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#argh. i hate not liking things
merchantarthurn · 4 months
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sigh... sometimes i wanna put a ND headcanon on a high shelf away from people who seem to see Character Flaws and go "ah, it's because he doesn't understand social cues. criticism or irritation at his flaws is ableism".
no. no he just genuinely is conceited. he can also have the social cues issue but he's also conceited like textually. like it's not just 'socially awkward' to constantly talk down to someone or fucking. choose one of the lowest moments of a friend's life to go "well ahaha once again, this is why i didn't become a warlock. why didn't he sacrifice his immortal soul for a second time, age 24, like he did when he was 17 and was taken advantage of by a powerful demon? kinda sucks of him if you ask me" anyway i feel insane watching people talk about gale sometimes.
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I don't think I've ever really cared about shipping in my life. I'm generally just cool to go with the flow. If something is written well or drawn well then I'm for it.
But I will say. The DC writers trying to push Jon/Irey and Damian/Irey tire me. I am not impressed with the dynamics going on there and the idea of Irey being in the middle of a love triangle is contrived and upsetting.
I felt safe before because Irey is 9, Jon is an adult with a boyfriend and Damian is a teenager. DC wouldn't let that happen. I knew the shipping going on behind the scenes but everything was fine. It couldn't happen.
But then we got alt universe Supersons. The same age as Irey. And Irey blushing at them.
Suddenly everything was very much not okay.
Again, I'm generally cool with whatever but I'm putting my fucking foot down at this one.
No.
I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD.
NO.
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storm-of-feathers · 4 months
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:')
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WOULD YOU GUYS LIKE TO SEE MY FUGLY UGLY ASS ALLEGORY OF THE CAVE X FAHRENHEIT 451 CROSSOVER DRAWING THAT I WAS FORCED TO DO FOR SCHOOL….. ITS SO UGLY AND MONTAG IS
WHITE.
AND THE HOUNDS ARE DISGUSTING THE COLORING IS SO SHITTY AND MILDRED …. Well ok she looks alright kindof but the COLORING ….. SKETCH WAS BETTER but do you guys. Do you still want to see it…….,,,,,,
ALSO NO OFFENSE TO WHITE PEOPLE PLEASE I LOVE YOU GUYS 🫶😁👍 within reason
#like ok maybe it isn’t. THAT bad#NO NO I TAKE THAT BACK I JUST LOOKED AT IT RIGHT NOW AND THE COMPOSITION IS ALL FUCKING VOER THE PLACE#IT. IT IS. THAT BAD#IF YOU GUYS SAY YESS YOULL SEE#ok but nasty bad art aside I know some of you will be asking why white Montag is such a bad thing and#there isn’t anything wrong with it!!! it’s just that for me personally#after I did a bit more thinking I was. physically incapable of perceiving Montag as anything other than POC/nonwhite#so when I look back at my old f451 art and stare into the eyes of a pale skittish twink it just#it doesn’t click. like that isn’t MY Montag if ykwim#now trembling BROWN skittish twink. that’s a different story#AGAIN I DONT have any issues with ppl making their own versions white I just think that . for me specifically. he looked a bit funny#a little off. a bit too crackerish for my liking#where is bros melanin 😭#I’m complaining right now but if I wanted to I could just… go in and try and make the skin tone darker#I might do that depending on how tired I feel after doomscrolling#also if it matters even though I have read the book over at least 8 times now not once have I touched either of the movies.#and it will STAY THAT WAY. until I completely log my notes for the book#then I can move on to the movies 🥰#but I will admit 2018 did sort of lead me to having a change of heart w my design. just a little. just a teensy bit. kinda. sort of?#actually not really now that I think about it#I have my own reasons.#TOO MANY WHITE PEOPLE MY EYES THEY BURN AAAYHHHHH MY EYES OW OW OW OWIEEEE#my Beatty design was so white that my eyes developed stage 4 cataracts#I needed a palate cleanser that WASNT Millie… oh god my Millie design…#she was white there too. terrible#it’s okay… 💔 I’ve since learned and moved on#ARGH GUYS I DONT HATE WHITE PEOPLE I JUST THINK THAT MORE SKIN COLOR VARIATIONS WOULD E NICE
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midnights-dragon · 1 year
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The way that the TOH fandom on Twitter is ripping the show’s writing/character design to shreds right now is really sad. Like... you couldn’t have even waited a month to start whipping out everything you hate about it? Every time I open the damn bird app there’s new TOH hate on my TL. Can we just have a silly whimsical show about gay people and magic 
Why were there 60 grimwalker masks when that would have been impossible? Where’s Lilith’s palisman? There were a couple of animation flaws with some of the characters? WHO CARES it was cute and gay 
The character designs are “cringe” and the colors are “clashing”? Have you never seen the way a gay teenager dresses mhm thank you
Basically: STOP COMPLAINING the team did the best they could and people complaining this soon after the end about “how much they hate xyz about the owl house” sucks. I literally saw this one meme that was like “TELL ME WHAT YOU HATE ABOUT TOH!!” with a bunch of replies and qrts and it made me so sad //:
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jayisabluebird · 9 months
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sdr2 really outright said "junko manipulated each person in class 77 one by one by using their grudges, fears, and more into becoming ultimate despairs"
and then the dr3 anime said "naaaah fuck that actually"
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xiaoluclair · 8 months
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soldier--poet--queen · 9 months
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what came first, the body dysphoria flare up or the internet deciding now was a fantastsic time to show me transmasc content
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strawberry-pretzels · 2 months
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can't even trust anyone bro
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clumsycapitolunicorn · 4 months
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lunar-lair · 1 year
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and they woke up.
(OK, ONE MORE CELESTIAL AU FIC! @ashwii i swear your au is consuming me. two fics in one day. four fics total. girl . if i go REALLY feral you might get that casey jr idea ive been brewing soon, but for now, its just origin story electric boogaloo, more godly and less rebirth-y.)
Raphael woke up. 
It was sudden, and he almost jerked when he did. All of a sudden, here he was. 
He didn’t know why that was his name. Or why he was here.
He only knew his name was Raphael, and that he was the sun, and that he was to stay here and provide heat and light and warmth for this universe.
Ok, he said back. I can do that. 
It was home, anyways. He was born here, right? 
He could already stand and walk. He was already the size of a child.
But he didn’t know that that mattered at all, yet. 
He waited, a little while. It was quiet and, besides his light, a little dark. 
He wondered if he would be alone here, for however long he would live. (Forever, some mysteriously already-knowledgeable part of his brain whispered-a gift from the god himself, perhaps, Donnie would muse later on-and he thought, ok, then, forever.)
Something caught his eye, though. 
Little lights. Small little things, lighting up the sky, winking in one by one, in clusters. 
He felt a tug, like he was part of this, like he was this light alongside them, like he was part of something, someone else now. 
Leonardo woke up. 
It was slow, and soft, like a star building itself out of helium and hydrogen, like the sun rising and falling on the horizon, like the stars showing themselves on a clear night. 
He didn’t know much. Why he was here, why his name was his name. 
He woke up surrounded by light, surrounded by stars, his stars, surrounded by family and love, and all he could feel was warmth. 
They gathered around him, following him as he found himself drifting towards a tethered spot in the center of this great big void lit up only by his stars, himself, and seemingly, whatever it was (as stars gave off only so much light on their own). They called him caretaker, and father, names he didn’t question at all. It didn’t matter how young he was, that he was just born. He already knew what they were to him, what he was to them. They were part of him. They loved him and he loved them back, all of their chattering and his bright laughter back, and their nicknames for him, starshot and Leo and blue. 
He liked that name. He already knew he wanted to be called Leo. 
He finally found it, the bright light at the center of this all. He was fiery, red cloth over his face. It fit perfectly. He grinned and waved, but the bigger guy beat him to it. 
His eyebrow was raised, grin light as he asked, “Are you what’s up with the light all of a sudden?”
He gestured to him. “I should ask you the same question! And they’re not lights, they’re called stars.”
Raphael pointed to himself, grinning. “Well, my name’s Raphael. I’m the sun. I’m supposed to keep this galaxy warm.”
Leo gestured to himself in return. “Well, I’M Leonardo, and I’m the stars. They keep things tidy and light up the sky a little more! Plus, they’re all my kids and we share a very special connection.” 
Raphael huffed, crossing his arms. Ok, yeah, being all of that light in the sky is pretty cool. Plus, he’s everywhere, Raph’s just stuck here. Leo was just staring at him, though, eyebrows furrowed. “...somethin’ wrong?”
“...you’re a star, I’m sure of it,” Leo said, voice quieter all of a sudden. In some ways, it felt wrong. Everything was quiet before him, and he was so bright, so bombastic. And yet, the light he held, all over his body and all around him, was so soft, cooler than the kind Raphael let off. Like he was always meant to be bright and bold, yet mellow. 
Raphael frowned. “I don’t really feel like your kid, though.”
Leo shook his head back, tilting it and squinting like he could analyze him. “...yeah. Maybe…” He thought, and thought. He looked back up at Raphael, straight on. “It’s definitely…like, you’re one of them. You’re mine, you’re part of my family.”
Raphael nodded. “It feels like we’re sharing hearts.”
Leo laughed, soft. “Maybe my stars got their light from you.”
There was a moment of silence, a fond thing, broken by Leo snapping. 
“Brothers! That’s it.”
Raphael nodded, slow. “Yeah, that…makes sense.”
“What does?” A new voice asked, and they both jumped five feet in the air. 
Donatello woke up. 
It wasn’t jarring, but it was sudden. He adjusted to it quickly, being alive. He was here now, though he’d have to look into how he got here, and how he knew his name.
He quickly deduced what he was: a new planet’s moon. Earth, his brain supplied, and he thought, ah, I must know that because my purpose is part of being in its orbit.
He was a little ahead the other three in figuring things out, just like always. 
There were already little lights in the sky, and he knew innately he was made to reflect something’s light, so he followed the focal point and the muted sound of talking. 
Eventually, he found two other people like him. Same three fingers, same clear representation of some celestial body. He didn’t expect them to jump so high when he asked them a simple question, though. 
The one in blue held a hand to his chest, eyes wide. “Gods, you scared the stars outta me! Who are you?”
Donatello held his chin up in the air and said, very simply, “My name is Donatello, thank you very much. I’m Earth’s moon.”
The one in red tilted his head. “Earth?”
He nodded back. “Yes, that’s the name of the blue and green planet we’re all near right now. I believe I knew its name at birth due to my responsibilities including living in its orbit.”
The one in red stared blankly back at him, but the one in blue squinted for a moment before nodding and grinning, holding out a hand. “Well, I’m Leonardo! Leo for short. I’m the stars!”
Donatello nodded, and shook the offered hand. “And you can call me Donnie.” Might as well figure out nicknames now. They’re more efficient, anyways. 
The one in red held his hand out, too, once Leo had let go. He grinned, bright and wide. “I’m Raphael. Uh, Raph for short, I guess? I’m the sun!” Donnie shook hands, stuttering for a moment at the sheer warmth the boy’s hand gave off. Not to mention the completeness he felt being so near him. Maybe this is what he reflects. His grin widened, enough for his eyes to close. “Leo ‘n me have already declared each other brothers, so if you wanted to join, we’d be happy to have you!” 
Donnie turned to Leo, and he nodded along, grin bright. 
So he turned back to him and smiled, a little soft, holding Raph’s hand more properly. “Alright. I’d love to.”
It was just the three of them, for a while. Raph had mentioned before that he was alone before the other two showed up, though, so it wasn’t too much of a surprise when a fourth showed up.
They were talking, one night, Leo rolling stardust formed into a nonsentient star over his knuckles when he suddenly dropped it right onto Donnie’s head. Ignoring the offended ‘ow!’ his brother gave, he pointed, grin wide, and turned to him and Raph. “Guys, look!”
Off in the distance, there were little lights, trails of rocks falling into Earth’s atmosphere.
They followed it, this time, all three eager to meet someone new. 
Michelangelo woke up.
It was something bursting and bright, awake suddenly and yet full of energy the moment he did. Comets fell around him, like a signal flare. He wanted to meet people, he could tell there were people, there was light in the sky. 
He grinned as three forms approached, waving with both of his arms to get their attention. As soon as they were close enough for them to hear, he shouted, “Hey! My name’s Michelangelo, I’m the comets! It’s nice to meet you!!!”
The biggest of the three, fiery and red, laughed, hearty and full and set his hands on his hips once he was next to him. “Well, aren’t you a bright little guy!” He settled, grin still wide but hands by his side. “My names Raphael, Raph for short. I’m the sun at the center of this galaxy.”
Donnie held out a hand for him, the way Raph and Leo had introduced themselves when he first awoke. “Hello. I’m Donatello, Donnie for short. I’m this planet, Earth’s, moon.”
Michelangelo shook his hand vigorously, and him and the blue one only laughed when Donnie scowled and took his hand away. There was something about these three that already felt familiar, like they’d already adopted him in. 
The blue one gave a little wave, stardust falling from his fingertips. “Hey, I’m Leonardo, Leo for short. I’m the stars! Nice to meet you, too!”
Man, they all had shorter nicknames. That’s so smart. 
He should do that.
He puffed out his chest, and said, “Well, you all can call me Mikey!”
Raph laughed, and set a hand on his shoulder. “Alright, Mike.” Ooo, he liked that one. Good nickname nickname. 
Leo waved a hand, grin lackadaisical, yet somehow warm and welcoming. Artificially bright yet warm and soft, just like his stars. “We all consider ourselves brothers. Us three have been around for a while.”
Raph nodded, grinning down at him. “You’re welcome to join the family if you’d like.”
Mikey grinned wide, beaming and bright, and jumped up high enough to reach past Raph’s head. “I’d love to!!!”
They all laughed, the other three finding, suddenly, that they’d do anything to protect that.
They lived that way, for a while. The four of them, living and loving and learning about themselves and about each other.
When they were finally a little older, Life and Knowledge came to visit.
They knew, an innate thing, all of them sitting in a little row. 
Life spoke first, telling them they were doing so well keeping this galaxy bright, warm, and safe, keeping earth’s tides in check, keeping the galaxy’s gasses in check and making sure the stars were alright, keeping the comets falling so the rocks wouldn’t collect and so they could fall the way they should. 
What a beautiful family, they laughed, warm the way Life always seemed to be. You’ve crafted such an amazing home for yourselves.
Home, they thought, and locked it away.
Home. This was home.
Knowledge filled them in further. How they knew what they did, how they got there, and where they got their names.
There are multiple universes, galaxies just like theirs. And there are always these turtles-ah, turtles, that’s it-that keep things in check. That keep the world safe.
And, well, to base their sun, moon, stars, and comets off of those world saviors, how could it hurt?
There’s also an excellent joke about world turtles Knowledge tells them, but it kind of flies right over their heads.
They are only given one real task:
Stay here. Keep this galaxy safe. Keep Earth safe, as that is the epicenter of intelligent life. Do your jobs, live your lives.
And most of all, Life told them, grin soft, live. Love, and care. Feel. Be your own people, independent and dependent of your purposes. You may be the stars and moon and sun and comets, embodiments of these beings, but they and you are so much more. You are my creations. Live, if not for you, but for me. 
And so, they did.
They lived, they aged until they got to the point they’d be for forever, they cared, they loved.
They woke up.
They would not be falling asleep for a long, long time.
And, well, why not make the most of it?
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granhairdo · 4 months
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it’s that time of year where people give me gifts and im super excited but on the outside i just kind of blankly stare at them i swear i like your present im just mentally ill and traumatized and barely have the ability to show much emotion anymore
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AGGIE FANART FOR "ALIKE, ALONE" BY FRUITCASTKET ON AO3. THIS SCENE AND THIS FIC MAKES ME MENTALLY ILL.
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haha
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piplupod · 5 months
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#i think it is because i am so desperate and miserable probably#but i just really wish i knew why i am not likeable fjfkdl#i feel like there is something so obvious that im oblivious to somehow. and everyone else sees it and hates it#and i just. cant figure it out#i feel like im one of those hateful bigots who cry abt how nobody likes them and its so obvious why nobody likes them#i hope I'm not that. but maybe i am idk. i cannot figure it out and im just really tired of trying and failing w ppl#fumbling every attempt to make friends#theres ppl being v nice to me on a sideblog where I've been sharing art and stuff and I'm just constantly waiting for me to fuck it up#and then they will realize whatever it is about me that puts everyone off. and i will lose the chances of friendship.#im so scared and tired. i just want to understand what im doing wrong so i can fix it and be better and be likeable#idk i think there is just smth inherently wrong within me. im off putting somehow. there is smth festering at my core maybe#and everyone else can just /sense/ it. and i am trying so hard to be good at socializing and friendships but i somehow fumble it always#i just wish i knew what it was that im doing wrong#or like... if its smth inherent within me I'd also like to know so i can just accept it finally and move on#argh idk this is so pathetic probably but i am just so frustrated w myself tonight#im just constantly waiting for me to somehow mess things up w the nice ppl in my life rn and be left without that again#and im not doing anything to self sabotage even!! im just treading very carefully!! and trying my best to be good!!#but it seems to always go wrong somehow like ppl just... pull away#idk. i feel so terrified that it's so obvious whats wrong w me and im just not seeing it#i keep trying to look but i cannot see what it is so idk !! i keep looking!! i dont understand !!
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yuiyuuji · 6 months
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still can't beat the fucking swamp monster. This stupid second phase... But holy fuck i still love this game.
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irritablepoe · 6 months
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one thing about me is that i'll freeze to death when angry. like i'm shaking and not from anger, it's just that i get so cold
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