#and is having too much fun hiding them

[supervisormeero]

BEN MENDELSOHN WHAT ARE YOU HIDING

Bonus:

#he made all of these faces in response to being asked whether he’d play Krennic again in Andor Season 2 #this is the look of a man who has secrets #and is having too much fun hiding them #ben mendelsohn #director krennic #krennicposting

[hypostatic-oath]

I've started playing Honkai Star Rail and I love how dramatically silly it lets me be. So far I have stolen mail, searched garbage cans, entered a closet to become one with the darkness, waxed on about how life is just a road to death to a terrified guy (somehow that seemed to make him less terrified), bowed in respect to a dumpster, investigated an inconspicuous lamp so many times it got mad at me, investigated a trash can so many times it insulted me, and felt bad for two different trash cans and several sandbags (I believe my Trailblazer is going insane from putting up with me). All this not counting with the countless dialogue options with NPCs around the world that allowed me to be incredibly dramatic (think almost Fischl style) for no reason (you can bet I took them). However, I cannot jump or climb, and fights are turn-based... we respect our opponents in Star Rail (and die. A lot).

What I conclude from this is that while the Traveler has a moral code (and some standards) when dealing with interpersonal interactions but isn't bound by physical restrictions or conventions (stairs? The Traveler does not understand that concept. Fair fights? Please, they don't have time for that), the Trailblazer is the exact opposite. The physical rules may hold them but their only ties to social rules or convention so far have been March and Dan Heng saying "hey, maybe don't fight the guards" and "hey, you can't just accept random jobs".

It also might be because the Traveler is a thousand year old entity that has been through A Lot (has learnt the power of friendship, but is too tired to take the long route) and is on a serious mission while the Trailblazer was quite literally Born Yesterday with the sole purpose of housing a massive problem inside their body (walks and fights like a Normal Person bc they're mimicking everyone else, but is absolutely unhinged) and is just having fun with tjeir newfound existence.

Either way I love both of them and they're basically cryptids but in different ways.

#the Traveler gives off ''i'm too old for this'' enegry but also ''If I don't fix it who will'' #while the Trailblazer is the most chaotic neutral mf I've ever seen and I love them so much #hoyoverse mcs my beloved #When I started genshin I expected a soft game with silly moments and was instead met with pain #Also I love how powerful the traveler has become (I like to believe they're just recovering the power they used to have) #The Traveler holds the braincell between these two btw #I want to understand Star Rail lore better so I can write smth abt the two of them meeting in like a dream sequence kind of thing #when I started genshin I expected haha funny colorful game but was met with pain and post-apocaliptic worlds and cataclysms #when I started star rail I expected pain and apocalyptic worlds and cataclysms and was met with THE ABILITY TO BE SILLY #I CAN HIDE IN CLOSETS #fun fact: i started playing both games for the Hot Dragon Men #also: in mondstadt there's a goth hotel (the hotel is named goth but doesn't seem to have ties to goth culture) #and in star rail there is a goethe hotel that is pronouced rather similarly. both are family establishments and both are ran by an old man

[13eyond13]

love it when a character that's hard to read intuitively for you has like a dedicated fandom interpreter who can just glance at their blank face in a panel and then give you a 3k word essay on their innermost thoughts & desires & fears and neatly tie it back into the themes & whatnot as if it's the most obvious thing in the world

#im talking about griffith btw #guts i feel i get intuitively - maybe because i have some personality traits in common with him #and we get more about his life concretely told to us in canon. so he is a bit easier to pin down as a character and feel attached to for me #but whenever i was reading the manga i just kept wanting more insight about griffith's actions and feelings #like ok yeah its fun to have mysterious antagonists and suspense /tension etc but its also fun to feel like you deeply understand them too #and i felt like that was a bit missing from him for me in canon #so reading about him in analysis and fics is the most fun for me rn #he always felt kinda half unreal to me- which maybe was the point of him - but i wanted a bit more about his childhood or something? #and wished we had more stuff explicitly from his pov in the story to read or explanation about his transformation or wtv #and now he's so much more closed off to me even than he was in the golden age. i keep waiting for him to explain stuff and he does not #ANYWAYS all this rambling to say some people out there are very good at interpreting him and making his like. insecurities #more obvious to me bc i didnt really get that side of him from canon intuitively well #also im really enjoying reading the first few berserk fics ive read #there may not be a ton of them out there but there is def writing talent in the fandom #i'll share some recs once i'm done sifting through most of what's out there to read #also (not to tie everything back to death note but it IS my home fandom after all) #i feel griffith is obvs the more light-like character here and L maybe a bit guts-like? but unlike berserk in death note #light is the one you get to know best and L is the mysterious / unreal one you don't get a lot of concrete insight into #and in the DN fandom I can read the more mysterious character intuitively but had to warm up to the less mysterious one instead #and the mystery of L makes sense to me and doesnt bug me as much due to like - he HAS to hide a lot about himself or else he will die lol #so some similarities there but also some opposite feels as well #berserk spoilers #p

[xlillyle]

Twins AU? Do tell!

Ohh!! I am still a bit torn about this AU, but I think I will write it as a non abilities/modern AU (it could be canonverse, but I think I don't wanna deal with the complex implications of it). Rimlaine will be Chuuya and his twin brother's (name to be chosen still though I had some loose thoughts on how to choose it) parents, it has skk childhood friends, and the inspiration for all this/the twin brother is from the clone in the lab in canon (Stormbringer broke me and I'm making it everyone's problem).

It's a fun AU though! The twin brother is rougher around the edges than Chuuya, but they're both bffs with Dazai who has no problems telling them apart. The plot is, uh, lacking, it's my newest WIP haha I just wanted to write Chuuya with a twin brother and Rimlaine parents xD

#xlillyle wips #xlillyle asks #bsd #bungou stay dogs #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #bsd skk #skk #soukoku #i HAD considered a canonverse version where rimlaine successfully free both Chuuya and the clone and just raise them both #and i would have stolen Dazai from wherever this mfer is lurking around bc skk are indelibly fated #but exactly all this planning and the implications of rimlaine having to hide etc? idk i havent fully decided #but i think its too much planning for just a fun au for me so i will probably stick to noncanon AU

[sumnantics]

#happy 413 everyone! #I didnt put too much effort into these designs it was really just for fun #but for some design notes: nepeta is based heavily off of like. superheroes #specifically gotham heroes that have heavy tactical gear #inspiration from red hood and from catwoman #whereas sollux is inspired more by Fancy Scientist #with more specific design notes being like: if as an adult he specialized in bee tech. gotta have big gloves for that!!! #oh yeah and their pose is purposely ambiguous on whether they like each other or not #in this situation its either nepeta with a hit out on sollux and threatening him or its the both of them psyching out a third party #mayflowers⛈️ #413 #homestuck #sollux captor #nepeta leijon #blood #throat injury #OH YEAQH another design note is that in this design sollux has grown up Avoiding The Draft. hiding his powerful psionics. which is why #his goggles cover his eyes and why hes ONLY theming yellow not blue n red

[nursemimosa]

best friend he never asked for. well, he's stuck with her whether he likes it or not. good luck to them both.

#larry pokemon #pokemon larry #gym leader larry #oc x canon #pokemon oc x canon #pkmn sv #OC fifi #yeah. these are gonna go in some of his tags i'm sorry #their dynamic is 'middle aged ppl who don't realize they're both neurodivergent & ace' & their song is 'being boring' by the pet shop boys #i'm done hiding what i think is cringe!!! i'm old! now let me have fun and analyze my favorite characters (esp ones i relate to!!) #even if the medium of choice for doing that is hand picking and resurrecting old OCs and shipping them with some of my said faves *shrug* #i'm still too much of a pissbaby to write my fics but i will--some day... i wanna take my faves and dissect them they are so interesting #(oc x canon but u project more onto the canon character rather than the OC...) #mine #my art #my ocs

[taruruchi]

Winter azulchi stuff <33

They take a walk (second one inspired by something @/escha-evenstar wrote :) but also brooklyn 99)

They fall on the snow (It's okay guys the snow is very soft) This is my favoritest one and the one I did within an hour during accountingjfndkfna

HC Azul doesn't need clothes that are that warm because he's said himself he and the tweels don't get cold as easily

#The idea for the last one had me in a chokehold that's why I did it so quickly #They're having fun 🤧 #Also I See the Light is playing rn and it just feels so warm #Anyway to criticizing my drawings #Not very proud of azul in the first one I COULD MAKE IT BETTER IF I WAS ON DIGITAL #But honestly otherwise I'm happy <3 #And that's actually what I wear during winter. My jacket is very puffy and slightly big on me #But it's fine because I can hide my hands in my sleeves and it's so much better than hiding them in my pockets #Also. Why are gloves colder than just using the pockets #Or is that just me #Because when I'm inside my feet also strangely get colder when I wear socks #And lastly why is it still not snowing I'm not getting over this until it snows #Okay that's it ty for reading all that if you did #Oh LAST FR THIS TIME I might redraw the last one digitally. I love it too much #Okay byeeee #☆ taruchi's drawings 🖌️ #☆ 💙 #twisted wonderland #azul ashengrotto #twst oc

[everythingsinred]

ill just never get over this panel or how its the first time we see natsume visibly upset and sad from his own perspective (something we dont really see much of because of the way his character works), especially because the plant disintegrating in front of him is representing much more than a plant and he can never ever have anything good in his life without fearing it would be harmed in some way to discipline him.

#ga #gakuen alice #hyuuga natsume #baby. baby boy. #and yes i know and understand why natsume is told to stay away from mikan #and as much as i think the esp rly didnt want them interacting much #having one more thing to hold over natsumes head was probably useful for them too.... #which is what he was afraid of and trying to avoid from the beginning just to see in this scene that it was all in vain #and that he couldnt hide how much mikan meant to him.... #im gonna cry #anyway im gonna reread the manga soon and just post about all my thoughts that are nm and non-nm related #i think that could be fun bc i have a lot of thoughts and i always come up w more while reading #i also have to update my fic after so long hehe

[perenlop]

this is gonna sound so backhanded but after 3 letdowns in a row from pokemon (followed by a game which isnt terrible but i dislike because of how much it fucked up the plot of sm), then a game that i genuinely really love and want more in the style of and largely because of how it deviates from the main series, im genuinely so shocked that i love scarlet and violet as much as i do. like when i was going through that tutorial i was just cautious and waiting for the other show to drop and be bored at best, but like, graphic glitches aside, it never came. it stayed really fun and charming

#like is it acceptable that it came out so glitchy when its a $60 console release? absolutely not #i think the game has a lot of issues and i dont blame people for not being happy with it #but i think what makes this better than swsh to me is like. swsh sorta feels like it was made out of obligation sometimes #like. tpci and gamefreak treated galar like a kid would treat an art project in a medium they werent interested in #but they were being harassed for that good grade so they powered through and hated the result #and sorta just tried to hide it when they got home from school that day #not that there isn’t anything to like about galar or it has no substance whatsoever but when i played it i couldnt shake the feeling #that gamefreak was embarassed of it. like they did not want to linger too much on this game #i think the anime switching format was a good idea in the end cause just putting ash in another gauntlet after he won the alola league would #would have been weird but its veryyyy telling to me that they changed the format so drastically #that we didnt even spend all our time in galar. their home base wasnt even in galar #and in the game they emphasize that kantos got better pokemon and everyone loves them better and theres not a whole lot to do #and there was always just this feeling of insecurity and dissatisfaction with it #and for all its faults- i cant say the same thing about scvi. this game oozes with charm and care #the writing feels like someone genuinely cared about these characters and wanted the best for them and the story #the gameplay feels more involved and confident. they got more experimental with the format #idk it feels like people LIKED working on this game to a degree and wanted the player to have fun #echoed voice

[steampoweredskeleton]

Ignore

#delete later #in typical birthday fashion i am now exhausted snd overwhelmed and battling a meltdown #i stubbed my toe and now cant put any fucking weight on it #im exhausted from performing appropriate birthday excitement. i dont think i understand birthdays correctly #to me the only relevance of ppls birthday is that i can show that i care about them and give gifts that make them happy or #spend time with them. other than that its just a day. in my head my birthday is just a day but it's a day rhat im expected to be #ecstatic over. i dont understand that. i spend the day worried im not feeling the correct feelings or displaying them right #and worried bc the normal day routine is broken and im anxious bc i don't know what will happen #too much uncertainty. abd rhat anxiety makes me feel guilty. but at the same time bc to me birthdays are avout showing the #person that you care. if everyone ignored it i would start to assume they dont care. idk how to fix my brain on this #at least its only once a year. plus the whole still being alive at 24 thing freaks me out. so when i inevitably have my #meltdown or shutdown it comes with not fun things #i get the same way at christmas except its slightly more socially acceptable for me to hide at christmas. #meltdowns make me angry abd emotional so i know im being a bitch in my head but logic is hard so im just upset and angry #and confused on how im supposed to feel and act. i fucking hate my brain. #i have ordered good comfort food abd have weighted blanket abd new piercing. life is okay #i dont want to see mu parents this weekend but it will be what it will be. im so fucking tired

[sux2be]

taking my heart out and stomping into the ground dont you dare get another friend crush. dont fucking do it.

#ITS SO FRUSTRATING !!!!! #i think someone is cool and then they pay an attention to me and i am lost #i am drawing them pics and making them little gifts and thinking about all the fun things we can do together #i spend my free time thinking of reasons to talk to them #u might be like hmm this sounds like a romantic crush #but i can assure it is not #it CAN turn into one over many years #i kno bc one did and i suffer even more for it #its Very Obvious bc when its a non-platonic crush i will get suuuuuper possesive and jealous #but UGH friend crushes suck especially bc i dont have the bandwidth to rly pursue them AND #i always feel like i come at it too intensely so in order to escape rejection i run #its fine i am fine i can be Normal about things #its okay i will hide from this one like ive done all the others #its this person named Toad and they are so cool they do like climate activisim and they support local punk bands #its also reminding me of Dev. i am so sorry dev. #he was this super cool ass dude that i worked with for 4 years and he was So Neat and interesting to talk to #he knew soooooo much about cooking and he was really well read #and his humor was great. super dry and sarcastic i was always laughing lol #i wanted to be friends with him SO BAADDD #and he has no social media or even like. texting #so before i left i demanded his email address #and I emailed him One time and he replied and i ghosted him #bc here is another issue: i cant fucking communicate #how keep friends if u dont talk to them???? #anyways the brain worms are eating good tonight

[needylittlegirl]

#feel very umm #ive been home for a few hours just hanging out for easter #and my parents are arguing and like im glad i dont have to be around this anymore but #it still activates the little girl in me that hid in the corner of her room while she listened to them argue #i have such a vivid memory. they didnt know i was inside and my mom had just found out my dad cheated on her #i think i was like 5 and i heard the whole thing #they argued a lot at night too when they thought i was asleep #my parents are the kind of couple they definitely should have gotten a divorce <3 they did more damage to me not separating #fun fact theyre the root of all my relationship issues and fears!!! #whatever im so brave and tough and this isnt making me want to hide somewhere and cry like i did when i was little #trauma? is so funny cause like #logically this shouldnt bother me as much as it does #but just because i felt this exact feeling when i was a kid of course im still gonna feel it like i did then #and of course they started arguing the minute my sister left #when i was little they never argued when she was home #i was the youngest so i wasnt in school yet but she was. #so i had to hear it all alone #whatever im so tough #im gonna leave soon #tbd

[gouinisme]

last 2 journals + next 1

#they're all pretty different styles i like that #been trying to have more fun with my journals #wait nvm i did have a journal between the eye one and the sticker one but it was completely uncustomized and didn't last long #so we'll ignore that #i also fully didn't journal for like 2 weeks bc i had done the sketch for my new journal but didn't feel like painting it #and i didnt wanna write in a black plain journal again #that feels too functional and not.. like.. it doesnt encourage me to get creative with it #anyways #turns out i had some metallic pens hiding somewhere so i used that #been feeling in a wolfy mood #i'm sad with how scuffed the stickers on my previous journal #which extra sucks cuz the letters are from bumper stickers what do you mean they're the least durable stickers i had #but oh well they were free anyways. and it kinda looks cool gives it a more well worn feel #makes the three ish months i spent carrying it around with me everywhere visible so that's nice #i really like my journals i like journaling so much #like my journals are not aesthetic whatsoever they're very practical and chaotic but i like that about them #i feel like journaling like. placebo relieves the pressure in my brain #i do not have an internal monologue i have an internal cacophony it's like a fucking assemblée générale in there #so writing it all down is very soothing to my brain and painful to my wrists #it just feels like writing is the only time my thoughts can be interpreted and even if they're going in a thousand directions they're still #easier to follow than just. thinking #and then i can surround my thoughts with doodles and receipts and shit #or a strand of my own hair #that is something that is actually in one of the journals pictured abov #anyways why am i ranting down here i've got a new journal to fill #you know what i'm tagging this #journaling #cuz i think my journals are cute and ppl should see them i'm really proud of them #even though a lot of this is stickers i still feel like it looks real cute #doodles

[orcelito]

Been finishing up act 2 of bg3. It's a good thing I find the battle systems so fun bc Hoo Boy there sure do be battles

#speculation nation #im going the epic hero direction this run. mostly bc i care about saving innocents' lives as much as possible #which means Killing Necromancers...... ugh. #cloudkill my beloathed. me n my homies hate cloudkill (used against us at least) #i got my vampire kicked into a fucking CHASM i had to reload a save 😭😭😭 #he's been phenomenally unuseful in these fights bc theres so many people and so few places to hide #usually hes one of my biggest damage dealers. and sometimes he can get a good shot in #but a lot of turns hes just firing one dinky lil arrow and then hiding in the corner #...... i keep forgetting about the fancy arrows. i have so many of those. i should try to remember them when i get to the Big battle. #which. hmmm. we r gonna hope it's not Too difficult a battle. ive been able to get thru every battle so far in this game #turns out im Pretty Damn Good at this game. to the point where i'll brute force it and still end up fine. #the literal only battle i had to leave and go back for was the big spider queen thing in the bottom of the well. she was scary. #im level 9 now tho and full of so much guts n grit. and loot. holy fucking shit the loot. #im looting every body (including fallen allies. sorry guys ur gold's goin to a good cause.) #i have karlach with a like 460 carrying capacity but she STILL keeps getting encumbered. from all the armor. #im making fucking Thousands off this tower capture im gonna have so much fucking money #once i leave here and can actually. sell them all 😂 #anyways i have been having fun! had to stop for the night bc it's late. but i will be killing thorny ass tomorrow. mark my words.

[silkjade]

it’s 3am so please enjoy my favorite painting in the world while i reflect introspectively in the tags thank u ♡

day and the dawnstar by herbert james draper

#— 𝓭𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓬𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓼 #/// #this is meant to be like elevator music for the dash while you scroll past #…………….. #i love selfshipping it's vry fun but sometimes when i think about it too much or rather when i think about any scenario at all #i'm always like i want so and so to do this and this and this but when asked what i'd do for them it's like hitting a blank ) : #and i can’t help but feel as if i’m being…. selfish…. #selfish in the sense that i can so easily accept the love i crave but i don’t know if i'd be able to give the same back? #and this bleeds into my real life becus i suppose i just don't know how to make someone feel loved like... #i’m not even half as affectionate irl as i may seem online & i don’t have a cute or particularly loving personality. #the words i say aren't warm ; ironically they make me sound disingenuous lmao no matter how much i practice my cadence #& idk why it’s so difficult for me to imagine myself doing like.. domestic things for anyone without cringing at the alien nature of it #not becus there's something wrong with that but i just can't see ME doing anything like that and i just think 'what is wrong with me' becus #it's one of the simplest and purest forms of love i think ; \ idk maybe i've just never loved anyone enough like that... #but then i feel so..bad...because the real me is so apathetic boring cold #& not to make things sound transactional but why would someone want to stay if what they invest produces lackluster results ? #like omg ! even i can tell that it's totally unfair i'd feel like a leech #even in the painting above draper the painter says: 'to faint in the light of the sun she loves / to faint in his light and to die' #iz so me yearning 'n then dying from yearning becus i don't know how to express it #like when mitski said '胸がはち切れそうで' 'my chest is about to burst' i felt that #anyways i suppose this was good to get out before chinese new year lolz #i hope u did not make it this far honestly anyways i m going to rb a bunch of random stuff to hide this

[franeridan]

I was thinking about marineford and tbh I sorta get why garp would insist asl became marines, there's this thought going around that even if he'd been a marine ace would have been executed anyway for being roger's son but during marineford it's made pretty public that garp saved him and raised him and no one did anything about it? tom was executed for building rogers's ship before roger even became pirate king and garp could go against the government to protect his son and then refuse to fight in the war to stop his execution and no one told him anything, maybe being a marine does give you immunity after all

#something about as long as you're inside the system no one will stop you from doing whatever #it's the point of sword right #this sort of says a lot about the op world and how the wg operates #anyway my point is garp did have the best intentions for the kids mayhaps #being marines might have just actually saved them #something something working for the government weights more than your parents' sins? #fucked tbh #also being marines would have probably avoided any investigation done on their origins so there's that #by the way the fact that dragon used to be a marine means that the wg DID know his full name #did sengoku bury everything as a favor to garp? #their friendship is so nice actually............. #bet if cora had survived and sengoku had known law as p much his adoptive grandson #garp would have helped to hide law and everything he got up too for as long as possible too #they're fun