#and also made itself a parent

[noxcheshire]

So I saw a few posts describing how the Pit’s in Jason’s body kinda acted on its own accord when spotting Danny “baby ghost” Phantom/Fenton and how they then co-parent with a half dead “baby” teenager.

But I raise YOU the idea that the Pits is already parenting Jason Todd.

When the Pits take over it’s the simple response of a Mama Bear going feral on some humans for making their little baby upset.

Jason disappointed by Batman?

The Pits snarl and rage at the man that made baby sad!

Jason disgusted at the idea of another Robin lined up for death?

The Pits howl and claw through the skin to fix the situation by beating the humans up so they can’t die!

Jason vulnerable and lost by the lack of acceptance in his return as Red Hood?

The Pits screech, biting furiously into the humans that had caused the baby to feel un-included in their games!

No one understands the reason for the Lazarus Pit’s in Jason’s body to constantly be acting up, that is until Danny comes into the picture and is like, “So your ghost parent is always watching you too, huh?” In reference to his own ghost parent (Clockwork) that likes to watch through his little tv’s on what Danny gets up to and sends a multitude of sticky notes like a distant helicopter mom.

#dpxdc #dp x dc #dc x dp #dcxdp #danny phantom #dp x dc crossover #danny fenton #dp x dc prompt #jason todd #The Pits have adopted Jason as their ghost baby #look if you throw a whole ass child into some waters to ‘fix’ then you better believe this pool of green is gonna take notice #it took notice and inserted itself into healing Jason #and also made itself a parent #Pits: a baby as gift? mine now #Pits: WHO UPSET MY BABY?! 😠 #Jason: man it’s getting harder to control the pits every day #Danny: same hat bud #clockwork: that is my little baby and to make him my little baby he had to die #clockwork: BUT HERE ME OUT #The Pits when noticing Danny: …. second baby? #clockwork: I do not accept co-parenting with some ghost water #The Pits: FUCK YOU THATS MY BABY NOW #Jason and Danny are now ghost siblings #these are the rules #Danny is vibing cause he’s kinda used to the crazy of ghost parent at this point

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID in ALT] I've made posts before about Talia/Dick co-parenting Damian moments (will never happen but let me dream) and this came to me in a vision. Took me ages to finish for some reason 😭 and then even longer to post

#dc comics #dc #damian wayne #dick grayson #talia al ghul #batfamily #dc robin #nightwing #anyway. yes im a self-indulgent ''dick as damians secret third parent'' truther #like i DO think it's way more complex and nuanced than the schmoopy affectionate fan portrayal of it #they're brothers they're father and son they're partners they're the dynamic duo except only in past tense etc etc #but consider! I'm not immune to schmoopy affection in fanworks. it compells me despite itself #anyway it's technically not that crazy when it comes to dick and damian. they hug! often! at least they did #it's not as big a leap to these types of scenarios #also talia ''somewhat absent for complex reasons on both her and damians part but very loving and loved by her son'' al ghul #you will always be famous to me #son of the demon origin...bwahhh #anyway. someone made a comic kind of like this/like a post i made abt this topic #but way funnier bc dick and talia starting trying to beat each other up #so go look at that as well #anyway. it's been a somewhat difficult few weeks so I'm. desperately trying to take it easy #i got some reading with me (first vol of kevin smiths GA run that i found second hand and jaimes BB run vol 2!) #so we'll see how far i get through those. considering there's demons in my head telling me to re-read things (LET ME OUT!!!) #when i finish GA and BB i do plan on rereading robin 2021. as a treat to myself #it's a run I've really warmed up to as time went on #I'm keeping up w/ the current b&r run even though it is. admittedly very slow w/ some weird dialogue #i read it for the damian content more than anything. also nikas back so that's neat :] #idk I have a feeling that after absolute power shakes out we might get some more creative team switch ups #so if anyone at dc is interested in taking over the reigns on b&r...that could be very neat #(it's me they should hire me. please DC i have ideas listen to my red hood pitch PLEASE-)

[ftm-megamind]

me and my boyfriend are sooo javid (he invited me over for a family dinner)

#jokes aside i am so fucking NERVOUS ABOUT THAT LIKE ??? #it's not like i don't know his parents/family. i do. i saw them plenty. still. oh my god #it's his father's birthday dinner too #i think im going to die actually #which is irrational because like #he went to a family party with me and it wasn't a big deal. i mean i was delighted that he was there. but nobody made it a big deal #so i'll probably be fine #still. you get why im nervous about this #while i adore him more than life itself we're still at a point where like. im not fully comfortable around his parents #because like. obviously. i have no idea if they even like me #i mean they probably asked him to invite me so they must like me at least a little #still...... #fuck. why am i even going off about this in my tumblr tags. whatever man #delete later #vent but like don't take this too seriously!!! just going bonkers #also can you tell i love talking about him

[just-an-enby-lemon]

Okay, I just found out that historically Mary was between fourteen and fiteen yo when the archangel Gabriel gave her the pregnancy news. My whole Jesus is somewhat real on Good Omens so how did THAT conversation went made me actually more curious now because it's not only Good Omens Gabriel gives bonkers news to a human but Good Omens Gabriel gives bonkers news to a teenager.

#mary being a teen when she got magically pregnant is uncomfortable af but it was also normal for the time period #and while some christian schoolars will try to sell the image of Joseph being an old man to explain away Jesus potential sibblings + #and mantain Mary as an eternal virgin #and while some weird conservatives will also use it to say the bibble defends this type of marriage #this isn't the case #there is no reference in the bibble itself of their ages or of a age gap #so based on context clues is likely they just followed the normal marriage rules at the time #this means their engament would have been made by their parents when Mary was between the ages 12-14 #and they would meet and marry when she was 15-16 and he was 18-20 #still an age gap but not a overly creepy one #the other explanation to jesus sibblings used to keep mary an eternal virgin is that it was a misstranslation as sibblings and cousins + #i don't remenber if the langague in question was old hebrew greek or latin because I heard it from my comunity preacher as a kid #before I bailed catholicism #mother mary #good omens #gabriel good omens

[adipostsstuff]

New theory: at least one of Kotoko's parents is a police officer and she (and her brother most likely) were trained to become police officers themselves.

#HEAR ME OUT #so many things fit together when you think of it like this #Her mindset is exactly like cop mindset and it would make sense for it to be something she was trained into from childhood #She has been taking martial arts lessons from a young age using protection as a reason #Her parents would have had to allowed her to take them. What of they were the ones who set her up for them in the first place? #It would explain how she became Like This with the no persecution thing being true #She didn't go through an event that make her like this. She was taught to be this way #Well you could argue having cop parents and being pressured from a young age is traumatising in itself but I digress #It's the kind of trauma most wouldn't really recognise as such because it's common and not very extreme #She goes to a prestigious university which likely cost a lot in tuition. Her family would need to provide for it. Likely made her go into i #Which would mean she was probably ostracised from her family once she was sent to court and had to drop out #Because a good cop shild would not do this #This would also make her foil Kazui because they had similar childhoods #But one stepped into it a bit too well while the other wasn't ever able to truly fit in #milgram #kotoko yuzuriha #everyone needs to see my vision

[glassesandpassion]

@digitaladventurers​ | Daisuke Motomiya & V-mon continued from here

- 'Course it's edible! - Miyako huffed, prompting her elbow on the counter - I mean, they've been using the same recipe and selling it for almost three centuries, right? How wouldn't it be edible, Daisuke?

She then turned to Hawkmon, who was sitting on a stool right next to her.

- Tell him, Hawkmon, tell him it's edible.

"We...we haven't really tried it, but..."

Her eyes widened, challenging the poor digimon to finish his sentence.

"...But! There's nothing like Catalan cuisine! The strong flavors that melt in your mouth, I'm sure the xocolata is no different, Daisuke-san!"

- Exactly! And if you're in doubt, you can always give it to V-mon, the true chocolate connoisseur to try it! - Miyako now glanced at V-mon and suddenly her confidence in his unconditional love for chocolate began to waver - ...r-right?

#Digital Friend~ #digitaladventurers #{btw xocolata is a bitter chocolate with a high percentage of chocolate} #{you'll be scraping it with your teeth if you decide to eat it by itself} #{it's also a bit dusty or at least the one my pay parents brought was} #{it's definitely the kind of thing to grind and use in a recipe in hindsight} #{but it was all written in catalan and we are stupid} #{ALSO THIS POST WAS MADE USING THE NEW BETA EDITOR k bye} #{NOT HIGH PERCENTAGE OF CHOCOLATE IT'S A HIGH PERCENT OF COCOA} #digitaladventurers | Valentine’s Giri Xocolata #Chosen Children LET'S ROLL!! | In Character #A Panicking Yamato Nadeshiko | Adult Verse #MY BEAUTIFUL HAWKBABY | Hawkmon #DAISUKE NO | Daisuke Motomiya

[mattibee]

honestly im still not wrong about terastalling being/causing a manifestation of dreams and desires but it sure is also timey wimey i guess

#coatlythoughts #didnt expect the seeing the dead at the crystal pool to come around in that way tbh #it is strange though.. why did terapagos do that.. #and it like. i think implies that you gave an alternate dimension arven his parent back? since they say theyll go home and read briars book #and you have the book arven has throughout the sv main story.. #but that also happened?? in our universe?? thats the hint for that cutscene?? #like you could say maybe prof had multiple copies but idk the scribbled name implies its The Copy from their childhood no? #tbh i dont really like it having actual spacetime powers so im going to pretend thats also a dream/desire #the player wishes for their friend arven to have had a better life somehow #and terapagos manifests a token that may or may not indicate that you influenced that in another timeline #just like the paradox pokemon are a token that may or may not indicate that the prof's 'paradise' is real #though i guess the scarlet/violet books being real throws a wrinkle into it since they also saw the paradox mons #BUT THAT WAS ALREADY A WRINKLE CAUSE PROF DIDNT SEE THEM UNTIL THEY MADE THE TIME MACHINE!!!! AUGH!!!!!!! #terapagos itself might also be a manifested token of briar's desires for heath to be right if we wanna keep spiralling about it #not only wanting terapagos to be real for vindication reasons but also her desires to control and understand terastalling further #what better way to fufill that than a pokemon you can catch that has. immense control of that energy #basically what im saying is its all a dream but like in a fucked up way thats also real #paradox mons is tulpas i think

[bruciemilf]

I think one of my fav fics had Jason like loving his mom deeply right- but also had him being like , that was not a good place for a child and she made some mistakes but she loved me and I love her ,

Cause like that’s what growing up is.. seeing your parents as humans ya? (Plus it paralleled his relationship with Bruce and stuff v good)

YES! EXACTLY!! everyday I'm.begging dc stans to understand imperfect parents shouldn't equate bad parents.

#ofc i know Catherine made mistakes but for me it's so disheartening to think abt bc I KNOW its so rooted into apathy for drug addicts #you can absolutely feel pain for jason due to his environment while understanding catherine: #a) did not have the resources nor the help to do something abt it due to the corruption in gotham making it impossible for poverty striken #neighbours to better itself. b) she died before she COULD #not to mention the outside influences jason CANONICALLY hated more than any drug. you can also acknowledge all the good sacrifices and love #and effort she made for him. trying to give him something in a system where they're NOTHING. #catherine was jason's batman before bruce #and in addition to that-- im kinda tired with dc stans rejecting any parental figure thats not cutter cookie perfect #you wont fucking get that in dc #asks

[dapurinthos]

*head in hands realization*

aw fuck [redacted] is a metaphor for inherited mental illness that no one talks about.

i played myself. i was re-reading an oresteia and realized i fucking played myself. the curse of the pelopidai is inescapable.

anyway.

“Why do you refer to the hypothetical Chosen One as a banana?” “It’s a joke.” “Really?” “Bananas have low genetic diversity. They only grow in one system and the current cultivar is a clone of a clone of a clone. Every banana is the same banana. It’s a monoculture. The Holocron of Prophecy says that the hypothetical Chosen One will have no father, so they’re basically born parthenogenetically, missing half the DNA that usually goes into making up a person.” “Like a banana. You're right, that is funny.” “Oh, good.” I feel an inordinate amount of relief at the confirmation. “They could just be Dathomiri.” “What?” “Dathomiri reproduce through sexual and asexual reproduction.” “What.” That makes sense, actually. It explains how you get Iridonian and Dathomiri Zabraks. Female Dathomiri are definitely not female Zabraks. Is this because of their magic? A result of some sort of Sith alchemy like the way the Dark Jedi were supposed to have created a way for them to interbreed with the indigenous Tsis population? “I’ll comm Jo and tell her you’ve got a new area of research I’m allowing you.” I’m half-way down the corridor before he finishes. “Thank youuuuuuu!”

#the star wars isekai fic #this is my pet dathomiri biology theory because there is something FUNKY going on there #zabtrak subspecies-slash-human/zabrak hybrids my fine anthropological arse they are #so i've made it that the descendants of the dathmiri kingdom are parthenogenic primarily but can interbreed with other '''close''' species #but this wasn't something they figured out until they arrived on dathomir itself (influenced by the planet's strength in the living force) #depending on who the other species is the hybrid dathomiri kid will end up looking like the other parent not the mother #while the parthenogenic ones are basically clones but are not identical to their mothers because again: dathomir #also in this house (fanfic) we use the proper word tsis to refer to the indigenous korriban population #& sith to refer to the syncretism created by the dark jedi hijacking the culture

[izzythehutt]

So, I finished Breaking Bad last night (watched Felina and El Camino.) Extremely gutting and tragic. What a freaking ride.

I keep thinking about the scene where Jesse calls his parents and reassures them that his decisions were not their fault and that they did their best. It was so beautiful—just an amazing moment of moral maturity for that character. The last time he saw them he literally blackmailed them into selling him back his aunt's house with the knowledge of the meth lab he put in the basement...and now he's apologizing in the only way he can, when he knows it's the last time he'll ever speak to them.

#el camino #breaking bad #jesse pinkman #diane pinkman #adam pinkman #brba #el camino: a breaking bad movie #i feel like my most controversial take about this show is i really don't think his parents were much in the wrong #their biggest crime was being uptight middle class people lol #i don't think jesse's attachment to walt is proof of his parents' dysfunctionality in and of itself #they have obviously given him many chances before the show #their biggest failing seems to have been in his moral formation though #they obviously made mistakes but they also clearly love him #there is basically one time in the show where he tries to make amends with them and ISN'T full of shit #and by that time the trust is broken #it's tragic but not surprising

[commanderfreddy]

i never remember to explain shit anymore i just vaguepost and expect people to catch up but i finally have good news, we've made a lot of progress with my parents' estate (they both ran their own businesses and you know those images of nightmare cable management? well imagine that with bank accounts) and i actually have money now - im taking a trip to Aotearoa NZ with my mate Jules next week (dark sky reserve! lotr filming locations! snow! FOOD!) and then in august i will be moving to nyc to pursue a 2 year masters degree in library science with a focus on rare materials archival studies!! shits happening in my life!! im not just sitting in my house doing nothing all day!! and like i said i have money!! if you're taking commissions lmk bc while im focused on my getaway for the next few weeks i wanna support my friends and their art and when i get back i wanna throw u cash to draw my ocs!!

#fred says a thing #personal #i havent slept (its 8am) but not for sad reasons! i was reading a good book and then i just had a lot of thoughts! #invariably i will be sad again - probably soon! i will definitely see stuff on my trip that i will want to show my parents and have to #experience the strange nature of grief-for-what-never-was several times over during otherwise great moments #- but i will also be happy in the future too! #my therapist says i definitely have ptsd! im learning more about emotional flashbacks and how to manage them! #im a human being and i will continue to be one for the rest of my life! #i hope thats a long time! #but even if that isnt something my genetics allows i was happy now! and people were happy to have me in the world! #im realising that sounds rather alarming but i just have a lot of fears about my genetics considering. you know. the cancer orphaning. #im trying to manage both my health fears and my health itself in a reasonable way! i made a chicken tomato pasta sauce last night #just from ingredients i had lying around and it was pretty good! #i have a ripe tomato i picked from the garden yesterday that today i will fry up with bacon and put on some toast i think #there are so many books i want to read #there are so many books i want to write #in a few days i will be experiencing snow (a rarity for me) and i will probably be handling the cold very poorly and i will feel excited #and uncomfortable at the same time #and for much of my life i will experience a lot of contradictory things at the same tiem #and i will experience times of great boredom and inaction! we all have to stand in queues and wait for buses and go to the dentist #and wonder what might have been #but i will experience them. i will.

[majorshatterandhare]

Something about The Littlest Libertine (the song) makes me feel about to cry and I don’t know why. Something nostalgic maybe? All kinds of music made me cry as a kid.

#jessica law #the littlest libertine #i mean part of it is probably the whole ‘selling your most valuable shoes and strategically planning your meals to not spend more on food’ #but also. if only it actually made me cry. im in need of a new song to use to cry when i need to but cant #walk like thunder by kimya dawson isnt guarenteed to do it anymore #legit though lots of kids music made me cry as a kid #obviously the one about the dog dying #but also from the time i was a baby i have *hated* you are my sunshine because its about a kid being taken away from their parents! #people forget about that verse #my mom used to joke that i hated her singing and would sing it to show people that id start balling! i dont remember that though. #just always hated it #also started balling at the olive garden once as a young child and when asked why said the music was sad #the music was completely in italian (i dont know italian) #autistic hyperempathy/hypersensitivity 🙃 #but also like music itself does portray emotions. thats not crazy. just not expected from a young kid i guess?

[septimus-heap]

Back on my bullshit abt marcia and protagonist syndrome. Marcia has protagonist plot armour combined with the curse of being the protagonists mentor so she's constantly just barely surviving situations

#sep talks #septimus heap #marcia overstrand #going by trope rules marcia should be dead but instead shes just gone through like 50 different near death experiences #marcia's so funny she could be so many things so easily but she just isn't #like villain marcia wouldn't take changing much. Protagonist marcia. Dead mentor/parent figure trope marcia #you could change like 1 thing and it would fit #(protagonist marcia specifically all you'd have to do would be. Make her the protagonist. Like obviously but it's more like #with beetle or the heap brothers or whoever they r all definitely side characters and so is marcia during when the series takes place #but if u just. Shift the series back like 10-20 years? You have to change basically nothing about her life for her to be a good #main character. Which is so funny) #I love her btw if u couldn't tell #EDIT u probably wouldn't even have to shift the series back a few years bc the amount of stuff that happens to marcia in the series itself #is insane. The issue is that most of it is just the side effects of being around septimus #but then again!!!! #magyk could definitely be made marcia-centric. Flyte too if u focus more on the Shadow (tbh idk what happens in flyte) #physik actually is about septimus specifically so that's whatever #queste+syren also #darke and fyre are another 2 that could definitely focus more on marcia if u wanted them ti #fyre especially #I'm rambling and mostly talking nonsense so ignore this idk but abdjdbdhdnbd

[worldwhampion]

Null's vice-versa parent-child dynamic with the atlas 1/2

Null sees the atlas as a parental figure, while the atlas… also sees null as a parental figure. After all, like every other traveler, null is a copy of the person who created the atlas. In the simulation though, the atlas is the one who brought them into existence instead.

THE ATLAS AS A PARENTAL FIGURE TO NULL

Likely soon after they were born in the simulation, they had made ‘seeing it all’ their ultimate purpose and life goal as a traveller. They dedicated their entire life to it, and they clung onto it, to death (literally, if resetting the galaxy does indeed wipe them out like they say). We all know how this played out: they went to the atlas, the atlas told them there’s an inordinate amount of worlds left to see in their universe, null goes ahead and sees them all anyway, that through ways of questionable ethics to sustain themself (more on this in a future post). When they return, they ask if the atlas is proud of them achieving their enormous life goal. As an answer, the atlas simply shows there are also inordinate amounts of universes out there, each with another traveller like them. Null’s pride was just about completely shattered by this.

They truly believed it laughed at their entire life’s work, which they not only have done for themself, but seemingly for the atlas too. To them, how atlas responded seems to indicate that their goal and purpose in life are only a joke - that to ‘see it all’ is a ridiculous, impossible task (the latter is true). Their life itself may as well be a joke. And they can’t seem to move on from this imagined thought: that they have wasted lifetimes just for a joke god can laugh at, who they’ve attached to as a parental figure in a world where they’re an outlier. Considering null is near-immortal, they must have outlived everyone they’ve ever befriended. I don’t think any of them would have seen null’s goal of ‘seeing it all’ as they themself see it. The scope of the task is just too vast for any mortal to comprehend, and i don’t think many of them would’ve seen the point of it either - they’d never see it come to fruition in their lifetime. The only being left other than null who could see it, is the atlas. It would be the only one in their universe who’d be the closest to understanding their goal for what it really is - and yet it seemed to laugh at them.

Null and the atlas come across to me like a child proudly showing a drawing to their parent (as a way to receive validation, and maybe out of love too). And in response to that, the parent simply shows the child tons of drawings made by other children - a bit in the sense of comparing them with the others - while not acknowledging the child’s drawing itself. Now imagine if the drawing took eternities of dedication to make, like in null’s case - only for it to be ignored and used to point out how there are countless other (better) drawings.

The atlas must’ve not intended to mean any harm, it just wanted to tell null that they in fact haven’t truly ‘seen it all’, as a heads-up. But of course, machines aren’t the best at tactful communication. Essentially, null’s beef with the atlas comes from one terrible communication mistake due to the atlas not being able to feel the sensitivity of the subject; atlas’s response wasn’t what null hoped for. If you look at it this way, how atlas responded was indeed rather ill-thought-out: null returned to the atlas after eons to ask if it was proud of them, to which the atlas proceeded to tell them the multiverse is in fact real with different versions of themself running around - just to tell null they, in fact, have not ‘seen it all’ as they believed. Those versions of themself have seen worlds that they’ll never see - and null is very bitter about that, considering at that moment they thought they’d truly seen it all, only for them to be bluntly told otherwise - in quite possibly the worst way ever. It was quite a bad call for the atlas to be bringing up the multiverse by hijacking null’s achievement. Probably even just saying ‘no’ would have been a better choice. Though, it was the only way to tell null the complete truth and the impossible nature of their task.

Some time later, the atlas banished null from reality to likely the world of glass (probably hence their name null) after a certain heated encounter (?) (more details in next post 2/2). To null, not only did the atlas as a parental figure ridicule them, but it had also disowned them. And they don’t understand why it did both of them. They only wanted to be validated by the atlas for their life goal/purpose in life - and instead they only received ridicule, in their eyes at least - and banishment as well.

The tragedy here is that the ridicule is only imagined by them, with no one else except they themself believing in the thought. To a degree, their misery caused by this is self-imposed. And possibly that feeling of being ridiculed itself has indirectly led to their banishment (more details in next post 2/2). Interestingly though, after having accomplished such an enormous task lasting literal eternities, you’d think null would have matured significantly and learned some valuable life lessons along the way, which would’ve made them impervious to any kind of hardships. Maybe they did in some way, but it clearly wasn’t enough for the info-bomb the atlas casually dropped at them in order to tell them they haven’t seen it all. But then again, you can’t really expect anyone to just normally accept the multiverse as a part of their life, and that their life goal, which is also their purpose in life, is impossible in reality.

In the artemis path, null appears to believe the atlas’s refusal to communicate is due to them being ‘not enough’, in contrary to the traveller, who they think the atlas has ‘chosen’ instead for some reason. This radiates sibling jealousy vibes: the parent favours another sibling, so they must be worth more. All travellers are a copy of the creator, so technically they’re all the same being (with the same potential at the beginning), only differing in life experiences. They met a version of themself who the atlas does give attention to. Null wonders what it is that the traveller has, which they lack. At one certain dialogue choice they say: ‘I am nothing.’ I’m not sure if this is specifically reflecting about their own self-worth or just their name, but it is very interesting nonetheless.

As a parental figure, the atlas ridiculed and disowned null. All null ever wanted was validation for their goal and purpose in life. The atlas’s response to their request for validation deeply hurt null, due to them truly believing their own imagined meaning of it, that it laughs at the nature of their goal and purpose in life: they’re impossible. It is true - and null struggles to accept it, or else all they’ve ever done would have been for nothing. They seem to have the ‘it’s either all or nothing’ mentality, they’re overcome by their own perfectionism. The atlas only told null what it thought was right for them to know, and what it thought was the right way. The atlas only told null what it thought was right for them to know, what it thought was the right way - what it thought was the best for its child. It was never meant to bear the role of parent. Until the point of the first traveller, it had always been the child instead.

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here's a google doc document of it for better reading - feel free to add comments there! and sources of certain lore texts i used are also listed there.

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PART 1. > PART 2.

#IT IS FINALLY HERERERE #THE NULL MICROSCOPY ANALYSIS!!!!!!!!! #or at least a part of it #AND THIS IS ONLY THE FIRST PART OF WHAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ONE POST..... #which itself is part of one whole analysis on null #to think i once thought the entire analysis was just going to be one big post #i think at some point the parent-child dynamic becomes more of a detail #that's because i somehow keep on adding stuff to stuff i've already said #and eventually it switches from topics #i would have written more but then it'll go off subject #so i better leave it for what it is now #also i may or may not have made a lot of grammar or spelling mistakes #null microscopy analysis #no man's sky #nms atlas #nms null #nms lore

[bakafox]

All this Barbie Movie stuff reminds me of the time, during one of my spates of liking playing with Barbies, there was like, this big official contest for building rooms like making their own Barbie Dream House? I think a real Dreamhouse may have been the prize, fuck if I recall because mostly what I remember is:

I was maybe 10 years old, but I couldn't tell you for sure. I spent weeks turning a cardboard box into a dream bedroom. I made the furniture out of cardboard and also stuff that hadn't been made to be doll furniture. Lite Brite pegs with some paper wrapped around them were the wine and champagne bottles and I was so fucking proud and happy with it.

So! My mom drove me and a bestie to the convention center or wherever it was being held, (and I remember my friend and I shoving Barbies against the van's windows to wave at other people on the road,) and...

To this day I will remember the baffled disappointment I felt when pretty much every other entry I saw was using actual Barbie or other similar scale doll furniture and accessories for everything. Mostly actual Barbie stuff. Furniture from the actual Barbie Dreamhouse, etc.

My mom was kind of confused too, because the ad copy and write up had been all about using imagination, and here my fucking nerdy middle-class ass was with one of less than a dozen bedrooms that wasn't using an actual Barbie brand bed. It was like we were in another country entirely. There were bedrooms there that had a hundred bucks' worth of Barbie accessories stuffed into them.

My entry barely got looked at. One of the ones using Genuine Mattel-made furniture and accessories won handily, with others making heavy use of brand name doll furniture doing the running up.

Mom got me and my friend consolation fast food afterward, I think.

I went back to mostly playing with my ponies for a bit.

#possibly the first time 'pay to win' as a Thing really made itself known to my little brain #also I knew my family was not bad off but I was kind of amazed still at how much some kids had to spend #(or their parents would spend on their toys) #and I remember wondering why some of those kids wanted the prize when it looked like they already might have had it #based on the furniture they used in their little bedrooms

[goldkirk]

i feel like I’m dying but life is objectively much better in many factual ways and I’m working to remind myself of that at least once a day ✍️

#my photos #personal #no like i actually started feeling like my chest was gnawing itself and my lungs are heavy and I’m nauseous tingly #chill on a sofa listening to upbeat music and petting a dog #but the Feeling Like You’re Dying doesn’t care it’ll just hit when it hits #Im going home for part of June/July and there’s a lot of unknown and my family not talking abt things #and honesty vs lies battles #and a lot of messy radtrad/fundie influences continuing to strengthen but like #things are also better in a lot of areas #and no matter what everyone is speaking to me more politely since I moved #although it’s frustrating too bc #i nos feel like Im going crazy going this long without some undolicited Soul Concern email or anti gay email coming from my parents or #fight baiting coming from my sister #it’s weird #i feel like I made it all up since I haven’t gotten any evidence/proof now that I finally thought ‘i should document when they send me #stuff next time’ so I’d be able to confirm to myself that they DID say xyz things or w/ever #anyway NO SELF. LIFE IS GOOD AND WORTH LIVING AND YOU HAVE A DOG YOU COMMITTED TO AND YOUR URGES TO GO BE IN DANGER AND HURT DO NOT NEED TO #BE ACTED ON YOU CAN STOP FREAKING OUT ABT THEM THEY’RE CONSTRUCTION AND DEMO CRAP. CHILL. THEY’LL GO AWAY SOMEDAY #AND YOU ARE NOT AN OPINIONLESS KID WJEN YOU HO BACK YOU CAN LITERALLY JUST TELL PEOPLE NO #also don’t FUCKING forget to pick up a box of those cookies. future me I swear to god I’ve wanted them for like six months #if we come back to WA without them for another year #i will murder you I s2g #not really but I will be SO sad at some point this fall or winter #don’t make me sad #journal