable not enough clothes, no sound23. What would you name your children? gender neutral names24. Who's your celebrity crush? kaitlyn alexander? i mean i wanna meet them25. What's your best subject? english is easy but i like math and science26. Dogs or cats? dogs27. most used social media besides tumblr? snapchat usually28. best friends name rhys29. who does your main family consist of my mom dad brother dog30. Chocolate or sugar both31. have you ever been on a date? yes32. Do you like roleercosters? no33. Can you swim? yes34. What would you do in the event of an apocalypse? i would probably try my best to live or just give up and fuck someone (dealing with extremes i guess)35. Have you struggled with any kind of mental disorder? yes. i still have to do intake for a therapist but its only at certain times and my mom has missed it a couple times36. Are your parents together? yes37. What's your favourite color? blue38. What country are you from/do you live in? us39. Favourite singer? tyler joseph i guess40. Do you see yourself being famous some day? not really but i wish41. Do you like dresses? no42. Favourite song right now? let the games begin or pitchfork kids43. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? yes. but it needs to be talked about44. How old were you when you first got your period? i think 1245. Have you ever shot a gun? yes46. Have you ever done yoga? yes47. Are you a horror girl? god no48. Are you good at giving advice? reasonably49. Tell us a story about your childhood. i would count and organize coins instead of going outside50. How are you doing today? nope51. Were you a cute kid? i guess52. Can you dance? if I'm given something to learn53. Is there anything you do that you can't remember ever not doing?54. Have you ever dyed your hair? yes55. What colour are your eyes? blue/green56. What's your favourite animal? turtle57. Have you ever made a huge fool of yourself? yeah58. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? yes59. Do you have good friends? i guess60. Are you close with anyone of the lgbtq+ group? hahaha yes I'm gay61. What's your favourite class? guitar is fun and i like physics even though its hard62. List all the tv shows you are watching. i just started watching bones63. Are you organized? some places yes, others no64. What was the last movie you saw? Opinion? boys dont cry. i thought it was a little weird but it was an important movie for trans and lgb+ representation67. Which tv character do you relate to most? all i can think of is Lance and head canons i saw today68. What are some things that stand between you and complete happiness? knowledge, time, other people, situations69. If you received enough money to never need to work again, what would you spend your time doing? learning and teaching about the environment and lgbtqia+ stuff70. What would you change about your life if you knew you would never die? i would probably procrastinate more and maybe learn how to like everything and probably try to kill myself after a while because everyone i loved would die71. What would you do differently if you knew that no one was judging you? id probably kiss more people who knows72. If you could start over, what would you do differently? dont get attached73. Would you break the law to save a loved one? yes74. When was the last time you travelled somewhere new? i went to madison wisconsin a little while ago75. When you think of your home, what immediately comes to mind? my mom, warmth, my dog, blankets and tv76. What have you done to pursue your dreams lately? How about today? not much, absolutely nothing77. What did you want to be when you were a kid? pediatrician 78. If you dropped everything to pursue your dreams, what would you be risking? i dont know i dont really have much in the first place79. When did you not speak up, when you know you really should have? when i shouldn't have distanced my problems 80. Describe the next five years of your life, and your plans, in a single sentence I'm gonna go to college and maybe live with some friends and still play music81. What would happen if you never wasted another minute of your life, what would that look like? i would have written 3 plays and a book, be in a band, get 5s in both ap tests and get all a’s and know how to ride a skateboard and be organized and my room would look nice and i would have scholarships already applied to. just a lot of things82. If you could live forever, how would you spend eternity? probably learn for a bit then just play video games or something83. How would you spend a billion dollars? probably save it or use it to keep my grandmas house. There are a lot of financial issues with that.84. If you could time travel, would you go to the past or the future? maybe future to see if it gets better85. What motivates you to succeed? right now not much. my mom86. What dream that you’ve had has resonated with you the most? idk87. Would you rather live in the city or the woods? Why? city. i like to travel to the woods but not live there88. Do you believe in life after death? i hope so, i think just dying would be boring89. What teacher inspired you the most? How did they? I've had a lot of great teachers but i think davey inspired me to learn about the world and meacham helps me think about myself and others90. What’s your fondest childhood memory? lemonade stand91. If you could have dinner with any one person, living or dead, who would they be and why? alexander hamilton maybe so i could see what he was thinking when he did all that he did, and so maybe he could help us out and also see how gay he was92. What would you have to see to cry tears of joy? depends on the day, probably something i would think is jesusy93. What is the hardest lesson you had to learn in life? hm. i still havent learned how to care for myself but to be respectful of other people and to really think of things from an even standpoint.94. What do you think happens after we die? i like to hope it isn't nothingness95. What would you do if you would be invisible? pantsy a lot of people. maybe steal some stuff96. What's something you can't do no matter how hard you try? do my work apparently 97. Would you want to choose the sex and appearance of your offspring? nah 98. How did your first crush develop? friendship to wow i really miss this person99. Is there a feeling you are trying to ignore? What is it? a feeling of hatred towards myself, a feeling of confusion at a dynamic, a feeling of angst over my feelings towards relationships and the fact that i wish i could just figure what i want out100. Do you live or do you just exist? right now I'm staying at exist so i dont go crazy trying to live

alright i think thats it, i kept being pulled away and not being able to do this sorry

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