#anyway!!! more on that in a couple weeks i guess!!!

[gogglecannon]

#Classic Amy #Amy Rose #StH #image description in alt #goggyart #I like these a lot. I want to push more with her as I draw her more going forward. #I'm really happy with how I did her hands I guess. Their a thing I tend to struggle with and it becomes mega annoying. It ends up with #me leaving something mostly done unfinished for weeks or months (as what happened in this case. I started these not long after I finished #the similar drawings with sonic and tails) #so this morning I got determined enough to push through the fear of have to scrap the work I'd done previously. i had to redraw her hands #a couple times but I finished it. #anyway I love Amez and Knux a lot. especially to draw. but I struggle with them a lot. so this year I'm endeavoring to study and draw them #more so I can get better and share them with y'all who I hope like them too.

[wetheoriginals]

tom had no friends or family there tonight which i guess makes sense he probably wants to get through a few performances first and it would probably make him way more nervous for the first show

mhm makes sense! to the people in my inbox being weird about it, it’s definitely not suspect. of course he would want to be able to focus on nailing the first show (or first couple of shows) without his family and friends in the crowd.

it’s the preview week anyways, the official run hasn’t even started.

[sushisocks]

bro iv reread ur macsummers fanfic at least 7 times this week😼

KJHGVFHJKJHGB OH ANON that's like once a day!! I'm honored, and so glad you like it kjhbvbnjbhvn I hope to write a lot more oneshots dedicated to them once I finish Attentive Vigor!!! The longfic has a lot of focus on them too, but MAN do I aspire to properly fatten up the macsummers ao3 tag in the future!!!

MEANWHILE, to tide you over, if you've not read these already, I REALLY recommend:

Burn Like Whiskey Flames by Lysandra_Lewis aka @ithinkthiswasabadidea (frankie I'm sorry I always tag u for this but I will be repping this fic until the day I die and I must pay my dues!!) This is actually my favorite macsummers fic ever - not that there are a lot to pick from but Frankie set the bar HIGH with this one!! I've ranted about it here on tumblr, on discord, to literally anyone who will give me the time of day to talk abt macsummers fics, because I always come back to it! Comfort fic fr!!!

The Differences Between Words by Bradleybeautiful. I'll be frank and say that the formatting in this one isn't my favorite, but the writing itself makes me insane. It's a Sean POV with some very eloquent and beautiful prose, contrasting him consistently insisting on his own stupidity, and that alone has been DOING something to me since my very first read of it. Very much worth the read!!!

ANYWAY Thank you so much dear anon for your support!!! I understand too well the hunger for MacSummers content, and while I'm so so glad what I've got to share thus far has been so well received, I really do want to contribute more than what I've been doing, once I get the chance!!

#seven times in a week fucking hit me where it hurts lmfao i know EXACTLY what ur feeling like #and!!! good news!!! im working on a macsummers oneshot that should be coming out at the end of the month #my friend asked for a macsummers thingie for her birthday and i aim to deliver!!! ill share it here too when i finish it ig #since im acutely aware ive got a bunch of people here just as starved for macsummers content as i lolol #anyway!!! more on that in a couple weeks i guess!!! #teki talks #sean macguire #lenny summers #macsummers #sean x lenny #lenny x sean #asks #fic asks #ficposting #ship asks #ship posting

[marshmallowgoop]

No matter how special it is, a kid's lunch is still just a kid's lunch.

I dunno, I liked "The Genius Restaurant" (Episode 1,089).

Happy (belated) birthday, Jimjam.

[Song link] [YouTube link]

#detective conan #case closed #amv #my amvs #video #eye strain #conan edogawa #shinichi kudo #song is #nosedive #by #flor #ahahahaha i thought this would just be a chill edit and was like #'i did my last vid in 30 hours so i can do this one in less because it's shorter right? and because i'm mostly using one ep?' #wrong lol this took about 40-ish hours? nooooo idea how i did 'if you kill me' in 30... #aside from the audio i think that's a more complicated edit too ^^; #way late for jimjam's bday but i guess it's not *that* birthday related anyway... but it was my first thought for a bday edit haha #been meaning to do an amv for the ep for a while! special thanks to marivanilla05 for inspiring me to watch it with their great art #i'm so behind that i don't watch new eps much but i'm glad i skipped ahead and watched this one #special thanks to astravis for helping me with the beginning and to hex for the liveblog too! #i know it was a long time ago but that liveblog definitely inspired some choices here #that said i'm glad i waited because i think i'm a much better editor than i was last july (well hope so anyway!) #and this song only released a couple of weeks ago! #had tons of trouble picking a song (usually my amvs are song first but this was idea first) but i think i really like how this one fits #sources are mostly #episode 1089 #but also episodes 1 14 52 and 192 and tv special 6 (episode one: the great detective turned small) and movies 13 and 16 and ova 9

[m00ngbin]

HAPPY TFS TUESDAY!!! CHAPTER 22

and join his CLAW resistance group

#artbin #fun fact this is the first (maybe second?) time ive ever drawn Shou #oh this is kinda sorta maybe a little bit part of a couple drawings that i was making for your birthday mitch #BUT I WENT OUT OF STATE FOR LIKE TWO WEEKS SO IM JUST FINISHING THEM IM SO SORRY #HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY THOUGH I STILL HAVE MORE STUFF IM FINISHING UP #sorry the first thing you get is kind of unserious but i thought you would appreciate it #ANYWAYS GUESS WHAT #TFS TUESDAY #ISNT THAT AWESOME?? ISNT THAT AMAZING??? #the blue eyed stare is real #tfs my beloved

[statementlou]

Hello, do you think is possible that we will get a FITF live album? Louis and the band sound so good on tour.

they doooo! I love Steve's arrangements and additions to the songs so much! Honestly I have no idea; on the one hand it seems like Louis might be more focused on moving towards new stuff, like we are still in FITF mode but by the time it came out he had had it forever and now he's well into LT3 and probably feeling more excited about those new songs and sounds; on the other hand he is very good at working the industry stuff and all the angles and it's basically free money, right? He has said FITF was a further step towards the sound he wants most rather than the finish line, so it's possible that as happened with Walls as he works more on the new one he is getting less enthused about sharing the old stuff; but I think adding Steve's arrangements and just moving away from some of the songs seems to have lessened that this time around, so maybe that isn't a factor. Here's the thing though: the only way it would happen or make sense I think would be if it was recorded pretty recently, like one of the UK shows; the show was still being tweaked and gelled and cooking until then. But if they wanted to make vinyl (and surely they would? fancy double vinyl of live albums is SUCH a thing), that is very very long process of waiting around these days. First you have to get lacquers made (this is the physical thing that the recording is cut into that all the records are duplicates of- if you want quality it has to be more or less handmade by an artisan) but one of the two places left in the world that made those burnt to the ground in 2020 so there's a super long wait time on that. Then it just has to get made; but there are basically ten large scale factories left (again, in the WORLD) that press records so that also has a very long wait time... so it would take forever and the thing is I think we're getting LT3 in the late fall/ early winter (I bet he's using this month to finish it up so it can begin this lengthy process). So I kind of don't think so, like I guess they could do a CD/ cassette/ digital only in late spring and make so much money, and it would be fun, but who knows. Either way, I just hope Louis has Steve do some production work on LT3, I like his sounds and ideas a lot, and that he keeps him around to do his tours forever!

#could I have just said it takes a while to make records I GUESS #but maybe people are interested! #IN MY DAY *totters up on a creaky walker* you could just be like I wanna make a record of my band #and send off $500 and a mastered recording and 6 weeks later get a couple boxes of 7's in the mail #SIGHHHH #this planning a year in advance is such a bummer I bet Louis would much rather get to write the songs and share them #and by a year later be onto whole new ones #it's no wonder he doesn't remember the lyrics by the time it's time to tour them he's ages past those ones #fitf live #vinyl pressing #steve durham #is the drummer but also the tour musical director #I've always had an embarrassing thing for drummers and I genuinely do not have a thing for steve because I am past that tyvm #but every time I rave about him I do side eye myself like is this correct or are you just in drummer groupie mode #anyway he looks just like- I kid you not- a drummer I have uh #what #had a Thing With let us say #once upon a time #but honestly I really do just like his arrangements musically I think he seems kind of annoying personally #and that tattoo artist was his friend and that guy seemed like a DOUCHE which made me even more skeptical #anyway enjoy the personal TMI corner GOTTA GO BYE

[maddieandangel]

Had a weird Hollow Knight-related dream a couple days ago, so I decided to draw a major scene I remembered from it dgsgshf

More context will be in the tags, for those interested!

#hollow knight #little ghost #hk ghost #the knight #hk hornet #hornet #alright. as of writing these tags it's been a week since the original dream so! let's see what i remember dgsgsgf #i was playing a game. which was a sequel to hollow knight ((Not silksong though)) #there was some new sort of divine infection in hallownest and hornet had asked ghost to investigate it. they ended the last one after all! #the red glowy spike gate thingy is what you jumped into to enter the 'infected' areas #though it actually led directly to a hub world type of place. which was kinda like an expanded base for the grimm troupe? #more like an entire lair instead of a camp. also some greek gods were there for some reason lmao. they had their own special rooms too #so sidenote but- new headcanon that there are grimm troupe members named ares athena artemis &... venus lmao. not aphrodite for some reason #also monomon was there?? i think??? except she was cooking????? she had a sidequest to deliver something to someone though i dunno hdgfhdgh #i remember going back to the grimm troupe lair a couple times throughout my 'playthrough' #anyway. the 'infection' this time around was more of a glitchy physical corruption thing? rather than a mind corruption. #though there were still aggressive enemies to fight. but i remember getting a map from cornifer early on and he was. probably infected #i think part of his body was covered in electricity or something? so he wasn't fully visible? but he was still acting normally #there was also a moth who was the seer but then later wasn't the seer (but was still the same moth) dghgdhf. i delivered stuff to her #that glowing white wall thing in the drawing was like a one-way gate. you could only cross it from the other side and ghost came from there #i guess things looped back up somehow i dunno ghdgfhgf #anyway. ghost's red eyes. those are significant! those happened while i was walking through a corridor. it had pools of shallow water #(shallow enough to just walk through) and also creatures that were lightseeds but red.the implication was that they were full of Blood lmao #and as i went along killing them--as one does--as i walked through the hall. they started turning the water red too #there was also narration about this as it was happening ashdgsf. specifically the narrator said the water turned red before it actually did #ghost's eyes slowly turned red too. but aside from that they were fine! since. they're the player character and the player is perfectly fin #BUT. when they encountered hornet again. she thought they were infected. and that she lost the only family she had left </3 #she didn't attack though. instead she just jumped into the red spike gate without a word. decided to try to fix everything herself #but eventually you'd encounter her again down below and she'd fight you. didn't actually get to that in the dream though #aand i'm out of tags </3 i wanted to talk about what i'd do to make this make more sense as an au or something now that i'm awake but. :c

[cloudiness]

Fan: You almost called him Carlos?!! Lando: I did, almost.. Daniel Ricciardo: That’s alright. Lando: I miss him.. DR: ✨ Their friendship was a little more than friendship ✨ Lando: Yeah, it was. Fan: A proper bromance, it was cute. Lando:  🌷 A lot more actually.🌷 [x]

for @hibiscus-vroom

#for hibi because she wanted carlando edits after all those other ships edits i made for anons and she promised me fanfictions in return 👀❤️ #carlando #carlos sainz jr #lando norris #f1 #f1blr #i started this project like a year ago because that 'a lot more actually' just hits me every single time and i hear it but then #I abandoned it and got back to finishing it just a couple of weeks ago #dedicated to hibi also because she's amazing 😌😌😌 #the flowers thing was kinda a last minute addition but i guess i'm a romantic at heart guys #and btw..whenever Carlos touches Lando flowers do bloom inside and outside Lando 😌🌷 #hope you guys like this..i find some parts a little bit busy/messy but I just needed to finish this #anyway..enough with the tags #made by me #tag:carlando #tag:f1 #typos in some tags but im not gonna edit them..too much work #mine

[psqqa]

i'm having a lot of fun with duolingo italian because it's like word that is basically latin but italianly, french but to the left, oh hey greek! you love to see it, absolute bottom of the false friend option list but sure i guess, WILDEST LEFT FIELD SHIT YOU'VE EVER SEEN, back to latin,

#you'd think #given just how much english has borrowed from italian #that i would have osmosised more actual italian #but my main takeaway from the past couple of weeks #is that i could not in fact have osmosised *less* italian #the sum total of the italian i have osmosised is jack fucking shit #as it turns out #anyway #this post brought to you by 'gli uccelli' #which ultimately unsurprisingly does of course come from latin #just in a way that's not quite phonologically transparent enough for me #(and both my extremely limited memory of my extremely limited latin and my highly vibes-based sense of latin > italian sound changes) #to connect to anything that would point me even vaguely in the right direction #it does have a step up on 'colazione' and 'ciotola' though #in that the latin > italian journey didn't *also* involve a fairly significant amount of semantic drift #'absolute bottom of the false friend option list but sure i guess' is 'negozio' btw #like yeah okay 'shop' doesn't NOT track but no fucking way would i have ever landed there myself

[hecatesbroom]

I'm not usually one to rant on here but I'm a little pissed off & have to get it out of my system (there's no one at home to complain to lol) so just don't click the tags if you don't feel like reading all that!

#okay so!! for those who don't know i'm currently doing this 3-years-squeezed-into-barely-1 trade school thing so i can work in childcare #(which was like my 5th choice for what i wanted to do in life but i digress) #and it's SO incredibly BORING because i literally knew everything i needed to know (& more) before i started #and i knew that! i knew i was going to do something that was way too easy for me but unfortunately i'm ✨disabled✨ #so doing something below my level (& part time) is the only way i'll be able to keep up #anyway. i have class once a week and it's so understimulating it wipes me out for the rest of the week #that is not an understatement. 12 hours of work + 4 hours of school have me so exhausted i do *not* get out of the house anymore #but again!! my fault for starting this! that's okay! #the thing is we weren’t supposed to have class for 3 whole glorious weeks this month #*because that's how it was scheduled* #and the idea of a schedule is that you'd stick to it. right?? #wrong apparently #because my ass of a teacher just decided that because she called in sick a few times *we're* going to have to catch up now #she said this literally 2 days before class too #before a class that *wasn't supposed to be there in the first place* #like i'm very sorry. i'm not usually quick to anger. but fuck you for that #(i called in sick a couple of times in the past too because guess what? i *am*! always! #so i don't think i can get out of this anymore without consequences and i just. ughhhh) #the worst part is that i love my teacher as a person!! but i have absolutely no respect for her as a teacher whatsoever anymore #this isn't the first time something similar & preventable(!!!) happened and it's like #do you want us to be motivated and feel responsible towards you or don't you?? because that's a 2 way thing #so catch ms goody two shoes over here going to class & being very nice about it all & slowly falling apart over the next 3 weeks i guess :) #thanks very much o benevolent teacher #anyway that's it for my frustrations today lol happy end of my 2 week holiday to me i guess 😂 #i sincerely hope you didn't get all the way to the end of this & i'm very sorry if you did sjfjdj #but thanks for listening in that case <3 #alys.txt

[shima-draws]

Currently in my banging my head against the wall phase. Hope you all are well 🥰

#Doc told me to schedule another MRI on Tuesday. They said they sent the order over on Tuesday. #I call on Tuesday to schedule the appointment. They don't have the referral yet #I called yesterday to try and schedule. They STILL don't have the referral #I message my doc and make sure they actually sent it over to the right place. (They did.) #They say they'll fax it over again! Great! #I call AGAIN today. They STILL don't have the referral #Bro I just need to schedule this fucking MRI so I can find out what's WRONG with me #The girl on the phone was like 'Oh yeah we're real busy we get orders all the time it must not have hit the system yet' #BRO IT'S BEEN THREE DAYS. HOW HAS NOBODY SEEN IT. TEARING my hair out #I went to their website to try and schedule online. Guess what? THEIR GODDAMN SCHEDULING ASSISTANT IS DOWN FOR MAITENANCE #SCREAMS #Anyway yes so in my banging my head against the wall phase. I'm so tired #And still in pain! To nobody's surprise!! #They can't fix what's wrong with me if I can't even get in to get an MRI. Hello. PLEASE #This isn't really smth that can wait a couple weeks #I should've been in to see them like YESTERDAY. #My pain is so bad I had to stay at home today. And I go and ice my back every hour or so #Bc I can't sit down for more than 45 minutes without wanting to kill myself ;)))) #Shima speaks #I'M SORRY I'm just so. I've been over this for months. And now that I'm THIS close to getting answers #I can't. Seem to get these people to schedule an appointment for me #Grinds my teeth

[coquelicoq]

i just saw someone say that "the vast majority of the userbase is complaining" about tumblr's recent layout change. i see this a lot after a change: people complaining about it (sometimes without saying what about it is bad, making it sound like either it's self-evident (it usually is not) or just that it's bad because it's change and change is always bad) and saying that everyone else is complaining about it too. i don't know how to tell you this but a) you don't follow every user on tumblr so how can you possibly know what "everyone" or "the majority of users" thinks about anything and b) ONLY THE PEOPLE WHO FEEL VERY STRONGLY ARE TALKING ABOUT IT!! people who are not bothered are not spending time posting about how unbothered they are! please look up "selection bias" and stop making me read this nonsense with my own eyeballs.

#i don't get what's so bad abt this change bc it doesn't bother me & no one is explaining it! the most i've seen is it's 'like twitter' #which people don't like i guess bc this might imply that tumblr could be taking more cues from twitter than just the layout? #which is also fallacious reasoning #some changes i do hate. like for instance the change that made it so i can no longer click to the version that someone rbed from #which breaks the prev tag culture :( #but some changes are whatever! and some changes are good even!! #it's fine if it takes time to get used to something being different of course but it seems like the reaction on here can be so extreme #so fast. 'bombard the app with 1-star reviews!!!!' how about you give it a couple weeks and maybe you'll calm down. #i think there's a sense of 'if it ain't broke don't fix it' but it is broke though! tumblr is unsustainable and they gotta do stuff to make #the site more attractive and easier to use for new users. they can do that without losing what makes tumblr tumblr #the layout is not what makes tumblr tumblr! the functionality is. and sometimes that does change for the worse #and i get having complaints about that. but not really about moving the location of some buttons #anyway i haven't said anything before because i don't have strong feelings about this UX change but i DO have strong feelings about #the vague yet very forceful complaints about the UX change that i keep seeing lol #tumblr #fallacies #anyway don't get distracted by my tags. this post is not really about me not understanding what's so bad about this specific change #it's about people who hate a change assuming that everyone agrees with them because they're only seeing the reactions from #a biased subset of the userbase #(by biased i don't mean the users are biased. i mean the sample is biased...it's highly likely to include people who feel strongly #and unlikely to include people who are neutral or feel less strongly)

[anotherpapercut]

bro what the fuck are they doing with my package

#fun story #i ordered 3 things from hot topic. they shipped but never arrived so a couple weeks later i messaged them abt it #and went back and forth with them for a while bc their customer service agents cant read apparently #before being told i had to call bc one of the things i ordered went out of stock and i was replacing it w smth more expensive #so i call and im on the phone for like a fucking hour missing the 15 minute window i have to eat between jobs #and being on the phone at work for a while lmao #i finally get it done and the guy fucking forgets my apartment number in the shipping address. it's in the billing address tho?? #so i email them AGAIN and im like yo your man forgot my apartment number. they cancel that order and place another #the effect this has is that the $14 payment for the more expensive item is cancelled as well. bc again they don't read #so im like sick i will effectively get these $60 pants for $15 (im very good at sales and also manipulating customer service) #but apparently when they replaced the order they put ny apartment number not in the address‚ but as part of my name????? #so i think its fucking up usps. but it came in 2 packages and 1 has arrived so i still have hope. but thats not the end #yesterday guess who fuckin calls me. its hot topic. my original order arrived to the fuckin store in my local mall #and theyre like i think we fucked up bc we just found this package but it says you picked up your order already. do u want it #and i was like yes? not really sure what package to be expecting and its my ORIGINAL FUCKING ORDER #so once this package arrives i will have gotten 2 of the same shirt‚ 2 kiki sign things‚ a sweater‚ and a pair of pants for $40 #and i figure i can return one of the shirts and one of the signs that i have duplicates of for store credit of their full price #so anyway yeah. thats been the past 3 weeks for me.

[animalinvestigator]

dark spore kids

#my art #noriko kawada #ken ichijouji #punimon #Im not gonna tag the other dark spore kids and their digimon because the seocnd one isj ust goofy. #ive had these sitting around for a while. i haev more other digimon 02 drawings ill post later i didnt want to put them in the same one with #this becuase the poses came out really similar without me thinkingabout it LOL. #ive just bee ndrawing a bunch of shit like this trying to get through a rough couple weeks. hopefully i can draw more soon!! #a little embarrassing to have only digimon art to show for myself right now but im having fun and making the things i want to see and i gues #thats whats important to me so. o7. bear with me until my heart eventually settles into a calm about it and i can draw other things again #i may have talked about it before but the dark spore really is a very compelling story element to me. so naturally i really wished that the #kids who got it implanted got to be characters more than they did. one of my favorite lines in the entire show come sfrom noriko . soim very #sad that theres not much art of her. thats why i drew her #i also just thought the idea of ken running a dbt skills group therapy session was really funny. hes canonically a psych student as of #02 the beginning im told. tough crowd to be testing your knowledge on.... #anyway enjoy!! im outta here until i draw something else i guess

[frecklystars]

Holy shit. Thank you guys for all of the asks. I got exactly 50!

I meant to respond to them when I got home from work last night, but I didn’t have enough energy by the time I was done reading these. I’m still incredibly exhausted today, it’s like all of the energy is completely sapped out of me since I was in the emergency room the other day.

The heavy ache in my chest definitely lessened while I was focused on reading what you guys wrote last night. The reminders that my TF F/Os still love me is something I really need to hear, something I probably have to tell myself multiple times... I spent so long being conditioned to believe otherwise.  

A few of you also reminded me that Starscream had gone through heavy abuse, and he wouldn’t support someone who treated me the way Megatron treats him. It helped me feel better... I think that’s what got through to me the most. I’ve seen so many commissions/fics my ex-friend showed me where she was being manipulative, and that she would be loved for it. Seeing all of that visual representation of her being so tenderly loved by these characters while she was hurting me at the same time, for so many months, it really did some damage and made me internalize the belief that all transformers characters would want to hurt me the same way and love her for it. Especially when the characters she commissioned and talked about the most often were forming into PTSD triggers. For almost a year now, I have just assumed that all of those characters she wrote and commissioned, including Starscream, would encourage her to hurt me and that they would love to see me getting hurt. I don’t choose to feel this way, it’s just... trauma. 

But a few of you wrote about how... canonically, Starscream was so fucking pissed when he was abused, especially in RiD2015!! He was so broken up and angry just like I am!! His entire 3 episodes focused on him repeating how unfairly he was treated, how much he wanted to hurt Megatron for all the times he was put through emotional/physical pain, how years had passed since he escaped being tied to his abuser and yet he was so, so angry and still worried that he wasn’t strong enough bc that is what he was conditioned to believe for millions of years. I want to think that same bot would look at me and see himself in me, and hold my hand through this and tell me it’s gonna be okay and it’s gonna get better and he’d never want to treat me the way my abuser treated me. How could he bear it if his little starflower looked at him the way that he looks at Megatron? I don’t want to think he would support my abuser’s actions, no matter how many fics or commissions she has stating otherwise. When I escaped a toxic situation with someone else 3 years ago, I turned to Starscream for this exact same reason, I looked to him for support. He helped me get through it. Now, I need him again after facing treatment that was absolutely horrific, except I’ve been conditioned to believe he would hurt me too; I just feel so sad when I look at him and I wish I could feel loved by him again. It’s been really, really, really hard. Hearing other people tell me that he loves me and would never want to hurt me really helps, I need to be reminded of that, because I absolutely can’t believe it when I try to tell myself.

I’m sorry I’m not able to respond to your asks at the moment, I’m extremely exhausted from. everything. Today has been difficult as well so I will be offline for the rest of the night. I don’t know if I’ll be online tomorrow. 

I’m not 100% sure when the commissions will open up, I was really hoping it would happen this week but I didn’t expect to have that panic attack Tuesday, it really drained me. I am hoping that I’ll have comms open by next week, it all depends on how I’m feeling. I might spend more time offline to limit seeing any potential triggers bc I’ve been very fragile since I went to the emergency room, things that normally wouldn’t make me spiral before are probably things that I will have more trouble handling right now, at least until I can calm down again. Normally it takes me about 3 to 5 days to calm down from a severe panic attack like that. But I gotta spend another $400 on new glasses tomorrow morning so... I really do need to open comms soon :’) They will absolutely be open within the next 2 weeks, I just don’t know exactly when. Anyway, thank you guys again for the nice messages, I really needed them and you helped me feel less alone last night ❤

#woof #and all of the asks were nice!!! thank you!!! #im sorry i gotta turn anon back off :( #i didnt get any bad messages or anything but im just cautious #dw i wont keep anons off forever. some of u were asking me to keep it on #i just dont want to read something negative or see any reminders of my abuser #bc then when im at my concert i will be more prone to having flashbacks instead of enjoying charlie puth bangin out the tunes #but ill turn them back on uhhh when im feeling a little better i guess #i just got some ppl trying to talk to me abt my abuser last week like 'ooh shes posting abt u!' #'shes spreading rumors about u. thought u should know' well i DONT want to know! thank u! #anyone who brings her up telling me what she's 'posting about me' is automatically blocked at this point #if she wants to spread rumors that is her problem. and i dont wanna know about it #bc shes dead to me and im keeping it that way ❤ #anyway. to all the ppl who wrote 50 nice messages!!! thank u! i needed them #i will reread them the next couple of days while im feeling rly sad and missing my starlight #god i cant wait to get the hyperfixation back. i cant wait to feel safe w/ them again. #one fucking day

[sydmarch]

spent months like I need prescription for my mental health give me prescription please please & now that I have it I'm like hm. do I want to have to take meds, actually

#part of it i think is just that typical anxiety that comes before any life change like s new job or whatever but also like #despite never having TRIED stimulants im familar w them i know people w adhd who are on them i had an idea of what to expect & thats what i #i figured id be getting but shes having me try this non stimulant option first bcus 1 apparently its good for people who also have anxiety #and 2 easier to get w the like Adderall shortages & shit rn #& im like ok i have NEVER heard of this drug before and didn't even know there WERE non stimulant options options. #like im doing all my research TODAY for the first time then pick it up tomorrow? #like me heslth anxiety girl just has to be like ok sure i guess. i had mentally prepared myself for stimulants & thats it!!! #i mean worst case i just try it & see if it works or if i have side effects but like. ugh. & i dont like that i dont like my np LOL like id #probably feel less uncertain about trying something i was previously unfamiliar with if she was someone i liked & trusted more #if i knew there were unfamilar drugs they might recommend to me i probably wouldve started over & found someone new to work with. AGHHH & i #didnt discuss any of this w her bcus it took me a couple hours after our session to think abt it & do my own reading & process my emotions #to really come to thia conclusion. & also i wouldnt have wanted to talk to hwt abt this anyway bcus i dont like her & have not felt at all #like cool w opening up to her beyond the minimum i had to do for the assessment #& my therapist is sick this week so im not gonna get to talk to her tomorrow!@ #texticles #anyway i know ive got fellow adhd bitches following me. anyone try guanfacine did you like it or nah