#and i know i live far away but like

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

No time to play. You are being sent away.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #yu ziyuan #jiang yanli #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #Do you know how hard it was to *not* do a 'Sold To One Direction' spoof comic? It took nearly all my will power. #Mostly because it misaligns a little too far off from the canon events and vibes. #But sit with me for a moment. Consider it: #“BEEP BEEP BEEP. I threw my pillow at my alarm clock. ”Wei Wuxian get your lazy ass downstairs!“ Yu Ziyuan yelled. #I ran to the bathroom and looked in the mirror to see my grey orbs staring back at me. #I put my long straight black hair in a ponytail with a red ribbon. #I went downstairs to see my adoptive mother holding a bottle of vodka and a cigarette. #'Listen up whore! I need money to pay the bills so I sold you. Your new owners will be here any minute so go pack!' #I stormed upstairs. There was no way I was going to let her sell me to a creepy old man! #I decided to run away. Since I'm not like other girls I don't have very many friends. #My gay friend Lan Zhan was mean but he lived like a block away. #As I opened the door I saw Wen Chao blocking the door. 'Ello Love. We're your new owners!' #I rolled my eyes and pushed him. 'Aren't you from that stupid Wen Sect? There's no way in hell I'm going with you!' #Hey again. It's me the OP of this blog taking a pause. I haven't actually read this story before aside from the memes #and I am honestly reeling from how this watpad fic chapter ends. What do you mean one of the one direction boys chloroforms her??? #Chapter 2 is so much worse #Why is there such a strong focus on the *eyes* of every boy!!! #This fanfic is a horror story actually. I came into it trying to make a funny parody but I got in over my head. Dear God. #It's me again. Several minutes have passed and I'm on chapter 4. What the FUCK is going on here? #I feel like I opened up pandora's box hoping for a fun little treat and got the plauge upon me. Dont read this fic.

[acearchivist359]

do i trust gertrude robinson at all in any universe? absolutely not.

am i choosing to ignore that and focus on happy painter gerry and act like nothing could possibly be wrong? yes. yes i am.

#i wouldn’t trust gertrude as far as i can throw her personally #i know this isn’t OUR gertrude . but she’s still odd enough that i’m suspicious #however i also want gerry to be happy SO BAD #i also don’t trust jonny and alex that like gerry is just gonna show up and be okay and that’s it #those two are evil #they give and then they take away and they have given us happy gerry for a reason i’m sure of it #but happy painter gerry <3 #i will live in blissful ignorance for awhile #the magnus protocol spoilers #the magnus protocol #tmagp spoilers #tmagp

[bookshelf-in-progress]

There's always a danger of caring too much about a story, and then getting paralyzed by the need to do it justice, so it never gets written.

I've solved this problem in the past by writing stories so fast that I don't have time to get too invested, or writing stories that I'm not that attached to.

But maybe the trick is to love the story so much that I want to share it any way I can, even if it's imperfect. To feel that any version of this story is better than the story never getting written at all. To get out of my own way and stop worrying about what other people will think of my writing, or even what I think of my writing, and love the story for its own sake, love the readers enough to want to have the joy of sharing the story with them.

Maybe it'll work. Maybe it won't. But so far it feels like a much better approach.

#adventures in writing #i think inklings has finally born fruit for me #other years i've stayed far away from beloved story concepts #for just this reason #and then i mentally shelved most of those story concepts #recognizing i'd likely never write them in a way that lives up to my imagination #and that probably gave me the distance i needed to pick some of them up again #for one thing the short time frame of inklings forces me to get down to the heart of the concept to fit it into a short story #and the long development time means i've had time to figure out what the core of the concept *is* #what keeps this story lingering in my imagination; which means i know what the good parts are #and then the deadline also forces me to try to write it fast and short #because if i don't write it for inklings i likely never will #and that's a tragedy i want to avoid #having such a clear concept of the story's core #means i can put up with ugly haphazard drafts #because i know what the overall story feels like; i've had years to develop it #so instead of a bad draft proving a story's not worth writing #i *know* that the story's worth writing because it's stuck with me this long #so the ugly drafts are just the building blocks necessary to create the final product #of course the danger is that i'll put out a story and it won't be as cool outside my head #and people will hate this piece of my soul i've poured out to them #but if i love it enough maybe it'll reach that special status #where it means so much to me personally that the wider audience reaction doesn't matter #but before i worry about this i gotta write a draft first

[byler-alarmist]

What scares me most about Byler endgame is the reality of it likely coming out long after the US presidential election 2024.

#not to be us-centric #but it really does affect the world #like if we think things are bad now #i'm afraid 2025 may find us living in even scarier times #young cis white queers i'm talking to you - don't get too comfortable in this heartstopper era #don't make the grave mistake of thinking we have come so far and that things can only get better #as trans and poc queer ppl know we still have a lonnnng way to go #and even the rights you do have must be continually fought for #they can always be taken away #yes even in the 21st century #i fear we may be headed into darker times #sorry for doomposting #byler tumblr #please do whatever you need to feel safe #but just remember that we will all need to be a bit brave #and stand together #don't let infighting distract from solidarity #byler nation #stranger things #us politics #tw politics

[beaft]

i feel like i've become such a mean and cynical person over the past year and i really don't vibe with it... i wish i wasn't this way :( i do try not to let it out in my real life but unfortunately that means all of you on here get the toxic sludge runoff. sorry

#my most unpleasant trait by far is jealousy and i tend to get wildly jealous when i see people who have better lives than me #and because i've had such a shit year that feels like just about everyone i know #maybe once my situation improves and i'm out of crisis mode i'll be able to mellow out a little and open up my heart #and stop being such a spiky little closed-up ball of rage + hurt #maybe i just need to go away somewhere and touch some grass. maybe that would fix me

[moonlightdancer26]

Me when I remember that Snape would’ve not only been much happier in life but would have so many less tiring debates about him if he had just remained a loyal Death Eater instead of defecting and sacrificing himself for a world that hated him while getting nothing in return:

#LIKE BRO #HE WOULD HAVE BEEN SO MUCH MORE RELAXED #MANS SPENT 17 YEARS STUCK IN A PLACE FILLED WITH SO MUCH TRAUMA WHILE BEING SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE WHO HATED HIM #LILY ENDED UP DYING AND SNAPE DIED THINKING HARRY WAS GOING TO DIE TOO (HE DIED NEVER KNOWING THAT HARRY WAS A HORCRUX) #MEANING LILY’S SACRIFICE WAS IN VAIN AND HE SPENT HALF HIS LIFE GOING THROUGH SO MANY LENGTHS FOR NOTHING #AND HE WAS WILLING TO DIE A VILLAIN IN EVERYONE’S EYES IF IT MEANT LILY’S SON COULD LIVE #IF HE GAVE LILS THE MIDDLE FINGER HE WOULDA JUST GONE AWAY AND DID DEATH EATER SHIT WITHOUT HAVING A CARE IN THE WORLD #AND STUPID SNATERS WOULDN’T FEEL THE NEED TO ‘‘clarify’’ THAT HE WAS A BULLY AND A HORRIBLE PERSON #BECAUSE THEN WE’D JUST KNOW AND ACCEPT THAT HE’S AWFUL LIKE WE DO WITH BELLATRIX AND TOMMY #AND THEREFORE SNAPE FANS WOULDN’T BE CALLED ‘‘abuse apologists’’ OR ATTACKED FOR THE MERE MENTION OF HIS NAME #ALL OF US WOULD BENEFIT FROM IT IF SEVERUS JUST CHOSE NOT TO BE A HERO #i apologise for the rant i’m just very fed up with this dude #stop caring about some loser redhead AND DABBLE IN SOME SELF-CARE FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE #smfh #again i apologise #and if you came this far i’m just downright surprised #anti snaters #severus snape #pro snape #pro severus snape #snape #harry potter #hp

[mamawasatesttube]

going to bed but thinking about kon and his suicidality as selflessness and how heroism and self-destruction share quite the overlap and how saving the world with his death was heroic but also the culmination of a pattern of passive suicidality he displayed since practically his first day alive. what does it mean when you're so eager and willing to help at any cost to yourself that you assume you will not see yourself grow up? "i don't care what happens to me" is a scary place to be, but "i don't care what happens to me, so long as i can save everyone" is noble and brave, right? so when does heroism become an act of self-destruction? when you truly believe in helping others, but you also think you'll die doing it one day and that isn't enough to stop you... where's the line?

#yes ive been listening to close every door and thinking about kon for days. listen. #''i do not matter / i'm only one person / destroy me completely and throw me away'' #''if my life were important / i would ask 'will i live or die?' / but i know the answers lie / far from this world'' #is this about humility and the knowledge that the singer is just one of many lives and no more important than any of them? #or is it about the singer seeing himself as disposable? #is there even a difference between the two? #why is humility to the point of destruction so praised in martyrs yet frightening to encounter in a loved one? #(perhaps the loved ones of a martyr would say it *was* frightening) #what is heroism if not the pursuit of martyrdom? #like obviously that's not all there is to it but from the kon context (the kontext if you will). #the themes. the motifs. and my agonies. they are all there and real. #suicide ment cw #kon #rimi talks

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

[horsemeatluvr23]

hermits talking about downloading tumblr because reddit is a hellhole and the chat going NO DON'T... EVERYONE SCATTER.... so funny to me. like... do they know......

#there r likely more hermits than we know just. lurking here. #not that i'd know or anything #ominous noises #they're out there..... #now you guys know how i feel #every time i remember i have multiple mutual friends w different hermits i have to go sit in a corner for a minute #the problem with knowing many people is that you are only one degree of seperation away from far too many things #i live in constant fear #anyways who else here is normal #horsemeatposting

[cinna-bunnie]

i love black women

#speaking of not beating the beautiful angel allegations!!!!!! ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡ ♡⁠ #(⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠) i went to a black beauty store earlier for more leave in conditioner and the cashier was such an angel #she had a TLC shirt and i complimented it n we started gassing each other up (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) ♡⁠ her edges were so pretty #it was a rly nice time and she called me beautiful and love (⁠✿ ‚‚⌒‿⌒‚‚) i am still so happy i got to talk to her today #i don't ever rly think about how i wear my natural hair out but I'm glad it's appreciated for being worn that way ♡⁠ i love u #only another black person would tell me this and the love i felt in there rly makes me miss living in that town instead #i don't get to talk w black folk as often here ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡ it's so nice when i get to but augh.. maybe i should move back lol. #it's not far away 🧐 it's just the next town over actually. and u could drive through my town in like ten minutes and not even know you were #in it lol #anyways 🚶🏾‍♀️ I'm feeling myself rn and im hype and that girl was an angel fr i hope she's having a good night rn

[hamartia-grander]

Jesus fucking christ I hate the US south

#Cw gun mention I guess #I was feeling super nauseous so I went into the kitchen to get ritz crackers #And we're at my grandma's rn for Christmas and she has windows in the kitchen that look out at the road/other houses #And NO curtains or blinds because she's old #And anyway I turned a small light on so I could see the crackers and I hear a fucking man outside shout “WHO'S OUT THERE” #In the heaviest southern accent. Mind you every fucking person in this area has a gun bc there's lots of trees with squirreld they shoot #And logically now that I am calming down I know it was just a bad coincidence and he was probably yelling at smthn in his yard #But jesus fucking christ I felt such immediate intense fear my head went cold #Ran to my baby brother's room bc I was certain someone was gonna come kill us #Then the rationality took over and I just told my mom about it. But now I'm sitting outside his room eating crackers bc I'm fucking paranoid #It is almost 4am and I haven't slept a wink I cannot do this rn #But literally the last time I went for a walk around here my dad told me not to go alone and also not to say anything stupid #And also stay far away from houses bc I could get myself shot #Literally what the fuck is this. #“Afearican” except I'm still very much in the US #Not to mention almost every fucking house has a blue lives matter flag and some have isr*el flags now too like #I fuuuuucking hate it here

[brazilian-whalien52]

I think Do Han is a really interesting character because he walks the line between selfish x assertive

I saw some people arguing the he is selfish because he left Ji Han behind and went to the US. Plus he made the contract with A Jeong even when it can fuck up her life. But I never considered this selfish acts but assertive ones? It is his life and he is living a toxic family dynamics. Yeah, it sucks that JH is in this situation but the fact is that he still also has the option to leave? DH does not want this life while JH wants it. Neither of them should shackle each other. The same way DH is not dragging JH out, JH should also not drag DH back. He should not live a lie for something he does not want. Plus with AJ it was a contract, he explained the risk to her until the point he knew but in the end this is a choice they made together.

Now, he is gonna have to make a choice when he finds out about DH and AJ being in love. Since this is a romance I believe eventually he will choose to give up on his fake marriage for their sake. However, if he choose to keep the fake marriage it will be a selfish act because this is something that he has direct control over. In this case he would be the one making both of them living a lie, over something that ultimately his happiness does not depend on? I mean, yeah the fake marriage is a solution he found. But since the beginning it was temporary and there are other paths he can take, are they harder? Yes. But they don't come at the cost of two people he deeply cares about.

And idk how to explain how this things are different between each other. But I guess it is a dilemma we queer people face a lot? Some of us back up from our families that is causing us pain but also we still want to be there with everything we love them. This is such a hard balance to fight and I don't think it is exclusive to queer people but is definitely a big part of our experience.

#wedding impossible #idk if i made sense? #sorry English not my first language #anyway i think i do see myself in this struggle because i love my family so much #and i know how much it will hurt my mom when i come out? #and this is also part that i do live far away from them even if just a small part #and i am bi so i always wonder if i am being selfish because i could just ignore the part of me that likes girls for the sake of my family? #but doing so is lying to myself and bringing me pain #there is no way i can do that

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

When you send a spicy pic and get the reaction you were hoping for 🥰🥰🥰

#it's my crush's* birthday so a good excuse to send them them something cute that I technically took for them last year #*does it still count as a crush if you fucked a while ago and they know exactly how you feel about them and you still flirt occasionally #but also they live super far away and so a relationship isn't possible right now and you're ?maybe? fwbs but it doesn't really feel like it #whatever it was just nice to get a good reaction 😌 #i won't push it past that #I would like to have someone else to moon over please

[batz]

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#spending so much time doing house stuff when i have dpwntime all i can do is snooze #the landlord replaced the fuckd up laundry machines tho! we have these fancy ones now tht sing annoyig songs when th clothes r done #gonna start painting soon and then im gonna be reattaching the cabinetry in the kitchen bc its all fuckd up #frank.txt #u know despite how rough things are i AM hapy w this place . its so cozy and VERY quiet . and my abuser doesnt know where i live anymore #which is gr8 ! i can go outside and im less likely to deal w irl stalking again. still an agoraphobe bc stalking scary as hell BUT #At least im an agoraphobe in a cozy house that is far away from my prev place so its also safer #mental illness and seasonal depression and ptsd stuff kinda make this month scary for me BUT #its ok. its esp ok bc im making ham on xmas. literally all is well when i can make a big meal and watch ppl eat my food #downsides of this house - well ttoday i saw a stinkbug in the oven:(

[artkadukan]

And I present to you

✨vampire boi✨

#Alr so what I have so far about him #He was born on 13th October in 1886 to a really wealthy family #But they were like really abusive and shady so he ran away at the age of 15 #He ran away to a village near the countryside and started living with a single mom and her son who was a couple months younger than him #And then he had a whole gay crisis cus 'damn her son is hot as fuck what the hell' #So he spent a couple of years living with that huge crush until the lady's son just one day pinned him against a wall and started making ou #So yeah the mom knows about them but pretends not to cus she's Slay™ #In total he lives about 5 years with them #Until the mom and his boyfriend get hanged because they were both accused of witchcraft #And then he just fucking loses it and self isolates the fuck outta himself #And one day he just decides to end it #He tries to do that by drinking poison #But instead of dying like a normal person his system managed to digest it and now he's a fucking immortal vampire #So yeah thats that #I still have to think of names but if y'all got any suggestions please lemme know #Aho speaks #random #Art #Doodle #sketches #vampire boi lore

[keeps-ache]

i don't wanna take over the world, it sounds like a lot. but you know, laying siege to a golf course sounds really nice sometimes

#just me hi #i'm giggling thinking about it hfbvhs #you can use the sandbanks for cover and if you plan far enough ahead you can start farming around those little ponds #and you can steal golf balls :D and use them as currency ?? or just collect them :3 #and you could use the tennis ball guns to shoot the balls at people of course!! and you're supplied with sticks when you get there !! free #weaponry !! :D #and if you can hold out for long enough you could start planting rose and blackberry bushes in places they wouldn't look #why? bc roses Always Come Back #and blackberries will take a minute but who can get mad at a blackberry bush !! nature's surprise :D #oh and of course you could have a noble steed too (golf cart) !! :DD #and you could make the building a castle #and make a little gnome town in the fields once the battle is over #OH you could build a miniature golf in and around the town too :D for the funsies #/places are very cool i like places #could some be used better? oh yea for sure #i have dreams for abandoned malls hfvbs - some of my favorite places ever #that's one big odd thing i want. to have a mall to live in hfhs :3 #is it a lot of space ? ye. but it's also SOO much space.. the possibilities !! #//anyway i Need to go for a walk in a city sometime soon lol #i miss the riverwalk aaa #GASP campus martius during the winter. my dearest #i didn't realize the threshold for being a city was so low lmao ?? like man these are just big towns what is this hfvbsh #//but aside from the city pining MAN #i got to drive earlier today ('got to' they put me in the seat and it wasn't very fun hfvbshf) and oooohhh #you know that feeling on a roadtrip when it's all worth it for just a little while.maybe when you broke over the top of a hill or looked up #from whatever you were doing to find a storm ahead and the rear lights of the cars seemed to blink in agreement with how gorgeous it all is #just that hfbsh :3 #i like places a lot. sobs [<- crying candy hearts] #//okey i'm goin to go do my somethings now hfvhs :3 :D #music and caffeine are SO good ehehhehghhg [slinkies away so fast]