#also yes I do still do song analyses stuff

[laniemae]

Wow… I can’t believe it’s been a full year since I first watched Milgram. (Yes, I do in fact celebrate anniversaries of when I first get into something) so just wanna recap my experience watching it and how this became an obsession.

[WARNING THIS IS A VERY LONG RAMBLE]

It all began almost exactly 1 year ago where basically me and my friend were talking random shit and she bought up milgram. I had never heard of it before, hearing it I was absolutely enthralled with the concept of CHARACTERS and SYMBOLISM and TRIALS and MORALITY and GENERAL DANGANRONPA ESQ VIBES. So basically this was right up my alley and I knew I was going to watch it as soon as I could.

I was already super obsessed with Mcki-RobynsP’s danganronpa fan songs and me and my friend loved analysing them so seeing a whole music project with a very similar concept blew me away. (Didn’t know where to put this so here’s an edit I made immediately after watching the music trailer, which is a historical artifact to my life back then)

We watched some MVs such as undercover, and a bit of throw down because I was really interested in flower symbolism and freaked out because of that. And I was also told about the whole Mikoto tiktok incident and showed me MeMe which I started laughing thinking about it. And how lots of the characters names are similar to danganronpa characters names (Mahiru shiina = Mahiru koizumi, Kotoko yuzuriha = Kotoko utsugi, Mikoto kayano = Makoto naegi) took me a bit too long to realise mikoto was spelled with an I and I still get confused.

Friend also bought up how one of the characters is a liar and how essentially his entire MV was on a stage and he was wearing masks and stuff, and Kokichi being probably one of my favourite characters of all time I was especially captivated as there was a character like him. Funnily enough kazui was nothing I expected him to be. And while looking at some of the characters I remember seeing t2 Amane and thinking “she looks like mikako (from DRA)” and looking back it this it’s interesting how that was my first impression of her.

Apparently when I was being told all this stuff the idea of it being on the internet completely flew over my head when I thought it was essentially created by the fans like SCP, despite how contradictory that was and wouldn’t make any sense, I think my brain was fucked or something. And I compared it to Splatoon and with voting stuff which can change the course of the series of events and everything.

I did go into it being partially spoiled for a few things such as Amane’s cult, Yuno’s abortion, Mikoto’s DID. But even so it didn’t ruin my enjoyment and it was still amazingly fun to watch and I binged trial 1 in a day, then a few days later watched trial 2, right before Mahiru’s MV came out.

My first impressions on the characters, I can’t exactly remember but I remember seeing Mahiru and thinking I’d hate her for all her talk about love and that she’s just a yandere. Only for TIHTBILWY to blow me away and I immediately noticed with the lines 

“Even when I test you, even the times we do the breakup ritual, Is because I love you”

How much more nuanced her character was and definitely picked up on the whole BPD coding which definitely changed my perspective on her so quickly.

Again I was in my danganronpa another phase when I was watching milgram so when I first saw Fuuta and his rants about justice I was like “is he gonna be like Tsurugi” only for… Kotoko to happen which I thought was funny. I also originally thought that Fuuta was in a gang or something and he was their leader and was beating up someone and he told the others to stop but they didn’t and the person died.

I already knew about Amane’s cult because my friend had told me and I definitely picked up on it with the whole “tough love” thing and childish depiction of abuse to the extent that it was normalised. And when the entire atmosphere changed where the instruments became organs and bells that was the spark where I knew she was going to be my favourite character, and she has been ever since. And even so the whole vibe of Magic and the song definitely stuck out to me more compared to everyone else.

Other thoughts on characters were that I had absolutely no clue what Shidou had done and was freaking out, the only thing I had to go off of was a doctor. And I was so interested in that final scene of undercover where it’s the silhouettes of the characters killing Es in the way the killed their victims. And trying to figure out who was who (yuno, fuuta and kotoko were easy to find but it took me a while to figure out the others) and I looked at the one silhouette who was on top of es and beating them with some sort of pipe and thought “wow this is incredibly violent I wonder who this is” and when I learned it was amane I freaked out but at the same time it made me love her even more because go murder girl go.

I also remember some minor experiences I had with milgram before getting into it, such as seeing the thumbnails for after pain and meme on my recommended but didn’t watch them. And one of my OCs is called Haruka and I looked up the same because I was confused wether it was a girls name or a gender neutral same and saw Haruka sakurai and simply thought “why is this guy in a straitjacket”. And Weeby Newz’ video on it which I didn’t watch but definitely saw the thumbnail for it multiple times.

And then when I watched trial 2, I had already partially known that Amane was guilty and freaked out about it, but for whatever reason when I heard the reasoning behind it I understood (but when thinking about it after a while I realised that that was stupid). And seeing a better look at her sprite I could not get over how messed up she was from her happy disposition in trial 1 and aighhh. I actually made a meme of it. (I think I also drew it but it was lost in The Great Storage Purge)

It was also shocking to me seeing how it was kotoko who attacked the guilty prisoners and their injuries were not a result of being physically tortured and such. And also k couldn’t get out of my head that Fuuta with the eyepatch looked EXACTLY like xander from DRDT. And again I was also losing it at the visual of Amane and how it was talked about how hostile she has become. And partially disappointed by the confirmation mikoto had DID which I didn’t believe from meme and thought it was gonna be another dumb stereotype, but after a while looking at the lyrics for the double promo I started to suspect it wasn’t that and especially with what others were saying.

When it came to the trial 2 MVs, I was completely taken off guard by the vampire refrence in tear drop and at that point I didn’t even know they covered vocaloid songs. And seeing backdraft with its graffiti symbolism hugely reminded me of my OC Kayo who I have talked about here before. And with Muu I heard people talking a lot about INMF on after pain and knew it was going to be crazy when I watched it. And especially with the way more unforgivable light muu is portrayed in, the whole crazy face after murdering Rei and the bugsona along with the music made this one of my favourite songs instantly.

And here I was first watching milgram only days before I love you and oh boy was it an interesting premiere. And I vividly remembering looking at the premiere like 20 minutes before it started and saw people talking about fucking Shidou mpreg and just left until 5 minutes remained and it’s hilarious looking back at how that was one of my first experiences with the milgram fandom. Oh boy the milgram yt live chat you’re certainly a jungle.

I also remember seeing people spamming MAPPI INNO which I knew was some inside fandom joke which I had no clue what it meant so of course I gave into conformity and started saying it as well. In which I noticed inno meant innocent but it took me a long time to realise where mappi came from. I was shocked to see how dark of a tone the mv had compared to TIHTBILWY and the music as well and how it kept switching tones.

I was originally confused to what she had done and wether to forgive her or not because I interpreted the rat cake scene as she killed her bf to make him obedient. And I proceeded to yap about theories on my gc with my friend only for my other friend to get extremely confused who I ended up converting into a milgrammie.

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So yeah that’s how my extreme obsession with Milgram started, a hyperfixiation which has now lasted a year straight with no signs of it stopping soon. I guess Milgram is everything I wanted in fiction and especially at the right time where I was really into danganronpa fan songs. And themes of psychology, moral philosophy, symbolism, music, murder it’s essentially like it was made for me. And how something as specific as singing murderers captivated me so much that it feels like I cannot grasp how I was before watching it. And especially with how I now have two blorbos (Amane & John) which is rare for me and especially with milgram I can easily talk about any character as they’re all so interesting to me compared to other pieces of media where it’s only a select few characters.

I vividly remember thinking “I can’t believe it’s been a week since I first watched milgram” to “I can’t believe it’s been a year since I first watched milgram” and it feels so short yet such a long time. So consider this ramble of mine a love letter to the series.

#milgram #Man I don’t think I’ve ever been so hyped about a series to celebrate the anniversary of when i first watched it with something like this #I joined milgramblr in early august as I had a tumblr and figured why not join the fandom and stuff #Probably my fondest memory I’ve had from the series so far was the premiere for purge march #Essentially it was premiering on the same day I was at a camp so it was at night in the middle of a forest on almost a mountain #Me huddled up in my tent on my phone watching my most anticipated trial 2 mv of my favourite character #And absolutely going ballistic with everything that happened and was revealed it was truly so memorable and amazing #Also as well as that when deep cover premiered only a few days after my birthday #And me and my friends were all together screaming about it and going nuts #Also I forgot to mention this but as well as everything was so bewildered by the whole aesthetic of milgram and everything #Like it was essentially my dream aesthetic/vibe and what I was trying to capture with my concepts for perfect atrophy for so long #I could go on and on about the aesthetic of milgram as it’s so captivating and it definitely reminds me of the whole danganronpa style #And just everything about it is so so good I can’t express how much I love milgram #Especially with the more and more esoteric words I’ve been using for amazing

[kaddyssammlung]

Some thoughts about this artwork...

Since I'm done with analysing all of the Sleep Token songs on a surface level I would like to dive deeper into a few things.

I will post the texts in here twice a week until I'm finished. In case someone is wondering. But I doubt that.

Still doing this mostly for myself and for the joy of doing.

Today I want to take a closer look at the artwork for Are You Really Okay. I think it's haunting. To me this one stands out. I can't explain why. It's just that once I saw it, I could not “unsee” it. It's haunting.

I don't even know where to start.

Let's just take what's I find most disturbing: the incubator and the baby in it.

Whenever I see an incubator it brings out strange feelings within me. I live close to idk how to say this. A certain place that was used for certain things during WW II. One day we visited that place with our teachers and we had a tour guide. That guy, dear God, he liked to describe things in the most graphic way ever. And yes it had something to do with incubators. I don't want to bring up the horrible history of that country.

There is more stuff that goes into the same direction but I don't want to bring that up.

Let's just say that I'm personally horrified by seeing incubators and the image in that artwork does not help because to me it looks creepy.

Let's try this with logical thinking and less emotion.

Incubators are used for babies that need it. Usually they need it because they were born too early. They help to keep the baby warm and its body-temperature stable.

This incubator is attached to this being. Seems nothing wrong with that. Right?!

This being is holding a sword. That sword is very big. I don't see how she could lift it up by herself if she had to. In case she needs to use the sword to fight then she would need two hands to lift it because it's so big. But she would have to drop the incubator but then the incubator would maybe fall off or the baby would not be protected as much anymore. Or the air supply, that she provides for the incubator and the baby would be cut off and then it would die.

In case of danger she can either try to defend herself but then the baby is dead or not defend herself and then they both die.

Devastating....

That's what I meant with haunting and disturbing. Maybe I read too much into this but that's how I see this.

What I also find strange is whatever she has on her back. Are those arrows? Is something attacking her and she is using her back to fight it off? Or is this something that's more like feathers? Maybe this creature is a mixture between a spider and some bird?

The legs do reminds me of spiders. But spiders have eight legs.

What I also find strange are those little stars that are kind of hanging from her.

And also she is wearing a helmet but can't seem to see through this thing. So like I said in case of danger she is defenseless.

So...Idk. It makes me think about weird things and I don't even want to mention the lyrics. I wanted to take an extra look at this.

#sleep token #sleep token worship #sleep token lyrics #sleep token lore

[ilove-kate-bishop]

Let Me Give You A Good Time

Kate Bishop x Reader

Summary: After messing up on a mission in germany, Kate and Yelena are on the run together with a local superpowered girl who helped them out, you! Kate appreciates your help a lot, in fact, she plans to show you just how much.

Warning: 18+, some Sexual activity at the end, alcohol, swearing (both in english and german),

Note: There are some german sentences here, you will be able to find the translation at the end of the fic, they do not have to be read immediately to understand the plot. They are just an extra

Also, for those hoping for full on smut: sorry, but I can't write that to save my life. So you just get a bit of the beginning here.

Life could be wild sometimes. One day you could discover you can move stuff with your mind, the next you sit in a stolen car together with a russian assassin and a Avenger.

Well, it's not like I had any important plans anyway.

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"Are you sure we are on the right road?". I tried not to roll my eyes at Yelena, too worried she would take it as a insult, she was still scary after all. It had been decided early that I would be the one to drive, it just made the most sense. I had a german ID and drivers licence, and, of course, can speak german. So the police wouldn't be to suspicious, especially since the owner left the papers in the car, so dear uncle Franz just borrowed me the car, at least that was the story we are going with.

"We are on the A9, we have been since we left Berlin. So yes, it's the right road.", I tried not to sound too annoyed. But hearing Kates giggle beside me told me I didn't succeed. "Let her be Yelena, she is our smart saviour, she knows where to go". I tried to not freeze up when Kate touched my arm.

God, I needed to control this crush. It has been 4 months, I should be used to Kate's antics by now.

I looked at a road sign and then back at the clock in the car, there was no way we would reach Munich before midnight, aside from the fact that we need more gas anyway, we still had over 300 kilometers to go.

"I know we said we want to reach that contact as quickly as we can, but I don't really want to drive or go to a gas station when it's pitch black so.... anyone got an idea where to spend the night?". I could see how Yelena was quickly analysing the road signs. I didn't know the whole story, but apparently there are Black Widows basically everywhere, ready to help Yelena out. It's how we managed to live more or less comfortably in Berlin for 4 months, even if we were in hiding. And it was how we found out that there was someone in Munich who could help get in contact with Melina, whoever that was, though Yelena was excited when she heard.

"I know a place".

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"Könnte ich zwei Bier haben?". The barkeeper looked at me, he also looked at Kate behind me for a moment, but then just shrugged, putting two bottles in front of me. They already asked for IDs on the door, not really caring about nationality as long as you were over 18, so there was no reason for the barkeeper to doubt our ages.

"Danke", I put the money on the counter and gave one of the bottles to Kate before pushing myself through the crowds to reach one of tables. Most of the people were either on the dance floor, too drunk to care that the same Schlager song was playing for the third time by now, or standing around in the middle of the room talking to each other. Which meant there were still some free tables.

We reached an empty one at the corner of the room, there were no seats, but we could see most of the room, including the entrance, so it was good to keep lookout for Yelena. I tried not to think about the fact that a few months ago, I would never had to think like that, when everything was still normal. I took the beer from Kate and was holding both of the bottles beneath the table, hiding them as I used my powers to open them.

"Now we just have to wait for Yelena to come back right?". I gave Kate her bottle back, looking at her for the first time since we left the car, really looking at her. And god, I had to hold my breath for a second. The only light in the room was a atmospheric low purple, and GOD how it suited her.

She started smirking at me: "You alright there?". Our hands brushed and I nearly choked. I survived a lot in the last few months, but I really believed Kate would be the death of me. I quickly grabbed my drink, with both hands and tried to look anywhere but in her eyes. "Yeah, yeah. Just has been a long day so.. I am a bit tired".

I took a sip, trying not to cringe at the bitterness. Beer has never been my favourite, but it was the cheapest they had here. I heard Kate chuckle: "So bad? I thought germans LOVED beer?". I rolled my eyes, relaxing a little. "Thats a stereotype, what, do you expect me to wear a dirndl too?". "You would look cute in one", she took a sip from her own beer, though clearly not liking it either: "I should get you one, then you have something to wear at avenger events".

I felt my cheeks getting hot, and my head was filled with images of Kate taking me shopping. Of her making me try out clothes and making me show how they looked. Her hands running over my arms, slightly pulling everything in place, before her hands went under the dress and slowly....

I shook my head, unable to say anyhing again or look at her at all. God, I had many thoughts about Kate in the last months, but none had went THAT far.

"Tschuldigung", someone basically fell against our table, with such force that our bottles would have fallen if we weren't holding unto them. The guy looked wasted beyond sense and like he was about to puke. "Brauchen Sie Hilfe?". I catched him by his arm as he was about to fall. "Sie? Gott ich bin alt".

I let go of him when he managed to properly hold himself up on the table, only to feel two strong arms snake around my left arm. I tried to ignore Kate pressing herself against me, though it was hard to, since my whole arm seemed to burn at her touch.

"David? Alles ok?", a girl suddenly appeared from the side, grabbing the guy, David, and helping him stand without holding unto the table. "Es tut mir so leid, ich war kurz weg und habe nicht realisiert wieviel er getrunken hatte". I shrugged: "Keine Sorge, er hat nichts gemacht. Braucht Ihr Hilfe?". She smiled at me widely and shook her head. "Nein, wir kommen klar. Aber danke.". She took a small look at Kate. "Und genießt euer Date, ihr seit süß zusammen". And with that they were gone.

"Date?", Kate chuckled behind me, her hot breath hitting my neck. I didn't react, thinking if I should lie and say it meant something else, though I knew she wouldn't fall for that. "She... said we look cute together", my voice became a whisper at the end of the sentence, losing the small confidence I had left.

"She would be right, you are cute enough for the both of us". Kate walked in front of me, one of her hands slowly caressing my cheek. "Did I ever mention how it sounds nice when you speak in your mother language? It's fascinating, to watch your mouth move when you do."

Did she want me to die?

"Am I interrupting?". Yelenas voice made me push back, hitting the wall with my head in the process, making both her and Kate laugh. "I'm guessing you got us a place to stay?", I asked her, trying not to show my embarrassment. Yelena kept grinning for a moment, looking between me and Kate, like she was planning something. "There are rooms above the disco, we can take them, however there is a little thing you should know beforehand.". I didn't think it would be possible for her shit eating grin to become bigger, but it did. "What is it?"

"There are only two rooms free at the moment, each with one bed. Two of us have to share. "

....

How hard would it be to make Yelenas death look like an accident?

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I tried not to shake as I opened the door, which was extremely hard, since Kate was right behind me and I could feel her eyes swift over my body. I had to stop myself from basically running into the room once I got the door to open. I heard Kate close to door behind me once she followed me in.

Wow.

That's a big bed.

I threw my bag on one of the tablets before turing to Kate, who was staring at me, smiling. It was hard to look her into the eyes, but I kept doing it anyway, trying to figure out her next move.

Why couldn't I get both telekinesis and telepathy?

"Is this our plan for tonight? To have a staring contest?", Kate was walking towards me, coming to a halt right in front of me. Her eyes, for just a moment, went to my lips, before coming back to my eyes. "In that case, you would have lost", I teased, in a poor effort to calm my nerves.

Kate hummed: "Well, I guess you deserve a reward then, don't you?", she seemed to think for a moment: "You should have gotten a reward for saving our lived a while ago, now that I think about it". I just took a moment to think: "You mean?", I made a vague gesture towards the bed behind me. Kate just smiled at me softly, and god, what I would give for her to look at me like that for the rest of my life. "If that's what you want".

I took a moment to get my voice back and to think. God, 4 months, Kate has been flirty with me for 4 months, and I just thought it was a personality trait of hers. We could have gotten here a long time ago.

"Y-Yeah, I do.... want that", my voice became quiet at the end, but Kate seemed to have heard me perfectly. Not wasting any time, her lips were on mine in a instance. Kate was slightly pushing both of us towards the bed, causing me to made a startled noise when I was suddenly sitting on it. Kate used the opportunity to slip her tongue into my mouth.

Could I get two beers?

When we finally parted we had to catch our breaths, Kate was still grinning though. And god, I could die right here, and be happy.

I reached for Kates jeans, but she simply grabbed my wrists and then proceeded to pin me down on the bed, my hands above my head. "Now, didn't we agree that you were getting the reward?", I looked at her slithly confused: "But? Don't you want to-". Kate gave me a quick kiss to shut me up: "Of course, but we do need to sleep at some point", she managed to get rid of my jeans with ease. "And you have more then enough time to pay me back once we are in New York, don't you?".

I couldn't fight the fuzzy feeling I got when she said that, causing me to just smile like an idiot at her.

"Yes, of- of course".

Kate hummed again as she got rid of my panties, smiling like she just won the lottery. "Try not to be to loud sweetheart, Yelena won't let you hear the end of it otherwise". Then her head disappeared between by thighs.

Yelena would definitely be a nuisance tomorrow.

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Translations:

Thanks.

Sorry

Do you need help? (The you here is Sie, which is a more respectful/formal use of you in german)

You? God, I am old.

David? Everything alright?

I am so sorry, I was gone for a bit and I hadn't realised how much he had drunk

Don't worry, he didn't do anything. Do you need help?

No, we can handle it, but thank you!

And have fun on your date, you two are cute together!

#kate bishop x reader #Kate bishop #marvel imagine

[silverbladexyz]

Hey bae I saw that you write for yukito so I wanted to request general dating yukito headcanons if that’s okay💕

Yes!!! Anything for our hot blond smexy detective <3

The image does not belong to me. It belongs to it's original owner.

TW: None

General dating headcanons with Ayatsuji

-Dating Ayatsuji requires a lot of effort and patience. First of all, you have to prove to him that you're worthy of his trust, then you have to prove to him that you're not as dumb as he thought you were

-He also isn't used to affection, so don't be too affectionate at the start of the relationship. Start by merely doing casual touches, then advance onto hand holding, hugs, cuddling, and kissing. Ayatsuji would be kind of stiff at first, but afterwards he will warm up to you and even start reciprocating those actions

-Who is Ayatsuji without some teasing? Expect a few light-hearted teases everyday, ranging from trivial stuff that he bested you at to how cute you would look in an outfit that he bought you. He finds it amusing when you tease him back, especially when you got him a princess outfit and called him ‘My pretty princess’ #PrincessYukitoAyatsuji2023

-If you like cats, you’re in for a treat. Your partner has 2 cats, and they are quite well-behaved, not to mention they are cuter than any other cat in Yokohama. If you two aren’t busy, Ayatsuji would take you to feed and play with his cats

-Doll-making!!! Yukito wouldn’t pick a partner that didn’t like dolls that much. In his eyes, a relationship also consisted of exploring and doing each other’s hobbies, so be prepared to spend a lot of time in his basement admiring his exquisite dolls and making them with him. He is quite skilled with his fingers, so he will make model a doll off you in a couple of days

-When the relationship progresses, Ayatsuji might take you to some of his cases if they’re safe enough. It’s a marvel to you on how he always manages to solve even the most difficult crimes. You tried once but failed miserably; after a lot of teasing from Ayatsuji, you opted to watch from the side-lines. Don’t worry, he’ll still teach you tricks for solving a case if you wanted him to

-Now onto dates. I feel like Ayatsuji wouldn’t have a lot of time to take you out on dates, because 1. He’s busy solving cases and 2. He’s basically stuck in that office everyday. But he can pull some strings with the Special Division for Unusual Powers and take you out to quiet places for dates. I am sorry if you like to go to amusement parks or concerts, because this man hates anywhere that is loud and chaotic

-Coffee shops are a must go-to during the weekend. Even though Tsujimura brews really good coffee, the ones brewed in coffee shops are normally better (sorry Tsujimura ;-;). So just imagine you and your partner drinking delicious coffee while lightly chatting, or just gazing out into the lovely scenery in comfortable silence

-Ayatsuji probably doesn’t listen to much music in that office, so share some of your music with him! He might like classical or some old pop songs; mostly classical because he thinks it’s fun to analyse the music (same here). Tsujimura was so confused when she heard Debussy’s ‘Deux Arabesques’ coming from his office that she thought it was somebody else’s office

-He cares for you very deep down, even when he might not show it often. But just know that you have a very special spot in that complicated heart of his ♥

@pixyys @i-just-like-goats @xxelfmamaxx @yuugen-benni @lakeside-paradise @yukitomybeloved @arisu-chan4646 @nekokinax

#bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #ayatsuji x reader #ayatsuji yukito x reader #bsd fluff #silverbladexyz

[yourwolfmuzzle]

You know, im not going to be this kinda guy who “oh i know everything and i know how to do better” when it comes to the White Fangs and faunus stuff that going on in this series. I dont think i know how to fix this or rewrite this...race parallel story and i will not sit there and lie to people or most importantly to myself that i know better in this topic. And frankly, MK openly already admit that they themselves dont think that they doing great job (but im not sure that say shit like “oh we was young and we both just white dudes” will...make this situation better? Like...im white af and pretty far away from knowing american history or black culture history, but if i really want to write parallel between my fantasy race and some real situations and\or movements from real life - i first will at least spend more that hour to think about this and read history about this?).

Why i write this post? Seeing those post about “Yang buying the best tuna for Blake :)”, how fans treat sometime this topic (faunus specifically) or how this everything was written in the show - started with how Yang trying to get Blake attention in vol2, treating her like literally a cat and portrait this as a joke moment, stuff from chibi R/WBY, “oh she dont like dogs”, Marrow WHOLE character (love him, but he just “dog joke”) or how “faunus dont like when people call them just animals” transform into “blake, you can be human or just a cat”, jokes like “ask a cat to another cat” or how one of the compliments from Yang was “you have a cute cat ear” (OFFTOPIC - I still cannot believe that this was one of the things in confession scene...you telling me that those two never talk about what they like in each other and so basic stuff like “cute ears” even when they was a friends? Fucking really? Not even as a non romantic thing? If yes then HOW DE FUCK THEY EVEN DATING NOW???) - i wish there was never parallels with black history.

This is not i dont want to see stories like this or parallels like this. I love sometime read rewrites about this topics. I just wish its never was a thing in the show because from what i can see a lot of fans of this show have more interest in “cute animals interactions” that on analysing how bad this whole faunus and White Fang story was written. Not even that but the writers and directors not even have that much interest in this outside of “make one group look evil and do evil stuff”. From what i can see, most of the time people who have interest in this or try to work with this topic is people who think that “this topic was written without any nuance/accidentally (or not) extremely racist and i want to do rewrite about this” or to just make this into “omg Yang can be ally for Blake and she can support her and” and this all just transform into this one scene, when Weiss just drop some racist guy into trashcan. Just to make people who is not faunus look good in this picture and save sad small Blake(9((( (we all collectively will forget that she was in White Fang since childhood and was pretty good enough to fight with people like this but oh boi now she need help from people to deal with this).

And listen, i get it. A lot of people love cute animals or characters with animals traits. Im a cats owner and love dogs a lot, even if i cant have one. I have a characters with animal traits myself and im werewolf fan. People transforming into animals and who can have some kinda activity with all this? Oh hell yeah, give me more. We love cute cat girls and bois and everyone inbetween. This fandom is also LOVE stuff like this and the writers are no different either

But...its cant just work like this, when literally From Shadow, song that was in trailers, that we know before we even got first chapter of this series, tell us stuff like this: 

Treated like a worthless animal, Stripped of all rights, Just a lesser being, Crushed by cruel, ruthless Human rule

I cant just sit there and be like “omg cute Blake omg she a cat girl uwu” when before volume 9 calling someone just by they animal traits was equals to just dropping racial slur. Imagine volume 1-2 and someone call Blake literally a cat? She would just “destroy” this person on the spot and most likely this person deserved it.

And you cant just...drop this idea and be like “its never was about racial discrimination.” You cant just sit on two chairs at the same time and tell us that Blake soo easy about people calling her just a cat or her calling herself just a cat person with just cat ears when for 8 volumes its was about “dont treat us like we just animals”. You cant. You ether can continue this race parallel further, but having studied this topic better even with all the mistakes that was already done or try somehow find the ways to rewrite what you already have done at least for a little bit, or just...at least dont fucking touch this whole “ahah cute ears and tails” stuff and pretend that there are no problems.

#rwde

[bluewinnerangel]

can you talk about change pls i need more change love and analysis in my life

I know of a couple of Change analyses here and I think I'll just end up repeating a lot of what's already said if I'll just do a full reading but BUT what's not part of those analyses is it in the context of FITF (you know since he played it well before we had the album). Soooo I wanna use this ask to highlight a bit of the lyrics weaving magic that goes on within FITF, taking Change as a handle and somewhat match other lyrics? I think that might result in some fun stuff to break our brains over.

I don't think we have the official lyrics of Change, just so you know some of these words may be wrong I can't be sure. Also these parallels often just hold the same theme and said theme is everywhere (I mean, change and time and being the same they're just always everywhere constantly) so they're paired up with a line in Change in this thing but they all just belong together in one big piece of coherent work and not so literal in the one-on-one I'm writing down here but it does the job I think:

Change x FITF:

Time of our lives, it's easy to see / We were just getting by but we were complete

To me the most obvious parallel is with Common People:

I came from a good home / A house full of terrace dreams / That was enough for me / You know you had to see it to believe / All the late nights / Good times - Common People

and again the next verse, perhaps even worse:

No deep pockets / But big hearts / Do you see what I see / Now we’re all screaming on the dance floor - Common People

And more:

We’re going out to end up somewhere we’ll regret / Cos in this town it’s easy to forget - That's the way love goes (easy to have a good time)

Do you see what I see - Common People & She's Beauty We Are World Class

Lately, lately it’s been so easy to see my life completed instead of half way full - Paradise

Gonna cut here because it's gonna be a few scrolls:

Fun that it starts with "time", because that's EVERYWHERE. Out of 21 songs (16 deluxe +paradise +copy +saved by a stranger + high in california + change), 17 have the word "time" in them. 17.... Yes we're doing it. This is literally every time(lol) the word time shows up, rather than the theme of time, because that's more than this (you know when you stare at a word too long and you forget its meaning yeah get ready):

Said I had a plan for us / Time it came and changed it all / We had to disappear - The Greatest

Before the world it got so serious / Before the time it got away from us - Lucky Again

Let’s buy some time / For what we shouldn’t do / I don’t wanna face the music / But I still wanna dance with you - Face the Music

They "say bitter ends turn sweet in time", is that true of yours and mine? - Chicago

Just have patience / It’s not how you spend the time / It’s if you waste it - All This Time

The friends we make / the love it takes / is worth it all this time - All This Time

I only wanna go faster towards disaster every time - Out of my system

Maybe if you’d taken more time / I’d still be the one you wanna talk to every night - Headline

I've been wondering about what you're up to / Not for the first time / Not for the last time / And I've been thinking 'bout the things we used to do / Not for the first time / Not for the last time - Saturdays

You know it’s times like these we’re so much happier - silver tongues

You smile at me and say It’s time to go but I don’t feel like going home - silver tongues

Sit down sit down in the space and time - She's Beauty we are world class

All the late nights and the good times - Common People

There’s a time for saying who did what / Where it went wrong I wanna hear all that /But right now all I need you to know is / You’ll be ok we can talk tomorrow / I’m on my way with some time to borrow - Angels Fly

And time can always heal ya / If you let it make its way into your bones - Holding on to Heartache

Pick up the phone cos now it’s time you learnt to say that's the way love goes - That’s the way love goes

Remember when you told me I should give it time? - That’s the way love goes

that she changed me for the better by the time that I was coming ‘round - Saved By A Stranger

I wanna be in California smoke some weed outside in the summertime - High In California (I mean I had to)

Time of our lives, it's easy to see - Change

Now it's time to realize you don't get another life - Change

It hasn't been long that I've been away I don't know why everything's changed

tumblr is being weird with the formatting but everytime i try to fix it it just gets weirder so egh well leave it

Still on the same parallel we started with but now it's the opposite? kinda?:

When I get lost I go back to where I started / Common people / Nothing's changed - Common People

There are a lot of things being away from other things throughout but I don't think I'd be able to list em all if I tried, but here's an attempt:

You give and give until it’s gone away / Just tell yourself you’ve got another day / You’ve lived that life you just don’t see it yet - Lucky Again

Before the world it got so serious / Before the time it got away from us - Lucky Again

Has it been long enough that you can forgive me? - Chicago (as a whole really

I think she’s moved on mate it’s almost been a year / We haven’t seen you yeah we’ve given you your space - that's the way love goes

Saturdays take the pain away - but really Saturdays as a whole

put the pain behind you now, you don't need it anymore - Away from the pain again in Angels Fly

But the truth is, I/you still doubt / That what I/you do can get me/you home - All This time

We had to disappear / Cos nothing gets through here - the greatest

With me, I know you wanna come with me / Take anything you can carry /And leave everythin' else behind - Out Of My system

Sometimes I wake up and I wish you were beside me - Headline

It's time to go but I don't feel like going home - Silver Tongues

'Cause inside we're still the kings of the Friday nights Silver streets and the neon signs

This makes me happy-angry. hangry?. I don't know how else to put it:

Air max’s and silver tongues / Settle in for another heavy one - Silver Tongues

I love all the things you know but I’m king on a 50 metre road - Silver Tongues

I'm not supposed to be feeling dirty cheap on silver street at quarter to three - Saturdays (+the friday night melting into the saturdays that take the pain away)

You said I’m holding on to heartache / You said I wear it like a crown - holding On To Heartache ( about that king )

Everything's changed outside, sometimes I wonder why

When somebody told me I would change / I used to hide behind a smile / When somebody told me I would change / I was afraid I don't know why / Cos so does the world outside / I've realised - Bigger than Me (let's also add the next line: didn't read the signs, because last line of Change we had neon signs asdsdf)

If you need you can call on me, I'll be the friend you need

Cos if you’re lonely in Chicago you can call me (baby) - Chicago

I’ll knock on your door it’ll save me from calling / I won’t say a word It can wait ‘til the morning - Angels Fly

The nights they change in seasons / Become the strangest days / I called you twice but then regretted it / And changed my number - Holding On To Heartache (nights - changing - calling)

We haven’t seen you yeah we’ve given you your space / Pick up the phone cos now it’s time - That's The Way Love Goes (he's being the friend needed <3 )

Everything's changed outside, but I feel the same inside

Saturdays take the pain away / But nobody stays the same / No matter how much you want it / Some things change - Saturdays

Spend my whole life just thinking I had to change - High In California

The kids are alright / That used to be me Always losing our minds / Out on the street

I think this is described in Silver Tongues, being in the middle of the losing of their minds out on the street lol

And I choked when your smoke got in my eye / Bad logic and empty cans // You said grass was a dirty drug / You like to preach with vodka in your mug / I love all the things you know / But I’m king on a 50 metre road / We stand up tall and beat our chest / Shout some things that we’ll regret / Sit down with a master plan / I know nobody understands me like you do / You know it’s times like these we’re so much happier / Nights like these we’ll remember those stupid jokes only we know // You smile at me and say It’s time to go but I don’t feel like going home // You and me until the end / Waking up to start again - Silver Tongues yes I just basically pasted the whole song

A trip down memory lane, houses all look the same

Screams in Silver Tongues MV

Yeah I'm gonna use this as an excuse to paste any and all "home"s and "house"s in FITF:

But the truth is I/you still doubt that what I/you do can get me/you home when it gets cold - All This time

You smile at me and say It’s time to go but I don’t feel like going home - Silver Tongues

I came from a good home / A house full of terrace dreams - Common People

There's different names on the gates You know the people have changed It's such a shame, nothing stays the same

Common people / Nothing’s changed / You’ll hear strangers singing you name / If you act like you’re one of us - Common People (This. Is. Such. An. Interesting. Parallel.)

[When you gonna/now it's time to] realize [you/we] don't get another life? Always overanalyze, what's the point? I know it'll be alright [You've/we] still got the rest of [your life/our lives] We're [all/still] the same inside

Realizing you don't got another life / having the life you choose kinda waters:

Then made my way back to a life I would choose - Lucky Again

I just wanna stay in the moment the rest of my life / one more night I'm gonna choose I don't wanna face the music but I still wanna dance with you - Face The Music

Have you seen how my life’s been going? Cos i’ve been wondering what you’d say / Would you have told me to keep going or would you say to walk away? - Chicago

I am only half of what I think I can be / Gotta get it out of my system / Gotta get it off of my chest / I've lived a lot of my life already / But I gotta get through the rest - Out Of My System

With me, I know you wanna come with me / Take anything you can carry / And leave everythin' else behind - Out Of My system

And I/you keep on building mountains hoping that they’ll turn to gold / But the truth is I/you still doubt that what I/you do can get me/you home when it gets cold - All This Time (building the life / what happens when it changes, overanalyzing, not sure it'll be alright, but then: )

Together we’re the greatest / We’ll never be that cold again / No falling all to pieces / We’re the greatest / It’s you and me until the end / Life for us is never over - The Greatest

All being the same inside waters:

So come on call me liar / Yeah you're so quick to judge / Cos yeah I might have changed / But everybody does - Bigger Than Me

when you're just like me- Bigger Than Me

Are we one or are we two? Are we me or are we you? Have we been all this before / do you see what I see? - She's Beauty We Are World Class

common people / just act like you're one of us - Common People

So let this be your comfort / You're not the only one, no /In a strange way, all in this together / Been this way forever, you're not the only one - COAC

Getting high on the amber wave / Going deep for the ones who do the same // I know nobody understands me like you do - Silver Tongues

Our eyes meet and I can tell that you’re the same as me - All This Time

#if youre wondering wtf how long did this take you #i have a word file and i make good efficient use of it sljsklskjs

[quillyfied]

Hellaverse Theories: Helluva Boss S1E1 and S1E2

Welcome to Quilly’s Hellaverse Theories, where I overthink the entire Hellaverse! Going this time into Helluva Boss, which shouldn’t be as long as my Hazbin Hotel analyses so I’ll probably be putting two episodes into each post, because HB is very much more about the interpersonal drama and setting than about HH’s cosmic-scale conflicts. However, HB does provide some very interesting context for HH, if they still exist in the same universe, and also interpersonal stuff is fun, so we’ll see how it goes. (Plus—trailer for the second half of season 2 means speculation! Whee! Obviously spoilers for that are here!)

(Also disclaimer that I’m not going through the rigamarole of finding that special slashed-O character so I’m spelling his name Blitzo and we all know the O is silent now, right? Right.)

Starting with Helluva Boss s1e1:

So one of my good friends got me into Hazbin Hotel, but she didn’t mention Helluva Boss to me because she didn’t think I would like it. She was almost right. I liked the style, the characters were fun, but the constant slapstick violence and edgy humor were really off-putting (as in, if that’s all the show was going to be, it wasn’t for me). It wasn’t until episode 5 that I stopped actively wanting to click away (Blitzo/Striker/Moxxie fight was real good okay), and episode 6 got me hooked like a very stupid fish (CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT). However, there’s still a lot to chew on in these early episodes.

Like the alarm lights under Blitzo’s desk. One of them says “client giving birth” and I am DESPERATE to know the story behind that one (or, like, read the fanfic inspired by it). Another says “ghost” (which, given that they’re in Hell, is hysterical, but also…season 2.5, Blitzo and Millie appear to investigate a haunted house. What is their policy on ghosts, exactly?). The rest seem pretty standard to me. Yes, even the “Stolas” one.

One of the things about this show (and Hazbin but let’s stick with where we’re at) that makes me particularly feral is all the background details. For instance: the very subtle signs that Martha and her family aren’t quite right. Lots of guns in the background, subtle bone décor, a literal child’s head mounted on the wall. Classic. Love that human spine lamp, Martha, do you have an Etsy?

Moxxie making little dog noises as his imp sounds is forever the cutest thing actually. Kinda wish I knew what it was that makes Millie’s chittering sounds, because she is equally adorable, just more unrecognizable.

Hazbin Hotel sometimes makes one question why children end up in Hell. Helluva Boss is here to say, “This. This is why. This is why kids end up in Hell sometimes.” Though there is still a huge question of nature vs. nurture in that argument (plus, y’know, since nobody knows what gets a soul into Heaven, they don’t know what gets a soul into Hell, either, but I digress).

This introduction to Stolas (for those of us who didn’t watch the pilot first) definitely shows a different sort of person than the Stolas we get later, which seems to be a favorite thing of Viv’s to do and a thing I’d be more upset about if it wasn’t so effective. Having watched so many times now, I’m starting to finally pick up on the music choices, and hearing Stolas’ song even this early really changes the tone of things, knowing the lyrics that get applied to it later (lol let’s watch Stolas set up the very thing that causes him so much grief later, this won’t end badly and my heart isn’t currently breaking at all).

Alright, diverting to Cosmic Plot for a bit: there are a lot of twig shapes hanging in the trees that look like eyes, and the beam that Millie and Blitzo are tied to has root and eye motifs carved into it. Martha invokes Satan first (in saying they’re going to return his filthy creatures, which is sort of correct, if the lore that imps descend from/were created by Satan is still true), but then says, “may the Root of Evil be honored as we continue thy work.” So, uh. Hey, Roo, the underlying Big Bad of the entire Hellaverse probably, nice to see the roots (pun really not intended, in fact done everything to be avoided, but no other word works dammit) of it being laid out early and in a way that rewards multiple viewings.

Speaking of multiple viewings: Blitzo pulling Moxxie close and threatening him with “if you ever pull a stunt like this again, I’ll fuck you AND your wife” really loses its teeth when you consider how much Blitzo loves insinuating himself into their lives and would be on cloud nine if they agreed to a threesome :P just. Blitzo there’s better ways to proposition people. Come on. “Jelly sandwiches all night” THERE’S a proposition, that’s how it’s done XD (gosh if they ever release the uncut version of whatever the heck Bryce was saying in the booth I think we’ll all pass away)

Moxxie electing to call the cops on Ralph (and subsequently get all three of them torpedo’d straight down to Hell anyway) is a strange choice, knowing he was raised in a mafia family, but even stranger is him thinking that the human authorities would deal with them fairly. Really drives home that despite their proximity, creatures of Hell really don’t get how Earth works. Or that Moxxie is a cream puff. Either way—

Y’know. I really, REALLY wonder how IMP doesn’t come under fire more from previous targets who wind up in Hell, and I am REALLY looking forward to the episode where it finally happens (sidenote to wonder if Martha and her family wound up in Hell at all, or…wherever Roo is).

On to Episode 2!

After introducing Stolas the way they did (aka as an aloof noble with a crush on Blitzo who is really condescending and also horny), the best thing they could possibly do was show that he’s a doting (if increasingly out of touch) father in a rancid marriage. Like. How dare you take this silly little guy and give him real feelings and real problems. How DARE you.

Which all gets worse if you consider how YOUNG Stolas was when he became a father; people calling him middle-aged have it wrong. Thirty-five at least is NOT middle-aged. That is a man still in his prime, not counting the fact that he’s an immortal demon prince. He’s practically a BABY. He had to have been not quite twenty by the time Via was laid and hatched, and HE LOVES HIS LITTLE GIRL SO MUCH—

(Also, the term for a young owl is “owlet,” but then I saw Bryce Pinkham spell it “owlette” in an Instagram post and now I understand where the different spellings in fanfic come from now. It’s more endearing knowing the voice actor is doing it. Even if it’s still wrong :P unless the script is deliberately going for “owlette” as in a female owl; even more permissible, if still annoying.)

“Now all my stories have been told except for one.” Okay. Okay. Hang on a second. Just gotta—hang on a second here. Stolas’ lullaby is a little morbid alongside it being sweet, because he’s essentially telling his daughter “even if I’m dead, you’ll be okay,” which has. So many layers to unpack. Helluva Boss seems to have as one of its major themes self-hatred and the ways it fucks up not only the person who has it, but their relationships, too. Stolas has zero self-worth, or very close to it. Telling his daughter that it doesn’t matter what happens to him is training her for her future as his precautionary heir—because her Goetia-given purpose in life is to take over his duties in case of his death—but it’s also him saying “I’m not that important, you’ll be alright without me.” Which is NOT his call to make. It’s also very sad that he says all of his stories have already been told but one—the story of his death—when he can’t be more than twenty-five at most (trying to do math, which is not one of my strong suits—if we assume 10 was when he met Blitzo, then 25 years later reconnected at 35, and Via is 17 when he’s 35…he would have had to have had her at 18…and if she’s no more than 5 or 6 in this sequence…he would be…23, oh my WORD). I’ve been suicidal and depressed at twenty-three, but I didn’t have a kid and a loveless marriage during it; I can only imagine the necessity of his Happy Pills, to be at the very beginning of a long eternal life and looking at it all with such desolation.

There’s such desperate hope in the lullaby, too; Stolas thinks it’s all over for him, and one day it’ll be over for all of creation, but despite it all, his little girl is still going to be okay. He’s in tears at the sight of her falling asleep thanks to his comforting. He loves her so much. He wants her to be okay when he isn’t anymore. And while that’s sweet, it’s also coming back to bite him in later seasons, because she ISN’T okay and HE isn’t okay either; his attempts to find himself and chase what he wants are the asteroid breaking up under their feet, only he isn’t holding her safe and close this time. Not for lack of trying, but it’s hard to be there for a struggling kid when you yourself are struggling—and worse, when his struggling is what is causing her to struggle too. I think Octavia appreciates the sentiment that he believes she’ll be okay, but what she NEEDS is for him to fight for them BOTH to be okay, and to know that she’s worth being okay for (“being okay” being the metaphor for “living” in this case).

And then cut from this tender scene to Octavia’s new normal: parents screaming, the cracks in their marriage becoming full-on breaks, and Stolas’ obliviousness and new obsession coming in to drag her away to a place she didn’t even really enjoy as a kid, it seems.

(The timeline of this seems weird; in the first episode, Stolas says it’s been quite some time that Blitzo’s been using the book, but this particular fight between Stella and Stolas appears to be fresh, the morning after the first time Stolas and Blitzo sleep together. Unless it’s been months and Stella is still raging like it’s only been hours, which is plausible for her, but I don’t see Stolas continuing to rehash the same steps of that argument like that. Maybe just some writing inconsistencies. I can live with it.)

Sidenote to say I need a Blitzo and Octavia bonding episode like I need air (and I KNOW what Brandon Rogers has said about Octavia and I genuinely don’t know if he was serious or not but he can SUCK IT UP).

“I’ll pay you~!” “Pay me what?” “Money~!” That might be the first time I’ve ever really heard the tildes in someone else’s voice XD Their HEIGHT DIFFERENCE, good GRIEF.

Also, Moxxie’s catchphrase. It’s adorable. It’s so incongruous with the setting. Why does he say that? Will we ever know?

LOL Fizzarolli appearing this early was something I completely forgot my first go-round. It makes me wonder if that particular Fizzbot is different from the others, because it seems to have way more personality and memories. (And can we spare a moment of sadness for knowing that around a decade ago this is where Blitzo was working, still as a clown, as close to Fizz as he could get while still stroking his massive self-hatred? LOL)

Man, the amount of references shoved in here that can only really be appreciated later—Mammon’s Loo Loo Land, Fizzbot shipped from Big Ozzie’s Factory, the fact that he calls them implings, which is only something I’ve ever heard Mammon say—GOLDEN.

I also want that Thing, Millie.

Stolas’ sense of humor turning out weird and kinda dark in a way that means he finds Blitzo trying to be funny actually humorous makes a weird amount of sense, for how sheltered and stifled he was.

“Looks like the kiddies are still running away from you” paired with Verosika’s “and I should have known you’d be here when I heard the Amber Alerts” has a synergy that I don’t know that I’m prepared to examine, actually. The soft-hearted sucker in me thinks maybe Blitzo has a soft spot for kids that his exes (and the robot version of his former best friend) have been poking at for so long it’s gone callused, which could be supported by his choice to adopt Loona and his desperation for any kind of family or connection, but. Idk. This show does go some really skeevy places with its humor sometimes that isn’t really meant to be more than skin-deep.

“Does anybody love you, BlitzO?” “No. But I’m really good with guns now” THAT’S IT THAT’S THE SHOW IT’S NOT GETTING ANY DEEPER I’M NOT WEEPING OVER BLITZO “NOT WANTING TO BE THIS WAY. NOT FOREVER.”

Wow. On-fire Fizzbot coming to take Blitzo down. This isn’t at all a manifestation of his issues that he’s steadfastly ignoring and instead siccing a dragon on. “OH, what a mouth.” SURE, BLITZO. SURE.

Thing I’m also waiting for: Stolas to actually acknowledge Moxxie and Millie. I mean. They do save his life later. Put that on your growth chart, Stolas my dude, not being a total jackass to all other imps that aren’t Blitzo (and even with Blitzo still being SUPER condescending, my hecking heck).

I wonder if Via hears all the things we the audience hear in the stuff that Stolas can’t say—your mother’s always been (mean, maybe), I haven’t been (happy), we weren’t in (love). Because, while Stolas not loving Stella is definitely one of Via’s issues still (given the s2.5 trailer), the bigger issue that Via has always had is Stolas leaving and not being there for her anymore. Which got its roots somewhere, not just from a childhood nightmare. But depression and self-hatred also do that, convince a person their loved ones are better off without them. And with the life situation Stolas is in, it’s not surprising that the more independent his daughter got, the less she saw of him, because he figured the less she needed him (the less she wanted him around). Holy CRAP it’s sad. And drilling right into my own vault of issues lol it’s fine.

(And the proof that Stolas doesn’t need Blitzo, he can protect himself and Via just fine; it’s the companionship he’s aching for, the love story he’s writing in the margins of what’s actually happening. The comfortable lie he’s telling himself and Blitzo is helping him prop up just like Blitzo’s own version. ARGH.)

“Slutty toy clown” OKAY BLITZO.

Alright, calling this post there bc it’s starting to get long. Unsurprisingly, I can go on for a while about just about anything. Future posts coming, and we’ll see how the two-episode per post thing goes when the episodes start getting longer. Toodles!

#quilly's hellaverse theories #helluva boss #helluva boss spoilers #since we're talking about the trailer too

[alkibiadessuperfan]

thank you so much for the tag @aeide !!💛

last song I listened to:

mika invented pop ngl. hahaha. I love Life in Cartoon Motion so much. His music is like being in a musical and like the beginning of a sunny day for a main character hahaha. Oddly specific I know but yes.

favourite colour:

hehe okay I‘m awful at picking a favourite colour but I‘d generally say I like pink like roses? somewhat soft but still colourful and warm. and also different shades of green that are more soft to forest-y.

currently watching:

I am watching A League of Their Own (sadly no second season oooof). But it‘s really good so far. Until yesterday I rewatched Heartstopper Season 2 with a family member though haha.

last movie:

Elemental and now I am watching and still need to finish Nimona! I did like Elemental despite it flopping rn I think? Nimona is amazing I cannot wait to continue watching once I‘m done with all the stuff that‘s on my mind. For smth else I watched Bones and All too and was disturbed but still have to say that it was a really good movie!

current reading:

the ac odyssey novel, elektra by jennifer saint and the wolf den by elodoe harper!!! All really good so far!! The Elektra novel is so so good! And I cannot wait to start Atalanta by Jennifer Saint too. The wolf den is going a bit slow and it‘s part of a trilogy so I think it needs a little to pick up.

sweet/spicy/savory:

SPICYYYYY!!🔥🧡 but also savory!! But sometimes I just need something spicy

last thing I googled:

korres skin care to add to my wishlist because I bought the rose milk peeling cleanser thingy in greece and now I am obsessed my skin feels amazing and I highly highly recommend their products✨

current obsession:

ac odyssey. ancient greece. basically always and forever. rn specifically the palace of knossos because I‘ve been there the other day and analysed every bit in ac odyssey comparing it with my photos and all. hahahahaha. I‘m afraid I cannot be normal about this ever.

currently working on:

a paper on lesbians in the feminist movement of 1970s germany for university. I have 2 days left. I should really get to work but rn drinking coffee is all I do😭 I need to get up and do it. The topic is interesting too! It‘s just my first time writing smth for uni and I‘m afraid all I do is wrong or bad. It‘ll be okay. preparing for the next semester mentally lol but I‘m so excited and sure it will be nice. also trying to find a new apartment that is an actualy apartment hahaha.

I tag (no pressure ofc) @daddy-f-eivor @unhingedsappho @vikingnerd793 @local-queer-classicist @titans-and-templars @milfeivor @sevika-owns-me

#Spotify #tagged #tags #mutuals #i like doing these hehe #procrastination #🩷🩷🩷

[cosettepontmercys]

Hi Cossette! I've been spending the last few days gathering some 2024 media releases that I hope to check out this year and I'm looking forward to (to name a few!):

Emily Wilde's Map of the Otherlands by Heather Fawcett

A Tempest of Tea by Hafsah Faizal

The Mars House by Natasha Pulley

The Warm Hands of Ghosts by Katherine Arden

Faebound by Saara El-Arifi

and ooh! I'm also very intrigued about Allison Saft's upcoming adult debut!! I hope it will be good 🙏

I also prefer standalones! While there are times where I'd love to revisit my favourite worlduilding + characters, I tend to find the storytelling & character development more properly fleshed out within a standalone (comparing to books within a long series).

That's totally valid! It certainly took me some time to get into Alix E Harrow's writing - not that's it's poorly written (it's very artfully written), but it's pretty dense and the story pacing is on the slow side. Also as much as I enjoy taking notes / annotating beautifully written prose, I feel you effort required to analyse the writing 😅

Speaking of The Starless Sea, the aesthetic / vibes of the book reminds me of Taylor Swift's Midnights - very atmospheric and with a strong focus on storytelling. I've been meaning to make something showcasing parallels between songs from Midnights & sections of The Starless Sea since late 2022 (this was pushed back for various reasons), so I was very happy to post the edit today :D

If you could assign your favourite books as music albums (based on thematic / aesthetic similarities), how would you pair them up?

P.S. Yes!! I love the album & vinyl artwork for Kali Uchis' new album and I hope you have the chance to listen to Orquideas later this year! (and I hope you all the best with the 365 albums challenge 💖)

hi jennifer!!! i have an arc of a tempest of tea, but i don't know if i'll get around to it before publication date 😭 i'm really intrigued by the premise, but struggled a bit with the fantasy in we hunt the flame (i struggle a lot with fantasy/have to be in a very specific mood for it)! i haven't read any of katherine arden's stuff, but have seen a lot of it on the internet over the years; maybe i'll check it out!

i feel like a common question i see on bookstagram is "what's your favorite series" and i always struggle to answer this because i am just not a series girlie! i think the few favorite series that i love (that aren't duologies) are probably either the raven cycle, or series of romance books that are set in the same universe but follow different characters so they essentially operate as standalones! i wish i was a series girlie, but i just ... am not one. i actually just put alix harrow's ten thousand doors of january on hold on libby — it might work better for me as an audiobook! sometimes i do better with fantasy via audiobook than physically reading it, for some reason.

i saw your starless sea/midnights gifset and am obsessed. i know i've told you this before but i loveeeee your gifsets so much, especially the ones where you find parallels between things!

oh this is so hard! i feel like it's easier to assign specific songs for me, rather than entire albums to books, but here goes:

beach read: honorable mention to emails i can't send by sabrina carpenter (title track) for january's relationship with her father, but unsure of what album would fit january/gus best!

normal people: i think either sam fender's seventeen going under, or noah kahan's stick season? i think both albums have a similar theme of being homesick and also home sick, which i feel like plays a big role in the plot of normal people!

honey girl: i feel like paint my bedroom black by holly humberstone? like the themes of growing up / moving away / being lonely / figuring out your life?

the starless sea: maybeeeee evermore but this does not feel like a good fit to me still!

les miserables: ... going to cheat here and say the les mis cast recording

i'm still stuck on portrait of a thief, and book lovers though! what about you? what book/album pairings do you have in mind?

#post: answered #mutual: jennifer

[darlinmybeloved]

I saw this post about how Would've, could've, should've by Taylor Swift, is definitely a Darlin and Quinn song, and i agree.

If we assume that darlin is around the wolf boys age (so around 29/30), this means they moved to Dahlia when they were around 14 (in 2007) which meant that they would have found it hard to fit in with people who have already know each other since they were little kids. This may have led to them being isolated and believing it was them against the world. Who else do we assume had the same thoughts?

Quinn.

So on the timeline, it says that in 2020, Darlin and Quinn had a 'dalliance', but we don't know how long it happened for, but we know it ended in 2020. This would have made Darlin around 27 when their friend had gotten attacked by Quinn, which led to Darlin reporting him to DUMP. This is where the lyrics

"If you never touched me, I would've

Gone along with the righteous

If I never blushed, then they could've

Never whispered about this

And if you never saved me from boredom

I could've gone on as I was

But, Lord, you made me feel important

And then you tried to erase us"

Talking about how Quinn helped Darlin feel as though they finally belonged somewhere and saved them from feeling isolated and bored from their own pack. Darlin finally felt important to someone, which is something they never felt with the pack. It was a foreign feeling to them, and Quinn took advantage of it.

"I would've stayed on my knees

And I damn sure never would've danced with the devil

At nineteen

And the God's honest truth is that the pain was heaven"

Although we don't know what age Darlin was when they met Quinn, we can assume it was around their early 20s, which is still quite young. They craved attention from someone, and they wanted to feel as if they mattered even if it was in an unhealthy and toxic way. They simply didn't care because they were just happy someone actually cared for them.

"And now that I'm grown, I'm scared of ghosts

Memories feel like weapons

And now that I know, I wish you'd left me wondering"

I think we can all agree that Darlin went through some traumatic shit when they were with Quinn, and stuff like that doesn't just disappear. It comes back and haunts people. Traumatic memories of Quinn must be floating in Darlins mind, which is why they were always guarded and cold towards people who they didn't trust because they didn't want to go through it again.

Throughout the song, the blame is passed between both parties. But we can clearly see from Darlins "revenge mission" that yes, they blame Quinn, but they also blame themselves for everything. Especially the attack on their friend. Hearing David talk about how Quinn will go for those who can't defend themselves must make Darlin so angry as they already know this and have witnessed. They probably still have scars from it to remind them.

I would analyse the rest of the song, but this is long enough, and I do not have enough time to talk about the confrontation video between Darlin and David because OOOOOOO DO I HAVE THOUGHTS ABOUT THAT.

I love Darlin as a character so much and how complex they are.

Anyways, ty for reading this, and I'm sorry it's so long 😭

#redacted asmr #redacted darlin #redacted quinn #redacted david #redacted audio #redacted shaw pack #Spotify

[lucky-fy]

~ mutuals I want to know better ~

That was quite the surprise @easy-revenge ! Thanks for the tag!

Last song I listened to: Breezeblocks by alt-j and the whole time, I was thinking about Falin and Marcille from Dungeon Meshi… I mean… “Please don’t go, I’ll eat you whole, I love you so […]”

Fav colour: hmm, tough choice. I’m more of colour-hater than a colour lover (I don’t like purple, even if I use it all the time for shading, lol). I guess I do like brown a lot, when accompanied with blue. Nice combo, no matter the shade. I like brown tabby cats best (I’m more of a blue eyes lover, though)

Currently watching: some seasonal anime, like Mushoku Tensei season II.

Currently reading: I’m giving Dungeon Meshi a re-read, with the official French translation this time around. I’m taking notes for fanfic writing. Otherwise, Brave New World is waiting on the nightstand.

Sweet/savoury /spicy: never heard of savoury as a flavour, aha. Is it umami? Probably is. In any case, I’m not picky and I like them all. What I’ll eat will depend on my mood.

Relationship status: single and not really looking for a partner. I’d prefer to be well on HRT before trying to find someone, if I ever bother to go looking. I’m more of a “ride or die” type of person, so casual stuff is out the window in any case, lol.

Current obsessions: *looks at my blog* Dungeon Meshi, ahaha. I can’t wait for the anime, I’m sure Trigger will do well. Kinda hoping for a full-series adaptation! Otherwise, Chainsaw Man is still on my mind, always. I have a bunch of CSM Beastars!AU WIP, fanart wise.

Last thing I googled: “Akita Inu”, as I was talking with a relative and they said they saw a tall Japanese-type dog. I showed them pictures, to which they said “yes, that’s the dog I saw!”

Currently working on: many things… Completing my current sketchbook for student credits, writing a “scientific Pokédex” for student credits (an excuse to look into many animal species and expand my own knowledge for work later on, all while having fun with speculative biology), re-reading Dungeon Meshi, analyse the characters and write fanfic for them (starting with a Laios and Lycion thing… I haven’t decided what yet), learn basic video editing so I can make the Dungeon Meshi edits I want to see (Talk by Hozier with the Winged Lion *cough*), write for my OC on Master Poké (RP forum, there’s a summer writing event going on). I've also had this idea for a Skyrim fanfic, featuring a werewolf Khajiit who has lived a big part of their life in Falkreath. Shit happens. Anyway… I won't be able to complete all of this before classes start again *sigh*

tagging: @catcrow236 @rachaeltad @brn-t if you want, of course. No pressure! :D

#about #first time doing this

[sweet-little-dude]

*throws random song at you* i was watching tatort yesterday (some german tv show) and easy by mesadorm started playing. fits like half of the tokrev cast /hj but it specifically gives me akashi siblings vibes tho that might be bc i’m kinda hyperfixated on takeomi rn but like. look at the lyrics (yes that’s the whole song i couldn’t decide on a specific part):

like?? akashi siblings song ???

also if you know any akashi siblings playlists/songs i am BEGGING on my knees they’ve got me in a chokehold and all i could find yet was this song, completely by chance. i’m in need of stuff i can listen to throughout the day to feed the hyperfixation with serotonin

omg surprise elys ask hello my love :333

but yes big fat major akashi and sano vibes :(( its like comforting but sad at the same time?? like a parting gift if that makes sense? but yeah it major sad :( honestly as u should takeomi is just<3

i sadly do not know any akashi sibs playlists but after digging through my playlists i gift you the song puberty by wilt :33333333 one of the most beautiful songs ive ever heard yet so so very sad. og song is abt the vocalist's father and her family so it automatically is family related thus akashis 💪💪

and i really really don't wanna spoil the song cuz its a hugeeeee surprise but there's a few specific lyrics i'd like to point out (aka me analysing and comparing the whole song to these siblings):

"when i thought i ruled the world / standing on your shoulders / when my life felt so round / when we still went to playgrounds / but it always / turns upside down" big big huge akashi vibes esp when sen and haru were kids :(( and ofc the last two lines giving the vibe of their lives starting to get more complex and each other them growing apart

"when it was just you and me / before i hit puberty / rock band posters on the wall / our little family in it all / and when the vinyl hit the floor i couldn't see you anymore" kind of just reminiscing on the memories they had as a family and stuff before yk the big thing happening before everything turned to shit

"and when the violence in my head gets loud i forget you're even dead" now this is like peak right. hugeeeee part of the song the lyrics goes along with what happens and sheihxjwbw but this definitely reminds me of a most probably existing time line where sanzu is in bonten and he suddenly remembers his dead sister. or his dead mother (? i don't remember if shez dead or not). angst!

but yeah love wilt im a such a wilter and an akashi truther

#elys n taku rambles #HIIIIIII ELYS

[petrichoraline]

hii petri! for ship bingo, your favorite ship from kinnporsche and/or your favorite ship from the untamed?

mint, i know you wanted to give me choice and creative freedom and i appreciate it so much but my gOSH am i not the person to do that for 😂 not only do i rarely have favourites of anything but i have to figure out my emotions for these unnamed blorbos? this is how you end up with five answers for the price of one ✨

so, for kinnporsche i came to the conclusion i have two - one for the earlier part of the show and one for the last episodes (i think the green is..fairly obvious)

first one is the men themselves who made me feel so many things throughout the show and turnt it into the amazing experience it was for me, watching them learn how to understand each other and open up, the tender scenes, the chemistry, following the discussions on here about kinn and his trust issues (omg especially around the tawan episodes, that was crazy) - their journey was so much fun!

the second one..what can i say, vegaspete were what everyone seemed to anticipate and i was kinda neutral until their episodes actually hit, then i went insane lmao, i just love pathetic men and "only i understand him, only i can tame him" type of stuff - i got plenty of that and some top notch chemistry and they were what made the last episodes for me

onto the untamed.. i don't like thinking about it too much because one cql viewing later i'm a broken woman, i do not understand how people watch it more than once and choose to actively think about it, write analyses, delve into the lore - i'm not built like you guys and you have my respect 💕 all of that is to say i dont think bout the ships too much either, i picked these as faves because they had a certain smth

I don't think anyone could possibly guess what the three couples are they're - not the most popular 😂 except for wangxian, those are my babies:

the next one is jiang cheng with... *drums*

...wen qing 🥰 i didn't ship them as divorced until i saw the option and decided that yes, they would be so amazing as divorced parents or smth and i would read about it for sure; not the comb, not the post-war conversations - that inn scene always comes to mind, it feels like a checkpoint at which you could take a different route and change the outcome, a spot where you can stop and think "what if"... jiang cheng before the weight of zidian, the only thing of importance at the moment - his brother's safety... wen qing with only her brother to look out for, testing how far she'd go for an outsider while risking everything... or, y'know, i just find the scene fun, smart and rewatchable 🤷‍♀️ they're a very interesting ship for me cause i don't mind them not being together, either way is fine and makes sense and i never really feel this way about ships i care about, they usually HAVE to be together y'know but with these two i just have many thoughts and feelings that don't actually make me go crazy which is so refreshing

and the one ship that i'm not sure i even ship but b o y they make me feel things...

...xiao xingchen and xue yang YES I KNOW, still to this day am not sure about some story details lol that whole arc left me shaken to my core and i've worked on forgetting it so it took a while to even remember they exist .. anyways, they found home in each other and could've been happy but they are who they are and they acted how they acted and that's that :) also my feels on song lan (and him with xiao xingchen) are mixed but this might be the one triangle i can see myself enjoying as a throuple.. i avoided stuff about that whole psychological horror arc so stuff that could sway me in any particular direction haven't been encountered in a while ✨

#petri replies #i have a lot of thoughts bout all of them this is the short version lmao feel free to ask if anythings unclear #please send me shipss i take my time but absolutely love writing these #hope anon in my ask box is patient with me <3 #and thank you minttt this was so cool to think about whats your opinion on these?

[yisanged]

wait i wanna hear your judgements on all the milgram characters now because im curious and i feel like it actually says a lot about a person. if you wanna

yes hi sam hi. okay.

well first i want to say that i'm not super knowledgeable on all the theories and analyses out there so there might be stuff i'm missing that would change my opinions. i am still kinda lost on where exactly you get access to all the milgram content so there's a lot i'm not in the know on. second is that i don't think it's really fair to judge whether or not the characters are forgivable especially since we don't know all the details yet. i obviously learned about milgram a bit late but i would've voted innocent for all of them honestly because like. they all caused the death of another person for sure which is obviously Bad. but i feel like we don't really have a right to form opinions on whether they're forgivable or not. there's still a lot we don't know about their individual circumstances and even if we did know everything we're not even involved other than as outside observers so idk it just doesn't fully sit right. even if they are fictional characters created specifically to be judged by us. so yeah i would've voted them all innocent and i probably will for trial 2 too unless shit starts hitting the fan. of course i do have opinions about each of the characters beyond that and i will be glad to share them 💯

my favorites first. haruka is. scrunkly. fr. his presumed crimes are beating that dog to death and drowning/choking his brother which i think on a personal level is one of the worse crimes out of the characters? but i like him so it's okay. i'm interested in learning more about his situation and character his first trial video left me wondering about that stuff the most out of all of them. amane. ouugh. religious trauma always gets to me in characters. people who said she needed to get voted guilty so she learns the consequences of her actions or whatever are so annoying... like yeah sure that stuff is important i guess but. you think the best way to teach morals to a 12 yo raised in a cult is by slapping her with the guilty and unforgivable label after she gets kidnapped to a strange prison??? while not even knowing what might happen to her after she is voted guilty????? seriously what did they do to her i might kill. anyways. futa. he's a twitter user and he has a black and white sense of justice and thinks he has the authority to judge someone as good or bad. none of those are points in his favor but idk i still really like his character for some reason. i think if he made some friends and stopped going on social media he would be mostly fixed honestly. mu i also really like not for any particular reason... i mean she seems kind of spoiled and whiny but idk. i just like her. being the odd girl out is a relatable experience for me. she's pretty and her song was one of my favorites. these four are the ones i care the most about and want to learn more about

the rest..... i never had any strong feelings towards mahiru in the beginning but i feel kind of bad that she was one of the few that got voted guilty like the way she said things along the lines of if you leave me i'll die and i can't live without you was kind of. uh. but i didn't think her crime seemed that unforgivable especially compared to some of the others that didn't get voted guilty? idk. i mentioned not liking mikoto and i stand by that. i don't really buy into the mental illness/multiple personalities theories and i'll honestly be kind of disappointed if they turn out to be true that's such an overdone and harmful and annoying murderer trope. i think he's just a guy that likes violence and killing and is really good at lying about it after. which is pretty slay for him i guess. it just annoys me how many people latch on to the mental illness thing and it annoys me even more how many people are horny for this guy. they're probably the reason i don't like him actually other than that i don't really have anything against him. i'm not a hardcore yuno fan like she doesn't make me normal but i do love and support her. i like kotoko too the vigilante type thing i'm pretty sure she has going on is interesting but. i know i said i would vote them all innocent but i don't love that her getting voted innocent is leading her into thinking she's working with es behind the scenes i don't think she's that trustworthy. shidou. organ harvester possibly? medical malpracticer most definitely. i don't know i guess i'd want more details before saying anything else i don't have many thoughts about him with what we have right now. i don't really like kazui on a personal level but his story does interest me i want to know more details. es is there. i'm curious about what the story there is and all but they honestly don't interest me that much beyond the standard amount.

anyways this has been my opinions on the milgram characters. it's not super in depth i just kinda briefly touched on my main thoughts because this answer is already too long i am so sorry. but. yeah. i hope you still think im cool

#owww ow yowch....! thoughts about media #SORRY THIS IS SO LONG. characters make me so. #ask

[haveumetbi]

Hello!

I've been using tumblr for a long time, but only recently I've felt confident enough in my english to actually try to join communities and make friends. 

A little introduction... That is actually kinda really long and I’m not gonna subject y’all to it unless you want to, so here’s the tldr:

I’m an acearo, bi, cis girl (🇺🇸 she/her — 🇧🇷 ela/a).

White latina from Brazil.

I’m disabled and neurodivergent

I love sitcoms, comedy is my fav genre of fiction

and cats

and The Sims

and Turma da Mônica

and hairstyling, braids, make up

and Jane Austen

and Taylor Swift

If you like any of it, follow me!! I’ll definetely follow back. If your curious, read bellow.

I’m a 23 year old college student who is majoring in History. I’m kind of a huge nerd, I love subjects like History (duh), Literature, Politics, Philosophy, Psychology, Religion, but also Comedy (i find fascinating to analyze it, even if that kinda defeats the purpose, sue me). I kinda only watch sitcoms, actually, maybe because of how obsessed I am with the genre (more on that later). 

Being Brazilian I may reblog/talk about Brazillian issues/stuff and most definetely will reblog things about Turma da Mônica (brazil’s most beloved comic book series that shaped the childhood’s of at least 3 generations now since the 60s/70s), my longest autistic special interest. Oh, yeah, I’m also neurodivergent, AuDHD and also have persistent depressive disorder (dysthymia gang rise up! or dont, ik its hard and tiresome) and fibromyalgia.

Another special interest I’m unhinged about is The Sims, I use Tumblr mostly bc of it, so I’ll definitely reblog stuff about it, maybe if everythings works out I will even create a side simblr, who knows. I love historic/fantasy gameplay, would be cool to share with people.

Idk if its a SI or just regular cat owner thing, but I’m definitely obsessed with these little guys. Speaking of cat lover, I love Taylor Swift. Like, I’m very casual about most music I consume, but she is the exception, I just... feel SO MUCH with her songs. Idk, idk... She also makes me feel things on a sapphic way, though I’m no g*ylor or hetl*r (rlly dont care about who she dates, just here for the art). But not in a wow I wanna bang this celebrity I have a crush on, cuz I dont wanna bang no one, cuz I’m acearo. Just, dont swing that way (or any way, really /hj cuz i'm actually gray-bi-romantic but its very rare, so i'm usually not swinging at all lmao).

I really like to read, but it has been tough to keep the habit with depression and disabled adult life knocking at my door and kicking my ass... currently I’m finishing reading all Jane Austen’s work (i love her sense of humor and analyses of human psychology) in portuguese, but I plan to eventually read the original stuff in english. I just really love stories and storytelling as an art form, maybe that’s why I love to write. I’m obsessed with fanfictions, actually, been writing since I was 11, never anything in english, but who knows, actually creating and participating in tumblr may be the first step. I mostly write about tv shows I’m obsessed about (though I did write some Turma da Mônica Jovem fanfiction...... thank god I deleted, it was terrible, tho in my defense I was still a preteen) and I mostly watch sitcoms so.... About that...

My favorite sitcom ever is probably How I Met Your Mother (it was literally what i needed when i was going through a really rough patch) and BoJack Horseman (yes, cartoon sitcoms totally count, shut up). I’d say my first sitcom love was The Simpsons, my biodad had a lot of dvds and tapes from the golden seasons and the fondest memories of my childhood were us watching together and laughing like two idiots. My first fandom was iCarly (i was a preteen okay), but I wasnt a big fan of the revival/reboot (yes I was team seddie, no it has nothing to do with it, I gave it a shot, but just didnt vibe with it). I also love The Office, That 70′s Show, Never Have I Ever, Community, Our Flag Means Death, The Sex Lifes of College Girls, One Day at a Time and The Good Place.

I’m pretty sure the only other shows that I got obsessed with that weren’t sitcoms were Once Upon a Time and Lucifer, two shows that were quite humorous with its wacky premises (fairytales in real life???? the devil taking a vacation in LA??? i mean, c’mon!!). I’m loving the Percy Jackson disney adaptation, it was my favorite YA book series and it always bummed me that the movie adaptation was so terrible, I'm glad we finally have a great adaptation and can't wait for more seasons to come!!!

I’m very talkative (you dont say?? 😮 /s) and a total extroverted that really loves to make friends, but my communication difficulties really do shine on long distance conversation... be phone calls, video calls, emails, text messages etc... So, although I’d love if you shoot me a message, bc I love to make friends, I also am not the best texter, so dont expect someone who always immediately answers you right back cuz they are online — please dont take it personal, it has nothing to do with who is messaging me and everything to do with my disability mkay? And yes, I am trying to work this shit out in therapy, but you know... growth aint linear. When shit hits the fan, the first thing that I lose is the ability to answer text messages 😭 idk i just stare at them, they stare at me, i combust and die, the end. 

Dont know how to end this text, so, I’ll just show a pic of my cat, cuz shes everything. Bye!! 

#introductory post #self introduction #introducing myself #new to tumblr #first post #taylor swift fandom #swifties #sitcom #cats #alfafa my princess #fafázinha linda

[sierice]

Hi. I’m not sure if you still do song analysis stuff, but what do you think of “All I Know So Far” and “Walk Me Home” by P!nk for Apollo after his trials?

Hello Anon!!

So I don’t quite see how “Walk Me Home” fits Apollo- I mean, it does fit him, but not much. 

BUT OMG- ALL I KNOW SO FAR WORKS SO GOOD???? WTF???? HOW THE F*CK IS IT SO ACCURATE SADFHSLDJFHASDFLJKSDF-

To be honest,,,,literally every line in “All I Know So Far” fits Apollo 🤣🤣🤣And the vibes??? The tired-but-happy-but-determined vibe??? It just fits SO well with Apollo I c a n n o t-

I felt alone, still feel afraid I stumble through it anyway

kgkldujdlkgjf the way that this works SO WELL I’M- Honestly it just- it works for literally the whole series tbh. Everything was going bad, he and Meg had to fight and trick their way through the whole of 6 months, and I think this captures it painfully well nvbdflkbgj:

Meg and I had blundered our way across the United States and back again. We’d freed ancient Oracles, defeated legions of monsters, and suffered the untold horrors of the American public transportation system. Finally, after many tragedies, we had triumphed over two of the Triumvirate’s evil emperors, Commodus and Caligula, at Camp Jupiter.

See? Painfully accurate :’)

When they dress you up in lies and you're left naked with the truth

AHHHHHH THE PARALLEL BETWEEN THIS AND HOW APOLLO HAD TO REALIZE AND COME TO TERMS WITH THE FACT THAT THE GODS WERE BLIND TO THEIR FAULTS AND THAT THE OLYMPIAN COUNCIL WAS A TYRANNY, AN- Anyways, it’s so accurate 😭😭😭I love it gkmdfobmdsfgndfg

You throw your head back, and you spit in the wind Let the walls crack, 'cause it lets the light in

The way the second line works so well with Apollo’s entire character development,,,, the idea that he realizes how all these experiences helped him heal,,,, the way the first line shows how he no longer cares for the praise and for staying blind to the faults of the Olympians,,,, brb sobbing

Stay unfiltered and loud, you'll be proud of that skin full of scars

My muscular arms bore no scars or fiery lines glowing beneath the surface. I was gorgeous, which made me feel melancholy. I had worked hard for those scars and bruises. All the suffering my friends and I had been through…

After complaining for so many months about my flabby, acne spotted Lester meat sack, I now found that I felt at home in that form. When I’d first met Meg, she had assured me that Lester’s appearance was perfectly normal. At the time, the notion had horrified me. Now I found it reassuring.

IT’S SO- AHHHHHHHHHHHH OMGG I LOVE THAT LINE WTFFF

So you might give yourself away, yeah And pay full price for each mistake

The way this part shows how yeah, Apollo suffered for his past mistakes, his past regrets, and he had to dig up centuries of trauma and fears, so he could face them- hooooh boy I just-

But when the candy-coating hides the razor blade You can cut yourself loose and use that rage

The first line talking about how Apollo repressed all his emotions and trauma and how he used that to his advantage???? The way Apollo used the memories of his friends as motivation to go on, the way he constanly reminded himself of the promise he made to Jason as a reason to not give up yet- and don’t even get me STARTED on how MEG WAS THE ONLY REASON THAT HE WAS ABLE TO HANG ON IN THE STYX- IT’S TOO MUCH I’M CRYING-

Also the rest of the song tbh,,, kinda reminds me of Meg, ya know? Tbf it’s mostly because of that one fic by Curioser on Ao3 sksks- Meg & Apollo's Highly Limited Roadtrip Playlist- Just the idea that Meg overcomes her abuse from Nero and learns to get through the hardships, and how she destroys the Beast and officially cuts all ties with that- ghnkfgkfhhg I love it <3333

In conclusion, YES “All I Know So Far” is THE perfect for post-ToA Apollo, and a lil bit of post-Toa Meg too tbh, absolutely love it, thank you so much for showing this anon 💛💛💛💛

#anyways we are going to ignore how long I took to answer this and just- #(ok but real talk anon I am horribly sorry for answering this so late dkjlfsdfjkdfdf) #trials of apollo #lester papadopoulos #meg mccaffrey #pjo apollo #pjo #hoo #toa #pjo hoo toa #percy jackson and the olympians #heroes of olympus #asks #anon asks #long post #post-TDP spoilers #🖤🤍🖤🤍 #also yes I do still do song analyses stuff #I am just....very slow at answering them #Like REAL slow.... #yeah..... #toa song recs