#but on the other hand I am.... fine

[thatswhatsushesaid]

psa that the day there are no jgy stans left on tumblr dot com is the day i am dead

but rest assured i'll go to my grave exactly as i lived: obnoxiously proclaiming to everyone within earshot how great lianfang-zun is. narratively, metaphorically, spiritually. sexually, too, like why limit myself. i like to keep my options open

#the spirit of su minshan possessed me for a minute there but like. i'm fine with it #jin guangyao #he did crimes??? good for him 😌 #editing this post to add that while the tone here is clearly joking #i really am fundamentally still engaged with this fandom #and with this book #almost exlcusively because of my enjoyment of jgy #even xiyao is secondary for me like i love it and i'm ride or die for it obvs #but jgy as a character is the main draw for me. and he would have me by the throat even if there was no zewu-jun #(tho i think jgy's life would be more depressing for his absence obviously) #but he is just. /clenches my fists!!! #THE most compelling character in the story and i cannot stop thinking about him!! cannot will not!! #who else in this book has his range? who else can be the doe-eyed idealist AND the spy with blood on his hands who ends a war? #who else is two different greek tragedies and at least two separate shakespearean tragedies rolled into one antagonist #an antagonist who but for the POV of the novel could very easily have been the protagonist #whose moral event horizon is so deeply entwined with his own trauma and abuse that there is no way to meaningfully separate #the violence he does to others from the systemic violence that was done to him for his whole life? #who else in this book manages to get five separate sect leaders utterly obsessed with him no matter how you choose #to interpret that obsession? #no one!!! that's who!! #ain't no one else in the jianghu doing it like lianfang-zun and that's just a goddamn fact

[nikuttek]

a glow in the dark 🗡️

i almost never draw backgrounds so this was a really experimental drawing...

#the hobbit #bilbo baggins #lotr #lord of the rings #my art #i am still a little bit unsure of the background haha #but i guess it's fine because obviously it cannot be perfect as i haven't practiced #on the other hand i adore how bilbo turned out akdjskjd i'm so proud of myself #tolkien

[markscherz]

I salivate at the thought of skinning you alive

oh good, I thought I'd been left out. [for context to the reader, this is a reference to this post (I hope)]

On the spectrum from crocodile to passerine, I can only hope that human would be closer to crocodile, but not so close to be quite as tiring.

#I skinned a crocodile recently #actually just part of a crocodile #and it was exhausting #fascinating and extremely cool #but really a lot of work #the osteoderm make the back REALLY inflexible #so pulling it back takes a lot of strength #huge respect to the people who do that for a living #on the other hand #trying to skin a passerine is like trying to hammer in a nail with tissue paper #you just look at the damn thing and the skin rips #I have no idea how people make titmouse taxidermies #I have pretty good fine motor control #but I am not cut out to be a taxidermist #cw skinning #I guess? #let me know if this needs other warnings #I can't think of any right now #tag ramble #answers by Mark #Anon #Anonymous

[swervenation]

i don't trust official artists who omit swerve's insignia. like ok i guess you hate autobots then ......

#They are FORGETTING that the PLACEMENT of his BADGE is a CRUCIAL PART of his CHARACTERIZATION #👏 SHOW 👏 US 👏 THAT 👏 AUTOBUSH #my occassional exclusion of it on the other hand is completely fine. because i can't draw attention to his robocrotch or else #or else people will assume i am thinking unclean thoughts about him! (correct) #anyways #processor malfunction #swerve

[elminster-big-naturals]

this may be controversial but maybe the "astarion and halsin are SO sexually traumatised that you should literally cut your own dick off before thinking abt them romantically you disgusting freaks" goon squad should consider the ramifications of essentially insisting assault survivors be permanently excluded from any kind of sex and romance bc they are too broken and stupid to be trusted to know their own desires and boundaries or have the capacity to want to explore/push them.

you know real survivors (not pixel men but real ppl like me!) can read that shit? do you think pushing the lie that encountering one (1) Genital Wielded With Intent will invariably cause us to crumble to a miserably weepy heap of dust and blow away in the breeze is appreciated or helpful? or implying the people that love or desire us are selfish at best and outright predators at worst?

i'm begging ppl to just be 2% normal about abuse survivors PLEASE. the characters aren't real but the attitude you drag from fandom back into the real world are.

#im a long term csa survivor and a 2x rape survivor. i'm now 30yo and live completely free of my trauma in a loving committed relationship #wanna know how i did it? mostly by exploring sex and intimacy on my own terms (including casual sex + kink as well as writing) #you know why i dont talk abt it even though it doesn't bother me? bc i hate the sudden change in how people treat me #like im a cross between a fabergé egg and a hand grenade. get fucked bro for REAL #obviously everyone processes this shit differently but god i am so tired of 'well meaning' disk horsers saying some googoo gaga nonsense #anyway im not tagging this but its fine to rb/interact with. #and YES other survivor spreading this crap this is a direct @ for you too! i'm spraying you with a water gun like a misbehaving cat

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

headcanon that scorpius was a sick child and was in and out of hospital constantly, perhaps related to astoria's blood curse but not directly. his immune system isnt very strong, and everytime he gets sick they're terrified that it's the blood curse but also whatever else it could be, because it's always so sudden and so intense and they call healers over to the house who recommend this delirious feverish 4 year old is hospitalised immediately, and you'd think it'd get easier to some extent because they'd be used to it, but everytime they feel like this is it, this is the time he'll walk in to the hospital and not walk out again

#this headcanon has no purpose im just thinking of scorpius in bed like a sickly victorian child with scarlet fever or something #asking if he'll make it to sunrise lmfao #so then he hates hospitals with a passion #my friend from school was in them constantly he was even a make a wish kid and he can not fucking stand the places so #headcanon scorpius becomes a healer anyway lmao #im sick and this is how im coping by putting baby scorp in hospital lmfao #it just made draco that little bit more protective #lucius made an insensitive comment about it once and draco was ready to throw hands #this headcanon doesnt really go anywhere ive just decided scorpius was a sick child #he has sick child energy lmfao #he still knows some of his doctors/healers because he was there so frequently #just imaging lil scorp in a hospital bed and draco and astoria are sleeping in the room on like uncomfortable chairs and the fever finally #breaks and hes like uh daddy im hungry and its like 4am but draco couldnt care less cause scorp hasnt been able to eat anything for days #let alone ask for food directly and baby scorp is wondering why his parents are acting so damn weird just cause he asked for some toast #but once hes grown up whenever he gets sick its on such a lower level than what it used to be when he was a kid because his immune system #got better that he struggles to gauge when other people would usually stop trying to do daily activities and albus has to start wrestling #scorpius back to bed instead of going to class cause scorpius really youre practically dying and hes like pfff you wanna see dying? use tha #timeturner one more time and go back to see me at literally any point between 2 and 10 i am FINE #(he absolutely was not fine) #scorpius malfoy #albus potter #draco malfoy #hpcc #scorbus #this is so many tags im so sorry

[neptunesailing]

mayoi (enstars x hnk au)

#nep draws things #ensemble stars #enstars #sketch #mayoi ayase #enstars x hnk au #hnk au #ouoououououu i am soooo proud of the mayo on the right hjhjrhgrghrhgrhghgrghrhg he is so !! #showed this to a friend before i posted and they said his hair would taste like frozen grapes and i had to break it to them that it'd break #their teeth JHDHJFHJSDHJFHJSHJFSJD anywayy i might redraw the aira one.. he needs some attention too ^_^ sorry i only design for hii.ai / #alkaloid but THEY ARE MY FAVS........ by this logic i should be drawing more sw.itch but . i just . *waves hands* alkaloid !!! alkaloid so #special to me.. anyway tatsumi has another job other than patrolling with mayo which is why mayo has the winter uni and tatsun has the norm #i was maybe thinking tatsun would be a healer like rutile is..? nothing is set in stone (pun intended) for now ahha but tatsun can still #fight jsut fine!! hes more of a watcher for mayo. mayo fights more since his hardness lvl is much higher than tatsun's. during the spring a #stuff tho i think mayo kinda hides around? still not sure.. youd probably see him around tho in the shadows (ala canon i guess) and i guess #thats how hiiro and aira get to know mayo outside of patrols.. OH the reason why mayo is on winter patrol is because he gets too nervous #working with other gems and he kept messing up and hiding away whenever he did mess up so :((( yeah he usually fights by himself OH I SHOUL #EXPLAIN WHY HE CAN SPLIT INTO 2 its because of the spinel law something somethign rotated at 180 degrees at some axis but ANYWAY his hair #is longer in his singular form but you can see in his split form his hair is cut differently than how we normally see mayo's hair- and also #theyre mirrored!! their braids are on different sides and the side w/o the braid is shorter!! and the moles are on opposite sides too heheh #holy shit i wrote so much in the tags..... anyway THANK YOU SOS SO MUCH TEA FOR REMINDING ME OF THE HNK AU AGAIN AND ENABLING ME TO GO #INSANE OVER THIS AU AGAIN UR AMAZINGGGG <333333

[hailsatanacab]

I LIED!! MEMES ARE TODAY >:D

wow a lot of these are about jason lol

now to actually go to sleep, it's much too late for me to be up ily bye!!

MEMES ARE TODAY PEOPLE 🚨🙏🥳🎊🎉🙌

for chapter 9 of cetbwa

#cetbwa #danny phantom #dp dc #dp x dc #batman #literally just finished reading your comment and how you werent doing memes until later #which would have been absolutely fine please dont feel like you have to meme straight away on my account (you do have to meme tho haha) #and i go to put my phone down and see a tumblr notification with MEME TODAY lmao #ilysm bestie #i am very spoiled today thank you so much!!!! #these are fuxking quality too like holy shit - literal laugh out loud funny #the fucking jason office one had me in stitches its so funny #thats exactly the way jason is feeling rn - and i was so in two minds about how long to keep danny pretending to be damian for!! #like on the one hand its not exactly the right way to start off a relationship，but on the other hand.... it absolutely fits into the batfam #also i had this funny little phone text conversation thing mocked up between tim and jason that i was gonna put in the notes but rip me #i have no idea how to do that lmao i tried so hard and for so long but it just kept coming up blank 😔😔 #it was gonna be like 'thanks for telling me he's identical i almost outed red hood!' and then tim would be like #'wow red hood's gay??' #it was funny #BUT NOT AS FUNNY AS THESE #oh fuck i made it big again by accident how do i keep doing that #oH FUCK I FORGOT TO TAG YOU AGAIN FUCK ME #tellmeabtspinos #the butterfly one 'is this a normal undead man?' because thats a sentence normal people say - danny has such a skewed view of normal lmao #also you very much are a psychic with your kitten drawing，apollo really socked you because next chapter 😽🥺 #damn these are all so good like #hope you have a good sleep and thank you again so so much!!! love you bby you are incredible and funny and so so creative ilysm ❤️

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

phone calls my detested

#i had to make a vet appointment and Wow i am not cut out for this whole independent adult thing lmfao #i had to write down a little script for myself... #i feel so bad for the receptionist i was stumbling and 'uhhhhh'ing my way through that call #fuck and when i was supposed to end the call. i didnt realize #I DONT KNOW THE PROTOCOL OKAY #do i hang up??? do i say bye??? she didnt say bye so was there something else i was supposed to say #she hung up so Yay but oughhhhhhh what the fuck #youre telling me people just Know how to carry a conversation? they just Know the routine? sounds fake #i had to rev myself up for the call too #put on a hat. put on sunglasses to trick my brain into thinking we're outside doing things thus fabricating confidence #phone in one hand fidget-dodecahedron in the other. Pacing #my brain is a normal brain that works perfectly fine thanks for asking #absolutely unprompted #i feel so connected to my neanderthal ancestors when i have to make a call #theyre being stalked by a smilodon... i have to talk to a person... same Fear <3 #no but fr whenever i have to talk to someone my thought process shuts down Completely and i forget that im a living human being #fight or flight - neither. freeze and play dead #i think in my next life... i would like to be... a decorative plant #perhaps one of those tall ferns outside a seaside barbecue restaurant #i'd Win at that life. id be so good at photosynthesizing & rustling in the ocean breeze

[carlyraejepsans]

hahaha hey does anyone know why my skin-picking scars turned yellow in pool water

#only on one hand too the other is fine??? hahaha am i gonna die

[yorshie]

Pea Brained Bounce House time. Was thinking about the earlier Mikey bit. Then I started thinking about Warm Coded. And then:

Raph’s got like. This thing, when you’re working out with him. He uses the cover of coaching you to stare.

It’s not until he’s got you doing chairs against the concrete wall, and you look up in pleading askance on how much longer you’ve gotta hold the position, that you finally catch the way his attention is trained on the swell of your stomach. The uncanny focus of his gaze on your thighs as the muscles start to tremble and seize up.

Raph likes to stare.

#……. hm. is this gonna be a blood orange fic? #are they gonna converge? #looks at the blurple fic I’m already planning. fuck. this might be a blood orange fic #but how would that even work? #Mikey is so much harder to set a boundary with than Leo and Donnie #and what about my head canon of Mikey sneaking into Raph’s bed during nightmares? #I could just see. raph wakes up and readers all against him all warm and cuddly #he goes for the sleepy morning action #but his hand knocks against Mikey’s shell and there’s like the awful dawning realization that his little bro is cock blocking him #cue Mikey waking up cuz you smell all warm and he wants action too #only for the same realization to have th both going >:[ at each other #raph gets up like fuck this I’ll be a good boyfriend I’ll go get breakfast. you want pastries doll? I'll get you fucking pastries #and Mikey’s like fuck that I’ll be a better boyfriend I’m gonna go make homemade juice #and then reader is like. wtf where are my cuddly buddies? Why is everyone so pissy this fine morning? #<- zero clue they are in the middle of a pissing contest #goes to take a morning shower and gets interrupted cuz Mikey doubles back #youngest sibling gotta take advantage of the older one being out and all that #I could just see him all annoyed halfway to the Kitchen before going *wtf am I doing* and backtracking to corner reader in the bathroom #raph drags reader back in his room and closes the door in mikey's face when he gets back with pastries #cuz personal space (nest) privileges and it was cold outside and damn it he's was a good boyfriend he deserves cuddle time #also he didn't get mikey any pastries #proceeds to show reader there's more than one way to enjoy a pastry #……… have to think about this one actually plot poly is hard #raccoon rambles

[starpros-sunshine]

SICK I FEEL SICK TO MY STOMACH

#stole these from twitter I need to find the link to the tl the story is dance floor oh my god #‚im doing it because I want to‘ OH I AM NOT FINE #Finehead in hands they care so much for each other actually #they’re sooooooo <33333333 #oh I feel ill they are so sweet #wataei

[pendraegon]

everything feels like a slurry in my brain. simultaneously like i've been swept up into a hurling vortex that lurches around on unsteady legs and also like i'm the only stagnant thing and everything else is a loud cacophony of color that's almost startling. my eyes are hot and they feel wet. my head hurts. my chest feels empty. i blink and hours pass. everything feels like it's a stone's throw from reality or maybe i'm just on the opposite side of the glass entirely. i feel hollow and i feel brittle like the tiniest bit of pressure will make me shatter.

#my hands are cold but they're always cold but they feel nice against my face right now......... #i think. i haven't been dealing with things as well as i thought i have been especially the last week or so #might be mia for a bit guys. there's nothing to worry about regarding my safety at all but there is a..... #distinct...lack. of feeling or anything right now. just total numbing apathy and i dont like how i am both to myself and #to others when i get like this. #hopefully this passes soon xoxo. eventually i'll be fine because i'm always fine....

[soldier-poet-king]

Debating bringing back this look??? Probs shorter in the sides and a lil shaggier on the top so my lil curly waves can form? Is it just my need for dramatic change?? Probably but still??? Am I gonna be doing the chop->grow into a lob->chop circuit until I die??

#the duality of fran #u know when everything has just been AHHH??? for a bit #and then its like. cut ur hair. u need to cut ur hair IMMEDIATELY #ive had my bob for the last year and a half #since i grew out my LAST dramatic chop #(this would be what 3? 4 if you count pandemic self generated buzzcut) #on one hand. short hair. on other hand curls dont form super well when its short. other hand very fine hair and greasy scalp SHOWING??? #but also. all my piercings on display. gnc. easy #but also. round ass mf face. #WAHHHHHHHHH #i am not going to do anything til i hear back from that job #which should be next week #maybe afterward it will be a meltdown or a celebration chop #idk folks im a lil insane lately. like more than usual the past few motnhs #<-is severely lacking sunlight #FINALLY REMEMBERD TO PUT SEE RESULTS FOR MYSELF ON A POLL. F YEAH

[evidently-endless]

like it’s fine but i do still kinda resent the times in my life when it looked like i wasn’t trying at all but i was literally just trying to get through the day

#i do think about the impressions i made at certain points but well. i was too busy being insanely depressed to be any other way sorry! #thinking about all the uni work i handed in back in the day that wasn’t even CLOSE to what i could’ve done well #me when i am good at moving on lmao #it’s fine i’m letting it go i’m super chill about it #personal

[vargaslovinghours]

You can’t catch me, Dad Feels™

#💟 #Doodles #Art #Edgar #Todd #Scriabin #Baby Todd AU #''Oh yes we can!'' Lol #This is actually session 2 of the Baby Todd AU doodles! I stepped away and was subsequently pulled back a few days later! #Told you I had too many ideas lol #It was more early ideas that I wanted put to paper that convinced me to come back haha #Edgar in Regret™ phase and struggling with all the expenses that come with a new baby - make him suffer Light #And coming strong out of the gate trying to justify his unhappiness in more acceptable language - #Not ''This was a mistake and I don't want to do this'' but rather ''I am unqualified and this should be taken from my hands'' #Half a dozen in one really lol he /is/ unprepared but he's still a better dad than any of the other adults in Todd's life #And what makes it all worth it? Come on now ♪ #Scriabin roasts him later like ''You know when I said you should have even one other person in your life I didn't mean adoption'' #Edgar so socially inept only legal guardianship keeps people around! Lol no he's fine ♥ #That could apply for regular Todd anyway haha - more like having to be raised around his quirks to put up with him - He's still fine! 💕 #Scriabin was napping in the back as Edgar complained and then woke up when Todd started moving hehe ♪ #''Father'' is probably a bit too fraught and formal to stick but baby talk just once would probably get a positive reaction haha #How Would he differentiate between them if he called them by titles rather than their names hmm #Also fun fact - I edited those last two panels after the fact :) Which details did I replace? Give your guess quick! #It was Edgar's eyes I drew a completely different set and laid them over top and I think I did a pretty seamless job hehe ♪ #Cute sparklies ✨