#and called me 'he' in the process

[warlordfelwinter]

having a morning

#searching for appy slices just out of curiosity to see how many notes it has #without realizing that it won't show up in search cause the og post is deleted #is how i find out someone wrote tmnt smut inspired by that post #that they saw on pinterest #and their description of the pinterest post was *juuuust* different enough from my og post #that i think someone on pinterest stole my joke #anyway if anyone sees that floating around #i like to check in on how it's doing every once in a while #'are ya winning son' but it's me seeing how many people on other websites have stolen my post #and called me 'he' in the process #personal #also no shade to the fic writer chase your bliss #it just surprised me #and unless someone on pinterest had an incredibly similar joke idea about their office turtle as i did about charlie #then i think it must have been mine lmao

[wasabi-gumdrop]

(slips this under ur door) pls read dunmesh

#wasabi doodles #bear with me as i figure out how to draw everyone in my style #senshi for sure is the easiest #and mickbell lol #old man chucklefuck deathly allergic to being called nice #sigh he is the most relatable #dungeon meshi spoilers #the fact that chp 76 has gay spoilers is itself a spoiler lmao #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #laios touden #kabru of utaya #marcille donato #falin touden #chilchuk tims #senshi of izganda #nakamoto toshiro #izutsumi #mickbell tomas #farcille #is it gay to share mana with your roommate #labru #is it gay to [spoiler] your narrative foil #this is me reconciling with the lineart process

[tea-cat-arts]

Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

#svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #the fact that people think scum villain #-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction- #is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me #especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater #heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series #he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters #(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy) #I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters #like example off the top of my head- #the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx #I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes #side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me #i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation #but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years #like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right? #being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain #the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too #+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu #as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing) #bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people #another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does #also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be #he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students #and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing #+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this #but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy

[kagoutiss]

was thinking the other day about how parasites are ganondorf’s solution for so many things. now cant unsee him being a massive nerd about parasites

#parasites cw #trypophobia #ocarina of time #tloz #ganondorf #zelda #nabooru #morpha #barinade #gohma #this makes less sense if u haven’t seen my tweet barrage but yeah oot ganondorf & his silly giant parasites. i love them #yes i know morpha isnt technically a parasite but still #it IS an insanely huge single-called organism tho. which must be why its ‘water’ isnt normal water lol #just the fluid surrounding its nucleus #i think he would have an interest in funny creatures like that especially if they’re distinctly nonhuman #but him being interested in parasites specifically makes sense to me #the idea of a comparatively tiny & insignificant being infiltrating a much larger one. and then wreaking utter havoc on it #while sustaining itself in the process #i think he would be really into slime molds too…..let him be a weird nerd…..

[p1nkc4lyps0]

saboteur

#anyway today on: loop is a weird freak. they would absolutely be super touchy with siffren as a form of ricochet selfharm #thought process going like: #I get really touchy with siffren-> #this makes fighter jealous and not like me -> #confirmation that I’m just a burden to the party = a win #also to anyone who thinks (oh but Isabeau wouldn’t get jealous!) he is actively shown to get possessive and catty over siffren #see: mirabelle calling siffren sif and Isabeau immediately being like ABSOLUTEY FUCKING NOT #I don’t think it’d be outward bitchiness but I don’t think he could hide it very well #anyway siffren doesn’t give a fuck they’re just happy about the contact #isat #isat fanart #isat spoilers #isat loop #isat siffrin #in stars and time #in stars and time loop #in stars and time siffren #in stars and time fanart #sifloop #two hats

[arthurtaylorlester]

i can’t believe i’m having to say this but arthur calling john a child ≠ john actually being a child

#nor does it mean they have a father/son relationship #like listen to s1-2 and tell me at any given point does john act like child #is he young and bad at being human because he just started? yes #but calling him a child imo is a bad analogy #mostly because even children are BORN inherently human #he gets to turn into one #is he bad at processing feelings? yes but its hardly any fault of his #malevolent #malevolent podcast #unhinged aromantics #john malevolent #john doe #arthur lester #arthur malevolent #masked

[s0fter-sin]

punk!soap metalhead!ghost brain blast!!!

ghost trying so hard to get soap out of the bad parts of the scene bc he's starting to get pulled in by the shadows, a group of wannabe anarchists that stand for nothing except themselves, but soap loses his shit; laying into ghost for daring to try and "save" him

no one's ever been there for him when he needed them; no one ever offered him support or a soft place to land, why the hell would he want ghost's help when he's perfectly fine on his own? (when he’s always had to be?)

"you think i can't make my own decisions? well fuck you, ghost, who needs a washed up piece o’ shite like you!"

he doesn’t talk to ghost for days, doesn’t let himself acknowledge the hole he’s left behind until he's getting pissed with the shadows one night in an abandoned house and graves starts waving around the gun he snuck through customs and it accidentally goes off, grazing soap's temple

he's never heard anything so loud, even at all the shows he’s attended and there’s so much blood; it's getting in his eyes, running down his neck and soaking into his clothes and he’s frozen. graves and all his shadows bolt after hearing the gunshot, worried about cops finding them and they leave him there; staring at the growing puddle at his feet

soap's panicking; half-blind, blistering pain lighting up his head and he can't think about anything beyond how much he wants ghost

ghost's been sulking at his flat since soap blew him off; pissed at soap for going off on him when he just wants to help but still worried about the punk. he doesn’t want him going down the same road as him; doesn’t want him to repeat his mistakes when he could save himself so much suffering and he almost doesn't answer his phone when it buzzes on the couch

he lets out a ragged sigh as he picks it up; raking a hand over his shaved head when he sees the bubble emoji and contemplates letting it ring out. contemplates answering with a growl; something a younger, crueler version of him would spit. in the end, he decides on silence and puts the phone to his ear just before it can stop ringing

he almost breaks it when he hears soap choke out, "i've been shot."

he's out the door in a heartbeat, running down the stairs because the lift is too slow; trying to get more information out of him but he can't get anything out beyond a repeated, "i've been shot."

he breaks every law there is as he speeds to soap's location; visions of his cold, bloodless corpse staining his mind's eye. the only thing keeping him calm are the strangled breaths from the other end of the line; he's not dead, he can work with not dead, this isn't tommy, soap won't end up like tommy-

ghost screeches to a halt outside a random alley and throws himself from the car when he sees soap collapsed against a garbage bin. he's covered in blood, soaked, just like that night, it's everywhere and he's not moving, he's not moving-

“johnny!”

he skids to his knees and fits his hand under his chin to check his pulse… but his heart beats strong under his fingertips and soap's eyes flutter open; flooded with blood but conscious and alive

the second he registers ghost in front of him, he’s reaching out for him; babbling apologies over and over, "you were right, i'm sorry ghost, i should've listened; i'm sorry, i'm so sorry."

ghost just gently hushes him, cupping his face heedless of the blood. "that doesn't matter now, johnny. we're gonna get you all fixed up, yeah?"

soap’s hands fist in his shirt, clinging to him. "i got shot, ghost," he says again; lost and smaller than he's ever heard from his punk and it's been years since he's felt this kind of rage but he doesn't let a drop of it touch his voice

“i know, lad. i know. gonna let me take a look at it? make it right?"

soap finally nods, his stuttering apologies coming to a halt and ghost runs back to his car to get a towel. he presses it to soap's skin, trying to soak up as much as he can so he can get a proper look; cooing assurances as soap absently hisses in pain the closer he gets to it

it's only a graze and something in his chest unravels; old fears and grief settling as the shallow wound continues to gush into the towel

ghost slumps, pressing his forehead into the top of soap's head and takes a second to just breathe. “‘s’alright, johnny; it’s not even that bad, not even that bad,” he promises, low; spoken more to himself than soap

his hand starts to grow damp and he forces himself to his feet, gathering up soap and getting him into his car. he puts the towel in his hand and presses it against the wound, trying to coax him through his shock to put pressure on it so he can drive

soap curls up in the passenger seat; eyes distant, seeing nothing and ghost has to tighten his grip on the steering wheel so he doesn't turn around

soap is the priority

he has to get him home; has to get him cleaned up and safe

then he can go hunting for the gutless shadow that hurt his punk

#this was just me wanting to give soap his post mw3 head scar ngl #tw implied past suicide #god if soap gets real mean with it. 'you dont give a shite about me! this is just you trying to save your stupid brother! #well guess what ghost?! hes fucking dead and smothering me aint gonna bring him back!’ #and its the only thing he couldve said that would make ghost let him walk out the door #ghosts been here before. he knows how impossible it is to help someone that doesnt want to be helped but he cant let soap go #he cant go down that road again. cant let it be just to walk into soaps flat one day and find him in a bloodsoaked bathtub #when soap comes out of his shock he finds ghost slowly and methodically cleaning his leather jacket #hes trying hard to remain calm and clearheaded #trying not to fall back into old habits #but theres a reason hes called ghost #bc the second he stops looking after soap is the second he storms out to find graves and wring his neck #soap pushes back so hard against ghost trying to help him bc in his head being ‘saved’ or ‘better’ means being changed #bc the only help hes ever experienced has been conditional. ‘we will help you if you go to college. if you stop art. #if you change your entire being’ #he cant process that ghost wants him the exact way that he is bc no one ever has #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #soap cod #john soap mactavish #ghost cod #simon ghost riley

[acowardinmordor]

Fucked up thought as I do material spec: transmasc Eddie Munson who gets bullied and called a guy because of how he dresses and acts (transphobic so bad they looped back to what Eddie wants on accident) dating Steve post S2, who knows and supports him, but still has to misgender his bf in public until they can get out of Hawkins. Eddie fails again, they get in a fight about whether they should leave, and aren’t broken up, but aren’t really together as S3 starts. So when Eddie visits Scoops, Steve is so happy to see him that he calls him Eddie and he/him in public, just like the bullies, and can’t explain to Robin, who is absolutely pissed that Steve is treating her Eddie like that.

#steddie #I always love when Steve is *processing confusion* : immediate support #Eddie wants to be called Eddie? sure thing #‘what’s trans?’ Steve’s not sure #but that’s his boyfriend eddie #who he has to call his girlfriend #because his boyfriend asked him to #also don’t @ me #the shit you do to stay safe in unsafe areas is ridiculous #also there’s a weird confluence of feminism and trans experience #that predates terfs #where feminists were advocating for a woman’s right to wear pants #and have short hair and muscles #to be typically male looking without being less of a woman #so in 85 Robs first thought is probably to defend Eddie’s right to be any kind of woman

[bisexualbuckleyy]

charles when edwin slaps a hand over his mouth and tells him to be quiet:

#internally he was 100% like ‘well mark me down as scared and horny’ #actively running for his life and also discovering a new kink in the process that’s called multitasking #anyways i’m watching this show again can you tell #dead boy detectives #dbd #dbda #charles rowland #edwin payne #payneland #chedwin

[hallowclave]

What a whimsical looking young man I wonder if he has received any job offers recently

Original photo

#my art #project sekai #rui kamishiro #if u saw this get posted before: no u didn’t #forgot to schedule the post for the morning incident 60 dead 600 injured. #i feel obligated 2 say I actually post abt pjsk on my main (apotelesmaa) frequently (I have brain worms) #& I only post on this blog once in a blue moon and it’s usually not serious art atp #so do not expect anything. #curtain call. what an event. love rui he’s such a good character. I hope he explodes. #he is so full of love and so bad at recognizing his emotions and problems. #‘I don’t have any emotional hang ups about anything’ says the guy who has so many emotional hang ups #rationalizing pulling back as safety measures instead of fearing abandonment/concern of hurting tsukasa (or others) again -> #rationalizing accepting asahi’s job offer because it’s the best for his future even if it’s not the best for himself #also tbh I think to some degree u could argue accepting the job offer was his way of getting ahead of being abandoned #not that it would happen and not that he’d recognize that to begin with #negative self awareness king! he is not processing his emotions at all! #would love for him to mention the job offer in a future event. even just offhandedly. shaking him by the shoulders. talk to ur friends moron #me when I’m in a not recognizing what I’m feeling and how it effects me competition and my opponent is rui kamishiro from hit game pjsk #etc etc. anyways. #once again falling into the ‘sure whatever this can go on the art blog’ category #in that I used simultaneously too much effort and very little in creating it #once again: [hope you’re hungry. for NOTHING] dot jpeg. as is typical here at hallowclave dot tumblr dot com.

[starchaserdreams]

Wolfstar Microfic: Darling

Remus and Sirius were sitting in the back of the library studying, much to Sirius’ chagrin. He would have much preferred to be in the back of the stacks snogging, but that wasn’t exactly the way life worked. 

One of these days he would tell Remus how he felt. 

Sometimes Sirius thought he might already know. Sirius caught him staring every so often, and he couldn’t help but wonder if it was because he knew what Sirius was hiding. Did he know how often Sirius thought about him? How he consumed his heart without even meaning to?

“I’m so tired of astronomy,” Sirius muttered under his breath. 

“What was that, darling?” Remus asked, distractedly. 

Both of their heads snapped up at once. 

Remus had never called him that before. Had never called him anything remotely like that. 

They stared at each other. 

“That didn’t- I mean I didn’t- Can we pretend-” Remus attempted, never finishing a single thought. He was blushing furiously.

Slowly, ever so slowly, Sirius could feel himself breaking into a grin. He couldn’t help it. 

Did that mean…? Could it mean…? Well, there was only one way to find out.

Sirius leaned back in his chair. “If you want me to be your darling, I’m all yours,” he drawled, smiling in that way he knew made witches melt. Maybe it would work on wizards too. He’d never tried. But he was very interested in this wizard in particular, so it was worth a shot. And if it didn’t work, he could just say it was a joke. 

Remus’ mouth opened and closed a few times. 

“What are you saying?” he finally asked, bluntly. 

Sirius grinned wickedly. “If you want to go back in the stacks and have your wicked way with me, you’re welcome to, darling.” He raised his eyebrows as an invitation.

Remus slowly smiled, and it was a real, heartwarming sort of thing, no posturing about it. 

“Yeah, okay, if you’re serious,” he said.

“I am always Sirius,” Sirius quipped. Before Remus could roll his eyes, he finished quickly. “But in this case, I’m extra serious, grab your bags and come with me right now.”

He winked at Remus, who had never in his life gotten his books together and stood up faster.

Well this was going to be fun, Sirius thought.

@wolfstarmicrofic

On AO3 here

#wolfstar #darling #remus lupin #sirius black #remus lupin x sirius black #marauders era #i like the idea of sirius pining #but i also feel like faced with this he'd be hella cocky #i'm all for sirius trying to seduce lupin #like how can i have my wicked way with him in the stacks #oh wait he called me darling #and then he gets all cocky #that's the sirius black i know and love #sirius black: confidence and sex appeal #a god among men #the brightest star #okay gotta stargaze again #that's my thing #i write wolfstar or starchaser and then i go stargaze #and it's part of my writing process #appreciating them in the sky #in all their bright beautiful glory

[fisheito]

i told myself that yakuei only had one position then i proved myself (sorta) wrong

my fave face here:

#technically... if they were boinking in outer space... a lot of these would be the same position #makes a rotate-y gesture with my fingers #what is yakumo's kabedon if not a vertical missionary #so i've half proven myself right AND wrong! i'm net neutral in outer space broskis!!!!! #zizz-asdf if ur reading these tags i'll have u know that u inspired me to Do the Research1 #like. 5 garu riding eiden? no. it can't be. does yaku do one specific thing with eiden 5 times? *tries to write it down* #i can't quite... what's the word for that position...uhhhh #ah forget it i'll just draw it out #<- that was the process of creating this. collage? 😆 #THE MATRIX OF YAKUEI BOINKINg POSITIONS (under construction) #when u about to be semi-normal and make a spreadsheet but ur sexcabulary is stunted so you resort to visuals instead #legit opening up every intimacy room and skipping thru sections to get as complete a picture as possible #wondering... where are yaku's feet planted in this one. (skips to 8minute mark) #ah! there they are. theyre not supporting his weight in this one *draws it* #while drawing crimson phantom room 2 my brow was furrowed and i was mentally narrating #[and this one i affectionately call.. rectal exam - professional misconduct Grounds for Termination)] #surprised they str8 up havent done classicdoggstyle yet. is it because he's a snake? garu should teach him #also surprised that there's been no Light SSR for yaku yet. come on!! Light mode on the double! #uhhh i think the only repeated positions were freestanding (choco liqueur r2 and dark nova r2) #and standing AGAINST! THE! WALL! (choco liqueur r5 {interior} and shadow lineage r5 {cave}) #wait. *throws papers around* i swear they did missionary more than once. was it only ocean breeze??? #i know with the intimacy rooms they gotta modify the positions into certain angles to make it...look...better #but seriously? only one missionary out of the lot of them? despite the aesthetic tweaks??? how can that ........ #*tosses more papers around with increasing befuddlement* WHERE IS MY PURE 100% VANILLA BEAN ICE CREAM #sighs as all the papers lie scattered on the ground #dude... i don't know anymore..... this is beyond my scope #now that i see how evenly spread out the positions are... #i BET the devs have SOME SORTA CHART tracking yaku's positions. now THAT'S a funky office corkboard! #yakuei #nu carnival eiden

[kimwexlersponytail]

S04E10 Winner l S06E13 Saul Gone 

#bcsedit #bcs spoilers #jimmy mcgill #mcwexler #better call saul #as a season 4 warrior winner immediately came into my mind when i was watching the series finale #this was the moment the performance really began and the moment he made kim the sucker so to speak and it's always been so heartbreaking to #think about how proud she was in that moment and how she really believed that he'd began to process his trauma and come to terms with #everything and this moment in saul gone was so beautiful to me and so necessary. it wasn't necessarily about him 'saving' kim like #some people are saying. it was about him ending the performance and taking the time to truly reflect #this was just soooo cathartic and beautiful and i am so thankful for this show and i'm going to be thinking about this episode for a while #mine

[anglerflsh]

my favourite passtime is making up incredibly unaccurate armour designs. That's a lie my passtime is researching but this comes at a close second

#[.art] #is it even armour at this point? it's a chestplate with a mantella over it. It's armour to me. In spirit. #oh I dread to maintag this but my blog has to be organised or I get hives so I am in fact putting this in at least his tag #This was mostly an excuse for me to shade metal and draw armour but he's there as a character base because I wanted to put constellations i #Javert #les miserables #les mis #<- the- what was it. The mortifying ordeal of being known? me when I post art I did for fun in my free time #also this file is called knightvert. You should know this #also I got an answer about the constitution in place in 1820 and I regret to inform you that mister Valjean was probably elected lawfully #mostly because he'd been there for the minimum required year in order to be a citisen and be appointed by the prefect as mayor #or by the double decimal process if we go by 1799 law and not the 1814 charter. #not counting the fake identity but alas I do not believe proof of identity was required by law for that so. Dreadfully not added to the lis #which doesn't exclude entirely document forgery because I believe property law comes into the needing proof of identity? #But I've been looking at french law for three days and I need to not read for a week now So I'll check that later

[smallandalmosthonest]

i feel like sometimes we all get so distracted by bobby’s line in the pilot that the 118 is not a family that we forget in that same speech he says buck calls him “pops” and they went to a springsteen concert together. anyway if anything bad happens to our father bobby nash i’m going to cause an international incident.

#remember when bobby told chimney he deserved better than tatiana and officiated chimney’s marriage to the love of his life #remember when he believed in hen’s leadership abilities and called her captain #remember when he supported eddie through their shared insurmountable grief #remember when he took ravi to the crowded coffee shop just so he wouldn’t be alone as he processed a hard call #remember when he cradled buck’s lifeless body and lowered him onto the gurney #remember when he opened his heart up to love again and found a loving family with the grants #remember how harry always trusted bobby and ran to him when he fought with his parents #remember when may said she had two dads and he was one of them #sorry i forgot the point of this point my watch is telling me its cry about bobby o’clock

[idolomantises]

there's something so comforting about artists you admire talking about their own struggles and insecurities

#txt #was watching supereyepatchwolf's video on chainsaw man again and listening to fujimoto express regret about things he didnt learn #and how he's clearly envious of his peers is so... comforting? #i think about my own strengths and flaws and often times i get so frustrated with my shortcomings #im not good at drawing feet; my backgrounds are purposefully simplistic and lack a lot of detail; sometimes my designs have a tendency to #overlap or feel very 'safe' in terms of what i really want to do #its why; despite my love for clowning on media and animated works. i never want to feel like its from a place of malice #the joy of art is always seeing those little mistakes and nuances. its also noticing the achievements other creators have made that you #still lack #even for a certain hell-based show i love to poke fun at for its many. many issues. its undeniable how incredibly passionate the work is. #and i do respect anyone who is willing to get their flawed media out there (myself included) #i see stuff about people calling me their inspo or how flattered they are when i compliment their work and its like. gee. i hold myself at #such a high bar and even still im always surprise when people tell me how much my work moved and changed them #i really love writing just little fun things that i just dont really see anyone else touching and its kind of fun how despite my own #personal grievances with my own flaws and mistakes #people really do find things that they love within them. #anyways I know this is getting long but I’ve just been getting sentimental abt the creation of art #sometimes people make fun of me for love of drawing women and lesbians and bugs and so on #and while I will never let me deter me from my process. sometimes it does get to me #but then I remember that I love doing this and could ever see myself holding back #and knowing despite how other people feel. I have so many followers who resonate with my weird ass shit #that it’s all worth it. ya know?