#because this Blows it’s so frustrating

[fulane-de-tal]

need all the non christians and my ally combatants in the war on christmas to come bitch and moan about christian hegemony with me. this is horrible.

#je parle #if one more goddamn person says happy holidays Only Today. if one more person who knows i’m a jew wishes me a merry christmas #i am traveling back in time and eating baby jesus #because this Blows it’s so frustrating #anyway have a normal non holiday day. have a completely mid day. #i hope your december 25th is so fucking boring and just like every other day of the week. i hope you get to sleep i. #i hope you get to sleep in or go to work or something and i hope it’s fucking normal. #i hope there is nothing special about it. #unless ur celebrating the last night of januka in which case i hope you have the most delicious scrumptious last night #i hope ur candles burn so prettily i hope you win at dreidel #i hope ur bimuelos and sufganiyot are the most succulent ever #i hope you sing the berachot woth meaning and love and i hope they sound just the way you want them to #i hope all the non christians have a delicious day #i hope no one wishes you a happy anything if you don’t want to be wished it #i hope you have a lovely relaxing day without any stress #i hope you go to sleep thinking about what a good delightful day you had. #i hope everything you eat tastes good and nourishes you #i hope everything you hear fills you with joy #i hope you see your friends soon i hope you lie in the sun a little #i hope you have a wonderful normal day #i love you #to nov specifically i hope you have a wonderful meaningful day and you feel everything you want and need to feel today

[soullessjack]

so im on s5 of miraculous and i keep thinking about cat noirs whole “kept at a distance” arc bc it’s genuinely really interesting but gets so wasted by always winding up with him basically validating ladybugs nonsensical decisions and treatment—the same treatment that we were already shown upset him enough to destroy public properly about it. the most consistent reason LB ever gives cat about why he can’t be fully trusted or relied on is that he’s too much of a liability for their partnership to work—either because he’s too reckless, too in love with her, or his cataclysm would be too dangerous to use.

whatever it is, the baseline is that she thinks he’s a liability, and obviously that’s like salt in the wound for cat since he genuinely loves her and enjoys being partners with her, but it’s also just sad to see him continue to respect her decision and act like it isn’t a problem for him when he’s literally upset enough to physically lash out and use his powers to do so. and I know a lot of it can probably be explained by ladybug’s experience in the cat blanc timeline, but 1) she starts holding him at a distance way before that even happens, 2) she’s actively making it worse by not telling cat noir about cat blanc and why she thinks she has to exclude him for his own safety, and 3) SHE SHOULD HAVE TOLD HIM ABOUT CAT BLANC TO BEGIN WITH BECAUSE IT’S LITERALLY A WORLD ENDING SITUATION INVOLVING HIM DIRECTLY‼️‼️‼️‼️

instead she just allows him think he’s unwanted and unnecessary, calls the shots on how he should feel about “having more free time” and ironically makes him even more susceptible to being Akumatized because of it. ladybug might not be aware that cat is adrien and has a terrible home life he actively uses his miraculous to escape from, but she’s playing right into all the key aspects that adrien resents from his father; she decides what he wants without considering or asking him, she trusts him conditionally and still distances herself enough for him to just not know certain things. it’s done with good intentions, but it still clearly affects adrien very poorly, and it’s just such a frustrating glass-chewing miscommunication that only needlessly complicates the situation

don’t even get me started on Kuro Neko where ladybug falls head over heels for the changed version of her partner and narrowly avoiding her having to actually screw up and learn a lesson about accepting cat for who he actually is because catwalker is just “too perfect” for her to function—instead of being an obedient idealized version of her best friend who lets her be in control of everything (WHEN ADRIEN LITERALLY USES HIS DOUBLE LIFE TO HAVE THE CONTROL HE DOESN’T GET AT HOME).

theres so much potential for the base concept of the miraculous of destruction and its Kwami/holder being distrusted outliers among the rest of the Kwami/holders, but the magic system sucks and it kind of loses any chance when the other Kwamis are established to be catastrophic if they use their powers without a holder. and it gets even more confusing if you consider that Fu specifically chose adrien to hold that miraculous, but then encourages Marinette to keep her distance from him and barely acknowledges him as a hero in general. Like why did you even bother testing adrien for his worthiness or whatever if you obviously don’t think he’s worthy of knowing anything about you or the rest of the miraculous OR his best friend’s identity??? but you’re totally okay with her just giving them out to anyone in Paris who’s conveniently around and having her know their identity???? master fu when I catch you master fu

auugghhhfgg I don’t know the magic system thing could be its own separate post but likeeeeee I just think the miraculous of destruction whos constantly mistrusted for no reason and goes Kamehameha Krazy in another timeline is very special and could be treated so much better if the writers were good at their job and didn’t make every character’s sole purpose be validating ladybug/marinette even when she’s in the wrong

#honestly he deserves to be a villain #at the very least an antihero. gotta push my antihero propaganda into everything I enjoy #like the same way Luka got Akumatized over his frustration with people keeping secrets #that should 100% happen to cat noir im so deadass #because like imagine if you found out your best friend saw an alternate timeline where you lost control and destroyed the city #and spent months completely isolated by what you did and slowly goinf crazy with grief and guilt and just wanting to fix it all #and she just doesnt tell you about it but she clearly sees you differently than she used to because of it #that is literally such juicy material for him to get Akumatized and yet. #Thomas Astruc you and I are public enemies now #cal.txt #miraculous ladybug #cat noir #adrien agreste #cat blanc #ladybug and chat noir #marinette dupain cheng #master fu #I need to fix this show I need to or I will also blow up Paris #I LOVE BEING AUTISTIC 🗣️🗣️‼️‼️

[socksandbuttons]

I do

Oddly enough

If it IS october eclipse

I want REDEMPTOPN somehow

Altho technically solar is the new (better) bro to lunar and the rest currently

So its probably not gonna happen

But i thrive on fam time

#listen we could have it all but thw show wont give me that so i want this man to either COMMIT this time or become better #watch as he tries to either blow up lunar again OR use lunar as a battery #because thats an option #that i can see this man doing cause linar is back and oart starnnow #imagine how frustrating thatd be for eclipae #anywya enJoy

[thefirstknife]

the finale was very powerful, and the moment-to-moment was superb. still, i still can't shake the feeling that rasputin got done dirty in the grand scheme of things. i've been playing and following the lore since the D1 beta, and the idea that one day we'd get to see the warmind(...s at the time,) play a major role in the story was the most exciting prospect ever. yet, despite /technically/ having multiple seasons and an expansion, his arc played on a loop... only breaking it right before dying.

I agree! I think this all could've played out pretty much the same without outright killing him. Obviously the proper sacrifice makes a bigger impact, but I genuinely feel like it would've been the same if he just lost his Warmind powers and was stuck being just an Exo for the rest of his life.

One issue that I have is that this is the second time we've built him up only for him to eventually die after making a grand gesture. In Worthy, we built him up and then he got shut down immediately after, which led to him being gone from the story for three years.

Then we had a story of building him up and then he dies immediately after. It feels like a repeat. There's obviously differences, especially with us actually being able to interact with him this season and learning so much more about him and our past and his actions that had so much influence. But at the end of the day, he died and his story is over before we really got a chance to experience him as a character.

I really would've preferred if he got a chance to be a person after spending so long trying to attain personhood. Again, obviously it's more of an impact if his sacrifice is complete instead of him just giving up the power he has but still being able to walk around and live, but you know. A part of it feels like Bungie really wants to wrap up some of the plots, permanently, and limit the amount of characters we have left to follow. Which is also just how narratives work when we near the end, but people are reasonably upset that Rasputin is the one that had to be on the receiving end, mostly because of how incomplete his story has been right up until he was about to die.

I guess there's always hope that he can be rezed, especially after doing the Guardian thing about sacrifice, but I doubt they'll be bringing him back. This definitely felt like a goodbye to him.

#destiny 2 #destiny 2 spoilers #season of the seraph spoilers #rasputin #ask #i feel like rasputin to bungie is like. a 'safe' character to kill #it's impactful and a devastating blow to our defenses but he's an AI #obviously he's more than that but at its core this is safer than killing someone like zavala #also rasputin may have a dedicated fanbase but that fanbase isn't on the same scale as any other #also ofc rasputin IS a character that always protected humanity. that is his core. so if he had to take a bullet for us he would #in that way it makes sense for him to do this. its not out of character #but its frustrating! because it could've definitely been written without killing him for good #i completely understand people being upset

[sugarsweetvirgo]

Eve: Bottling up negative emotions is bad for your health, so you shouldn't do it.

Seto: I know, that's why I bottle up all my emotions, both positive and negative, so it cancels out.

Eve: Th-that's not how that works-

Actually, the two are pretty open with each other.

#small hastag ramble #but i low-key feel kaiba is like. super mischaracterized when it comes to how he handles emotions #Id absolutely argue that Kaiba is one of the most emotional characters In the entire manga. More than Yugi is even #its just that a majority of the time his emotions are based in anger and hatred. so people see him as bottling up his feelings #when he's honestly the exact opposite. hes VERY open about how he feels and why he feels certain ways #For example Kaiba bluntly telling the gang that he's going to blow up Alcatraz because he hates his stepfather so much #or when Kaiba was very visibly disgusted by the shadow game on the piers with Yugi v Joey #or the numerous amounts of times Kaiba verbally told Atem how much he wants to defeat him. to the point of trembling with desire #Like Kaiba is incredibly open about his emotions. Except that a majority of the time his emotions are based in anger without a resolution #I just think its misinterpreted as him concealing his emotions because he doesn't show a lot of positive ones. but no. he's just that angry #especially since a majority of his actions in the manga are based on his own feelings #anyway sorry for the rant lmao the conversation just drives me nuts #I think he'd absolutely be really open to Eve about how he feels and his frustrations #Kinda using Eve as a sort of rubber duck to vent to a lot #It's also one of the reasons Eve loves Kaiba so much. because he's so brazen about his thoughts and feelings #ssv #oc #yugioh au #giant/tiny #yugiohoc #bondshipping #rant #tag rant #oc x canon #answered asks #ask

[feluka]

why did i end up with such selfish classmates

#few days ago everybody was sneezing and coughing in class. unmasked. and of course i got sick from them despite masking. #i came to class today and sat far away trying to avoid contact because i know i'm sick. #and they kept joking and teasing 'don't be afraid of us just embrace it we're all sick here anyway join the party haha' #and telling me to take off my mask #ignoring that 1- i'm masking because i don't want to pass it on to OTHERS #and 2- it's NOT funny or 'haha no big deal we're all sick!' #i have an immunocompromised mother that i'm caring for!! #and i can't afford to keep my distance from her because my stupid father and brother will never lift a finger to care for her and just leav #so i can't stay away from her but if i DON'T stay away i'll pass it on to her and she CAN'T take being sick right now! #it's just so frustrating and i hate that i'm always the 'unfriendly' and 'antisocial' classmate and that they already dislike me i believe #so i can't bring myself to blow up on them and i just. laugh and nod. okay. i love getting nowhere!!

[bastard-sweet]

The point of A Christmas Carol was not to teach morals by example; it was to teach morals directly. Ebenezer Scrooge was specifically made to be a reader insert. The lessons of A Xmas Carol can mostly be divided into 'you don't want to be this guy (he's suffering)' and 'you don't want to be this guy (he's evil, like ultimately, Biblically, very un-Xtian)', afforded by the third category of Basically Everything In The Book 'you don't want to be this guy anymore (he's deeply relatable to the upper-class Victorians the book is targeted at)'. The fact that he doesn't spend money on himself is not a sign that he needs to care for himself more; it's to show that he's so greedy to the point that it is useless, to show that valuing money this much is bad and senseless. The fact that he were to die if he didn't change for the better is an example of Cosmic punishment. Maybe the story does have a hint of teaching Scrooge to take care of himself, but that's only for the same reason that Scrooge is given a 'workaholic billionaire' backstory. The rich like(d) to see themselves as hard-working, and were the target audience, and Dickens didn't want to insult his target audience while trying to teach them basic human decency. So he also took the opportunity to slot that into the 'you don't want to be this guy (he's suffering)' method of teaching.

#that post just frustrates me so i decided to write out my thoughts #ebenezer scrooge is a reader insert!! #a christmas carol #also charles dickens' mindset at the time of writing is fascinating to think about. a xmas carol was written in response to a government #report on the conditions of mines factories and mills for child labourers (which before writing charles dickens also conducted his own #investigation i think). dickens vowed he would deliver a 'sledge-hammer's blow on behalf of the Poor Man's child' #and xmas carol is... not that. from a 2023 perspective it feels really toothless actually. it's about a guy who learns about the magic of #xmas and being nice to poor people. but thats because it's not MEANT to be a sledge-hammer's blow clearly. he reconsidered #and wrote a persuasive letter and it's actually really interesting to pick apart! so there's my recommendation #and regarding accusations of antisemitism: dickens probably was really i havent really read many of his works outside of school so. #but the book is pretty (n yes pretty is doing a lot of legwork here) divorced from that. its antisemitic but thats mostly #because it uses classical Xtian models of morality (eg celebrating xmas) to equate not celebrating xmas to cruelty to show how bad cruelty #is. not to equate cruelty to non-xtianity to show how bad non-xtianity is. yes theres some fucked use of carciature but the antisemitism #i read as very casual? like nowadays. its hooked nose = evil. antisemitism was absolutely not the intent at all its just very much an #artifact of its time. which. i dont think anyones learning nazism from ACC. its not challenging antisemitism but. most books dont even now #sweet talkin' #long tags #sweet whisperin' #charles dickens #classism

[elysiuminfra]

i'm so fucking sick and tired of seeing ppl in the uk (and for some reason its always the UK?) on my dashboard be like but but but usamericans you should vote for biden! hes the lesser of two evils! there is no lesser evil. we have genocidal fascist #1 and genocidal fascist #2. that's where we're at.

#like what do we even do at this point. #i keep seeing ppl in the UK telling us to vote for biden and its so frustrating because like #how can i do that. why are you asking me to vote for someone committing genocide. #thoughts #idk i hope htis doesnt blow up.

[maddy-ferguson]

why does st have so many incel narratives though? not just for hopper but... mike also going 'omg my girlfriend is so special and powerful i feel like a loser nerd' ? uhm okay ken? jonathan taking nancy's pictures in s1? steve 6 nuggets breeding speech? i know you won't ever answer this ask for obvious reasons, but genuinely something to think about.

wellll i think you know why

#why would you say i'd never answer this i'm answering like two hours later😭 #119 minutes #what's obvious #the jonathan thing is frustrating and annoying because it's like. do i like him yes can i blame people who hold that against him no not #really #like i get giving your characters flaws and having them make mistakes but the way it's treated jonathan barely feels/says sorry😭 and idk. #it's kinda unforgivable for so many people so it's a little. idk. also i've seen someone say that blowing it up is also a choice it's like #bro #with mike and el it's like idk mlvns think it's revolutionary but like you said a guy being threatened by his girlfriend is not anything #new like that's not how i think of it but i get why it made your list #ask

[b-rainlet]

Having chronic back pain fucking sucks

#You ever wanted to go ice skating? #Jump on a trampoline? #Just fucking run?? #I can do none of those things without risk of blowing my back out hard enough I can't move for a week #I woke up this morning with a slight twinge in my leg and just now had to be rolled to bed in my desk chair #And I do my stretches! #I mind my posture! #It's so frustrating! #I spent at least two months out of the year in pain #And one month out of these two months unable to move because the pain is so severe #I hateee itttt #But hey at least I got to watch Batman Begins without my Mum complaining because she felt bad for me

[ghoul-haunted]

OKAY you know what. I need a week to hate Brutus and just. really bury the uwu sad boy I used to write. dig that hole six feet into the ground and then extra. dismantle the whole body and figure out something new. maybe chew on the corpse a bit. and THEN we get back to all of this

#the whole POINT of the cassius comic is that there is love there. it saved no one and made everything hurt more but it was THERE #it's about two people who knew each other for their entire lives and chose. ultimately. to die together #anyway so sorry ive been so mean to you brutus i promise it will happen again because i think you suck at command #the larger underlying issue is that i want all versions of the old brutus i used to write fucking dead #and i have not given myself permission to just outright despise all of it because it's not good! its not good #i can see all the places i was holding back from something and it BLOWS #fucking clownery. nonsense even. #the cassius comic might not be good but i want to finish it knowing that i gave it my whole heart and poured love into it #i do NOT want to look back on it and feel any kind of regret or frustration

[rose-bookblood]

Reading Percy Jackson for the first time when I was Percy's age vs. rereading it now when I'm Luke's age.

#wild experience y'all #back then it was truly like living percy's adventures beside him #and now i feel so much like luke #*spoilers for the ending of the lightning thief i guess* i personally wouldn't sell the world to kronos but y'know #if i was at camp half-blood i'd be the older camper who directs her cabin #i always empathized with his frustration but now i feel it at a deeper level #maybe it's just because i've had similar experiences #but yeah 2015 me was so close to percy emotionally while reading #and now it's not like i'm completely distant #but i just feel closer to luke #he's not a character i particularly like but it's the one closer to my age and therefore to my life experiences #idk it's really blowing my mind how my perception has changed #i didn't expect it all when i started this reread

[mvncesa]

just realized earlier, after literal fucking years, that decker uses not only his own military training but also the way wolves hunt/fight in the wild during the fight scene of his episode and I’m going to scream

#( tell me to stop posting ; ooc. ) #a nature documentary but it’s just my crazy rambling about the werewolf <3 #but sb already pointed out that he uses his training in the fight (using his surroundings & pointed blows to their knees/legs and such) #but also … one of the ways that wolves hunt is by keeping prey moving and making them over exert themselves before going for the kill … #and he played on the fact that the younger enemy werewolf #was less experienced and more cocky/impulsive which lines up #with how . in many species . older & more experienced animals will win against the younger & more clumsy ones <3 #I’m just so fascinated by him … I want to study him for science … #but now i'm thinking of him pulling this type of shit in a fight / on a mission because like ... #him keeping the enemies moving . getting them exhausted or confused/frustrated . #maybe 'herding' them into a spot where he has the upper-hand too <3

[railroad-migraine]

Accurate pic of me checking my notifications and seeing that cuties are reblogging or commenting on my posts

Thank u •^•

You know who u r

#mod poet #writing #writers #writing meme #fanfic meme #fanfiction meme #fanfic writer #fanfic writing #creative writer #writers supporting writers #[blows kith] for you cool people <3 #off topic but i have misplaced something i was meant to give to a friend tomorrow #y'know when you move something to a different spot than usual because it's more logical and safe? #yeah i did that and i can't for the life of me remember where i hid it #i'm tearing down walls #turning over rocks #so darn frustrated lol i feel like such a mess bc i know it's here #SOMEWHERE

[keeps-ache]

honestly.

#just me hi #okay so i have this very insistent problem where i can't finish things #can you tell yet? i start a project and then i just get bored or Something #which Sucks!!! i want to finish them!! i Want to be done and to know i can finish things!!! #but i just CAN'T #it happens with projects and with shows and with books and with cleaning too sometimes #it happens when i write and when i'm sitting and when i'm sleeping and when i'm singing and when i'm walking to nowhere #it's just There!! i can't finish it doesn't matter how short or how easy or how wonderful and happy it could make me feel i can't Finish #if it's Hard the sheer number of steps required to even get from here to there overwhelms me. the predicted length of time is just the #finishing blow #i Want to finish i Need to stop the story. but i just caaaaaaaaaan'tttttt #it's a whole joke in the home actually‚ 'oh you've started another story? ha! same as always huh?' #which yes is funny but also i'm so tiiiiiiiired of always starting over #i love it i love building new things but once i have the finished product in my mind there is no allure‚ no appeal to actually finishing th #Real Thing !! #maybe that's why i like art and i can finish pieces‚ because the image is always shifting. it's like liquid #i dunno i'm just kinda frustrated!! years and years and i still can't finish anything :/ #maybe one day one day one day #urghhh #//okey uhm. ... :3 #i'm going to do a small thing now‚ and i'm Going to finish it #:>

[bingoboingobongo]

update/rant post:

look ik i said i wasn't going to write smut or anything explicit anymore but idk okay. essentially i got outed as a smut/fanfic writer and now my parents know and i just don't know what to do anymore and i can't even open my stupid google doc that i use to write all my fics without feeling like im being monitored and im gonna get in even more trouble. but i want my series to have smut so bad not because im horny or smthing but because that's the emotional climax and that's the peak of vulnerability and that's where the character development goes but right now i don't even feel safe opening tumblr or my stupid doc bc im so scared that my parents are going to see this and i just don't know what to do and im so mad because i was finally getting comfortable with my sexuality and all of this and it's all been ruined in a day and i feel like i can't even look at myself in the mirror anymore and i feel like im wearing a stupid scarlet letter and im just scared and i don't want people to know me as this i wanted this to be private but i was too stupid and now it's not and i just want to go back to when things were private and secret and nobody knew. and it sucks because i love writing so much but it just feels like it's been tainted because my mom literally made me show her everything i wrote and i don't even know anymore and i just want to be able to write without feeling like im looking over my shoulder and i can't and i can barely even look at myself in the mirror anymore and i have stupid tests that i need to study for tomorrow and instead im crying and writing this and i don't even know what to do i just wish this could've stayed a secret forever. and it sucks to hear my mom diminish this and act like ive committed the most heinous act ever and i just feel so crushed and so annoyed and so paranoid because none of my safe spaces feel safe anymore and im so terrified that somehow my mom's gonna find this post even though she said she doesn't know my username i feel like i can't trust her anymore and idec if my sister reads this anymore bc i just want someone real that i know to talk to me about this and this sucks and i can't do this anymore. and i feel like such a disappointment to all of you guys if i just suddenly stop putting smut in the series because it's not even like me wanting to put it in there for pornography reasons it's there for the story and i don't know if i can do that and i just feel like im not doing my story justice but im so scared to do because i don't want to get in even more trouble and i just wish none of this happened. i just want my safe spaces to feel safe again because writing was so therapeutic for me it was so fun to just methodically create a word and know that i had taken a blank page and actually created something and that was my coping mechanism that was what i did and before my doc used to bring me so much pride and now i can't even look at it without being terrified.

#depressed #bingoboingobongo.com #update #rant #rant post #< sorry im freaking out so much #i just feel so crushed #like i just want to be able to write again #but im so scared even though i know theres no way for them to see it now #but i cant trust that and i feel like im being watched all the time #i just wanted one thing to be private and now way more people know than i ever wanted to #sorry guys im probably just being overdramatic #idk im just frustrated and sad and paranoid #i just want to be able to write again #i dont want people i know in real life to look at me and know that i've written this stuff #and don't get me wrong im proud of what i wrote because i was pushing my own boundaries and i was creating something #but i just wanted to be proud in private #and i know that all the people problems will blow over in like a week and then we have winter break anyways #but idk im scared i'll never be able to open my doc again without being scared #and obvi i can start a new one but it just won't be the same #idk man #i just want a break from all this