#belle talks sometimes

[peridotglimmer]

Hi there,

My name is peridotglimmer, also known as Belle or SugarsweetRomantic around these parts. I'm a queer Deaf mum to a toddler living in the Netherlands, an avid fic reader and writer for many different fandoms, and as difficult as I find to say this:

I need help.

Over the last months, I've been coming to the realisation that my wife, who I've been with since I had just turned 17, is abusive. And I need to get myself and our son out as soon as possible, as safely as possible.

My wife has isolated me from everyone IRL, including my parents and friends, and controls every aspect of my life.

This entire situation has had an immense effect on my own mental health, which means I'm currently on disability income myself. That's just enough to pay for bills and groceries. She also controls what we spend money on, which means it's nearly impossible for me to set any money aside. I'm trying to save up as much as I can, but I'm not reaching the amount I need to get out anytime soon.

I have two major issues that I need to take care of:

I need a passport. I fear I'll need to flee when I break this whole cyst open, so to speak. I can take shelter with a friend in the UK, but Brexit means my European ID card isn't enough to enter the UK. A passport costs approximately 85 euros, and I'll also need to get photos taken for it. My wife tracks my location 24/7, but I have some opportunities to get to town hall and get it without her knowing. Getting to my friend would be cheapest by taking a train, then a plane, and then a bus. From that point, they will be able to help me out, and I will be able to support myself as well.

I do not have custody of our son. She's been saying I have to earn custody of him, but it's not looking like she'll ever grant me custody. I'll potentially have to take her to court for that, and I will. I refuse to give up on my son. He's the love of my life, and my motivation to create a better life for us both.

If any of you reading this is in the position to help out financially, I would be eternally grateful. The easiest way to do so, is via Ko-Fi, and thus, I'll link mine below. Please only help out if you can miss the money.

I'll be eternally grateful for any help I might receive. Reblogs are greatly appreciated, thank you in advance. I'm terrified, but determined. I have to get out.

Love, Belle

#personal #belle talks sometimes

[kala-mies]

The bad bitch I pulled by revitalizing the infrastructure

#discworld #adora belle dearheart #sometimes I wonder why some dw character names were ever translated for the Finnish versions I mostly read #because while I get making sure pun names like Adora Belle work #why did the translate Reg Show to Reiska Hutsala #It took me SO long to get who tf everyone was talking about when they mentioned him #kala art

[royalarchivist]

[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]

Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?

[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*

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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.

Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!

Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.

* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.

#Pactw #QSMP #Pac #March 18 2024 #As much as I love keeping people updated about Pac / the other Portuguese-speaking creators #I think I might not make as many transcribed posts for their clips anymore #I just don't think I'm qualified enough to be transcribing things for a language I don't know #like yeah we have the Qlobal Translator and Aypierre's translators to rely on #And I'm always upfront when I'm not 100% sure about a translation #but I've been thinking about it a lot and it kinda makes me feel a bit icky. Idk. #I might be overthinking this but I just I don't want to spread around translations I'm not super confident about #esp. since I know a lot of people cite my clips in analysis posts or link them to other people as resources #and 90% of the time I'm like ''Hell yeah I love seeing people getting a lot of use out of the archive'' #but sometimes I get a bit anxious like ''Did I do a good enough job translating this'' #''Am I ruining someone's entire perception of a conversation or character because I left one word out or mistranslated something?'' #And like I said that's normally not a HUGE concern since if I'm not certain about a translation I just won't post a clip. but you know #idk it might just be the anxiety talking but I really really don't want to spread bad info #Happy to hear other folks' perspective #I'm really grateful for people like Bell and Pix and others who translate clips and I always try to reblog those #but we don't have a ton of people posting clips & translating things on Tumblr since we're so English-centric #which is part of the reason WHY I like sharing clips of the non-English-speaking CCs #but at the same time I want to do an accurate job representing what they're saying #Maybe I'll just start posting things and give a TLDR context of what they're talking about but not a transcript #that way native-speakers can hop in and add translations if that's something they're comfortable doing #and if not then well. at least I'm not sharing something that isn't super accurate #idk I'm just thinking out loud a bit in the tags #But I'm open to hearing other people's thoughts on the matter #Anyways giant rant aside. q!Pac is NOT doing ok rn

[soaring-trash]

“Maybe you should suck my soul out”

#critical role #critical role campaign 3 #bells hells #critters #critical role fanart #laudna #fanart #imogen temult #imodna #imogen x laudna #it’s been since forever since i’ve painted SOMETHING so have them being freaks #also can we talk about how BOTH of them are super self sacrificial #put yourself first sometimes ladies #southern gothic

[originalaccountname]

Fun BSD French translation details and choices - Episode 17 (by someone who does not understand Japanese but thinks the differences with the English translation/subtitles are fun)

General notes:

Kouyou's ability is called "Or démoniaque" (Demonic Gold).

Kouyou called Mori "Monsieur Ougai". I know she calls him "Ougai-dono" in the Japanese dub, but to call someone "Mr [first name]" in French has the connotation of them being a preschool teacher or something sdkjfhskdjf

Lovecraft'S voice actor is so funny. He has the voice you would expect to hear on some kind of large, benevolent, homely creature. Maybe a cuddly bear. He sounds less menacing and more like he ended up in the wrong role, but it still fits his "why am I here I just want to sleep" vibe.

Steinbeck and Lovecraft's abilities are just literal translations of their English counterparts. "Les Raisins de la colère" (The Grapes of Wrath/Anger) and "Le Grand Ancien" (The Great Old One/Ancient).

Chuuya called Kouyou "Madame Kouyou" in front of Mori, in an uncharacteristic show of politeness. French dub Chuuya is just some guy to whom wild stuff happens.

Something I just noticed is that in the French subs, Mori calls Elise "Éris". Understandable, but oops.

Atsushi uses the informal "you" (tu) with Kouyou.

Today's quote:

VF: Fini de jouer, ma belle. On passe aux choses sérieuses. (We're done playing, gorgeous. Let's get serious.) Eng: This is not for the eyes of children.

#i heard dazai say ''ma belle'' and i instantly knew some people would like that KASGDKASDG #serious talk though that shot is NOT flattering for dazai in the SLIGHTEST #it is also very silly to watch him threateningly loudly pop each joint of his hand and fingers (are your bones good bro) #bsdrewatch2023 #bsd french dub adventures #apparently i talk sometimes

[uncanny-tranny]

Don't talk to me; I'm still recovering from the fact that the first computer-synthesized voice to sing in 1961 - the IBM 704 - sang Daisy Bell, a love song.

#positivity #do the computers know i love them #sometimes i watch the recording of the audio and it blows me away that i can do that #like yes daisy bell was a very popular song from 1892 but the point still stands #there were a million simple songs to give the computer to sing and the one that was chosen talked about enduring love #so yes you can be apathetic about it and say that there's no point in thinking about it deeper than a proof of concept for 60s tech #but i say nonsense to that - nay i will not stand for it here. everything is deep. everything is significant #to teach a computer a love song is the highest form of humanity and i don't care if that's dumb #hot take (semi-related): computers have humanity in them. humans made machines. we gave them purpose and existence. #(that's not saying that computers are 1:1 human BUT that humans made those machines - everything out there originated because of us) #(and i think that's why i don't buy that machines are more neutral than a human especially in judgement) #(a machine has whatever judgement their people had while making it. it isn't neutral at all based on the technology we have today) #i'm not obsessed with machines but i've learned to respect and admire them for what they are #i'd say that i would want to learn about tech for fun but i'm not enthused by it like other transsexuals are

[nellasbookplanet]

Okay I've talked about the tragedy of Laudna now let's talk about the tragedy of Imogen.

It’s been a while, but her moment in the Feywild truth exercise where she says "I think I’m tainted. I don’t know if I want to save gods that don’t love me" has really stuck in my mind. The thing is, I don’t think she’s specifically talking about the gods here, but rather summing up and projecting her entire experience as a ruidusborn. She isn’t thinking "Why aren’t I the gods' special little princess? Why haven’t they come to save me specifically?? You better love me or I'll let you die" (which we have seen does seem to be a common attitude in the Vanguard) This is her fear of being against her own will tainted by something evil. Her fear that, despite knowing how wrong it is, part of her longs for the power and belonging that comes with giving in to Predathos. It’s knowing that this thing is the antithesis of the gods, and that no matter what she does and how much she opposes it, it is still part of her. And because of that, the world doesn’t love her. Her mother left, her father can barely look at her, her own body will betray her with feelings and powers she doesn't understand, her community ostracized her, her allies view her with suspicion, the gods will not lend a hand in their own rescue when she asks despite Imogen putting herself and her loved ones in danger for their sake.

And Imogen is tired. Tired of being the bigger person, tired of resisting. Logically she knows the gods don’t hate her specifically but it ads up, and as the lure of Predathos does promise love and belonging part of her wants to give in because why should she risk so much to save a world that has never once tried to save her.

And that’s where she, as well as Laudna, get so interesting. They have deeply sympathetic reasons for their doubts and flaws, as well as for why they value each other so much higher than the entirety of Exandria (tl;dr because they have only ever gotten genuine understanding and unconditional love from each other). But that doesn’t mean it isn't flaws. It doesn’t mean Imogen, if she hadn’t met Laudna and the Hells first and realized the harm the Vanguard is causing and that their promises are ultimately lies, couldn’t have been drawn in by the Vanguard's ideas. It doesn’t mean they aren't wrong in blaming gods for bad things in their own lives, or in demanding special treatment. But it’s deeply understandable, which is the very reason they and people like them're such excellent targets for the Vanguard to convert. And once in the Vanguard, it doesn’t matter how tragic and sympathetic you are, you are still doing evil.

#critical role #cr3 #imogen temult #meanwhile Laudna's negative attitude towards the gods is a bit more complicated #in that she really does blame them for not saving her #she's repressing all of her negative emotions about her fate and situation but those feelings are still THERE #and lately they’ve been heightened due to the stressful situation of trying to save the gods #and laudna doesn’t want to save anyone she just want to chill and enjoy what little life she has #and so when the negative emotions do come out she projects them at the gods bc she needs SOMEONE to blame #and since she’s never interacted with a god they’re easy to blame bc in a way they aren’t entirely real to her #something that isn’t entirely real but very powerful can’t be a victim but it can be an easy scapegoat #bells hells travel past the divine gate and physically interact with the gods challange #it would be so juicy to see imogen and laudna be forced to face and process this projection of guilt against the gods they both share #i think it would help them realize that sometime randomly bad things will just Happen and it’s no ones fault #and in seeing that stop looking for someone to blame (both themselves and the gods) and start to heal #nella talks cr

[walrus150915]

Made this image a few months ago and I feel like this is still very accurate to how I feel about "Beta Ambrosius was so much better!! We were robbed" take😬

(I'm speaking about the design/LOOKS specifically, not the character - campy Ambrosius from the novel is one of my favorite things abt the novel itself)

#like bro are you into him because hes got cunty rapunzel hair or because hes white #when (mainly white) ppl r calling m!ambrosius ugly because of his looks #meanwhile he was modeled after an asian actor who put a lot of his soul into the performance #and talked about how model minority theme is important to the message of the film #it feels borderline racist to say stuff like that #im not saying that if you prefer the comic version of him then ur 100% racist #just #be careful with your words #and accept that sometimes asian gays need their win #also i swear i feel like i wouldn't like goldenheart that much if goldenloin was a white rich bell-end #white rich bully x brown poor man would be such a bad dynamic for them id hate it #so yea #my light-skinned asian ass who looks like ambrosius if he had taken estrogen is biased #sry </3 #nimona #ambrosius goldenloin

[cinnaminsvga]

actual conversation i had with my dental hygienist

hygienist: so what did you study at university?

me: chemistry...

hygienist: damn, no wonder you look so sad!

#this is especially funny now that i got a new job and it has like... barely anything to do with my degree LMAOOOO #mostly bc the job market is rough rn and i kinda need the money more than anything... but damn LOL #and then he proceeded to give me a speech about his own road to becoming a hygienist #how he started in business but then hated it so he started dj-ing #then found that he got bored of it and so he went to med school. but found that too much of a hassle as well #so now hes in dental school and working as a hygienist as he completes his schooling and is NOW debating on changing careers again #and like noah fence to the guy i know he was trying to be encouraging about how 'ur degree shouldnt shackle u to one type of career' #but also his carefree nature is sending alarm bells in my head bc the only ppl who speak like that are people who can Afford #to soul search like that. bc if i knew my parents are there to catch me if my new venture failed #damn i'd do fucking whatever i wanted to as well!! but ofc idk if hes really rich like that #he did have an aura tho. rich people aura. they got a way of talking sometimes... especially western ppl.... #ANYWAY.... just wanted to share how i got scalped with my mouth wide open filled with blood thank u for listening to my ted talk #zee talks

[goingbuggy]

#i'm so invested in shanks' potential bachelor status now

He is literally married to buggy since he was 12. Have some decency/j

that "come with me" loguetown scene really did feel like a proposal tbh...... if shanks had held out a ring instead of his hand would buggy have been tempted to follow?? the answer is probably yes and i think that's really fucking funny

#like jingling a toy with a shiny bell in front of a cat #pspppsps buggy.. come with me.. pspsppsp #no but really shanks is so unintentionally(?) romantic sometimes #can we talk about that for a sec????? #if i found out someone gave up on their chance to see the greatest treasure in the world #because i was SICK???? #i would lose my mind #shanks stayed behind to take care of his best friend because laughtale wasn't worth seeing without him #that's such a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to pass up on too. and yet he was so certain they'd conquer the grand line together again #the sheer devotion. the selflessness and sacrifice #not to mention that said devotion was reciprocated #for someone as selfish as buggy to sacrifice his own dream and wholeheartedly believe that shanks could be king...... #i mean.. what else is there to say? #that's love #the shuggy.. the shuggy is real #ask

[girderednerve]

celebratory taco bell after successfully not bursting into tears in the planned parenthood initial hrt consult

#beam me up to taco bell quarterly #fake transing for clout #food / #i am pretty anemic so when the nurse was talking to me about risks she was like 'sometimes people get too much blood. #probably not you though! that would be good for you :)' which is very funny

[peridotglimmer]

happy easter darlings

i wasn't able to go to church but my mum sent me a photo of the cross they do every year.

let this year be rebirth. <3

#belle talks sometimes

[hyperfixated-firefly]

y'all i am REELING from the end of the latest critical role ep! the CHOICES! the choices being made, kept secret, taken away, the fallout from this... that was SO tense to watch but i'm so excited to see what amazing roleplay/intra party tension this stirs up!

#critical role #bells hells #i was gonna go into detail on what i liked and what i really struggled with #but i talked that through in the CR discord already and I don't wanna be putting more negativity out into the CR tag since i've processed i #i love this show #sometimes characters frustrate me SO much but big emotions are fun!

[pockets-full-of-beans]

[Lil Deacon cat doodle I found. He looks like he'd track mud/dirt in your house :/]

#i like to think of him as this big ol' fluffy cat that's like. creepily silent sometimes. just this giant orange blur creeping around. #he rolls around in dirt/mud/flour/soot/chalk/etc to ''blend in''. and talks a lot when not sneaking about. he is a menace. #his bell is his nemesis. he despises it. #fo4 #fallout 4 #fo4 deacon #fallout deacon #fo4 fanart #pockets-draws #i need to draw more companions as cats....

[originalaccountname]

#(one fic i remember had dazai really eager to handcuff chuuya but chuuya just kept breaking them and doing whatever he wanted anyway#(so dazai was going for more and more heavy duty restraints it was absolutely ridiculous)#(bro just give up you're gonna break the bedframe at one point)

do. do you still have this fic..... this sounds like peak comedy for my silly little brain

I read that like 2 years ago I have NO way of tracking it down now, sorry 🫡 I remember it being short, the POV being Dazai, and the focus being on Dazai trying to figure out how to make it work, with very little actual sexy content, so there's a solid chance it's an M rating and not an E one.

#if it rings a bell for anyone do come forward #bsd #bungou stray dogs #skk #soukoku #ask answered #apparently i talk sometimes #suggestive

[lurking-latinist]

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#ooh I have a lot of thoughts about Six and Charley and her mysteriousness and how he responds to it #but they intersect with my Six's Mental Health Thoughts which are extremely headcanony #and I know a lot of the fandom would rather just kind of wall off Twin Dilemma and assume Six's proper characterization doesn't include it #and I don't know that I blame them for that #but I like trying to make things fit together #and also there's no way to do that without probably misusing real-world mental health terminology #because (watsonian) the doctor is an alien with an alien brain and (doylist) the writers do not know all that much about psychiatry #but. at least for a bit after his regeneration he deals with paranoia right? #like that's the term the narrative uses. (and it clearly explains his attack on peri - he's perceiving her as a threat due to delusion) #& she says 'I'm not letting a manic depressive paranoid personality like you shut me up' & he objects specifically to 'manic depressive' #later in uhhhh revelation of the daleks? he doesn't tell her about a real danger #and he says 'I didn't want to burden you with what might have been a piece of paranoid speculation on my part' #again I cannot emphasize enough how much I am talking about a fictional character with fictional problems. I do not know psychiatry either! #I do not want to mislead #but one of this character's problems is that he has a badly calibrated sense of danger. sometimes he sees things as threatening that aren't #and sometimes he overcompensates for that #and I think when he first meets Charley he is really not very sure whether he should trust the alarm bells he's hearing or not #she seems deeply suspicious! but also nice? he wants to like her? but deeply suspicious! #'or am I just being crazy?' he asks himself #and so he just kind of... keeps watching her #also unrelatedly to all that I think he kind of likes having the excuse of Mystery for doing what he does anyway which is orbiting her #just slightly obsessing over his companion at the time even if he also occasionally forgets they're there #(he's just very all or nothing in everything all the time) #but yeah. you know how 11 gets about Clara and her Mystery Plotline? 6 is like that about every companion in turn anyway #so he doesn't actually mind having the excuse of Mystery with Charley #this is also why 6 and Clara is so compelling #(this was a tag essay in response to lrb but I decided it was opening too many cans of worms and needed its own post)