#because of the conditions on the adoption

[madame-fear]

Okay, so. Yesterday I received a rather extent anon message blaming me for, apparently, “not being neutral in the drama” because I’m mutuals with someone that had little involvement in the situation I think, and as I found out today, my mutual already clarified things and apologised.

I left my answer to the ask in the drafts, but today I opted to ignore the message and remove the drafted answer. I did this not only because I wanted to drop things already and not stir up any more shit, but also because I have a condition where I constantly tremble, and any extreme emotion — whether it’s good or bad — makes my shaking worsen to the point I can barely function even for basic things and I feel sick in the stomach.

It wasn’t worth going through that. I thought it would be better to answer ask messages of people ranting, or asking things about it that were within the reach of my knowledge.

Until today, that a burner account named @/quillantrophy (which, they accidentally exposed their real account in one of their screenshots), thought they could do a “call out” post... Posting my answers to anon asks & basically treating me as a hypocrite over nothing?

And they said I should explain things because since I wasn’t commenting on anything they said on the post, I was “adding fuel to the fire” (that exact quote). I didn’t have time to explain things at the moment, but I do now and I will answer bit by bit. I will do this just to avoid possible misunderstandings.

I want to clarify that I don’t feel comfortable getting involved in things that I’ve never been involved in— and if I receive more messages about the drama itself, those messages will be deleted. I feel kind of bad about this since people have only been coming to my ask box asking thing about it confuses, or seeking comfort from the moment, but like we’ve been saying, it’s better to drop things already, and focus on the good things inside the fandom.

The answer to the post is below the cut. It’s going to be long, sorry, but I prefer to clear any misunderstandings. And I will highlight something extremely important down below, besides apologising deeply for any misunderstanding. And this is the last time I will be talking about it

“there’s no issue with this, but she claims to be neutral and is currently explaining/advocating on the situation whilst adopting this stance.” I am neutral on the situation. I will eternally remain neutral because as we’ve seen, neither side is good.

As I’ve said before, Cal had little to do with all of this huge mess. From what I learned today, she already clarified and apologised about the situation. Cal was dragged through the mud by both of the groups out of nowhere, and she also fell for their shit so she was fooled by them just like lots of other people— she told me herself.

“This is bullshit, there’s no transparency” huh? what does that even mean,, I just… Literally don’t have any involvement at all? What can I say or do about it? Both groups of people were already on my blocklist since last year lmao.

“She has connection to the drama purely through this even as she apparently didn’t participate — allegedly.” I’m sorry but the allegedly part is killing me too. I wasn’t even on their Discord groups, nor talked to any of the people involved, explain why the word ‘allegedly’ was even added?

also, how the hell am I supposed to be connected to the drama if, as you said, I didn’t even participate in it, only because I’m mutuals with someone who was named in it? What kind of sense does that make?

As I stated above, I am, and always have been a neutral onlooker about the situation, who explained the situation to the confused people, even posting the links with the full info and proof to not spread incorrect information accidentally.

“Does @bucknastysbabe even know or care you’re slamming her on main and then love bombing her the next?” Cal knows about all your post, and all my answers to each ask regarding the situation.

She knows I hadn’t seen her apology/clarifying video until today. She even cheered me up when I had an anxiety attack after this person made this post, only to then delete it and deactivate the account. So, yes, she knows pretty much everything and she knows it was a mere mistake of mine.

Then, the person posted this. I will show the screenshots of what they said, and what answered ask they were referring to using their own SS.

(sorry if the screenshot pics are switched of their right places) I had no idea that was a direct quote from Cal’s apology video, because I OBVIOUSLY HADN’T SEEN IT. I don’t know how else to stress this, but I’m not chronically online, and neither I see everything my mutuals post.

Either way, I literally re-read my own response to check what I had answered, and this was terribly misunderstood. The only response I had about Cal’s statement was “why am I not surprised?”, and in the rest of my response, I tried to be as neutral as possible— in the rest of my response, I was referring to the general situation of the drama, and in fact I was mostly referring to the things Bel, Fae, Em and Ange said + did.

But nothing else, thats it, because I wanted to speak about the situation in general and I was referring to the group of people— I didn’t name names and neither I referenced Cal’s statement any further. I deeply apologise for the misunderstanding, but sometimes I explain myself awfully mostly because English isn’t my native language.

if this was considered with any possible ill intention at all, I offer once again my most sincere apologies. I never had any bad intention, and the only thing I’ve been doing was answer the asks of the people who came to my ask box inquiring about what had happened, try to offer comfort to those who felt disappointed and heartbroken, and in general just try to provide as much positivity as I could amidst the terrible situation.

Some believe I was trying to gain attention from the situation, and that I was stroking the flames of the drama. I at no cost even thought of ‘getting attention’ from it, or that I was actually getting attention, I simply answered the messages I was receiving to interact with my own followers— I mean, it didn’t feel good to leave them hanging.

I do have to take responsibility that perhaps my actions continued to keep the drama up, but again, I never had this intention, and I’m terribly sorry if that’s what my answers and interactions caused.

Please I do hope you guys understand my point of view, and that I never intended for any of this to be understood in the wrong manner. I have to admit that despite all the lovely people and fun moments I had/have in the fandom, it’s also responsible for worsening my condition the 90% of the times due to the unnecessary drama, and this situation today made me feel extremely bad physically as it automatically involved me in a situation I didn’t want to be involved in, nor have anything to do with it.

And that’s why, from now on, I won’t be answering any message related to the drama anymore to not keep mentioning the things that happened. As I said all the way above, we should currently be focusing only on the good, positive things of the fandom— and hopefully, we will all learn to not be rude or gossip about other people over mere fandoms, or fanfanfiction.

Then again, thank you for reading and understanding. If I expressed myself wrongly anywhere in here, please feel free to ask me about it and I will glady re-explain it. I hope this can clear everything, and please, I don’t want to be involved any further in anything.

#fandom rants #I hope this cleared everything out. I am as polite and as clear as I can be about the situation. #important #✧.* amiraverse

[breakaway71]

Spark

Fandom: 9-1-1, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, ~17,500 words Rating: PG-13 Summary:

When Eddie's estranged cousin, a victim of sexual assault, asks if he would consider adopting the baby she doesn't feel capable of raising herself, Eddie says yes…but only on the condition that he can ask Buck to be a co-parent.

Adopting a child together changes a lot of things. It also doesn't really change anything at all.

(or, Eddie and Buck do everything backwards, except maybe not everything.) Notes: There are frank discussions surrounding the rape of an original character, and the fact that it led to an unwanted pregnancy. I did not tag for these, because it happened in the past, off-screen, to a secondary character, and it is never discussed in detail, but please take care if this could be a trigger. I watched this entire show in 9 days and then immediately wrote this in a feverish week-long haze. I feel drugged.

Read it on AO3!

#9-1-1 #911 abc #buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz

[fairie-grl]

inspired by @onadarklingplain 's 'Albon Pet Primer'

Sir Lewis Hamiltion has a dog, his dog is the goodest boy in the world, and I know too much about his dog so now you must suffer with this knowledge as well enjoy:

Lewis adopted Roscoe, a English bulldog, from an online adoption agency in 2013.Roscoe is a purebred bulldog with both his mom and dad being show dogs. Roscoe's name was chosen because Lewis thought it but Crofty calling Nico ‘Roscoe’ at the 2016 Chinese Grand Prix makes me have my doubts. Lewis later adopted Coco, a female bulldog. Coco’s breeder was originally going to put her down due to how expensive her health conditions, mostly likely a heart condition, were but Lewis stepped in. If you are trying to tell Coco and Roscoe apart in photos, Coco has a wider white stripe on her head. It is widest around the top of her head. Roscoe has more wrinkles and a brown spot on his snout and his strip ends at the top of his head and a new one starts off center in the back of his head. Coco’s fang teeth are also out more often compared to Roscoe's little teeth and she is a lighter color than Roscoe. Lewis expressed that he adopted the dog because his family has always had dogs, mostly labradors, but he said he always wanted an English bulldog. Coco lived till June 2020 when she passed in the night. Lewis and Roscoe were with her. His mom has five dogs! Both Roscoe and Coco have passports so they can travel with Lewis. Lewis was also granted special permission from Bernie Ecclestone to bring the dogs to the padlock (I assume Charles will ask Domenicali to bring Leo to the Padlock). 

Lewis brought a jet to fly with the dogs which he then sold in 2019. Roscoe is good with traveling due to his love of napping. In his first trip with Lewis he slept through most of the flight waking up to go to the bathroom and to make Lewis put him in his lap. Lewis followed Roscoe's command, sleeping with Roscoe in his lap like “a baby.” Lewis said, “Roscoe is the best travel pet, he just sleeps with you.” As Roscoe is getting older, Lewis has made the decision to travel less with him, as the time zones were getting hard on him. While Lewis is racing, Roscoe stays in Los Angeles, California with dog trainer Kirstin McMillan (adventuresindogtraining on instagram). Lewis says he gets pictures of Roscoe everyday and checks in on him. Roscoe also attends a dog park or “Los Angeles' first canine social club” as stated on their website called ‘Dog PPL’ in Santa Monica. It is about $120 a month for one dog.  

Not only is Roscoe Lewis’s son but also his best friend. Lewis talked about his instant connection when they first met. Roscoe gets sad when Lewis leaves and happy when he returns. Lewis says, “Then I get the Frisbee and play with him, and that’s, for me, the biggest highlight – the unconditional love you get from a pet like that.” Roscoe loves quad bikes. In one interview, Lewis said it’s because he’s lazy so he likes being driven around. However, I think it’s because he has taken after his dad and wants to race. Roscoe also loves frisbee and his ball; it seems like he enjoys fetching and chasing after things, like chasing other cars down… Roscoe WDC 2024 confirmed. Lewis also has Roscoe involved in many of his projects, Lewis has hinted that Roscoe has a cameo in ‘Apex’, his movie starring Brad Pitt. When Fortnite asked him to be in the game he said he would only agree if Roscoe was in the game with him. Fortnite, of course, agreed because Roscoe is an angel. They ended up putting him in a jet pack. He was 1,500 V-Bucks or 2,400 V-Bucks with the ‘Lewis Hamilton Budle’ (IDK if thats a lot I don’t play Fortnite). Lewis also said Roscoe is the only person he can count on to stand with him along with Bono.

After Coco’s death, Lewis took Roscoe to the vet where they recommended starting him on a vegan diet similar to what Lewis has. This vegan diet is often recommended to bulldogs because they often have food intolerances or allergies to the meat proteins that can affect the skin and gastrointestinal tract. The vegan diet Roscoe is on still includes the same things without the meat proteins in it that caused him to have health issues. Lewis has said his breathing has improved and that he no longer has skin allergies. Roscoe also has physical therapy and acupuncture every week to help with his joints.  Roscoe has also had health issues that caused him to ejaculate, often uncontrollably, scaring baby Roscoe and leading to him getting snipped in 2016. Lewis did have his sperm frozen so that Roscoe could have puppies. Lewis said, “It’s great his genes will live on.” Lewis said his plans were to have Roscoe’s puppies after he retires but with the fanzone in 2024 Australia GP, it sounds to me like he may be looking sooner to have Roscoe’s pups or to retire. Last year, around the British GP, Roscoe had some issues regarding his spine. If I remember correctly, it involved a slipped hernia in his spine. Luckily, he got stem therapy and was able to attend the GP. He has been improving, and as of today he is back to normal.

Now for the part most people know about. Roscoe started his instagram account, roscoelovescoco, in January 2015 with a post featuring Coco and him captioned “Thanks for following us :).” The instagram account was originally a joint account with both Coco and Roscoe until 2020, although both did get solo posts. As expected Roscoe does make money off his Instagram, but he is also a dog model. Lewis said in a Silver Arrows interview in 2021 that he gets paid $700 a day which goes in Roscoe's treat fund. Roscoe also has sponsorships. His Thanksgiving party was sponsored by Bramble Pets, and he did content (including a commercial) for Zapp, a food delivery company Lewis invested in. Roscoe also appears in Lewis' vlog channel (it hasn’t been updated since 2021) multiple times. His last appearance is in a video “Adventures with Roscoe! | Lewis Hamilton Vlogs” which is also the last updated video on Lewis channel. He reached 1 million followers in 2024, which is more than Chouprette Lagerfield, the cat of Karl Lagerfeld (I am not joking, this man left a good chunk of his fortune [~$300 million] to his cat). Roscoe’s captions on his instagram posts were originally typed in a sort of third person first person mix but in October 2020, Roscoe finally established his first first person post with his famous lisp. However, the conspiracy expands as prior to this first lisp post, there are two posts on instagram where Roscoe (and Coco) are talking to us. The first one was posted April 2024 with Roscoe saying, ‘They put a thermometer up me bum, dad!’ In this speech bubble, Roscoe doesn’t have a lisp but does speak in a sort of baby talk. The next post in October 2017 features both Roscoe and Coco with Roscoe saying, “We got acupuncture today Dad!” and Coco saying, “It’s my favorite.” (More info about the dogs getting acupuncture is in the health section.) I will note his lisp comes and goes on his posts around November 2020. His lisp finally stays and its intensity does increase. There are also a few posts taken with Mercedes that don’t feature the lisp, and a few posts talking about Roscoe or Coco written in their “Dad’s” pov where it obviously doesn’t use a lisp.

#roscoe hamilton #roscoe for fia president #lewis hamilton #f1 #formual one #team lh44 #lh44 #f1 fandom #roscoelovescoco #primer #informational #long post #coco hamilton #f1 essay #roscoe my beloved #sir lewis hamilton #f1blr #f1 blog #if roscoe has a million fans i am one of them #if roscoe has ten fan i am one of them #if roscoe has one fan it is me #if roscoe has no fans i am dead #i have a problem

[pocketramblr]

36 for the word game, please!

36. — conditional

"You don't... want to eat my soul?" Izuku asked. Everything felt unreal, between the light around the demon and the floating sensation between Izuku and his body. Maybe it was just the bloodloss or oxygen deprivation. Maybe the demon wasn't even here. That'd be the better option, right?

"It would not be." The demon grumbled. "Young man, I'd have to be a very powerful demon to utilize souls in magic. I don't know if anyone but the demon king has ever managed it. As for eating humans... Well, yes, some demons would. But I don't."

Well, then Izuku's would-be murderers were going to be very disappointed.

"They just summoned a demon, guess there wasn't a way to phone ahead and check your interest. Sorry you got dragged into this too, then, you can leave right?" And then with no demon to fulfill their wish, Izuku's kidnappers would... Probably just kill him. He was dead anyway.

The demon's brows furrowed, his eyes shone sharp blue in black. "I could, but I don't want to leave you to your death. Nor do I want them to try again, with another summoning circle."

Oh. That was nice of him.

"Unfortunately, I can't really do anything yet until I accept or deny the contract. Until you are dead, or mine." The demon began to pace, yellow bangs swaying side to side. Izuku watched him, and didn't move from the circle painted on the ground. Moving sounded like it would hurt.

"Well, I guess..." The demon sighed, then turned back. "Ok, here's an offer: I adopt you as my son. That means accepting the contract, with another on top."

Izuku already had a dad. He thought about what his mom would say if he said yes, it would have broken her heart. But if he said no... Well she wouldn't exactly have been happy about this, either.

"As your son?"

"It would allow you safe passage to the Netherworld and would fulfill a condition of the contract."

"The Netherworld?"

"Where demons dwell. As I said, in this world... You're not long for it."

"What are the other conditions?"

"I'd need something from you. As this saves your life, you'd have to give up something too."

"My soul?"

"No, that'd be under my custody until you reach adulthood. You'd have to give up your surname."

"Oh, like, change my name on the family registry because I'd be adopted? Demons have family registries too?"

"Sorta... But no. I mean, give it up. You wouldn't ever remember your family's name here, and it'd be replaced with mine."

Oh.

It was his mom's surname.

"So if I don't agree, I die. And if I do, I forget my name and go to the Netherworld with you, and you are definitely only going to adopt me and not eat me because if you wanted to do that you already would have, I guess, and... What happens here? To make sure there isn't another summoning circle or they try to get even more people killed because it apparently works and-"

The demon waved a hand. "In accepting, I would also be sealing the deal with... them too, yes, but I can then make sure they are unable to do anymore harm with it."

"So, you wouldn't be giving them what they want?"

The demon snorted. "I'd be giving them what they think they want. And I can promise you this, they will regret it."

Izuku almost asked what it was. Almost asked what they wanted badly enough to kill him. But couldn't.

"All right. I agree."

"Really?" The demon sounded too surprised, considering he'd been trying to sell Izuku on this plan. Or, trying to get Izuku to sell on his plan?

"Yeah."

"Deal. Sign here." The demon snapped, and papers and and old pen hovered in front of Izuku. He couldn't read the paper.

He signed it anyway.

#and that's why everyone calls him 'Izuku' and no one uses Midoriya in that au #because of the conditions on the adoption #anyway! should izuku have signed a contract he can't read? no #but was it totally worth it because now he gets dad might? yes #pocket talks to people #shih shoulda had it #ask game #a familiar Netherworld au

[canisalbus]

Hypothetically if. If they had a kiddo. A puppy. Does that hypothetical child have a design in your genius artist head anywhere

.

#hmm #no probably not #they can't have biological children #and I doubt they'd ever end up adopting either #it would be just a little depressing to design a character that can't ever be used #and even if you did it just because you wanted to see how their genetics could potentially mix #Machete is albinistic and unless his offspring inherited the condition (rendering them fully white like him) #they would have completely different colors #so it wouldn't be gold + white but gold + mystery mix #right? #answered #anonymous

[scificrows]

I am going over Murderbot's and ART's first interactions again and it's driving me crazy, so I really need to yell into the void about it.

Alright, so we have ART:

ART, a highly advanced deep space research vessel, who is very attached to its crew and seems to generally do what it's supposed to, especially when not doing so could endanger its mission - but ends up accepting a suspicious looking SecUnit that is lying about being a bot aboard itself. ART is evidently aware that it is directly breaking the rules in doing so. (Aside: How often does ART break the rules?) Why? All for that tempting media package that the SecUnit has to offer?

No.

It was sent off to do some work all alone and got bored and lonely. (I think there are different ways to intepret this, but looking at our super social raised-by-humans loving-its-crew never-shutting-up research vessel, I choose to think that is exactly what it was!)

Anyway, what does ART do now that it has this lying, potentially dangerous rogue SecUnit aboard? It

lets it know that it saw right through its lies and knows exactly what it is

intimidates and threatens it by showing off its own ridiculously extensive superiority (just to be on the safe side ofc)

gets bored after the SecUnit gets too scared to do anything interesting

asks the SecUnit to "stop sulking"

learns that the SecUnit has been through A Lot and seemingly understands how it made it feel and apologizes

gets bored again and starts lurking and harasses convinces the SecUnit to watch media about ships and their crews with it

[gets way too invested and agitated by the media, probably going through its first media-induced emotional crises (but gets through them with the support of the very patient SecUnit)]

tries to have a conversation with the SecUnit to get to know it better

gets offended that the SecUnit is not answering truthfully and won't share sensitive and very private information about itself

lets the SecUnit know it can see through its lies, calling it "inherently inferior" to itself and causing the SecUnit to sulkily shut down for four hours (lol)

immediately calls the SecUnit "unnecessarily childish" upon its awakening four hours later (referring to its own extensive experience with children to really get the point across)

And apparently all of this seemed to be a perfectly pleasant and normal interaction to ART, because:

That's how you make friends, isn't it?!

God, I love ART so so so much and this is SO funny to me! To be fair, I don't think anyone ever really prepared it for an interaction like this. (Probably because its crew did not expect it to pick up a stray rogue SecUnit and try to befriend it).

Bonus:

#murderbot #the murderbot diaries #asshole research transport #𓄿 #artificial condition #listen #sometimes you just see a friendshaped SecUnit and you have to adopt it #even if its a little ferral because it was not raised with warmth and love the way you were #even if it bites #i just love them so so so much #sometimes ART seems so smart and wise and composed #that i forget that ART is really just very stupid too #and i say that very very lovingly #sorry for the long post i just have a lot of emotions #if anyone is up for screaming into the abyss about ART and murderbot together #please join me and let me know whether you think ART was all dutiful and rule-abiding before it got corrupted by murderbot #or whether it was already pushing the rules and potentially getting itself into trouble before this #because i can't decide which option is more fitting and i like both

[lucrezianoin]

Yenna is like

and this is my family

a devil-celebrity, a warrior from the hells, a vampire, a cultist, an alien woman, the murderous son of a god, a wizard, a guy who is a bear 50% of the time, a bickering non-married couple, a pair of angelic lesbians and a skeleton man

#yenna #baldur's gate 3 #spoilers #dark urge #adult yenna being like wait a minute... what was going on back there... #i imagine adult yenna being like a prodigy adventurer because of her peculiar uprising especially if she stays with some of the characters #after the ending #i imagine wyll would insist the duke adopts her so she can have a title and then she learns magic from literally gale #cambion mizora even has a soft spot for her #18 years old yenna adventuring being like #hey have you met my family #how old is she 10? imagine her as an arcane trickster meeting druid arabella and thief warlock mol #and they are like time to help the family #and adventure left and right to find a solution for karlach heart and astarion sun condition

[bijoumikhawal]

got reminded of the "saying Arabs conquered and colonized North Africa is Zionist because obviously no one saying that coulx possibly draw a distinction between North African Arabs and Palestinian Arabs, and even drawing a distinction between Arabs and Imazighen is colonizer shit" school of thought

#cipher talk #I have seem Zionists co-opt the language of MENA Indigenous groups but MF that doesn't mean we're WRONG #It means they're stealing our talking points to appeal to more left leaning people #How is it you can recognize that they've co-opted the language of social justice and that that doesn't mean social justice is bad #Until the people YOU dispossess are mentioned and suddenly you're doing step 8 of the 8 steps of white settler colonial denial #Just like the Israelis do! #And yeah like. Some people don't draw the distinction. That's a product of intergenerational trauma and how our communities #Get manipulated by the US and shit. I've also met Arabs not from North Africa that refuse to draw a distinction #And see a discussion of how Arabs have hurt Indigenous Africans as an attack on them when it doesn't make sense to do so #I've also met a lot of people who DO clearly draw a distinction because the material conditions of Palestinians are that of Indigenity #Are your material conditions as a postcolonial North African with an Arab name and a mosque and skin that isn't black that of Indigenity? #Do you not have people with your face in the government (regardless of how shifty it is)? Did someone take your land or your churches land? #Do you struggle with employment? Is your tongue not the most common one? Are your cultural clothes looked at with distaste? #Are your girls targeted for kidnapping and rape to force them to not be of your culture? Are your women called whores who WANT rape? #Are you harassed by cops? Does the government try to take your kids because they have bullshit adoption laws? #Do your kids get arrested at 12 or 13 and almost sent a thousand miles away from home before pressure stays the order? #Is your language called feudal? Do people tell you they hope it dies soon? Is your name a barrier in your life? #Did they drown your fucking village? #Because all of these are things Copts and Nubians can say yes to #Before I even start on the shit done in the Maghreb or the fuckery about how Egypt defines 'Amazigh territory' (which is very complicated)

[jasontoddenthusiastt]

Maybe it’s just me, but family ties and status don’t really mean jack when the way you interact with your family members/loved ones is abusive (and by default, utterly unacceptable).

#kelseethe #it seems like you’re just picking on semantics and dodging the point people are trying to make #nobody but dc denies that Jason was officially adopted by Bruce and that he’s considered Bruce’s son #(both legally and because of the relationship they had/have) #but if the last time a parent acted like a loving parent was literally over a decade ago #and ever since he’s just been meddling and disruptive and overall leaving pain and chaos in your life for years now #(which Jason fans have to witness in practically all his comics because Bruce just has to make an appearance at least once every time) #then is it really a reach for people to point out that them trying to constantly force these characters together #(at the expense of Jason’s mental well-being and his values. every single time. it’s never Bruce compromising.) #is it really a reach for people to say this feels forced and that we don’t want to see this family dynamic #because 1. we don’t constantly wanna see our fav get invalidated and #2. have his stories be limited because of his ties to a family whose love and acceptance is at best conditional #because they only ever use him being part of this ‘family’ as an excuse to police his morals and actions #while he never actually recieves the love and respect that comes with being a son and a brother

[chryzure]

sitting here, twiddling my thumbs. azure might be some form of aplatonic as well.

#memorie.txt #aspec in all categories i guess!!! #mostly because. i was rlly trying to figure out what his deal is #because he’s Friendly with ppl (or polite) but generally doesn’t pursue deeper friendships #because he doesn’t rlly feel the need to?? he’s jst fine as is thanks… he has his wife and his 21 seaslug free daughters at home.. #hmm. jst feels weird when trying to assign him friends. he would NOT enjoy that!!!! #there’s literally no drive or enjoyment derived from (most?) friendships. he’s jst enduring #i think conni surpassed that by hitting azure’s cheat code totally on accident (photography/chess/chrysi) #and now he and conni are linked for life #and chrysi jst is the most perfect companion for azure ever #so she gets to be his. jst his. like it’s romantic but it’s also so much More than that. they once shared a body. they once shared a SOUL. #it’s too simple to describe as romantic… #anyway. this doesn’t count when azure perceives someone as an adoptive child because he loves kids #but at the end of the day azure jst likes keeping friendly acquaintances #. this is no surprise to anyone but im slowly figuring out labels for all my charas #and assigning them all different mental conditions too. chrysi’s bipolar and has ocd (obvious). jacks has bpd like crazy. #azure’s… hmm. defs low empathy and depression and probably autism #but most of my characters do. chrysi’s ocd might stem from autism i jst need to Consider this.. #anywayyy. thoughts. #i am Going to sleep. i cried vv hard and ate chocolate and thought abt azure so im all good for the night ithink

[frostbite-the-bat]

remembering old fandoms and rps and aus i had and im realizing this isnt the first time an au version of frostbite interacted a lot with someone who at least in text had a quirk that does something to the letter s which is ironic considering their name

#...........im talking about hr again sorry my condition gets worse each day especially when im more open about it #the previous/other one was a few years back. #it was . my gorillaz days...! and my gangreen gang specific hyperfix...! (never actually watched ppg) #they were besties with snake and there was a joke they adopted him and that he was their “sssson” even if they were only like a year older #our au ggg was very different bc it was like 4-3 ppl rping our own shit but it was very found family and backstories were Angsty #and obviously snake hisssssesss hisss letter sss #then hr haff hiff liffp #fun fact i used to have a pretty nasty lisp when i was younger before i got my teeth fixed up a bit so i honestly unironically love #characters with any kind of lisp even if its the daffy duck kind (who may be a bit hard for me to understand when voice acted like that but #i still Enjoy) #(i need subtitles for literally anything anyway) #anyways ggg au frostbite is also the edgiest of all the au frostbites that exist #least developed/just cool design is glamrock frost #most developed as a character and MOST goofy is toontown frost #anyways back on the lisp whoever put the letter s into the word lisp genuinely needs to die. and the word stop. yes i got bullied about #my lisp why do you ask #ok since im rambling heres a bigger ramble #both gorillaz and hr make me feel better abt my teeth #all the band members in gorillaz have mad fucked up teeth and i didnt have access to a good dentist until like 2020. i was endlessly #bullied for my teeth and i had difficulities eating some things and other health issues because i had horrid teeth bc of genes + my parents #didnt teach me to clean my teeth properly like wow you gotta go BETWEEN the teeth. the white stuff that covers your teeth ISNT GOOD ACTUALL #and hr has a mad overbite and i have that too so that makes me feel better..ive been rlly subconscious abt that lately actually #still wondering why nobody bothered gettin that fixed but i guess everything else was a bigger issue #and the fact i was missing my front teeth #yeah my health back then wasnt the best ! and i was bullied abt it even by my own best friends parents! no good! but seeing silly band #members who r fictional who i was hyperfixated on helped me feel better #man wish i could hide stuff from appearing in tag searches bc i just like rambling in the tags #but then i say one word and it appears in the tags and im super subconsious about it now bc i made one ramble and boom why is it in the #hr tag :sob: :skull: #OH WELL.

[obstinatecondolement]

I give my dad's brother a pass on never contacting us, as he is more broadly shunning all of my dad's side of the family. He was adopted and was treated like shit by my grandmother, because she a) didn't want to adopt and resented her adopted children, and b) was a fucking racist to her black adopted children, so he doesn't consider us to be his family. Particularly now that he is in contact with his biological mother and half-siblings.

He's also chronically depressed to a very disabling degree and lives in another country, so like... there are barriers to communication there that are different to the rest of the family not talking to us because they think we're embarrassing and messy.

#I met him one time exactly #when I was about ten #at my grandfather's house #he was writing in a journal at the time and I was writing a (very bad) poem in a day-a-page diary I had gotten discounted #because it was for the previous year #and people remarked on the family resemblence in terms of habit #which neither of us (trying to write in our books and not join in the conversation) were especially receptive to #I think about him a lot now #my grandfather didn't leave him anything in his will #which apparently you can legally do here to your adopted children?? #even though you cannot legally disinherit your biological children if your name is on their birth certificate #the other siblings kind of divided up their inheritance among themselves after the fact to cut him in with an equal share #but like... really really bad that they had to do that #and honestly I would have expected better of my grandfather #who was the one who wanted to adopt in the first place #because he grew up in an institution from around 7 to 15 #(his mother was too mentally ill to look after him and his siblings at the time so his father surrendered them to different working schools #who then refused to give them back when she was well again because their funding was based on how many kids were there) #and he fostered a lot of kids as an adult because he felt strongly about children living in orphanages and other institutions #but like... apparently didn't feel strongly enough about it that his son's inclusion in his will wasn't conditional! #my dad's adopted sister was much closer to my grandfather and saw him several times a week #(she is grateful her mother died in her early sixties because she feels this allowed her to develop a close relationship with her father) #so she was in the will #but it must have felt pretty chilling to know that she might not have been if she hadn't been a Good Enough Daughter

[miisfits-toys]

A little vignette of a "current times" Cecil and Emil, engaging in their usual Let's Get Into A Feedback Loop/Tangent Indefinitely Over Subject

#My Art #Illustration #Original Character #Original Characters #Ipseity: Cecil Montre #Ipseity: Emil Fannar #This is one part 'Obligatory comic practice' and one part 'This is another dynamic I adore and need to draw more now' #Emil is very lucky to end up adopted by someone who understands that It's So Important to Talk About Interest #Cecil is so quick to engage with him and do all he could to fuel the interest #Emil is also just interested in what Cecil does cause That's His Pops and also he has those strange intensive hobbies #He's only ever drawn to the concept of gardening being a Thing He can Do because it was originally one of Cecil's things..... #I also hopes this highlights how absurd their respective heights are #It was never intentional to have 'tall father small son' dynamic but I Do have a laugh over how it ended up that way #However Cecil does sincerely have it as the gigantism condition (and all the things that come of it) #Emil is just tiny. He's just baby. Never got to grow up as it were (and stylistic choice but shsh)

[cosmojjong]

at least once a month i get asked when i'm gonna have a child and i have to go on about how i, in fact, don't want children as much as i love them

#'but you're 25!!' I DON'T CARE? i'm just not fit to be a parent #i wouldn't even adopt tbh i just can't take care of another human being #i can't even handle myself without having a mental breakdown what makes you think i can bring up someone healthily #my family are gonna need to believe in my brother (not that he'd make a good father either) because i will not go there #i love kids i love looking after them .. if they're not mine #i don't have the mental emotional physical and economical capacity for that #and ppl like me shouldn't be shamed for it !!!!!!!! we can have healthy relationships with the idea of kids and still not want them #kids deserve the best conditions for growing up it's not fair to bring them into this world when you know you can't take care of them #and to think of all the kids in orphanages my heart breaks too

[todayisafridaynight]

Some Yakuza villains: I am unlovable and I require nothing from others. I am self sufficient. Blegh urgh hnnnng

Same characters after receiving genuine kindness and sincerity: 🥺

A few of those same characters when the person who is nice and soft to them ends up giving them a heart boner: I'm madly in love with you now and everyone around me knows I'm weak for you

sometimes i think of that quote thats like 'everyone is motivated by love one way or another' and yeah you know what. most yakuza villains fall in line with that tbh

#snap chats #mine is just such a glaring example though since it's the most obvious #also it genuinely is so cute how he always softens at the slightest bit of kindness towards him i love it so much #but fr like. nishiki didnt feel cared for or appreciated- not to mention he was fighting tooth and nail for his sister #ryuji felt alone and abandoned growing up- im gonna eat dry wall if i think bout him god why couldnt they let him live #him and kaoru deserved to be happy sibs together he was so happy to find out he had a little sister :(((( #aoki constantly felt isolated because of his condition and wanted to change his entire person just so people would like him #aoki was esp obsessive with that like holy shit. dude was so needy for love and adoration he became a politician #he was doomed from the start lets face it but point is #hell even in y6 hirose acted against his own kids because he wanted to be accepted and loved by his adoptive father #i was supposed to be drawing Premium Bullshit now im on the precipice of goin bonkers

[sammydem0n64]

Been rethinking the “Toffa is adopted by Pearo, Chazel and Dolat” lore if only bc. Y’know Pearo is meant to be the main parent but he’s an unemployed 25 year old whose only stable living situation is crashing on his older brother’s couch. Dolat is always traveling due to work as well so he won’t be rather active either. And Chazel is the most stable here largely no complaints actually. BUT there’s also the fact Toffa is in a VERY dangerous situation (her parents are gang members who forced her into their ranks at a young age, the longer she stays with them rhe more likely it is she’ll end up gravely injured or worse) and none of them are. Really equipped to handle that. At all? Pearo’s family is in the mafia yeah but the other two are completely defenseless 😭 they’re just some guys being thrown into the horrors out of nowhere because some teenage girl decided to latch onto their boyfriend out of spite . Much more interesting to dissect this tbh

#Like yes. they love each other as a family. or at least claim to! #but like. DO these three truly have the resources to actually be full on adoptive parents to this kid? and not just family figures? #Like in Phoenix and Picoda’s case like yeah. Phoenix still lives in his parents basement when Molly latches onto him but both he and Picoda- #-Have the resources to take care of her. Picoda has a house with Ket and enough money to feed cloth protect her etc #and also. Molly isn’t in a life or death situation living with Waffa. it’s not like this is time sensitive #Melphis May be emotionally stunted and shit too but we all know he’s in a position to take care of ALL of his adoptive kids 😭 #But Pearo is literally homeless . not really the best conditions to be adopting a child who has very intensive needs #And Dolat + Chazel. honestly we’re really nonchalant about the Toffa thing #like yeah they care but they also didn’t put much thought into it. they’re just like ‘oh guess we have a daughter now’ #not considering the work and care required. especially in this case where a gang may come busting down your door to take her back #Unless Pearo can speedrun getting his shit together and whatnot Toffa will probably lack a lot of the stuff a proper guardian can provide #Because yes they love her . but she needs more than that #they need to be more than just friends. people who like having her around and want to protect her from her shitty bio family #she needs so much more and. it’s ok to acknowledge you can’t fully provide that. that she’ll be better off living with someone else #because that’s what you would do For a loved one. youd let them thrive instead of being selfish and claiming you know what you’re doing #you can still be family just not in this nuclear context! #much to think abt #EDIT: THIS IS LIKE. OK THE WAY IM IMAGINING THIS IS IN A LEGAL GUARDIAN CONTEXT OBVS #Like I said they can still be family they can still see each other as family BUT this trio is not in the position to actually have a kid rn #She’s gotta live with someone(s) who can actually provide for her needs Y’know 😭 but they can still b family #clarifying bc of the previous examples . and didn’t want to have the vibe of ‘you can’t b adoptive or found family if you’re broke!!’ Y’know #it’s just a matter of fucking. legal guardianship and living situations and ‘can we actually fucking raise a kid properly or nah’