#but ugh the other ones [sob]

[blackjackkent]

More explorations through the parsed dialogue files. The nymph in Sharess's Caress (the one whose Fist client turns into a mind flayer) offers you a "moment of ecstasy" in return for saving her life - and apparently there are some character-specific dialog options for all of the origin characters (minus Lae'zel and plus Minsc) regarding their deepest desires. And I'm kinda having a lot of feelings about it.

Naoise Nallinto: The all-being. Here, there is no suffering. Here, you want for nothing. Here, you are anything. You have one word. Tell me: what will you be?

DARK_URGE: Sane. Naoise Nallinto: You are sane. Time dances on in sequence, the winding path of time evens, and becomes straight. With a quiet head, you can once again hear the song of the birds and the wind in the grass. You pluck a flower, and it does not bleed.

SHADOWHEART: Whole. Naoise Nallinto: You are whole. Within and without, free from expectation and the crushing burden of solitude.You are the entirety of you. Every path outward leads to adventures yet unknown. Every path inward leads to dreams eternally fulfilled.

ASTARION: Safe. Naoise Nallinto: You are safe. The winds of fate blow you to the warmest of hearths in the most cordial of inns. Your seething passions lead only to pleasure. The touch of the sun comforts your flesh, but never burns it.

KARLACH: Alive. Naoise Nallinto: You are alive. Your senses vibrate with sensation - smell, taste, touch, sound, sight. All alert to the beauty of now. The sound of your heart - your heart - beats a steady rhythm: Hello, hello, hello.

GALE: Wise. Naoise Nallinto: You are wise. The erudition of the ages flows through you and from you, illuminating the scholars who seek your counsel. You know yourself, for such is the beginning of all wisdom. When souls would drink the waters of learning, you are their font.

WYLL: Free. Naoise Nallinto: Then be free. You are an eagle, the most divine of messengers, soaring above the peak of Mount Sundabar. No man or woman, no devil or demon, no goddess or god dares confine you within one border or one creed.

MINSC: Minsc. Naoise Nallinto: Er - you are Minsc. You are the most Minsc. Wherever you go, there is only Minsc. Every step, every breath, every thought shall be - the Minsc-est. (DEVNOTE: Confused but making it work.)

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #astarion #karlach #shadowheart #gale #wyll #minsc #bg3 dialogue #naoise nallinto #sharess's caress #good old minsc lol #but ugh the other ones [sob] #even the durge one #everyone here needs about fifty hugs

[ivoryratdoggerythethird]

dazai making up a whole language with fyodor that no one else can understand is amazing but imagine him using codes that, very objectively speaking, you could crack, it's just that no normal person would ever make the insane leaps in logic that it requires. except for someone familiar with dazai's weird thinking patterns, that is.

i just love the idea of dazai's unhinged antics being dialed up to an eleven when he was in the port mafia, and oda being the only one who simply wouldn't bat an eye at it but chuuya was the only one who would actually get it.

like imagine ango at the end of the jailbreak, his boss saying he should allow himself to sigh and lean back and maybe indulge himself, pat him on the shoulder, tell him what he pulled off reading heart rates wasn't easy and he should be proud for being able to keep up with such a plan

but ango i-drank-with-teenage-dazai-and-also-had-the-records-for-every-soukoku-mission sakaguchi can only remember the time dazai was like using greek sign language through his breathing patterns to communicate from a submarine from beneath the pacific ocean or something, and chuuya could not fathom how no one else could understand him.

and that was the day mori signed off on skk being exclusive partners because every subordinate in the room was crying tears of blood by the time chuuya finished explaining which blood pressure level was warning them about a bomb, which blinking sequence was him conveying the vault password and which series of inhales was just him calling mori a bitch.

(ango also pointedly did not want to think about how smug dazai had looked after the mission when mori confirmed skk would only be each others' partners for efficiency and to maintain everyone else's sanity

or about how when he called chuuya to tell him about dazai's prison break scheme he could only get like 3 out of 276 steps into the plan before chuuya rolled his eyes, said "got it" then hung up and pulled the whole thing off without a hitch.)

#listen soukoku having telepathy that they insist isn't telepathy it's just using common sense #while everyone else sobs in the corner #is a flavour of pm era skk I adore #like yes technically chuuya can in fact explain the play-by-play #process of understanding dazai's codes #it's just that no one else is going to immediately make the same far fetched connections #UGH the latest chapter of chuuya watching dazai flop and roll around on the ground like a fish while he brainstorms #not an ounce of curprise or confusion #like he's seen this a thousand times before #and even spotting his worries and dazai actually openly musing about his ideas and expressing emotions so vividly #they KNOW each other your honor #soukoku #dazai osamu #nakahara chuuya #the sigma show #bsd #my post

[lunarharp]

"Found out" set in kind of a made-up chapter where the girls are in trouble, or something.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i hate having a strong cinematic image in your mind for months..working hours on it..& at the end looking you have to be like “Sure. :/" #i'm especially unsatisfied with the beginning and the end and how i can't get eyebrows to work as i want #but i dont care any more... this is probably the comic that has given me the most trouble ever i just dont care #i barely even care whatsoever if anyone even sees this..Ugh..but at least i can move on to the next era now #i'm just annoyed i cant get out good enough my image of qifrey flinching bc he thinks oru will hit him but then he is not hit #i feel like sensei will do something along these lines. i want to see what she will do. #there are also other variations i have in my mind. i just want to know #i just don't want it to happen with qifrey on his deathbed or something. but it possibly will. I DONT EVEN KNOW. #i have another very cinematic image in my mind for something sort of along those lines which i will do soon. it never ends... #btw after this is probably my fics. yeah.... i think it has to be my fics. jasmine sort of goes along these lines #i need that space for dialogue. look - i'm a writer. this is HARD for me. so i am really glad i had the space and freedom of words #to process all the feelings. but i tried to get something out in a quick visual space too. <- me defending myself to myself at cai court #anyway going along the lines of 'Jasmine' - they talk this out and argue and cry and oru pushes the hat at him and tells him #why not just erase every memory i have of you then. That would be easier for us all wouldn't it? #they kiss and sob and kiss and lie outside in the flowers for many hours in that one. and then there's 'Deep End' where it turns out #way way way way more time and words is needed for this actually and that's upsetting for everyone. #the destruction of the hat is certainly another path to take. Can you make this work without that hat going up in flames? #something you have always had and have been clinging to will have to be destroyed. You have to lose something now. This is the crux qifrey #I CANT GET IT OUT IN ONE COMIC!!! I CANT DRAW IT OUT!!!! I NEEDED THOSE FICS!!!! PRAISE WORDS!!!! whatever im going to have dinner now

[gayspock]

i havent been to the gym since i moved out & i wanna get active again but fr -_- i feel like everything is too much faff, too expensive or something that will bore me to tearssssss

#egg.txt #i was like ok before i go sign up to a new place i'll do the chloe ting workouts just to get a routine back in #my god . i have never wanted to sob more from just being so understimulated in my life #but theyre all the SAAAAAME. IM GOING TOKILLMYSELFFFFF. #and the stupid music makes me want to put knives in my fucking ears #i'd gym again but i just couldnt keep waking up at 5am i wasnt getting sleep & half the time i wasnt even able to get a good work out in #like it would be 30mins max of actual exercise and then like #+ so much more time just getting there and it was wrecking everything else in my schedule #it sounds so dumb but even shit like having to drop my bagg off & pick it up every day meant i had to get later buses (& more) #and it would mean just losing hours in total at that point. for what. for a 30 min workout. when i wasnt making any progress with anyway bc #i was getting no sleep? 😭 #i wanted ot try running outside again but ugh not to be a baby but people have been harassing me in the street so much more again and i jus #cant fucking do it broooo #and im too shy for most classes . the other stuff is crazy expensive . im going to start gnawing on something for real #i was thinking abt bouldering but it looks so crazy fucking expensive #its rlly a shame bc i did rlly start to get into running too. i could get a treadmill but idek where to put it rn and it feels crazy #to get one when i dont even have a couch... ehrm

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

mmm... scribbling is not in the cards today it seems...

#it may be due to the fact that i havent slept and its almost 2 pm and im Very Quickly Ascending From This Plane #sluggishly sobbing and clawing at my tablet. im in a laughingstock mood #i want to draw them... being soft... being silly... being #my attempts are Not Working #fine! ill. idk what ill do. rot ig #its a rotting day #WAIT NO FUCK ILL FINISH MY PALTRY RESUME #ugh but i dont wanna do my resume. i wanna doodle laughingstock #SOOOOOO many thoughts about them #many emotions #much feeling. yes. #absolutely unprompted #and i wanted to finish up that comm... and do that other thing for my buddy.... #ill do it when i inevitably wake up at 3 am after falling asleep at 9 #gonna do my resume... see if i have any asks i can answer without an added Scribble... maybe write something idk... #ive been saying 'im gonna write' for two months now. one day it wont be a lie #*gazes longingly at my dc wips. and that one snufkin wip.* #well we can subside off of the queue for a day or two longer #plany of thyme to get my shit Together and continue the outfit asks #theyre gonna be posted slowly since i want to group them as much as possible #except todays. todays is its own thing bc i went a little Ham with it #yall will see in about an hour #now if you'll excuse me im gonna grab the pickle jar and stare into the middle distance for the next thirty minutes

[gorejo]

i want to write an amnesia fic or even a titanic themed one... but with whom is the question

#ae.talks #not my other wips looking at me with a side eye #HAHAHAH i have a couple i need to finish but sobs amnesia is so juicy #the emotional tug of getting the lover to remember #but it can go two ways #completely angst or slow burn and i love both so much #titanic one is such a classic !!! ugh but again this can go two ways #my list of fic topics just grows by the day but i got no time to write it sigh

[the-implications]

who wanna give this californian gas money so i can go see cinderella's castle live???? 😼

#slash jay #unless... #no but fr im so mad i had to go and be born in california but nowhere near LA #i will make a post about how mad i am at this fact every time i think about it i guess #but it is immensely frustrating. #like UGH sir hop a lot my beloved #i need to see that damn puppet irl or i WILL sob #well #ill probably sob either way #But one will be happy sob the other Sad Sob :( #starkid #cinderella's castle

[nyukyujs]

heyy i’m sorry ur not doing so well lately :(( wanna talk abt it ? i’m here if u need me !

but OMG I NEED A GUY LIKE UR BF BRO YOU GOT SO LUCKY 😭😭🫶🏻🫶🏻

aww its not ur fault :(( thank you ,, ill come around to you eventually !! i have my friends n bf to help me though everything ,, and men has been a help recently !! T_T .

ALSO LIKE AHCKDKOS I LOVE HIM SO MUCH DUDE <//3 . IDK HOW OMG .

#okay like im pretty sure he was also aro before and didnt like me back until 6 months later and then he confessed 7 months later . #and even he was surprised bc he thought hed NEVER like me #but whenever he talks to my bsf . he likes to talk abt me a lot n how he misses me n zOWHSIJD #UGHHH HOED I GET SO LUCKYYY <///33333 #AND HE SAYS HES THE LUCKY ONE #AND AND AND HE SIENDOJDODMS #i was knda venting to him earlier basically abt low self esteem and how so many other ppl are more amazing n better and he just went #“not as amazing as youu<33” im like APSNSODKODD ON THE VERGE OF TEARS #STILL AM #SOBBING #CRYING UGH #bro #WOSJSOMDD #he was staring in 5th i tried not to freaj out #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚➶ mutuals •°. *࿐ #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚➼ leila🧸 •°. *࿐ #⤑∘✧ kyas thoughts about her bf [💗] ∘✩ #⤑∘✧ kyas replies ✩∘ #feels like a tmi im sorry😭😭🙏🏽 #CORRECTION ON THE NEVER LIKE ME PART IM SORRY #*NEVER LIKE ANYONE* BUT IT WAS MEEEEEEEEEE CRYING

[leviiackrman]

All I want… is to commission other amazing artists… to draw my babies…

#personal* #jess talks #fuck cost of living crisis #I wanna be able to treat myself😩 #the perks of being an artist is you can draw as you please #BUT #that limits how you can support other artists (especially when you’re poor like me and need to draw for money anyway) #just UGH I wanna see someone else draw Margot… or Rin… or ANY of my babies😩😩😩 #I crave seeing other people’s talent #one day Jess… one day you can do it #anyway sob story over

[alterouslyinlove]

i haven’t been able to sleep in like almost 2 weeks you know what would make that change right now. if i had my love there next to me. he really just calms me down and makes me safe and i miss lying in his arms.

#🌀 #my demolition lover <3 #sobbing actually i miss him severely #i see him every day i guess but still it’s school for like maybe 20 minutes and i am not good about doing couple things in front of people #sighhh i miss going on dates (one + all the times we just went to each others houses and just talked about literally nothing) #ugh whatever i’m making myself sad

[mikereads]

The last season of Dead to me destroyed me like why ugh. It was harder than Beaches and Thelma and Louise combined fuck! Jen x Judy endgame. They were so in love. Why didn’t they get to live out the rest of there lives together with there children and get there happily ever after.

#fuck I can’t #jen x judy #judy x jen #dead to me #like fuck I just finished and I’m sobbing so hard why #they were so in love #like I never thought they would actually fully go there but fuck #they did and not only that but they killed her off #and then went the straight route like wtf why ugh #I hate Jen and Ben so much together it will never work #like Charlie said stay the fuck away from my mom #they have two parents/ moms Jen and Judy #oh god when he called Judy his other mom and Charlie hugged her like fuck #she didn’t even tell him she killed her brother (for Judy) it will never work #anyway jen x Judy endgame #they were in love and in there last scene she confessed her love before losing the love of her life #this season was about grief everyone seeing there loved ones so of course Jen would see her wife Judy #fuck this messed me up good like 😭 #shit also we didn’t get our kiss #you can’t recreate the last scene in t&l and not do it #Liz come on it’s gay culture #Liz I expected better from you shame it’s a shame

[beesinspades]

i would like to unsubscribe from anxiety-related tummy issues please and thank you

#did a gastroscopy and biopsy almost a month ago now #since i'd had issues since early december #and there was Nothing except a minor oesophagitis and light gastritis #otherwise all normal #i've been taking meds for it and feeling much better #BUT I HAD AN ANXIETY SPIKE THE OTHER DAY AND MY TUMMY'S BEEN HURTING EVER SINCE (FOR THE PAST FOUR DAYS) #it's a different kind of ache than the one I had before I started the meds too #i'm so sick of thiiiis #anyways i emailed my doctor yesterday for advice #like maybe lower the meds??? #since they reduce acid production in the stomach and after a while the stomach doesn't like that haha #i felt a bit better today but then i took the med and it got bad again i just. ugh. #i don't fucking know #either way waiting for an answer #i hope this isn't my life now every time I have an anxiety spike #sobs #health cw #bee rants

[ageless-aislynn]

I’m finally making some progress on my writing and now I come down with another dang cold. So not only am I miserable with that, I’m mad because it’s interrupting the tiny little bit of progress I’ve started making.

I may or may not be around as much until I feel a little better. Love to you all. *sprays you with Lysol just to be safe* 🤧

#about me #health and other such trendy topics #UGH GRR ARGH #i've lost my voice also #my throat feels like i've been eating glass #it's been practically one constant sneezing fit since i woke up this morning #I'M SO MISERABLE *sob* #ageless aislynn

[wildtornado-o]

Ok so…what if Neo died instead of Roman? 🥲

I think he would take it just as badly as she did, but I don't think he would react the same way, if that makes any sense. Like we see that Neo feels angry and filled with need for revenge (and shes grieving obviously.), and yeah of course Roman would be angry, but I also think he'd feel really guilty? like it was somehow his fault. I think he'd mostly just be filled with remorse of even putting her in the situation where she died. This is based off of how in Roman Holiday he keeps saying things like how hes worried shes throwing her life away, or how hes going to ruin her life and put her in danger. Her dying?? GOD Imagine how much that would hurt him :(( Sure he was the candle that brought light to her life, but she was the one person he was ever even able to form an actual connection with. The one person that never left. She was his only friend as much as he was hers. But also he'd be so pissed at himself and Cinder for making them be in the situation they were in on that ship. He would definitely become more violent, like how he is when he sees her fly off the ship and how instead of toying with Ruby he just starts beating the SHIT out of her relentlessly, and spewing how much he hates the world lmao. I think he'd go for blood more often, maybe trying to target Cinder too.

#asks #IDK Im not the best at reading characters and how they would react to things hskjfhs #I try!! But I always feel like I make characters a little ooc in how i view them lol #ugh their friendship is literally everything to me they each care about each other so much #the lyrics to one thing show Neos side so well.. but I neeeed to see more of Romans side. #Which probably wont happen since. yknow.. hes dead lol #IMAGINE IF WHEN WE SEE HIM AGAIN WE GET A SLOWED DOWN ACOUSTIC VERSION OF ONE THING... #LOUD SOBBING.. #I cant stop thinking about that itd be soooo good #SORRY i ended up rambling a lot in the tags oops

[milo-is-rambling]

I am so high I love you dabs I love you big bong rips I love you huge heavy bong I love you only having 20 dollars to my name and no plans but getting high and ignoring it I love you oh no I’m thinking about it

#I want to take an ice cold shower and scream and smoke a whole pack of cigarettes and lock myself in a closet for 72 hours in the dark with #no distractions to figure out what I actually want to do with the rest of my life and to face every bad thought I have and struggle to #ignore even years later like ugh I just need to be at the bottom of the ocean floating sinking alive dead in between for like a month and #then pull me back up and either I’ll be normal or I’ll be so fucked up they just put me back in there #like either way I am vibing at the bottom of the ocean (I have been desperately imaging a sensory deprivation tank all day) #(put me in a fucking sensory deprivation tank until something in my fucking brain rewires and I get worse or better than I am now this #inbetween stage is fucking killing me like what do you mean I’m not a horrible person but also what do you mean I struggle every day but I’m #normal but I have things about me other people don’t and alienate me to the point of near total isolation but also this is just how humans #are and I need to take meds and actively struggle to fit into a perfect little box of what a person should be like god damn I am so tired of #getting better and worse and better and worse and better and worse and better and worse and I’m miserable and I’m happy and I’m sobbing and #I know a month from now I’ll be depressed again or I’ll be the best I’ve ever been and it’s so fucking horrible to be in the middle stage #where I actually have to step up and admit shit is wrong and face it like why can’t I just lay in bed forever until I become the bed and not #like get a job and have a future. ugh. depression is so fucked esp bc most things in my life are normal I guess or like easier than my #friends like we all have seperate challenges but I’m the only one still living off their parents (ha. parent. forgot for a second.) and the #only thing wrong with my life is the mental health issues but I won’t step up and deal with it bc I feel like I’ve been depressed for so #long I like fucked up the foundational shit and like I know it’s fine but also I feel so behind and I feel like I’ll be behind and unhappy #forever even when im happy I know the next depressive episode is right around the corner and I give up again. ugh. I hate knowing that’s #what’s wrong with me but still not having the energy to step up and fix it. im so pathetic I want to cry. my brain is me but my brain is #destroying my life. anyways. im high and now im sad and have dry mouth. I think im gonna drink ice water and change into shorts+lay in bed)

[ihatebnha]

https://www.instagram.com/reel/CcRZZtjJmIb/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=

bakugou when he goes on a longer hike than usual

-family vlog anon

(i loved your fic i’ve reread it a couple of times now just to go over his reactions on different dates)

(Iink for safety!)

oh absolutely!!! i wonder what they'd really say though, given that he's not exactly the most... eloquent. i'm imagining that they're all super short (but sweet), like:

"hey nerd. you better be drinking water and eating all the food i made for you. don't watch (show) without me. i'll show you lots of pictures when i'm home. -k"

OR SOMETHING OF THAT SORT that just makes u wanna cry🥺...and you know the one time he has wifi a day, he also sends you a selfie from the top of a cliff with some terrible expression on asdlfajsdl

(and thank you, lovie!!! i really appreciate that💓💓💓 i promise bakugo has better dates in store for u when he's not trying to keep a secret from u hee hee hoo hoo!!!)

#bakugo #now is one of those moments i wish i could draw #wanna draw him making a grumpy face in front of a beautiful canyon or something askdlfjk.ans #with sweaty hair and wearing those ugly dad sunglasses. #UGH I BET HE LOOKS SO GOOD IN HIKING GEAR IM GONNA GO NUTS #but yea he specifically makes a stop at the nature cabin on the trail just so he can email you #and he has tons of pictures #would never like force them on u but he's sooooo happy when he gets to share #OR LIKE HE ASKS U TO SEND HIM EMAILS TOO SO HE KNOWS HOW UR DOING #EVEN IF HE CANT RESPOND #like things u bought at the store and pics of the pets or ur outfits and what u did that day #sobbing chewing on my fist crying screaming #love it #family vlog anon #alos just in case i dont get to ur other asks #sending tik toks here is fine! #i feel bad abt spamming people w/ them but my other blog is pretty low effort so its better that theyre here <3 #love u #the accoutn is @ihatetiktoks tho if u wanna check it out! #ask #anon #caitie things #fave #tik tok