#am I still not ur type

[dewi205]

Solangelo Proposal

nico asks naomi and apollo for will's hand in marriage, he also asks the siblings in the apollo cabin (DISCRETELY)

they work together to write a song for nico to sing to will (something like "dandelions")

nico also makes a deal with the olympians so that when will and nico die they can live in a palace nico built for them in elysium

nico also changed the vows to say something that doesn't have to do with "death do us part" because as a son of hades that vow is st*pid

the rings are made by hephaestus, charmed by hecate, and blessed by both hestia and hera

the charm makes it so that the ring can change form, from ring to necklace or bracelet or earring or laurel wreath, depending on what they want at the time

the material is celestial gold and stygian iron wrapped around in a twist and the gems are sunstone and moonstone, looks like that

nico plans a vacation in Italy to last three days and during the dinner of the last of the three days a piano piece started to play through Italy (nico called in a favor with piper and her father)

nico sings that song and proposes at that restaurant

#am I still not ur type #solangelo #nico di angelo #percy jackson #will solace #apollo #naomi solace #pjo #pjo fandom #pjo series #will x nico #traditional nico di angelo #at the wedding percy got to make a speech and all he said was #jason was best man #reyna was best lady? #an entire congregation of gods from all different pantheons visited the wedding #greek roman celtic egyptian norse ALL OF THEM #jason also had a speech.he cried.for almost 5 minutes before beginning the speech #hazel was so happy #nico and hazel did some swing dancing #persephone was in charge of the flower arrangements #she and hera got into so many arguments about them #hades's wedding gift was a mansion with skeleton maids and butlers #the maids and butlers are never seen but they do their job well #apollo's wedding gift was something not to be opened in public #a few weeks later frank did think to ask nico for hazels hand in marriage #he was furious #will calmed him down tho so its fine

[brookiidookiii]

i am manifesting axelle next season.. i need them to be toxic yuri

i wanna see axel try and take charge of her team but nichelle grabs her face and is like "nope we're not having a repeat of lastt ime!" and tries to take control and in that moment axel has a realization.

#i think axel is the type of person to not care for relationships. shes just never thought about her sexuality. #shes got more important things to worry about like the zombie apocalypse #nichelle is hesitant with relationships i think. since she doesnt want all that publicity that comes with her fame #my art #total drama #total drama 2023 #total drama island #tdi #total drama reboot #tdr #td axel #td nichelle #total drama axel #total drama nichelle #axelle #nichaxel #nichelle x axel #axel x nichelle #i am in such an axelle mood tonight. if ur still reading feel free to send drawing prompts or headcanons or requests hehehe

[charlesemersonwinchesteriii]

Un-augmented Julian Bashir who programs a special button on his AAC device just for talking to Garak. It makes a loud incorrect buzzer noise.

#I am once again thinking about Him (un-augmented!Julian my beloved) #Unfortunately Garak LOVES the buzzer. It's like a Pavlovian bell to him. The opposite of a deterrent. #garashir #Julian Bashir #Star Trek: Deep Space 9 #obviously the AAC devices of the 23rd century will be far more advanced than this but perhaps they still include buttons/typing as a backup #in case there's an issue with the tech that translates ur thoughts directly to words (I picture it working via a device #that looks like a modern-day hearing aid; it wirelessly syncs with UTs of course) #also the devices will surely be able to recite the words in your own voice (or any voice you choose) #but it IS funny to imagine the Majel Barrett computer voice flatly declaring ''Garak That Is The Most Ridiculous Lie I've Ever Heard'' #Starky's text posts #Starky's original posts #oh uhhhh #autism

[dovesick]

out foraging

#creature art #creature design #fantasy creature #animal art #artists on tumblr #hey guyssss i’m alive lol #hi to all my new followers! #i am drawing just still slowly. my wrist is doing better tho so that’s great :D #these are my ocs: the creature (fungi form) & the sphynx-cat-ipede #i might have to call the creature something else tbh #there’s many different types of it #they are dobermans with 2 heads & endlessly growing legs #this was for funguary but i only got one pic done in all of feb #rsi sucks mannn #hope ur all doing cool before i go back into the void lmao

[b4kuch1n]

frog documentation. frogcumentation

I think I mentioned a while back I'd post nibling frog momence after the gift's done given. which happened on the 2nd this month I just forgot lmao. anyways we can do it now. I used the boigameista pattern scaled up to four pieces of A4 print paper and decided to double deck it to a two layer thing, not unlike a pillow, for ease of washin. because it was gonna be gifted to a one year old child

took a long time and made a number of mistakes bc hand sewing makes me worse as a person but this guy was done in time for the birthday occasion and that's what matters. chose non-fuzzy fabrics for it because we live in a dense city in the tropics and from personal experience if I hug something made of fur I would explode. the original plan included felt patterns on its back for bonus textures for baby but that wouldn't stretch well along with the rest of the thing so had to hold that back. eventually we got this

zipper across its ass, the coat type of zipper bc I miscalculated when ordering. but it did have a shape and that's all that matters to me. will be a fun game for the baby to grow up and be severely misinformed about what a frog looks like

happy extremely late birthday to this thing also

#bakuspecial #uhhhh. whats my craft tag. I forgor. update this later #frog plush babeyyyy #I want this thing to last until the heat death of the universe so I felled all the seams down. dont recommend doing this by hand #Im so stubborn lmao I refuse to get a serger I will simply get better at hand sewing instead. damn its taking kinda long #there used to be a Lot more frogs around hanoi. but the lack of clean water ponds and lakes have driven down the population #I live like right at the edge of the city rn tho (will no longer be the case in five years) so there are still a lot of aminals #house robins. skinks. fireflies (!!!!). praying mantises. tree frogs #they love to hang out at the fountain inside the complex right across the street. had to pick em up to return to the fountain #from the hot brick tiled ground a few times #theyre so small. theyre so small.... #I miss house geckos they dont show up a lot in our apartment. I wish they would they would love the cockroaches around here #and of course. bc the kind of rice we eat is more short-grained and thus usually not all the way dried like the longer-grained type we have #so many rice weevils. do u know those little fucks do not drown for a Long time #do u know they lay eggs inside the rice grains and that's how u find out ur rice about to become the weevil beverly hill #by washing the rice and seeing hollowed out grains float up. I have become an expert at this. #but I get to see skinks in random bushes so who am I to be pissed about that. skinks rule #this has been baku talks about animals for a mile of tags. thank u for listening #well. its evening and the family wants to go out so that's what we're doin. hope u have a good time too wherever u are #see u this midnight when I reblog every new posts I've made in the last week or so lmao

[baeshijima]

it is now officially the 25th which means...

merry christmas everyone !!! regardless of whether u celebrate or not, i hope u all have a lovely day with whoever u spend it with or with urself <33

#sophie's idle chatter #this is scheduled so im HOPING it posts at 12 am.... prays.... #i havent been super active in the past month or two bc life is kicking my ass (<- has said this countless times already but its still true) #also !! i see asks and ill try and answer them when i actually have the time and energy 😭 ik i say this a lot but ive been drained good god #(not so) mini life updates : #the new lovebrush chronicles main story update has made me weep so much... ive done both clarence and ayns routes and.... #my god.... this story is darker and honestly im loving it AND i love how they did the chara roles in this world (alkaid... ourgh...) #my tear glands arent tho bc ayn ending 3.... what the fuck was that i couldnt sleep after doing that ending??? ITS WAS SO SAD AND FOR WHATF #currently having to wait until the 27th so i can do lars route 😔 #the recent ep of apothecary diaries.... ourgh my heart.... jinshi and maomao beloveds :(( #oh !! and ive gotten back into my ace of diamonds/daiya no ace phase and have been rewatching the series... #sobbing chris and yuki and miyuki my beloveds.... kissing ur foreheads and holding u gently..... #the way i got back into it bc im catching up on s2 of a clean sweep (a korean baseball variety show that i love with all my heart ;w;) #my mum is a traitor tho bc she watched every new ep that came out on tuesdays while i was in uni 🧍‍♀️ so now im catching up on the 30 eps #on my own 🧍‍♀️ #OMG AND ALSO DR STONE S3??? WHY WAS I NOT NOTIFIED THAT PART 1 CAME OUT MONTHS AGO AND PART 2 WAS MORE RECENT??? #i havent been doing that much writing recently tho bc the fingers wont type but the brain is exploding with ideas i cannot handle this #i do want to get back to the haitham sxf series tho.... and also my oc various x reader series....... #tbh ive been contemplating abt publishing the haitham series on ao3 once i write more chapters before publishing them #idk i feel like the series would be nice to have on ao3 as well as tumblr JHDG #thats abt it i think? #anywho if u read this far then know i am giving u a warm cookie as a condolence prize for getting through this life dump <33 #ill leave it off here but i hope u all have a lovely day !! mwah mwah merry chrysler everyone 🎄🫶 #queue... ueueue

[thesteriuswife]

Speaking of Fairylace I don't think I've posted her over here yet ^.^ Fairylace, aka Princess Marianne Johanna Isobela Wefenne, is the Spiderwoman of Earth 162 and protector of the kingdom of Niwe Yorke <3 her identity was hidden and she was hidden away in a small village as an infant after the King and Queen of Niwe Yorke were told that, on her 18th birthday, their child would succumb to a terrible curse... unfortunately, Fairylace got cursed on the eve of her birthday, which is how she got her powers </3 the curse is slightly mitigated; the amulet she wears keeps her humanoid form... but if it is somehow removed, she transforms into a monster...!

The visual style of her universe is "mid budget children's fantasy movie made as a collaboration between an italian and japanese animation studio" (Think Unico or The Last Unicorn)

#🖼️ manuscripts #🌷 i am half sick of shadows #ive actually thought a lot about her story but also feel just a teensy bit silly with it #simply because im not too knowledgable on spiderman lore at all. which is Fine since she's for the Movies and not the Comics... but still #her story is a tragedy though she gets heartbroken A Lot. maybe one day I'll write it all down #tfw ur boyfriend dies and ur bestie becomes a witch type thing

[loverofallthingssmart]

my blog is for the uptight, loud, annoying bitches who are told they can't take a joke, the terribly terribly sad people who mask their grief and loneliness with rage, the “just like your father” girlies, and the mean girls who want to be kind so so so bad but its incredibly hard to curb the poison in their mouth !

#hello just got told that a '''friend of mine''' believes i am incapable of taking a joke literally false bc half the things i say r not to #be taken like incredibly seriously and also its not my fault hes not funny like........ um take ur self hatred humor away from me ! #im literally fine though bc like i bitch abt him on the daily with my other friend its cool <3 #anyway this post still stands bc i just described my type in characters.. fun fact theyre all somewhat just like me and idk how i like that #final character type is the mc....like im a sucker for the mc most of the time <3

[iceeericeee]

I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30? #idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do. #i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count? #I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post. #why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags* #it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows. #where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one. #this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can. #which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone. #thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really... #...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

[godofsmallthings]

@andisitover tagged me to share my albums of the year! (i'm going with nine faves that came out this year & not including rerecords/reissues/deluxe versions where the og album didn't come out this year)

i tag anyone who wants to do it (seriously pls do it and tag me, i would love to see your faves!!!!!)

#okay this is super interesting to look at #first of all i think i've been listening to more music by men this year which is incredible #i also feel like i didn't really hit a stride of being excited by new music until like july hence most of these being newer #it was also a really single/song-centric listening year for me #i felt conflicted abt adding the record and ocean blvd bc i am more attached to individual songs vs. the whole album #and there were probably 2-3 more that could've been swapped out for those (paramore/troye sivan/arlo parks) #also 4/9 being by artists of color is nice. would still like to be better about that though #ALSO (last thing i prommy) #i feel compelled to say that a lot of my favorite albums this year didn't come out in 2023 #i just didn't listen to tons of new music this year/discover too many new artists #which isn't really good/bad but i would like to do more of that next year :) #actually i might make a second post of all of those #aoty just makes me think of grammy category which makes me think of albums that came out this year ykwim? #omg also i just rearranged them so each row is in like vague ranking order (top = faves) in case ur curious #tagged #vi is typing...

[bonefall]

Does mapleshade still follow Crookedstar in this? What if her purpose doing that is to make sure riverclan never rejects a half-clan kit again (that’s why he doesn’t question Misty and stone and another reason for wanting his grandkits in riverclan)

I'm passionate about the idea that people are heavily influenced by their circumstances. It's much easier to be a good person when you have loving guidance and the environment to be your best self. Likewise, pain and suffering can bring out the worst even in the kindest, most selfless people.

And in both of the AUs I have for Mapleshade, she is not a particularly nice person to begin with. But being StarClan's best prosecutor allows the positive aspects of her personality to shine. So to answer your question:

"Does Mapleshade still follow Crookedstar?"

#Bonefall Rewrite

In the current version of my rewrite, Mapleshade is condemned to the Dark Forest for 3 counts of murder. She takes the ruling with pride and confidence, playing to the sympathetic crowd by chasing the other damned souls into the Dark Forest.

In truth she's just as spiteful as she was in life, and now she's alone with no friends or family, bored, in Hell, and uses all that spare time to haunt Appledusk's lineage, and basically everyone associated with her death (Perchpaw/shine as well).

So, it's really not for a constructive reason that she follows Stormkit. She pushed him off the stone to kill him and only broke his jaw. She notices that Rainflower has a spiteful, awful view of her son, and decides that it would cause even more suffering to keep Stormkit alive. She kills some more kits so he'll have a foster to suckle him, just to watch them make each other miserable.

(rewrite recap: Rainflower is now the Appledusk descendant. Stormkit is not getting a cruel renaming, Crookedjaw is an honor title.)

Crookedstar follows Darkstar's commandment, the Queen's Rights, because he is a good, proud leader who abides by the traditions of his predecessors. That's all. Mapleshade doesn't need to bully him into 'clan loyalty' or anything, her haunting is much more actively malevolent than canon.

#Better Call Mapleshade AU

In StarClan, Mapleshade is with her kits. Her wonderful, sweet children-- they are an excellent influence. She's still ruthless and vengeful, of course, but she lives for the contrary position she can hold up to StarClan

A LOT of her motivation stems from that. From knowing that StarClan would otherwise let people in who shouldn't be there (hypocritical? Yes) and she takes this duty very seriously.

The BCM AU shares some aspects of the Bonefall Rewrite, but here, I think it's very similar to canon. Mapleshade watches Rainflower emotionally abuse an innocent kitten, and she KNOWS that Rainflower would just get into StarClan without any intervention (the way she did in canon). Mapleshade needs more evidence to condemn her-- and she will create scenarios to get what she needs.

On one paw this IS born out of righteous fury. She IS thinking of her own kits, you might agree that Rainflower deserved the Dark Forest, and Mapleshade won't FORCE Rainflower to do anything she wouldn't already do. She will test her, that's all.

But to test her? She is going to use Crookedkit. This WILL cause a lot more pain to him than if she just left it all alone and let Rainflower get into StarClan. She encourages him into positions of power to prove himself, she lets this young cat think that his value is tied to what his abusive mother thinks of him.

Because the more pain he displays, the further the lengths he goes to in service of appeasing Rainflower, the more Mapleshade can use as ammo to get her damned.

Mapleshade always serves her own interests first and foremost, not those of the greater good.

#I typed out ''not those of the greater food'' by accident and FELLAS I am hungry #I want salmon so bad guys #I want a teriyaki/soy marinade with a little bit of citrus. Just a splash #Only I could get through a deep character analysis like this and come out only thinking about food #But consider; food is so delicious. you cannot blame me #Mapleshade #Rainflower #Crookedstar #Better Call Mapleshade AU #Bonefall Rewrite #Anyway like I want Mapleshade to still always be a baddie #I love her too much #EVIL women can have my heart and several other organs #im thinking about fish again #I once worked on the worldbuilding for an rp and we made a tradition based on the Mapleshade incident that you'd take-- #--trout and glaze it with maple syrup and then applewood smoke it for parents expecting a litter #I guess Mapleshade is just gonna make me crave fish for the rest of my miserable life #i should make some warrior cat inspired recipes someday #Or just some general dish ideas #new ask game LOL give me something ur clan eats and ill make a recipe for u #god im hungry #Maybe I should go eat lunch #warrior cats

[pawbeanies]

mm.. thinking thoughts. no need to let me off my leash. id much rather be knelt at your throne, being pulled by my leash to be held between your legs, powerless against you and unable to think about anything but using my mouth to please you. maybe i get a bit carried away, so you might have to muzzle me and reestablish your authority, be it by making me sit still and suffer or by you exploiting my willingness to serve and making me into your personal fucktoy. idk, just thinking :3

- 🌹

waoa... many thoughts. being thunk. hi. hi again .

hiding this under a read more im a little embarrassed djdkf but wowow thoughts...

such a good dog... but that's where good dogs belong, right? between my legs and worshipping me? would you mind if i pulled your leash... wrapping it around my hand and tugging to get you to use your mouth just the way i'd like it? you'd know exactly what i like too, i think.. i'd be calling you such a good dog the entire time too hehe

oh but it's okay if you get carried away just this once, you're still a dog after all.. sometimes you need to be reminded who's in charge and that's alright! i might have to be mean and make you sit still though. i'm sure you'd enjoy it a little bit if i made you into my toy and. as good as you are if you get carried away i can't reward it by using you (not yet at least)... there's plenty of time for that later, once you've remembered who is in charge :3

many thoughts. many thoughts... woawoaw (explodes into 200000 pieces)

#asks..?!?!?! #🌹 anon #taking notes w a funny quill pen. things hath been awakened within me #but also wuf. flustered still #i hope it is not showing i am trying to act all like . cool. i swear #but also rolling kicking my feet flustered whenever i Read or Type ueue #its taken all my brainpower to write coherent sentences i feae...... #brain is a puddle i think... #but also thank you thank youuu biting ur hand once again. maybe ur arm this time #thank you for asks my brain explodes every time i see them in the liek activity feed thing i am at 8 billion little brain pieces

[nailgunstigmata]

people complaining about the monster high gen 3 designs are the weakest breed and i say this as someone who was obsessed with gen 1. the new dolls literally have so much more character and unique molds and facial structures like???? theyre so much cuter and more unique. like nooo omg my dolls for children dont all have the same face and skinny body omg 🥺🥺🥺 god forbid the kids who these dolls are targeted at feel represented. i hate u and u are pathetic. get away from them

#i respect it if people just dont like the fashion/haircuts but #if u complain about the molds u need to get a grip #its literally all adults too that are complaining lmao #like im excited to see some of the dolls i grew up with have my body types!! i think thats really cool #i cant believe my bestie venus has my body type….like yeah younger me who always felt embarrassed of having wide hips and big thighs would #have been so happy about this. and i still am!! why would u mot want this for children. ur unhinged #and also evil tbh

[skye-nsfw]

How are you so confident with this stuff when you're so young?

I'm 21 and still can't really figure out what I want

i exposed myself to these concepts at perhaps too young of an age, but it did allow me the time figure out what i do and dont want. however, what u like and what u dont like changes over time, especially when u start exploring w/ people physically. i wouldnt fret about figuring out what u like or what u dont, instead i would say focus on having good, healthy experiences, and let ur curiosity drive u towards the things u like.

as for why i project confidence, it's bc i want to be. it's a part of the role i want to have in most of my dom/sub dynamics. it is also bc i feel these concepts and topics should be a normal part of everyday conversations, that they should be normalized.

of course, being horny makes that easier ;)

#confidence is sort of an odd thing #it's easy to confuse an ego for confidence #or to confuse hubris for confidence #it's for the role of the type of dom i am on here #i guarantee that no one is confident going into sex. nor should u be #sex is a highly emotional. highly vulnerable thing people can do. u need to be comfortable w/ it first before u bring in confidence #im not confident in everything i do outside of this blog. im still learning my partner's body and their likes and dislikes #but there r things i am confident in bc they've been discussed and i know they'll like it #the confidence i project on my blog is just an act for a role that i am playing. it's fantasy and should be treated as such #text is also a very different thing than communicating w/ ur partner in the moment #here. i have time to edit. change my tone. change my wording. #but u dont have that option w/ someone in-person. u gotta spend that time w/ someone to be confident w/ them #dont try and force that. it wont end well. #give urself the time to explore first and over time things like projecting confidence will be #-become easier and feel more natural #it's all a process #and i've been rambling. so i'll cut it here #bd/sm blog #nonbinary nsft #bd/sm dom #lesbian nsft #dms are open #nsft post #nsft #asks open #this felt like a rlly good ask to be lengthy on. ty anon

[fridayiminlcve]

if i dont move to nyc or london or paris by age 27 what is the point of anything

#i looooove my city so much you guys like if i wasnt who i am (queer) rn i would be so fucking glad that i am in my current city but #i loooove art and history and fashion and stuff and this citymight be about second best for all that but its still soo crowded #people WILL judge no matter what you wear something cutesy and people dont shut up especially when ur 16 and tagging along with your mom to #the mall or something and everyone just stares and even among your classmates ive been complimented so many times #for my unique style or whatever (aka i have beaded shoelaces and wear lots of jewelery and absurd ass eyeliner) and theyre like oh #n******** is so fancy itni stylish bandi hai woh and its so attention grabbing but i dont want it to be a big deal !!! #i want to like 20 badges and wear insane makeup and dye my hair without calling much attention to myself!!! #of course i know that will change slowly as you go in to uni and meet ppl of your type instead of a bazaar market and youll pick ur own #friends who r like minded but considering this is india how many people can you truly find. #also my next two years are going to be spent in a college for jee and neet kids #you can wear what you want theres no dress code but you have to appear serious studious and simple if you want to be taken seriously #elle woods at harvard law type #i asked my mom to get an industrial & second lobe piercing and actual dyed hair and shes like turn twenty get into a good college then do #not bc she minds she allowed me to get my hair dyed at age 13 but to go in th college im going to there is SO SO much rigour #and if you dont show yourself as professional and shit they will keep you in lower effort self study classes instead of best of the best #i KNOW how difficult moving abroad is bc my family does not have that money i need to do it myself its so so expensive bc the money #itself has such a high value compared to here (you see americans cribbing abt 30$ hourly wage but here that is 2500inr) #2500 inr is as much as an expensive pair of jeans here. expensive clothes here r 30$ and in usa its 300$ . see the diffence #im changing topics so much but sometimes i do feel this place is suffocating #its a priviledge i have that i can even think about going abroad comapred to other indians but still #dp you get what i mean #and ik movies and all are very romanticised so it might not even be this way in western cities and just an idealisation but still #if things change around here then the entire question of going anywhere is out the window anyway #smalltown boy will byers moment #dni if you read all this and plan on replying unless ur a close mutual (close mutuals u know who u are) #also if someone says why would you want to go to usa uk paris when they colonised your country shut up <3 shut up very much <3

[cimicherrychanga]

btw u guys have to promise to not be mad at me for becoming ur turtle mutual. please

#shut up dave #IM LIKE. NOT NORMAL ABOUT THEM. AND THIS MEANS A LOT TO ME #i nEED a special interest to consume my every waking thought in order to thrive #and after i grew out of homestuck its like i lost my spark its EXCRUCIATING. #what do you MEAN i cant draw 3 comics and 2 full piecesn write 50 page essay in one day every day if im not insane abt some piece of fictio #outrageous!!!!! #and as much as i wish i could. i cant Choose or induce this thats not how it weorks we all know this #i TRIED to make miraculous my next big thing after hs it did not work!!! im still insane abt it! but its the #watching trrailers frame by frame making longass analyses and tracking down the exact car in one scene type of insane. #sure ive made art n comics its still one of the things i was and am more invested in than about 60-something of my other media interests #but GOD then rottmnt hit me full speed. i am FEELING this one. i made art AND the characters i was scared would be impossible to draw #turned out to be. so easy? like i did a great splinter first try and thats HUGE for me usually my first attempts suck #until i develop a personal touch for their design #the style of the show is just sososo good for me. theyre my best friends now. and i INTEND to make that clear to EVERYONE #bc im still feelin lonely!!! despite everything!! and i dont want to!!!!!!!!! and im making it everyone elses problem!!!! #anyways like as i said. ur not allowed to be mad at me. please please. ive always been annoying this is just a new arc #and u have to put up wirh it. or ill cry. thanks.