#but it Would Not Release Me until i did

[leavemyelevator-alone]

Okay, I know I’m a few days late, but I want to talk about Nicholas the Punisher. This theme shows up in either episode 6 or 7, during Wolfwood’s fight against Livio on the Sand Steamer, and it starts playing when Wolfwood declares that he’s gonna be pissed if he has to hurt Livio. This isn’t the first time we’ve seen Wolfwood fight (far from it), but with such high stakes on the outcome on this fight, both concerning Livio’s safety and Vash’s survival, and the fact that this is the theme that is supposed to reflect Wolfwood as the Punisher, we would expect something fast-paced and tense, maybe, if it wanted to lean into the looming outcome if Vash and Wolfwood lose. 

   But no. Wolfwood’s theme (as the Punisher) is so slow, and seems to carry a melancholic, tragic theme to it. It feels so weary, like Wolfwood is exhausted of having to play this part, and is sick of hurting people he once knew (and even loved, in Livio’s case). It carries an undertone of determinedness, but it’s so overwhelmingly melancholic it makes me pause. Does it mean that under all of his blunder, Wolfwood had already given up on Livio, from the start of the fight? This theme plays before he spits out who he really is to Vash, so does that mean that this is how Wolfwood views himself? Does he see himself as this tragic, unforgivable monster? Does he think that he doomed Livio, albeit unknowingly from the start by letting his little brother follow him around? I think so, but the cool thing about music is that everyone has their own interpretation of it. 

   Knives’ theme is strong gorgeous and victorious, Vash’s is chaotic and clearly feels like someone on the run, but Wolfwood’s stays tragic. It is mean to show who he is with the Eye of Michael — what they’ve made him into. Not this strong, unbreakable inhuman fighter, but a scared, broken man who feels like not only his brother but his humanity was ripped away from him. Let’s compare it to Undertaker, his introductory theme: as @/fatalwhims mentioned, this piece is overall kinda unsettling. It’s slower as well, but is more confident. It’s relaxed, and arguably a little mischievous, as opposed to Nicholas the Punisher’s despondency. This is absolutely the musical personification of Wolfwood’s persona he shares with the gang. This is the relaxed, knows what he’s doing, “big-brother Nico” vibes he attempts to use to get Vash to trust him. But Nicholas the Punisher is so far from that. 

Okay, we got the melancholy, “woe-is me” music out of the way; now it’s time for the action-packed, Vashwood-fighting-back-to-back fight music, right? Wrong. Whom to Kill, Whom to Let Live is the track that plays next, and it is just as (arguably) hopeless. The piano creates a bit more of a determined feel, as well as the bass (I think? Correct me if I’m wrong, cause I probably am) that comes in at 1:07 and the addition of another instrument at 1:37, but if you listen closely, the determination that it invokes fits more that of a grim one than that of a triumphant, I-can-beat-him! feel that most series like to do. That aforementioned piano piece? It’s lifted directly from the track Orphanage. Whom to Kill is just as sad of a song as Nicholas the Punisher, and I feel like this is the perfect score for this fight scene. This is not an epic showdown like it was against the Nebraskas at the beginning of the series, or even against Knives at the end of it. This is what I would call the “Last Agni Kai” fight: Wolfwood doesn’t want to fight Livio. He understands that he seems to have no choice, but that doesn’t mean he wants to fight his baby brother. That is why the Orphanage piano piece comes back and haunts this track. That is why it is grim determination. He will either have to let Livio kill his ward (which will get him killed by Knives), or he will have to kill Livio himself (which will break him worse than death). The entirety of the Livio-Vash-Wolfwood fight is tragic, somber, almost desperate music; not what you would expect to hear from an epic fight scene. None of this might make any sense, but I had to get it out of my system. Thanks for indulging my rambling! 

@tristampparty

#TristampParty #trigun #i don't know why i did this #but it Would Not Release Me until i did #nicholas d. wolfwood #trigun stampede #analysis

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads

The Girls Are Never Gone

a girl does a summer internship with the historical society cleaning up an old estate where a girl died 30 years ago, so she can investigate it for her ghost-hunting podcast

she’s a skeptic who privately thinks she’ll be able to find evidence of non-supernatural, but weird things start happening to her and the other two girls in the house

spooky lake & creepy dolls

bisexual diabetic MC with a service dog, f/f

#The Girls Are Never Gone #sarah glenn marsh #this is. fine. #it’s like. not creepy until maybe 70% imo #why is she releasing episodes of her podcast every few days….even when she hasn’t discovered anything particularly? #is it not much more realistic for people to finish doing these things and form it into a coherent narrative before releasing episodes #Like that wouldn't have worked for the plot but it stood out to me #If it was one of those things where her personality and influencer-vibes is the main draw that would be feasable #but I didn't really get that feel from the two podcast excerpts we got. #Taking out some of the random stuff slowing the first half and putting bits of the podcast in the actual narrative so we got the feel for w #might have made things more interesting. And put more tension between her paranormal podcasting persona and real life skepticism #don't love stuff that engages with true crime fans without actively critiquing it. Like this doesn't get super deep into that. idk #I did laugh when they see the older lady putting salt around the door and question it & shes like 'it uh works for the boys on supernatural #ajshgfhajgf #anyway it was ok i just think it could have been better! #sapphic books #bisexual books #aroaessidhe 2023 reads

[gorgeousgreymatter-x]

Steve wearing eye makeup on purpose on days he wants Eddie to make him cry because he's too embarrassed to ask but he knows Eddie can't resist so 😇

#dom eddie munson #sub steve harrington #these headcanons for my series are consuming me #steve harrington #eddie munson #steddie #i did not have a crying kink until these two grabbed me by the throat and would not release me #what is peace i do not know it

[chiropteracupola]

the doctor is in...

[flintlock fortress is a collaboration with @dxppercxdxver]

#em draws stuff #flintlock fortress #team fortress 2 #And I Hear It Was Someone's Birthday Recently... #[the someone in question is in fact his meet video. which was released yesterday in 2011. but I did not finish this until today :/] #which is an unfortunate thing to say considering I started this drawing back in april! ow! #both a slow and a fun one since I was trying to actually take inspiration from the game items 'stead of ignoring them as usual #his eighteenthcenturyish coat cosmetic has the sort of jabot that makes me growl and bite like a feral animal (not in a good way) #but what is flintlock fortress about if not to say Here's How I Would Do TF2 In The Late Eighteenth Century If It Was Up To Me! #manythanks to benj for making me Aware of those items even so since I am a Big Silly who wasn't aware they were even a thing at all #until more than a month into the project that's continuing to cause minor brain explosions on a daily basis! #anyway [to the tune of ocean man] bonesaw man take me by the hand...

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

.

#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work #blocked it all out #my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer #breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries #they just diagnosed her two weeks ago #so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends #because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well #but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work #on top of my fulltime #which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it #but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this #for the coming four months at least #so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT. #i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes #then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe? #which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week #which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc #i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer #came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry #but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat #bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.” #“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.” #and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually #but seeing her anger made me see my own anger #and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic #i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more #so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise #doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal #and i am not joking #so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back

[cauterizedpod]

Welcome Aboard the Galapagos Undursa!

Thank you for choosing the Galapagos Undursa!

Watch your step, good luck, and enjoy the ride!

Cauterized is a Cat Whiskr Production by me, Cat, also the voice for Burnice/Bunnie. You can find it under Cauterizedpod on your social media of choice. Naomi was voiced by Izze, who you can find at @lotsadeer/@theshawndeer and support on Ko-fi. You can also find seer in the upcoming @colchispod as well.

Sound effects are used under a creative commons 0 attribution license from freesound.org

Music by Kevin MacLeod and by future voice to Kadin, Mitul Minstry, @heyimmitul or on his website mitulmistrymusic.com

#audio drama #audio fiction #my art #podcast #horror podcast #podcasting #new podcast #survival podcast #podcast recommendation #cauterized #cauterizedpod #survival #I'm so so so excited to post this #i have spent an ungodly amount of time on these 7 minutes and i hope you can tell how tired I am in the credits #It would mean a lot to me to have this shared! I'm hoping to start real release of the first three episodes by the end of Fall. <3 #Thank you to izze for being my guiding light through this process #until jan I did not even have a mic much less a brain for sound design and I have learned everything in the last few months : #Thank you to my husband for listening to Welcome Aboard the Galapagos Undursa a million times and for managing the toddlers #and thank you to my dear friend Travis for helping me along and being the best encouragement #And thank you to my friends for being part of my project in general I love you guys #Spotify

[pynkhues]

How about May December?

never seen | want to see | the worst | bad | whatever | not my thing | good | great | favorite | masterpiece

Oh, man, I'm dying to see it, but it doesn't come out theatrically in Australia until 1 Feb and it's one I think I want to see on the big screen.

Ask me about movies!

#i loooove julianne moore and like natalie portman #and i am v curious to see charles melton in this #i've generally liked todd haynes' stuff too so yes! #a v anticipated film for me! #we always get the award worthy movies so late here #the holdovers only comes out this week and i am just like #isn't this supposed to be a christmas movie? #and you're releasing not only in jan but in australia's peak summer window lol #anyway #i'm still excited to see that one too! #not sure how quickly i'll get to them given i will be in aunty sophie mode until the end of jan after this week #BUT #i AM planning on introducing my nephews to the og star wars trilogy #a personal survey i did thought a new hope would be great for a six and a seven year old haha #film asks #welcome to my ama

[baked-bread]

denuvo as an anti-piracy strategy is completely lost on me tbh. every time i go to buy a game and it has denuvo, it's automatically added to my list of do not buy/always pirate games. that's disgusting, i don’t want that shit on my pc. if the game gets cracked i will be playing that shit illegally. godspeed

#this post is about me having such a huge recent obsession w scott pilgrim that i was gonna buy the game until i saw the reviews #instead i will be finding the family xbox 360 and playing the game the same way i did 10 years ago #same w me genuinely wanting to purchase project diva on pc as if i don’t own future tone already #if it did not have denuvo i would play that shit because of the mods #the most drm i'm willing to tolerate is like. steam's drm (ridiculously easy to bypass w current tools) #or those old pc games w a serial number #i own pc games from japan that released 2005-2007 that comes w the serial number #like it sucks but it isn’t doing shit to my pc. and also i can just give people the serial number i have if i really need to #text #rambles #tech

[diogenes-blorbos]

Finished Fallen Hero: Retribution

Did it really have to end like THAT

#JULIA!!! #My love!!! #I’m so fucking sorry bb #Sweetie I’m so sorry that a ugly ass bitch like me would even do that #😭 #Manoja Joshi #fallen hero: retribution #fallen hero: rebirth #fallen hero sidestep #julia ortega #Watch me rock backwards and forwards in the corner of the room until the next book gets released #Also CoG why did you remove the save function u dumb hoe #Now I can’t replay it w/o risking losing my original run

[devilsskettle]

whenever i hear a song that i would like if it weren’t for the fact that it was too long, i think about this:

like you can afford to write tangentially if you/your music is already popular and you know that people are going to listen to you no matter what and in fact laud your longer pieces as being genius etc but can you really be releasing 5+ minute long songs without a built-in audience?

#idk. thinking about this because of the new lana album and i think i’d like a lot of these songs better if they were shorter lol #some of these songs drag so much especially when she includes these long sections of like one repeated line over and over again #or like when taylor swift releases the extended version of all too well and everyone freaked out #that’s all good and well but she HAD to release the shorter version first #and she knows she has this huge fanbase that will eat that shit up no matter what she does really #part of it is nostalgia admittedly but i also think the shorter version is just a better song #that song is on the longer side to begin with but 10 minutes???? why #(i did listen to both songs back to back to make sure my opinion was still the same as when the 10 minute version was released & it is lol) #idk! obviously i’m bad at this myself because i write so fucking much to express a simple point but it is more skillful to be able #to say things as effectively and precisely in a more concise way #not saying this ONLY applies to mitski because she’s the one this article is about but she is a good example of it #like being able to express a feeling in just a couple lines that would probably take a less skilled writer like a novel to express #it also reminds me of how my high school latin teacher described how in college he took a class about museum design or something like that #and their first assignment was to write a description of an artifact to tell museum visitors what it was #and every time he submitted a draft the professor would tell him to make it shorter while still communicating the necessary information #until he literally could not make it any shorter than it already was #because you have to assume that people are not gonna read all that! because they won’t unless they have some kind of external motivation to #idk there IS something to be said for including ‘unnecessary’ parts of writing etc obviously there’s nuance #but a lot of the time i think if there isn’t a reason to include something then why include it!

[goldensunset]

I've only been passively interested in your pokemon playthrough but last night I had a dream about Arven and now I am really considering getting scarlet or violet

anon i hope you know how funny this is. i blorbo posted so hard he astral projected into your dreams like a prophetic vision sent from up above and now you’re discerning a call to action

#FGDHDJXJKSNDJDDBKSNFJDJBSJDBSJSBNi had to stare at this ask for a moment like how do i even react to this #honestly i really enjoyed this game! idk what your personal taste is in games so i have no clue if/how i should advertise it to you #as long as you download that patch update beforehand the game should run smoothly #i was expecting lotsa glitches but i have encountered exactly 3 weird bugs and none of them really did anything harmful #they all got resolved almost instantly #very glad i waited a month and a half-ish after release instead of getting it at launch #that certainly helped with my experience a lot #solid game. would recommend #i for one got it as a gift lol i didn’t spend money on it #i was like okkkk i’m gonna hold off for now and wait until i hear some good reviews #my brother seemed to think it was good so he surprised me with it at christmas so that’s ideal #again- very very glad i waited until the game was playable lol #pokémon #scarlet and violet #asks #thanks anon #this is going in the liveblog tag too #goldie’s pokémon violet liveblog

[abyssembraced]

Given that you get something like this whenever you backtrack after completing any of the mouse puzzles in Cyber City:

I like to think that Rouxls had been following Kris/the Fun Gang around for a decent chunk of time prior to his fight. At least during the City section of the Cyber World, anyway; before then, he was probably doing all the stuff that Swatch and Sweet, Cap'n, and K_K talked about. And after that he was preparing for his battle with them in the Acid River.

Exactly why he was following them, I haven't decided. What feels the most likely to me though is that he was searching for Noelle, since he had overheard that Queen was looking for her and wanted to impress her by capturing Noelle himself and delivering her to her. But he uh. Didn't actually know what Noelle looked like, so he never realized that the new reindeer Lightner that Kris was exploring with was the person he was looking for. ...And then he also got distracted by the Inferiore Puzzles That Daredst To Showeth Their Patheticke Faces To Him; The Great Duke Of Puzzles dgshshdfs.

It's also possible that Rouxls was teleporting back and forth between Kris & Noelle and Susie & Ralsei, spying on both pairs (since hey, if he was looking for this "Noelle" person who he didn't know the appearance of, why would he exclusively stick around Kris?). And if so, that opens up the possibility for a thread (or multiple) with Susie and/or Ralsei to be set during that time!

Though... Perhaps there was also a (very very small, he would insist) part of him that wanted to check in on Kris specifically, because he knew that Lancer was still with them.

#((small note: that ''invasive species of puzzle'' text can be seen even when you're still with noelle!)) #((i just could only find footage of someone backtracking after the fun gang got back together)) #.🂡 #🂡 headcanon | rouxls #ooc #((also. if rouxls was following kris around in the city. that would mean that he could see a lot of the shit that happens in snowgrave)) #((which would be interesting)) #((and if he did witness a bunch of other darkners getting frozen--*killed*--)) #((that could kinda support my thoughts about rouxls intentionally fully statue-ifying himself in snowgrave)) #((because. why would you bother freezing an unmoving statue)) #((and i guess to go on a separate tangent although i should make a separate post about this later:)) #((yeah. i do think rouxls intentionally let himself fully be turned into a statue in snowgrave)) #((it just makes sense to me? because he lasted so much longer in the normal route)) #((even by the *end* of that one he wasn't even fully turned to stone. his head was still fine and he could still speak. unlike lancer)) #((so i imagine he was probably using the rule-bending abilities that he might have to either delay or outright prevent his statue-fication) #((but because he was fighting against a Darkner Law Of The Universe it took a lot of his magic to uphold it)) #((so by trying to unleash his ''reale power'' on ralsei and kris he got too ahead of himself and lost control over his anti-statue measures #((and thus immediately started turning to stone until he went back to putting all his magic into stopping that)) #((but in snowgrave he purposefully released his own magic and let the statue-fication happen)) #((to protect himself from the much worse fate of being frozen to death)) #((the fact that he turned to stone in front of swatch's shop COULD suggest that he was trying to protect him and the swatchlings too?)) #((but. i love rouxls but i don't think that's super in character for him. he doesn't feel like the ''heroic'' type like that)) #((actually. i recently saw an idea that proposed that swatch and the swatchlings were only *pretending* to be trapped by rouxls)) #((but was actually just using that as an excuse to hide and be safe from the lightners)) #((which i think does make more sense actually! rouxls might be super tall but the swatchlings are still larger)) #((and even though he's made of stone there are several swatchlings who i'm sure could work together to move him if they really wanted)) #((so combining that idea with what i said about rouxls probably not thinking about trying to protect swatch and the swatchlings)) #((maybe the swatchlings actually specifically moved rouxls to block the entrance to the cafe?)) #((anyway. uh. yeah. dhshshfh. i'll make another headcanon post detailing my thoughts on rouxls' abilities eventually)) #((and possibly a separate one discussing all the snowgrave stuff i've talked about in the tags here so that it's not just hidden in here))

[pierswife]

Vent under cut fjqjsjq sorry I am just a certified mess rn

I've been doing so so good not crying since Wednesday, almost cried I wanna say 3 times? Once when dropping a friend off, once when I left my sister's (she lives 9 hours away from me), and once while I was driving home. But it's like all crashing on me now since I can finally properly rest and there is just an overwhelming urge to cry cause I miss the people I care about, especially when some of them I only get to see once a year. I'm getting so fucking lucky and I get to see my sister in person twice. I miss my friends. I miss my sister. I miss them so fucking much. I miss my sister so fucking much. I miss my big sister. It's no fair. I wanna see her more often but work and school schedules suck. I got lucky that my sister could skip working her second job so I could go see her when I was doing my 14 hours drive home. This is the person who kept me as safe as she could a sacrificed so fucking much when one of our parents was being an asshole and making our lives and our mom's life hell. It's not fair I don't get to see her every day. I know we're both adults and it's not like we don't call and text everyday but it's not the same as being able to run and hug her whenever I want or to be able to poke my head into her room and ask if she's awake because I don't wanna be alone. When I was leaving her house she hit me with "If I hug you, that means goodbye and I don't want to" and honestly it broke me but I didn't wanna cry in front of her cause I knew she'd start crying too so I forced myself to stay strong and keep smiling. And god I miss my friends so much I had literally one of the best weeks of my life being able to hang out with some of the people I care about the most and not having to worry about work or school or monet and just have fun with them. Walking away back to my car to start driving home was one of the hardest things I have ever done, but I knew if I started crying that I'd be exhausted after and not awake enough to drive, so I didn't.

I'm just so tired and I don't wanna cry because it's obviously not the last time I'll see all of them, but it still fucking hurts knowing I can't see them whenever I want because of distance and it just makes me feel so alone that a good handful of the people I care about the most are so physically out of reach. It fucking sucks.

#vent tw #tw vent #I did start crying while typing this btw jfjwjdjsis #I just feel incredibly bad actually voicing stuff like this so I usually just shove it on tumblr for a bit until I feel better then delete #Probably not the healthiest way to process my emotions but it still lets me put it somewhere and feel seen without just #dumping it all on someone because people can choose whether or not to read it which makes me feel better about it #it's also a lot easier cause then I don't need to worry about a response I can just relax after putting it out there #I would just throw it in my personal server on discord but it's just not the same and doesn't give me the same emotional release #see personal server is reserved for the stuff that NO ONE can no about because then people would worry too much 👉👉 /lh #I'll be okay crying made me feel better and I think I'm just gonna go back to sleep or at least try to #then go play some three hopes or eo or maybe draw #delete later #oh or maybe overwatch I haven't played that in like a week or so

[vstheworld]

we hired just an absolute idle bouncing DVD menu of a guy. a real orange cat vibe. if you don’t give him specific instructions on what he should be doing he just. stands there like a sim.

yet we make the same exact pay! I love capitalism.

#text post #personal #cash’s coffeeshop au #he’s in seven bands #I’m not saying that like I’m impressed that is objectively too many bands #he’s worked for us for a week and already asked me to switch a shift last-minute so he can go to his band’s cassette release show #was it a surprise show Ryan? #did you not know until 13 hours before your shift that you can’t get off work at 6:45 and make it to savannah by 7:30????? #you fucking walnut #cash yells in the tags because therapy is expensive #he’s older than me by like. five years #which is part of my frustration I think #he seems surprised he can’t make a living off his music here #a quickly-gentrifying city that has a pass-through train punk community at best #he complained no one holds house shows anymore #well yes that’s because no one who would host a punk show can afford a house in this city #and no one is letting you into their $500k home to play a set in the living room

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

ngl it's getting rly annoying seeing people say "remake of x game!" constantly. people are so obsessed with the idea of remakes lately. they don't wonder what the next new game will be like. they just want remakes (including in franchises that don't do those often. not every franchise is Tales, where they've been doing remakes actively throughout its lifespan and not just during this Uwu Remake Era).

with FE, remakes make me a bit eh bc they've all sold poorly or just barely made a profit. Marth's games' remakes on top of the failed Tellius sales almost sent FE into its grave. SoV is just... there. it happened and the fandom moved on, save for the Alm and Celica alts in Heroes.

but like, it was so annoying watching VA interviews and just seeing the word "remake" thrown around so much from the chat. people want "remakes" of games that just don't need them. updated ports is one thing, but entire remakes?

there's more to FE than remakes, but it's all people seem to talk about. I'd like Tellius ports as much as the next girl for people's accessibility (and specifically bc IS' lack of marketing destroyed those games' sales and now they're so rare they're super expensive), but a remake? it's not necessary. even with quality of life features added, those games only need ports. I play them very regularly and frankly have way more fun with them than I do with modern day Menu Emblem.

also, I don't want the fandom wank carrying over into remakes of games that never even had wank. the biggest wank Tellius ever had was the Ike vs Micaiah wars in the fandom, which were not only a fraction of what happens now post Fodlan games but also weren't anywhere near as aggressive.

idk I'm just tired of remake this, remake that. it's also because of the rampant remakes in the industry that I'm tired of it, but it's also tiring to see it constantly in this fandom. I'm glad that FE7 is coming back, but as a port on the Switch and still as a GBA game. FE4? super glad it came back as a port (JP eShop only). remakes though? too tired of the concept (especially when FE remakes have not only almost killed the franchise from lack of sales but were otherwise just mediocre and moved on from pretty quickly). I also don't trust the FE fandom with remakes at this point. character hate is so rampant in this fandom that for the life of me I don't even want Tellius ports if it's going to save me the headache and aggravation from people's lack of character comprehension. :') that shit will turn me into a hard stan and my blog will have to be painted in my blorbo just to keep haters away. :'''')

#DCB Comments #do not reblog (i don't want jerks whining at me for having thoughts/opinions on this and just need to rant a bit) #like no seriously you can't even talk abt Jugdral anymore without people whining abt remakes #instead of ppl discussing the games as they are (not just those two but any of them) #they always bring up remakes instead of enjoying what already exists. it makes it sound like #ppl don't actually /really/ enjoy what we have and won't until it's remade #remakes aren't even necessarily bad in and of themselves. Tales does really good with them usually #they've had a few bad apples or generally unpopular ones (Innocence R is the worst thing they ever did in that franchise tbch) #but they usually do a good job with remakes and the fandom wants some remakes but #I don't see the word used even half as much in that fandom as with FE #also remakes kinda worry me in FE bc like... they only come out on handhelds #(specifically to date they've only ever come out on handhelds so there's no history of console remakes to speak of) #and if they don't just totally bomb they don't do much for the franchise as a whole #while yes I think Jugdral remakes would end up with the games being more known and might sell well #the fandom wank is going to be insufferable and I've been through enough Jugdral wank /without/ remakes #I like when ports come out and the games are released again on moderns consoles but... remakes? eh #as far as FE goes remakes just don't work for me. I've heard FF has good remakes? #idk I don't play FF but it seems to get a good reception for remakes. Tales usually does #Hearts R is a mixed bag bc it was absolutely great but the loc was absolute dumpster garbage #they tried to be ~quirky~ and weird but only had JP audio so you'd get like #tiny sentences in English subs with a whole long sentence spoken in JP and you can tell how lazy they were with the loc #Hearts R is a remake and needs a remake just to fix what they screwed up so badly #Innocence R was just entirely a mistake that was a stain on Innocence itself and I refuse to acknowledge it (as do most fans) #other than that they've done tons of remakes and they do genuinely usually improve the games. FE though? yikes #also tho Tales' fandom is more sane than FE's and I don't even trust them with the GBA games let alone Jugdral/Tellius games #and like wanting remakes generally speaking isn't bad... but it's like ALL ppl talk abt anymore regarding ''the next game''

[dearreader]

and the arguments that i have won against you in my head; in the car, in the shower, and in the mirror before bed…

yeah i’m so tough when i’m alone and i make you feel so guilty and i fantasize about a time you’re a little fuckin’ sorry-

and i try to ꪊꪀᦔꫀ𝕣ડ𝕥ꪖꪀᦔ why you would do this all to me. ‘you must be insecure. you must be so unhappy.’

and i know in my heart: hurt people, hurt people. and we both drew blood, but man those cuts were

ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ꜰᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ᴇQᴜᴀʟ!!

and i try to be tough. but i wanna scream ‘HOW COULD ANYBODY DO THE THINGS YOU DID SO EASILY?’

and i say that i don’t care.

say that i’m fine.

but you know i can’t let it go, i’vetriedi’ve triedi’vetried for so long… it takes s⃞   t⃞   r⃞   e⃞   n⃞   g⃞   t⃞   h⃞ to forgive but i don’t feel ₛₜᵣₒₙg

#which ever hacker leaked my notes app rants i used as diaries to olivia rodrigo to write this song owe me an apology #no but the fact that she literally put thoughts and feelings and things i’ve done when i’m completely alone #things that i hate because i hate the power it means people still have over me #and she just put it down and released it to the world #she perfectly summarized my two year battle alone with dealing with my trauma in a single song #especially the ‘how could anybody do the things you did so easily?’ #because everything i’ve ever said on the situation leaves people speechless and it also makes me realize just how bad it was #like she infiltrated every friend group in a sorority just to get VP and then (maybe unintentionally) turned everyone against me #because she hated me and warned everyone not to be like me (one of my friebds told me she intentionally distanced herself from me because #people thought she’d be the next ‘kelly’ and be annoying and she said she didn’t want that for her. and i’m not even mad at her #because i probably would’ve done the same thing if the tables were turned.) and she did this all while my father was DYING of the most #aggressive form of brain cancer OR had just died #and even tried to comfort me 2 days after he died by saying ‘i was allowed to feel this was because i would be feeling it for the rest of #my life’ #she did everything to me #tried to steal my best friend and drive a wedge between us #destroy the relationship i’d built with my pledge class that the sorority insisted on building and developing for each pledge class #made fun of me liking taylor swift #reminded me constantly i wasn’t wanted in the sorority #belittled my knowledge of things and automatically assumed if i said something it was false until a second party agreed with me #she just did all that without batting an eye #told me to my face and over text she never did anything wrong #like… the song just describes it perfectly #pinky tag #kelly babels #sorority tag #the grudge #kelly listens to music