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danganronpasurvivoraskblog · 2 years

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FreFo/FuFo Heist Planning: Volume #1.

Your SISTER!? She’s been kidnapped as a test rat!?

Yeah...So, as you can imagine, I’m scared witless.

Hm...Yep, I just found her.

What do you mean?

I looked through our copies of those case files, and sure enough, I found someone else named Naegi. Komala, right?

Komaru.

Yeah, that’s what I meant.

What’s the situation with her?

Ok, well...how do I put this...There’s good news and bad news, but the good news and bad news are the same thing?

That...makes NO sense.

Yeah, English or Japanese please?

Ok, well, the GOOD news is that this copy has the date she was detained, and the planned date of the sale. Seems that she was only taken in recently, and the date for the sale hasn’t happened yet, which means right now, she’ll still be in Fang Inc. custody.

So she won’t be very hard to find.

Oh thank god!

What’s the bad news?

The bad news...is that the planned sale date is...well tomorrow.

TOMORROW!?

So we’ve only got 24 hours or so to rescue her!?

Not really. You could save her from whoever ends up buying her. There’s no need to rush.

Hunter, don’t be insensitive! Can’t you see they’re panicking!?

S-Sorry...

But these...let’s call them “auctions” aren’t typically the easiest heists to pull off. They’re tough enough for us, let alone for newbies like you.

Yeah, it’s embarrassing to admit, but...we rarely ever get a chance to stop these actions. The security in the places Feng chooses are locked up tighter than Byakuya’s butt.

HAH! I said that too!

Lol!

Egads...

But seriously, the only reason we keep all those names and faces on file is because after we’re done dealing with Emilia, we go after them...But by that point...

Well, that’s why we came to you guys.

Maya. I hope the offer for collusion between our two groups is still on the table. No matter what, we need to save Komaru, and we could really use your help.

What kind of question is that? Of COURSE we’ll help you.

Yeah. Like we said, this isn’t gonna be easy, especially cause we have such a short time period to plan, but we can’t in our good judgement abandon you, OR your sister.

Plus....Now that there’s 12 of us instead of the usual 6, we MIGHT be able to pull it off.

And Makoto? About what I said about helping us? Don’t worry about that.

This doesn’t have to be in the long run. We can save your sister and go our separate ways if you still want to keep running from Organization Z.

Aright...But we’ll talk about that later. But thank you...You have no idea how grateful I am for this...!

Ok, then let’s start planning. What do you think would be the best course of action.

Well, first, we need to find out WHERE this auction is being held. Oliver has access to Fang Inc’s network, so they can locate it within say...1 or 2 hours?

Yeah, leave that to me. Everyone else just start brainstorming a potential plan in the meantime.

Let’s do so over some coffee then.

Oh thank goodness. I was already looking forward to tasting your coffee again. And it’s only been a few hours.

Hehe.

GOT IT! Goooot iiiit!

Nice!

*As everyone else starts talking over coffee and drinks, Oliver suddenly exclaims their success. Everyone gathers around his laptop.

Alright, so here’s the deal. Kouji, get me the projector.

On it!

*Kouji plugs Oliver’s laptop into a projector, which shows the screen on the wall.

What’s this place? A Fang Inc. facility?

Sort of. It’s the mansion belonging to one of their high ranking officials. A guy named Kazue Tamashiro. They’re holding the auction in his foyer, and obviously, it’s being kept secret from the public.

The only people who attend the auctions are rich dicks who want servants and mad scientists who want test subjects.

But where do they get so many people to just...sell like that?

Remember what we told you about how Emilia Feng starts wars and then ends them to make herself appear the hero? Thereby reaping the profits?

This is partially how she does it. She attacks rural neighborhoods all across the continent, and kidnap young, capable men and women to sell to other houses.

Other than that, a lot of the people here are homeless already...She just sees them as expendable.

She’s so gross.

What I wanna know then is how the heck KOMARU got caught up into this! She’s not homeless.

You’re right, something doesn’t seem right about it...

Well, we can ask her that when we save her. So what’s security look like.

There are several guards equipped with Fang Inc’s hi-tech weaponry. As we said before, these are very important to Feng, so she doesn’t want anyone in. Aside from that, there’s also lots of hi-tech security measures; kinda mind boggling stuff.

Let me guess. There’s things like sawblades, ceiling turrets and walls that close in on themselves?

Uhh...

Y-Yeah...how’d you know?

Been there done that. One of Zetsubou’s grunts, Yukari Koime, had a mansion of her own, and it was the same story there.

Any chance that Feng will attend the auction personally?

PPFT! You’re having a laugh! She rarely ever shows her face to anyone, be it in public, or these kinds of events. In fact, 90% of the population of America have no idea what she looks like.

Yikes. That’s impressive to remain so incognito despite being in such a mighty position.

I don’t especially care how hi-tech the weapons they have are. It’s nothing that we can’t handle.

Exactly. So the simple plan is this.

We’ll split into groups. One group will be responsible for deactivating the weaponry and security features.

I’ll lead that group of course, and...I think it would be appropriate for one other person to come with me.

I will. I’m no hacker, but I have a unique understanding of programming myself, so I may be able to help.

Sounds good.

Groups 2 and 3 will have the task of going around different parts of the mansion, and taking out the soldiers with the hi-tech weapons. And it’s important that we do this AS the auction starts.

Why’s that?

Because it’s important to the plan, right? We need to make sure we do it then, or the rest of the plan falls flat?

Precisely, but we’ll get to that. Who’s up for the task in this case?

You don’t even need to ask. I’ll lead one group.

Then I’ll go with Kuripa.

Hm...I’d like to pair up but...I’m not the best fighter. Sure, I can wield a baton, but...

Then...how about we have one group of four? You and I can go with Kuripa and Leona?

Yeah, I guess I’m ok with teaming up with Reaper. At least I know he can do all the heavy lifting.

I know I’ve bent over backwards for your comfort the entire time we’ve been in the country, but I’m not your lapdog.

Eh, whatever, I guess I can keep an eye out for you guys. But you’d all better pull your weight.

No need to worry. I’ll have medical equipment on hand at all times. Just leave it to me if you get hurt.

I’ll also join the fight. I’ll go fight the soldiers in other parts of the mansion so we don’t leave you to deal with them all.

Then I’ll go with Hunter! I can throw a mean punch too!

That so? Well, looking forward to working with ya.

Same!

Alright, that means we have 2 groups of 2 left.

What do you need us to do?

Well, when the soldiers are all taken out, Byakuya and I will be able to see so on the security feed. So when groups 2 and 3 are done, it’ll be up to group 4 to rescue Makoto’s sister, and hopefully the other captured people there.

Look at the diagram of the mansion. See how there’s a skylight above the hall where the auction’s taking place? Whoever’s part of that group will be waiting in above that skylight, and when given the signal, will crash down and ruin the party. Then they’ll rescue Komaru, and hopefully any other captive people.

With all the soldiers around the mansion being taken out already by this point, the only people they’d have to deal with are those IN the hall already.

In any case, I already know full well this is going into a power move, so I’m in!

I am too. Whatever we have to do, I need to get to my sister.

Cool, so group 4 will be Makoto and Maya.

Think you can handle that?

Definitely. I may not look it, but I was actually trained by the Ultimate Soldier. I have more danger handling than it seems.

Humble bragging boss? Really?

Shush! You know that’s not what I meant.

That just leaves myself and Four. What do we do?

You and I have a bit of a different task. We’re going to this auction to rescue people, not to pick fights, but with that being said...It would still be beneficial to us in the long run if we captured Tamashiro.

You and I will limit his escape routes in advance, and corner him. Then you can leave the interrogation to me. Sound good?

Yes, that’s fine. However, don’t be afraid to ask for interrogation help should you need it.

Thanks. I’ll hold you to that.

Alright, in that case...We have simply one more question...How are we to infiltrate the mansion?

We’ll do so from different points. Mansions like this typically have entrances underneath. Secret passages and the like. See, there’s one here. It leads into one of the bedrooms, so one of our combat teams should take it.

Alright, Hunter and I will. Kuripa’s got a bigger group, so he’d need something a bit more impactful.

Right, that’s what I was thinking too. Kuripa, how would you feel about busting through a window?

It would be my pleasure.

Good. Because a large culmination of guards are typically posted around this hallway. Mainly because it’s where a lot of Tamashiro’s more expensive antiques are. You, Leona, Hiro and Kouji can get through that window with a zipline.

*GASP!* We actually get to use the zipline!?

You have a ZIPLINE! Fuck yeah! This heist rocks already!

Hoh boy...

Suck it up Hiro! Do you wanna rescue Komaru or not?

Don’t worry. I have stomach pills too if it helps.

Thanks. Man, you’re prepared for everything huh?

Oh, how easy life would be for us if that were true...

The last entry point is the vent system, and by process of elimination, that’s where group 5 will enter.

Don’t worry. I crawled through a vent system in our most recent job, and I know how it works.

No worries. I do as well.

Heh. You’re impressive Kyoko. It seems you know almost anything.

I just have far too much experience under my belt.

Anyway, ideally, Group 4 and 5 should infiltrate the mansion the same way, since the vent system entrance is right next to the skylight.

We’ve got grappling hooks and stuff too as part of our equipment, so take whatever you need to get up there.

And lastly...well, let’s look at it this way. Byakuya, you thankfully look enough like a member of high-society that if you and I butter ourselves up, we could probably just walk through the front door. We’d just need to forge invitations.

You know, it really is sinking in now that we’re actually doing a heist...Ho boy.

Don’t worry. Alright everyone! Let’s do this! Those people aren’t gonna save themselves!

*Everyone puts their hands in and cheers.

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leslie-lyman · 2 years

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I saw someone say that really, the true root of overturning roe v. wade is to keep the poor poor and I 100% see what they are saying.

this is an attack on all women, but especially poor women who lack time, money and resources to get an abortion. they lack time because poor women are more likely to work in sectors that have unreliable or long working hours and then go home to hours and hours of unpaid care. money, because they are often working in jobs that are either low pay and low respect or contract or multiple different jobs (which also influences the time they have available to themselves and for themselves). they lack resources for so many different reasons, including lack of time and money, but also they may live in impoverished neighbourhoods were they are removed from hospitals and medical care, or they have no one to watch family they may have in order to go get an abortion.

if poor women are forced to have children they do not want, especially if they are already struggling financially, it will push them deeper into debt and poverty, therefore making it more likely that the cycle will repeat itself with their kids.

Ugh anon, you are unfortunately SO RIGHT (also sorry it’s taken me a lil while to answer this ask!). As Pedro himself said:

Abortion access is, among many other things, an issue of class warfare. It is an issue of economic justice, gender justice, and racial justice (because think about who is disproportionately likely to be poor in the US - it’s women of color). It’s also, as I’ve mentioned before in answering other asks about this, fundamentally about control. It is about the ability and desire of conservative, right-wing Christian men to control women (and it is super important to use gender-inclusive language when talking about abortion, because not all women can get pregnant and not all who can get pregnant are women, but from the viewpoint of anti-abortion religious extremists, it’s about controlling women, because you can bet they only view the world in terms of a very strict gender binary).

People are understandably focusing on how Dobbs overturns Roe, but I think it is also important to understand that the majority opinion explicitly overturned not just Roe, but also Casey. Planned Parenthood v. Casey was decided in 1992 and created the undue burden standard for abortion restrictions. Roe v. Wade held that states could not restrict abortion access for pregnancies in the first trimester, allowed some regulations on abortions during the second trimester, and allowed far greater restrictions on pregnancies in the third trimester.

But under Casey, the trimester framework under Roe was overturned in favor of viability analysis, that is, states gained leeway to regulate abortion access after the point in pregnancy that a fetus could reasonably be considered viable if born prematurely, which is many weeks earlier than the 28th week at which the third trimester begins. Stares could impose restrictions on abortion access as long as the regulations did not constitute an “undue burden” on the person trying to get an abortion.

But of course, having a Supreme Court made up of mostly conservative white men deciding what constitutes an undue burden on abortion access for mostly poor people often went exactly how you’d expect. In the actual Casey case, this meant that the majority opinion threw out a Pennsylvania state requirement that married women trying to get abortions notify their spouses of their desire to abort, but not other requirements like parental consent for minors who need abortions and a 24-hour waiting period. But if you’re a pregnant person working a low-wage job that doesn’t offer paid leave, or you already have at least one child you need to find childcare for (like 6 in 10 people who get abortions in the US), or you need to travel hundreds of miles to get to your nearest abortion clinic, I think you’d say having to have your first appointment at a clinic AND THEN WAIT AN ADDITIONAL 24 HOURS BEFORE YOU CAN GET THE PROCEDURE (a waiting period that clearly has no basis in medicine and is absolutely meant to deter people from accessing abortion), I think you’d say that shit absolutely constitutes an undue fucking burden!

All of this to say that you are totally right. Poor people - especially poor people of color - are the ones who will be hurt the most by Dobbs. This is why it is more important than ever to donate to abortion funds. Abortion funds are organizations that have been working in this space for many years and are experts in navigating state restrictions on abortions to get folks the care they need.

As Daddy Pedro said:

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#answered asks

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thediaryofa20somethinggirl · 23 days

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i’m at work on my breakand i can’t help but spiral about the complexities of moving this fall. life is so sacred, delicate and fragile. one great thing is that there are many beginnings, and the power of going back is just moving forward trying to not make the same mistakes again; holding back on fear's accord. is this opportunity to move a sign from god? a hint to take the jump? every time i close my eyes and envision myself moving i get almost clouded with my own anxieties, like a big sister trying to get her photo taken but the thumb of whoever is taking the photo (let it be god?) keeps getting in the way. i don’t want fear to be a reason to hold back, but more so of a reason to jump.

i texted my dad i loved him on my 15. all he said back was “hurry home.” it makes me want to go fuck myself. when i am met with thr dismissal of my compulsive burps of “i love you” i can’t help but turn back into that 5-year-old girl, doing everything in her gaze to get daddy’s validation. love from my father has always felt like work. that’s a fact, with no judgment attached. my father is more than 4 times my age, meeting us at the rip age of 60. his generation was taught the importance of being seen, rather than being heard. i understand him, and i love him unconditionally. something i was born with; this inherit need to not only be loved but constantly love him. i texted back, "i'm at work till 4:30, i already told you." hoping that the period properly showed my passiveness. his reply was "i know it's just that every minute you're away from me burns a hole in my heart." i giggled as i read this on my rush to my car through the store.

im currently home from work, i got home about three hours ago. i haven't done any homework yet, and i am still here procrastinating on getting two major assignments done for class. i am also on the toilet, contiplaiting if i should order ramen. if i should break my 24 hour fast for some celebratory and motivating veggie noodles floating in a flavorful lake of broth. ramen that i am trying to convince myself, is brain food. the only thing; the laxatives have been causing me to shit constantly all day. i wonder if i should give my stomach a break? or fuel it with good foods; steamed broccoli, vegatable broth, and tofu for protein. mmmmmmm. ahhh sounds yummy. my go to comfort meal; instantly bringing me back to the emotional release of being in 71st Street Ramen, in a corner booth with Emerson and Basil. okay then, its official i am going to order the ramen.

that makes me think of another thing, especally in my desire to regain control (by releasing control LOL funny how that works. that the balance is finding peace in the things that you can control, and submitting to what you can't) of my life; i need to regain control of my eating habits. i don't know what happened. it saddens me that i have allowed myself to let this go on for as long as it has. maybe its just being home. maybe its the depression of watching my mother slowly die. maybe its the Florida street weed intensifying my cravings to the ripest extent. maybe its the addicition to guilt or the need to shame and give myself reasons to be a bitch to myself. maybe its because i can't cope without food, mainly triggered by a 2 day fast followed by getting increasingly high with Florida street weed and cleaning the pantry from every cookie in the jar. following that, i will swallow pills - not only to help the bloat but to help pass what i just swallowed down. i think i've become addicted. not i think, i know.

one thing that has released and pushed my habit to the healtheir level, is binge eating with fruits, steamed brocalli, eggs and hit sauce, high protein bars, oatmeal, dried fruits, nuts, and usually waffles drentched in butter and warm honey (my fucking favorite high snack, fucking fuck, i can't describe how good it is other than a dance of sweet and savory - but natural, almost timeless in my devorar. its also just waffles with butter, and honey, but let me dress it up.) binging with heathlier food ; food of actual sustinance. food that gives you nutrients. foods that benfit me and my body. carrots for my eyes, chia seeds and oatmeal for fiber, etc.. food that makes you just wanna play that video from the early 2010s of that redhead kid who was on The Ellen Show, the enbodiement of that redhead kid going,theres nothing like a nice slice of pizza to recharge your batteries, but instead of pizza its this warm honey waffle, and nuts, with dried tart cherries, and brownie protein bars. the guilt is somehow ridden. i feel slightly more responsible as a parent to myself. im the mom who feeds her daughter only the best, organic bullshit. now this means im ready for the next step; no binging period. and remianing in a deficit! eating a healthy amount, at healthy times, with healthy outcomes (if you get my drift) no need for laxatives. full trust in me, and my body. in my bodies ability to regulate, and be beautiful in her performance. she's ready. im ready.

time to talk about the start of my day:

when i woke up this morning i took a bowl of weed, and dozed off half dreaming about a different time with Khalil - this time 2 years into the future; living together. again with the could'ves. i don't think its shameful to wonder if he still thinks about me, corny maybe, but not shameful. at least im not allowing myself to be ashamed of what i feel. i could just be craving a connection, a snese of unrelenting intimacy. he would be a really good distraction right now.

ill finish this entry with telling you about work and the present moment (besides the ordering of my veggie tofu ramen, the memory of my two soulmates.) other than daydreaming about Khalil, I got dressed, took my meds (b12,collagen,glutamine,spiralactone,dustersiteride-or however you fucking spell it-zinc,vitaminC,womensmultivitamine,cherryroot,tumeric,milkthistle,beefliver,and a probiotic), had a cup of black coffee accompanied by a jounral session with god and my mom, showering myself with affirmations, trying to convicne myself that i can somehow make something out of the day. i went to work.

work was work. work was busy. work is always busy on a saturday. i was bloated the whole shift, from my binge the night prior or maybe the irritation of the laxatives, and my feet kept blistering from the fresh pair of mary jane flats i impuslivly purchased and wore today. i thought that they looked cute with my baggy jeans. beauty is pain, pretend im eye rolling. no actually don't pretend, know for a fact that i am eye rolling. i don't think beauty is motherfucking pain, mainly because i feel my most beautful self when i am the most unresticted, unbound by the idea of what my beauty should be measured by; pain. beauty is feeling unbound in a flowing linen dress. beauty is the dance of my hair, the daily movement she offers around me. let me not get distracted. okay work. well work was work, like i said. i did my usual; shelved books, answered phones, looked for cute coustmers to help, and of course took my breaks. i never forget a break, especially if they pay us for it. thank you, thank you, thank you. i then got a large three shot americano from the cafe, in hopes to pass whatever is left in my bowels for my ride home. i drank half and might save the rest for tomorrow morning. something tells me that i will be up very late maybe even into the morning trying to get my homeowork done. ill start after the ramen which should be here any minute. currently, however, im debating whether or not the ramen im about to fuel on is going to help aid or hinder that process. regardless, im optimistic that the nutirion and protien will help bring back the life in my face. i trust my bodies ability to metabolise fast, and regulate itself. i release the worry of food hurting me!!!! im gooing to go eat.

mattea

#dear diary #journal entry #aspiring writer

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not-so-grown-up-kid · 10 months

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A Letter to my Beloved Best Friend

A foreword: I am writing this letter spontaneously, so keep in mind I am not proofreading or editing anything. I will let the flow of my emotions just take me.

Anyway, I am writing this letter with the thoughts of your birthday greetings and on how I can establish it. This is probably also my way of emerging myself back to random writing, of which, I have not done for such a long period of time.

June 24, 2023, Saturday, 4:41 (Standard Philippine Time), I am writing this letter keeping in mind my intentions of making it a birthday letter for you. You might see this post during your birthday but I am making it way ahead.

I feel kind of emotional, which is why I am writing this today since we just happen to meet just recently and today kind of marks the day you are probably finally back to Dubai, and we only get to spend an hour talking about the most random things in life. While catching up was no problem because we always talked through chat about the recent events in our lives, spending quality time and making memories is a whole different story.

First of all (of which is not the first thing I was able to do at all in this letter), happy birthday. You are closer to 30 than I am (hahahahaha just admit it). Second of all, (which again is actually not the second thing that I did in this letter), like most of my birthday greetings, I wish you all the best things in life.

I don’t want to feel quite sentimental, but know that right now, writing this letter, I am already feeling those emotions creeping in (seems kinda gross if you put it in a double meaning and you know I have a dirty mind, “at times”). Anyway, back to main point, I probably want to sum my birthday letter by saying these important things: I love you; I miss you; and I will always be there for you despite of the different paths we are currently taking. When I looked at out picture (picture reference above taken at June 22, 2023- as evidence, wowst researcher lang!), I feel like somehow the universe does this incredible thing that it takes full control, somehow letting us see each other and do a quick catch up face to face. Despite the seemingly impossible feat due to schedule, distance, and time constraints, somehow, that 1 hour (approximately) chitchat magically happened. Sadly, for me, that 1 hour felt like it was not enough and I actually wanted to “gala” more with you and make core memories with my sister from the female Hitler another mother.

Whenever I look at this picture, I am proud of the friendship we have made. The many years it was honed and the many years I hope it will continue. I am proud of what you have achieved and who you have become- an inspirational blogger pharmacist (and more). I am also proud of what we have been through. So much so that it made me realize of the many changes that has gone through yet it felt like our friendship did not change. I mean, can you imagine? The things we talk about during college were pretty much about courses, struggles in grades, board exams, crushes (although this still pretty much applies to me right now), and school stuff. Now, we are talking about adulthood, the reality of adulthood, out future goals in life, and how we are consistently tired (hahahaha). We may not always have the same things that we venture on or like, and we may walk an entirely different path from each other, but still, I will always be there for you. (Well, you know not physically coz I can’t be in Dubai, but you know what I mean).

Happy, happy (almost 30th) birthday to the person who probably knows me best. You may feel down at times in work (or life in general) but you should remember that your existence is a blessing to the people who loves you.

I wish you all the happiness in life.

PS. did you know that the name “Bea” means blessed?

Love lots and always,

Junnin

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from-a-reckless-writer · 3 years

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here lads have an angsty supercorp soulmate story

It starts exactly 24 hours after Kara’s departure.

It’s subtle at first. It actually reminds Lena of the first few days after they met.

The slow but steady build-up of pain manifesting itself into little things; shaky hands, dizzy spells, chest pains. The pills help, of course. She’s already ingested 5 pills in the span of 3 hours and she’s contemplating taking more. Just to keep the pain—threatening to overtake her—at bay. But what good would she be if Alex finds her passed out on the floor? Veins chock-full of narcotics?

So, she wills her hands to stop shaking and pushes on. She sends a text to Jess to send a shipment of pills to her home address; tells her to be discreet.

She can do it. She’s done it before. She can fucking do it again. And she will bring Kara home.

Because every moment that passes with them apart, means a step closer to Lena’s death.

You might think she’s exaggerating, but really she isn’t. See, Kara’s her soul mate, not just in the figure of speech wax-poetic sense but literally Kara’s her soul mate.

But her being a Luthor of course, soul mates wouldn’t come easy. None of it had ever been easy. Why would this one be an exception? It wasn’t unheard of, no, there were a few rare cases of it being recorded. Of course, Lena would be one of those people. Why wouldn’t the universe add shitty soul mate luck into the long list of misfortunes in Lena’s life? What’s one more curse, right?

See, Kara’s her soul mate but...Lena isn’t Kara’s.

“You look like shit, Luthor. You’re allowed to take a break you know?”

It’s Alex who breaks her out of her reverie. She prays to God that Alex doesn't notice her shaking hands. She’s well aware she looks like shit. She feels like shit, she doesn’t need Alex of all people to point that one out. But now, Lena notices that the whole place is empty, she didn’t even notice J’onn slip out. She didn’t even notice Alex coming in too, really.

Brainy had long passed-out in one of the beds in the MedBay in the 2nd level of The Tower, Nia taking up the opposite bed. There was a brief moment when she walked in that made her feel tempted to occupy the third bed and take a break. But then, her chest tightened and a flare of pain lit up her whole insides, it was reason enough to keep her feet moving and back unto the computers trying to pinpoint Kara’s location.

“I know,” she replies, “But it’s really not necessary, Alex. I’ll rest after.”

She doesn’t need rest, what she needs is Kara to be here.

She refuses to look at Alex, fingers flying across the screen. Alex shifts closer to her, lays a hand on her right arm prompting her to stop. Her eyes land on Alex's hand and continue up to Alex’s eyes.

“We’ll find her, Lena. But you have to rest. I’m serious, Luthor. Come on,” Alex persists, wrapping her hand more firmly and tugging at Lena to follow her.

She doesn’t say that rest will do her more harm than good. She doesn’t say that if she closes her eyes all she would see is Kara’s body floating all alone in space and the pain would start anew.

First, her chest and then travelling up the rest of her body until all there is is pain.

She doesn’t say that she needs to work in order to distract her from the pain.

Instead, she holds her tongue, lets Alex bring her to the 2nd level and tries to have the most fitful sleep of her life.

***

It gets worse on the 5th day of the second week. It really isn’t a surprise considering this is the longest she’s had to go without Kara around.

She’s taken mega-doses of painkillers in anticipation for today. Last night was a nightmare, she had to bite down on a hand towel as waves of pain assaulted her, again and again and again.

When morning came, it slowly subsided. Once feeling had returned to her legs she ran into the kitchen and swallowed 3 pills immediately.

It doesn’t matter if she’s taken 3 or 4 or a whole bottle today, because it will just get worse and worse the longer Kara isn’t by her side.

And so, she drags herself into The Tower again, because she needs to finally find a way to bring her back.

She tries to ignore the tightening of her chest even though she’s really having a hard time breathing now. Not to mention the pain behind her eyes that is bit by bit making it difficult for her to coordinate with Brainy’s computations.

She’s taken to keeping a bottle of pills on her person now. Opting to take them dry as if they were mint candies to keep her tongue moving while programming lines of codes.

She thinks she’s still being subtle.

Well, she is.

Until she isn’t.

She crumples to the floor in front of everyone and a guttural scream of pain breaks free from her lips.

***

When she wakes it’s to Alex sitting by her bedside.

She lets out a groan in response to the sore feeling of her entire body. It’s like the time they were forced to do team building exercises all day in Mt. Helena and Lena nearly passed out.

Alex hands her a bottle of water. She sips greedily before handing it back and wiping her mouth.

“Hey? How you feeling?”

“Like I wanna die.”

Alex sighs and Lena intentionally avoids her eyes.

“It’s Kara isn’t it?” Alex says and Lena doesn’t bother with lying anymore.

“It is.”

“How you survived almost two weeks away from her, I wouldn’t know. Two days away from Kelly—” Alex breaks off, inhales deeply and then sighs again, “That’s already torture for me.”

“I’ve had a lot of practice,” She retorts flatly, hands fiddling with the rough edges of the blanket. Alex looks like she wants to say something about that but Lena beats her there.

“How?” She asks, gesturing to the IV drip. How am I not feeling pain right now? How am I still breathing? How am I still alive?

“The DEO created a special fluid for agents,” Alex reveals, “They distribute it to agents on field assignments. That way, them and their partners don’t die from pain. Good thing, J’onn had a stash hidden here, well, we always thought it would be for me and Kelly. Never expected you, Luthor.”

Lena takes that in for a moment. So, the DEO had a special formula of Dextrose to stave off the pain of soulmate separation and apparently she’s using up all the remaining bags of it.

And it’s not even supposed to be for her.

“Don’t worry about it. Brainy can replicate the formula.”

Worry must’ve shown on her face. So, she works on schooling her features again, she knows that Alex is itching to ask her questions but is trying to be polite.

There’s really no use hiding anything now though.

“K-Kara’s my soulmate,” she finally says out loud, and she’s always thought that it’s supposed to feel cathartic and freeing but instead it just feels heavy.

“But I’m not hers,” she quickly finishes, better to rip the band-aid off. She briefly looks at Alex, whose face doesn’t give her anything; mouth a tight line and eyes shining with curiosity.

She doesn’t know if Alex had ever had a conversation with Kara about soul mates before. Had they talked about it? Had Kara ever mentioned Lena acting too clingy whenever they don’t see each other for a short period of time? Had Kara ever told Alex if she would want a soul mate of her own?

But the look and silence from Alex’s side makes Lena refrain from asking.

Instead, she starts to tell her how it had hit her the instant Kara walked in her office. How there was a zing! and her brain had immediately screamed HER. That’s the one. She’s the one.

How when they met eyes and Kara had told her her name it felt like Lena’s soul finally found her home.

“I asked for her name and I kind of thought she’d wait for me to get out of the office,” Lena trails off and Alex takes it for what it is.

Their first meeting was all sparks for Lena but then, the conversation kept going and going and Clark had tried interrogating her and Kara didn’t do anything.

Didn’t approach her afterwards, didn’t show any reaction that might’ve given Lena a clue that she felt the way Lena did.

A conclusion was easily reached.

Kara was hers but she wasn’t Kara’s.

After the initial shock settled in, Lena set to work. Because that was what she did best. Work out a solution to everything and anything that poses a problem.

How many people have dreamed about meeting their soul mate? How many years had Lena sat there hoping that tomorrow maybe, maybe she’ll finally meet them? She never expected this, never expected her soul to find a home that isn’t hers.

Staying away from Kara was a non-starter, it’s only been a day since they parted but Lena can already feel the beginnings of pain. Slow but sharp shots of throbbing from behind her eyes then came the shaky hands then the dizziness and then—

They became friends and Lena made sure Kara didn’t know anything about her growing need to be close to her; didn't let Kara know about the fact that the universe made Lena its most epic punchline yet.

She agreed to scheduled game nights and movie nights and lunch dates. She never knew the pain of soulmate separation during those early days. Kara was always around; bringing her a salad, covering an L-Corp gala, crashing on Lena’s couch.

“It was easy, you know? Kara was always there. What are friends for?” Lena mimics Kara and then repeats somberly, “It was easy, Alex.”

Or at least, Lena kept telling herself it was easy. She had it easy. She didn’t have to think about painkiller pills or cutting her business trips short—because the pain becomes unbearable too soon—like so many of her board members do.

She had it easy with Kara, she can just call and she’ll be there.

Until, Kara started going MIA. And for three days pain overtook her entire life. The pain made her unable to think clearly, the pills kicking in at the last minute.

“You haven't been around. Supergirl's been there for me. Person who judges me on the very premise of my last name, but my best friend hasn't,” she accuses because Goddamnit Kara has no idea what kind of shit Lena had to endure with her going away with no warning.

Logically, Lena knows it’s partly her fault.

She knows that if she only just told Kara that she needs her to live, Kara would stay. But she doesn’t want anything to change.

Of course, Kara would stay, it was the kind of thing a person like her would do.

Kara would take care of her, whatever Lena needed she would give.

But Lena didn’t want things that way.

She wants Kara to want her the same way she wants her.

But no, Lena’s not going to tell her that. She is never going to know. She will find an alternative. So, she injects as much venom as she can into that accusation, “B-but maybe it’s better if I leave.”

She makes Kara leave.

She just got her cure back and immediately Lena had pushed her away. The moment Kara stepped out of the door, a dull throb already kicked in her chest; as if telling Lena she was making a big mistake.

She regretted that night so much, Jess had to drag her drunken body out of her office.

Then it became normal again and Lena went back to not worrying about body pains again.

Because a different kind of pain is trying to make itself known.

A gaping hole in her heart that is entirely unrelated to the biological consequences of being separated from your soul mate.

She was falling in love.

She was falling in love and she wasn’t prepared for how it would hurt to have Kara not love her back. She can endure the physical pain, there are pills for that.

But there wasn’t any type of medication to see your other half everyday and not have them see you as theirs.

When Lex told her Kara’s secret. Something broke inside of her. Which was saying something, considering she was getting her heart broken every single day that Kara wouldn’t look her way.

But to know how stupid she’s been? To realize that the flutter of her heart whenever Supergirl was near was her brain telling her it was Kara?

There was no word for that.

“I think, I kept rejecting the idea of Supergirl being Kara you know?” Lena huffs out, laughs drily, “Imagine how fucking painful it would be, Alex, if Supergirl was my soul mate. This person who didn’t trust me wholly, who lies behind my back, imagine if she was my soul mate? It would have felt humiliating. My body knew better, though,” she admitted sadly.

“When Lex told me, all the little painful outbursts every time Supergirl flew away? It made sense. Everything made sense, but at the same time? Everything hurt too.”

She tried hurting her back. Created Hope. Experimented with Q-waves. Foolishly used Myriad. Teamed up with Lex.

But even through all of those? The separation pain never knocked her out.

Even when they were fighting, Kara was still always around. Even when the world—the fucking multiverse got reset. The pain wasn’t enough to knock her out. Not like today.

Because Kara was always lingering around convincing her not to join Lex, crossing paths in CatCo, flying into her home even if it was to call her a villain.

All of those interactions were still sustenance for Lena.

But this? This separation? This knowledge that Kara was somewhere out there, unreachable. That she could be lightyears away in space and it has been two weeks since Lena had last saw her, it has her every molecule shouting to go find Kara.

“It’s never been like this before,” Lena confesses, “I thought I could do it without-”

“Help?” Alex supplies and Lena finally turns to her and she feels a hand squeeze her.

“Yeah.” She mutters back softly.

“Well, that’s where you’re wrong, Luthor. You’re part of the team now whether you like it or not. We are going to help you, we’re going to find a temporary solution for that pain and then we’ll get back to work and we’ll find Kara.”

#im thinking if i'll continue this after the 2nd ep but hmm we'll see #anyways hope u liked that little blurb #the reckless writer writes #a supercorp ficlet of sorts #supercorp fic #soul mate au #supercorp #rcklss writes

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cosmicjoke · 2 years

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Understanding Griffith

I swear I’m not turning my blog into a “Berserk” blog, lol, but there’s just a few other thoughts I want to put down here, because I’ve been thinking about it over the last 24 hours or so, since finishing the manga up to it’s last, published chapter. Again, these are thoughts about Griffith and Guts, and particularly, I want to discuss the chapters following Griffith’s rescue from Windham Castle, his reactions during the battle against the Black Dog Knights, and the chapter “Armor to the Heart”, because honestly, I found these to be some of the most telling, and moving, moments of the entire story.

I’ve already noticed a tendency in the fandom to simply label Griffith as an entirely evil person, and a tendency to want to claim he always was from the start, but I don’t agree with that at all.

The thing that not many seem to want to discuss is how difficult it was to actually get Griffith to make the choice he did, in the end, to strip himself of his humanity and become a demon by sacrificing his comrades, etc... He needed to be heavily manipulated into making that decision, his destiny being manipulated by the Idea of Evil from before his birth, so that he would nearly gain everything, only to then lose it all and in the most humiliating and devastating way possible. Griffith is subjected to brutal torture for the period of an entire year before Guts and the Band of the Hawk come to his rescue, and in that year, he loses everything. His physical beauty and ability, his status, his power, the respect and regard and admiration of his comrades. He gleans, during the rescue, that Guts and Casca have fallen in love and are now together, and since he doesn’t know that Guts was unaware for that entire year of Griffith’s imprisonment, he can only assume that the two of them developed this relationship while he sat rotting in a torture chamber. This of course gives birth to negative emotions in Griffith regarding the two of them, anger, jealousy, a sense of betrayal, etc... From Griffith’s perspective, and with his limited knowledge, he thinks Guts and Casca abandoned him to be ruined physically while enjoying their new found romance. This, piled on top of Griffith’s sense of betrayal from Guts for abandoning him and the Band of the Hawk in the first place, which was the catalyst for Griffith’s spiral into self-destruction.

But during their escape and during the battle, specifically, against Wyald, we see Griffith display open concern, care, fear, affection and sympathy for both Guts and Casca. The struggle between these emotions, those positive and negative, is evident, but I think maybe the true tragedy of it all is that, for a time during this stretch in the story, it’s Griffith’s positive feelings for them which start to win out. During their fight in the sewers with the Bakiraka, Griffith shows open regret and sympathy for Charlotte after she blocks him from being hit with a poisoned dart, and looks as her with honest sorrow as she’s pulled away to be taken back to Windham, though he’s unable to speak. When Guts is fighting Wyald, Griffith is nakedly concerned for him, openly frustrated at his own inability to help in the battle, grinding his teeth so hard together that he makes his gums bleed. When Casca is about to be raped by Wyald, Griffith tries to break free from his caretakers to run to her aid. He isn’t able to because he can’t even stand on his own. He looks at Casca with genuine sympathy as she cries over Guts’ predicament. His expression is one of open joy and wonderment when Guts shows himself to still be alive, and appears to have defeated Wyald, etc... These are all real, genuine emotions from Griffith. This is proof, beyond doubt, that he really did care deeply for both Guts and Casca alike.

And then, in what I still think is one of the most moving and heartbreaking moments of the entire series, there’s the scene between Guts and Griffith in the covered wagon, after the battle, when Guts is remembering their battle against Zodd. Griffith looks at Guts with such fondness in one panel, such real affection, and it’s incredibly poignant. And, of course, there’s the moment when Griffith indicates to Guts his wish to wear his old armor. I think the full page panel of Guts sitting at Griffith’s back, buckling his armor onto him, is one of the most moving and heartbreaking images of the entire series. It encapsulates their entire friendship, and the depth of it. It’s such an incredibly intimate, private, and tragic moment, seeing Griffith reduced to this, but finding in Guts a friend who tries as best he can to preserve for Griffith what little pride he has left, by allowing him this moment of fantasy, of wearing his armor and pretending it might still be this way for him in the future, telling him, as Griffith tries and fails to draw his sword, that he’ll be wielding it again in no time, even as he knows full well he’ll never hold a sword again. The affection between these two, in this scene, is so real, and it’s that realness of affection, that true bond and love, that makes everything that happens after so horribly tragic.

It was only after Wyald appears again and puts Griffith through the horrific humiliation of being stripped naked in front of all his comrades and having the true extent of his invalidity shown to them, and after he overhears Guts and Casca in conversation, hears how much they now pity him, where once they both admired him more greatly than anyone, that his negative emotions regarding Guts and Casca begin to really take shape, when he begins to really unravel and grasp desperately again for his lost dream.

But even then, Griffith didn’t choose to sacrifice his comrades out of hatred for Guts and Casca, like I see some people try to claim. He chose to sacrifice them out of desperation, misguided beliefs about himself, and the bleak reality of his own future as a total invalid. During the Eclipse, when everyone is brought into the Abyss, we see that Griffith still cares for Guts, specifically, even after what happens with Wyald, when he tries to hold onto him as they’re lifted into the air on the giant hand. Griffith tries so hard to keep hold of Guts, to keep him from falling to his death, that his own arm begins to tear free from his body, and it’s Guts who lets him go to stop that from happening. So even at this point, Griffith is resisting his anger and resentment towards Guts, and his affection and love for him is still dominate. And even in this weakened, wretched, and ruined condition, Griffith had to be heavily manipulated by Ulik and the other members of the God Hand into making the choice he did, convinced by them that he had always been a bad person, and that it would do no one any good for him to go on pretending otherwise. He was literally steered by the Idea of Evil, through every single event in his life, from birth to the Eclipse, to end up there in the Abyss, to have that specific conversation. He was given everything to succeed, and then had all of it taken away, was mentally and physically broken down, shown hallucinations, and then, in the most vulnerable condition possible, convinced of his own evil and the fruitlessness of resisting his fate. This is a deep seeded fear of Griffith’s that the God Hand purposefully targets and uses against him to prod him toward making the decision he does. Griffith’s fear of his own evilness is shown earlier in the story more than once, when he asks Guts if he thinks he’s a cruel man, and before that, when he sits over the body of that boy who died in battle and asks Casca if he died for his dream. This latter incident so deeply affects Griffith, that he later allows a wealthy pedophile to sleep with him as a means of gaining funds in a way other than battle. He does this specifically in order to spare the lives of his comrades. He’s questioning the morality of himself and his dream, and struggling terribly with a sense of guilt and fear over the destruction brought about by following his dream. This fear is a point of deep vulnerability for Griffith, purposefully preyed upon by the God Hand and the Idea of Evil to manipulate him into sacrificing his comrades. They tell him to give up now would do none of the people that already died for his dream any good, because then they will have died for nothing. He gave in because he saw for himself only overwhelming misery and despair in his future, and because he was manipulated into believing the goodness in him never existed, while simultaneously having his sense of regret and remorse over others dying for his dream used as a weapon against him (which in itself proves the lie of the God Hands claim of Griffith never having good in him). If that’s not the definition of tragic, I don’t know what is.

People like to point to the horrific acts Griffith engaged in after he becomes Femto as proof of his always having been evil, or to say his hatred and jealousy and bitterness towards Guts and Casca was always more powerful than his love and affection. They point to him raping Casca in front of Guts, him telling Guts he feels nothing over the lives of his sacrificed comrades after coming back as the Hawk of Light as proof of this. But what people persistently fail to mention in this assessment is that those things were said and done only AFTER Griffith had been stripped of all his humanity. Femto is no longer Griffith in possession of all that made him who he was. He’s a demon, in possession of Griffith’s memories, and lacking totally all of Griffith’s positive human emotion. It was only after he became a demon and was stripped of his humanity that those negative feelings that had begun to develop in him really took over, and, really, were the only feelings left in him, and that’s what leads him to commit such horrific acts. What he does as Femto isn’t something he would have done had he still really been who he was as a man. I think this is an important distinction to make, one which I see few people actually acknowledge, sadly.

I think it’s almost important to follow the actual timeline here. Guts is 14 when he first meets Griffith, and states that Griffith is just about the same age as him. By the time Guts leaves the Band of the Hawk, three years have passed, which would make both of them 17 years old. Griffith is just about 18 years old when the Eclipse happens. He’s 17 years old when he’s being brutally tortured in Windham Castle. He’s, essentially, a child. I think this is also really important to acknowledge. He isn’t a fully mature man.

Anyway, I just think it’s important and vital to understanding the story, and particularly the dynamic between Griffith and Guts, to acknowledge and understand all of this, and I just wanted to get it out there.

#Berserk #Guts #Griffith

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thed4rkhand · 3 years

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So today we’re doing Yoongi’s chart and my analysis of it. Let me make it clear right off the bat, that since I’m not a professional astrologer, some things may not match up, further since we’re not super sure of his birth time, it’ll definitely affect the reading. What I can be sure of is that I’ll do my best and I’m completely open to constructive criticism from you all!

Now lets get on with some basic stuff, for those who have not yet read the post with Namjoon’s moon analysis, I’ll again reiterate some principles of Vedic astrology! In the scenario that you’re still confused with all this jargon, feel free to reach out and I’ll be more than happy to help you out.

Starting out, we have to note that while western astrology is usually more advisory in nature, Vedic astrology’s main purpose is to predict. Also, we usually go a sign back from western astrology (24’ back to be more precise) in Vedic astrology, so according to that for example, if you’re a libra rising, you become a virgo rising in Vedic astrology and so on and so forth. All planets will also shift back a sign, so a Capricorn Mercury will become a Sagittarius Mercury.

Now let’s be aware that the chart may be a bit different, but given the main d1 (Lagna) chart remains the same for about 2 hours, let’s focus on that and the moon chart (rashi chart) for this reading. We can also just look at d9 for strength but not house placements as that can be time sensitive. So, we can take a two hour margin of time discrepancy and still predict accurately.

For this reading, we have taken 9th March 1993 as the day and 7:30am as the time of birth, with the location set to Daegu.

OTHER THAN THIS, LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT ME TO DO A BIRTH TIME RECTIFICATION FOR YOONGI LATER ON SO WE CAN GET MORE ACCURATE PREDICTIONS.

Since this is a general chart analysis, we shall be covering topics briefly and discussing the moon, ascendant and sun. For an in depth reading, do pick a smaller and focussed topic as we can honestly keep going on and on about a chart.

THIS READING WILL BE DONE IN SEVERAL 4 PARTS, FOLLOWING THE ASCENDANT, MOON, SUN AND MISCELLANEOUS.

Lets get started then-

Right off the bat, we can see that Yoongi is born into Pisces, with his ascendant at 10’35’, within the Nakshatra of Uttarabhadprada, within the 3rd quadrant or pada. He has venus situated in the lagna itself, in Pisces, thus exalted. His lagna lord, Jupiter, is in the 7th house, conjuct with the Moon, in the sign of virgo, where jupiter gains the upper hand despite mercury (lord of virgo) being enemies. The lord is directly aspected by mars in the fourth house. The lord of the birth Nakshatra is Saturn here, which sits in the 12th house, conjunct sun and mercury (dispositer of the ascendant lord). Lastly, moon, jupiter and rahu aspect the lagna of this chart. Of course there is so so much more here, but we’ve got a whole chart to cover!

(p.s I can already see this is such a fun chart to read)

Getting on with the reading, we firstly see that he’s born under Pisces lagna, this makes the native calm and collected, as well as fond of philosophy and psychology. What we often forget is, people born under Pisces are said to have been born under all the other signs in their past life, and cumulatively they use their skills and knowledge from those lives in their current one. Remember how on Bon Voyage trips and just about every RunBts, saga seems like the ‘dad’ of the bunch? cooking, cleaning, fixing stuff Joon broke, producing music and the stuff? And all those times that he is so very understanding of other? He doesn’t scold Jungkook, let alone anyone else? These are typical Pisces traits. They’re very domestic and understanding by nature, because they’ve been there before in a past life, and enjoy taking care of people.

The downside to this? They can be extremely manipulative if they want to be, they know exactly what to say, when to say, to whom to say and so on. They have an alarming grip on people’s emotions, and have a magnetic quality to them. Further, this is mostly an observation, you’ll often notice that most pisces natives are fond of alcohol (could be because they exist in a water sign? Could be because its the natural 12th house ruler of addictions too?)

Coming to the Nakshatra here, we have UttaraBhadrapada, the second last Nakshatra of the series. This Nakshatra is ruled by Saturn, and the presiding deity being Ananta or Ahir Budhyana, the deep ocean serpent in hindu mythology. The deity Ananta represents boundless expansion, be it of fortune, goodwill or knowledge. Ahir Budhyana, is a sattvic (sacred or untainted) form of lord Shiv, and resides at he bottom of the ocean. He represents the liberation from illusions and attainment of spiritual enlightenment and knowledge. The natives of this Nakshatra here embody these qualities of their deities. We see them as philanthropic and reserved beings, who enjoy learning about a variety of subjects and spirituality. Such people are extremely progressive in their thinking patterns, and often a magnetic pull like the deep ocean serpent has.

They’re extremely controlled and calculating in their approach, and think more than speak. This by no means is to say that they don’t speak, because such people are great orators by nature. They stand up for the underdogs and have a unique approach to topics. They are extremely interested in occult and metaphysical practices and theories. They however commonly don’t obtain higher education or do well in fields of fine arts, even their primary education is not something they excel at. (i once read that yoongi really likes reading about a variety of subjects, and also Paulo Coelho, definitely his UttaraBhadrapada here)

The bad side to this Nakshatra? They’re very critical and over-analyze everything and everyone. Sometimes, even unconsciously, they manipulate people to suit their needs and whims. They get side tracked too often and have difficulty focussing on one task at hand, often amounting to laziness in other people’s eyes, even if the native is extremely hardworking in reality. However when in comes to personal care, they tend to do things in a very half-hearted manner. These people are also prone to isolating themselves from others, especially when things get hard. Due to the sign falling in pisces here, people also tend to have many different mental burdens and disorders, which arise from their constant scatter-brained self and inability to make out between the spiritual and real realms.

They can also be heavy drinkers and abuse substances in such a Nakshatra, or enjoy partaking in occult practices while under influences. They might’ve also faced a very rough childhood with such a Nakshatra, neglected and misunderstood by people around him. The natives could also have moved away from their parents during their early adulthood for education or job purposes. Such people can have health issues like hemorrhoids, stomach ailments and hernias. Usually they lead a stable period full of health and success in the latter part of life, say about after 48 years(since the south node Ketu matures as 48).

Since Suga’s Nakshatra falls into the third pada or quadrant, its ruled by libra here. Libra here focusses on balance and cooperation. Such people may make a living working with other people, or in industries related to entertainment. They may make great debaters, and think excessively about what other think of them as. They’re very conscious of other’s opinion, even if they don’t show it, so we often find such people wearing extremely covered up and baggy clothes for example, or keeping a low profile. They may have a very practical and unbiased approach to most things in life. Such people are intensely into spiritual practices and often times fully devote themselves at hours at a time to worship of gods, angel or other beings. They may be the type to attract people very easily, or even be the kind to fall in love extremely easily.

The second placement we come to, is Venus in the first house, in Pisces. Venus here is naturally exalted (most powerful). Sure ill give you the generic explanation in a bit but, do you know which type of people usually have this placement? Actual saints and famed occultists. Sure many people within the entertainment industry too, but this placement can hands down be one of the most spiritual and divine placements of Venus in the chart. First ill go ahead and give the normal meaning and effect, and then lets dive into the crazy stuff (istg his chart is so goooood). Such people usually have really magnetic personalities, and given Venus is in Uttarabhadrapa, these are the people who you don’t notice at first, but then its like a whirlpool of being invested in them, as opposed to being in Revati Nakshatra (another Piscean nakshatra) which would be a more dramatic pull, based off an extroverted personality. These people can be very good looking, more feminine looking, could definitely look like their mothers with this position. Brilliant luck in fields of arts and entertainment and also genius level of creativity and talent. Here, people can have brilliant luck too, like god’s hand on their head kind. Accumulation of wealth and property can also be seen here.

Now onto the really fun stuff. These people are actually rarely concerned with someone’s exterior, because often times such people have such good intuition and spiritual powers (some are literally called mystics because of this), they can literally see through someone. For this reason, they actually don’t like associating with too many people, despite having a very charming personality. These are the kind of people that keep searching for ‘the one’. These people often give up everything and go ahead and become priests. The calling to god with such a placement is very strong. They also don’t like collecting too many material possessions, as they feel its redundancy in this very changing world. These people hold the few people they’re close to, very very tightly to themselves. These people also may have a very low sexual drive actually, (i know, I know, how can a strong Venus do this?) because an exalted Venus is about devotion to god, to one person, and leaving sensory pleasures behind in life. A debilitated Venus on the other hand (eg. Jungkook has one) might make someone very invested in worldly matters. These people are happy with being alone and single for a long time, they’re very satisfied with their own company. Such placements can make someone practice magick or astral projection too. (Venus in 12th sign of liberation, liberation from physical body)

Given that in this chart, Venus is his 3rd and 8th lord, we can make further deductions. Firstly, since 3rd lord is going 11 houses away, its an extremely auspicious placement here. Self made person, making wealth through communication, can also have very witty and intelligent responses to things. Since the third house also represents courage and valor, this can make someone very fearless and say whats on their mind bluntly. Since the 3rd house is part of the Kama Trikon houses (houses of desire), this going into the 1st house, which is a part of the Dharma Trikon houses (houses of morality), gives interesting results here. Firstly, such people are fiercely independent, and hate to be disrupted when there pursuing their goals and working towards them. They hate to take help from anyone, and as a result are extremely competent. secondly, such people have a moral high ground, to which they religiously abide. They’re extremely righteous and stand up for those who wouldn’t be able to for themselves. Since from here, it aspects the 7th house of agreements, such people are great at understanding and signing contracts for work.

Now with the 8th house, we have a bit of a conundrum here honestly. It belongs to 2 types of houses, the moksha trikona houses (houses of salvation) as well as the Dushtana houses (evil houses). While this placement isn’t all that bad, it isn’t he best either. firstly though, this is a placement where the native always wins over their enemies (8th lord 6 houses away from itself), be it enemies as in people, or simply obstacles in their life. This also confers a long lifespan to people, given that his 8th lord is also exalted here. However such people are prone to accidents, given that the 1st house is the body, 8th house is sudden events and the natural 8th ruler mars is a karka or signifactor of vehicles. Such people are also against organized forms of religions, since the Dushtana lord is sitting in a dharma house. The native is also extremely private and secretive given the 1st house of self has the 8th lord of secrets sitting in it. Since it also aspects the 7th house of other people, this person has that aura of mystery about them because of this. Such people are deeply critical in nature but can have extreme wisdom in cases of hidden objects or matters of the occult.

Now coming to his aspects. His Venus is aspected by moon, Jupiter and Rahu. The first two are benefic in nature and the latter is malefic. Moon-Venus and Jupiter-Venus are also mutually aspecting each other in pairs here. Moon here gives Venus the property of being constantly cynical of themselves regards to what others may perceive them as, given moon is emotion and the 7th house here is other people. Their thoughts here are deeply influenced by other people, they may always keep serving other people too, through acts of service. This also makes someone who falls in love very easily, but it is important to engage this person’s mind in a relationship, they just cant do without an emotional bond here. Since Moon also represents fame in a chart, this makes a person very famous, as they receive attention from many people, and people want to analyze them, and enjoy their work and presence.

Jupiter here, makes the person level headed and practical. The person wouldn’t be all touchy feely with people they like, because they would like to remain more in control of the situation here. They’d rather engage in a full blown debate with someone, than hold hands. This also makes them very worldly and teacher like, while also being attracted to very worldly people themselves.

Rahu’s aspect on the other hand, makes someone stand out in a crowd (Rahu signifies an outcast), they may have a rough and cold exterior due to this. They may also have had issues with body image (1st house is self), or mental health here. These people are enamored by all things foreign, and love exploring the other cultures. They may have issues identifying with their own community at large, and may identify with the downtrodden of the society.

Now going to Jupiter and moon conjunction in the 7th house. I wont go very deep into this, as its a super interesting concept, and it’ll be better covered in the second part of the reading regarding the moon itself, so ill keep it short and related to the ascendant. Also the mutual aspect part will be explained in more detail in the miscellaneous section later. Plus this is getting far too long for even me now.

Getting on with the reading for now, moon and Jupiter here are in virgo, in a loose conjunction (one is at approximately 2’ and the other at 18’). This is actually one of the not very yogas (combinations)in a chart, about 15% of people have these. Its called the Gaj-Kesari yoga (the elephant and lion combination), because people with this are so extremely lucky, its like the kings of the jungle are together to support it. They have the wisdom of the elephant and the courage of a lion. This is a raj yoga (royal combination). a native born with Gaj-Kesari Yoga is intelligent, strong, and prosperous. Gaj or Elephant possesses immense strength and is devoid of pride and the Lion is known for his foresight and skillful intelligence as well as his strength, quickness, skillful leadership, ability and courage. Thus, when Gaj-Kesari Yoga is formed then that person is extremely successful. They will be a kind and philanthropic person, who will always have sympathy for others. They will be quite humble regarding work, would like to talk nicely to people and aim to attain spiritual progress in life. Many people will recognize them as their mentor or guide and will act according to their instructions or advice. They may have a tendency attracting people and people being magnetized by them. They will be blessed with abundant wealth and become the owner of movable and immovable property(cars as well as homes). They will establish relationships with rich and reputed people of the society and enjoy all kinds of material pleasures in life.

Since this occurs in virgo, it makes a person intelligent, sharp and gifts them with amazing memory power. Such a person is knowledgeable and can become the head of a large educational institution. He may own incomparable wealth and can earn a good name and money from business as well. Often such people earn a high reputation in the Stock Market and make progress in life by working in any financial institution or insurance sectors.

Here jupiter in particular makes someone extremely cynical in nature, and their mind is always, and I mean always, thinking about romantic relationships or platonic ones. However given that jupiter is also the 10th lord here, they could be extremely focused on work too. Their life is surrounded by contracts, and may work with others for a living(7th house is house of courts and partnership). They could be very interested in the financial sector here, they could be extremely money minded and money means stability to them. Moon here on the other hand makes the person very moody, and extremely dependent on their spouse or colleagues. Since it rules the fifth house here, it signifies that such people are extremely creative in their work, may work for children or young adults, have a lot of past life karma related to work, and also that they’re extremely devoted lovers. They tend to criticize their close friends and loved ones, just because they’re so cynical and blunt, and want the absolute best for people. They may hurt people’s feeling without realizing it sometimes. (this was very brief but refer to point 12)

Now coming to Saturn in 12th, as the lord of the birth nakshatra. Saturn over here signifies working in the fields of music, but given saturn represents electronics, it could mean a producer too. Since its in Aquarius here, a sign of dual lordship, this resents a constant up and down of mood and life spirit. The person with such a placement is confused with what truly makes them happy in life, the spiritual realm or the materialistic realm. They keep going up and down the path of being spiritual, till 36 years (saturn matters at 36). They may face a lot of mental disorders here. They may have trouble sleeping at night. Given saturn is also work, they may earn through foreign sources in life. Such a person invests money into properties (saturn is houses) and lacks liquid cash. The person may have a weak left eye (12th house is left eye). They may earn from multiple sources in life, and have multiple talents. Such people have low sex drives as saturn is a dry eunuch planet, and in the 12th house of bed pleasures, it may not allow native to enjoy it. They may not be interested in worldly pleasures with such placements.

Lastly (finally?), we have to discuss the looks! Pisces ascendents usually have the short to medium height, and tend to appear a little fuller even when they’re very scrawny. (its because jupiter is the largest planet). Uttarabhadrapada natives tend to have a very innocent look to them, a very calming nature and vibe. however, like the deep sea serpant, they have very deep and magnetic eyes, and a very expressive face (yoongi memes). They usually have a very beautiful smile, and can literally attract people with it (again the snake like quality). They tend to have a very blank look usually, and if you ever notice, they’ll have the most stunning eyelashes actually, given the yoni is the female cow. They might also have the habit of moving their mouth around when their thinking, quite like ruminating.

Given venus sits here, is gives the person very attractive, effeminate features. Think extremely renaissance type of soft features. It can give them very delicate hands and feet with such a placement. The moon aspect here, gives them a rounded face and pale skin. They might have sparkly eyes and a roundish appearance here, also the tendency to gain weight around their face, with short necks. They make also look much younger than their actual age.The jupiter aspect again makes the native very other worldly looking, almost like you can imagine them in a dark robe literally performing rituals. It gives people a calm and teacher type of vibe to them. The rahu aspect usually just blows qualities out of proportion. Have you seen how small and angelic suga looks compared to the other? (not saying they’re not angelic but still), thats the rahu aspect. Again, rahu aspects only get better with time.

So this was my analysis! If anyone has any questions or doubts, hit me up! Let me know if you enjoyed it!

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