#but my shoulders said fuck that

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

We can’t keep doing this.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #made this one a bit general because its a reoccurring action wwx makes #He can take it! He’s strong! No one else has to suffer if he’s there to shoulder the weight of consequences #horrible mindset. Go to therapy foul sir #He internalized the concept that his life is only worthy in the service of others…mood buddy but it sucks in this hole #Lwj really said ‘your self sacrificial attitude has caught my ire and I’m taking you on as a personal project’ #ok he didn’t but him calling out wwx is so god damn critical to what makes their dynamic the way it is. #how they *both* call each other out! #in love we grow together B*) #wei wuxian now has a big ol’ ‘fuck you’ cat on his leg. Like the worlds worst drunken tattoo #(its the energy of a wronged catboy coalesced into a single image) #outfit changes are approaching but just…remember….its always there.

[corpsentry]

eulogy

#i was fully going to just wrangle my way through life for another 39 years when my friend said to me: #you are gay and we want you to submit art for the pride art show. but i hasn’t drawn at all since last year so i made a new comic from scr #i was also having one of the worst times of my life all of the past week but every night after sobbing into a friends shoulder or wtv #i’d sit down and draw. and then today i locked myself in the basement for 5 #hours and now he is finished. trans allegory or whatever #happy pride #world is horrible so hold the people you love close #i am trying . succeeding? not really but definitely trying #i have gone now through the 5 stages of grief. 1) eat food 2) eat food 3) hit rock 4) hit rock 5) give up #i Give Up. i give up by living my life without giving a fuck #which is like. actually giving down. or taking away down #idk anyway #i hope you’re well i’m HANGING ON BY A THREAD. BUT A GOOD THREAD #and to my lgbsbfk homies: i love you #my art

[comic-sans-chan]

julian at the start of ds9: well i did it i bamboozled all of the starfleets and now i am here julikhan noonien bashing with my diabolical plan to heal random aliens on the farthest space station i could find from my stupid parents teehee guess i'll sit here all alone and sip my silly little tea like a friendless british loser all a part of my master plan garak dissolving straight through the wall tits first: heLLO i am Not A Spy unless that's your kink and i’m definitely not tripping several balls unless that’s your kink HAHAHAHA drugs aren’t real anyway wow i can't believe we're already politically advantageous best friends that's crzy and i’m sure won’t awaken anything in me btw totally unrelated how do you feel about public sex julian, completely tangled in the centerpiece: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

#deep space nine #ds9 #garashir #my posts #it's been said a thousand times and i'll say it again #alternatively julian: hehehe teatime fuck the police #garak: thems some blue shoulders you got there #julian: dies on contact #julikhan noonien bashing bond raven way

[thinkingaboutfilm11]

Michelle Mouton and driving partner Fabrizia Pons

You don't understand- they mean the world to me

#lesbians? #perhaps... #her shoulders #shes genuinly one of my heros #what a queen #she said fuck you to every single man ever #michelle Mouton #Fabrizia Pons #rally car

[raytorosaurus]

it's so funny when people come to ray's defense in the tags of My posts about him...buddy read between the lines what im really saying is i want to put him through his shitty twin mattress in full view of god snorlax and charmander

#princess bride voice when he said 'babygirl ur vent poetry is just so shitty' what he meant was 'okay. knees over my shoulders right now.' #fuck it's 4am #* #this is completely /lh obvs im not annoyed at anyone skdkdjf

[frnkiebby]

CARROT TOP FRANKIE~🎃

#he’s matching my pumpkin sig #he really just bleached -> pulled coppery -> and said fuck it #it’s a vibe #i literally did the same thing last summer #except no one would help me with the back of my head so it was streaky #i mean i have fucking limited mobility in both shoulders #you’d think someone would be nice enough to help me foil #nope #i just put red over it and called it good. #the shit bleach job actually worked in my favor bc i got so many compliments #frnkiebby #rosethorn #asks #frank iero #mcr #frnkiero #mcrmy #frnkie #mcr5 #my chemical romance #my chem #ilhsm

[spocks-kaathyra]

going from my cool transgender college dorm to the Weird Old White Men Convention is soooo freaky like why am I experiencing misogyny for the first time

#reconsidering my position on giving condescending old white men the benefit of the doubt #it's just the way they talk down to u and how they clearly think of themselves as the most important and coolest ppl in the world #freaky experience to be treated like this but like they can't actually harm me in any way so. whatever #it's sooo weird I can't believe I am 18 yrs old and recognizing that I'm experiencing misogyny for the first time #who u should be honored to speak to and the way they get too fucking close to u. like fuck all the way off oh my god #I have got to stop being so shy and pathetic bc all I am doing is playing directly into their expectations of me #guy who said he thought I was 13 or 15 and then proceeded to shake my hand for too long and grab my shoulder as he walked away. ewww #whatever. I hope their wives leave them and take the house in the divorce #narcissus's echoes

[pumpkinrootbeer]

This could differ from person to person but I do believe that at the start, Evan genuinely just wanted to help the Murphys and wasn’t sure how to do that other than to lie and he felt trapped by his situation (for lack of a better word) and that was sort of influenced by what Jared said to him (“you’re seriously gonna tell them all they have left of their dead son is a weird sex letter you wrote?”), though of course I’m not trying to say Jared like, did that maliciously. As time went on, particularly in Act 2, Evan did start to act out selfishly and trying to use his lie with the Murphys as a means to get what he wants rather than actually helping them. I really like your posts analyzing them, honestly Evan and Jared’s dynamic is so interesting, and at the end of the day they’re both just like. Awful teenagers. They need couple’s counseling or something

i absolutely get you, and like you said they're just awful teenagers!! they're kids who are going through so much and have no support, they're going to do stupid shitty things. and of course you're absolutely free to your interpretations!! no shame in interpreting media differently then me :) that's the joy of fandom! And thank you!!! i have really enjoyed rambling abt these losers I love them so much <3

Also you've activated my autism beam and now i get to talk Abt my interpretations even more hahaha my perfect victory.

So first thing, yes! I 100% agree that Evan did want to help the Murphys and try and alleviate some of their pain at the start. But there's a shift at some point throughout the play where it's less about helping them and more about helping Evan, which I think most people agree on that at some point Evan's interests shift to being more self centered— it's just a matter of when that change occurs that people disagree on.

I'm of the opinion that the change happens, or at the very least starts to happen, very early on. I would say the moment Evan's motivations start to shift is when he says the line "They didn't want me to stop." while talking with Jared (and I am going to talk about my interpretation of Jared because I have so much to say about that freak 😭). This is the moment, for me, Evan realizes he's getting positive attention for lying. And that maybe he kind of likes it.

And I've said this in my other posts, but Evan isn't admitting to himself that that's why he's doing this! I don't think he's even aware of why he's really doing this. When he says he's doing it for the Murphys, he genuinely believes that.

The moment where I think he's 100% doing it for himself, even though he doesn't realize it, is Disappear. Because Connor's memory is already forgotten and they are parading this fake version of him around, a fake version of Connor that makes Evan look better and one that is actively causing real Connor to get forgotten faster. And Evan admits in the song that it's also because he doesn't want to be forgotten, which is not this horrible awful thing to feel! Evan isn't a bad person because he doesn't want to be invisible. I don't think Evan is a bad person at all!! What he does that's bad is hijack this tragedy for himself, a thing that again, he doesn't even realize he's doing.

i would definitely agree with you that by act 2, everything is mostly for himself. Cue the "It's not my fault other people can" line. Which I would argue is probably the cruelest thing Evan says in that entire show 😭, and then we get Good for You where Evan realizes things are starting to fall apart and that Alana isn't completely unaware and Evan's hurt her and his mom cares so much and has been so hurt by what Evan has done and that Jared isn't going to always be at his beck and call to write more emails whenever Evan needs him to, and that he's also been hurt by Evan's actions. Probably the most important song in the whole musical tbh. And THEN we get Words Fail where Evan just finally has to come to terms with why he's been doing everything, and it's also such a crucial moment for Evan's character Words Fail baby I love youuuuu.

So yeah! I agree that Evan started out with pure intentions, felt trapped, and then ended up finally feeling seen. He's a complicated character that I think gets watered down to a one dimensional poor anxious bean too much, it does a HUGE disservice to his character. I love canon Evan my perfect asshole son WAAAYYY more than fanon Evan did nothing wrong ever he's too anxious to hurt anyone.

With Jared, I actually think one of the most interesting things about him is that line!! Why does he tell Evan to not come clean? He has nothing to gain from it, he isn't even using the lie to get closer to Evan yet because the lie doesn't really exist! And you can't even argue that he's trying to sabotage Evan in this moment because there's nothing to suggest Jared ever actively tries to ruin Evan's life.

Sure, he says he would if he had that letter but nothing in the show suggests that's something Jared would do. He keeps Evan's lie for him the entire show, even when he has no reason too. Jared had cause and means to ruin Evan's life, but chooses not to again and again. So I'd definitely agree that he's not acting with malintent.

How I read that line, and obviously people are free to disagree, is concern. He is genuinely worried about Evan here and what Evan telling the Murphys will do to Evan. It's not even self preservation because he has nothing to do with this yet!

And because Jared is... well Jared, him looking out for Evan is telling him not to come clean! Nod and confirm, boys. Nod and confirm. Like it's this really imperfect, messy answers right? Because he's a teenager whose go to answer is not telling people shit about what's going on with him. Like, so many of Jared's problems would be solved if he knew how to talk to people, like "Hey Ev you're my only friend and you inventing a fake friend who is your best friend kinda sucks and hurts my feelings. Also this thing you're doing is weird and selfish xoxo love Jared." But he can't say that, because he's well. he's Jared.

And then he just offers to write these emails for Evan, and then continuously tries to do shit for Evan in the second act when Evan wants fuck all to do with him it's literally insane how Jared acts. "I can't do any more emails this weekend I have to hang out with my REAL friends 🙄🙄" to immediately "wait I can help with the project please please involve me in your life" like the lie isn't really holding up there Jared 🤨🤨 and then the invite for Evan to come over and drink and just shoot the shit with him he's clearly so desperate for his friend but he's also such an asshole he had to constantly push Evan away at the same time 😭😭😭😭 OHHHH I love them.

#:v #ask #anon #jared kleinman #evan hansen #dear evan hansen #kleinsen #THANK YOU FOR THE EXCUSE TO RAMBLE ABOUT MY BLORBOS..... #any chance to talk abt Jared and Evans fucked friendship is one I will take in a heartbeat #I never want people to feel like they have to agree with what I'm saying #i am not the arbiter for deh lore of course and people can read Evan as perfectly innocent and Jared the devil on his shoulder #I think they're WRONG but they're free to do so of course #not saying that that's what you think btw anon!! #I honestly agree with basically everythin u said <3

[mariana-oconnor]

Look, I may have accidentally created an aroace character, but now I'm going back to make a non-aroace character so I can romance the disaster wizard and live in his magical library.

This is a completely rational action and not in any way weird.

#Roleplayed too hard and played myself #My gnome just wants to be friends with everyone and whenever she tells people this they get angry with her - literally apart from Gale #And Karlach #Karlach is her bff for real #Shadowheart needs to get over herself istg #GIRL I TOASTED TO FRIENDSHIP #Get the fucking hint #But I am highly amused by the concept of tiny gnome HUGE TIEFLING friendship #If Karlach's fire problem goes away my Tav is getting carried around on her shoulders #Don't even get me started on Lae'zel #I'm pretty sure that counts as workplace harassment #I mean the hostile working environment is pretty much a given (it's Faerun) but seriously Lae'zel? #Shut up about your scent kink #I said no #Qd #Baldur's Gate 3 spoilers #again I guess #Sorry this is consuming my brain #I'm sure your regularly scheduled shitposting will return eventually

[millenniummmbop]

rivalshipping is about healing to me but like in a “well-meaning yet still ill-advised codependency” way

#*pulls down projection screen and extends my collapsible pointer stick thing* #Yugi was a lonely kid with unresolved anger issues who went too far w the whole revenge fantasy thing #until The Power Of Friendship TM mellowed him out and he finally landed in a more emotionally stable state #*clicks to next slide* #meanwhile kaiba over here is ALSO a lonely kid with unresolved anger issues who ALSO went too far w his own fucked up revenge fantasy #*quickly shuffles through slides of Death-T* #but two mind-shattering comas later and yugi at the very least was willing to bury the hatchet and try to start over again #the whole 'kaiba vs peg sus' fiasco was where everyone finds out kaiba's motives up to that point and where it all finally clicks for yugi #*clicks to next slide to reveal the 'he just like me fr' meme but it's yugi crying on the balcony inside peggy's castle* #it's after this that yugi starts thinking 'Well friendship fixed ME so maybe it can fix HIM too' #*clicks next slide and hits play on the embedded video* #Yugi: good morning kaiba-kun! nice weather we're having today huh? #Kaiba: I'm going to beat u in the face and in the ass #Yugi: haha alright bud I'll see u at regionals tomorrow #Yugi said so himself that he wanted 'friends he could count on and who could count on him' (paraphrasing) #i think he saw this mess of a human being recklessly barreling towards the edge at 100 miles an hour and said #'yeah this looks like something i can personally fix' #bc he's the type of person to just selflessly shoulder a mountain of burdens if it means helping someone he cares about #like his heart is definitely in the right place but i don't think he realizes that kaiba also needs like #therapy and mood stabilizers or some shit #*a voice rings out from the back of the class* #'op they had like 10 minutes of conversation MAX over the entirety of duelist kingdom this is literally all in ur head* #no no the groundwork is there for all of this i PROMISE #lion king rafiki voice: look harder #like yes i'm delusional but i'm also RIGHT #(⓿_⓿) #ignore me

[paponela]

spent 4hs and R$400 to get an ultrasound done on my cat just to get home and figure out the vet asked for the wrong joint by mistake!!!! im literally on the verge of collapse!!!!!

#she wrote elbow instead of shoulder for whatever reason and i was like girl what!!!!! what!!!!!! #i only figured out bc the vet doing the ultrasound though it was strange bc the symptoms my cat has are textbook shoulder issues #and found nothing on the fucking elbow so she asked me to speak again with my main vet #and when i did she said oops i wrote that wrong sorry 😬 #anyway she took full responsability and will reimburse everything but still #you'll remember that im still unemployed!!! and i only had 300 on my bank account!!! i had to borrow money from my mom!!!! #and im starting the new job next week so i simply dont know when i'll have the time to cross the city with the damn cat!! #not to mention the stress

[theimpossiblescheme]

Say what you will about the Cyrano movie (and one day I'll be able to in a halfway articulate manner), but I am still mildly obsessed with "Every Letter", and I think about this ending couplet all the time...

Your letters are drawings on me from above I know who you are and I know you are loved

Just... the idea of Cyrano and Christian receiving a letter in return from Roxanne and feeling their breath catch both with ecstasy and with bitter regret.

I know who you are...

But she can't. But she mustn't. But it would break her heart--she would never trust them again. But it wouldn't be fair to Christian. But Cyrano could never show his face again. But they already feel themselves burn under her gaze, and to meet it honestly without the armor of a soldier, of these letters, would scorch them until nothing remains. But the only true honor is to hide, even if they know it's really the coward's way out. But the only safety (if they were being brutally honest with themselves) is to hide.

... and I know you are loved.

But God, they wish they didn't have to.

#It's four thirty in the morning and I have been slam-dunked back into Cyrano Hell... #Listen okay ever since the movie introduced the idea of *Roxanne actually writing back* I have been even less normal about these idiots. #The imagery is so fucking delicious either way because you get to imagine either the two of them sitting close enough together #that they can both read either together or over the other's shoulder and just... occupying that space together the two nearly becoming one #and I get to lose my mind over the proximity and the warmth between them forged in the fire of their love for Roxanne. #OR *or or*... the two of them taking turns reading and just *watching* the other's face as they read trying to glean from their expressions #what she might have said and the intensity of that study becoming its own terrible intimacy that right now they can only show through proxy #and I *also* get to lose my mind over Cyrano watching Christian and musing that even if his partner might look like a marble statue #he's never seen a marble statue make that face before but he's *definitely* seen it from Roxanne and it's just as coronary-inducing on both #and Christian watching Cyrano and musing that this might be the closest he'll ever come to seeing the pride of the cadets #and the mythic figure he's built around himself completely *shatter* if only for a moment... he's *human* and he's *exquisite.* #CANNOT be normal about it... it's 'So--here's my heart under your velvet now'-- #it's 'I've loved but one (man) in my life and now I must lose him twice'-- #it's the darkness of the balcony and the endless sunshine metaphors regarding Roxanne herself-- #it's the goddamn Mortifying Ordeal of Being Known and how much Roxanne *craves* it from two men terrified to submit to it... #God these three make me sick I love them so much. #cyrano de bergerac

[seattlesellie]

ABSIAJZIAK ANON GET THAT FOOT FETISH SHIT OUTTA ELLIES FACE UR SCARING HER

ellie is foot phobic !!!! (confirmed by me)

#𓏲 ࣪₊♡𓂃 anon 🎀 #unless ur wearing an anklet with her initials #she loves having it on her shoulder as she fucks into you deep #WHO SAID THAT????????? wtf :( someone hacked my hastags…

[stripesysheaven]

anyway to celebrate my rewatch of lost being complete, have a zoomed in picture of a selfie i took with mr emerson <3

#you can still barely see my hair on the right side of the picture lol #his hand was on my shoulder im. just staring at it #it freaks me out too much what the fuck #feels like it happened to someone else not me #i remember it but also i zoned out staring at him #wasn’t emotionally present #not showing it but i did wear a dharma shirt when i met him #my dad always said ‘you’re very brave to have his hand on your back. he easily could have stabbed you’ you say that as if its a bad thing #wish i had watched lost more recently during that time so i could have asked him more interesting questions #he was so lovely though. talked about his wife a lot even promoted the show she had going on at the time #guy clearly loves her it was adorable #i know i know parasocial relationships etc im aware i dont know anything about his personal life and im more than ok with that #ok im done im just insane rn #michael emerson #my posts #lostposting #benposting