#can we go a full week?

[onejellyfishplease]

Were 4/4 folks!

one new au/funky concept a day!

so far weve had:

-Im not alone (i promise)

-far far future au

-Strained eyes tmnt iteration

and now we have

rottmnt x httyd!

can we make it to 7/7?

#wipes tear #beautiful #now. #can we go a full week? #for how long will the muse stay? #rottmnt #im not alone (i promise) #far far future au #strained eyes au #rottmnt x httyd

[demigods-posts]

that scene in the first season where annabeth tries to reassure herself that percy's alive because he has to be and then he comes back and she gets to hug him contrasting the scene we'll get in the fourth season when annabeth tries to reassure herself that percy's alive because he has to be and then she has to speak at his funeral because no one's heard anything from him in two weeks.

#pjo spoilers #probably pjo tv spoilers too depending on how things go #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo headcanon #pjo #pjo text post #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #percabeth headcanon #if we get a fourth season #and we better #I actually really hope we have to wait two full weeks to see them reunite so we can experience it just like annabeth had to

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

Are you still active on tumblr?

YES I am!! Sorry friends for dropping off the face of the earth, I got a job and I had to move and it was a lot. But I am less stressed now and I hope I can get back to posting more regularly!! I really missed it (ﾉ^ヮ^)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧

I will never leave tumblr because there is no other place on the internet where I can tell people that 80% of the time when I try to introduce myself to someone in the office that I haven’t met yet I get so focused on smiling and holding eye contact that I forget the part where I actually have to introduce myself (°□°)

#HELLO FRIENDS #how are you!! I missed you! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ #I hope you all had a good summer!! #mine was very nice even though there was a lot of stress and new things happening #suddenly there were so many adult things in my life that at the end of the day I just sat on the couch and watched decorating shows #I love decorating shows but today they showed this decorating competition and one woman had to decorate her whole bedroom coral #and then I knew it was time to go back #friends I've done so many new things the past few weeks!! I've really underestimated what this new chapter of my life would be like #it's very nice and I'm glad but I've never thought about things like insurance and taxes and parallel parking before #and I'm in a new apartment and everything!! ✧⁺⸜(●′▾‵●)⸝⁺✧ #it is a very good apartment but the landlord left us so many of their chairs #this does not sound like a problem but we also owned chairs before #so our chair number is doubled now #the kitchen is full of chairs the balcony is full of chairs #I've hidden two chairs behind the TV but I can still see their chair heads and then I feel bad because they do not deserve this #they should be roaming free #also rode a BIKE #they say you never forget how to ride a bike #but my secret is that I never really knew how to ride one #in Germany all students have to do a bicyle test in fourth grade and I was so bad that my teacher asked me #afterwards if I had tried to confuse the other students #I just said 'uh yes' and then he said ok and I passed with the worst bicyle grade of the whole school #I hade made 8 bicyle mistakes #I hope you're doing well friends!! see you soon!! #have a nice day :)

[svtskneecaps]

i had arin for two days and i'm deeply endeared. i miss him. i miss arin, tails.

#qsmp #qsmp arin #the single only good thing that could come from this if arin does not come back is if luzu (the character) returns #worst case scenario we never see cc!luzu again i will be DEVASTATED #i missed any luzu qsmp streams by like a week i think he canonically passed out RIGHT before i got into qsmp #so the only chance i've rly had since then was purg and that was a mess #i got so damn scared when i heard he was contemplating leaving frrrrr #even if he stands by that i'll be pleased we got these two days bc they really Got Me emotionally #but i'm so deeply intrigued on how the code can evolve now that luzu/arin reappeared and closed the thread that summoned the code to begin #(the codes were first after arin; now they have him; now what?) #and considering etoiles and arin were chatting prison day 1 #and the code and etoiles lore have become intertwined #i'd be curious how arin and the code evolve and if/how that affects etoiles lore #i have full trust in luzu in the kitchen i'd be very interested to see what he could cook up #please return sir 🙏 please #as q!luzu or arin idcccc just don't be gone forever ;-; #(know going forward that if i ever say 'i miss arin' i 100% also mean 'i miss cc!luzu on qsmp' that is always implied; constant subtext) #shut up vic #block game brainrot #listen i'm a big fan of new ingredients shaking up established patterns #etoiles shook up luzu's code lore and luzu returning shook up etoiles' #i'm attaching the beaters and mixing the shit out of this ok i'd like to see this in the blender is that too much to ask #man all these tags and i didn't actually talk abt the character as i see it in real detail? #but like eh without the character history i'm reluctant to rly expound on it just know i am deeply endeared #it gutted me when he got dragged off deadass but was also such a cool moment in terms of character reactions #very very cool thank you luzu thank you qsmp

[kangals]

i miss my dog.

#when can i expect to go a full day without crying because we’re coming up on 6 weeks and it’s not looking good #I just want my fucking dog! #I love Stellina but she’s not him and we don’t have the same kind of relationship and it’s strained now by the sudden change #she’s insecure and im overbearing and I just. want my dog. #god sorry there’s constant fireworks and i can’t sleep and it’s not doing good things tonight

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

#N posts stuff #one could argue ‘we see tula worry a lot tho’ but that’s bc Worry is an Action that can occur Separately from Recognizing Anxiety #now that I know tumblr will put a hard cap on your tags w/o telling you i'm resigning myself to posting rambling meta in post body #but i'm not happy about it; anyway i love how often life is full of Coincidences bc this is something I've Finally identified in myself #like. This Month. like this is brand new articulation for some of the problems i have in life; again knowing this doesn't help lmao #bc even when you know to look Around the shape of the emotion - like 'oh my face is Snarling rn. i'm probably experiencing Something' #like i said bc you don't know What that something is OR What might have caused it then the only solution you Ever get to come up with #is just 'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else' which INVARIABLY means that you will wind up in that same situation again #and Still have no idea how to handle it bc you never could figure out what caused it so you don't know how to handle it any better than #'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else'; so 'be somewhere else' is the ONLY way you can ever think to Help it #which usually invariably turns into 'Just Avoid Fucking Everything just in case'; which doesn't work! bc life doesn't let you do that #so then it's just a cycle of falling into the same pitfalls and feeling miserable all the time; gotta love it :) #if you're like me this also gives you Bad Bad Bad Memory bc your brain will Promptly hide evidence of Scary Situation instinctively #like 3 weeks ago this dude ran a red light and almost t-boned me Full Speed & managed to stop like. maybe 3 feet away. #and i like. Startled Laughed and said 'that was scary' and then within 30 seconds i had Fully Forgotten it happened & only remembered #like 2 days ago. Ha! believe it or not this Does Not Help with 'How can I Address the Problem instead of Avoiding It Entirely?' #dimension 20 #d20: stupendous stoats #tula #d20lb

[obsob]

probably no new drawin until after christmas bc im hibernating rn! am curled up in a small hollow of a tree in a nest lined w moss and feathers. if u care.

#i hve an idea tho. a sketch. i will. get 2 it eventually #ive like. 180 decision n now im gna try doing picture book illu again KSNSJDNJS #i feel. more prepared for it now tho. gna. try stuff out. see what i like #im more confident now w th actual drawing its th colouring where im tripping up but! that will come with time! #im doin good tho! been making lots of scarfs for my loved ones #i slept round bfs house for th first time on weds n i felt. weird when i got home yday but we had a long chat n now i feel fine #im! gna try using aac with him when he comes round next week! im excited about it i think im going to rlly like it #all good things! things just feel. easier with him. living in my brain #i hope everyone has as of a safe and warm holidays as u can #hope ur tummy is full!! #barks

[hexavexen]

So how's the soul magic going? Learn anything new? Cool new powers?

"AT LEAST SOMEONE FINALLY SEES MY POTENTIAL."

#ask #goldhorne #anon #hex #blip #we can't just have him go full on good boy can we #no :) #hex's treehouse adventure #I'm going on vacation with kurt and can't take my tablet! See yall in a week

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ugh. im so tried. why is crying so exhausting? i havent done anything. this is bullshit #we went from a slow motion breakdown to full on freakout meltdown today #luckily no one was around in the lab this morning bc i couldnt stop crying #so i went to the counseling center and made myself their problem #canceled my committee meeting. which everyone tells me is fine. its all fine #think about going home for a while they say. maybe tell ur dad ur having a bad time thry say #but im so tired. and i dont kno what to do and its all falling apart #i just feel like im brushing up against the limits of what i can do intellectually and its like well where do i go from here? #what do i do with my old data? how do i move my project forward? whats the point of any of this? #why did i put myself in this position? would taking a leave even help? id still have to come back to the same mess #its just so frustrating bc theres no solution ill find satisfying. everything just sucks. #idk what my advisor even told my committee. bc we were supposed to meet tomorrow morning. ugh. it would have been so bad #it also sucks bc im so drained that i can just feel my own weight when im trying to talk to ppl #like u kno when ur being a wet blanket but u dont kno how to fix it. like srry my vibes r wretched. maybe im just stuck like this #i dunno. my dad invited us home for a week in july and also plans to come out to visit me in August. but that seems like a long time away #i dunno what im gonna do. what a disaster #unrelated

[thebramblewood]

You win some, you lose some! August's oversized pumpkin received first place, but Rowan's pie didn't end up placing at all. As they dig in, the entire family agrees she was totally robbed. In fact, her pie is so delicious it's almost worth the trouble of trying to wrangle two sugar-filled toddlers into bed. Almost.

#ts4 #sims 4 #ts4 legacy #ts4 gameplay #simblr #legacy: g9 #story: guu #can you believe we're actually almost done :O #i could probably knock out the rest in a week #but i think i'll stretch it out a bit #because once it's done i'll be fully caught up!!! #and where do we go from here? #who knows! #(i know but it's gonna be a while) #excited to start my full reshade legacy era though hehe #rowan 'aukai #raveena uchiyama #august uchiyama #naomi uchiyama #micah uchiyama #tess uchiyama #sadie uchiyama

[sunnibits]

update on how I’m doing I had a real roll of bread last night (while extremely exhausted from being awake for like 24+ hours straight) for the first time in half a year and I think I almost cried

#I’m going fully gluten-full cheating for this week bc we are visiting Germany and fucking ITALY. #and there was no fucking way I was going to Italy and not eating pasta and bread #so I can eat bread now and im so happy about it it’s so freeing I could literally cry #I love bread so much #I’m still extremely tired and socially overstimulated from my neurotypical mom tho so. blegh #at least I have bread

[orcelito]

FANTASTIC NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i finished & posted the ITNL 14 re-edits, WHICH MEANS!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm officially done with my re-edits project!!!!!!!!!! :D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ive been thinking a lot today about my plans for ITNL 15, AND i have tomorrow off, so if all goes well i'll be able to start writing again. TOMORROW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and if the chapter grips me like i expect it will then... hehehehehe

could be an update in as little as a few days, depending. i'll keep u guys updated

#speculation nation #itnl shit #im SO fucking ecstatic man ive been looking forward to this for a month and a half #that took SO much longer than i was expecting it to. but i guess editing 75k words while working full time is kind of a lot #it has been a journey. and it is now complete. #and now i can move on to the NEW THINGS!!!!!!!!! INCLUDING a chapter id been looking forward to for So Long #it's for the best that i went thru the whole fic again. itnl 14 was so hard to write bc i was just Not that mentally there with it #and also uh. The Everything. #i think 15 will be easier. MUCH easier. and im really looking forward to having proper writing motivation again. #AND......... IF ALL GOES WELL.............. i'll hopefully be able to ride that motivation train through the next few chapters #Which Means we could be seeing wolfwood in as little as a few weeks!!! maybe!!!!!!!! #i hope so !!!!!!!!!!! i wanna write him SO fucking bad #and like itnl IS a vw fic. it IS. i SWEAR. it's just mostly been grieving and pining from vash so far lksdjflsdjkfsdlkf #but it will have actual vw. eventually. #im like practically vibrating now but i need to go to sleep. so i can have the brain strength to write tomorrow hehehe #i took a melatonin to hopefully knock myself out soon. i GOTTA get some good rest tonight. for the Writing Brain. #and if i daydream about the start of next chapter.... hehehehe #more power to me then :]

[famewolf]

im punching and punching and punching my anxiety today

#[static] #man i need a new job but im gonna try my best to stick it out for the next year and a half so that im 'vested' - #- or whatever its called for my little tiny 401k money lmao #im starting to get anxiety about work on my days off more than usual #they just changed it from 5 years to 6 years fjgkdlghd #and im nearly at 5 years #also i think im gonna try and stick it out with the full time up until October and i'm going back to 4 days a week for my sanity #and also theyve been cracking down on ppl missing work and the winter time i have to call out a couple times a month for snow #they used to be understanding about it but it sounds like they arent anymore :) #in one breath they'll be like 'yeah it's no worries we work at a grocery store who cares! we're stacking cans this isn't life or death' #but the moment you gotta leave early due to snow so you can actually make it home in one piece they get butthurt lmao #mind you I have put my car in a ditch BECAUSE of work doing this to me and i ended up missing a week + covering repairs because of it #like ... would you rather i go home 2 hours early or miss 4-6 days of work and be in debt :) #and the answer is the 2nd one for them lmao i fucking hate them

[svtskneecaps]

i'm mourning the loss of purgatory's Government Assigned Team Dynamics (because i'm a sucker for shaking up dynamics and the forced interactions of people who may not otherwise have spoken) so please indulge me with your dream egg parenting group i'll start, bagi tina and rivers [i'm right]

#qsmp #i have REASONS okay it's more than vibes #first of all any good egg polycule needs its touchstone its Daily Logger someone who can be relied on to KEEP THE DAMN THING FROM DYING #(of neglect specifically) #bagi logs in every weekday she's extremely consistent and she's already proven to be smitten with these eggs. bagi's the touchstone #tina's a 'wobbler'; she's consistent but not a daily logger so she can be relied on if bagi's out for a week #between the two of them i have full faith they can keep the kid from neglect and spoil the kid to pieces #but vic you might say what about rivers wouldn't she just be third wheeling on bagina WRONG #well maybe right but WRONG because eggs have personalities of their own!!!! they're little people!!!! #if rivers is third wheeling then SO IS THE EGG THEY'RE IN THIS TOGETHER #anyway rivers at least at the moment is what i like to call a Wildcard #when she does or doesn't log in is pretty random and sporadic and inconsistent #that might change if she had an egg idk i don't know enough about her because she's a WILDCARD 😭 #but anyway having bagi and tina as reliably keeping their kid from dying of neglect means she's free to keep her stream schedule #considering bagi interacting with egg trump at dia de muertos i think we can safely say she's not going to let rivers be erased as parent #probably would function like a roier-jaiden situation; bobby wasn't any less jaiden's son even though she didn't log as consistently as roi #AND IT WOULD FORCE RIVERS TO INTERACT WITH THE SERVER. I MISS HER DAMNIT. MY SPANISH ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH AND I MISS HER. #shut up vic #block game brainrot #but yeah rivers can keep her streaming schedule and still come to hang out with her egg kid when she's able #i lost the plot there bc tumblr's glitching on my phone bc it updated ios last night and everything's bugged to hell #i can't see tags after i write them it's wack as fuck #my secret secondary take is tubbo and pol have to be in the same government assigned parent group #tubbo seems to function better as weird uncle / fun godparent so having pol there is him as TUBBO'S touchstone in terms of the mature one #then tubbo and pol as consistent loggers can be the rest of the group's touchstone in terms of the kid not dying to neglect #long tags

[aesfocus]

Popcorn is doing soooo much better, he's basically back to normal, still got more than a week of softened food but hes eating well!

#the same can not be said for turtle #putting this in tags but I started syringe feeding her today a new RX food for recovery cause she took a bad turn over the weekend #but 3 good meals and fluids administered and she seems to be feeling so much better and ate a full meal by herself #so if she keeps that up I won't have to keep feeding her with the syringe and maybe we can go back to her renal food this week #could use some positive thoughts for her #she has her blood and urine results return tomorrow #mine cats #lil update for lil pop #misadventures with aes #popcorn

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work #blocked it all out #my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer #breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries #they just diagnosed her two weeks ago #so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends #because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well #but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work #on top of my fulltime #which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it #but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this #for the coming four months at least #so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT. #i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes #then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe? #which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week #which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc #i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer #came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry #but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat #bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.” #“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.” #and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually #but seeing her anger made me see my own anger #and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic #i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more #so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise #doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal #and i am not joking #so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back