#also if they had ended this episode fighting i would have raged so hard

[whatimdoing-here]

NCIS HAWAII | 3.10

#ncis hawaii #ncis hawai'i #kacy #kate x lucy #kate whistler #lucy tara #yasmine al bustami #tori anderson #the relationship maturity for me here was almost too much #also if they had ended this episode fighting i would have raged so hard #so i'm glad that they apologized to each other #whistler going old school whistler for a sec there #lucy has come such a long way since s1 and now has no issues biting back #but then whistler immediately showing softness and remorse #and whistler saying she gets it #because she does and not just with this group and these people #and then that look in the last one #they didn't get long but they both did grow a lot as people through the series #individually and together #last new episode gifset #took all day because comp and work and blah blah blah #anyway #mine #mine: ncis hawaii #(Tori trying real hard there not to say SOOR-ry)

[thosewildcharms]

towl 1x03 thoughts

rick is REALLY going through it trying to keep michonne alive by out maneuvering jadis AND thorne AND michonne herself because she fails horrendously at acting like she's not the most impressive person in the world AND trying not to have an aneurysm about all of that at the same time

speaking of rick you can't tell her to lie low and then eyefuck her in public every time you see her you are equally bad at this

equally you should probably stop kissing her every chance you get if you want her to believe you want her to leave lol

by contrast michonne screaming at him with her eyes while simultaneously giving him the silent treatment because she's actually too pissed off to yell at him? danai the actress you are!!!!!!!

also!!! the fact that rick thinks he can say "if you love me, you'll go" would actually make her leave is crazy. he has no idea how much that woman loves him! that's why she just smiled angrily at him because ACTUALLY. the reality is that she loves him way TOO much to ever leave him behind. that's WHY she's even here, in fact!!! he's not used to people fighting for him like this :(

michonne ripping that helmet off his head so hard i thought his head might come off with it had me cackling but also rick is stronger than me because I'd be on my knees

"you're a hero. with a shit haircut" I screamed he hates jadis so much it's so funny fdjaslkf

speaking of which I wonder if the freaks who think there is genuine sexual tension between rick and jadis caught his look of absolute disgust as he physically recoiled from her when she sexually harassed him for the 100th time. girl he's not gonna fuck you

CARL MENTION HELP

"He told me he'd find you. He found you." "Now I'm looking for him." MAYBE STOP MAKING ME CRY PERHAPS

one thing about rick and michonne they WILL find a minute to make out for a bit. and because andy and danai are EPs now they will do it with tongue while extremely well-lit! it's like they heard the complaints from the mothership and addressed them by kissing at least once per episode in broad daylight they love us

rich and michonne effortlessly fighting side by side and getting shit done after almost a decade apart because they are ACTUAL soulmates

the parallel between pearl aiming her gun at michonne and shane aiming his gun at rick in season 2 because they both feel threatened!!! big difference of course being that rick is there to literally put himself in the crosshairs to protect her

michonne staring rick down in a a turbulent helicopter and then abruptly yeeting them both into a raging storm because she is fed up with his shit is the funniest, most unhinged thing I've ever seen I love her so much

this show is fucking insane I love it. I'm still wary of how it will all end but I'm enjoying the hell out of it until we get there

#towl spoilers #the ones who live #the ones who live spoilers #richonne

[tommykinard6]

I don't mean to pile onto your bad day but I've been seeing a lot of creators on tiktok complain/compare the bucktommy and henren tags/fic count on ao3 because there's almost more bucktommy fics then there are henren fics. The number one claim is always that bucktommy writers are racist because we don't write for henren. But like, that's not correct at all? People can write fanfiction for whatever they want to. If they want to see more henren stuff then they can write it on their own.

We can coexist without fighting each other. I'm just tired of people screaming about how bucktommy is anti this or anti that, when we're just vibing by ourselves and don't want the drama but the drama finds us anyway because Sucky People are loud and get heard the most.

You’re good, anon. It actually gave me something to think about during work.

As a quick disclaimer, before we begin, I’m not a POC. I am not speaking for anyone in the Black community and am not attempting to speak over them. My following thoughts are as a queer woman-ish who is also a writer.

I think it must be noted that Hen and Karen have been overlooked since day one. The fact that Buck coming out made it the “gay firefighter show” when we’ve had a beautiful canonical lesbian couple since the very beginning? Is only proof. Is this proof of racism in the fandom? Maybe. Quite possibly. I would argue that it comes from a misogynistic point as well.

If you look in any fandom, regardless of the color of their skin, any wlw ship is horribly overlooked. I’ve done some tag searching on ao3. Straight and mlm ships battle for dominance while there are canonical and fanonical wlw ships that have a drastic difference in numbers. This isn’t a good thing. But it’s an experience that spans fandoms.

I find it sad that BuckTommy has almost more fics, with only two episodes under their belt, than Henren with 7 seasons. However, this isn’t a reason to hate on BuckTommy. The ship didn’t do anything wrong. Comparison is the thief of joy and it’s also rage bait. I think that some creators simply are using anything they can to hate on BuckTommy. Which that makes it sadder, that they aren’t concerned about Henren other than pushing their own agenda.

This isn’t to say all creators who are speaking about this are doing this, but I guarantee some are.

Now, let me speak as a writer.

As someone with 62 published fics on ao3, I write almost exclusively mlm ships. This isn’t because I hate women. And as a queer woman-ish, don’t even start about homophobia. But for some reason, I find it so much easier to write men than I do to write women. This is true for straight and wlw ships and also just in general. I love Henren, but I don’t have the faintest idea about how to write them.

It’s hard enough to write as it is and I’m already writing on ships that are easy for me. I try to write women and it just hasn’t come out right. I want to challenge myself, branch out, and maybe I’ll write for Henren to do that. But I say all this to point out that for some people like me, writing some ships and demographics of ships are just a little more difficult.

That leads me into something else.

I, as a white person, worry about accidentally writing non-white characters wrong. And this was reinforced not too long ago when we had that whole thing on ao3 with deliberate racism in 9-1-1 fics. If anyone has resources or advice for writing non-white characters, I would love to hear that! The last thing I want to do is cause any harm.

I feel like I’ve spoken a lot about me, but that’s because I can’t really speak for anyone else. I can only speak from my experience.

We already have a ship war between BuckTommy and Buddie. We don’t need to pit more people against each other. I think we can love BuckTommy while agreeing that Henren needs to be seen and appreciated and treated equally.

End note to say: I tried to speak as delicately and as sensitively as I could, but if anything came out wrong, please feel free to point it out (kindly). Again, I speak for no one but my very little section of the world. I’m interested to hear what people of other backgrounds have to add!

#911 abc #911 show #9-1-1 #tommy kinard #bucktommy #evan buckley #lou ferrigno jr #911 season 7 #tk6 answers #oliver stark #henren #henrietta wilson #hen wilson #karen wilson

[scottpetersen]

Honestly, I think that Scrooge would have some rather fascinating thoughts about Darth Maul. After all, as shown in the episode ‘The Most Dangerous Game…Night!’, Scrooge believes that family is about loving each other and still having a strong bond while persevering through the ways they drive each other crazy and that’s how his family operates as shown in the episode ‘The Fight For Castle McDuck!’ where Scrooge and his family were ultimately able to look past their conflict and help each other. But Darth Maul’s relationship with his brother Savage Opress was a somewhat twisted reflection of that since, as shown in the episode ‘Revival’, Maul does genuinely love his brother deep down to the point that he showed a lot of concern for him when his arm was cut off but, due to Maul’s allegiance to Sith ideologies which strongly discourage such bonds and heavily encourages conflict, he refused to accept his brother’s affection and came into conflict with him from time to time. So, Scrooge and Maul both love their families despite their conflict with them but Scrooge perseveres through that conflict whereas Maul indulges in the conflict itself. This means that Scrooge would probably respect Maul for how much he’s ultimately willing to look past his conflict with his brother Savage in order to help him but Scrooge would probably also be off-put by how much Maul doesn’t fully embrace that bond due to Maul’s allegiance to the ideologies of what is essentially a cult with a dangerous belief system, especially considering that, as shown in the episode ‘The Shadow War Part 1: The Night Of De Spell!’, Scrooge almost lost his family forever when he pushed them away. There’s also the fact that Scrooge’s philosophy about self-reliance and working hard is actually somewhat similar to how hard Maul worked to serve his master Darth Sidious back when he worked for him. After all, as shown in the episode ‘The Outlaw Scrooge McDuck!’, Scrooge strongly believed in self-reliance and working hard and, as the YouTuber Star Wars Theory explained in their How Darth Maul BUILT His RARE Lightsaber (Animated) - Star Wars Explained, Maul worked for days without food or water to make his double-bladed lightsaber in the Darth Maul: Shadow Hunter novel. So, Scrooge might also hold some respect for Maul for his sheer determination. However, as shown in the short story ‘Nameless’ in Star Wars Tales #10, Maul was content with being nothing but a tool for Darth Sidious at the time and, as shown in the episode ‘The Secret(s) Of Castle McDuck!’, Scrooge was taught to fend for himself at a very young age which caused him to strive to fulfill his desire to become the richest duck in the world. So, Scrooge would probably be shocked to see someone like Maul be content with being someone else’s lapdog.

Also, both Scrooge and Maul had a hard time grasping companionship. As shown in the episode ‘The Shadow War Part 1: The Night Of De Spell!’, Scrooge was really depressed after pushing his loved ones away but tried to get himself to think that he was better off without them before Lena convinced him otherwise and, as the YouTuber Sage’s Rain pointed out in their Understanding Darth Maul’s Rage - Lonely Vengeance (Star Wars) YouTube video, Maul was desperate for campanionship after his brother Savage’s death and his mother Mother Talzin’s death to the point that it was one of the reasons why he tried to recruit Ahsoka Tano and later Ezra Bridger as his apprentices but, thanks to his former master Darth Sidious, he couldn’t comprehend that campanionship isn’t based on what the Sith preach about manipulation and dominance. So, Scrooge tried to run away from campanionship before realizing it isn’t something to run away from whereas Maul tried to cling to campanionship but it always slipped out of his grasp. There’s also the fact that Scrooge and Maul both had strained relationships with the people who raised them but those relationships turned out to be very different at the end of the day. As also shown in the episode ‘The Secret(s) Of Castle McDuck!’, Scrooge had a strained relationship with his father Fergus McDuck but Fergus, knowing that he didn’t have enough to provide for Scrooge, taught his son Scrooge to be self-reliant. And, as shown in the episode ‘The Lawless’, Darth Sidious turned his back on Maul and killed his brother Savage. So, Fergus let Scrooge out of his arms gently whereas Darth Sidious threw Maul away and cast him aside.

#disney #ducktales #ducktales (2017) #scrooge mcduck #star wars #star wars the clone wars #darth maul

[kaseyskat]

Okay so related to my post from last night, I wanted to elaborate on my thoughts very specifically regarding Sparrow and Hero and the messy messy nuance surrounding their relationship that often goes overlooked in the name of simply attaching the "bad parent" label to Sparrow and calling it a day. I've talked about this before, but I'm feeling it again lmao.

Sparrow's relationship with Hero is nuanced. It was destined to be nuanced the moment it was revealed that a prophecy would deem her the Chosen One. Now, I know we still don't know exactly when the prophecy was given to the twins or even what the full prophecy entails, but we do know it shaped Hero's life in an irreparable way. I don't need to tell y'all that much though, because everyone in this fandom knows that, they know what the prophecy did to Hero but I've been surprised time and time again that nobody thinks to dig deeper into their motivations: aka, why did the twins feel it was necessary to raise Hero the way they did? The easy way out is to say they are both horrible parents and call it a day (if anything is said of Lark at all- it's kind of appalling that most people absolve Lark of all blame and solely pin everything on Sparrow when they've always done everything together).

So let me explore one of the what-ifs. Say you are a kid raised as a normal kid having a normal life. One day, though, when you're a teenager, you suddenly inherit the legacy of your parents- their monsters, the end of the world, everything. Pretty akin to how s2 starts, in fact! Except while this is so sudden for you... turns out they knew the entire time that you would inherit this mantle, and they did nothing, said nothing, and now you're completely unprepared to face an eldritch monster that even your father and uncle couldn't defeat on their own. That would be pretty bad, right? Bad parenting on their part, knowing that this would happen and doing nothing?

"But that didn't happen!" you tell me, arguing in my tags and in comments under my posts. "Hero didn't have to face the Doodler!" Sparrow and Lark don't know this. As far as we know, they received a prophecy either right before or right after Hero was born saying she would be the one to face the Doodler. Normal wasn't in the picture, it isn't a question of if that would happen, it was when. What if Hero was a toddler? A child? A teenager? What if the two of them died and she was all alone in this fight? This prophecy was the only tell of the future they have, and it said that their firstborn would be the one to face the Doodler and finish the battle Lark started.

And speaking of Lark; I've said this before, but one of the more underrepresented aspects of Lark's character in the fandom is him feeling helpless as a weakness of his. He doesn't like being put in a position where he can do nothing- this being very apparent in recent episodes, when Sparrow was taken and Lark was left alone panicking. This is how the rogue card took affect on him in the first place, because he hated feeling helpless when Walter was injured and it invoked his rage at Henry for putting him in that position in the first place.

And the twins are no stranger to being dropped into a situation unprepared. They were only kids in s1, thirteen years old at the oldest, younger than the s2 teens and yeah they did their best and rose to the top but that doesn't mean they weren't kids in a world they knew nothing about. They have both been in Hero's shoes, with one caveat: they were the ones who could prepare her in a way that they were not, to ensure that no matter when she faced the Doodler, she would be ready, she would never feel as helpless as they had when they were also just kids.

And yeah, maybe they took it too far, pushed her too hard. But that's never the argument I see online- that the twins should've been more in tune with Hero's mental state and adjusted her training accordingly. Instead, all I ever see is people bashing them for training her in the first place, comparing them to the other kiddads... except even then, the other kiddads didn't have nearly as big of a stake in this as the twins did, nearly as much of the pressure. The world at the time when the kiddads inherited DADDIES didn't need Taylor or Link to be ready to face the Doodler, but the twins knew for sure that it would need Hero, and they had to raise her accordingly. What if it had happened when Hero was six? Or ten? Or thirteen? Would it have been fair to her then to go into that fight untrained? The twins could never have known that it would be Normal and his friends to actually step in and help the Doodler, at the time they couldn't have known that Normal would need to be involved at all!

And, in the end, Hero's training did stop. Again, we don't know exactly how it happened, but we do know Lark and Sparrow, and I can imagine we all agree that it would've been Sparrow's call, not Lark's, to prioritize Hero's mental health and let her finish her teenage years as a normal kid. And accepting that they shouldn't involve Hero meant they had to find an alternative solution. That solution, what we see in canon, was genocide.

It's very fun to me personally to see Sparrow's arc come full circle in that way. He gets the love wolf talk from Henry because the twins were going to kill a lot of people in their own quest, he agrees that would be wrong, and then he gets a full arc of realizing that he can't force himself to care about the rest of the world but he does care about his family. He cares about his family enough that he enacts Code Purple to send the Doodler to Faerun and save the lives of Henry, Lark, Hero, and Normal. And, later... well, we know what the kiddads plan was for reentering Faerun and collecting magic items. We know their plan was to blow up the Doodler using the Sun and inevitably wiping out an entire realm in the process. That's not an easy choice to make, and it goes against everything Henry taught Sparrow in s1... but Sparrow was willing to do it because it would mean that Hero wouldn't have to be involved. Sparrow loved Hero so much that he was going to go against his own morals to protect her and stop the Doodler himself.

And like to me. To me? That makes Sparrow a far better parent than anyone else on this app ever gives him credit for. He pushed her too hard, realized he did so, and was willing to commit genocide to ensure she never had to be the Chosen One, to prove the prophecy wrong. Like I said; it is nuanced and there's no telling how different things would've gone if the s2 teens hadn't gotten involved, if Hero had faced the Doodler in combat before she was ready, if the twins had tried the genocide plan sooner. But it does prove my point from my earlier post: everyone wants a morally grey character who is willing to commit atrocities in the name of protecting their family, and here we are with Sparrow Oak Garcia, who fits that bill to the letter, and yet he is villainized, portrayed as a horrible person and a horrible father, and more! And it's really frustrating cause I know if Lark had been the one to make these decisions it would be accepted under the guise of Lark just being "like that" as a character, or people would find it attractive because everyone agrees that Lark is morally grey in an acceptable, attractive way. Lark is nuanced, but Sparrow is nuanced too- but we know, we know that Sparrow loves his kids more than he loves himself, that he'd burn the world down for BOTH of them, and I think it's about time we stop sleeping on him as a character and stop portraying him as a villain in Hero and Normal's story when I truly believe Sparrow stands the biggest chance of all three of Hero's parental figures to reconcile with her and when he's expressed countless times that he wants to make things right with Normal if only Normal gave him the chance.

#dndads #kasey rambles #sparrow oak garcia #lark oak garcia #hero oak swallows garcia #spitting some hot takes if i do say so myself #its just a little frustrating to have to avoid half the fandom because yall dont understand nuance #only hot girls understand sparrow as a character #i could also write an essay about rebecca's bystanderisms and why i think hero avoids her too but #thats for another time lmao

[burst-of-iridescent]

atla live action thoughts: episodes 7 & 8

SPOILERS AHEAD

tw: opinions

things i liked:

i keep forgetting to say this but i love the stylization of the opening credits it looks so elegant

northern water tribe looks beautiful. the spirit oasis is stunning, this show almost never fails to deliver on visuals

i fucking KNEW they were going to end the season with azula producing lightning for the first time and it looks great i won't lie. can't wait for her blue fire

the pakku v katara fight is not bad actually, though it obviously doesn't hold a candle to the original. glad they kept the ice discs moment in because that was iconic and it does have a nice set-up of her learning it from the earthbenders

i do like that they allow aang to interact with different avatars and that they all give him different perspectives. it highlights the differences in their personalities and how the role of the avatar had to be adapted to the times they lived in

i can't remember exactly what it was but aang's line about how this isn't his world or his time went hard

"i underestimated zhao" "funny i figured that out as i was swimming away from the burning wreckage of my boat" i live for sassy zuko

good decision to take out pakku only deciding to teach katara because she was kanna's granddaughter. that reeked of exceptionalism and never sat right with me, so i appreciate that she at least proves herself and also that she includes the other women in the tribe when pushing him to let them fight

yugoda getting to yell at pakku for being a misogynistic idiot is exactly what she deserves, you tell him queen

KOIZILLA!!

seeing the fall of omashu to azula was an addition that made a lot of sense, and sets up the return to omashu episode in the next season nicely

things i disliked:

yue's wig was atrocious. can't believe i'm saying this but the shyamalan movie did it better. amber midthunder deserved so much better

the misogyny arc was a godforsaken mess. the northern water tribe is still sexist... but no one seems to be sexist except for pakku?? chief arnook seems to be grooming yue to take over as chief, the other male waterbenders are impressed by katara and respect her right away, yue seems to have a lot of autonomy, hahn is respectful and kind, and then pakku himself changes his mind on women fighting pretty much within one day. so what was the point of including it at all?

this show has completely nuked katara's rage. she would not be calmly announcing that she's fighting pakku as though it was a calculated decision because it very much wasn't! it was her sense of righteousness and outrage over injustice taking over and it hurts me deeply that they removed that because it's so important to who she is! i needed to see a LOT more power and fury in her in this scene but instead it felt extremely lukewarm

KATARA AND AANG NEVER. FUCKING. LEARN. WATERBENDING. for a show that marketed itself so heavily with the tagline "master your element" there isn't a lot of mastering going on here?? i'm sorry i don't buy at ALL that katara would be able to become a master with One waterbending scroll and watching some earthbenders. i know she's a prodigy but no one can be THAT prodigious. and it really makes her fight with zuko and subsequently being called master katara fall flat because i don't think i've been shown enough to justify that

also hate that my girl got knocked out halfway through the zutara fight because of the moon wtaf let her kick zuko's ass

a moment of silence for "aren't you a big girl now" and "you rise with the moon, i rise with the sun" you will always be famous

despite knowing the avatar needs to learn waterbending, pakku and arnook just?? walk away?? when they find out he hasn't??? SOMEONE TEACH THIS POOR BOY AN ELEMENT OTHER THAN AIR. ANY ELEMENT, I'M BEGGING

real quick, who had "momo saves a random little girl from falling rock only to be nearly killed and saved by yue and sokka in the spirit oasis" on their live action bingo? no one, that's who, BECAUSE THAT'S FUCKING BONKERS. people are dying all around them but sokka and yue decide this is the time to fuck off to save a lemur?? please be so fr

iroh telling zuko to remember his breath of fire when this show has not once established (at least, iirc) that power in firebending comes from the breath is... something. heavily dislike how little focus was given to the intricacies of learning bending in this series

HATE that they removed zhao dying because of koizilla and gave it to iroh instead. that was such a great moment of karmic justice for zhao and really highlighted how he brought about his own downfall through his pride and arrogance. i know they tried to show zuko's compassion by having him spare zhao and walk away (as a callback to the agni kai i'm guessing) but zuko risking himself to save the life of the man who tried to kill him in the original just hit SO much harder.

the pacing of the north pole arc in general was FAR too rushed. at least in the original animation we got the sense that they'd spent weeks there, but in the show it feels like it's been a couple of days MAX. there had to be much more time to build up the threat of the fire nation and the yue/sokka relationship

the sense of time passing was a problem i anticipated the show would have from the start because 8 episodes just feels shorter than 20, but i wish they'd at least done some montages or something to make it seem like time was passing between episodes. as it is, it felt like every episode picked up right after the previous and so the whole season felt like it happened within a week or two. which is a shame because it weakens the epic scale of their journey in having to cross the entire world

overall rating: 6/10. unfortunately i think these episodes were the weakest of the series both in quality of writing and entertainment value, but still fun to watch for the most part

#atla live action

[the-cusk]

Ok fine let's do theory time. This will be mostly about Session 7 and Gem's task. Now, I got two big points here, (a) The End/The Void is an entity that is independent of The Watchers and (b) Gem's task and, by extension, she herself came from that entity's will.

Now the obvious connection is obvious, yeah yeah who opened the End portal, but this goes farther. So, uh, remember episode 1? Specifically, when Gem and Lizzie found pumpkins and formed an alliance of sorts? Pumpkins, that's right. They became kind of a big deal. Since then, Gem and Lizzie had been consistently connected to The End. When Lizzie got the hard task to get everyone to sleep, first thing she thought of? The End. But then, why did she die to the very thing she was intertwined with.

Well, Scott of course. Scott has consistently been the most resistant to influence from cosmic entities. He actively spit in the faces of The Watchers multiple times now, after all. He was meant to die in the void. But not just because of his own aspect, but because Lizzie hasn't fully assimilated to her new connection. She didn't wear a pumpkin. The End had to shoot blindly, and with Scott's aura of negation he wasn't gonna be the one hit.

Now let's have an aside about what The End's intentions are in this series. Cause all cosmic entities gotta have one right? Well, The Watchers designed the games to be a feast of discord, war, betrayal, all of the fun stuff. The End, on the other hand, seeks to, well, end the games, as fast as possible. How were the first two reds created? Now, it's probably not exactly a humanitarian motivation from The End here. Whether it's merciful oblivion or just a thirst for finality, it still creates war and brutality, just not in the same way as The Watchers. The Watchers want the feast to stretch for as long as possible, as the payoff will be that much sweeter. The End wants to finish everything as fast as possible. You could argue that the Boogie curse has origins in The End, with Skizz as the catalyst, but I don't feel like going into that atm.

Ok, finally, how does that connect to Session 7's events? Well, as mentioned before Lizzie died when she wasn't meant to, with overwhelming feelings of rage and a desire for revenge against (most of) the server. In addition, two other reds, mumbo and jimmy, died to a forced hard task from grian and etho. So, all the reds except The Watchers' special boy Martyn are gone. Not awesome if you want everything to return to dust quickly. But, mainly, Lizzie's, uhhhh, let's call it curse, people like that word, transferred to Gem in the form of a hijacked task. I mean, it doesn't function according to any of the rules set by the Secret Keeper. And neither did Gem's end portal task, really, if you think about. Oh abd neither did Bdub's free the end. Wait. Bdub's? Free the End? And hey, would you look at that, he's also the first infected. And who's next? Impulse, Pearl? Ain't that our little end fighting army? (Also, Bdubs was the first ever person to get the Boogie curse but again, not getting into that. So, uh yeah, basically The End, an entity in opposition to The Watchers, has hijacked the task system, and possibly brought Gem in, in order to free itself and then end the series as quickly as possible. A desperation move, really, but it makes sense, this season's torture was gonna be especially prolonged.

Essentially my first theory, and I don't have too much knowledge on lore and stuff, but sometimes words are in your head and you have to get them out somehow.

#geminitay #traffic smp #scott smajor #ldshadowlady #the watchers #martyn inthelittlewood #jimmy solidarity #bdoubleo100 #pearlescentmoon #impulsesv #there's always room for one more malicious cosmic entity

[omnitheist27]

"You're one hell of a fighter!" (Record of Ragnarok x Hazbin Hotel)

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Note: Spoilers for the finale of the first season of Hazbin Hotel.

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So, here's the crossover fan comic of Record of Ragnarok and Hazbin Hotel. I've been hooked on Hazbin Hotel after watching the pilot episode and have been a fan since then, especially when the prime series came out. After the first season ended, I saw this one video on Youtube a fanmade trailer for a DEATH BATTLE!, with Ragnarok!Adam and Hazin!Adam is the contestant. Then I thought, why not make a crossover fan comic? And an ultimate send-off per se?

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In this scenario, the two Adams, after dying, were temporarily resurrected in a Pocket Dimension by an unnamed entity acting as their host. When Hazbin!Adam meets Ragnarok!Adam, he acts as his usual rude self by asking him, "Who the fuck are you?", with the latter cooly responding that he could ask him the same thing. The two were quickly filled with hostility after meeting each other for the first time despite not knowing each other, and the unnamed entity then made his appearance and stated they had died from their respective worlds, going so far as to explain to them the multiverse and how the two of them are alternate selves of each other, much to the two Adams's surprise (though Hazbin!Adam is much vocal of his displeasure by pointing out that the title of the "Original Man" belongs to him only and not some "faker"). Then, their host explain that the two Adams had been given a chance by fighting each other in a one-on-one match, gladiator style, and the winner will receive a "prize" by the end.

Seeing this as a chance to return to their own worlds and have unfinished business to take care of, the two Adams agreed.

During their fight, Hazbin!Adam is arrogantly assured that he has the advantage over Ragnarok!Adam due to his angelic form, flight abilities, and holy attacks. However, not long after their fight with Hazbin!Adam in the air and firing off a barrage of holy light beams, Ragnarok!Adam effortlessly dodges the holy light barrage by flash-stepping. This causes Hazbin!Adam to be caught off-guard, which is enough time for Ragnarok!Adam to literally ran in the air and raised his right fist engulfed in holy light. Ragnarok!Adam then sends over 1000 holy light punches in a second at Hazbin!Adam, causing the latter to endure immense hits to his angel body with a final, one-inch punch sending him flying back to the hard ground and creating a deep crater.

Hazbin!Adam is greatly shocked by the experience of being hit in such a way. "Ugh! The fuck!? You hurt me?! You're just a man!" He would say, as Hazbin!Adam finds it incomprehensible that a "mere human", much less someone he perceives as a "faker", could actually hurt him like Charlie did in the season finale. Along with the fact that his opponent can use holy light attacks as well. (A/N: notice the sort of irony here)

Ragnarok!Adam doesn't respond to Hazbin!Adam's words, and continue to the onslaught to end this fight as quickly as he can.

The battle rages on between them, and slowly, the two Adams receive massive injuries from each other. Hazbin!Adam loses his costume to reveal the man beneath it, as well as his beer belly, and the bruises he's gaining while Ragnarok!Adam loses his right arm and goes blind after barely dodging a fatal holy light beam aimed at his head. Yet, each combatant continues to fight with all of their determination and might.

Then...the two Adams receive snippets of each other's memories. Ragnarok!Adam saw the atrocities that his otherworldly counterpart had committed to his descendants, and while greatly disgusted by his acts, he would also remember a time during his eternal afterlife when, he too, condemned his descendants for committing truly evil acts against the innocent, especially to those who delude themselves to believe that their horrible actions are "just" and in the name of God, and/or whatever they see as "virtuous" (a headcanon from his one Youtube commentator on "Fan-Made DEATH BATTLE! trailer: Adam VS Adam (Record of Ragnarok vs Hazbin Hotel)"), but later grew to learn that it won't truly solve anything and resolves to learn and be better to truly make the afterlife a happier place. On the other hand, Hazbin!Adam saw all the experiences his otherworldly counterpart had gone through and all the things he felt, to the point where he started to feel what he never saw himself capable of; "guilt". Guilt from his treatment of Lilith and Eve and how it drove them away from him. And the guilt from his massive slaughter of the Sinners (i.e. his descendants) as an Exorcist simply because they were, in his own words, "losers" simply for committing bad acts out of their control and for very justifiable circumstances, along with knowing that they're are genuinely evil people who only got into Heaven out of "luck" and doing something that not even he knows of what makes a "Winner" (i.e. those who ascend to Heaven) and a "Sinner" (i.e. those who descend to Hell).

In that one moment, both Adams stopped their attacks and were able to tell what the other was thinking. The one thing in their mind is that "he's...like me", and that this whole fight they're doing, might not end with the result they wished for: "to go back to their worlds.".

But at the same time, even if the "prize" wouldn't be what they expected and would still be "deader than dead", they have to win, even on the minuscule chance of seeing the ones they care for again. Along with making up for any past mistakes, no matter what suffering comes their way.

In the climax, the two Adams pour all of their power into a final punch that they send to each other. The collision of their powerful punches creates a devastating effect on the reality of the pocket dimension they're in.

In the end, Hazbin!Adam ultimately fell unconscious due to his fatigue, initial arrogance costing him damage, and his life-long experience of lax and gluttonous behavior catching up to him. Whereas Ragnarok!Adam, despite sustaining injuries with his scorched upper head that left him blind, bald, and without a right arm, manages to stand tall thanks to his prior planning and learning his limits from his defeat in his battle against Zeus.

Ragnarok!Adam, despite acknowledging Hazbin!Adam doing a number on him, the differences between them, and all of the latter's shortcomings, respects him mainly for his valor and strength. Along with seeing that in Hazbin!Adam's final moments, the latter acknowledges his flaws and grows to regret his actions to his descendants for his life-long extermination. Right before executing Hazbin!Adam with a single stomp to his face, ended the latter once and for all, and unknowingly, perhaps ironically, repeating the same event that his former godly opponent did to his own father Chronos.

Hazbin!Adam's body is then broken down into cosmic dust and it spreads throughout the multiverse. After a moment of mourning his otherworldly counterpart and honoring his death, Adam sees the host appear before him. He asked the host that the "prize" in question, "was never really a way to be revived, is it?", and the host simply nods as the power to do that is beyond him given how complex the multiverse is. But the host consoles Adam by saying that while the "prize" isn't a trip home, it is a message he can give to his loved ones for consolement. Adam agrees to this, and gives his final message to his loved ones back home, before quietly disappearing into the cosmic dust and spreading throughout the multiverse as his final death.

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Next time: The 40 x Kill the Justice League (4/4)

#record of ragnarok #hazbin hotel #fan comic #crossover #crossover fanart #adam record of ragnarok #adam hazbin hotel #vivziepop

[tev-the-random]

So I may have come up with a whole Villain Jimmy AU...

Listen. I have way too many feelings about the events of Jimmy's Empires S2 Episode 31 and the immediate following stream. I also have way, way too many feelings about whatever the hell is happening in Sausage's and Shubble's lore and whatever is to come in Lizzie's, so I decided to only indulge one brainrot at a time and came up with... an interesting concept? I dunno, I'm easily entertained—

(There's a TLDR at the end if you don't want to read my insane and incessant ramblings o3o)

Ok so, after Walmart WRA kills Jimmy on the bridge for the kicks and giggles, Jimmy really starts questioning just what respect is and who his friends actually are. The conclusion? Dude has absolutely zero friends. Sure, he has this truce going on with Joel, and Katherine has been somewhat trustworthy so far. But actual friends? Nada. Closest thing he had were Scar and Tango, but they're gone now and he didn't even get a proper goodbye. His town is empty. He's alone.

Jimmy may be quick to anger, but this might be the first time he actually allows himself to be sad about it. There's something much more painful than rage crawling inside of him; be it guilt, self-hatred, loneliness, betrayal, there's just so much he's been burying under all the fighting that he can barely breathe through it all now. But once it's over, Jimmy's left with a strange feeling of clarity. This cold bitterness and complicated self-awareness that would turn into something far more sinister in the future.

The next day is really what decides his next course of action, though. He's touring the Old Sheriff around the server, kind of holding onto the last hope that someone might want him to stay after all. But then Fwhip comes along and decides that no, he doesn't get to have this, so they start bickering like the old divorced couple they are, like nothing's changed. Somehow, Fwhip manages to charm his way into the Old Sheriff's good books despite everything that Jimmy has said about his ex-deputy.

Martyn (that's what I'm calling him, he doesn't get his own name now) laughs at his jokes, makes little comments that... sound so familiar to Jimmy. This is how it all started: little comments — and this is how it's going to end. Maybe the Old Sheriff has good intentions. Maybe he does have the intention to stick with Jimmy and be a friend/mentor to him. But Jimmy, still raw from his most recent disillusionment, can't bear the thought of befriending someone only to have the rug pulled from under him again.

So Jimmy leaves Tumble Town in the dead of night.

Now, his first objective is to bring himself back to normal. He had to admit, no matter how hard he tried, it was hard to gather any respect from others when he was trapped in the body of a literal toy. He had already asked Joel to reverse this nonsense, but the god only offhandedly mentioned that this was Jimmy's true form and that it was how he was meant to look — which Jimmy took as "I have no idea how to, my name is Joel and I'm irresponsible with my powers and incompetent and also really short". So his next destination is the Witch Academy.

He had heard about the them from Shelby. She was a nice witch — or, well, nice enough. She was clearly going through some stuff at the moment, which is why he thought it would be better not to ask her for help to begin with — and was clearly able to change people's bodies, whether intentionally or not. So surely the people who taught her magic would be able to help him, right?

Little did Jimmy know that most witches do not, in fact, give a damn about helping other people. After travelling far and wide, he explained his curse to them, and all they did was close the door on his face.

Well, he's not having it! If the witches won't help him, he'll find someone else who will! This is when Jimmy starts travelling around in search of someone, anyone who could undo his curse so he may start his life anew. Through all the ensuing shenanigans, he gathers some... interesting allies.

It's not that he wants to ally himself with undead pirates; he may not be a sheriff anymore, but that doesn't mean he's about to become a criminal! But alas, when the boat he's travelling with is captured, it's not like he can do much else.

Jimmy is spared due to his... interesting predicament. Well, surely this tiny tiny man could be useful! Besides, didn't he use to live close to Pirate Joe? So in exchange for some information on Skeletron's rival and helping them get some treasure for a little while, Jimmy is dropped off at the next port with directions to a shady wizard who might be able to solve his problem.

When he gets to said wizard, they are already expecting him. You see, this is the same wizard who gave Scott his magic eye, and although I'm sure we'll get some actual canon explanation to it eventually, this is an AU in which the wizard may have some... ulterior motives. And they may or may not have been spying on a certain god who lives very close to Chromia. But that's a story for another time!

Jimmy wakes up the next day his normal-sized, human self again! It's almost overwhelming, how much he loves his own body right now. His chest quite literally aches... and that's when he notices a heart-shaped scar on it.

The wizard is still around. They explain to him that, to deal with the curse, they had to remove his heart. Literally. They stored it in this lamp, which emits a blinding red glow — an indicative of how strong it is, how much it feels. The farther away he is from it, the more detached he will be from his feelings. Although that would mean he should probably carry it close at all times, he should not forget that it is still his actual heart; you better keep it safe, kid.

Now that the deed is done, the only thing that the wizard asks for is a front row view when Stratos falls. Jimmy carries a lot of grief, clearly, and if they know anything about him — which they shouldn't, but they strangely do, — he is going to get back at the people who made him miserable for so long. It just so happens that the wizard also has a beef with Joel, so really, they both win in the end!

After some not-so-subtle persuasion and reminders of all the horrible things Jimmy had to endure in the past, the wizard manages to convince our ex-sheriff into going back to the empires to truly bring an end to this story of pain. He's never going to be able to start anew unless he gets rid of all traces of his weak past self, right? His enemies deserve to reap the hate they've sown fashioned in cold blood, right?

And so Jimmy concocts a plan, gathers resources and new (purely professional and with no emotional attachment, never again) allies, and returns to Tumble Town a new man with a new name. In the day, he's a charming and friendly traveller sneaking his way into the emperors' hearts. At night, he's a dangerous bandit carrying a lamp of dwindling red light, playing a game of metaphorical chess with the authorities to bring the pieces of his plan closer together.

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TL;DR Jimmy leaves the empires bitter with his friends, searches for a way to turn back into a regular human and finds a wizard who does so in exchange for being able to watch the world burn. To reverse the curse, he had to lose his heart, which he now carries in a red lantern closely tied to his feelings. He goes back home for revenge.

Calling this one the Red Light Bandit AU òwó

#Red Light Bandit AU #please ask me more about it I'm reeling- #Empires SMP #Empires season 2 #Solidarity Gaming #Listen I know that the actual heart has nothing to do with our feelings #Magic works in strange and macabre ways don't worry about it #This goes with the Count of Monte Cristo idea I had the other day #I need a villain Jimmy who is Bitter and Resentful and Cursed in more ways than one #(Tried to highlight the first letter of each paragraph to potentially help with reading the these long blocks of text;) #(I have no idea if it actually helps please tell me if there's any better method I can use!) #TEV Talk #Don't Mind Me I'm Writing My Blorbos #RLBAU

[ghostfoolish]

I’m going to preface this by saying I loved this episode. I did have a few gripes with it that I won’t go into but all in all I loved it. It was peak drama. But I need to ramble about the domestic violence scene. I NEED to talk about it cause so much happens.

First off, the sound design and cinematography in that scene fucking SLAPS. Please give the foley artists and sound mixers for this show a raise cause sheeeesh the sounds of Lestat and Louis barreling throughout the house was phenomenal. The fact that the camera keeps focused on Claudia, leaving the fighting to the viewers imagination made this scene all the more terrifying but tasteful at the same time. I’ve unfortunately been in Claudia’s shoes when I was young and I think keeping the camera on her and her reactions was the best way to pull this off

Second off, the part where Lestat says “Cheri, You don’t want to fight like this anymore. I’m trying to restrain myself” coupled with Louis calming Claudia down and saying “we just need a moment” made me immediately think “oh…this has happened before..” Obviously not on the same scale as this but it read to me that this is not the first time Lestat has gotten drunk off of his rage, ended up hurting Louis or someone else and Louis had to calm him down so nothing would escalate further. Lestat’s temper has been brought up several times in the series. Him saying that he’s cursed with his dad’s temper foreshadowed this moment I feel like. Even his eyes can be seen as a motif of his anger. Both in the church scene and in this scene his eyes dilate and the white of his eyes become bloodshot and in both of those moments he’s absolutely monstrous. I could be wrong or reading into it to much of course but that’s what it seemed like to me. But this also leads to my third point..

Lestat’s redemption, if he’s going to have one, is probably going to rely on the fact that his vampirism fuels his emotions ESPECIALLY his temper. I can already see him love bombing Louis and apologizing in the next episode and using that as his excuse as to why he abused him but at the same time I do genuinely believe, through context clues, that he didn’t have much control over his rage. I mean…when normal humans fight it can be hard for some people to stop seeing red after the fact. Trust me this isn’t me coddling Lestat, I hope he gets bitten by them big ass swamp mosquitoes we got down here in New Orleans and ends up contracting West Nile but I do think his vampirism is not only not helping but actively aiding his already bad temper.

#iwtv 2022 #amc iwtv #lestat de lioncourt #louis de pointe du lac #interview with the vampire #iwtv

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

This went way back but Idk if you have ever analyzed on book 2, I know it is not well written and I agree the whole situation was so messy and all over the place that made it so hard to sympathize for Leona's struggles 😞

But I do have 1 question, why did he hurt Ruggie, the one person who has been suporting him all this time (even if it's for his own good)? I have been thinking but the way the story was told was so confusing for me, I'm an EN player. Thanks.

Don't bring that up 🤡 it gives me painful flashbacks/j I don't think I've technically analyzed episode 2, but I have done a rewrite for it (here!). L*ONA 😭 YOU DESERVED SO MUCH BETTER THAN THAT, I'M SO SORRY FOR YOU, KING OTL

Alright, so??? Ruggie's been doing whatever Leona's been telling him to do up until a certain point in the episode: when Yuu and co. reveal that Diasomnia is, in fact, totally safe and can play at full health. Leona’s plan has failed, so he gives up, saying that they’ll never have a shot in the tournament now. This upsets the rest of Savanaclaw (including Ruggie), who helped with Leona’s scheme because getting Diasomnia out of the picture would benefit their own future prospects with athletic scouts.

Ruggie then tells Leona they’ve come so far and done so much, it couldn’t have all been for nothing 🙃 so he and the other Savanaclaw kids decide they’ll drag Leona into the tournament kicking and screaming; they’ll make him play anyway because without Leona, their dorm basically has no chance. I think the intention of the narrative was to paint this as the reason why Leona tried to unalive Ruggie (he touches Ruggie’s arm and it starts to fissure/turn to sand) which… 🤡 I don’t know, that seems like kind of a silly reason to try killing someone over (though I will admit that it was kind of cool when Leona taunted Ruggie about not being able to laugh anymore because of the King's Roar drying up Ruggie's throat)???

I get that Leona is upset about being forced into something he doesn’t want to do (and he’s also dealing with the upset of his plot having been foiled), but man. Killing your right hand hyena??? In broad daylight, with your unique magic, in front of all these witnesses… Not the next look for ya, chief 😬 It felt like a lot of anger was misdirected at Ruggie (and maybe that was the point???), so the extreme reaction in spite of Ruggie’s loyalty to the cause up until that point seemed unwarranted. And why specifically Ruggie when literally all of the rest of Savanaclaw had the same sentiment as him??? Might as well commit all the way and try killing your entire dorm at that point/j

Personally, I think Leona should have lost his shit at Jack, not Ruggie 🤔 We were shown Leona getting angry at Jack and calling him a traitor right before his blow-up scene with Ruggie. Leona raging at Jack is something that was also more well “built up” to, considering that we got the night scene where Leona guilt tripped Jack into not spilling the beans after being confronted about his plans.

Imagine Leona sauntering away from that discussion confident that the little pup has tucked his tail between his legs and lost the courage to defy him, only to realize that NO, Jack actually has the balls to stick it to him and his lack of morals? 😩 And this kind of rebellion from a freshman towards his dorm leader?? Not showing respect and bowing down to the law laid down by the big boss?? By the king? Sounds like the perfect formula for unrelenting rage to me! Bonus points because this could be considered a slightly stronger parallel to how Scar emotionally manipulated Simba in the OG Lion King. Simba believed he killed his father so he runs away, but he ends up returning even though it may bring him great shame and fights his uncle to seize back his kingdom; Leona would be Scar and Jack would be Simba in this instance, with Leona shaming Jack for interfering with what is best for his dorm members’ futures, causing Jack to flee--only to later return to do what is right, even if it means fighting the "king" of Pride Rock (ie Savanaclaw) and having Leona lash out at him in anger.

ABSIYASV8YODAVSYDAVDS THERE I'VE GIVEN MY EPISODE 2 RANT FOR THE NEW YEAR 🤡 Let it be over now...

#Leona Kingscholar #Ruggie Bucchi #Jack Howl #Savanaclaw #spoilers #notes from the writing raven #question #Scar #Simba #The Lion King

[anon-san]

HOLY SHIT (long post!)

Okay so I’ve recently become obsessed with classpect analysis, it’s just so cool seeing how a character’s classpect can permeate their lives cause it makes you think and backtrack and see how it all lines up. So a couple days ago I had this completely random thought: What would Sakura Katana-chan from Sugoi Quest for Kokoro’s classpect be???

And I think I’ve figured it out: she’s a Prince of Space. (yes I know princes are male-exclusive but fuck that shit)

Allow me to explain (thanks to @homestuckexamination for the class explanations! check out their stuff!):

Princes actively either destroy or destroy through their aspect for their own benefit. They have strong personalities and sets of values that they tend to impose upon others. They can be egotistical and destructive, threatening to be harmful to those around them and even themselves. At their best they are diligent, skilled, and hard to break, but at their worst are toxic, rude, and arrogant.

The Space aspect has to do with outer space, creativity, imagination, journeys/distance, and objects (more specifically object properties, such as shape, size, etc). Not to mention Space players tend to have a big part in shaping canon in a story.

Sakura-chan’s status as a Mary Sue already cements her as a major piece of the puzzle. Her over-the-top attitude, toxic influence, and violent actions throughout Sugoi Quest for Kokoro ends up spiraling into a destructive rampage that changes everything forever.

The madness begins in episode two (though she does show Prince-like behavior even in episode one), when Sakura-chan somehow destroys a glass of water in her hospital room in her sleep (destroying objects in the space around her) while having what seems to be a prophetic nightmare of sorts. I see this as her awakening her Space powers somehow, maybe through her recently activated Neko Powers? Doctor-chan did say they were highly dangerous and could end up killing her. She then soon after leaves the room without a trace and heads to school-chan (destroying space (as in distance)/possible teleportation). 

As she goes, she spots her friend Terezi-chan walking with Karkat-kun to school-chan, which enrages her and she proclaims that she’ll “get [her] for this”, distancing herself from her friend, which in the long run will end up ruining their friendship entirely (destroying through space). After she arrives and goes to class, she snaps Terezi-chan’s spatula in half in rage, then throws a loud tantrum when the teacher tells her to go to the principal’s office. Then, when Vriska-chan uses Neko Powers to transform and become more powerful, Sakura-chan destroys her fantastical methods of attack with an incredibly simple and anticlimactic solution: she pops one of her humongous hungolomghononoloughongous, and then kills her before once again leaving without a trace, seeing as the police-chan didn’t arrest her on the spot. It is also at this point that she officially cuts herself off from Terezi-chan, clearly stating her intentions to kill her over Trollian later that night.

In episode three, Sakura-chan reunites with an old friend who she doesn’t remember whatsoever (once again destroying a relationship through space/distance), Ookami Kitsune-chan. When Ookami-chan is leading her to the school-chan's secret back entacne, they come across Flayme Rayven. Thinking she’s been set up, Sakura-chan uses her badonkers to grab and throw Ookami-chan into the far distance (destroying through space; increasing the size of an object). Not to mention how she ends up defeating Flayme-chan; once Flayme-chan insinuates that Sakura-chan is a weeaboo, she immediately ends their anime sword fight by shooting lasers out of her eyes and killing her instantly (destroying creativity by ending the sword fight and destroying through creativity (the eye lasers)). Afterwards, she learns of Terezi-chan’s tragic passing and is overcome with grief, though this could be solely because she couldn’t be the one to personally kill her.

All of this comes to a head in episode four, after Sakura-chan is finally placed in prison-chan for her crimes and is given a life sentence. She bemoans and laments her current situation, however when she realizes that she’ll be late for school-chan, she quickly breaks out by literally breaking through the side of the prison-chan. She then realizes that it’s Saturday, so there’s no school-chan for the day. As she walks off, a revived Terezi-chan with Neko Powers (and thus potentially awakened Seer of Mind powers???) stops her. Sakura-chan quickly transforms and attacks, but Terezi-chan sees through her plan and manages to beat her ass, and Sakura-chan is sent to hospital-chan once again. Doctor-chan scolds her for her reckless and constant use of her Neko Powers, telling her that she will die if she does so again. However, Sakura-chan maintains the idea that she needs her Neko Powers in order to become stronger, and in doing so distances herself from Doctor-chan, who is only looking out for her safety. And despite his insistence that she specifically NOT take the magical neko charm in the room, she does so anyway and demolishes her surroundings by transforming into a giant magical rainbow neko as prophesied by her nightmare from episode two. 

She then unleashes the epitome of what can be considered a Prince of Space’s abilities when Karkat-kun is accidentally killed by his mother, MILF-sama: she destroys the planet, and it was her own insatiable ego that led to all of this in the first place.

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk, and if death420 actually sees this, I am so fucking sorry.

#long post #sugoi quest for kokoro #sqfk #death420 #sakura katana #sakura katana chan #sakura katana-chan #classpect analysis #classpect #homestuck #why did i put so much time and effort into this #i have no fucking idea man

[thegeminisage]

ok, i have a lot of extremely important stuff to do today, but nothing and i mean nothing is more important than this latest tng update. sunday we did "first contact" and "galaxy's child" which was so bad it came close to making me skip my first tng ever and then last night we watched "night terrors" and "identity crisis" which sent me to fucking mars. let's do this

first contact: what a wild episode. my favorite bit in the world is "humans are aliens." it's never not funny. it was funny when they did it in farscape and it's funny when they do it in star trek. i was having a great time. they hold up one of riker's hands and wiggle those strange alien appendages (fingers). gasps all around. "what ARE these?" "a birth defect." points for trying, buddy. he stayed with it until the bitter end

i do wish this had been a funny episode instead of a serious one about space bigotry and alien republicans. the premise is hilarious and the seriousness of the tone, and knowing that in any other context i WOULD have been taking it seriously and enjoying it, kind of brought down the mood a little.

i have mixed feelings about riker's whole deal with that alien lady, tbh. i love watching riker suck and fuck his way out of situations. i love how down to clown he is. unfortunately he didn't seem very down there which turns what could have been an outrageous and fun riker slut moment into a close encounter of the space babes, and i don't really want riker to have any close encounters with space babes. i just want him to have a good time. like did they play it for laughs? yes. and was her fetishisizing him as an ~aaallliiieeenn~ hilarious? also yes. but he literally put his boots back on. and so i just have a hard time finding it as funny as the writers did. i would have been over the moon if this happened to kirk though we could have added it to our slideshow

that said watching him lift up that huge bench preparing to break the window with it was great. he's really strong. good for him.

galaxy's child: i think the only episode worse than this one was code of honor. and at least during code of honor i knew what to expect. i knew everyone said tng seasons 1 and 2 were bad. this blindsided me. it made me incoherent with with rage. catherine straight up stopped watching and let me do the back half on 2x speed.

speaking of seasons 1 and 2, i went and checked and the writer for this episode wrote primarily season 1 and season 2 episodes. they they let this person back i'll never fucking know.

the b plot to this was passable, actually. i liked the pregnant space whale thing even though i thought picard was kind of holding the idiot ball about it. i think it could have been really good in a different episode.

i can't even begin to articulate my thoughts on geordi and leah. it's easily one of the worst examples of star trek aging poorly...in 1991 they had no idea we'd be fighting these battles for real, but today in 2024 we absolutely know it is wrong to use a version of a person's face and body, without their consent, for your own emotional and physical gratification. and the fact that they had kind, easygoing geordi not only do this but then be a huge creep once he met the real woman is already bad, but they didn't even use it as an aesop moment where the moral is not to do that, because even though she yelled at him and told him how violated she felt, she immediately apologized afterwards???

it's just like the barclay episode. fucking real women in the holodecks is embarrassing but not immoral??? but this is totally different from having fantasties in the privacy of your head. he pulled information about her from the fucking computer! christ i'm so glad she turned out to be married. i'm going to try to forgive geordi bc it's not his fault they gave him this shit plot device twice but eeeugh.

night terrors: i literally deserved this. i EARNED this. after the sheer torture of last episode i needed nothing more than whatever the FUCJ this was

firstly for context i had had about two hours of sleep and been awake since 5am while watching this episode. that everyone else in this episode was also profoundly sleep deprived was a source of unending fucking joy to me

i spent half this episode shouting JUST LIKE THOLIAN WEB and then was briefly devastated when it was not in fact the tholians but they delivered in the form of scaring me silly

people hearing things that werent there. picards doorbell pranking him and then the KNOCK AT THE DOOR. the elevator trying to squish picard. SPACE GHOSTS. i was so happy

untill. the scene in the morgue

if you havent watched it then well don't read any further. but beverly is in the morgue and she's looking at all the bodies and then all of a sudden all of them sit up. in the body bags. they moved and they weren't supposed to be moving because they were dead. i may have screamed out loud. i definitely had to pause the episode. i will be thinking about it for the rest of my life. the episode ever. i can never watch it again because what if it's not as good when i've had an adequate amount of sleep? better to leave it as an extremely fond and terrifying memory.

anyway whatever cgi they did to put deanna in that dream was so funny. i hope it looked great in 1991

OH AND I NEARLY FORGOT. her talking worf down from suicide. fueling my riker e deanna e worf ambitions <3

identity crisis: this one was also scary because 1. geordi was with a woman and 2. that invisible shadow thing

luckily the woman brotherzoned geordi within the first 5 seconds (wise) and geordi almost turning into an invisible blacklight guy did a lot to redeem him in my eyes. cuz i dont WANT to dislike him yk thats like the reading rainbow guy

anyway the little invisible shadow in the footage/the holodeck got me bc at first i couldnt even see it. and then i did see it and i got scared about what it belonged to. and then geordi made that little invislbe blob and AAAA it was STANDING THERE even though nobody could SEE IT and i hated when he did it in the holodeck and i hated that planet and

oh yeah everybodys uniforms kept getting shredded. i thought the planet was trying to fuck them or something i didn't like that. but they were just naked bc they had to be naked to be invisible. and i didn't like that either but it was better than the alternate but it was all very frightening

anyway the makeup/special effects in that episode were VERY good, 10/10

TONIGHT: "the nth degree" and "qpid," which i am dreading already <3

#personal #star trek blogging #tng lb

[scarlettatg]

The Handmaid’s Tale

Episode 401 Pigs

Pain makes your world very small. My world has been this room. Today I venture forth. My world can’t be small, not now, because the others need me to protect them. Gilead is out there. Gilead isn't afraid. It does not hurt or sleep. It keeps coming. It keeps searching for us, and they will keep coming forever and ever and ever. No more time for me to stay in bed.

June’s voiceover in episode 401 made me think of how much I miss the fire in her this season where she’s trying to find herself now that she is “free” in Canada. She’s trying to control that rage, trying to control her desperation of getting Hannah, trying to live with her guilt and trying be who Moira and Luke expect her to be. It just didn’t seem to work. June carries a lot of guilt not only for the things she has done, but for who she became. The fact that she left Hannah (and that she still has people she loves in Gilead) is a constant reminder of her feelings of failure as a mother. She was able to fulfill her promise to Holly, but not to Hannah. So this season (besides her want for revenge towards Serena) she battled with making the choice of staying or leaving, and no matter what she chose she would end up losing. She spent this season trying to rebuild the life she lost but she’s clearly not the same woman and without Hannah, June won’t be able to move on. June lost everything in season 3. Her only purpose became Angel’s Flight and she didn’t think she was making it alive after sacrificing herself for it. Once she realized she did it, the only thing moving forward was to keep fighting. That became her purpose. She never intended to leave Gilead even when she believed she had lost Hannah. She just wanted to do whatever she could to hurt Gilead and to protect her friends and I think she knew that eventually she would get caught. At that point she didn’t care. Once the circumstances brought her to Gilead she began another journey. She was alive, she really had left Hannah, she had to face who she was now and Fred and Serena were there too. They couldn’t hurt her anymore but she wasn’t going to get justice for what they did to her. That shaped her journey in season 4 and the aftermath of that was her journey in season 5; realizing that revenge didn’t really give her back what she lost. So while we saw her trying to fit into this new life in Canada we also saw that even when she tried she couldn’t do it and like she said in that voiceover Gilead kept coming for her.

This season was supposed to be about June versus Offred and about letting Offred go. I personally think that’s impossible. June and Offred are one and they can’t exist without the other. The issue is learning how to coexist with both and accepting who she is now. I think she needs to realize (and I hope that’s what we see in season 6)that it’s not about getting Hannah anymore, she has to unfortunately let her go and understand that the only way to get her back is if Gilead falls. I know that in The Testaments she has to let go of Holly and that would leave her losing everything once again. I have hope that the conversation between her and Tuello about her using her voice and her saying that she wasn’t able to do that right now was a foreshadow. As hard as it will be to see June having to give up Holly I think it’s the only way she would find a purpose Maybe then we will see the fighter June that stayed behind in Gilead.

#the handmaid's tale #june osborne #gilead #the handmaids tale season 5

[just-here-for-iolaus]

HTLJ S1E1 "The Wrong Path"

The great HTLJ/XWP/YH (re)watch continues!

Finally starting the show proper!

We kick off with a scene in a pub where Hercules and Iolaus are helping the staff (and patrons?) who are being held/strung up.

I don't actually like fight scenes all that much so it felt kinda long, but I LOVED our boys in it, so that helped. I was so excited to see Iolaus in the episode right away, kicking ass, no less!

The way he shook off after the fight ended - why is he so cute??

"Feeling stiff." "Work out kinks." Am I reading innuendo into everything? Maybe.

Hercules goes home and witnesses Hera nuke his family. The way the family died was so cheap!! (My notes, literally: "I’m sorry, what…?")

We didn’t even get to see Dei’s face (I assume not the actress from the movies), and we didn’t see the kids at all! Just a (decent looking) fireball and they're just "gone". After them being in the movies I felt a bit robbed emotionally of a heartfelt death for Dei (and the kids).

I thought this could be a weird way to open the TV show since people might start at S1E1 without watching the movies. Later, they do put in some "flashbacks" of the movies to give the audience a sense of Hercules's family at least. So that's good.

I thought Hercules's reaction to it all was a little off? It felt very much like the scene was being "acted" if you know what I mean... It wasn't hard to forget I was watching an actor try to portray that he was rather upset that he'd just watched his family get killed in front of his eyes, rather than, like, believable anguish. That's okay. Hercules does better when he's not being rageful anyway. Unfortunately that's very much this episode, and I can't blame the character for it given what just happened.

I was surprised to see clips from the movies in the opening credits! Does that mean they hadn't filmed the whole first season yet when they made the opening sequence, or did they just like those shots so much...?

Iolaus comes to fetch Hercules to get to work, and Hercules has to deliver the news that Dei and the kids are dead. Iolaus is understandably upset, grieving them alongside Hercules. He asks about Zeus, but Hercules says his father won't show his face.

Oh and now we don’t see Zeus anymore? Hm. I remember being surprised we saw Zeus in the movies because I didn't think he showed up in the TV shows, so perhaps I was right!

Anyway then Iolaus suggests they "wage a war against Hera" in revenge. (My notes: "Awwww Ioley standing up for Hercules and shit-talking the gods. I love him.") Hercules agrees with the premise, but insists that Iolaus stay behind. Iolaus is all "You're my friend" and Hercules is all "And you're mine" and I just want Hercules to let him come along because I love them together.

Also I got lost starting at Iolaus and noticing his cool vest with the embroidered patches. I just like the way it looks!

Then Hercules decides to burn down his house and everything in it. I was a little confused why he decided that was the best course of action. Symbolic of a new beginning I guess? Is he gonna be a nomad now? (I guess that was always my impression of the show before watching the movies, so probably.)

While he's getting this ready, some guy (Lycus of Ister?) comes to ask for help and Herc shoos him away because he can't just help everyone who crosses his path. (Why not? But okay.)

We get this amazing scene where the guy goes to the pub to bitch about this and Iolaus stands up for Hercules and shit-talks Hera some more. And Zeus, too. He tells everyone that Hercules deserves their respect and sympathy. Love him.

Then Iolaus consoles the man that it WAS a good decision to go to Hercules for help, because normally he would have helped, and instead volunteers to help Lycus in Hercules's place.

Does Iolaus not still have a child?? I know Anya died in the movies, but he had a kid. That was like, a recurring thing that got mentioned in the last movie! Anyway...

While Iolaus is travelling with Lycus, Herc goes to visit his mother. Is this the same actress for Alcemene as the movies? My mental image is always Alcemene from Young Hercules so I don't remember what the movie one looked like. She reveals that Zeus told her about Dei and the kids.

Alcmene says "There is plenty of time for anger, but your grief has to come first"... Anger is often a part of the grief process, so that was a little confusing to me. What do I know, I just work at a Hospice.

Alcmene explains that the whole thing was Hera's reaction to Zeus being with some other woman... then very helpfully tells Hercules that Hera will destroy everyone that Hercules loves, all his friends and family, to keep him as miserable as possible, forever. (Thanks, mom.) Hercules wonders if his mom is safe and she thinks she is???

Herc says of Zeus, “He lets everyone down sooner or later.” Oof.

Honestly I still don't understand why Hera is taking out all her gripes with Zeus on Hercules, and I totally get why Hercules is done with Zeus's shit.

Hercules announces that to pay back Hera, he's gonna go destroy her 7 temples. At first I was confused because we see (what I guess were more like, shrines? Altars?) to Hera in all sorts of places, so how could there only be 7, and how could he be sure? But eventually we do see one of the temples he's talking about and it's like a big ass building, so I guess there's a difference there. 7 big temples.

I am so curious if this is like a season 1 quest or if it takes the whole series to complete, or if he like gives up to focus on other things, or what...? I guess we'll see!

I feel so bad for Herc. He’s in a bad place and clearly just doesn’t care about anything right now other than this revenge plan. He really seems broken. I miss happy Herc from the movies. 😭

We cut back to Iolaus who has mostly made it to Ister with Lycas. They stumble upon someone getting turned to stone by the she-demon that Lycus came for help about.

Hercules enters the temple to find there's a woman tied up and of course he saves her while fighting everyone and destroying the temple. Her name is Aegina. I liked her.

Aegina finds out about Hercules's plan, and tells him not to let what happened turn him into something he's not. We get a nice little selection of flashbacks of Dei talking about how much she loved that he always helped people, and people asking him for help. We see Hercules soften, and I got happy. I thought that was pretty well done.

We cut back to Iolaus in Ister, about to enter the she-demon's lair and when Lycus questions how he'll resist the demon, Iolaus says: “I’ve resisted many women in my time. It’s a special power that I have.” SIR???

He goes in and isn't seduced by the she-demon, but does lose the fight and get turned to stone. This immediately let me know that everyone who was turned to stone would turn back by the end of the episode because Iolaus has plot armour I'm pretty sure.

Hercules gets to Ister and finds out that Iolaus is dead, gives some guff to Lycus for wanting to leave town to escape being turned to stone, and then when Hercules announces that he's gonna put a stop to the she-demon, Lycus asks "How do you know you can?"

Hercules replies, “I’m undefeated.” Except for your dead family I guess but- (No, I know what he means, like, in a fight, but still. This felt a little cocky, but also a return of the Hercules I like, so I won't harp on it much lmao.)

He goes in to confront the she-demon and she tries to seduce him.

In my notes I had just the sentence "Speciesist." but couldn't recall why until I skimmed through again. There's a part where she asks "don't you like being loved, too?" and Hercules replies "Not by someone with scales on her rear end". Hahaha. 🤣

They fight, and Hercules doesn't have a weapon, so he tricks the demon into tying her tail around part of the cave. I noted that if he had brought a sword in, he could have sliced the tail off already. But in the end he gets her to sting herself with her tail, and dies - and, importantly, all the men who were turned to stone come back to life.

On the journey back, Iolaus reveals to Hercules that he saw Dei and the kids in the afterlife while he was turned to stone. I thought it was really sweet, since Hercules has been to the Underworld and we know that it can be nice. Herc asks if they're okay and Iolaus confirms that they're fine, they just miss Hercules. But they don't want him to die - they "know how much good [he has] left to do".

But also, like.... CAN HERCULES DIE? Did we ever get a straight answer on if Hercules is mortal or immortal?? If he's immortal then, like... he can never see his family again. That's sad!

And then he leaves Iolaus to go on his adventure by himself! So begins his nomad life (sans our boy for now)!

Overall, a decent episode! 😃

#htlj #hercules the legendary journeys #HTLJ s1e1 #the great (re)watch

[walkeddeath]

meta • mental profile :: ADHD  a chunk is under the cut because this ended up being 3 pages. it's not even all i wanted to talk about. ask to tag if i don't tag something !!

　　gen was diagnosed early, at about 6 years old, but only due to her father stepping in and refusing to let it go unchecked. they had been struggling in school to a severe degree, getting into fights, having breakdowns over tiny little things that to her made sense to break down over, and couldn't seem to keep friends if she was even able to make them. her mother fought against it, refused to accommodate it, denied it up until her death.

　　gen has known since she was diagnosed that she has adhd. still, never getting proper or remotely adequate assistance or help made it hard for her to accept that the majority of her "bad" behaviors were related. once she was able to do her own research, she pieced things together, but going through life unmedicated and continuous gaslighting attempts left a considerable impact on how she handles it all. 

　　therapy helps, meds help, but she still struggles day to day. emotional regulation, object permanence, and RSD are the primary things that cause the most issue, she has frequent crying episodes that seem to just come out of nowhere, forgets things constantly even if she's just seen it / interacted with it, and has a hard time dealing with others even begin slightly upset with her/ feeling like she's done something to push someone away. if it gets too intense, she withdraws. she flees.

　　she has rage episodes that are heightened by not just trauma but also her powers. a lot of it is tied to control and losing it. also feeling super overwhelmed / too tired. sometimes it's just because she hasn't eaten that day, or one too many things has happened and she can't handle it.  she will lash out if everything gets to that specific and undefined level of too much, and depending on the situation this can be verbal or sometimes physical.

　　90% of the time, physical reactions are directed at herself. she'll throw things / break things, though this is more a thing when she's younger. she does not use this as an excuse for any hurt or upset she might cause another person, but it is an explanation and a reason. they have been working on this in therapy for around 9 years, ever since her mother died and she was able to get help.

　　ALONG WITH THIS - she has a hard time with remembering dates no matter how important they might be. they forget they need to go to the bathroom, need to eat, need to blink at times. it's all very frustrating to them and they have a hard time letting others help them with all of it. she had to do it all on her own growing up, anytime she did let someone close it was just an inevitable that they would give up. it would get to be too much. so somewhere along the way she just... stopped asking for help. it never felt like anyone could hear her no matter how loud she screamed so, she just decided to save her energy, save herself from the hurt of not being listened to. shut off. 

　　they have their coping skills and some are good some bad, as she gets further into therapy there's an increase in the good and a decrease in the bad, but, some are still there. 

　　they have a tendency to get attached to others, they don't like it, and when things go too well or are too good, she bolts. she's working on this, at least to a degree. it isn't just the attachment but also the need for novelty, for something new that constantly pushes her to running and finding something that can fill a little empty part of her, and it hurts them to do it but they don't know how else to handle it. they do not and will never intentionally want to hurt someone that they love. it just happens sometimes, and she has to deal with the fallout, and it hurts. 

　　her overtalking and overexplaining is both due to the adhd and cptsd, but, it's mostly just how she expresses feeling comfortable. if she's able to just talk without filtering the speed or length at which she talks, it means she feels like she's in a safe space to do so. most of her hyperfixations are things that she won't share unless she's close to a person, they're on the odder side of things, but there are some that are really the only thing she wants to talk about the majority of the time.

　　 they will shove into a conversation at incorrect times, so, they do sometimes have a tendency to not talk. if they don't know how to enter a conversation, they'll avoid it, and if they don't there's a high chance she'll start talking over the other person. she doesn't intend to do this and ends up overapologizing for it.

　　she is not afraid to talk about her struggles and her diagnosis, she encourages others to talk about theirs, but does understand if it's not something someone wants to discuss. they do, from time to time, slip into a doom / rumination mode. it's something that she just has to ride out. all she needs is someone to support that she's having a hard time, not try and fix it all immediately.

　　there's a lot more to it all, but, this is some of the more important big things. i'll talk about the smaller things in another post. 

#i have so much more i can talk about but this ended up being a ramble #which honestly for a post abt adhd it's core #my source for the accuracy of this :: i've been diagnosed nearly my entire life and this is highly influenced by my own rel. with adhd #if anything needs tagging please let me know #i am very insistent that this occurs alongside her powers #her powers influence how extreme things can get but #one does not mean the other magically goes away or is made better by the other #like fuck the ND is a superpower narrative it's horrible and i hate it #she's a little half cosmic entity that also has adhd #anyways i'll wrap this up fkdsfds #long post // #mental health tw // #abuse mention tw // #med denial tw // #gaslighting tw // #₊ ⊹ this phantom life sharpens like an image • meta.