#and now im just ??

[ithinkilikeit-reactions]

♥ Jongho ♥

#jongho #ateez #choi jongho #atinysource #ateezlovenet #the gifs I have made #i saw a cute tiktok of jongho this morning #and now im just #hes so pretty

[blackkatmagic]

.........maybe if I like. wildly overestimate my wordcount to a ridiculous degree, I'll actually manage to undershoot and keep the length reasonable.

#*cries in writer* #i've been trying SO HARD to keep it at 20k #and now im just #w e l p #this might as well happen

[girlbob-boypants]

I miss my betta

#girlbob.txt #saw a really pretty one who was grumpy #and a mutual posted about theirs #and now im just #wah.

[dockaspbrak]

You ever feel like people dont care to get to know you? Idk. My dad couldnt tell ya a fact about me, i never manage to make friends. I think theres something wrong with me.

I dont mean to be downtrodden its just like. Idk. I think its my bad social cues and like maybe i have evil energy or smth. Ever since i realized i had autism ive been so much worse socially. I was so charismatic for awhile.

#i mjust so sad #something happened today that just really made me sad #i sorta figure i talk about music a lot so it kind of hurt my feelings #and now im just #i dont know. maybe the low self esteem lately is like a horrible perfume #foul #maybe #ho hum i have a bog chore tomorrow i have been putting off and im afraid #big #idk ive had so many friends leave and it isnt their fault you know. im so fucking awkward

[avibero]

Yoru time Yoru time. They're taking up my brain all hours of the day. I swear if s5 doesn't come soon I'm going to just take my AU and run with it like a football.

#obey me #yoru #idk man something flipped a switch in my brain this last week #and now im just #Yoru Goes Apeshit AU All The Time #fsh.art

[femme-malewife]

hnm...

#ive had such a whirlwind day... #started off fine #almost fainted at work #then i was super pissed off for hours #and now im just #idk. totally and utterly... #empty. #i hate being alone with my thoughts #im recalling all of the friends ive had who just...moved on from me #my first online friend and i were friends for about 4 or 5 years...i still had her number a couple years later and #she didnt remember who i was. when i asked her if it was (her name) she said yeah and i was like !! hey its lisi !!! #and she just went ''who?'' ... #my name hadnt changed at the time so its not as though she couldnt have known #and...my other friends slowly dwindled away. even now theres someone who i miss dearly #bc they were like family to me. but the few times we talk and stuff...we just...stop a day later. it hurts so much #all of my friends are drifting away again. and im honestly scared for the day they all ask ''who?'' when i try reaching out again #ig its deserved though. im a bland. forgettable and selfish person. it probably would be best for everyone to forget me #at least then if...or rather when i decide to take my own life #no one will grieve. im fine with that... #i wont hurt anyone when im gone #if anyone actually reads this just ignore me #sometimes i just need to vent yk

[stealthetrees]

My friend is going through some rough stuff with her ex and she said to me her life felt like a bad sitcom and I, who can’t people very well, told her that she would be my comfort show and. She was so happy. I think on it now and if someone told me that I would legit cry. How can I ever give another compliment ever again without it feeling as incincere as a compliment lie after this.

#how do i even tag this #idk man #I just blurted it out #and now im just #sitting here like wtf #how do I come up with that

[flawedfemalecharacter]

i think i just need sm1 who will drop everything to come and comfort me when i'm down

#dont even start ik its an unrealistic request #but i kinda used to have a friend like that #until he straight up dropped me #and now im just #lonely all the time #even tho i shouldnt be #bc i have rlly good friends #who r there for me #but they r not there for me not in person #and it just sucks #and i just cant help but feel terribly lonely

[genadelikesships1233]

I wanted Deanmon and Rowena to have interacted like this.

Rowena: Winchester, if you think you can kill me now you are sorely mistaken-

Dean: I want to stop repressing my bisexuality and I need auntie Rowena. Please

Rowena : …….

Rowena: Well. Lets talk.

Dean: *Already crying* Well it all started with my dad-

#destiel #rowena macleod #dean winchester #spn #i dont fucking know #this just popped into my head #and now im just #Sad and angry #John winchester sucks #This is a hating john page

[ghostofashina]

;

#i cant listen to ismael talking about adar/arondir #its so... deep and intense #and he makes it sounds so meaningful #he believes there's more between them than just conflict #and now im just #ugh im obsessed

[devilsxinthedetails]

I miss you.

Every hour, every day, every month and all that time after.

I will always miss you.

My Jordan, my Pidgey, my lobster.

I will never be over losing someone so beautiful and wonderful.

My heart is forever changed by you.

And no one can replace the joy you brought to my life.

#ooc #i was having a moment at work #when a sad song came on #and now im just #im missing you #and so many other people #and it hurts #im sorry

[masquerain-with-a-mask]

me, talking to my sister : i need help can you tell me which expression you prefer

my sister : sure but your pose suck tho

me : i know and i don't give a fuck

my sister : you should

me : but i don't and i just need help with the expression

my sister : but you need to fix the pose

me : i don't care enough about human art to learn how to draw decent poses

#and she kept insisting on helping me with the pose despite me only needing help with the expression #i don't give a fuck about my human art i don't like drawing humans #jesus is that so hard to understand #and now im just #unmotivated to finish the piece i needed help with #this is why you don't give unwanted criticism

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[lesbianralzarek]

"life doesnt get better, you just get stronger" does NOT include ages 11-17. life does in fact just get better from there. those years are dogshit. like, you do get stronger but its mostly just a factor of not being 11-17 anymore. positive thinking helps but it doesnt fix whatevers going on at 15, you have to brute force through that one raw

#i originally posted this as just a 'hey remember how fuckin bad middle/highschool was? shit was wild' type post but now #there are a bunch of teens in the notes being like 'oh my god are you serious? it gets better? im not stuck in hell forever??' #and im reminded that the only people who told teenage ella 'it gets better' were speakers at mental health assemblies #aka the least relatable people alive who were seemingly born to lie to you #so. uh. yeah im a certified adult who isnt here to lie or sugarcoat the realities of being a teenager #the only thing more certain than the pain is the transcience

[ot3]

i dont like the idea that kids these days are doing their fandom rps with ai chatbots. that's how you're supposed to make lifelong friends as a weird really online teen.

#i was never really an rper of any kind it just did not do it for me #im like im sorry actually i cant do this collaboratively i need to be controlling all of the little dolls myself. #however homestuck rp deck epicmafia. now that was another story

[lesbian-disaster-academic]

i used to be so good at writing strong, thoroughly-researched, thoroughly-edited essays.

as a kid in hs, my teacher literally came up to me, holding my 40 page essay on the intersection of the European witch hunts and capitalism/exploitation/gender roles (it was supposed to be 7 pages...whoops) and went like "this is literally a master's-degree level thesis. what are you doing?? you could literally use this as your final dissertation in a master's program, what the fuck."

NOW??? NOW?? you'd think I'd be oh so skilled. but alas. i can barely piece together two ideas. adhd skill-regression is so so real. im SOBBING

#this is just me ranting sorry #im very tired and hungry #and i want to sleep but brain go brrrrr #well i used to be nice and smart and now im neither of those or however the song goes #pretty sure he was exaggerating cause looking back. it was good. but some of the wording was a lil wonky #adhd #actually adhd #executive dysfunction #actually neurodiverse #adhd paralysis #adult adhd #attention deficit hyperactivity disorder #adhd hacks #academia #neurodivergent #adhd skill regression #confessions of a burnt out gifted kid #<< i guess #former gifted kid #burnt out gifted kid #gifted kid burnout #realizing i sound rly pretentious here sorry -- formal speech patterns i picked up as an autistic child and never put down again haha