#as a bi person ngl its pissing me off

[journalsouppe]

UNWOUND FUTURE RAAHHHHHHHH!!! What an AMAZING trilogy conclusion with such a perfect setup for future sequels. I cannot recommend playing Professor Layton enough.

All of the Professor Layton stickers are from @jordydrawsmerch which can be found here and here. Every other sticker is from Daiso!

All the writing is typed below!

Rating: 9.3 Played: Fa 2023 Port: HD mobile (iPad) Favorite? Y Replayable? Y Recommend? Y

Comments:

the way the PM walked T^T

LMFAO STACHENSCARFEN

Layton’s about to be beat up bc of his top hat (skull emoji)

Getting major DGS 2-3 vibes

FAMILY GOON

An arc arcade? You’re speaking my language

I LOVE THE BLOCK HAT PUZZLE PIECES SPELLING LAYTON IN JAPANESE!!!

FLORA STICKER

BABY LAYTON BLUSHING IM SCREAMING

I really love the picture book and its music

THE DEVIL IN THE TOP HAT NOO

Luke always takes the opportunity to roast the Laytonmobile (skull emoji)

THEYRE JUST SHOOTING AT EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING

THE ORIGINS OF LAYTONS HAT IM GONNA CRY T^T

I love that bi Luke has his own puzzle solving sequence

Where the fuck did you take us future Luke

The battle of wits was so fun omg

I cant get over evil Layton

BIG LUKE AND LITTLE LUKE

Omg Hershel in the background

Based p. Layton newspaper conversation

LMFAO Hershel trespassing and Luke stressed

The bee???? T^T

FLORA PUZZLE SOLVED SEQUENCE T^T!!!!

GO OFF FLORA!!!!

Ooo pretty Chinese arc

Hershel i swear

Hmmm young sir… who is big Luke?

NOT AVOGADRO

Did all the scientists piss their pants?

I have a lot of questions

Love the design and music of the pagoda

Where tf did Hershel go (skull emoji)

Omg Luke’s a Sherlock fan

I feel like Layton was replaced with evil Layton

I swear Dimitri had a mustache??

THE BARS

WHERE IS FLORA

DON PAOLO LMAO

THE LUKE MOBING SCENE MAKES ME WANT TO CRY

How many secret hideouts are there T_T

NOOO FLORA

The barkeep is v sketch

Chad laytonmobile

I can see how this game inspired dgs

THE KAZUMA AND CLIVE PARALLELS ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY

BEASLY AND PUZZLETTE HOLY SHIT

“That’s funny” :[

Ive been side eyeing some of these designs the past 2 games but yeah bostro’s design is def racist

DON PAOLO TURNIGN EVIL BC OF CLAIRE LOVING HERSHEL LMAO T-T and the running into the river omfg

Working with don paolo has been fun

I DIDNT THINK LAYTON WOULD ACTUALLY CUT THE ROPE

Where did Layton learn all this about Clive??

Summary:

WHAT A PHENOMENAL GAME!!! Truly what a great “conclusion” to the main trilogy. You learn so much about Layton, Luke, flora, and many other characters like don paolo. The ending reveal of Clive was CRAZY. It really reminded me of movies like howls moving castle/the iron giant. I also just love how complex Clive is. He was driven to violence because of how the government treated him and his family, but he never truly wanted to hurt people. He was without any hope and thought mass destruction would finally bring some change to the government, but he also made sure to include Layton in his plans because he so desperately wanted someone to stop him. It’s tragic and terrorism definitely wasn’t the way to go but at least this is a fictional story and that death machine looked kinda sick Ngl. The story of Layton and Claire was also so tragic yet so healing. Layton could finally take off his hat without feeling grief, you never would’ve known he was hurting that much. I loved Claire, she seemed like such an amazing person and I’m glad Layton wasn’t swayed to try to bring her back, although he did falter when he had to say goodbye again. Although I highly enjoyed the game, I am slightly disappointed there was no actual evil Layton. How fun would a game with evil Layton be omg. The whole game constantly caught me by surprise, even by small scenes like Beasly and PUZZLETTE. I’m still a littel confused about the lab experiments with Gumbo and subject 3, I’m not quire sure why they added that plot (and have no resolution) but I liked Gumbo fine. My favorite coin animal will always be hot dog though. I cannot recommend this series enough, I am having the time of my life. I can also see how DGS was heavily inspired by these games and im so glad about it bc dgs was game changing. I can’t believe there was a 26 year wait in between UF and NWOS but im glad to be a Layton fan :’) so fucking glad!!!!

#journalsouppe #bullet journal #journal #video game journal #professor layton #unwound future #professor layton and the unwound future #unwound future spoilers #professor layton spoilers

[chilewithcarnage]

The definitions I’ve seen are: 1. bi/pan ppl who are “reclaiming” the older definition of lesbian as a catchall term, generally in the same way we use wlw or sapphic today

2. bi/pan ppl that have a preference for women

3. a person attracted to women and nonbinary ppl <- definition that pisses me off the most as a nonbinary lesbian

like how did we go from “nonbinary people can be any sexuality and people of any sexuality could be potentially attracted to them” to “I call myself a bi lesbian because I see nonbinary people as a third gender/separate category of attraction”

yeah I feel like gay/lesbian are rigid (not using this in a negative way!) in that regardless of how you want to classify the genders of 'man' and 'woman' and what they look like, gays are unequivocally not attracted to women and lesbians are unequivocally not attracted to men. I know people like to bring up that story of the gay man and butch lesbian mistaking each other for being the same thing and kissing in the club as a gotcha for the people who understandably buck back against the 'sexuality is fluid™' talking point. they also always leave out the part about how when they discovered that they weren't what they thought they were they didn't go any further than that.

And putting attraction to enbies as its own separate thing feels ridiculous I'm ngl. like literally anybody of any sexuality (including straight people!) can be attracted to nonbinary people. 'nonbinary' isn't a set third gender outside of man and woman, it can be so many things or nothing at all.

like I'm not the cops and I'm not nobody's parent so I can't tell y'all what do with yourselves but I just think on a base level the label of 'bi lesbian' is unnecessary. i think classifying oneself as that because you're attracted to 'multiple' genders but you prefer women is disrespecting lesbianism because lesbian sexuality is not a 'preference' its who they are. so either you're a lesbian that doesn't want to id as that because you feel weird about the label or you don't understand it or you're bisexual but you don't want to id as that because you feel weird about the label or you don't understand it.

#anon #tldr you can't be a lesbian if you're attracted to men *bangs gavel* court adjourned

[mulletmitsuya]

Toman groupchat

Warnings: swearing, suggestive, mentions of alcohol

a/n: i feel like these are getting repetitive and boring ngl :/, lemme know what you guys think, ly<3

Kazutora: idk man

Kazutora: how can you be bi and still have no bitches

Kazutora: you have all the options

Kazutora: and you still not getting any???

Kazutora: ion even wanna laugh at you. im just sad

Baji: dude💀

Mikey: what are you talking about

Draken: context????

Kazutora: just thinking about how Draken will die alone cause he's a fucking coward

Smiley: he still doesn't have any bitches???

Draken: why do you always have your nose in my fucking business

Baji: someone as hot as you shouldn't be single tbh

Baji: i'd suck the soul outta you bro

Baji: like a homie would do🤜🤛

Baji nvm that was a moment of weakness you're basically bald

Kazutora: you slipped up😕

Draken: 😐

Mikey: ok like i know i make fun of Ken-chin a lot, but ig if we're talking facts, he is pretty attractive

Mikey: doesn't beat me tho

Mikey: nothing beats being a cute blonde whos submissive and breedable😚

Mitsuya: ayo??

Kazutora: being a 6'2, ripped, extremely attractive man with tattoos, scars, mommy issues and can man handle you like a rotisserie chicken does beat that actually

Baji: bro??

Smiley: that was sus as hell🤨

Mikey: why the rotisserie chicken😭

Kazutora: imagery

Draken: uhm

Draken: thanks??

Draken: i think

Kazutora: you're still bitchless tho

Baji: i agree with Tora, but i think cute beats hot

Mitsuya: theyre two very different categories. its like having to choose between Hakkai and Draken

Mitsuya: Hakkai's more on the cute and handsome side while Draken is hot and sexy

Mitsuya: actually Hakkai's hot too nvm

Mitsuya: its basically impossible to choose

Mikey: AYO

Smiley: Mitsuya????

Baji: I KNEW HE'D SLIP UP ONE DAY

Draken: really?

Draken: thanks Mitsuya😁

Mitsuya: 👍

Mikey: WHY DO YOU ONLY ACCEPT COMPLIMENTS FROM MITSUYA

Draken: cause i know hes being genuine

Draken: you guys just do it to make fun of me

Kazutora: dumb, clueless, bald headed ass mf

Draken: go back to jail

Draken: i didn't mean that, dont go back to jail

Draken: i didnt mean to disregard your growth like that

Kazutora: bro chill its not that deep

Smiley: thats Drakens problem, he's a good person😕

Smiley: bet he'll die by jumping in front of gunshots to save someone or smth

Smiley: then he'd probably spend his last moments trying to comfort the person and telling them that it wasn't their fault

Smiley: shit pisses me off fr

Mitsuya: ??

Draken: ..what?

Baji: having morals restricts you from having fun

Draken: Baji stop acting like you're not a good person

Draken: aren't we your treasures

Baji: stfu i was hallucinating and on the brink of death

Draken: aren't you the one who sacrificed your life cause you didnt want Kazutora to feel responsible for your death???

Draken: and what did you do in your last moments?

Draken: you comforted Chifuyu

Baji: ...

Baji: Juana

Draken: ??

Draken: who's Juana ???

Baji: Juana put deez nuts in yo mouf 🤣⁉️

Draken: fuck you

*Draken has left the chat*

Kazutora: lmao he's mad

Mikey: ayt now that he's gone

Mikey: Mitsuya

Mitsuya: what

Baji: are you in love with 2 people

Mitsuya: omfg calm down i just think they're hot

Mitsuya: i have eyes

Baji: cap

Smiley: you're not the cowardly type so do smth about it don't be a pussy

Mikey: which one tho

Mitsuya: Draken's right you guys are so nosy for no reason

Mitsuya: dont yall have boyfriends??

Mikey: of course he'd agree with Ken-chin🙄

Mikey: but that reminds me i have to go hang with the bae 😋

*Mikey has left the chat*

Smiley: ew

Baji: im gonna go torment some kindergartners

Kazutora: you're gonna get reported by the school dumbass

Kazutora: pick me up tho

Baji: ayt

#tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers manga #tokyo revengers manga spoilers #toman groupchat #tokyo revengers texts #ryuguji ken/draken #baji keisuke #mitsuya takashi #sano manjiro/mikey #kazutora hanemiya #bajitora #doramitsu #bajifuyu #kawata nahoya/smiley #mitsukkai

[marsandsaturn]

hello, I'm sorry if I'm disturbing you. could I get a haikyuu matchup?

I'm 5'8 (I believe, if not them 5'7), Leo, bi, 2004s baby, and a goddamn runaway- peace out. My friends either call me Tea or Cherry. I have collar bone length hair which has been dyed ombre and curtain bangs. I have a 'slim thicc' body due to going to the gym and finally recovering from E.D's. the only thing I like about myself is my 🍑 tho ngl I'm sorry dkfkdkks. my eyes are a dark blueish gray??

my style is very much- platforms, bell bottom jeans/sweats, and either a crop top or XXL hoodie there is no in between. I wear a lot of rings and earings and pierce my ears often hehe. around the house I just wear panties and a men's shirt? I don't wears bras, no, even tho my 🍒 are on the bigger side now.

I love to bake, party, draw in pencil and animate 3D on YouTube, it's my paying job actually. I'm very much so a cat person - I see a cat and you know you lost me mentally. I love to read and that's all I do when I'm holiday, I love the escape, that, or I enjoy going on 2am walks with my friends or dyeing my friends hair or doing their nails. I used to be around male friends a lot but now men just shamelessly flirt with me and ✨ion like that✨. oh, I fight with my religious teacher a lot and once drew two lesbians cause she was being homophobic and was about to give her the drawing to piss her off but quarantine started... I get into fights with all my teachers really.

I think I over shared? I'm just in class and I can't think of anything so I just rambled, I'm sorry, feel free to not do this ask kdneksla

NOOO baby it’s okay the more you share the more it better to pair you with someone. Also sorry for taking so to write this request, I had like a 72 question homework for Geometry and I suck at math in General. Anyway onto the match up. I match you with... KENMA KOZUME. So what made me match you up with Kenma when you were talking about your style, it gave me “please stomp of me” vibes especially when you said platforms. And I think the Haikyuu fandom as established Kenma as a bottom but I see him as a switch. But what really made me choose kenma was the fact that you do 3D animation,,,I wanna be a director but if I ever wanna do a animated movie I am coming to you,,,annieways. Also with you just wearing panties and a men’s t-shirt around the house is Kenma’s weakness. He would sjhyly give your his shirt but as soon as he sees you in just those things this “shy baby” we all know he ain’t a shy baby,,,he’s a gremlin,,he would become a bold ass dom, teasing you until you guys are hooking up at his gaming desk. Annieways I’m getting carried away LMAO.

We all know Kenma is a gamer, a technology nerd, you could say. So whenever he is tired of doing his job or gaming, I feel like he would want to watch you bake, draw, or even animate in 3D. Also Kenma is also a cat person,,,same,,,and I just know the two of you would get a cat together. It’s name would be Shirley, like Shirley Templedjdjdlkjafkjad don't come for me. And the things you do with your friends, he’d like to do them with you. Like going on walks at 2am except if its really cold he’d rather snuggle with you but he would definitely let you dye his hair and do his nails. Because this gemlin of a man is a simp for you. Also if you too are in the same class and that teach does happen to be homophobic, he would let you start of fight with that teacher he might join in but towards the end, he has to much social anxiety to join you from the beginning.  all honestly Kenma really loves you and is willing to try things that you love to do.

#marsandsaturn©️ #kenma x y/n #kenma scenario #kenma #haikyuu fluff #haikyuu!! #haikyuu smut #haikyuu kenma #kozume kenma #kenma fluff #kenma smut #✨marsandsaturn’s masterlist

[cherriesradio]

Story I’ve had in my mind for a while that I honestly wanna make a comic with

(This is very simplified and with out any of the big events lol) tw blood mention

So there are three time travelers. None of them know they others are also time travelers, and keep running into each other without knowing it. Over time they all fall in love. Luka, Marshall, and Wilbur.

How Time Travel Works -

If you die in one time you don’t come back.

They don’t quite know how time travelers actually works. They know that they can’t find themselves, that the world spins when they travel, and the inbetween. Which is also where they first meet and find that they are all travelers. (Aka me still trying to figure out how time travel will work)

“The inbetween” is a giant White Castle/mansion. It was empty till Wilbur and Marshell started bringing in little items from their travels that their friends and family’s would feel odd about. It’s where they go after and before they travel to a place, because it gives them a second to process what they’ve done and possibly go back and fix mistakes. Which these himbos never do.

These are the only rules I’ve made about time travel, when I want to I watch movies and dives into different movies take on time travel to see what works.

Luka -

He was born in some timeline. He doenst remember which, but he has a few memories.

This is his motive of traveling. He’s trying to go back to his time, which he can’t find because he has no memory of when he was.

He first time travelled when he was five and has been trying to find his way since he was eight, after being taken care of by a forty-five year old man.

Who he often visits now.

He’s now twenty-one.

All his memories:

Playing in a flower field with who he assumes is his brother, who has the same dirty blond hair as him and freckles. He remembers his brother telling him “Dads gonna be so mad having to get all that muck out of your hair.” Most likely from rolling around in the field.

Having someone with very rough yet gentle hands running there hands through his hair as he watch’s his brother write.

A blurred figure telling him about how it’s going to be cold out that day while putting his long hair up. He somehow remembers the hair tie being black. (That has nothing to do with the plot lol)

He somehow fell on his face and he remembers his father (he assumes) telling him off while wiping off blood from his face.

He has long, dirty blond hair which he usually ties into a ponytail. (He hates when people touch his hair.) He has a small amount of freckles and brown eyes. He has a number of small scars from getting a little to into peoples business while traveling. He’s on the slim side, but has lots of lower body strength from running away from business owners after trying to steal stuff.

He likes trying the foods around different timelines; which lead him to getting food poisoning way more time than he should’ve.

He often felt bad about stealing stuff at first but after bringing a hoodie to 3,000 B.C. that he stole from a target he doesn’t feel an ounce of guilt.

He often ends up interacting with the Wilbur more than Marshall, just because Wilburs reaosn for travel makes him go to times similar to his. (Wilbur finds flowers comforting, Luka visits a lot of flower fields)

Cant take a compliment or insult.

He wears lots of different things from different times, casually wears modern clothes the most because their the most comfortable.

He simps real easy

Bi king, more into guys

Will laugh at anything

Total DND nerd and he has a little DND group in the late 2000’s that he makes sure to go to on time

Basically he’s bastard baby and we love him

“Scrawny motherfucker with a cool hairstyle”

Wilbur -

He’s from modern day 2000’s

He’s just trying to run away from his problems ngl

His family’s having so many issues, trying to keep their small diner up and running in COVID while they have to pay for his sisters funeral.

She was only eleven.

He’s a SOFTIE TO THE CORE

He’s a shy guy but if you crack his shell he RANTS SO MUCH ITS ANNOYING

He’s a big fan of mcyt and accidentally mentions it while talking to a poor bread boy in 1675 🥲✋ who turns out to be Luka-

Was the first to suspect that there were more time travelers cause he’s the only one with a brain cell

“Humble” aka hates everything about himself even though he’s the BEST

Give him praise or he will cry

Huge cry baby, might just be me projecting but like jabsnjsbshsja

Gets straight (pan) A’s in school 👌

Has curly brown hair that he dyes all the time and has to use impermanent dye so he can wash it out. He’s fillipino, he’s not really into the culture but loves the food. He’s a little overweight but still healthy.

Has the softest skin in the world like jesus

He wears lots of sweaters/hoodies/ anything bigger because he’s insecure about his weight 🥺 again projecting

This really just went straight from lore/ plot to baby didn’t it-

He plays animal crossing while chilling in the back of a horse drawn carriage in the 17’s

He’s pretty cautious about everything, not wanting to mess up history and all that.

But he’s legit created like fifthteen different time lines-

He’s like 19 the poor baby

Marshell

Marshell “Anger Issuse” Taylor

The reason he travels is because of his sister and brother. They died in 9/11 and worked making food there.

He often visits when the towers fell, thinking in his mind how he could save them. But he won’t risk it.

I’ve worked the least on him

People at his school used to always call him Marshmellow and when I tell you it pissed him the fuck off I MEAN IT

he’s muscular can and will beat you up

Fully capable of murder

Besides being a walking time bomb he’s pretty nice.

Sarcastic comments are his thing

Luka thought his DND alignment would be “lawful evil” at first but legit broke when Marshell told him he though he was a good person in the sweetest tone-

He DEFINITELY fell for the others first

He notices little things, and he has a whole list in his head of little things that Luka and Wilbur do that he loves

He likes the inbetween.

Was held back in fourth grade and called stupid for it.

20

When they all get together romantically the ages are - Luka: 23 Wilbur: 21 Marshell: 22

#tw blood #oc #ocs #time travel

[butch-bakugo]

Ngl

Like i really REALLY fucking hate gender identities and orientations that are passive aggressive to like... Everyone else.

Like identities that purely exist to make you sound like your so cool and different and new and everyone else is just mindless zombies following the norm. Like you are the one who sees past gender and looks into their very SOUL to love them or your gender IS fucking GOD.

Like demisexual pisses me off. Your not ace for having lag on your sexual attraction. I litterally can not name a SINGLE person who dose not experience attraction that way. It came about in aven forms in 2006. Its 12 years old and gets more and more pretentious every year i hear it. The people who use it are just so genuinely disconnected from their fellow humans and human nature that they think their special cause they dont want to bang on sight. Your label exists to shame hook up culture and sexual attraction in women! Legit only seen like 3 dudes and 8 enbys use it and the rest are bi girls! Its ok if your attraction takes abit longer! But its not special!

It legit feels like the " im not like the other girls" meme wrapped up into an orientation. What do i, an asexual person, have in common with them? Nothing! You still bang! You still experience sexual attraction on the regular the same amount as any other allosexual! Bloody hell!

Like is that how you see your fellow humans? As being fuck on site kinda people?is that how you see non-ace/aro gay people?how about trans people? This label exists to shame others and make them seem as though your better cause you take a second and ask their name before you fuck them. Unlike them you you think dont do it and just fuck in the streets? Gimme a break. Sorry you dont like being a " filthy sex addicted allo" but your allo baby!

Also the first demi-sexual aka normal-sexual to whine in my notes or call a litteral ace person aphobic? Get off tumblr and get a life.

#anti demisexual #fucking hell im pissed off #demisexuell #demisexual #aspec problems #acespec #vent #tw vent #levi speaks

[stillwooozy]

well my mom is having heart surgery, or idk a stent put in her heart - isnt that heart survery? Anyways shes getting better so thats good.

Ive been playing chess w/ my dad but my 10 yr old brother can beat us both so my dad isnt pissed at me anymore. He lost to my brother so he yelled at HIM for “having an attitude” and i felt bad. sore loser much? I’m competitive as hell, but only for things i know im objectively good at. He admits he isnt good at chess. I’m kinda surprised cuz ngl my dad is smart and my 10 yr old brother is..... 10. But i guess my dads intellect manifests as writing ability and my brother is advanced in math sooo... maybe chess = math? Idk. They are still forced to quaratine cuz they have covid, i doubt i’ll get it but i’ll get tested when they do again. My dogs are going crazy cuz i cant take them to the park.

My mom will come home in a few days. I’m actually excited/relieved. Usually i dread seeing her cuz she always finds something to critize me about but now im just happy she isnt dead. Haha hashtag-compassion. Shes on a bunch of drugs but shes off a venilator and sounds okay. she tested negative for covid so shes done with that im pretty sure. Shes getting a stent put in. I tried to talk to a doctor cuz she was being vague but he wouldnt tell me anything and im like :/ i get it but... i wish they would make my life easier, im the last person who should act as a husband/parent figure but here i am. My dad is pissing me off - if he cant control a situation he gets angry & ignores it. Straight up. I WISH i could do that but i have a guilty complex instilled by my very own mother.

One of my brothers i watching attack on titan so thats pretty interesting. he’s 12 and i was like... um isnt that too young? But i was 13 when i watched it so i guess not

My mom told me if i picked up her meds after i pick her up from the hospital she’ll give me half her painkillers and was like “but dont OD”. I mean im not going to turn them down. Me - turning down tramadol? What reality would that be. she’s a weird woman. I feel bad for her, she blames everyone else for her problems including me but ik she loves me. even if she hates part of me at the same time. A part of me is convinced that ill die by drugs if i never manage to kick the habit but i’d also feel really bad knowing she’d blame herself. I mean its almost comedic how dysfunctional my family is. She goes full Karen begging for opioids, then gives her mentally ill son half the pills as a reward. hey - positive reinforcement i guess? Good for her. Dont hit ur kids - just give them drugs when they are being a good little boy.

I think i’ll watch AoT w/ my brother. Hes the sibling i probably ignore most. him and my 10 yr old brother. I like my 6 yr old brother and my 19 yr old sister. I mean i love all my siblings but come on..... 9-15 yr old boys are batshit. i say this from personal experience.

I asked him if he liked Eren x Mikasa cuz idk. Isnt that what most basic shonen preteen boys are into? I forced myself to read eremika hentai when i was about his age. He’s a nice jewish boy too, so 50/50 chance he has an east asian fetish. You want to know his reply??? “No I don’t see anyone as a couple they all seem gay to me - no offense”. None taken brother ... i have to agree

i was flirting w/ 2 girls on tinder - no worries im not going to spread covid i promise - and i’ve come to the realization that....... why do most “alt” girls SAY they want a bi boy to “peg” but...... get uncomfortable when that bi twink actually gets fucked by men. like what??????? they just want a boy who wears flowery blouses and eyeshadow. sorry hun i’m not that person. I look like mac demarco if he was a twink in the worst way possible. I hate this trend cuz its insincere or maybe im just self concious cuz im gross. its just....... u cant ask for a bi bf...... but not really want them to ever have fucked a man????????? Grindr is disgusting but damn tinder girls are judgemental. I look like david dobrick if he was gay & mentally ill - what do u expect of me? I just miss my ex. She was unusal and im just fully appreciating that. She was the only person (beside my ex who pulled a lil peep before it was cool) who matched my type of crazy. Unfortunately 2 crazy ppl can’t last long.

To clarify i dont tell ppl, i never will, that she was “my crazy gf” or “crazy ex”. I dont mean it as a fully bad thing - i mean im the one on antipsychs (she was on lithium.. what a romance amiright). I miss her so badly. I think about texting or calling her everyday. Honestly idk if she would answer. Maybe she has moved on. We both have a minimal (public) social media presence so i cant stalk her online. she just posts memes & social justice stuff on her sc. she didnt block me from any platform. I pretend she found this blog and can stalk me & i hope she feels bad for me - pathetic right? It wasnt even a bad breakup. We were never on the “same page”, not that type of couple or chemistry, but we enjoyed being together and i miss that cuz atm i have no one but my mentally ill family. jk my siblings are surprisingly sane. I mean the younger ones have time.

[thawedpatriot]

okay, my e.ndgame thoughts are below the cut. beware, they’re somewhat incoherent at times mainly just because my brain is still trying to wrap my head around some stuff. also it’s really really long. like 3k words long. major spoilers ahead!

-okay so the whole beginning felt. really rushed, if that makes sense? like, i’m glad that tony got back to earth fairly early on but that was very sudden, having carol show up and carry the ship to the compound. however, i can’t complain too much because watching steve book it to tony’s side as he was coming off the ship gave me life. the fact that he just hovered the whole time and was there to support him and show he cares just. pleased me.

- tony had every right to blow up at steve. i mean, god, the man’s been through so much. he’s lost so much and is still recovering from everything that happened. he’s frustrated and angry and hurting and steve pressed for information too callously too soon, and it set an exhausted tony off. totally valid. and tony was right, he saw all this coming and no one listened to him, even though half of that was just bc aou was a fucking mess writing wise. but steve told him ‘together’ and because they weren’t together when shit went down, they all lost. would it have killed either of them to call during the two years they had to do so? no, probably not. that probably would’ve been a step towards working back to that ‘together’ thing. because there’s years of unresolved tension and conflict between them at this point, none of it ever got resolved between them, so it’s finally coming to a head now that they’re properly in the same room again.

- that said, the ‘you weren’t there when i needed you’ bit rubbed me the wrong way. because it was bruce who ended up calling. tony never made a call, never asked for steve’s help. never let him know he needed him, even though he had that ability to. so yes, steve is at fault here too, but it’s not 100% on him that things went down the way they did, if that makes sense.

- tony shoving the arc reactor into steve’s hand???? killed me on the spot, thanks.

- the devastation steve must be feeling when they figure out the stones are gone??? gutting. he was so sure they would be able to bring everyone back wit the stones once they’d taken care of thanos. he was so ready for a fight, so ready to get his revenge and make things right, and there just. was no fight, no way to bring his friends back. he’d lost bucky all over again, and now he’s lost sam, too. sam, who he dragged into all this. that kind of guilt festers in him for those five years, no doubt.

- i wanna know what steve did for those five years. because, yes, we see him talking in that small therapy group, but not only is he giving advice he’s not taking himself, but he’s just not shown doing much of anything else. he’s holding on to all his trauma and grief and not dealing with it, just like he’s been doing since he left the ice. so what is he doing all that time??? but also seeing him in a therapy group setting made my heart swell a little bit because you know he did that for sam. he misses his friend and is doing that for him, i will not believe anything otherwise. sam was and is so important to him.

- this is unrelated to steve but is important to me as a bi: carol’s hair looked so good i made a noise when i saw it and my friend hit me in the arm 

- god i wish we saw more of steve and nat interact. because clearly they’ve been in contact with one another for the past 5 years and that’s probably the longest running friendship he’s had going besides bucky so. it’s nice to know he didn’t lose everyone in one way or another for those 5 years. they just know each other so well and recognize the similarities between one another and i’m just really glad he wasn’t all alone all that time.

- steve is so done with everyone throughout this movie, including himself. it’s beautiful.

- sidenote, i could not take bruce seriously as a character the way he was and i don’t know why. also they did thor dirty. they did thor so dirty. he was a joke until they needed him to fight. the level of guilt and trauma thor is dealing with is immeasurable and they turned it into comic relief by leaning into fat-shaming and joking about alcoholism???? nah man, that’s not okay. not at all. address that he’s dealing with ptsd, show that he’s using unhealthy coping mechanisms, and help him. don’t make fun of him, don’t just let him keep doing that to himself, help him. the only scene in the whole movie i genuinely liked with him in it was his scene with frigga. because she took him seriously, she was willing to listen and offer advice and tell him what he needed to hear. that scene was so important.

- another sidenote, as much as i disliked p.epperony in the past, this movie made me appreciate them more. because i’ve always loved them both as individual characters, pepper potts owns my whole soul, but as a couple they were just written in a way that made me not love it as the movies went on. however, this movie really showed growth in their development as a couple, in pepper accepting tony for who he is and the needs he has to do good. also tony is an amazing father and it’s just so validating to see a character who grew up with an abusive parent break the cycle and become soft and kind in any interactions he has with his daughter. you can tell how much he loves his family, and it’s what he deserved.

- okay so i hope we can all agree the time travel science in this movie was fucked and they did a really bad job at explaining how it works. it was not clear, did not make sense, and following standard time travel laws there were a million paradoxes happening and it makes me angry. nebula killing her past self? bullshit bc she should not exist after that. steve’s whole ending??? also bullshit but i’ll get to that later because that’s an essay in itself.

- tony giving steve the shield back was such a big deal okay. the fact that tony has acknowledged that holding onto the resentment was detrimental to his own health and being was so important. we got a handshake and i really thought they were gonna go for a hug but noooo that’d be too much to ask for i guess. but steve hasn’t seen or held that thing in like 7 years it has to be nice to have it in his hands again, seeing as he always refers to it as an extension of his arm and all. and to be getting it back, nice and polished, from tony probably means a great deal to him as well.

- okay now let’s get to the actual time travel bit. steve and tony being the ones to zap back to 2012???? my god its like everything i ever wanted was handed to me on a platter. that movie was what got me on this marvel train and as even with its issues, it holds such a dear place in my heart. so you know the second that ‘2012′ popped onto the screen i was ready to combust. and then it just got better because it felt like an extension of the movie, like we were seeing deleted scenes, which was just. really nice?? 

- god okay “america’s ass” gave me so much life as dumb as the whole joke was. because tony blatantly checking out steve’s ass?? my dude thats the gayest thing i’ve ever seen with my own two eyes. but then tony commenting on how his ass looks in the suit???? i was living, okay. living. and the fact that he checked out his past self’s ass and was like ‘yeah, damn straight’ amused me greatly.

- ngl the ‘hail hydra’ bit made me uncomfy initially, but honestly i’m just gonna appreciate how clever my boy is and how stupid hydra is. his ‘i’m clever and i know it and i just outsmarted piece of shit nazis’ smile as he walked away from the elevator with the case???? priceless. i was half expecting another elevator fight but i guess that wouldn’t really make sense sfdghj

- steve fighting himself? past steve reacting to the compass appearing and getting super fucking pissed over the concept that someone might’ve taken it or something??? the fact that it was ‘bucky is alive’ that had him going full stop???? oof. also, the ‘i can do this all day’ and ‘yeah, i know’ was funny initially but oh my god is my boy exhausted. he’s so tired. he’s been fighting for decades. someone let him rest. please. 

- also unrelated, i wanna know where the fuck loki fucked off to when he grabbed the tessaract. like is this where the concept for his spinoff show comes from???? what did he do????

- steve and tony being on the same wavelength and trusting each other??? steve trusting tony wholeheartedly even if he didn’t fully know what it was tony was planning?? important. so, so important.

- steve in camp lehigh. oh my god. why did no one recognize captain america???? it’s been twenty years, sure, but y’all slapped ‘birthplace of captain america’ on your sign and there’s probably pictures of his face around in more places than peggy’s desk. you’re telling me no one would recognize him standing in the middle of the military camp??? nah, i don’t buy it. y’all had poor disguises and didn’t even get him sunglasses or anything. c’mon guys, you’re better than this.

- okay look this isn’t a tony blog but what the fuck was that scene with howard,, i understand it in terms of why they included it when looking at the narrative. because of tony’s whole ‘resentment is corrosive, didn’t like it’ thing and the need for closure on that front before his story ends, but he didn’t owe howard jack shit, let alone a ‘thank you’. that man, even if he had the best intentions and wanted tony to succeed in the future because he knew he had potential, was neglectful and abusive. he was not affectionate, he did not make tony feel as though he were loved, and it deeply affected tony as a person. the fact that he doesn’t know how far along his own wife is with their firstborn child??? big red flag right there, friends. sure, it’s good to show kids with bad relationships with their parents that its possible to work through negative emotions and resentment and move on with their lives but this was not the example to give. tony did not owe his father anything at that point. he’d moved on, made himself better, became a better father than howard was to him. i’m just. so angry about it okay.

- steve looking through the glass of peggy’s office at her, believing this was the last time he was going to see her again??? broke my heart but i called it as soon as i knew time travel was involved in this movie. i knew they’d throw a ‘steve sees her while traveling and is really sad about it’ bit in there somewhere. and i would have been content if that was it, if that was all he got. if that was the closure he got, one last glimpse of her. the fact that twenty years later she still has the picture of him, before he was captain america, on her desk??? erases any of the development and growth we know she went through in her series and whatnot, but it’s a good reminder that peggy carter was one of the few people that saw steve for who he was. she saw the skinny kid from brooklyn and knew he had what it took to be a hero, she saw him for the good man he was. she loved him for who he was. that means a great deal to steve, who no doubt struggles with the line between steve and cap a lot. but by this point, peggy would have moved on. in the series, she had moved on. erasing all of that development is detrimental to her character and i refuse it.

- seeing jarvis again was a treat. i squeaked.

- what the fuck was that with natasha??? what kind of man-pain fuel was that??? and why didn’t she get the proper funeral/mourning she deserved??? she’s been around since im2, she was the one who united the avengers, she was the first female avenger (bc they swept janet van dyne under the rug but thats a whole other rant), and that’s the end of her arc??? as soon as i saw where her and hawkeye were headed i just knew. i knew what was gonna happen and i was hissing internally. because i knew there was no way she’d be like ‘yeah you’re my best friend, you have a family, you go ahead and jump’ and on behalf of all the mcu writers i wanna apologize to all c.lint.asha shippers for the mess the mcu gave y’all. i’m so sorry j*ss fucked it up for y’all bc he wanted something for two characters no one else wanted. she deserved to be mourned. she didn’t deserve to be forgotten for like the rest of the film after that initial ‘she’s gone’. she deserved a funeral, too. steve just lost one of his closest friends???? on top of everything else he’s lost, let him express that. please.

- so back on my s.tony shit, the ‘that’s my man’ when tony nudged steve awake to hand him back his shield after the compound blew up??? not heterosexual at all. y’all aren’t even trying to hide it anymore u bastards

- STEVE ROGERS USING THE HAMMER. Y’ALL. Y’ALL. MY BOY IS WORTHY AND I KNEW IT AND THIS MEANS HE SPARED THOR IN AOU BC HE’S A COMPASSIONATE LOSER WHO DIDN’T WANT TO HURT HIS FRIEND’S PRIDE AND FEELINGS. BUT GOD THAT WAS THE COOLEST GODDAMN THING I’VE SEEN ON SCREEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. HIM USING BOTH HIS SHIELD AND THE HAMMER AT THE SAME TIME, MAKING COMBO STRIKE OUT OF IT??? USING THE LIGHTING???? MAN I CAN TELL YOU WITHOUT A DOUBT THAT I HAVE NOT SCREAMED SO LOUD IN A MOVIE THEATER IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. GOD I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

- all the ladies fighting together?? shielding peter???? kicking ass together??? gave me life. that was the most beautiful scene in the entire mcu,,, it made my bi heart burst,, all it was missing was nat, but it was a nice way to be like ‘this is what she started’. and seeing pepper out there as rescue was just the cherry on top okay i love her sm she’s so cool and finally fighting out there alongside tony and rhodey. my wife carol danvers is also the coolest??? not even flinching when thanos does whatever head-butt thing he was going for??? god i love my wives.

- ‘on your left’ god damn yes let sam wilson be the one to announce that they’re all back my boy deserves it. i wanted a proper reunion between steve and sam and/or bucky. we didn’t get that. we didn’t get that!!!!!! we didn’t get anything like that!!!!! steve was primarily on his own for 5 years because he lost his two best friends and we don’t get a reunion scene??? i call bullshit, marvel

- also rocket trying to shield groot with his own little body during the aerial attack??? broke my little heart??? like he just got him back and is terrified that he’ll lose him again,,,

- no one talk to me about tony stark i can’t handle it, he deserved to be happy and live a long life with his family. he deserved that happy ending, but i’m so grateful that pepper just. understood what he needed. she knew what he needed to hear and was there for him and could just ‘we’ll be okay, you can rest’. and give him that peace of mind. he did it, he saved the universe, he brought everyone back, he can rest. but god he really deserved to be able to rest with his family, happy and alive, okay.

- steve’s small exchange with bucky was like a nice reference to the first cap movie, but that was all we got. steve has spent multiple movies trying to get bucky back and help him, and we don’t even get a reunion scene and then just this one little bit of back and forth. a soft ‘i’ll miss you’, even though its technically only supposed to be seconds for them?? like,,, does that means bucky knows??? like, he has a feeling he knows what steve’s gonna do??? idk man, idk. all i do know is that they deserved better in this movie. i’m also summing up bucky’s telling sam to go talk to steve as bucky’s ‘i don’t know if i can handle that’ admission tbh.

- god bless sam wilson. between being the one to be like ‘bring him back. where is he? get him back.’ the second something seemed to go wrong with the time travel was,,, really nice. like, thank you for caring about my boy. thank you for always having his back. i love you so much sam wilson. and anyone who thinks sam shouldn’t be the one to get the shield can meet me in a back alley okay, this man has earned it, he’s the right pick for the cap mantle. the cap theme playing when he was given the shield? Iconic. did i cry whenever the cap theme played during this movie?? Absolutely.

- time travel in this movie is a fucking joke but i wanna know if steve had to see the red skull when he returned the soul stone because can you imagine??? that interaction??? like, did anyone warn him??? did anyone tell him the red skull was there or was it only implied when clint said something about a red man or whatever after coming back and being upset about natasha???? but also where did steve travel back to in order to start his new life??? were there just two caps in the universe??? one in the ice and one living his life w/ peggy???? none of it makes sense. none of it. where does the shield go/come from???? guys??? guys.

-okay now we address the end of steve’s arc. i’m gonna start by saying i see both sides of the discourse it’s stirred up. i understand the intention behind it, not wanting steve’s story to just be one big tragedy. because that’s where it was headed. if they killed him, he would have been fighting for decades on end without rest, without knowing peace, and that would’ve been it. that’s not the end people want to see for their heroes. he deserves to be able to put down the shield and rest. he deserves that ending for himself after fighting his whole life. However, the way they did it not only flattened his entire arc, but it flattened peggy’s entire character as well. she built a life in his absence, she moved on, and he knows this. he knew this, and i refuse to believe that steve would selfishly go back and disrupt that, take that away from her for the sake of his own personal happiness. that’s not steve rogers, a good and compassionate man. because think about the life he’d have to lead, knowing all he does. because if he isn’t supposed to disrupt the timeline, he has to let everything with hydra happen and infiltrate shield, something he knows peggy’s dedicated to, he has to let everything with bucky happen and be okay with not stepping in and rescuing his best friend from that horrific life/killing tony’s parents, he has to watch both tony and sharon grow up knowing everything about their lives??? (not to mention how fucking weird everything with sharon would be  considering the mcu just forgot about her after they made out in the parking lot???? sharon deserved better.) 

- this wasn’t an end of an arc, it was the flattening of an arc. he didn’t actually deal with anything that he’d been through. tws was all about how he needed to move on, peggy herself told him that the world was changing and he had to move with it instead of lingering in the past and what he lost. he was supposed to be building himself a new life, addressing what he lost and the trauma he’s been through and work through it all to push onward. that’s development. he got away with not working on himself or anything he went through, the group therapy was never actually beneficial because he didn’t take any of his advice, he clung to his emotions and grief and wasn’t able to move on and says as much. giving him this easy way out just feels lazy in my opinion. like they didn’t know what to do with him, wanted him to end up happy, and this was the only way they saw that happening because he wasn’t properly developed over the course of the mcu. i’m happy my boy ended up happy, don’t get me wrong, i was very close to sobbing over him finally getting that dance, but it was highly unsatisfactory in terms of a story and character arc.

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